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Anxiety

I'm not really sure why I feel like this.

I can't exactly pinpoint one reason.

Maybe it's because I heard some pretty fucked up news from two of my best friends a few days before moving into college.

That shit was heavy.

Or maybe it's because I don't feel comfortable in my new house.

I'm an introvert, so my recharge place is important to me.

Will I ever feel like this place is home? Will I feel safe and content in my room?

Maybe it's because I have to complete what feels like one of the most important projects of my life this semester, but I have absolutely zero faith in myself.

How am I supposed to do that?

How the fuck am I supposed to do that?

What if I can't do it? What if my other classes with this are all too much? What if I let my mentor down?

What if I let myself down?

I try to pretend I'm smart, capable even. But do I really believe that?

The truth is, no matter what I tell myself, I'm not sure I can really do it, and that scares me.

I'm trying hard to be fine-- to be positive and optimistic so I don't ruin other people's peace.

To laugh through the voice in my head doubting everything.

Everything I do and say.

Why the fuck did I say that? Replays in my mind a million times.

Why do I feel this way?

Is it because everything has been nonstop?

What can I do to help myself?

I want to have genuine optimism.

I want the weights to be lifted and the shadows to disappear.

I want to be okay.

I want to be secure.

I want to feel confident, beautiful, smart.

But most importantly, I want to feel capable and motivated, like I can do anything.

I think writing this helped at least.

Advise?

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Okay, so, this isn’t spn related, but I’m looking for comedy show suggestions :)

Some of my favorites are:

Trailer Park Boys

Archer

The Community

Arrested Development

Venture Bros

Schitt’s Creek

Lmk if anyone knows any shows they think I might like!😽

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Jensen Ackles | DC Convention Main Panel (August 14, 2022)

Jensen said it wasn’t easy to keep the brewery above water during the pandemic. But they just signed a distribution agreement or something like that to grow the brewery  (x)

Jensen just said that it’s a “when” not an “if” when they return to their characters and they hope Mark S is backed #spndc  (x)

“you guys show up, that’s the most meaningful thing to us” - jensen  (x)

Someone made Jensen a quilt and he kept it in his trailer the entire show #spndc  (x)

somebody made jensen a supernatural quilt/blanket and it was in jensens trailer for almost the whole run of the show and he’d lay down and take a nap with it  (x)

It was Phil’s idea to have Dean clean Sam and Dean’s guns - without looking!  (x)

A fan gave Jensen a unicorn and he named it barks (x)

“karl urban, that was just bad news from the get-go” about creating shenanigans on the boys set  #SPNDC  (x)

.@JensenAckles on him and @KarlUrban together being trouble lol  (x)

Laz said that Jensen and Karl were the good guy and the bad guy, Jensen being the good because he would tell Karl things to do. 

Jensen loved to play Dean when he was scared of things, because he doesn’t get scared very often, it was a lot of fun to play that.

Jensen about RuthieConnell “every time i am on set with her, i turn into an audience member, i would watch her do anything. she’s a phenomenal actress in every single take, she’s a machine.” #SPNDC (x)

Jensen wants to be remembered for having a positive influence on people  #spndc  (x)

Jensen’s Grandmother used to say to him that things that you do, and things that are done to you, sometimes you can’t control, but you can always control your character, control what’s put out there, how you present yourself, that’s something you can control, so he thinks that’s largely being remembered for the things he has done, either be professionally or personally, he wants to be remembered for having a positive influence on people.  

(x)

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i think i found dean's reddit account

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Okay but what I want to know is what part, if any, does Kimiko’s popsicle joke play. It said “Why did the photo go to jail?” and the answer to the riddle is “because it was framed.” So do we think this is foreshadowing, and if so for who??

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Yup

thinking about how Kripke had to fight to get the execs to agree to Jensen playing Soldier Boy and now they’re getting massive amounts of free publicity because everyone is on social media thirsting over Jensen

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“The Boys” Cast Talk Dads, Daddies and Zaddies

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oh okay

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Ok because this has me cackling💀

Know what, I don’t think Eric’s vision for Dean was ever meant to be “manly hunter”. That’s what the heads at C*w thought.

But Kripke did his homework, watched Jensen’s other roles, saw how he couldn’t play a straight man even if his life depended on it and thought:

“Yep, that’s Dean. The exact opposite of straight!”

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Hey can someone give me a little update ab the spn fandom, I’ve been at school and out of the loop. Anyone know what’s been going on? Any monumental things happen??

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Not me talking to my roommate who doesn’t watch spn (but knows everything about it bc of me) about spn theories for an hour

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@queen-rowenas​ ’s follower celebration ↳ ** ༉‧₊˚✧ DAY TWO: FIRELIGHT ＋ CASTIEL

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Nonsense

I kind of want to write an spn fanfic or an spn inspired short story. Anyone have any ideas?

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Dean Winchester Quotes I Relate To (sad boy hours edition)

“It's funny, you know, I've been so chained to my family, but now that I'm alone, hell, I'm happy.” 

“Why is it my job to save these people? Why do I have to be some kind of hero?”

“Look, I don’t need to feel like hell for failing you, okay? For failing you like I’ve failed every other godforsaken thing that I care about! I don’t need it!”

“I am your brother. See, deep down, I’m just jealous. You got friends. You could have a life. Me? I know I’m a freak. And sooner or later, everybody’s gonna leave me.”

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I love this fandom.

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Okay this!!! Like their relationship is such a marvel like it’s so beautiful and I couldn’t explain it with words even if I tried. So complex and just something I have never seen before on screen. Ik people say Jensen thinks their love was brotherly but u don’t think that’s true. I feel like he just doesn’t even know how to explain it because it is so special. Like when he said dean didn’t know how cas felt until he told him I saw that as both characters loved each-other and flirted and got angry and became family but it was never defined and never talked about and their love just was and dean didn’t want to define it because it scared him and cas didn’t either until he had to. I feel like I don’t even know what would happen if they both actually acknowledged it and that’s what fascinates me the most. Their love just was it wasn’t labeled and a part of me wishes it was sometimes but I can’t even picture how they would go about it and what that would mean for them. Cas and dean loved each-other so much and it definitely was not brotherly but it was a way you would love your family but it was also something more and that something I don’t think Dean or cas really acknowledged for a long time. I believe were soulmates and that cas’ confession was romantic but it meant something even more than that that’s unexplainable and I just wonder what would have happened if he could have stayed alive to figure out what that meant for them.