#[ oh wow i'm crying writing this up hahjsdghkf ]

[bitterbadge]

If Hank had a chance to go back in time for 1 minute and see Cole alive (but not change anything), would he take it? What would he do or say?

send hank anons

      “ … I – ”  

      His throat felt like it was closing up as a surge of emotions washed over him. Anger. Longing. Despair. All a fucked up cocktail that knocked the air right out of him. His shoulders tensed and his jaw clenched, eyes slipping shut as he tried to reign it in. The thought of just seeing Cole again was overwhelming and painful in equal measures. He could barely keep himself standing the more he thought about it. It was too much. But it wouldn’t be enough – 

      “ – i-if I could, I’d take it. I … wouldn’t say anything. I don’t think I could, ” his voice was strained as he finally opened his eyes, tears brimming the edges as he drew in a sharp breath. “ I’m not a strong enough man to deny myself the chance to see him. It’d be easier if I could. I just… I’d just want to hold him for that miserable minute. Just to be able to remember what it feels like. Having that weight in my arms and to hear his muffled bitching about affection – ” 

      He trailed off with a choked laugh, a hand clapping over his eyes as he tilted his head backward. Trying to stave off the tears as long as he could. “ I’d give anything to hold my son one more time. ”