#//i might have to ask my mom to help me clean them bc deadass i just feel so dejected and empty inside when i look at those figures

[revvywevvy]

i took her out of her box just long enough to take this picture then stuffed her back in because I'm terrified of ruining her pristine model-work ;; she's so purrdy,,

[yjwonz]

hi r/aita am i the a hole uwu fuck this

right so my dad recently had a surgery, when i say recently i mean literally yesterday. i took the day off n everything to drive him there get him back and ive been taking care of him while still managing to care for my younger sisters, cook for them, clean the house, etc... right? so when i asked my now 15 y/o sister (turned 15 last week idk if i posted abt it) to go out and buy some medicine like painkillers and shit to help my dad sleep faster (thats it) she couldve done it right? there a pharmacy literally like 4 blocks away idk its like a less then 10 minute walk. she was there anyway because she went to the gym around there to work out. i call her up and i go 'hey can you pick up this medicine blah blah blah like right now please' and she agrees to do it right. 20 mins past i dont think anything bc it might take her a while to find the stuff and walk back i call her 'hey can you maybe hurry up ?? sorry its just he really needs them yk' and she goes 'yeah whatever i know calm down' and im like ...what??

anyways 15 more minutes past, she should be home. i call her, 'where are you ??' she says shes otw. okay. 15 more minutes, where tf is she? the gym isnt far from the pharmacy btw, literally less than 5 mins. also painkillers n shit are like right by the door and its never busy either. im abt to call her and she sends me a text telling me to open the door. i tell one of my sisters to go open it and she goes outside to see where said sister is. i walk over to the door and ask where sister is and little sister says 'shes here but her friends are here' ..what? what. i see sister walking up the steps a huge fucking bag in her hand and shes laughing w her friends. she steps in her friends still outside. im staring hella hard at her and i close the door and im like where the fuck have you been? i asked you for 2 things. why are your friends here what the fuck? and shes like oh my god i got the stuff calm down. and i say thats not the point you cant take a single day of not hanging out w friends?? (she hangs out w them like 8 times every week deadass)

and shes getting mad at ME?? she tells me they were at the gym with her and i tell her then why are they here?? 'they were at the gym with me' 'okay that still doesnt explain why r they here???' and she take the medicine out of the back and goes 'it doesnt matter oh my god just go give this to YOUR dad'

EXCUSE ME???? MY DAD???? i say 'what do you mean your dad, you mean our dad !!?!' i leave to give dad his medicine and shes in the garage w her friends, i tell her they need to leave and she says theyre abt to but shes just waiting for her friends mom to pick them up. im done w it atp so im like okay fine whatever. its like 3 oclock now and i serve the other girls lunch and i wait for my sister to come in. 30 minutes and her friends mom isnt here and she said 'were not hanging out just waiting' LIKE A FUCKING LIAR.

anyways yeah yall im not bitchy right im in the right for yelling at her right. CAUSE SHES GOING ALL "BLAH BLAH UR SO THIS AND THAT" LIKE SHTU UP OUR DAD IS LITERALLY IN PAIN AND YOU CANT BE AGOD PERSON FOR ONCE??@?!?@#$U^

tldr ; i send sister out for medicine for our sickly father, she doesnt get back for like 45 mins and when she does she says it doesnt matter it took her so long and tells me to just give the medicine to 'your' dad as if he's not her father ??? i get mad and yell @ her blah blah she also brings her friends over when i told her not to n shit idk

[xoshepard]

holy shit today was soooo long but im so grateful to my parents for driving a total of eight hours today AND helping me move all my boxes down from the third floor

i deadass had a panic attack on monday or so bc my mom told me they might not be able to help and i was so overwhelmed by how much i had to do, but when i told her that she made a plan for them to come with both of their cars to help me move even tho she has a bunch of shit going on at work and she'll have to work tomorrow bc she missed today 😭😭😭😭😭

and bc they brought both cars we were able to get everything i'd packed (which is almost everything i own with a select few exceptions like my computer, which i'll bring later) and so all i have to do now is go home, sell the furniture, clean the apartment, and then come back here!!! im so grateful to them 😭 sometimes i feel like i have to do everything on my own so its nice to know that i have their support when i need it and that im allowed to ask for help etc etc

[omgrubyyyy]

Today my legs (lol went to play subs) anyways today my legs were shaking at the barre thing with my friend and yesterday we started doing it with her sister. Honestly I feel like she’s not even trying in the workouts and like I doesn’t even wanna do the skills now. Like I feel like she needs to do the skills now instead of front of the coach. Like fuck up now than later. I just hopes she tries like actually. But tomorrow we get a break so Yeet. Also I need to work on my leaps deadass that’s the only thing now really well at least for now. But I’ll get there. Also after barre we went to the store to get her family’s supper. They had chicken and mashed potatoes from the deli and they got a sub and some candy. I went with them bcs she gave me a ride home today. Since my mom used the other car to go to my aunts house to help them clean the trailer that my aunt is selling. It’s so stupid bcs then that means that my uncle will now have to live with my aunt. And tbh I think they have a toxic relationship. Like she already left him but she keeps going back to him. Honestly she can find another person but he can’t. I also just hate him. But ya and my mom is still over there cleaning. But I mean at least they are going to pay her. That’s also the only reason she is doing it. Also I have this stupid banquet to attend to like 2 days after tryouts and every family has to bring something. Ewww. Like I’m just gonna bring my mom bcs everyone else is gonna be working. So might as well. Just be the 2 of us at a table. I just don’t know what to bring and I still have to tell her. Also I asked my friend what they do at the banquet and it sounds like mostly eating. So I don’t care lol. Also I found this app well I didn’t find it just now but like I finally borrowed a book online from the library from a app called Libby. It’s so nice. I actually like reading now lol. Currently reading the perks of being a wallflower and Harry Potter the chamber of secrets. But I have the actual book of Harry Potter but it’s from the library and apparently it’s bye NEXT WEEK yikes I need to start reading it. But I cant wait to read more books. Also light install a app called like wise so I can read more books. Also my sister just came back and I don’t want her to come in. Or at least I think it’s my sister. I think it is. Yep it is she just bargred in. Also I gotta still practice my speech eww I hate that class. But we also have to have it memorized but we still get a notecard and honestly I will be fine without it. Our speech is about the challenges of being a … I choose an introvert. Honestly I cant even explain it of how it is. So I just looked up some reasons and boom done. And I’m doing good time wise I hope it goes well. I mean I still got like 3 days to memorize it well. Also I hope that my friend does well on her speech tomorrow. Since she had a panic attack the last time. There is like still 4 people to go and it’s a 4 mins speech or maybe longer if people go over. But I also hate how these 3 girls in my class don’t even like idk I hate their vibe. They literally just read off from the notecard and ughh I hate it. Like idk mane. Like just stop. Also today at the store when I was with my friend and her sis. We saw a girl that is apparently gonna try out. I didn’t even notice until they told me that she was packing the bag. I didn’t know she worked at the local store. Also our cashier was a person from school and she’s nice. She’s in my media lot class and math class. We sit next to each other in media lit and in a group in math. Also I found out a few weeks ago that some dude was sitting next to her but since he barely ever shows up to school I just took it one day but I didn’t now bcs that day it was my first day in class bcs i had to switch my public speaking hours bcs i didn’t get 1 full credit for English for the school year so ya. Also that appently the girl is like rude and stuff but idk. But today in chem I was laughing so hard. Love the class and also I did pretty good on the last class I didn’t do to bad. I did better than most people in

[pirate-kid2k19-blog]

Explaining the behaviors i grew up around to explwin why im like this. Started writing at 3:06AM and finished at 3:48AM

So basically in tennessee where i was born my uncle was an alcoholic pothead. We used to like plsy wrestle a lot and once i accidentally kicked him in the balls now obviously his natural reflex was to push me and i literally flew out that room so hard i nearly fell down the stairs. I broke my right arm. And i forgive him not just because he apologized but he stopped drinking because of that. He now only drinks on holidays or his birthday. Anyways, i grew up for 5 years around christians, witches, and 2 stoners.

my moms cousin was problematic af if he was famous twitter would cancel him harder than anyone else ever bc of this shit that traumatized me. Ill start with what only traumatized me for like 2 years, but then whatll haunt me forever.

So when i was 3, he was cleaning the cat litter. We had 4 cats at the time so there was a lot of shit in the litter. I was trying to get his attention bc i ended up with the room he used to hsve and i didnt want all the hotwheels cars on the wall, and i wanted to ask if hed take them down. Apparently i bugged him so much that he picked me up and put me in the trashcan w i t h t h e c a t s h i t l i t t e r wnd thats why i never went around big trashcans for 2 years.

Now im never gonna forget this. So he and my dad were having a small disagreement bc he did something wrong on a car they were trying to fix (they used to do that together) and well that turned into a full blown fight. Doors were broken, holes were msde in walls, amd my 3 year old self hsd to stand by the stairs and watch paralyzed by fear. Luckily my aunt called the cops and they stopped the fight before it got too bad wnd they were hurt n shit. But i will never forget watching my dad duct tape my kom's cousin's mouth shut and hearing the police sirens and seeing th lights outside.

Anyways, the people who owned the family home died and we had to move. My granddad on my dads side of the family let us stay 2ith. This dude names T.R. (im not giving out real names, but he used his initials as a nicknwme so we'll call him that.) He wasnt that bad of a guy, except for the fact that i developed insomnia due to not being abl3 to sleep til he went to bed at 5am bc of how loud he had his video games. We wouldve said something but we didnt wannw be rude and i think TR just dirntt think we could hear it. He couldnt real,y afford to take care of his dog with the job he had, and while my dad had a good paying job hed help take care of the fluffy chow he had. But after a while, we couldnt afford it either ehen my dad as unemployed and when we went to get him taken to the shelter to be put down (he was really old and miserable, he hardly got any attention bc 1 tr worked until nighttime 3very day just to afford rent and shit for him snd the dog to live off of, and 2 he was really skittish wnd an outside dog in a pen (though the pen was big enough for him and it had a roof and a little house n stuff, everything was just a bitndirty yeet) so he hardly got contact with people.) He kinda jumped out and ran away. He got ran over later on, sadly.

Once id been in georgia for about a year with an empty house next door (they were renovating it so ppl could live there and they wouldnt have to demolish the building since it was good on the outside and all that), my old neighbors/family friends moved in. This little autistic boy a year younger than me exactly (same day but he was born a year after me), his mom who laypter suffered an aneurysm and was paralyzed on all her right side, and her oldest kid mason who wprked at gamestop. You can tell what he looked like just ehen u think that he worked at gamestop and loved legend of zelda. Anyways, this kid and i hsd a lot of fun bc we hsd a lot in common and we both loved nsture and stuff like that. After abt 2 years, we uhh... did bad shit, we stole alcohol and got drunk n shit, hed steal his moms weed (it was illegal weed, she didnt have a card to get it for medical reasons at the time and btw this is after the aneurysm) and sell it to kids he met in the woods. See in the woods by my house theres a small-ish clearing where the property owners hunt and ride four wheelers n stuff, and we were all told we were allowed bsck there as long as the ppl who owned the property werent and we had to wear orange or bright neon yellow in hunting season in case they came bsck there thyd know it was people. This kid nearly got me to join this "gang" he called it. I was pure and innocent back then and said no bc in order to get in i had to cut myself (i had depression but not bad enough to wanna hurt myself or anything, and i hsd no clue wbt self harm or anything i was fuckin 8) and i just told them that me selling shit we werent supposed to hsve in school (candy/gum, slap bracelets, stuff that an 8 year old shouldnt have access to) was good enough for me. However, i wonder what happened to those kids. Theyre probably in high. School juuling in the bathroom lol. But anyways,this fuckin kid and i got drunk together a couple times when we'd sneak off into the woods and trespass n shit and after a while of not seinf each other, we got to meet sgain. I explained to him what being trans was and that i was a guy and he deadass just told me i already acted like one and he accepted me and called me a guy whenever we were alone (i wasnt out to my family yet). But then his house started falling apart and he moved and we havent seem each other in q year and a half. However, we might get to celebrate our next birthdsy together. We never got the chance to before and if i dont have company over next year on my birthday we might get to celebrate together :)

Some more shit abt this kid: he was the only friend i had up until fourth grade when i started selling art and being less of an asshole. And he knows more about me than any friend i have or used to have. Im the only person other than his mom who understands his memtal disorder so when my mom would babysit him i had to go over there after school in case something happened i could calm him. But uhh yeah this kid and i had some fun times and i hope i get to see him again soon. He still lives in the same city, just on the other side of the city.

About this area, basically im surrounded by woods and rednecks. Neighbors on the right are nice sweet old ppl the neighbors on the left are shady af and we in the white ghetto virtually. The hood is right down the street to the left and im scared to go there unless i was in public school on the bus or like if i had pepper spray lol.

Anyways im yoo tired to keep going gn.