#+ a derealization episode happy derealization december

[lesmiserablol]

i have had two people in the last week tell me i am the unluckiest person they know....bossuet coded babeyyyyy

[solarisgod]

Happy holiday season, starlights! We wish you all a gentle rest of 2023 as we hope the upcoming year will bring everyone here all of the light and love. We're proud of everyone for everything as they're still here. 💖✨ It is that time once more when we will be thoroughly writing out a significant event of the Starwake System's canon series, Antineon Hieraeon, from December 24, 2023 to January 1, 2024 based on the arc of The Self Show Now Playing In Lost Angeles in threads, drabbles, prompt replies, and scene graphic edits. This arc will be the finale week that covers the last several episodes of Antineon Hieraeon's Saga 1 Season 3.

If you wish to keep track of the event or blacklist it due to potential excessive posting, we will be tagging the occasions as #SELFSHOWNOWPLAYING. If we can, we may continue our current drafts as to reply to them somewhere in between the Self Show arc related posts or reply to prompts if we don't have any muse for threads at the time. If your muse have an established connection with Micah / the Starwake System, keep in mind they will likely not be available in a week. Any new threads and prompt replies and dynamics will be a retro to this arc unless stated otherwise in tags / dms. Like the previous season finales, our mutuals as the Audience will be able to participate the event as an outer force, though we may allow their muses to be part of the arc if we see the opportunities rising. Keep in mind that depersonalization, derealization, and unreality are major themes of this arc, so please tread cautiously.

The series' Saga 1 Season 3 is my favourite season of this whole first saga, including because of its finale as a prominent reason, so we're extremely looking forward to tell as much of it to the audience as we can. As always, thank you all so much for the continuous love and support in Antineon Hieraeon! Approaching to its second anniversary next month, it's been beyond incredible to see how much the series and its universe have been developed, and quite honestly, we wouldn't make it this far without you guys being part of this journey. Thank you again so much and may the rest of this year and the next and the beyond be most shining kind to you all! 💖✨💖✨💖✨

[shitsumon-abound]

Been writing a saga that almost spans 300k word and counting and is so happy that I realize my content fits the official material just released to celebrate Hisoka's birthday

HEHEHEHEHE

It's great that canon material fits with your headcanon.

Hisoka's birthday card as translated by @moonlight404-translates (released December 2023)

Izumi: (...Hisoka-san said that he needed a lot of details to get in character back then. Now that I think about it, when did he stop asking for that?)  Izumi: (Around this time might have been when he started to become the actor “Hisoka Mikage.”)

My fic, set in Awakening Moon, just around the time Masumi almost leaves MANKAI (uploaded 06 Dec 2022):

“I had a new kind of attack yesterday. I felt like I’m up on stage, and I can only watch my body moves according to this character’s whim... but it’s not a character I made. It was kinda scary.” Itaru glanced at Citron. “Letting your body moves according to the character’s whim? Are you like that too when acting? Hisoka’s description sounds pretty mental if you ask me.” Citron shook his head. “Tsumugi also said my experience is not something he ever heard before, and I might need to relearn acting. Or else, there’d always be a risk of me getting an attack during a performance.” He also called it a depersonalization and derealization episode, and that Hisoka might have something called dissociation disorder besides everything else. Trauma usually caused that. It’s not at all surprising for Hisoka to have it, but it was a bit concerning. Looking at Itaru and Citron’s faces, it was more than a bit concerning, apparently. “That sounds tough.”

[feral-creep]

derealization sucks so much ass 0/10, i hope life eases up on you soon!! besides, youve been consistently putting out content for a long time, dw abt taking ur time!!

(also, mx. sinister by i dont know how but they found me has the whole vibe of “shigaraki playing at being like a normal person despite being delusional abt the relationship” aspect of [[save scum]] its such a banger)

- eira, the one that leaves essays in ur comments

thank you eira <3<3<3

yeah, the one good thing about this is that this is probably the 200th time i've cycled from mild hypomanic states to depressive episodes, so i have good structures in place. i have meds and a therapist and all that shit. it's not a 'crisis' so much as an inconvenience, like.... for about three weeks there i had zero sex drive (which is VERY unusual for me) and none of the comments people left felt real, writing anything seemed just... totally insane, and even my Gimme Dopamine playlist gave me zero dopamine.

it's not even a sadness either! it's a lethargy and indifference that feels almost pleasant, if not for colors desaturating just all over the place.

one of the nice things about 'growing up' / getting older and getting treatment for a mental health condition is that what i'm going thru should not make anyone worried or anything. it's just a rhythm of life that ebbs and flows and will be over in a few weeks. it's kind of like when christmas music starts playing in mid-october and then by december you feel like when 'feliz navidad' comes on the radio for the billionth time, somehow the song is part of you and also a million miles away and NOTHING IS REAL, CHRISTMAS IS NOT REAL. FELIZ NAVIDAD. FE-LEES-NA-VEE-DAHD.

except feliz navidad is everything! bathing! writing! other humans! obligations! happiness! you vaguely remember being excited about the concept of christmas as a child; why can't you be excited now? why does the sight of a poinsettia make you want to throw up?

but you just gotta wait it out until december 26th. then things kinda get normal again.

until mid-october next year, and the cycle resumes.

so i hope you guys haven't been worrying too much! i'm just waiting out feliz navidad.

and HOLY SHIT eira again with the music reccos!! this ones a banger! a bop! an OPUS of STALKERAKI!