I can't stand being open about negative emotions, but covering them up feels like a fucking knife to the chest.
I think it's because the system is autistic and misses social cues / boundaries, so Grey has overshared and accidentally put too much on people in the past.
And from a combination of autism trauma + abuse & us not actually knowing the line between healthy sharing/support and Too Much, my brain processed it as "if you admit you're having a hard time or ask for support, they won't love you"
Closing in on my one year anniversary with my fiance, celebrating our fourth month of living in our rv, and our second month of Aether and Albedo being a part of our family.
Lots of changes, but my life is so much more fulfilling than I ever thought it could be.