sweet-nothing26

[sweet-nothing26]

Although I do not live in an Islamic country, I want to give you my support as an atheist. I know it's difficult especially when you're treated like a criminal for not believing in a rigged faith but please stay alive. Don't let your views of the world be scratched out with a crescent moon + star and a verse, stay strong sister. You're not as alone as toi think you are.

Thank you for this sweet gentle reminder, I will keep pushing as hard as I can to get out 💕

[sweet-nothing26]

I saw your post about your struggles and you havent posted in a while. Hows everything going? I hope you know you have all the strenght in you even if you think you dont💞

Hey, thank you dear, things are going fine lately, I hope they remain that way. Thank you for the gentle reminder 💕😊

[sweet-nothing26]

How does one look at all the pain and suffering in the world and not blame the god who put us through this hell? Believers love claiming their god interferes with our lives especially in areas where divine intervention isn't really needed.

''No Nora, you didn't succeed in your exam because you're god's loyal servant, you did because you studied for it and giving an invisible entity credits for your accomplishments is plain stupidity''

Some believers like to play around that and minimize the pain every being on this planet goes through by claiming suffering is a character building experience, which is, in my opinion, a pathetic way to justify the intervening creator's cruelty.

Trauma never makes its victim stronger, quite the opposite actually, it breaks you, steals your peace, renders you powerless and helpless, gives you nightmares, painful flashbacks, holds you hostage for years until you heal, ruins your relationship with your body and in some cases it can even kill you. So where's the character building y'all were talking about?

Also, what would a cat learn from all of its suffering? A dog? A helpless little animal?

When i was 11, my cat died of a tumor that was located right beneath the tissue of his leg. He spent the entire night meowing loudly, wailing even, because the pain he was experiencing was excruciating. You know, the reason i'm writing this post is due to the fact that i saw a post on Twitter about a group of psychopaths located in china who have an animal torturing cult. The pictures of the cats made me cry, ''lord'' knows how painful their deaths were. Those poor little beings. I'm devastated and speechless tbh

[sweet-nothing26]

The worst part of living in this Islamic (ugh) country is if I told my fam that I don’t want to do that anymore… I’d end up being treated not human unless I agree with them, ha ha, boy I wish I was free

But it’s not gonna happen cuz I’m stuck here :’)

The way that religion brainwashes people into cutting contact with their loved ones because they no longer believe in it is depressing. I am so sorry about that and i hope you can get out of that situation and live happily according to your own rules without being villainized by a bunch of toxic abusive believers 🤗

Wishing you the best of luck anon 💞😊

[sweet-nothing26]

This past month i lost two of my closest friends which i have considered to be so close to my heart and for the first time in my life, i have truly understood the heartbreak that comes from ending a relationship with another human being whether it's platonic or romantic. As taylor swift has emphasized before, friendship breakups can be just as intense as romantic ones and it was until this month that i truly understood what she meant.

My friends or shall i say ex friends, challenged me amid a silly misunderstanding to bring out something that i bring into our friendship since they have to endure the looks of judgements and the outcast treatment for their association with me. An atheist, someone who doesn't believe in the abrahamic god (how dare she), someone who doesn't have a religion to guide them in this life, someone who lacks a moral compass, as they claim. In 2024 i made a pact with myself to STOP over explaining my stance. This includes but not limited to, my morals, my values, my beliefs or lack thereof, my identity, my whims, dreams...etc especially to someone who will never ever open their mind to accept a perspective or pov other the one their communities feed them regularly. Trying to humanize myself in a society that will forever paint atheists and non believers in a bad light since its beginning is a mistake and a waste of time, energy and my mental sanity.

For me, i thought friendship was about accepting the beautiful and ugly parts of your friends and seeing their imperfections as little quirks that just makes them who they are. I was wrong. I think this was a lesson for me to continue being a loner and never establish any deep relationship with muslims knowing they will drop you the moment they know who you truly are.

This is one of the many many beautiful things islam took away from me. The ability to make friends and connect with people. Because no matter what i do, i'm seen as a bad person who you shouldn't associate yourself with if you're a believer. I could lead you to the path of sin and disobedience. A path where you hypothetically question the absurdities that your community has fed u. A path where reason is put before faith.

Some people might say that i should stop victimizing myself and being a victim in every scenario since life is unfair for everyone and i should just stop bitching and moaning non stop. But aren't I a victim in a society where i know there are a hundred thousand people who would want me dead? Aren't I a victim in a society where the law prosecutes blasphemers for using our ''god'' given right to speak freely about the things that hurt us? Aren't I a victim for being named an abomination, a disgrace, a heathen? Aren't i a victim for facing hate crime? Aren't I a victim as a liberal ex muslim woman in a conservative islamic state?

Honestly, i rest my case. I no longer resist the loneliness the atheist path has brought me, not that it's my fault. But befriending muslims is a waste of time regardless of how open or liberal they say they are. Conservative societies are about maintaining status no matter how miserable everyone within these societies is. They shall all paint themselves as obedient straight godly people and can never stray away from that image. Any minor inconveniences that they commit can break that illusion even the ones that don't involve them at all like associating themselves with the supposed heathens. That association in itself takes away that fake status quo and ''god'' knows they can't live with that.

[sweet-nothing26]

From one ex muslim in a muslim country to another, I love you 🤍 You are so brave and I hope you get the life you deserve one day.

Awwww 💕💕🥺 this is so sweet anon! I wish for both of us the life we deeply desire far far away from something that has traumatized us for years

[sweet-nothing26]

Je fête mes 4 ans sur Tumblr 🥳

[sweet-nothing26]

TW: the mention of suicide

No one and i mean no one talks about the loneliness you feel and social isolation you experience as a non believer when you live in an islamic country. I lost everyone in my life recently because no one wants to get bad rep by associating themselves with the atheist girl. Feeling beyond depressed and suicidal. I tried to hang myself earlier today but the excruciating physical pain made me back up. Wish i had a shotgun i can use to blow my brains out and leave this world painlessly.

[sweet-nothing26]

Shining just for you

[sweet-nothing26]

I hate when there's a conversation about human rights, and people say "let's agree to disagree" like I'm not talking about your favourite color, we're literally discussing someone's right to fucking live.

Saying that everyone deserve to have a shelter over their head and food shouldn't be considered a controversial opinion.

Thinking that all places and environments should accommodate disabled people shouldn't be radical

Those are literal basic human rights, there is nothing to discuss or negotiate.

[sweet-nothing26]

venting entry

my life's going so bad lately and it's all because of Islam, and there is nothing I can do about it and it's fucking killing me. I hate how a 7th-century ideology is able to have that much control over my life.

[sweet-nothing26]

things to do before school starts

—⊹ ⋆⁺₊⋆ ♡̴ ⋆⁺₊⋆——⊹ ⋆⁺₊⋆ ♡̴ ⋆⁺₊⋆——⊹ ⋆⁺₊⋆ ♡̴ ⋆⁺₊⋆—

fix your sleep schedule

set your key goals for the semester

organize/set up your bag, stationary, notebooks, etc.

review the syllabus for your courses

do any remaining tasks you’ll need (financial aid, housing, account set ups, etc.)

make a success plan. how will you manage distractions? what study methods do you want to try this semester? how will you stay disciplined?

reset your electronics. delete any material from the previous semester you will no longer need.

set up your organization/planning system. if you’re using notion, set up your notion. if you’re using a planner, set up your planner.

get your self care/maintenance routine down so you can have it in your routine when school starts.

make a routine. morning, evening, study, etc., it will be so much easier to manage once school starts if you get it down beforehand.

have a self care day and de-stress! going back to school can be overwhelming, but have faith in yourself. you got this!

[sweet-nothing26]

Thank you to everyone who got me to 100 likes!

[sweet-nothing26]

I just saw something that looks very mundane but is extremely rare and incredible. Details later, gotta drive home.

[sweet-nothing26]

don’t ask me why it took three years after it’s release for mirrorball to finally gut me with a knife but now i’m just thinking of “i’ll get you out on the floor… shimmering beautiful… and when i break its in a million beautiful pieces” is so fucking heavy and just the idea of having your self worth tied to how others view and perceive you and even if you fall and crash you’re still something to them to look at and marvel… even in your worst moments people still look at you for entertainment and joy and that’s so awful cause you’re at your lowest and no one will even help pick you up but is that worse than them just not watching? when all you wanted was to be wanted and now suddenly no one wants you or even looks at you to see a reflection of them they like in you but not actually you because you’ll change yourself to fit in anywhere so you don’t even know who you really are anymore

[sweet-nothing26]

Barbie (2023)

Okay, so here is my take on Barbie, the barbie land vs the real world storyline was a metaphor for the non-exclusivity between womanhood and girlhood. In contrast, manhood and boyhood are mutually exclusive; meaning most boys gradually and slowly shift from boyhood to manhood, so a boy is never a man thus he gets to fully experience the innocence of childhood (which is something girls never had the privilege of experiencing) and a man shall never be referred to as a boy because men acquire endless measures of maturity, wisdom, and logic. As a female, you're either treated as a grown woman when you're still a young child or infantilized, belittled, and misunderstood when you are literally 40 years old. The constant shift of treatment makes you feel like you're tripping on some sort of hallucinogenic and it deeply messes with your perception of who you are.

You're an 11-year-old prepubescent kid walking on your way from school and suddenly you're getting catcalled by men in their late 20s. You rush home, confused and scared, ''but I thought that only happens to women? I'm still a little girl or am I?" and your tiny little innocent brain associates that terrible experience with your developing body, hence you try as hard as you can to bind your nonexistent breasts and lose some weight because that's how you regain that fragment of your lost innocence. You develop every eating disorder in the book trying to look as undesirable as you can. You continue jumping from one ED to another throughout your entire life as a young woman and up till your late 50s. you have lost hours on end thinking about food and calories or actively starving, binging, and purging. You're a 12-year-old girl, sitting with your friends in recess and you hear some of your male classmates talking about their latest pornography watches or rating you girls based on the size of your asses or who has the sexiest neck, hands, mouth...you name it. You cannot grasp what's happening? why the sudden shift? I just wanted to play and run around but everyone around me was eyeing me and sexualizing my body. I was sucking a lollipop and they were laughing. i bent over to grab my fallen pen and now they're making weird sounds. they asked me if I'm familiar with a woman named mia khalifa? who is that? You try to fit in and be more sexual because that's how those boys like it, but then you're considered a cheap whore but if you remain more reserved you are a boring ugly prude who needs to loosen up a little. When Barbie left her perfect world, she was hit by the wave of sexualization which is exactly what happens to every woman in her life. Even if you refuse to contribute to this phenomenon, you will get sexualized, even if you desexualize yourself and announce your asexuality, you will get sexualized. Maybe that's how things are. we are property to men under the patriarchy and this will never ever change in our lifetime (or at least on the bigger scale). Depressing but c'est la vie

[sweet-nothing26]

I know that I shouldn't be questioning the actions of a god, I think If anything his actions SHOULD make sense because, well, it's God he is all-knowing, omnipresent, powerfull, and he is supposed to be an incredibly intelligent, kind entity, he has no needs and no weeknesses, his actions should show that, they have to be extremely calculated and consistent, he should be fair to everyone and everything yet we don't see that. And I find it curious that whenever their is an inconsistency, religious people say that "oh it's because this is something that our brains cannot understand, our brains cannot fathom how it works" which is such convenient thing to say when you have no arguments whatsoever, and I think that if it really is more complicated than what our brains are capable to grasp, then why did he create us that way, he is all knowing he must know that we will have questions, that it's in our nature to seek answer since, again, he made us, but we can say that it's a test, right? Like he wants to see who is a true believer, then first of all, he is all-knowing so that's useless, and second of all, it just sounds like the more naive you are the more faithfull and religious you'll be, and why would you reward people for being naive and for not seeking actual answers.

Also, I'm sorry I wrote while sleep deprived, I don't know if I'm making any sense.