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Okay we're still getting the blog set up however I'd like to see a promo!

We're a blog specifically for System Littles, and we will be reblogging aesthetics, items, ect, for child alters. We hope you enjoy yourself!

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Dear Systems,

Some Things To Remember:

For all those systems that need to hear this:

You Are SO Valid

You Are Worth So much

Your System is Important

Your Alters/Others Are there to help you

And to The Alters, You Are so Important, you protect the host and care for them

Things to Remember:

Make sure your system Eats Enough

Make sure your system Drinks enough water

Take Breaks through out the day to relax

Make sure that the System exercises and Gets Well Earned and Needed Sleep

Always Remember That You Matter, Your System matters, and that you are valid, All Of You Matter and are Valid

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System Hopping can also be dangerous and if done enough toxic and abusive. It can put depandance on the other that ignores all boundaries

Important

System Resets ARE NOT a real thing.

System Hopping IS NOT a real thing.

Systems are based in prolonged childhood trauma. It is not a fad for people to pretend to have.

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Dear Systems,

Some Things To Remember:

For all those systems that need to hear this:

You Are SO Valid

You Are Worth So much

Your System is Important

Your Alters/Others Are there to help you

And to The Alters, You Are so Important, you protect the host and care for them

Things to Remember:

Make sure your system Eats Enough

Make sure your system Drinks enough water

Take Breaks through out the day to relax

Make sure that the System exercises and Gets Well Earned and Needed Sleep

Always Remember That You Matter, Your System matters, and that you are valid, All Of You Matter and are Valid

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Reminders for DID/OSDD syskids & child parts:

You are safe.

You are strong.

You are so very brave.

And you are going to be okay.

You are not alone.

You are cared about.

You are loved.

Your loved ones love you.

And your system loves you, too!

DNI: nsfw/k!nk

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I came to a conclusion that the term trigger automatically has bad association, while it does just mean to set off feelings. The association has been set in stone that to be a trigger, or triggered, it’s a terrible connotation. It has been given the definition of distressing and anxiety inducing, upsetting.

While thats accurate, not all triggers are negative! Some triggers can be positive associations. And me and @vulpinesystem finally agreed on referring to positive triggers as sparks! 

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Hi I'm also a Riku fictive and I've been main fronter for a couple years! My partner is Sora and he has like, a system within his system. Like, he has Ven, Roxas, Xion, and Vanitas in his heart completely separate from the rest of that body's headspace. Sometimes they front through him. I figured you would find it interesting

“ I’m a Kingdom Hearts Fictive I’m like sure anyone who knows Kingdom Hearts and follows this blog probably knew that but I’ve been dodgey about it cause I feel weird being seen more as a fictive / introject than I do a person since I consider myself decently grown past my source. It makes me feel oddly objectified outside of my pre-existing friends. ((So please don’t send me asks directly referencing Kingdom Hearts)) “

I literally put that in the very beginning of my post because I very very much do not like being seen first as a fictive and only like people I know personally and closely to pay much attention to that nature since it makes me very very uncomfortable to be primarily conversed with / interacted with / acknowledged under the pretenses that I am a fictive from a popular series and am a popular character of that. 

No I am not ashamed to be a fictive and with a very limited few, I do enjoy talking about psuedomemories and emotions and my relationships with my source HOWEVER I very strongly dislike people coming to me commenting on the fact that I am a Riku fictive since it makes me feel objectified, as if they have pre-existing expectations, and lesses me as an individual unique person / alter apart from my source. I have mostly outgrown my attachment to my source and have it more as a comfort that I prefer to leave restricted to myself, my system, and close individuals that I know care / are interested about me for more than my source.

I do not find any of this interesting because I 1) dislike sourcecalls / cannon calls (my opinion, not to invalidate other fictive’s opinions) 2) have absolutely no interest in meeting anyone from my source and would even go so far as to say I am very wary about meeting anyone from my source and 3) have no real reason to correlate or relate since I am the host of the system first and a fictive second. Just because we are introjected from the same source means little to me.

I do not want to be interacted about my source.

I do not want to have any assumptions about me because of my source.

I do not want people to interact with me seeking out relationships because of my source.

It is those three principles that kept me silent about being a fictive and the three reasons I had NEVER mentioned directly I was from Kingdom Hearts since I knew someone would just read “RIKU FICTIVE?! RIKU FICTIVE?! OH I WANNA MESSAGE A RIKU FICTIVE” and not read anything else. There was a reason that was at the VERY TOP of my post. 

I was *hoping* I could be honest about my source for one moment and not be objectified for it, but apparently not. It is part of the fictive culture that is on tumblr that I personally find very uncomfortable because a lot of people assume that all fictives want to interact and know others and don’t bother to question if asking about someone’s very personal way of coping with trauma and bonding over it is something that all fictives want. If some people do, I respect that, but personally? I don’t and I would really like if that was respected and not assumed.

Also, the thing that does bother me is considering some of those people I “knew” myself, what is the point in telling me you “know and are dating” people that are versions / alternate introjects of people that I held very dear to myself? Laugh about it and find it cool? Be like “Oh cool relatable?” because no. I’m not.

[TW: Psuedomemories / False Memories]

I am personally offended a bit since this felt a lot like a bit of a joke / like being a fictive is some fun identity and something fun to indulge in and similar. If it is for you, I’m not going to judge, but I really do not find it fun to think about meeting “sourcemates” or anything since I personally know none of them are actually going to be the person I knew because quite personally, the people I knew never existed. 

I have personally blocked every cannon call / source call / fictive call that is in the tags due to a mix of personal very bad experiences with them and it being a source of bad memories and also due to my fundamental discomfort with them.

Again though, this is my relationship with being a fictive and my form of coping and healing - it does not apply or define anyone elses. This is how I relate to my fictive source nature and how I cope with the psuedomemories.

It bothers me quite a bit and would fuck with my head a lot of if I actually indulged the idea that maybe the people I cared immensely for somehow made it here as well. It would be a problem to my understanding of reality and as a result, I intentionally do not cling too heavily or interact much with people that identify with my source. It is not healthy for me. 

IF it helps you, it helps you, but seeing someone try to drag me into interacting with people with source and framing it as a good thing when I specifically requested not to, is extremely rude, annoying, and inconsiderate.

[TW END : Psuedomemories / False Memories]

Also I’m sure you didn’t mean harm. I’m sure you genuinely thought this would be interesting or something similar. I’m hoping - with the benefit of the doubt - you genuinely didn’t read / notice the first paragraph on that post. I’m sorry if I am being excessively harsh but I had stressed about stating my source for a year or so since I’ve been on here - I considered even changing my name to avoid posts like this - and to have the first time I mention it thinking that I’m just over exaggerating it - to be met with exactly what I didn’t want is quite frustrating.

I also felt the need to post a few things about my relationship with being a fictive that I’ve held back on because if I am already out there, I am already out there.

Please, I won’t hold grudges, but please next time respect people’s boundaries and do not assume that they are interested / comfortable with the same things you are and please read the full post.

-Riku (Host)

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Life with Dissociative Identity Disorder

Inspired by: http://onbeingmental.tumblr.com/post/42801506786/what-is-life-like-with-did

Life with Dissociative Identity Disorder:

Internal Voices: Sometimes, alters can talk to you through emotions and images. Sometimes, they sound like loud thoughts. Sometimes, they have their own voice, complete with accent and tone, and you can listen to them and ignore them just like you can any outside person. Sometimes, two of them will be talking to each other, and you just sit there and listen. Other times, it’s distracting. You can interrupt each other or not be able to properly hear. Sometimes, you really can’t hear right, and then you may only pick up on certain words or the general idea. At other times, you can’t hear what they’re saying internally. You only know what they’re communicating through the body, if they even bother with that. Sometimes, it’s hard to know whether you personally are just thinking or talking internally. If you’re host, you may be in the habit of mentally projecting or shouting everything, whether you know it or not. This takes away a lot of your privacy.

Dissociation: Fun DID fact; the dissociation is almost always there to a certain degree. Even if you’re alone in the body, the most random of words can set off the dissociation. Emotions either never get too strong or never make any sense. You feel distanced from your body and, if you ever try to examine life, it all stops feeling real. If you’re co-conscious with someone else, the world seems distanced and strange. You may not have any sense of identity when someone else is in control. You can feel completely blank, watching them reacting to the world. It’s like getting absorbed into the movie; you’re too busy watching the actors to think too much. You can’t hear what they’re thinking, and if they’re not talking, your head is just blank.

Triggers: When you have DID, you just never know how triggers will affect you. Sometimes, the most common of words, a change in tone, a slight touch, or a whiff of cologne will set you off. It depends on which alter is closest; some of them can handle much more than others can. Your reactions vary, as well. Some alters will retreat. Other times, a trigger will cause one of them to switch out or come close to front. You yourself may experience strong panic or anger. On the other hand, you may feel completely emotionless and drained. Maybe the world will grow distant and fuzzy, but everything may seem too sharp and focused. You can be torn between hiding somewhere safe and triggering yourself further, triggering yourself as much as possible, in order to knock the dissociation away and regain a sense of self. Sometimes, it won’t take effect until time has passed and you’re somewhere where it’s okay to break down, but this can just make everything more confusing and can make the eventual reaction stronger.

Memory: DID can destroy your memory. Some people lose time when their alters front. No matter how great the need, they just can’t remember what happened when they weren’t there. Others lose the memory of their alters’ activities even if they were originally there to see what happened. Even your personal memories can be stolen by a powerful alter or split away in order to protect you or to keep information from reaching the front. You may find yourself remembering random small things but nothing important; you may have the mental outline of what happened but no details or actual memory. You may remember things in snap shots instead of movie clips, and you may remember things in third person or without emotion, sound, or sensation. Dissociation destroys your sense of time.

Co-conscious: Often, people with DID can or learn to be present when their alters are there. The amount of control they maintain can vary. Sometimes, you’re just watching your body move. You can’t stop yourself from saying things or reacting. You don’t know what you will do next or who is currently in charge of your body. Other times, you can talk with the alter in control, or you can be in control and they can be talking to you. Sometimes, you can both be close enough that while you can still feel slightly in control, the alter’s perception of the world leeks through. You may feel their emotional state or physical sensations that disappear when they leave. You may gain their knowledge and suddenly increase in ability. Sometimes, if you’re very close, you can hear their thought process.

Life Direction: Decision making can be hard. As host, you may want one thing and work hard for one thing, but an alter can make that ideal much harder to reach just by coming out for the shortest amount of time. You may need to do work, but an alter may goof off for hours without you being able to stop them. They may want something different than you do and actively work to sabotage you. They may disagree with your sense of style or taste in music. They may try to hang out with people you don’t care to know or eat food you hate. You may find yourself unable to complete something or relate to someone without an alter’s help… an alter who can’t always be there when you need them. Most frightening, they may have different morals. They may look at p*rnography that makes you feel ill, or they may not see a problem with hurting other people.

Doubting Your Perceptions: With so much doubt about DID’s validity, it can be hard to get validation from some friends and family members, and it’s near impossible to have memories of trauma confirmed by those involved; after all, you had to repress the memories for a reason.You may begin to feel insane, like you made all of the memories up. The derealization doesn’t help! Some alters may get mad at you for denying them, but others may exist solely to deepen denial and prevent you from accepting the past. The trauma itself can seem severe beyond reason. You may feel insane because of the alters or memories. Anything can fuel this denial.

Feeling Like a Fake: You don’t black out? Faking it.  You do black out? It’s organic, not DID. You can’t function? Attention seeking faker. You can function? Lying faker. You have too many alters? Faking. Not enough? Faking. Animal alters? Fake. Angry alters? Dangerous fake. Friendly alters? Roleplayer. Your alters have different physical or mental disabilities? That’s impossible; you’re faking it. Your body doesn’t change with each alter? Fake. Others believe you? You fooled them. No one believes you? Fake. A diagnosis? Scam. You have proof of your past? Doesn’t mean you have DID. No proof? Sick fake. You have DID? Fake.

Sense of Self: How can you ever know who you really are when “you” can seemingly change at a drop of the hat? Alters like different foods than you do. They listen to different music and wear different clothes. Some of them excel at logic puzzles, but you like to paint. You hate math, but one of them is a math genius. People can accurately call you a Republican and a Democrat. You can go from a church girl to a party girl to an angry mother-f*cker to a terrified toddler. At times, “you” claim different names, ages, and genders. Depending on the alter near, you can find yourself attracted to boys, girls, or everything in between. You contain other people. Are you just a gateway for them?

PTSD: As DID is caused by trauma, it tends to come with PTSD. You find yourself triggered by things that you can’t even remember. You’re constantly in fear or constantly angry. Your startle reflex is extreme. You hate being touched. Maybe you can’t become aroused unless you feel violated. Maybe sex terrifies you, but maybe you’re promiscuous and love risky sex. On some level, you can’t trust anyone. You’re jealous of any close relationships and of anyone who lived a happy life and got a happy ending. At the same time, you don’t feel worthy of your own happy ending. You feel like a drain on society. You feel toxic, like you hurt everyone you care about. You sabotage your own success, but at the same time, you may work as hard as possible to help everyone or to excel at something so that you have worth. You hate your body. You live in fear of hurting others because of the anger or cycle of abuse. You live in fear of what your alters may do. All of the symptoms mentioned may affect only certain alters. The symptoms may be spread out to match the memories. You feel a sense of loss at what you never really had. You feel like you were never innocent or pure. You look at your happy child alters and abused child alters, and you want to cry. You may hurt yourself just to feel real. You may hate yourself and want to escape your life in any way possible. You may have Depression, Anxiety, an Eating Disorder, or a Personality Disorder.

Like It or Not, This is Your Life. Therapy may help you, but it takes a long time. You may not be able to take time out of work, school, or your family to heal at the pace that you want. You may experience set backs at every step. The milestones may seem to grow farther and farther away. You may find new alters and new horrors awaiting you every time you feel done. You may wear out your support system, or you may wear out your hope. You may be unable to find a therapist to help you. You may be hospitalized. You may find yourself unable to even confide in others, forcing yourself to try and heal alone. You may want to give up. You may want your old life back, but no amount of ignoring the DID will make it go away.

You’re Never Alone. No matter who leaves you, you’re never alone. No matter how hopeless it seems, you always have someone rooting for you. No matter how angry or broken your alters seem, they were created for you. In some way, your alters are always protecting you. They were created during the darkest days of your life so that you could still see the light without going blind. They took your place so that you could retain a sense of happiness and safety. They hold the feelings that you never could. They do the things that you would never be brave enough to do. They’re there to protect you. In their own way, each and every one of them is doing everything that they can to help you.

Every Night Must Break For Dawn. Sometimes, DID can not only be a good thing, but feel like a good thing, as well. No matter how terrible a disorder it is, you will get much needed breaks from the stress. It can be useful to have an alter ace a test for you. It can be wonderful to watch littles enjoying childhood in a way that you never could. It can fun to watch alters interacting with their friends in a way that you can’t. You have strengths that you never even dreamed of. You have friends right there in your head! If you hate something, someone else can do it for you. If you need to relax, someone else can handle things for a while. You may find that some of your alters have a great sense of humor. Maybe they’re really friendly. Maybe they can teach you things or help you to look at life in a new way.

You’re Not Alone in This. DID is a rare disorder, but many people do suffer from it. Others with DID can offer you advice or share their experiences. Even the most difficult of alters may be more receptive to someone who was in the same place they are. It’s nice to meet someone who really understands what you’re going through, and it can show you that no, you’re not just insane. At least, not very!

This is life with DID. Integration can make it go away eventually, and cooperation can drastically improve what living with it is like, but this is what it’s like to have DID.

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Life with Dissociative Identity Disorder

Inspired by: http://onbeingmental.tumblr.com/post/42801506786/what-is-life-like-with-did

Life with Dissociative Identity Disorder:

Internal Voices: Sometimes, alters can talk to you through emotions and images. Sometimes, they sound like loud thoughts. Sometimes, they have their own voice, complete with accent and tone, and you can listen to them and ignore them just like you can any outside person. Sometimes, two of them will be talking to each other, and you just sit there and listen. Other times, it’s distracting. You can interrupt each other or not be able to properly hear. Sometimes, you really can’t hear right, and then you may only pick up on certain words or the general idea. At other times, you can’t hear what they’re saying internally. You only know what they’re communicating through the body, if they even bother with that. Sometimes, it’s hard to know whether you personally are just thinking or talking internally. If you’re host, you may be in the habit of mentally projecting or shouting everything, whether you know it or not. This takes away a lot of your privacy.

Dissociation: Fun DID fact; the dissociation is almost always there to a certain degree. Even if you’re alone in the body, the most random of words can set off the dissociation. Emotions either never get too strong or never make any sense. You feel distanced from your body and, if you ever try to examine life, it all stops feeling real. If you’re co-conscious with someone else, the world seems distanced and strange. You may not have any sense of identity when someone else is in control. You can feel completely blank, watching them reacting to the world. It’s like getting absorbed into the movie; you’re too busy watching the actors to think too much. You can’t hear what they’re thinking, and if they’re not talking, your head is just blank.

Triggers: When you have DID, you just never know how triggers will affect you. Sometimes, the most common of words, a change in tone, a slight touch, or a whiff of cologne will set you off. It depends on which alter is closest; some of them can handle much more than others can. Your reactions vary, as well. Some alters will retreat. Other times, a trigger will cause one of them to switch out or come close to front. You yourself may experience strong panic or anger. On the other hand, you may feel completely emotionless and drained. Maybe the world will grow distant and fuzzy, but everything may seem too sharp and focused. You can be torn between hiding somewhere safe and triggering yourself further, triggering yourself as much as possible, in order to knock the dissociation away and regain a sense of self. Sometimes, it won’t take effect until time has passed and you’re somewhere where it’s okay to break down, but this can just make everything more confusing and can make the eventual reaction stronger.

Memory: DID can destroy your memory. Some people lose time when their alters front. No matter how great the need, they just can’t remember what happened when they weren’t there. Others lose the memory of their alters’ activities even if they were originally there to see what happened. Even your personal memories can be stolen by a powerful alter or split away in order to protect you or to keep information from reaching the front. You may find yourself remembering random small things but nothing important; you may have the mental outline of what happened but no details or actual memory. You may remember things in snap shots instead of movie clips, and you may remember things in third person or without emotion, sound, or sensation. Dissociation destroys your sense of time.

Co-conscious: Often, people with DID can or learn to be present when their alters are there. The amount of control they maintain can vary. Sometimes, you’re just watching your body move. You can’t stop yourself from saying things or reacting. You don’t know what you will do next or who is currently in charge of your body. Other times, you can talk with the alter in control, or you can be in control and they can be talking to you. Sometimes, you can both be close enough that while you can still feel slightly in control, the alter’s perception of the world leeks through. You may feel their emotional state or physical sensations that disappear when they leave. You may gain their knowledge and suddenly increase in ability. Sometimes, if you’re very close, you can hear their thought process.

Life Direction: Decision making can be hard. As host, you may want one thing and work hard for one thing, but an alter can make that ideal much harder to reach just by coming out for the shortest amount of time. You may need to do work, but an alter may goof off for hours without you being able to stop them. They may want something different than you do and actively work to sabotage you. They may disagree with your sense of style or taste in music. They may try to hang out with people you don’t care to know or eat food you hate. You may find yourself unable to complete something or relate to someone without an alter’s help… an alter who can’t always be there when you need them. Most frightening, they may have different morals. They may look at p*rnography that makes you feel ill, or they may not see a problem with hurting other people.

Doubting Your Perceptions: With so much doubt about DID’s validity, it can be hard to get validation from some friends and family members, and it’s near impossible to have memories of trauma confirmed by those involved; after all, you had to repress the memories for a reason.You may begin to feel insane, like you made all of the memories up. The derealization doesn’t help! Some alters may get mad at you for denying them, but others may exist solely to deepen denial and prevent you from accepting the past. The trauma itself can seem severe beyond reason. You may feel insane because of the alters or memories. Anything can fuel this denial.

Feeling Like a Fake: You don’t black out? Faking it.  You do black out? It’s organic, not DID. You can’t function? Attention seeking faker. You can function? Lying faker. You have too many alters? Faking. Not enough? Faking. Animal alters? Fake. Angry alters? Dangerous fake. Friendly alters? Roleplayer. Your alters have different physical or mental disabilities? That’s impossible; you’re faking it. Your body doesn’t change with each alter? Fake. Others believe you? You fooled them. No one believes you? Fake. A diagnosis? Scam. You have proof of your past? Doesn’t mean you have DID. No proof? Sick fake. You have DID? Fake.

Sense of Self: How can you ever know who you really are when “you” can seemingly change at a drop of the hat? Alters like different foods than you do. They listen to different music and wear different clothes. Some of them excel at logic puzzles, but you like to paint. You hate math, but one of them is a math genius. People can accurately call you a Republican and a Democrat. You can go from a church girl to a party girl to an angry mother-f*cker to a terrified toddler. At times, “you” claim different names, ages, and genders. Depending on the alter near, you can find yourself attracted to boys, girls, or everything in between. You contain other people. Are you just a gateway for them?

PTSD: As DID is caused by trauma, it tends to come with PTSD. You find yourself triggered by things that you can’t even remember. You’re constantly in fear or constantly angry. Your startle reflex is extreme. You hate being touched. Maybe you can’t become aroused unless you feel violated. Maybe sex terrifies you, but maybe you’re promiscuous and love risky sex. On some level, you can’t trust anyone. You’re jealous of any close relationships and of anyone who lived a happy life and got a happy ending. At the same time, you don’t feel worthy of your own happy ending. You feel like a drain on society. You feel toxic, like you hurt everyone you care about. You sabotage your own success, but at the same time, you may work as hard as possible to help everyone or to excel at something so that you have worth. You hate your body. You live in fear of hurting others because of the anger or cycle of abuse. You live in fear of what your alters may do. All of the symptoms mentioned may affect only certain alters. The symptoms may be spread out to match the memories. You feel a sense of loss at what you never really had. You feel like you were never innocent or pure. You look at your happy child alters and abused child alters, and you want to cry. You may hurt yourself just to feel real. You may hate yourself and want to escape your life in any way possible. You may have Depression, Anxiety, an Eating Disorder, or a Personality Disorder.

Like It or Not, This is Your Life. Therapy may help you, but it takes a long time. You may not be able to take time out of work, school, or your family to heal at the pace that you want. You may experience set backs at every step. The milestones may seem to grow farther and farther away. You may find new alters and new horrors awaiting you every time you feel done. You may wear out your support system, or you may wear out your hope. You may be unable to find a therapist to help you. You may be hospitalized. You may find yourself unable to even confide in others, forcing yourself to try and heal alone. You may want to give up. You may want your old life back, but no amount of ignoring the DID will make it go away.

You’re Never Alone. No matter who leaves you, you’re never alone. No matter how hopeless it seems, you always have someone rooting for you. No matter how angry or broken your alters seem, they were created for you. In some way, your alters are always protecting you. They were created during the darkest days of your life so that you could still see the light without going blind. They took your place so that you could retain a sense of happiness and safety. They hold the feelings that you never could. They do the things that you would never be brave enough to do. They’re there to protect you. In their own way, each and every one of them is doing everything that they can to help you.

Every Night Must Break For Dawn. Sometimes, DID can not only be a good thing, but feel like a good thing, as well. No matter how terrible a disorder it is, you will get much needed breaks from the stress. It can be useful to have an alter ace a test for you. It can be wonderful to watch littles enjoying childhood in a way that you never could. It can fun to watch alters interacting with their friends in a way that you can’t. You have strengths that you never even dreamed of. You have friends right there in your head! If you hate something, someone else can do it for you. If you need to relax, someone else can handle things for a while. You may find that some of your alters have a great sense of humor. Maybe they’re really friendly. Maybe they can teach you things or help you to look at life in a new way.

You’re Not Alone in This. DID is a rare disorder, but many people do suffer from it. Others with DID can offer you advice or share their experiences. Even the most difficult of alters may be more receptive to someone who was in the same place they are. It’s nice to meet someone who really understands what you’re going through, and it can show you that no, you’re not just insane. At least, not very!

This is life with DID. Integration can make it go away eventually, and cooperation can drastically improve what living with it is like, but this is what it’s like to have DID.

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Fictive/factive heavy systems are real. Fictive/factive only systems are real. Having fictives/factives in your system does NOT mean your system is fake. “Cringey” or “problematic” fictives/factives are perfectly fine and do not make your system any less “valid”. 

Fictives and factives can’t choose their identities and excluding them from plural spaces, calling them fake, calling them cringey or whatever else is not acceptable.

I’ve seen a lot of hate for fictives/factives in systems and fictive/factive heavy systems lately, so I figured I’d make this post, as a fictive in a fictive heavy system.

All systems can interact. This also applies to fcktives, fuzztives, fogtives and whatever else (I’m not too familiar with the newer terms, sorry!). You all are important and your existence is not cringey.

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introjects are not just fictives. we're factives, fcktives/f-ctives, fogtives, and much more. include us and talk about us too in your system and introject posts.

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types of dissociation we experience

airport at 3 am vibes

*looks in the mirror* LMAO WHO IS THAT?!!?!

h e a d a c h e

reality but east

crying while listening to vocaloid at midnight

haha words go blurr

aight guess im dead

who even is fronting?? idk but mcr SLAPS

oh. im a robot. hm.

*scribbles all in the sketchbook*

seeing art of a bunch of the fictives hanging out and all them climbing their way to the front

TRAUMA TIME

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reasons we didn’t tell you we switched:

we thought it’d be obvious

we assumed you’d be annoyed or mad

we’re used to pretending it didn’t happen

we think it’s an awkward thing to bring up

NOT reasons:

we don’t trust you

we think you’ll lash out

we don’t want you to know

it’s just a second nature thing for our system and i’m assuming a lot of others to not make a big deal of it. we switched to a little the other day and him and i both assumed who we were speaking with could tell it wasn’t me anymore since our voice, personality, and about everything else changed. it’s also a weird thing to bring up in the middle of a convo, “by the way i’m a different person oops”. if you know about someone’s system of course they trust you, but that system probably has had to hide a LOT.

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Being a system includes these fun experiences:

Where’s my shit?

Who ate my food?

Older (responsible) alter: *walks in front of a store with candy/toys* // Every Little Ever: “STUUUUUFFFFFFFIIIIIEEEESSSSS”

Why are we sore?

*looks in mirror* “who the fuck—?!?!”

Where am I?

How long have I been gone?

Why are we no longer friends with ____?

What do you mean it’s June already? But it was January like two days ago!

WHO THE HELL BROUGHT THEM BACK INTO OUR LIFE?

*suddenly switches in when someone was out with friends* hi, hello, yes, who are you and where the fuck am I?

*switches in while an alter was doing some Activities™* haha, no, sorry I’m not your partner, please stop kissing me.

*leaves messages unopened for hours or even days bc another alter was talking to the person/system and you don’t wanna intrude*

Having to explain to friends that x doesn’t like them and you don’t know why.

Protectors getting wind of a Possible Threat™ and blocking someone you genuinely wanted to get to know.

WHO FORGOT TO WEAR SUNBLOCK

Please, feel free to continue.

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not doing great?

clean your room

open curtains/windows

take a shower

put on clean clothes

get out of your room a bit

stretch

drink a glass of water

get the hard/important stuff out of the way while you have energy

set some (any!) goals

remember that it is okay to have bad days

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Physical Symptoms of DID

There are a huge variety of physical symptoms that may go along with the mental symptoms of DID and can be encountered by some or all of the alters. Because these symptoms can be inconsistent and /can sometimes/ lack a physical cause, some people will seek medical help for these before they seek psychiatric care. Please seek medical attention for these symptoms even if you believe they are somatic.

A partial list: Inexplicable, and sometimes un medicatable headaches Joint pains IBS or upset stomach, nausea, acid reflux Inconsistent allergies Lack of normal response or abnormal response to medications/recreational drugs Fluctuating or poor eyesight Fluctuating or poor hearing Sensitivity to light or sound Lack of normal pain response Insomnia Fatigue during day Dizziness/vertigo Restless sleep/frequent wakes Irregular menstruation Excessively painful or painless menstruation Hyperventilation/fast pulse Low or irregular blood sugar Excessive sweating Swelling or bloating Vaginismus/erectile dysfunction/physiological difficulty having sex

DID may even have some influence over thyroid issues, major blood sugar/blood pressure issues, intolerance to foods, etc but we don’t have enough research into this.

Feel free to add your symptoms