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@taylorswift @taylornation

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Check me out on Instagram under same name (SwiftieMcDibbles...lol). I mean it when I say this is the first and only Album of @taylorswift I have EVER said or mentioned the thought "...this is it. this is my favorite album if hers and I love it and can't wait for her to do whatever live, then the next chapter" and then a sad thought occurred that sometimes (especially in "the lakes" it feels like she is saying goodbye to "fame" and being public. My emotions are torn because (ok, if you know @taylorswift you will know this reference...pretend you're Rachel and Phoebe before Chandler and Monica get engaged, and you keep changing the % of happy/jealous you were. Example: Rachel says she's 80% happy, at the end she says its the least jealous she's ever been having listened to the proposal. That's how I feel about if @taylorswift were to walk all the way out, to a calmer, peaceful, decadent life I will be 85% happy and only 15% jealous/upset)

Yes, I want Taylor to keep writing, keep making art, keep being LOUD. Keep fighting. OWN YOU ARE AND WHAT YOU HAVE WORKED TIRELESSLY TO ACHIEVE TAYLOR. There is NO ONE that can deny your raw talent. We, as #swifties however, see you. We see you go through it, hard as hell sometimes, you're the "mirrorball", the nice girl, then a calculated snake, to only caring about one single persons opinion of you(as if you were a damsel in distress), to now-LOOK AT YOU. YOU REALLY THOUGHT "LOVER" would be your last big success? When will you know your worth, we always cared of when and if you came back, no matter what, at the end of the day there are too many people who can INSTANTANEOUSLY name a song of yours that saved them in some way. Only you have that across the spectrum because of your versatility. We loves you.

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As I pointed out on Instagram:

NOT ONLY DO THEY LINE UP, THE TIME THEY ARE SANG ADD UP TO 13(2+4+7=13!) @taylorswift damn you are good. Because not only that, but august is track 8, Betty is track 14 and what do they equal up to I wonder? 8+1+4=13!!

We can even take it a step further... 2:47 is the time stamp. Well 2×4=8 then you have 7 left over. 8.7. And the bonus track being track 17. 8.7.17-SOMETHING HAPPENED ON THAT DATE! And out of pure respect for @taylorswift and the way she has chosen to live a more private life, a life that is as close to "normal" as she can have, I 1300% don't want to know if these theories are real are not, you wanna know why? ITS NONE OF MY BUSINESS. Just like my relationship is none of the entire worlds business, no matter what Career I have. Yes, @taylorswift and Joe chose to have Careers that put them in the public fishbowl, but they never should have to explain the private details of their lives. They should talk about their work and that should be the focus. Guys, real swifties already know how much Taylor loves and values us, we don't need to know what her are Joe are doing on a Tuesday. And being a Mom myself as well as being a very introverted, private person I don't put a lot of pics of my son on FB, because he hasn't gotten to the age to make that informed decision. So if I were a "Celebrity" at the level that Taylor is, you are damn right I would FIERCELY protect my heart, love, and family no matter what that looks like. OK, rant over lol.

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Here we are AGAIN, swifties I'm talking to you...

➡️I am not 100% sure of the validity of this statement, I have absolutely no reason to doubt the person that told me this..just wanted to put this "disclaimer" here just in case⬅️

I used to work with a girl whose cousin apparently attended the same High School as @taylorswift . One day we were talking and everyone I ever work with, or heck ANYONE I know, knows my immense love for Taylor. So she told me that @taylorswift didn't get to walk at her Graduation due to the "spectacle" it would become. Basically the School knew her being there would take all the attention away from the other people Graduating. The girl that told me this also said there were rumors that this came to be because of jealousy and parents of jealous kids went to the school and demanded something to be done. Idk if that's how or why it happened, but it is very possible.

This could have been in junction with what @taylorswift said, she was in a car with her Mom doing radio tours and simply couldn't attend. Logistically wise. So, it could have been a combination of things, Taylor has always been very open about her High School experience and that it wasn't good. So I totally believe people didn't want the girl they made fun of for having such a "far fetched" dream, and keep in mind at the time of Graduation she had already had a development deal with RCA and was songwriting with them, then signed to...that label no one cares about anymore...had also released her debut album, "Taylor Swift", and was getting ready to release "Fearless"((Love Story, the lead single, was released in September 2008, her graduation year)). She had done one of her most famous acceptance speeches where she says "this is definitely the highlight of my Senior Year"((when she won the Horizon Award)). My point is, she was ridiculed for having a dream, and before they Graduated, Taylor was already starting to achieve those dreams, and I think it made a lot of people jealous.

So I do think her speech to the class of 2020 about not attending Graduation was GREAT. Here is the biggest celebrity of our generation, and one of the best of all time, telling them that look, I didn't get to go to my Graduation and I still went on to do great things and so will you. And that she also can relate to looking forward to that day for years only for it to be taken away from you, it sucks.

So, I write this because once again im seeing SWIFTIES attack her! This is unacceptable, and it makes me wonder how many of those who all have been attacking her lately, were ever really REAL fans to begin with. But it doesn't matter I guess. So I say to ya'll, be gone. Taylor has plenty of true fans that your exit won't even be noticed.

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FOR THE ONES IN THE BACK...THIS IS AN OPEN INVITATION TO EITHER HAVE A CONSTRUCTIVE CONVERSATION OR NOT. IF YOU WANT TO TELL ME IM WRONG FOR THE FEELINGS I HAVE TOWARDS THE PEOPLE WHO CLAIM TO BE STANS THEN GO AHEAD AND DISAGREE BUT PLEASE NEVER INVALIDATE SOMEONE'S FEELINGS!!!!

About the criticism @taylorswift is getting from....us? Her fans?

Guys, girls, my fellow SWIFTIES((or ones I thought were Swifties)), what are ya'll doing?? @taylorswift was one of the FIRST public figures to directly call out Trump, in a tweet that flat out expresses where Taylor stands on this matter. She didn't simply say "This is wrong, Black Lives Matter", I could understand the let down if that were the case. No the tweet said, and I quote

"After stoking the fires of white supremacy and racism your entire presidency, you have the nerve to feign moral superiority before threatening violence? 'When the looting starts the shooting starts'??? We will vote you out in November."<<and she even tagged him in the post to make sure he saw it>>

Now, tell me how that's not her doing something? It was a start. She has also publicly on Twitter and other platforms made sure to make her stance known on mail in voting ballots, so that we can vote him out. She also has currently on her Twitter page a link to the article President Barack Obama wrote. Also, as of me writing this she has tweeted again about the situation. Here's the quoted text of that tweet:

"Racial injustice has been ingrained deeply into local and state governments, and changes MUST be made there. In order for policies to change, we need to elect people who will fight against police brutality and racism of any kind"<<then she tagged Black Lives Matter>>

Furthermore, if you are a true fan of Taylor then you KNOW she has made donations of some kind. Probably very big donations. You're mad that she's not out marching? Ok, be upset about that one fact. I personally understand why she's not. @taylorswift knows very well if she does, she will STILL be criticized and more importantly it will become all about her and not the March she attended. She does not want that.

Its important to also point out what I've seen other TRUE fans say. Taylor is not vague in her public statements about injustices. She directly calls out powerful, scary, and shady people BY NAME. This is a woman who carries wound dressing on her at all times, because the idea of her being attacked IS THAT REAL. I know people will say "Well this celebrity marched, and this celebrity was here" and that is AMAZING, that's how they chose to support the cause and it's great. Name me one of those celebrities that are a- as misunderstood as Taylor b- called out for anything and everything they do, right or wrong, it's always wrong in the media's eyes c- did the fact that those celebrities were there cause the entire point of the march to shift and all the attention be put on them so that later the public can say they were only there because they were being accused of being racist?. I could go on and on, but I really hope you get the point.

I have followed Taylor since the very beginning, and I mean that. I was 19 when I first saw "Tim Mcgraw" on my tv(I've told the story many times so I won't go into detail here). I've seen her go from being America's Sweetheart that "saved country music" and could do no wrong, to being the most hated musician, like she says in her Miss Americana Documentary "do you know how many people have to be tweeting that they hate you for that((being number 1 trending in the world- referring to the whole I hate Taylor Swift// Taylor Swift is Over))to happen?". I've watched her take all that and do the thing she advises other artists to do, she kept making art. She did take a break for her mental health and that was necessary, but she came back out on top. Why? Because she is GROWING AND LEARNING with each day and each lesson she has to learn the hard way, she is constantly trying to be better than she was. She is constantly helping people. She has acknowledged, on many occasions, her privilege and that she knows without it, her assault trial for example, her life could have gone a completely different way. She gives so much of herself to US, the FANS. And this is how we repay her? The woman that opens up her HOME to us, trusts us, helps us financially, etc.

I'll end this on these couple of thoughts. One is, for all we know(God Forbid and I really hope this isn't the case) her Mom's Cancer could be worse or she could be going through a chemo round and Taylor is simply being a daughter to a sick Mom. I really hope and pray for her that is not it (my mother has battled cancer as well so I know how she feels). She could be planning something bigger to help people during this time. She also may remember this scary thing called Coronavirus, and that being around that many people could expose her and then possibly expose her Mom. She could be doing so many things that we don't know of yet. My point is, you, we, have no idea what she is going through or how she is helping behind the scenes or planning to help in the near future.

For those who went to the reputation tour, she sang "Long Live" for us, because we've always been there for her. It saddens me that fans are turning on her at a time like this, when we should all be embracing each other and understanding that everyone deals with things differently. But you can not say she has been "radio silent" or that she is ignoring this therefore calling her a hypocrite because of how adamant she was about not being silenced anymore in Miss Americana. She hasn't been silent. So I really don't understand how WE THE FANS are coming for her. The rest of the World, I get it. They always come for her. But I thought we were better.

So to the fake swifties, don't come back. Don't praise any good she does, you've made your stance clear and there is no room for that negativity in this World, or this fandom.

To @taylorswift I stand by you, I see you, I hear you, I admire you, I will never ever turn my back on you because through it all, you've never turned your back on me. I love you. Stay strong. Keep doing what YOU FEEL IS RIGHT.

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About the criticism @taylorswift is getting from....us? Her fans?

Guys, girls, my fellow SWIFTIES((or ones I thought were Swifties)), what are ya'll doing?? @taylorswift was one of the FIRST public figures to directly call out Trump, in a tweet that flat out expresses where Taylor stands on this matter. She didn't simply say "This is wrong, Black Lives Matter", I could understand the let down if that were the case. No the tweet said, and I quote

"After stoking the fires of white supremacy and racism your entire presidency, you have the nerve to feign moral superiority before threatening violence? 'When the looting starts the shooting starts'??? We will vote you out in November."<<and she even tagged him in the post to make sure he saw it>>

Now, tell me how that's not her doing something? It was a start. She has also publicly on Twitter and other platforms made sure to make her stance known on mail in voting ballots, so that we can vote him out. She also has currently on her Twitter page a link to the article President Barack Obama wrote. Also, as of me writing this she has tweeted again about the situation. Here's the quoted text of that tweet:

"Racial injustice has been ingrained deeply into local and state governments, and changes MUST be made there. In order for policies to change, we need to elect people who will fight against police brutality and racism of any kind"<<then she tagged Black Lives Matter>>

Furthermore, if you are a true fan of Taylor then you KNOW she has made donations of some kind. Probably very big donations. You're mad that she's not out marching? Ok, be upset about that one fact. I personally understand why she's not. @taylorswift knows very well if she does, she will STILL be criticized and more importantly it will become all about her and not the March she attended. She does not want that.

Its important to also point out what I've seen other TRUE fans say. Taylor is not vague in her public statements about injustices. She directly calls out powerful, scary, and shady people BY NAME. This is a woman who carries wound dressing on her at all times, because the idea of her being attacked IS THAT REAL. I know people will say "Well this celebrity marched, and this celebrity was here" and that is AMAZING, that's how they chose to support the cause and it's great. Name me one of those celebrities that are a- as misunderstood as Taylor b- called out for anything and everything they do, right or wrong, it's always wrong in the media's eyes c- did the fact that those celebrities were there cause the entire point of the march to shift and all the attention be put on them so that later the public can say they were only there because they were being accused of being racist?. I could go on and on, but I really hope you get the point.

I have followed Taylor since the very beginning, and I mean that. I was 19 when I first saw "Tim Mcgraw" on my tv(I've told the story many times so I won't go into detail here). I've seen her go from being America's Sweetheart that "saved country music" and could do no wrong, to being the most hated musician, like she says in her Miss Americana Documentary "do you know how many people have to be tweeting that they hate you for that((being number 1 trending in the world- referring to the whole I hate Taylor Swift// Taylor Swift is Over))to happen?". I've watched her take all that and do the thing she advises other artists to do, she kept making art. She did take a break for her mental health and that was necessary, but she came back out on top. Why? Because she is GROWING AND LEARNING with each day and each lesson she has to learn the hard way, she is constantly trying to be better than she was. She is constantly helping people. She has acknowledged, on many occasions, her privilege and that she knows without it, her assault trial for example, her life could have gone a completely different way. She gives so much of herself to US, the FANS. And this is how we repay her? The woman that opens up her HOME to us, trusts us, helps us financially, etc.

I'll end this on these couple of thoughts. One is, for all we know(God Forbid and I really hope this isn't the case) her Mom's Cancer could be worse or she could be going through a chemo round and Taylor is simply being a daughter to a sick Mom. I really hope and pray for her that is not it (my mother has battled cancer as well so I know how she feels). She could be planning something bigger to help people during this time. She also may remember this scary thing called Coronavirus, and that being around that many people could expose her and then possibly expose her Mom. She could be doing so many things that we don't know of yet. My point is, you, we, have no idea what she is going through or how she is helping behind the scenes or planning to help in the near future.

For those who went to the reputation tour, she sang "Long Live" for us, because we've always been there for her. It saddens me that fans are turning on her at a time like this, when we should all be embracing each other and understanding that everyone deals with things differently. But you can not say she has been "radio silent" or that she is ignoring this therefore calling her a hypocrite because of how adamant she was about not being silenced anymore in Miss Americana. She hasn't been silent. So I really don't understand how WE THE FANS are coming for her. The rest of the World, I get it. They always come for her. But I thought we were better.

So to the fake swifties, don't come back. Don't praise any good she does, you've made your stance clear and there is no room for that negativity in this World, or this fandom.

To @taylorswift I stand by you, I see you, I hear you, I admire you, I will never ever turn my back on you because through it all, you've never turned your back on me. I love you. Stay strong. Keep doing what YOU FEEL IS RIGHT.

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🌌this post is a question post and my answer may be somewhat "controversial", so I guess this is a warning. Don't worry it is nothing creepy or anything. Ok, read and answer!🌌

So, if something crazy happened and you get the chance to hang out with @taylorswift in a chill, normal, regular setting. Like a setting where you guys were just two gals, or a gal and guy, hanging out. What would you want to do?? In other words...

What would your dream hangout session with @taylorswift be?

Like I said up top, my answer may upset some. However, I live in a place where Marijuana is legal; (I'm going somewhere with this I promise) and I was just listening to Lover as I was driving around, doing my errands and "Paper Rings" came on and this question popped in my head. If I got the chance to actually hang out with @taylorswift , and not in a secret session or meet and greet or anything. Like, an actual friend chill vibe. I would LOVE for it to be at her RI house, because I'm from Newport, RI. And I would love to chill on the roof and sm*ke a bo*l or 2 with @taylorswift and maybe a glass of wine and just chill and laugh and talk. I wouldn't ask questions about other celebrities or about her "image". I would honestly just LOVE to see how she would be after sm*king and have a natural, organic conversation. I feel like we have so much in common, doesn't everyone though? But for real, my Mom has battled Cancer for years, I'm from RI, I know she isn't but she has a house there, my boyfriend is younger than me by almost the exact difference of her and Joe, I'm very passionate and emotion driven, I write all the time, and we just seem to have so many similarities. Which is why I have been a swiftie since her debut album, yes I can actually say I've been here since the beginning. My Instagram account by the same name I have on here tells an in-depth story of my journey of being a swiftie and the ups and downs my life had that mirrored hers. I wouldn't care if it was just us or a couple people she is comfortable with, just not a big crowd because I would be too anxious to chill. Anyways, that would be MY dream hangout out sesh with @taylorswift . Please don't judge or show any hate, to anyone, anywhere, and especially about my answer. Everyone is entitled to their opinions and I don't mind if yours is different, we can discuss it all day, but if it is just hateful words, there is no place for it here. I'm not a "dru*gie", I SOMETIMES partake in 420 friendly activities. That's it.

What would be your dream hangout session?

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Is it bad that I just want to keep 13 followers? I always see people getting so excited about reaching like 1,000 or 10,000<<which is awesome for y'all btw!>> and I'm over here like, I got 13!! On a @taylorswift fan account, nothing could be more fitting!

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Another long post, this one is funny you should read, but to sum it up...

Made a fan account on Instagram. Looking to follow true swifties and get true swiftie followers.

Talked about why my handle is named SwiftieMcDibbles. <bc @taylorswift once said Olivia is called Dibbles>

And talked about my animals.

This is my new Fan Account on Instagram. Trying to get some followers and also follow true swifties!!

As you can see, I am a creature of habit and named it the same, SwiftieMcDibbles. If you "know" @taylorswift , you know Olivia is her 2nd cat. And yes, her proper name is Olivia but @taylorswift has said that her nickname is Dibbles. Like "HeY gUyS iT's DiBbLeS" and ever since I heard that <<I think it was 1989 era on Live with Kelly and Ryan(Michael Strahan at the time), either that or Ellen>> anyways, ever since then I have loved it. I have a cat that my son named Little, but her nickname is Flerken, from Captain Marvel because she always has a sour face, and will sneak up and paw at you when you walk by so we call her that. My dog, also named by my son, Bootsy Callico, from Boss Baby show, we call her hey booboo, because she will pounce in a room and one day I just said Hey BooBoo when she did and it stuck. I always say we get/adopt the animals that are a little off. For example, my cat will fall asleep, and this can be ANYWHERE, and it is a GUARANTEE she will roll off. She sleeps so hard, she drools and snores and will roll off, hit the ground and stay SLEEPING! Right where she landed. Our dog, falls asleep standing up. And will nod and catch herself from falling, like a person who is nodding off then jerk awake, and instead of laying down she stays standing, or sitting, and falls back asleep. She also CAN NOT wag her tail normally, instead of side to side, it's always on one side up and down in like a circle. Last thing she does, is legit, walk into walls. Never at fast pace, so never hurt. Just like the cat falling, she is never hurt, she normally falls off the top of the sofa to the sofa, if she is on the table, we legit have a cat bed laying where she normally lands.

Ok, long enough post again.

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This is my new Fan Account on Instagram. Trying to get some followers and also follow true swifties!!

As you can see, I am a creature of habit and named it the same, SwiftieMcDibbles. If you "know" @taylorswift , you know Olivia is her 2nd cat. And yes, her proper name is Olivia but @taylorswift has said that her nickname is Dibbles. Like "HeY gUyS iT's DiBbLeS" and ever since I heard that <<I think it was 1989 era on Live with Kelly and Ryan(Michael Strahan at the time), either that or Ellen>> anyways, ever since then I have loved it. I have a cat that my son named Little, but her nickname is Flerken, from Captain Marvel because she always has a sour face, and will sneak up and paw at you when you walk by so we call her that. My dog, also named by my son, Bootsy Callico, from Boss Baby show, we call her hey booboo, because she will pounce in a room and one day I just said Hey BooBoo when she did and it stuck. I always say we get/adopt the animals that are a little off. For example, my cat will fall asleep, and this can be ANYWHERE, and it is a GUARANTEE she will roll off. She sleeps so hard, she drools and snores and will roll off, hit the ground and stay SLEEPING! Right where she landed. Our dog, falls asleep standing up. And will nod and catch herself from falling, like a person who is nodding off then jerk awake, and instead of laying down she stays standing, or sitting, and falls back asleep. She also CAN NOT wag her tail normally, instead of side to side, it's always on one side up and down in like a circle. Last thing she does, is legit, walk into walls. Never at fast pace, so never hurt. Just like the cat falling, she is never hurt, she normally falls off the top of the sofa to the sofa, if she is on the table, we legit have a cat bed laying where she normally lands.

Ok, long enough post again.

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Btw, I am in NO WAY AT ALL asking for pity, or any handouts, especially money. I will get through this, in fact I am trying to help other Mom's in my community with food. Near my neighborhood there is a Title 1 school, which means a lot of kids that attend that school come from households that are living under the "poverty" line so they get free breakfast and reduced or free lunch. Which means a lot of them DEPEND on those 2 meals a day to help feed their children. Thank God that particular a school is one of the two in our district that are open Mondays and Wednesdays for families to come get bagged meals for the week. The buses were running the meals to the kids on the bus route but that has decreased, due to costs. So me and other Mom's around there got together and decided to deliver the meals ourselves. It is literally the least I can do. (Of course, we have to wear protective clothing and masks,gloves,etc)

So please please please don't think I shared my life update that it was me searching for pity,sympathy, or a handout. Mainly it was because I've been off here for a while and also because I know MILLIONS of not only Americans but people Worldwide are going through the same or way worse, and I like to let people know they are not alone. We are all in this together, isolated, but together. And sometimes it helps to know you're not the only one, it helps with the feelings of self worth and feeling worthless. So yeah. That is it.

K thanks.

Where have I been?

Hey guys! I know it's been a while since I've made, posted anything on here. ((I did FINALLY start a @taylorswift fan based Instagram, it's the same handle, SwiftieMcDibbles, but even that was very recent)) So, not like anyone cares, here's a life update I guess.

I DID have to end up selling my Lover Fest West tickets, and cried about it in the dark for a couple of nights. I feel like I broke a promise to my son, I did explain why to him and since he is the most understanding, sweet boy he was a little disappointed but understood. I have full faith I will take him to see her live one day. It is crushing though to know that because of financial problems I couldn't deliver, I knew we couldn't afford a trip from South Carolina to California, with hotel costs, food, etc. So I had to do it. And that's that. And no, I did not make any money off of them, I sold them at the price I bought them, I can't believe people think its normal to buy tickets for a couple hundred dollars and then re-sell them for THOUSANDS literally, it's kind of gross so just don't do it.

So when my fiance was deployed, about 4 months in we decided for me to stop working. I've gone back to school to become a lawyer and between that and suddenly being a "single mom", while he was gone, was just too much. I have, yes I've been diagnosed for years now, Socialized Anxiety Disorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Major Depressive Disorder and Bipolar 1(which is WAY different than Bipolar that people think they know). On top of that, my other illness is also an invisible one and that is Rhuematoid Arthritis, which is an autoimmune disease/deficiency. So A LOT of my days are filled with pain and worry and panic. I take my medications as well as natural remedies but it can only do so much, there is no cure. As I've gotten older, I'm 33, the Rhuematoid keeps getting worse. I'm quarantined now, because my immune system is at risk with the Coronavirus. So, since mid March, I've been at home with a Kindergartner, trying to home school and stay healthy. I'm extremely concerned about Coronavirus, and that people are not taking this seriously. I wish it would not be compared to other viruses or illnesses, but it is. Please, I beg you stay home. If you stay home, you're not spreading it. And you could save lives.

The real kicker in this too, is RIGHT before this pandemic, back in February it became apparent I needed to go back to work. My fiance made more while overseas, which is why I stopped working. And it was always just until he got home and settled. I was AGGRESSIVELY looking for a job in my field, then started looking for any job. It then became clear that COVID-19 was more serious than initially thought so guess what? No one is hiring. Bills are piling up, and accounts are dwindling. I've had to ask my parents for help a lot and they have when they could but they are feeling this economy as well.

So now, I'm cleaning houses when I can and doing anything to get through. Probably start selling some stuff soon. It's really rough right now, but we will pull through. All of us will. My son's birthday was March 26th and thank God we bought stuff for him over time so that we weren't having to spend money we don't have for him to have a good birthday. However, his party was set for tomorrow. At a local lake that has a big park and two big docks to fish off of, because he wanted a Marvel vs. DC fishing party(the mind of a then 5 year old boy is always wonderous). So yet again, he had to be told something we planned for was either postponed or not gonna happen. Once again, he's fine, so resilient. I hope it's just postponed because its paid for and with all the parks closed I can't get in contact with anyone there to see what the deal is. We could use that money!

So yeah, life is rough. I'm homeschooling my son while taking courses online myself. I'm going stir crazy, my depression is pretty bad at the moment. I just feel like I'm not holding up my side of things. All the financial burden is on my fiance and I feel terrible for that. He's considering selling his truck, that he JUST got in January because he NEEDED a new car, well it's a 2012 but new to us. I will literally die before I let him do that, this man works so hard. He's National Guard so he works a civilian job and then has to drill. The way his schedule works is he is LUCKY to get 2 SATURDAYS a month off, and that's it. So of course, I feel worthless which makes all the mental health issues I have way worse.

So yup, that's where I've been. In a dark place I'm really hoping will lighten up soon.

I truly hope everyone is doing ok. I know times are scary and hard but just be patient and do what your leaders are telling you to do as far as the Coronavirus is concerned. Love you guys! If you get too down, just throw on a Taylor album and escape for a minute, it's what has helped me.

@taylorswift you are an inspiration right now, and all the time. What you're doing to help those in need is remarkable and you have stayed the epitome of class throughout the entire past 4 years when basically half the world thought you were a liar. And instead of rejoicing in your victory, you took the spotlight away from that call and put in on The World Health Organization. Way to go! Hope your anxieties are not too bad right now, hope your Mom is doing well, everyone else too. Ok, I'm done now lol.

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Why do I always write such long posts?

SUMMARY::

Life is not great, finances are worse.

Mental Health is horrible. Quarantined with my Kindergartner, so homeschooling while taking my own courses online.

Had to sell my Lover Fest West tickets. Bummer.

@taylorswift is such an inspiration.

So yeah, that is the sh*t show of my life currently.

Still love you guys and hope everyone is happy and healthy.

Where have I been?

Hey guys! I know it's been a while since I've made, posted anything on here. ((I did FINALLY start a @taylorswift fan based Instagram, it's the same handle, SwiftieMcDibbles, but even that was very recent)) So, not like anyone cares, here's a life update I guess.

I DID have to end up selling my Lover Fest West tickets, and cried about it in the dark for a couple of nights. I feel like I broke a promise to my son, I did explain why to him and since he is the most understanding, sweet boy he was a little disappointed but understood. I have full faith I will take him to see her live one day. It is crushing though to know that because of financial problems I couldn't deliver, I knew we couldn't afford a trip from South Carolina to California, with hotel costs, food, etc. So I had to do it. And that's that. And no, I did not make any money off of them, I sold them at the price I bought them, I can't believe people think its normal to buy tickets for a couple hundred dollars and then re-sell them for THOUSANDS literally, it's kind of gross so just don't do it.

So when my fiance was deployed, about 4 months in we decided for me to stop working. I've gone back to school to become a lawyer and between that and suddenly being a "single mom", while he was gone, was just too much. I have, yes I've been diagnosed for years now, Socialized Anxiety Disorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Major Depressive Disorder and Bipolar 1(which is WAY different than Bipolar that people think they know). On top of that, my other illness is also an invisible one and that is Rhuematoid Arthritis, which is an autoimmune disease/deficiency. So A LOT of my days are filled with pain and worry and panic. I take my medications as well as natural remedies but it can only do so much, there is no cure. As I've gotten older, I'm 33, the Rhuematoid keeps getting worse. I'm quarantined now, because my immune system is at risk with the Coronavirus. So, since mid March, I've been at home with a Kindergartner, trying to home school and stay healthy. I'm extremely concerned about Coronavirus, and that people are not taking this seriously. I wish it would not be compared to other viruses or illnesses, but it is. Please, I beg you stay home. If you stay home, you're not spreading it. And you could save lives.

The real kicker in this too, is RIGHT before this pandemic, back in February it became apparent I needed to go back to work. My fiance made more while overseas, which is why I stopped working. And it was always just until he got home and settled. I was AGGRESSIVELY looking for a job in my field, then started looking for any job. It then became clear that COVID-19 was more serious than initially thought so guess what? No one is hiring. Bills are piling up, and accounts are dwindling. I've had to ask my parents for help a lot and they have when they could but they are feeling this economy as well.

So now, I'm cleaning houses when I can and doing anything to get through. Probably start selling some stuff soon. It's really rough right now, but we will pull through. All of us will. My son's birthday was March 26th and thank God we bought stuff for him over time so that we weren't having to spend money we don't have for him to have a good birthday. However, his party was set for tomorrow. At a local lake that has a big park and two big docks to fish off of, because he wanted a Marvel vs. DC fishing party(the mind of a then 5 year old boy is always wonderous). So yet again, he had to be told something we planned for was either postponed or not gonna happen. Once again, he's fine, so resilient. I hope it's just postponed because its paid for and with all the parks closed I can't get in contact with anyone there to see what the deal is. We could use that money!

So yeah, life is rough. I'm homeschooling my son while taking courses online myself. I'm going stir crazy, my depression is pretty bad at the moment. I just feel like I'm not holding up my side of things. All the financial burden is on my fiance and I feel terrible for that. He's considering selling his truck, that he JUST got in January because he NEEDED a new car, well it's a 2012 but new to us. I will literally die before I let him do that, this man works so hard. He's National Guard so he works a civilian job and then has to drill. The way his schedule works is he is LUCKY to get 2 SATURDAYS a month off, and that's it. So of course, I feel worthless which makes all the mental health issues I have way worse.

So yup, that's where I've been. In a dark place I'm really hoping will lighten up soon.

I truly hope everyone is doing ok. I know times are scary and hard but just be patient and do what your leaders are telling you to do as far as the Coronavirus is concerned. Love you guys! If you get too down, just throw on a Taylor album and escape for a minute, it's what has helped me.

@taylorswift you are an inspiration right now, and all the time. What you're doing to help those in need is remarkable and you have stayed the epitome of class throughout the entire past 4 years when basically half the world thought you were a liar. And instead of rejoicing in your victory, you took the spotlight away from that call and put in on The World Health Organization. Way to go! Hope your anxieties are not too bad right now, hope your Mom is doing well, everyone else too. Ok, I'm done now lol.

[swiftiemcdibbles]

Where have I been?

Hey guys! I know it's been a while since I've made, posted anything on here. ((I did FINALLY start a @taylorswift fan based Instagram, it's the same handle, SwiftieMcDibbles, but even that was very recent)) So, not like anyone cares, here's a life update I guess.

I DID have to end up selling my Lover Fest West tickets, and cried about it in the dark for a couple of nights. I feel like I broke a promise to my son, I did explain why to him and since he is the most understanding, sweet boy he was a little disappointed but understood. I have full faith I will take him to see her live one day. It is crushing though to know that because of financial problems I couldn't deliver, I knew we couldn't afford a trip from South Carolina to California, with hotel costs, food, etc. So I had to do it. And that's that. And no, I did not make any money off of them, I sold them at the price I bought them, I can't believe people think its normal to buy tickets for a couple hundred dollars and then re-sell them for THOUSANDS literally, it's kind of gross so just don't do it.

So when my fiance was deployed, about 4 months in we decided for me to stop working. I've gone back to school to become a lawyer and between that and suddenly being a "single mom", while he was gone, was just too much. I have, yes I've been diagnosed for years now, Socialized Anxiety Disorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Major Depressive Disorder and Bipolar 1(which is WAY different than Bipolar that people think they know). On top of that, my other illness is also an invisible one and that is Rhuematoid Arthritis, which is an autoimmune disease/deficiency. So A LOT of my days are filled with pain and worry and panic. I take my medications as well as natural remedies but it can only do so much, there is no cure. As I've gotten older, I'm 33, the Rhuematoid keeps getting worse. I'm quarantined now, because my immune system is at risk with the Coronavirus. So, since mid March, I've been at home with a Kindergartner, trying to home school and stay healthy. I'm extremely concerned about Coronavirus, and that people are not taking this seriously. I wish it would not be compared to other viruses or illnesses, but it is. Please, I beg you stay home. If you stay home, you're not spreading it. And you could save lives.

The real kicker in this too, is RIGHT before this pandemic, back in February it became apparent I needed to go back to work. My fiance made more while overseas, which is why I stopped working. And it was always just until he got home and settled. I was AGGRESSIVELY looking for a job in my field, then started looking for any job. It then became clear that COVID-19 was more serious than initially thought so guess what? No one is hiring. Bills are piling up, and accounts are dwindling. I've had to ask my parents for help a lot and they have when they could but they are feeling this economy as well.

So now, I'm cleaning houses when I can and doing anything to get through. Probably start selling some stuff soon. It's really rough right now, but we will pull through. All of us will. My son's birthday was March 26th and thank God we bought stuff for him over time so that we weren't having to spend money we don't have for him to have a good birthday. However, his party was set for tomorrow. At a local lake that has a big park and two big docks to fish off of, because he wanted a Marvel vs. DC fishing party(the mind of a then 5 year old boy is always wonderous). So yet again, he had to be told something we planned for was either postponed or not gonna happen. Once again, he's fine, so resilient. I hope it's just postponed because its paid for and with all the parks closed I can't get in contact with anyone there to see what the deal is. We could use that money!

So yeah, life is rough. I'm homeschooling my son while taking courses online myself. I'm going stir crazy, my depression is pretty bad at the moment. I just feel like I'm not holding up my side of things. All the financial burden is on my fiance and I feel terrible for that. He's considering selling his truck, that he JUST got in January because he NEEDED a new car, well it's a 2012 but new to us. I will literally die before I let him do that, this man works so hard. He's National Guard so he works a civilian job and then has to drill. The way his schedule works is he is LUCKY to get 2 SATURDAYS a month off, and that's it. So of course, I feel worthless which makes all the mental health issues I have way worse.

So yup, that's where I've been. In a dark place I'm really hoping will lighten up soon.

I truly hope everyone is doing ok. I know times are scary and hard but just be patient and do what your leaders are telling you to do as far as the Coronavirus is concerned. Love you guys! If you get too down, just throw on a Taylor album and escape for a minute, it's what has helped me.

@taylorswift you are an inspiration right now, and all the time. What you're doing to help those in need is remarkable and you have stayed the epitome of class throughout the entire past 4 years when basically half the world thought you were a liar. And instead of rejoicing in your victory, you took the spotlight away from that call and put in on The World Health Organization. Way to go! Hope your anxieties are not too bad right now, hope your Mom is doing well, everyone else too. Ok, I'm done now lol.

[swiftiemcdibbles]

Does anyone else realize THIS is the EXACT video "they" claim Joseph Kahn copied for @taylorswift "Delicate" video.

Which let's break that down, that was arguably, the most successful song off "reputation", as far as charts and records go [and they- the media,men,women,any and all who consistently made rude comments, false allegations,started fake stories, body shamed, SLUT shamed,etc is who "THEY" are]. They, slammed the video, calling her and collaborator J. Kahn copy-cats(at least she got to be a "cat" and not a "an annoying girl with annoying friends that are super models, or a slut, a manipulator not matter what you do...." this time) . And if you watch the behind the scenes, Taylor and everyone involved practiced really really hard for thos video and it is after all, a magically written love-like song where you know this is it, with this person you can be you even when YOU are, well, Taylor friggin Swift, and you know how easily this relationship that you have cherished privately and this person fell for you when you were at a point where you've basically been told, "we no longer like you, you are no longer valid, you're over, no one will ever like you again...." but this person you're falling for is a rare find and you know it so you know how easily it can break, but you really don't want it to. You know The Men in this World want to keep you quiet Taylor, keep you nice Taylor, and you stepped out and away from that and have been brave enough to make these changes knowing it's the fans that matter, how you have never lost site of the fact that Swifties are LIT. Sometimes, it gets misconstrued and even taken too far, but would it be a Taylor Swift fan club if it wasn't lol? Point is, now someone has used said stolen video to put while Taylor sings "The Man" over it. Meta? Or 7?

[swiftiemcdibbles]

Yes, this is long and sad, but it's also true,real,open and raw. It's also something that is still, 16 years later, hard to talk about. @taylorswift just know that is the ONLY reason I can't show up for you, even though every part of me wants to. I have tried to figure out a way to make this possible not just for me but for my son and for the fact that "Lover" deserves to be the most celebrated album because it is yours. I want to be able to see the magic you will create on that stage more than anything, I just can't see how and damn that hurts. Just know I'll be here, in South Carolina supporting you so loudly, you might hear it all the way in California!! Love you.

This is the worst, most soul crushing decision I've ever had to make. My @taylorswift Lover Fest West tickets are officially on sale.

This is the last thing I wanted but we just cant see how we can financially make it work. We are trying to buy my childhood home back. Long story but we lost our home due to my Mom being sick and having to take a 2nd mortgage out to cover the bills and got so far behind it was either foreclosure or sell it to my Stepdads cousin. My stepdad is my Dad in my eyes, I have no memory of my parents married, all of my memories are of my Mom and Stepdad being together. My Stepdad built that house with his dad. I grew up in the room he grew up in, and I think it would be amazing if my son got do the same. I was crushed when we had to leave. I didn't pack anything, so therefore unless my Mom packed it for me I left every memory behind. We moved on my 17th birthday and my mom gave me $12. At the time I was ungrateful and annoyed. Now I know that was the only money they had and they gave it to me. When we walked out the door the last time we had no where to go. The 1st night we slept in our car, the only one we didn't lose. Then my sisters friend let us stay in her beaten down 2 bedroom trailer, and she had 3 kids at the time. In total there were 5 adults, 2 kids. Sharing 980 sq feet. My bio Dad called and asked if I wanted to live with him, he's well off to put it nicely, and I didn't want to but I knew it would make my mom have one less mouth to feed and body to cloth so I agreed. 3 weeks before I started my senior year, the year everyone wants to experience with their life long school buddies, I was starting a new school 8 hours away from everyone I loved(I moved from South Carolina to Ohio). I stayed through College then came home. But the want and longing to really go home, back to MY HOME, has never gone away. The man who bought my house has agreed to sit and talk. He wants to sell it, but he has a tenant who has been there for 10 years so he's conflicted.

Bringing this back to @taylorswift , I need my debt::income ratio to stay where it is. We have worked our asses off to get rid of any debt, other than the ongoing credit card payments that we do make on time. In order to get to Lover Fest West, we would have to book it on credit. And we just can't, I just can't justify it. What if it makes it so we can't afford the down payment or we are declined due to the debt??

That's why I wanted to swap to go to Massachusetts instead. I promised my son we would go to this and now I've broken that promise. Some may say, so what? He's 5, he'll get over it. And sure he will, but this is the first promise I have ever broken. I'm always careful about making promises, for this reason. He's crushed and so am I.

🎶"Take pictures in your mind of your childhood room. Memorize what it sounded like when your dad gets home. Remember the footsteps, remember the words said. And all your little brother's favorite songs.

I just realized everything I have is someday gonna be gone"🎶

((Once again, there is a @taylorswift song that helps me get through anything)))

Sorry to rant, no one gets this like I know you guys on here will. So I came here to vent it all out.

If anyone need Lover Fest West tickets, message me.

[swiftiemcdibbles]

This is the worst, most soul crushing decision I've ever had to make. My @taylorswift Lover Fest West tickets are officially on sale.

This is the last thing I wanted but we just cant see how we can financially make it work. We are trying to buy my childhood home back. Long story but we lost our home due to my Mom being sick and having to take a 2nd mortgage out to cover the bills and got so far behind it was either foreclosure or sell it to my Stepdads cousin. My stepdad is my Dad in my eyes, I have no memory of my parents married, all of my memories are of my Mom and Stepdad being together. My Stepdad built that house with his dad. I grew up in the room he grew up in, and I think it would be amazing if my son got do the same. I was crushed when we had to leave. I didn't pack anything, so therefore unless my Mom packed it for me I left every memory behind. We moved on my 17th birthday and my mom gave me $12. At the time I was ungrateful and annoyed. Now I know that was the only money they had and they gave it to me. When we walked out the door the last time we had no where to go. The 1st night we slept in our car, the only one we didn't lose. Then my sisters friend let us stay in her beaten down 2 bedroom trailer, and she had 3 kids at the time. In total there were 5 adults, 2 kids. Sharing 980 sq feet. My bio Dad called and asked if I wanted to live with him, he's well off to put it nicely, and I didn't want to but I knew it would make my mom have one less mouth to feed and body to cloth so I agreed. 3 weeks before I started my senior year, the year everyone wants to experience with their life long school buddies, I was starting a new school 8 hours away from everyone I loved(I moved from South Carolina to Ohio). I stayed through College then came home. But the want and longing to really go home, back to MY HOME, has never gone away. The man who bought my house has agreed to sit and talk. He wants to sell it, but he has a tenant who has been there for 10 years so he's conflicted.

Bringing this back to @taylorswift , I need my debt::income ratio to stay where it is. We have worked our asses off to get rid of any debt, other than the ongoing credit card payments that we do make on time. In order to get to Lover Fest West, we would have to book it on credit. And we just can't, I just can't justify it. What if it makes it so we can't afford the down payment or we are declined due to the debt??

That's why I wanted to swap to go to Massachusetts instead. I promised my son we would go to this and now I've broken that promise. Some may say, so what? He's 5, he'll get over it. And sure he will, but this is the first promise I have ever broken. I'm always careful about making promises, for this reason. He's crushed and so am I.

🎶"Take pictures in your mind of your childhood room. Memorize what it sounded like when your dad gets home. Remember the footsteps, remember the words said. And all your little brother's favorite songs.

I just realized everything I have is someday gonna be gone"🎶

((Once again, there is a @taylorswift song that helps me get through anything)))

Sorry to rant, no one gets this like I know you guys on here will. So I came here to vent it all out.

If anyone need Lover Fest West tickets, message me.

[swiftiemcdibbles]

LAST CHANCE!!!! POSTING THEM TO SELL TODAY

LOVER FEST PROPOSAL/QUESTION

Ok so I'm just gonna put this out there and see what happens.

As of now I have tickets to Lover Fest West and it's literally on the other side of the Country seeing as I live on the East Coast, South Carolina to be exact. At the time of my allotted pre-sale time, Lover Fest East had like no available seats, unless I got floor seats. Normally I do, but this time I was buying 3 because my son is coming along. I've made posts about this before, basically this tour has been the one I've promised him he would be allowed to attend. Anyways, I went ahead and got Lover Fest West tickets thinking with the time I had to save it would be no problem. Well, it's becoming a problem. And sooooo.....

Are there any swifties that currently have Lover Fest East tickets that want and/or need Lover Fest West tickets instead?

Love Fest East is way more feasible for us because I have family in Massachusetts, Connecticut, and Rhode Island. I've made that drive many times. My son is weary of flying, so driving would be easier.

My current tickets aren't great, like I said. They are Section 450, Row 3, Seats 17,18, and 19.

If anyone can or will trade I would be so grateful!

@taylorswift if there is anything you can do to help, I mean I wouldn't hate it.((that's sarcasm))lol.

@taylorswift @taylornation