#★ — ngl messages

[kalims]

HELP WHAT DID I DO

[k00sblogger]

Summary: So you have a sugar daddy... but you may have forgotten to mention you've never engaged in anything sexual.

Warnings: pwp, age gap, blowjob, pussy eating, dirty talk, virginity loss, sugar daddy obv, they kinda cute ngl.

Pairing: sugardaddy!jk x fem!reader

🔗: m.list

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The bright light from your phone makes you squint as you scroll through chanels website. Your decorated nail constantly tapping against the screen everytime you scroll, none of the bags cute enough to pull your interest yet.

Ten minutes pass before you finally set your tired eyes on something you might like. The mini flap bag, it's nice- you have to admit it.

At first, you were never one for designer items- and you never even bothered to bat your eyes towards a expensive store.

Okay maybe that wasn't completely true.

Technically, you had longed for a expensive bag, jewelery, or clothing before, you'd just never had the money to afford it. Things were different now- and 6'000 dollars for a bag was nothing.

You could thank jungkook for that.

Meeting him at a bar was coincidental, but you were greatful regardless. The two of you hit it off, and talked for months on end after meeting each other.

He was buying you expensive things even before a deal was established between you both. You rejected the little gifts in the beginning, but there was only so much you could do when he started to send things to your house without letting you know.

You don't really remember exactly how you both came across the whole sugar daddy thing, but you were quite drunk when it happened- so you didn't doubt that you actually agreed to the whole thing.

The problem was, you hadn't really done anything sexual before- and jungkook didn't know that. You were to scared to tell him, rightfully so.

You knew deep down you'd have to admit it to him sooner or later, it wouldn't be much longer before he'd expect something sexual from you in return for spoiling you all the time.

For now though.. you figured you were better off keeping your mouth shut about it.

Your fingers press a few more buttons before the purchase is made, and you smile when you see it'll be delivered by next wednesday.

A few moments later, your phone dings. The contact name causes your eyes to light up, and you click on his message almost instantly.

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J: 𝚗𝚎𝚠 𝚙𝚞𝚛𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚜𝚎?

You: 𝚑𝚘𝚠'𝚍 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚔𝚗𝚘𝚠?

J: 𝙸 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚖𝚢 𝚠𝚊𝚢𝚜.

You: 𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚕𝚔𝚎𝚛

J: 𝚖𝚊𝚢𝚋𝚎

You: 𝚑𝚘𝚠 𝚠𝚊𝚜 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚍𝚊𝚢?

J: 𝚐𝚘𝚘𝚍, 𝚒 𝚠𝚊𝚗𝚗𝚊 𝚜𝚎𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚝𝚘𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚛𝚘𝚠.

You: 𝟾𝚙𝚖?

J: 𝚢𝚎𝚊𝚑, 𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚙𝚒𝚌𝚔 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚞𝚙.

You: 𝚔𝚔

~~~

Gosh, he was in his 30's yet he texted like he was your age.

That's the last thing said before you set your phone down on your nightstand, and flip over onto your side. You don't stay awake much longer, eyes slowly fluttering closed as you drift off to sleep.

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At exactly 8pm the next day, your walking down your long driveway to jungkooks blacked out SUV. You do everything in your power to avoid looking at him, digging through your purse for absolutely nothing.

He unlocks the car as soon as you reach the door, watching attentively as you open the door and step inside.

"Hey." he says, biting on the inside of his cheek as he looks at your relaxed state- hand lazily resting on the wheel.

The smile on your face makes him smile as well. He shows his row of teeth without shame, never failing to let you see how much he loved hanging out with you.

If all "sugar daddys" were supposed to be wrinkly and weird, jungkook definitely wasn't a sugar daddy.

"Where do you wanna go?" you ask, setting your purse down on the floor of his car. Usually, you wouldn't do that- but this man's car was never not clean. You were convinced he had someone vacuum it out at least once a week.

He denied it when you brought it up, claiming it was always like that. Yeah fucking right.

"My place?" he asks, already pulling out of your driveway before you even nod your head. You sneak a gaze at the hand he's using to steer every few seconds, liking the way he does it so casually.

I mean- driving was a casual thing to do obviously. He just made it look hot.

He slightly turns up the music on the ride there, but keeps it low enough to hear you ramble about whatever your little heart pleased. Jungkook was a listener, at least when it came to you.

Hearing you talk about your life and whatever you did that morning made him happy.

Eventually, he moves his free hand to rest on your thigh- softly rubbing it up and down as he keeps his eyes on the road. He doesn't notice how his constant rubbing causes your skirt to ride up little by little, but you do.

Your hands are pressed to your sides, letting him mindlessly roam your skin with his hand. He doesn't acknowledge the fact that what he's doing is making you wet- god if he was to just lean over in the slightest he'd see your panties making a appearance from under your skirt.

You finally stop holding your breath when he pulls into his own driveway, house much different from your own. It takes him a whole minute just to get up to his garage.

When he pulls in, he turns off the car almost immediately- but he doesn't get out. Obviously you don't either, sitting in awkward silence as you wait for him to say something.

He removes his hand from your leg to rub his upper lip, letting out a deep sigh. "Y/n.."

There wasn't a way to explain his tone, you'd never heard him speak like this before. Your name falling from his mouth makes you look at him, just in time to see how he slightly moves his hips upward and then back down to get more comfortable.

Oh. You mentally curse yourself when you see the little bulge in his pants. Clearly the little soft rubs on your thigh were supposed to be a hint, you felt stupid.

"Oh-" you say, hands moving to take off your seatbelt and switch your position. Your knees now dig into the seat, facing him as he moves a bit of your hair behind your ear.

His eyes don't leave your face as you tug his zipper down, slightly tapping his thigh so he'll lift his hips. You pull down his jeans when he does so, taking in a breath when you see the bulge again.

It was a lot more prominent now that he was only in his boxers. Taking what you've learned from the twitter porn you'd watch, you leaned down to press soft kisses along the length of him.

"Pretty girl." he mutters, watching your every move. You hoped he wouldn't be able to tell this was your first time giving head.

Little by little you bring his boxers down, tucking your bottom lipping between your teeth when his dick springs out of the underwear. He was painfully hard, dick standing tall as you bring your soft hand around it.

You do a couple soft jerks up and down, occasionally looking up at his face to see if he was enjoying it. You smile when you notice his eyes are closed, head leaning against the headrest to take in all the pleasure you were giving him.

His quiet grunts make you want to lean down and give it a taste, you're just so nervous. What if he didn't like it? At this point you had to though, little spurts of pre cum were falling from his tip and getting onto your hand.

You take a deep breath before you finally lean down, jungkooks eyes locking with yours again when you lick the first stripe over his mushroom tip. His mouth is hanging open, hand resting lazily on your head.

He doesn't push your head down just yet, letting you take the lead. If you were someone else, he'd be fucking your face by now- but he wanted to get a feel for what you'd do on your own first.

"Oh fuckkk." his deep voice fills the car as you finally slide his tip in your mouth, softly sucking on the warm head. You use your hand to jerk what's not in your mouth, focusing on just his tip.

You weren't stupid, you knew the spot was sensitive for any guy. Maybe a little too sensitive even, because when you don't stop licking his tip he begins to thrust his hip upwards, forcing the rest of his dick into your wet mouth.

"Yeah? You like sucking my dick?" he asks, knowing well that you can't speak right now. Your mouth was so full of him, nose nudging against his pelvis.

After trying so hard not to, you finally gag hard enough for him to stop. Spit dribbles from your mouth when he finally pulls out, scanning your face with concern written all in his expression.

You can only hear your hard breathing for a minute, wiping your wet lips as you stare down at his lap. His length is fully covered in your spit, still hard and waiting for you to give it a release.

When you lean down to take him back into your mouth, he stops you. You sit up, his hand moving up to your face to rub your plump lips.

"This your first time doing this?" well shit, guess he could tell. The question makes you shift in your spot, you almost sit back down properly but he grabs your arm before you can.

The way he raises his eyebrows at you makes you finally give him a answer. "I haven't." you admit, anxiously biting on your lip. The constant biting causes your lip to turn red.

"Shit baby, why didn't you tell me?" he gives a tense chuckle, looking down at his still bare lower half and then back at you. You give a little shrug of the shoulders, muttering a quiet "I dunno."

He gives you a sigh as he rubs your cheek. You can tell he put great thought into the situation before pulling you close to him again. Your heads right over his tip again, waiting for him to say something."

"Put it in your mouth." he instructs, so you do. You slide his length into your mouth once again- much slower than you do the first time. This time around, his hand isn't so lazy on the back of your head, and he keeps a tight grip on your hair.

He toys with his lip piercing as he bobs your head up and down on his dick, you're still gagging but it's a lot softer. "Just like that.. sucking me so good." the praise, it made you squeeze your thighs together.

His moans are loud, massaging your scalp as you twirl your tongue around him. You did it own your own, and he's proud he doesn't even have to tell you. For this to be your first time, you're good at it. The only reason he noticed was because of how hard you gagged.

He brings his tatted hand up to the wheel, gripping it to steady himself. He tries not to fuck your mouth since you were so new at this, but he can't help it. "Need you to be a good girl for me- can you do that?"

You give him the best nod you can since he still deep in your mouth, and that's all the permission he needs. His hand keeps a good grip on your hair to ensure you keep your head in place, moving his hips up and down.

Grunts and little ah's fall from his pink lips, repeatedly pushing all the way into your throat before pulling out. It's rough for a first, but you like it so much. Your eyes are clamped shut, mascara beginning to run down your face.

He starts to bob your head as well, still not slowing his own thrusts. The combination of both is enough to make him bust, and when he feels his orgasm coming on he already knows he wants to cum in your mouth.

"Gonna cum down your throat okay?" he knows you can't say anything, but when you don't try to pull away from him he figures you want it too.

You only notice how soaked your panties are when his cum is shooting into your mouth, painting your tongue white with his seed. His hips finally slow to a stop, letting go of your hair and letting you sit up.

He grabs your chin before you can sit back down in your seat, looking at your messy face. "Swallow it, don't spit it out." you didn't plan on it, but you swallow it so he can see how much you enjoyed it.

You even go to the lengths of sticking you tongue out after you swallow, and once he sees it's empty he gives you a approving nod and let's go of your chin.

"Cmon, let's get in the house."

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It's been a week since jungkook basically found out you were a virgin. You noticed he texted you much less, and you wondered if it was because of that.

It'd be bullshit if you said it didn't hurt your feelings. I mean, you genuinely liked hanging out with him- even if he didn't spend money on you you'd still spend time with him.

Speaking of that, he hadn't stopped spoiling you. Still sending you flowers and letting you buy whatever you wanted on his card. You hadn't bought much though, you didn't want to if he was thinking about ending this whole thing.

The voice of your friend yanks you out of your overthinking spiral, and you look towards her.

Gemma, you guys had been friends for years- rarely arguing and always having fun. The only downside to the friendship was the fact you guys had been friends for so long that she always knew when something was wrong.

Literally always.

"What's going on with you?" she questions, walking towards you as she continues raking her eyebrow brush through her brow.

You shake your head, not wanting to talk about it. You already thought about him enough, what good would talking about the guy do?

Gemma cocks her head to the left, plopping down next to you on the bed. You don't look at her, staring forward with a blank expression. Unfortunately, your forced to look back at her when she blocks your vision by shoving her face in front of yours.

"Cmon- tell me." you shove her out of your personal space, laughing at her attempts to make you talk. "Look gemma i-"

ding

It's your phone, and gemma looks toward it when she hears the noise. Since it's closer to her side, she grabs it, clicking it on & furrowing her eyebrows when she sees who's texted.

"J?" holy shit, of course it had to be him. You reach out for your phone without a word, but gemmas quick- moving out of your reach in enough time to click on the notification.

Nosy fucker, sometimes you regret giving her your password.

"Ooohh wait- he said he's outside!" Your eyes burst wide open, scurrying to your window as fast as you can. You peak through the blind and sure enough, it's his truck.

You couldn't have possibly forgotten that you guys were supposed to hangout, you barely had even talked to him this week. Which meant.. he'd shown up out of the blue.

Mentally, you thank yourself that you decided to do your makeup for no reason today, because it only takes you 5 minutes to throw on a cute outfit and grab a purse.

You stuff your charger and other necessities into your bag as gemma watches in shock, obviously she had no idea who jungkook was- but she figured it was something serious if he had you rushing out like this.

"Let yourself out! I'll see you later love you bye!" you ramble as you head out the door, gemma laughing behind you as she shuts the door.

As usual, you shuffle through your purse as you walk to his SUV, getting deja vu from last week. You couldn't help it, the walk to anyones car was so fucking awkward.

You hop into the car in silence, wanting to give him the silent treatment for just a little bit. He deserved it after putting you through hell the past couple of days. By hell you meant not talking to him every second of the day.

"Baby-" he starts, but you turn your body toward the window- not wanting to hear what he has to say. He understands why your upset, so he doesn't say much else and simply starts the car and pulls away.

~~~

Your doing your rambling as usual when jungkook finally reaches his destination. During the ride he'd explained why he hadn't spoken to you much recently, and you immediately felt like a bitch.

He told you how his work had him caught up, and reassured you that he wasn't out talking to some other girl. (Or any other sugar baby rather). He even brought you flowers, and that was enough for you to apologize for being so rude.

He forgave you instantly, understanding why you felt upset about it. The way he sees it if he was in your position, he'd probably be upset too.

You hadn't bothered to question where he was taking you until he finally put the car into park. You were at a lake, his SUV surrounded by trees and the only thing in front of you both was a wide range of water.

He comes around the side of the car to let you out, grabbing onto your hand to help you step out. He leads you up to two benches, watching you in awe as you admire the scenery of the place.

"So-" he starts, sitting down on the wooden bench as he looks out at the water. Here it was, you knew the conversation about you being a virgin wasn't completely over- and finally it crept back up on you.

"Why didn't you tell me hm?" he places a comforting hand on your thigh out of habit, the touch not sexual at all. You stare down for a long time before you answer, finding the right words to say.

"I just.. i was scared.. that you wouldn't want this anymore." it was quite clear that he was more than a sugar daddy to you, and you were more than a sugar baby to him. You had real feelings for him, you just couldn't actually say it.

"Sweetheart.. y'know i don't care about that right? I like you regardless." and there it was, jungkook on the other hand wasn't scared to admit it. He liked you a lot, and he wanted to do whatever he could to show you that.

"Don't care about that virginity shit, your still just as attractive to me." his words plaster a smile on your face, you don't know why you were so scared to tell him this. With the way he reacted.. you wish you'd told him much sooner.

The two of you sit in a comfortable silence for a while before you talk again, sparking up a conversation about a whole nother topic. The last thing jungkook wanted was to make you uncomfortable continuing to talk about it.

The situation was cleared up now, and that's all he cared about.

After spending a hour more at the lake you finally leave, turning up the music in the car as he drives you home. "I want it though." you say, voice just a bit louder than the music. Jungkook gives you a soft hum as he drives, questioning what you mean without uttering a single word.

"I want you to take my virginity." you say, feeling a sudden surge of confidence. Your confession makes him turn the music a bit lower, glancing over at your body in his passenger seat.

"We've got time baby." he says, turning onto your street now after a long twenty minutes in the car.

"It's gotta be the right time, and i wanna do it the right way."

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1 MONTH LATER

You've just gotten home from a long shift, jungkooks home to be specific. Your back and feet were aching from standing upright all day but when jungkook asked you to come over earlier that day you agreed in a haste.

You needed his presence more than anything today.

When you walk into that house, you expect darkness- but instead your surprised with candles along the floor lighting up the room.

"Holy...." your eyes light up at the sight, and you immediately know jungkook is behind this. The gesture almost makes you wanna cry, after a hard day at work this is what you really needed and wanted.

The closer you walk to his bedroom, (which practically had become yours as well) rose petals began to scatter the floor leading up to the door. A smile adorns your face when you slowly push the door open and you come face to face with jungkook.

He's proudly holding flowers in his hand, pink daffodils to be specific. He remembered the day you rambled about how much you liked them, if he'd gotten you anything else he wouldn't be satisfied.

"Jungkook.. you didn't have to.." your voice trails off as you take the flowers from his hand, pressing them up to your nose so you can smell them.

His built arms wrap around your waist after you set the flowers down, taking you into a big hug. You smell his cologne as soon as he embraces you, the same cologne he always wear that you've grown to love over the time you both spent together.

If you could, you'd douse yourself in it just so you could feel like he's close to you all the time. Sadly strong fragrances sometimes gave you terrible migraines, so that wasn't a option.

"I wanted to." he says, voice raspy as he tilts his head downwards so you can hear him better. He only separates his body from yours so he can kiss you at a better angle, his hand on your cheek as it quickly turns from a soft kiss to a make out session.

You'd stand on your tippy toes for as long as he wanted this kiss to go on, obsessed with the way his hands roam your body when he kisses you. Soon his tongue pushes as he backs you up closer to his bed, stopping the kiss when the backs of your knees hit his bed.

"Still want me to take your virginity?" he asks, and you can feel his warm breath against your lips since he's still so close. Of course, you nodded your head hastily- you wanted that more than anything.

You'd been wanting it.

"Say it." he says, voice stern rather than soft now. "I want you to take my virginity." that's enough confirmation for him, so he pushes you against the bed so he can take off his shirt.

You get the hint and undress along with him, opting to get completely naked rather than him who leaves his pants on- though he's already taken his dick out for you to set your eyes on.

He crawls between your already spread legs, happy that you weren't nervous for him to touch you. You had every reason to be nervous, considering he hadn't laid eyes on your naked body before- but you weren't.

He presses a tender kiss to your lips, and then your neck, your collar bone, your tummy, and then your inner thigh.

"Can I eat you out baby?" you were unsure about it, but you nod anyway. He presses a few more kisses to your thighs until he physically feels your muscles relax, and that's when he licks between your folds.

He gets a taste of how wet you are, and he can't stop- licking every part of you. His tongue dives in and out of your tight hole, lifting your thigh to rest on his shoulder as he sucks on your swollen clit.

"Fuck.. that feels good." your voice is much whinier than usual, and it makes him wanna shove his face even farther into your pussy.

"Yeah? Getting your pussy ate feels good?" god, he made you feel embarrassed in such a good way. His little dirty talk makes your stomach turn, thrusting your hips closer to his face.

You frantically nod as his licks grow even more desperate, your thighs beginning to close around your head. To your surprise, he pulls away from you before you can come- licking your slick off his reddened lips.

The loss of pleasure makes you roll your eyes, and he shakes his head when he sees it. "Don't complain, just want you to cum around my dick instead."

You understand and allow him to lift your thigh again, enjoying the way he looks at you like as if you were the prettiest thing ever. Shit you felt like it with the way he was just giving you head.

"Condom?" he asks, and you appreciate that he even mentioned protection- though you didn't really want it, so you shake your head.

He furrows his brows, gripping the base of his dick and slowly sliding it through your folds just to tease. "You sure?" he asks, but you don't bother to respond- in love with the split second of pleasure everytime his tip passed over your clit.

His body finally leans over your smaller frame, propping himself up with one arm. "It'll hurt.. just relax for me." that's all he says before he pushes it all in, one go.

It hurts his heart when you wince in pain, and he can feel the way you keep tightening around him. It sucks, but he wanted to get the penetration over with quickly instead of moving slow and making you suffer much longer than needed.

"I know, m' sorry-" he whispers into your ear, lying still so you can adjust around him. He'd sit still and patient as long as you needed, he didn't want to hurt you.

Your tears roll down your cheeks, ruining your makeup tear by tear- but you were too focused on the pain to even realize you were crying. Your little sniffles are the only thing heard until you finally speak.

"You can move." jungkook makes sure your relaxed enough before he finally pulls out, and then sinks back in. You're still feeling a painful stretch, but it's not as bad as it would've been if he didn't wait for a moment.

"It's okay.. trust me."

His thrusts are slow but deep, refusing to go faster until he knows you're only feeling pleasure. It takes a while, but soon the pain does go away- and a quiet moan of pleasure lets him know that.

Little by little, he picks up his pace as he stares straight into your hazy eyes. "Pretty girl, you were made for me." his voice was so sweet, a perfect contrast with the way he was thrusting into you.

His hips snapped against yours, being sure to press all the way in each and everytime he pushes into your cunt. Your nails dig into his bicep and he lets you, the pressure of your pussy swallowing his dick overriding the pain in his arm.

He moves his hand away from your thigh to massage your breasts, tired of staring at them bounce in his face and not doing anything about it.

"Fuck- yes." your moans are so much quieter compared to his, but he can hear it clear enough. His thumb rubs at your nipple, dick twitching at the way your face contorts at the feeling.

"Know you like that.. tell me how much you like it.." your face is flushed pink, you had trouble voicing how much you were enjoying- it just made you feel so awkward.

"Cmon.. wanna hear you say it for me." your mouth hangs open, confused on how he ever expects you to speak while he's fucking into you with so much force. "I..I like the way you touch me"

There it is. Your timid voice causes him to smirk, shoving his face into your neck to suck on the skin. He finally pulls away when the skin of your neck is red, and the sight of it has him ready to cum.

He's glad when he feels you keep tensing around him, a clear sign of you coming release. "Cum.. Cum all over it." your arms wrap up around his neck, pulling him down so his body is pressed right on top of yours when you cum around him.

"Oh shit-" the feeling of you releasing while he's still inside of you makes him cum on the spot- not giving him enough time to even think about pulling out of you.

You let him thrust into your sopping cunt a few more times, closing your eyes when you feel him paint your insides with his release. His little grunts are so satisfying to you, knowing that you did that to him was satisfying.

He finally pulls out with a sigh, moving over to the side and pulling your back to his chest. "M-Sorry fuck.. i didn't mean to.."

He didn't need to say it, and you didn't care anyway- you reassured him that it was okay and you'd just buy a plan b the next morning.

"I'll buy it for you." he says, and you don't even try to argue with him about it- he'd probably wake up before you just to go get it before you could purchase it on your own dime.

"Alright alright.." you say, closing your eyes and letting your muscles turn to mush as you begin to fall asleep.

"I wouldn't mind getting you pregnant tho-"

"Shut up."

(requested by @mxmokoa12)

[p1utofairy]

PICK A CARD: “when i look into your eyes, i know it's real.”

★ which romantic tropes will you and your fp embody?

DISCLAIMER: 18+ mature themes. take what resonates leave what doesn’t. this was such a cute idea – thanks for requesting this anon. 💞 i hope you all enjoy!

— PILE ONE.

tropes → star-crossed lovers, forbidden love & opposites attract.

there’s a distinct polarity in you and your fp’s personalities & backgrounds, pile 1. you’re more reserved, cautious and patient and they’re more free-spirited and spontaneous. they say whatever they want and deal with the consequences later; this isn’t in a bad way either, i’m more so picking up that they like to stand up and fight for what’s right. they could be an activist of some sort. they’re confident and brave, and you’re really going to admire that. as far as finances go, this person has MONEY, like big money! they either come from money or they are in a profession that pays extremely well and that’s where i see the forbidden love trope coming in to play.

remember how allie in ‘the notebook’ comes from a wealthy, privileged background, while noah is portrayed as more working-class? the contrast in their backgrounds and personalities added depth to their relationship and created a lot of tension and conflict, but ultimately it made their love story more compelling and dynamic – that’s what i see here with you and your fp. you’re tired of over-working yourself for low pay and working jobs that don’t fulfill you financially, mentally and emotionally. you feel stuck…wondering when things are going to change. i see someone looking out of a window in a house, there’s a strong sense of longing and their eyes look sad. they’re waiting for someone or something to arrive, but when? you’ve been telling yourself to keep going and keep pushing through, and then you will see progress and reward in the long run – very saturn/saturnian energy.

it’s interesting because you’re looking for a way out of your situation and your person is looking for an adventure. your fp is very comfortable financially, but they’re lacking in their love life. right now they’re very much single and they’re fine with that, but that fiery energy that burns inside them can’t be dimmed for long. when they cross paths with you they’re gonna be awestruck like “whoa! who is that?” lol. your fp might have some sagittarius/fire sign placements, or they just carry themselves very pompous and matter-of-fact, which might throw you off at first. that’s why i was also picking up on that opposites attract trope because princess belle & the beast from ‘beauty and the beast’ immediately came to mind. belle loved her books and independence, which was a stark contrast with the beast’s initial gruff and hot-tempered nature. you might think they’re a bit arrogant at first, but once you get to know them you’ll understand that there’s layers to them.

their family plays a big part in their life, which ties into the forbidden love trope because i’m ngl their family lowkey can be a lot to handle. as i said before, some of your fps come from money so some of their families might be a little snooty and strict like allie’s mom from ‘the notebook’ but i think with patience and time – you and your fp will learn to not give a f*ck what their family or anybody else thinks. this relationship is destined and you’re meant to show each other the different aspects/complexities of life and love. the energy is very reminiscent of mr. darcy and elizabeth from ‘pride and prejudice’ like remember how much longing and yearning it took for them to finally be together?! it was sooooooo worth it.

additional messages → wealthy, 2 years from now, ego, aries, very lowkey, the blackest day by lana del rey & cultural differences.

— PILE TWO.

tropes → second chance & age gap.

your fp is dominant af, pile 2. they possess everything within reach, and they’re admired by many. you may establish boundaries with them from the very beginning and they will respect that, they value you and wouldn’t dare do anything to hurt you. however, despite the love, passion, and devotion that will be present in this relationship, there will also be a need for compromise. it seems that this relationship will fulfill your hopes and dreams, but it will also come with its share of responsibilities. in the early stages, both you and your fp will feel a strong urge to make your relationship official and commit to each other. whatever you need or want – they will provide for you. you may not have expected to fall for them, but you couldn’t fight the obvious chemistry between you two. i picked up on the age gap trope mainly because they have provider energy. for some of you, they might already have a kid/kids? your energy feels a little bit more flighty and young. you like to be in your own personal space most of the time, and not everyone understands that, but your fp will.

actually, i think the idea of compromise i was picking up on earlier has to do with your personal space. you might be a bit of an introvert and the idea of constantly entertaining someone 24/7 and not having a moment for yourself is a bit jarring to you. now i’m not saying this person is taking your autonomy away, what i’m saying is that there has to be some sort of balance with the give and take in this connection. it’s reminding me of olivia pope and fitz from ‘scandal’ like one minute he’s showing her the house he had built for them in vermont and then the next scene she’s crying that she needs space and they can’t be together – like OLIVIA what’s it gonna be?! it’s like your heart is saying yes but your mind is saying no.

you’re gonna have to use your discernment and figure out if this is what you want – true commitment. it’s gonna take trust and dedication to make this work, pile 2. it might get to a point where y’all take a break and you choose to see someone else, and then you realize how much of a greater difference your fp makes in your life. they’re your home. that's the second chance trope coming into play. wow, pile 2. this is a very dynamic and complex relationship, but that’s what keeps you two going and loving each other through thick and thin.

additional messages → infrunami by steve lacy, you will meet through friends, extremely dedicated, workaholic, ass kisser, there’s someone in your inner circle you need to cut off, moving abroad, younger sibling & love drought by beyoncé.

— PILE THREE.

tropes → high school sweethearts & enemies to lovers.

your fp is the life of the party, pile 3…sometimes to a fault lol. they’re capable of being responsible and making good decisions, but sometimes they just say f*ck it and wild out. they can be impulsive and unpredictable at times which is quite the opposite from you. i’m picturing haley and nathan from ‘one tree hill’ and kat and patrick from ‘10 things i hate about you’ AND no by meghan trainer just randomly started playing in my head. i’m honestly so amused by this energy cause you’re like “nope! you’re not gonna fuck my life up.” being all dramatic 🤭 and they’re like “what?! me? i would never!” lol there’s gonna be a lot of witty banter between you both. your friends are gonna encourage you to just give them a chance, cause it’s obvious that you do like them — you just can’t stand how “friendly” they are.

your fp is extroverted as hell and loves a good social outing, whereas you on the other hand, rather curl up in bed with a good book or binge-watch your favorite shows/movies in the comfort of your own home. there’s this energy of “been there, done that.” the party scene just isn’t it for you anymore, and you’re content with that. this connection will really help your fp mature and get more in tune with their emotions, instead of masking them behind reckless behavior and nonchalance. that high school sweethearts trope really comes through strongly, not in the sense that y’all are actually in high school, but that nathan & haley vibe – that puppy love! once y’all are together, nobody can tell y’all shit. you and your fp will RIDE for each other.

nathan and haley definitely had their ups and downs, but they always found a way to make it work once they put their egos aside. haley brought out a side of nathan that nobody else got to experience but her. sometimes butting heads is necessary, it helps you confront things within yourself that you don’t always want to acknowledge. you’re so nurturing pile 3, you bring water to their fire. i don’t see you immediately jumping into this relationship, but that’s the beauty of it. that’s where the enemies to lovers trope kicks in, you’ll have to warm up to them first before you truly understand who they are at the core. your fp is used to fast-pace, hot n’ heavy, fleeting relationships but this is stable. this is pure. they’ll realize you can’t rush true love like this, it’s the journey and build-up that makes it so magical.

additional messages → 1st house placements, sagittarius, very soon, get out of your head, nice and slow by usher & family feud.

— PILE FOUR.

tropes → friends to lovers & forced proximity.

your fp has very high-energy, pile 4. i feel out of breath like i just got done doing 8 different tasks at once lol they might be very athletic or they just like to keep themselves busy. you and your fp are opposites, but the more you get to know each other, you will begin to realize that you have a lot in common – i’m hearing that you two will have a lot to talk about. sometimes you might find yourself holding back from saying things that you want to say in fear of judgement but with this person that anxiety goes out the window. they want to hear your thoughts and ideas, because they truly value your wisdom and knowledge on certain topics that they might not have been aware of. i’m hearing that they want to know your lore lol this is too cute. maybe you’re really into movies? marvel? fashion? idk there’s something very specific that you could go on and on about for hours and hours.

that’s why i picked up on that friends to lovers trope because i feel like they will show immediate interest in you and want to pursue something more, but you’ll be like WOAH hold it there…let’s build on this and see where it can go, no rush. i’m ngl pile 4 they might have a bit of a reputation or vibe of being a player…which will make you hesitant as to whether or not you want to take this seriously. i don’t even think you two normally run in the same circles – this is more like a chance meeting. yup here goes that forced proximity trope, you’ll probably meet them in some sort of unconventional way and be “forced” to spend time together.

you and your fp kind of remind me of holly and eric from ‘life as we know it’ which is a very underrated but amazing rom-com. i don’t think you’ll initially hate them per se, you’ll just be a bit cautious of them and wonder if they’re actually being genuine. however, by spending time with your fp, you will develop a deeper understanding and appreciation for them; which will then lead to you falling for them and establishing a close bond. you two might’ve gotten off on the wrong foot and then after a proper conversation with them you’ll be like: huh…you’re not so bad after all. there’s this flirty energy that comes in the form of sly/sarcastic remarks, and you’ll come to realize that it’s their own way of saying “i really like you.” it’s giving 2000s rom-com lol hot n cold by katy perry just came to mind.

the sexual tension between you two will be palpable, your friends will be like just f*ck already!!! this relationship will have it’s fair share of ups and downs, but that’s what will make it worth fighting for; nothing and no one is perfect and you will learn that in this relationship. no one could ever compare to you in your fp’s eyes – they will always have love for you even in the moments where you two don’t see eye to eye. the difference in you and your fp’s personalities will be what draws you two together even more.

additional messages → jealousy, jealousy by olivia rodrigo, lots of traveling, you manifested this, different lifestyles but we’ll make it work, your angel guides got your back & when one door closes, another one opens.

[writingmeraki]

unsaid, unkept, ugly emotions.

a seventeen hip hop unit imagines !

IN WHICH, the uglier side of feeling too much getting more messier than it already is for both parties involved.

(or in which for different reasons, it just seems you aren't meant to be.)

pairing : svt!hiphop!unit x gn!reader, friend's crush!seungcheol, best friend's other best friend!wonwoo, rival's friend!mingyu, rockstar! vernon.

genre : angst, no comfort. ( for now )

warnings : mentions of injuries, inaccurate basketball terms, cussing, messy, heartbreak, contemplation, arguments, miserable people, miscommunication, everyone gets hurt, a lot of unspoken feelings, like emphasis on that you may get annoyed. ( not proofread ; we die like hyyh yoonkook )

author's note : i tried so hard to make gyu's messy but i just couldn't ( you'll find out ) these plots are soo random and specific pls but so funnn to write! also me uploading this much is trying to make up for very less updates for the last months of 2023. I missed milestones and I want to make up for those soon too! gahh anyways let me know what you think of these, im actually nervous abt this ngl ( also i just noticed soo much friend drama oof-)

VOCAL UNIT VER. | PERFOMANCE UNIT VER.

word count : 4.1k ( they are getting longer...)

ᯓ★ | seungcheol.

He was off limits.

From the moment you knew your best friend, Haewon, had a crush on him, he was not supposed to ever be in your radar of romantic boundaries as per the rules of being a best friend. 

Seeing her going crazy for a boy like him at first really made you question if there was something wrong with you because you just couldn’t quite see it.

Sure he was literally the definition of tall, blonde and gorgeous. Sure he had adorable dimples that made him look less intimidating than you thought he initially was. Sure he was also the frat president as well as the captain of the soccer team making you wonder how he was able to still balance getting great grades.

Well. There was a slight possibility you could see what others saw. 

Maybe even more when the time you tried to play wingman for Haewon at a party where you lost her because apparently she was looking for him but said guy turned up right beside you as you were contemplating on what would least likely not kill your liver if you had it resulting in having conversations about cherries ( you don’t even know ) and him trying to convince (gaslight) you into soccer being one of the greatest games of all time. 

You didn’t get convinced but for the time it felt right to agree to what he said if it meant those adorable dimples would show up when you did. 

You were so screwed. 

Another thing Choi Seungcheol had was a great memory, because he seemed to remember you when he saw you walking down the hallway with Haewon as he smiled so widely at you in greeting. 

“Haha yeah hey! um…This is Haewon by the way! Haewon, Seungcheol.” You had to nudge her to snap out of her daze and she extended her hand in greeting as he politely shook her hand. 

“That reminds me, I forgot to ask you last night but uh can I have your-”

“Oh would you look at that! We’re getting late for class! I’m so sorry Seungcheol, we’ll have to leave!” 

That moment you think you were so going to hell when you saw how quickly his smile fell and how his sparkly eyes dimmed down because it felt like you committed a sin then and there. You think you saved yourself from committing a sin but it didn’t feel less dreadful as you grabbed her hand and rushed as quickly as you could.

In the opposite direction of where your class was.

“WHAT WAS THAT-”

“Listen- when you were looking for him last night- I swear I don’t know how but he was right where I ended up sitting and he-well, we talked I suppose-?”

Her eyes widened at your words and you raised your hands in surrender, 

“I promise I didn’t even know when he showed up, I tried to message you and even find you but you seemed gone until the moment we were leaving.”

“Plus the reason I didn’t tell you last night was I was tired! I was here trying to play wingman while the person in love was seemingly gone-”

She sighed and nodded at you, “You don’t have to explain, I know he’s not your type, you made that clear a lot of times actually it’s kinda hilarious.” She giggled as she recalled the countless times you chastised her for daydreaming about him. But now, you couldn’t stop the stupid tinge of bitterness in your heart.

Right. Not my type. 

Suddenly her eyes widened as an idea struck her, “That’s it! He was gonna ask for your number right? You can try and set me up then!”

“I well- I don’t know-”

“Please! You know how I have been trying to get to know him even.”

You didn’t want to say it then but you thought about how trying meant actually doing something rather than just gazing from afar. At least become friends with him was the words you told her countless times but she paid no heed, retorting how it was not that easy.

But it was easy because what’s the worst that could happen? Him having a partner? So it wasn’t the end of the world, others existed! 

Too bad you were easy to persuade, questionably easy because all it took were her doe eyes pleading at you to agree.

“Fine- I’ll try- but no promises.”

As she hugged you and squealed words of gratefulness to you, you couldn’t quite put a finger on it then but, 

You didn’t understand why it felt a part of you couldn’t seem to share the same happiness, conceivably a lingering dread there that knew something was surely going to go wrong.

✮⋆˙ | wonwoo.

Everytime Jeon Wonwoo had the ever so unfortunate ( according to him ) time to exist in the same room as you, it seemed like an impending doom for him. 

His heart felt weird, his stomach dropped, his throat parched.

He hated it. 

He was an individual who knew what they wanted in life. Never unsure nor second guessing, always able to classify their emotions in proper ways. Systematic is the right word. Able to know what exactly he wants to do in his career, how to behave with his friends, when to be serious and when to have ‘fun’. 

So what happens when you completely throw him off the rocks with your mere existence?

He hates you. That’s how he tags the emotions he feels when he sees you and what does hatred sprout? Indifference. 

Too many questions asked but it’s what Wonwoo declares. 

Though, he thinks the first mistake is to think he’d be able to avoid you considering the fact that you were his best friend/roommate’s good friend. Meaning you spent around twenty to twenty two hours at their place (Yes he counted) and he absolutely hated it.

He hated how your giggles would ring out in the entire apartment when Mingyu said a half-assed joke, it literally made his chest feel uneasy. He hated how your eyes would always twinkle when you would be talking to Mingyu, it made his stomach drop and sigh in disbelief. 

Was Mingyu that oblivious to how much you liked him?

Now this was a question that made Wonwoo almost throw up. Odd.

“You know if you don’t make a move, he won’t even know right? I know you think he’s one of the smartest but in the romance field, I think even fucking Jihoon beats him at that.” 

Or perhaps Wonwoo was just very oblivious to how much you liked him. 

You shook your head at Mingyu’s words as you both walked up to his apartment, the butterflies in your stomach already churning at the thought that Wonwoo was likely home. 

“And also it’s getting concerning how much time you spend in my apartment for the sake of him, like at this point just move in you creep—HEY!Ow!— that hurt you ass!”

“It’s not that easy,Gyu,he’s – he’s Wonwoo for God’s sake!”

“That’s exactly why it’s easy! It’s Wonwoo! Be direct with him. I’ve known him for years and trust me, he won’t know until you spit it out to him!”

Maybe…maybe he was right. Afterall he had been friends with Wonwoo before even knowing you.

“What if he doesn’t even feel the same–”

“Be serious. He literally looks like a lovesick fool when you’re over–”

“Maybe he’s just sick of me coming over.”

Mingyu stopped walking and you didn’t even realize until you were a few steps ahead. Pausing when you finally saw he wasn’t beside you.

His expression was like he was close to ripping out his hair from frustration while also being flabbergasted. It was kinda hilarious and you had to gulp to prevent laughing because you were sure he might just kill you.

“Okay! Okay, fine– I'll listen to you– maybe not confess today! But I'll ask if we can hangout or something,happy?”

“Very.” 

You rolled your eyes at his words as you both began climbing up the stairs, telling him to shush with his teasing as the tips of your ears began to feel warm and the blood rushed to your cheeks with every scenario you imagined.

Maybe if you thought that the upcoming scenario would ever occur. it would have hurt less. 

As you waited for Mingyu to pull out his keys, you could feel your nerves igniting through your skin and your stomach churning. But before Mingyu could insert the key, the door opened.

You wouldn’t have questioned anything, if it weren’t for the obvious messy hair, hickey marks trailing down her exposed neck and of course, the star of your daydreams right behind her, standing with a surprised face.

It was obvious what had occurred, the confirmation lying in the bruises on his neck. 

“Woah–uh.” Mingyu stuttered awkwardly, and you could feel his sympathy as he glanced at you. You couldn’t think of anything else other than how…right you were and how wrong Mingyu was.

You didn’t know who she was but it wasn’t her fault. Or anyone’s. Maybe yours. So as a weird tension simmered through the air, you looked away from them and just turned to Mingyu. 

And for the first time in his life probably, he was lost. Jeon Wonwoo was lost because why did he just feel like he committed a crime when he wasn’t even yours anyways?

He hated the way you looked away, not missing the hurt that flashed across your eyes as you realized what he probably was doing. 

You didn’t even notice she’d already left, smiling at Wonwoo and signing him to call her back, again. Probably not the first time, you thought.

“Uh-Gyu- I’ll go now, It’s getting late for me anyways,”

You really tried to stop your voice from cracking, the lump in your throat making you want to choke and die then and there. So you just looked at Mingyu, purposefully ignoring the way he looked at you in sympathy. 

His stare seemed to burn into your side profile. The words on the tip of his tongue, but what? It all felt like a lot but nothing at the same time. Wonwoo didn’t know what to say. 

Nodding goodbye to Mingyu and glancing at Wonwoo, offering a tight lipped smile as you waved, and then without saying anything you turned around. 

Mingyu frowned. His best friend couldn’t own up to his feelings for you and just when you were about to take a step forward, he somehow ended up fucking it up completely. 

What a mess. 

“Come on, we need to talk.”

Mingyu said seriously, putting an arm over Wonwoo’s shoulders, albeit a little forcefully which caused the other boy to almost stumble over. 

It seemed it was now up to him now to sort out this mess and hopefully it doesn’t get worse from here.

✩₊˚. | mingyu.

Being the new captain of the basketball team had its perks. Sure, you now officially got tagged as a ‘jock’, a title in itself that held its own benefits, probably more than just when you were another player in the team. 

But its disadvantages seemed more at the moment when you found yourself under the angered gaze of none other than Yoon Jiwoo. Another player of the basketball team. Shooting guard was the position.

By all means, it wasn’t your fault she was not captain, it was her own actions that did not get her the position. And plus, it wasn’t like it was bad not being a captain, Yeri was a small forward, yet probably the best one at it. So it was at the end of the day, nothing to you but just more responsibilities with the title. 

Plus, it was also voted by the rest of the players that you deserved to be captain this time when it was time to appoint a new captain. Jiwoo had been a captain before Lisa became that year, but she left and so there had to be a new choice made. 

With Jiwoo’s unfair hatred towards you, also came a similar animosity from her group of friends. Well you think Jiwoo wants them to share the same feelings as she does but you doubt they care enough, usually neutral towards you or sympathetic even as they tried to reason her animosity being useless.

They were five or six if you could remember correctly from the times they’d drop her to practice or come to pick her up sometimes. Apparently one of them was her cousin Yoon Jeonghan and you could surely see the similarities in them from the way unrealistically attractive they both looked. 

But the one that stuck out most to you was Kim Mingyu. Her best friend. And the one who supposedly hated you the most, after her that is.

Then why did he feel anything but hate? He couldn’t stop looking at you during your practice when he stuck around to wait for Jiwoo, as if in a trance as his gaze remained on you.

He couldn’t stop the way his heart sped up when you grinned so widely as you scored, tackling your teammate in a hug. Why was he suddenly envious of the people who got to experience your joy? 

In his defense, he liked you way before you were even captain. It was probably since the day he first saw you try for the teams and he thinks it was fate that he got to stumble onto you that one sunny afternoon. 

You were nervous for your trials and he was nervous from the way your hair prettily rested on your cheeks and made you almost glow in the sun. Yeah, he was convinced it was love at first sight.

Though he feels liking his best friend’s rival was…confusing. He didn’t know if he could take a side or if he should even question taking a side. 

“You pushed them on purpose Jiwoo!” Yeri yelled at her as she held you upright. You couldn’t even make out some of the words as you focused on the pain shooting up your ankle from the way it twisted. 

“We all saw it, stop acting like you did nothing!”

“Exactly, you have this weird hate boner for them since you couldn’t get your stupid captain title!” 

You were sure the first voice was Chaewon while the other was Yeri.

“Why are you all ganging up on me? It wasn’t on purpose! Ask-ask someone else as well!” Her voice got louder and louder as she finished her sentence. She didn’t expect people to take your side. Although her plan was just a little shove to keep you off balance as she got the ball in her hand, she did not expect you to twist your ankle completely. 

“It’s fine- just- just leave it. It was a mistake, I just-” Your words were cut off as you hissed out in pain again as you attempted to get up, only to tumble down again, luckily held up by Yeri and Chaewon.

They sat you down on the bench as they huddled around you in a panic. You pulled off your shoes, scrunching your nose from the smell but the pain quickly took your focus from that.

 “Hey! What’s going on?” You heard someone say as they entered, their voice familiar to you. Mingyu had come to pick up Jiwoo as usual, not knowing she left sneakily when they were focused on you, when he saw everyone huddled together, confused when he couldn’t see you amongst the first few he saw. 

He didn’t need to peek over due to his well…giant form, but he saw you sat down in the middle as he got closer, caressing your leg. His eyes widened when he saw your ankle swollen up and an angry red shade that was definitely not natural.

“Shit that looks bad.” You looked up and you swore you thought you were hallucinating. Because no way was Kim Mingyu out of everyone looking at you with nothing but worry and concern. He still looked…good. As always. Per usual. You think you got distracted from your pain for just a minute as you stared at him for a few seconds, him seemingly not noticing as he kept his eyes on your ankle.

“Blame your girlfriend.” Yeri scowled as she spitefully retorted, as Chaewon dug her elbow into her side to which she yelped and glared at her. 

“Girlfriend?” He turned his attention towards her, resembling a confused puppy as he raised an eyebrow in confusion.

“Yeri.” You spoke up firmly before she could say anything, looking at her with a look that told her to keep her mouth shut,not wanting to make this a bigger scene than it already was. She sighed and rolled her eyes, ultimately not saying anything.

You moved your leg around for a bit, deciding you should give it a go again to stand up, and drag yourself to the infirmary. And when you did stand up, it seemed you really overestimated yourself or perhaps underestimated your injury because next thing you knew you lost balance again.

But lucky for you, instead of landing right on the wooden floors and having a blistered lip, you landed right on Kim Mingyu. It only occurred to you now just how much taller than you he was when his whole form almost engulfed you.

“Woah. Take it easy, you’ll get hurt more.” He had wrapped one hand on your waist while the other held your arm. You think his touch burnt you more than anything because you felt yourself begin to warm up. 

“How about I take you to the infirmary? Sorry I didn’t say it sooner, I was just confused on what Yeri said and-”

“It’s-uh-it’s fine- I’ll go by myself-”

“Are you crazy?! You can’t even stand!”

You blinked, taken aback by his words, even more so with just how concerned he seemed,his eyes glistening with it. 

Kim Mingyu was someone you thought you knew but apparently you did not because a few minutes later, you found yourself being piggy-backed by him to the infirmary as he was scolding you about taking better care of yourself. 

You tried to reason that Yeri and Chaewon would take you but they both were adamant on Mingyu taking you, while they would go and look for a certain someone ( You prayed they would not be kicked out of the team).

His grip on your thighs, his shampoo that you could smell, his shoulders that were just so…so broad you couldn’t even fully wrap your arms around them…just him felt so overwhelming. Your pain was long forgotten as you tried not to freak out over how you were currently feeling over him.

But with the way he seemed, the way he acted, was it wrong to assume that perhaps, there was a possibility these feelings weren’t so one-sided?

Well, only one way to find out. 

₊˚⊹⋆ | vernon.

They say people shine their best when they are in their element doing what they love. But to you, Chwe Vernon shone even in the dimmest lights as he sat down in front of you.

It was just a few minutes before their gig. Him and his friends ; Jungkook, Mingyu and Eunwoo from what you remember, were all a part of an upcoming rock band. They were actually gaining more fame as time passed and you were proud to be one of the few who witnessed their growth from the beginning. 

They began from your small bar right in the downtown area where you worked as a bartender, you remembered their first performance, you were told it was their first gig actually. Now they are close to being signed up by a company, still wanting to perform one last time at the place where it all began. 

To you, he was the boy you’d always admire from afar, knowing there was no actual probability of him seeing you in that light. Even now, considering their gaining fame, you’d see the type of people that would swoon over him, even a few celebrities and models you remember. 

He was…a star. Far away and admirable but never in your reach. And stars are better to admire than seek anyways.

Though, it seemed your star wasn’t that far away from you as you thought. In fact he was much closer to you than you could even comprehend. 

In other words, Chwe Vernon was head over heels from you. Since the first time he performed and spotted you when you were busy serving drinks, since the time you told him how great they performed as he sat down in front of you while you talked about what interested you, your eyes gleaming under the dim bar light. And he thinks it was very much obvious what felt when he saw your wide grin, dimples poking out as you finally served him his drink. 

Whisky wasn’t something he liked, but you had recommended a certain combination with it and he thinks nothing else tasted sweeter that day. 

Sadly everyone around you but you saw that. Too focused on how you weren’t ever going to be a possibility because you thought he was just unattainable instead of thinking of the probability of just how much he may have liked you. 

“Nervous?” You smiled at him as you finished setting up the remaining glasses for the night, ready to serve knowing it would be a very busier night than usual due to them performing. 

Yes, yes he was nervous but not because of performing but because he was about to confess. 

“Haha- yeah- no! I mean uhm no- we’re- we’ll be fine.” He wanted to cuss at himself for stuttering, probably looking foolish, but he thought it was fine when he heard your giggle as you shook your head. 

“Oh you are. You’re already the best and I assume and hope it’ll only get better from now on.”

With you. It would get better with you because anything feels better with you. 

He wishes he could say it out loud, but maybe soon enough. That is if you don’t reject him. Yeah he doesn’t know what he’ll do if you do. Throw up probably. Or die. Dying seems good actually, he thinks. 

“Vernon? Here.” He snapped out of his thoughts as he blinked, looking down at the drink in front of him, confused because he didn’t order anything.

“On the house, from me. It’s my favorite drink actually. I-uh hope you like it.” He thinks even if you served him garbage he’d still be delighted, extreme but meh it was close to how he fell for you. Extreme and down bad.

“Oh then I’ll love it for sure.” Because I love you. 

Your grin grew wider as you were about to say something, you heard your name being called by your co-worker.

“Oh- I’m sorry I have to go now! I’ll be here when you perform for sure! Good luck!” 

“It’s okay, you’ll be here afterward.” 

You looked at him apologetically as he shook his head, knowing you were just doing your job and nodding to you to go, to which you waved goodbye at him. 

Perhaps you really underestimated your own words because apparently you couldn’t make it there. You were called by your mother who had gotten sick at home and needed someone to take care of her. 

You thought about whether you should inform Vernon but figured it wouldn’t be too much of a big deal, telling your co-worker to let him know in case he asked afterwards but you doubt he would, probably exhausted after the long night. You forgot your co-worker was switching shifts mid-way with another one, one who would obviously not know your whereabouts. 

And now as he got ready to sing the song he’d written for you, for you with very obvious lyrics about you, the moments with you, he searched for you but…you were nowhere. 

You weren’t there. 

Did you find out? Did you know? Did you think it was too much? 

All the questions arose in his mind as he shut his eyes and breathed in to calm himself. He couldn’t lose his cool on stage when there were so many fans waiting for him to perform.

He looked at his bandmates, and shook his head, not wanting to look at them again as they looked at him sympathetically.

“That’s it for tonight! We hope you continue supporting us in the future! Have a goodnight Seoul!” 

He said and this time as he felt anything but content, his heart heavier than ever and mind in a haze. 

Maybe in this lifetime, you’d both remain two separate stars. Far and never-crossing. 

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[kairoot]

can I please request something along the lines of playing hide and seek with Ateez and how each member would be -- like where they'd hide and if you'd even manage to find them,, I need a good laugh 😭

꒰ఎ 에이티즈 + HIDE ‘N’ SEEK

⟢ pairing : ateez x reader ➖ genre : fluff, established relationship ➖ requested : yes ! ➖ warnings : none that i know of

🧩 — ; hongjoong .

would definitely hide in his studio

you’re gonna find him. 100%.

his #1 hiding spot

AND HE NEVER CHANGES IT LIKE YOU’RE GONNA FORGET THAT THATS WHERE HE HIDES EVERY. SINGLE. TIME.

he’s one of those players that are in denial

“joong, honey, i see you.”

“no you don’t.”

“but i do..”

“but you don’t tho.” (his feet are sticking out from the spot under his desk)

🧩 — ; seonghwa .

you’re probably not gonna be able to find him for a few minutes

ngl he’s a pretty good player

hides in one of the bottom cabinets in the kitchen

don’t ask me how he fit in there..

he finds simple spots but also ones you wouldn’t really think of checking

and it’s usually some tiny space in the house

“hwa, how did you even manage to fit in here..”

“well, you see-“

🧩 — ; yunho .

ULTIMATE HIDE AND SEEK PLAYER YOU’RE NOT FINDING HIM

he finds the most outrageous hiding spots ever idk bro

you’re definitely gonna find him in your car or something

falls asleep on the car floor because of how long it took you to find him

like HELLO????

this is why you never play hide and seek with him

“YUNHO WTF-“

“huh?- what?”

“literally what kind of hiding place is this..”

🧩 — ; yeosang .

yeo is actually not bad at this game

but he doesn’t really use any technique so he chooses simple places

he’s still pretty good tho!

he’d probably hide in your coat closet :((

he’s just so cute

🧩 — ; san .

sans pretty good too

but he’s also very competitive..

IN DENIAL PT2

he’s so “i wasn’t even playing fr” coded

im ngl, you might find him in your bathtub.

“san..” *pulls back curtain*

“WAIT- NO, THAT WAS JUST A PRACTICE ROUND.”

🧩 — ; mingi .

im sorry but my baby is the worst at hide n seek

you’re gonna find him..

he’s most likely hiding behind or on the side of the couch or something 😭

he’s definitely the type to be confused on how you found him cause he thought his hiding spot was like the best

in denial pt3

🧩 — ; wooyoung .

honestly i don’t think wooyoung even tries to get a good hiding spot

he wants you to find him

picks the simplest hiding spots ever

purposely makes noises so it’s easier for you

idk this just makes sense to me cause it’s wooyoung

“woo, i found you. you kept stomping so loud-“

“oops..? 🤭”

🧩 — ; jongho .

jongho is literally the best at this game

probably better than yunho

jongho probably hides at your nearest grocery store

ITS OUTRAGEOUS I KNOW BUT HES VERY COMPETITIVE

you literally have to call him because you can’t find him ANYWHERE 💀

･:*:･.★

milan’s note: im sorry this was so short, im not feeling well

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OH, YOU WANNA PLAY PSYCHO KILLER?

Zaya sent you a new message: Spooky season is coming closer and closer, and reading all the Kinktober masterlists of my favourite writers inspired me to participate in Kinktober this year! Before I present you the fics that I have planned to write, I just wanna preface that I might not finish all my fics in October, but that doesn't mean that they won't get written (catch me writing kinky stuff on Christmas lmao). Besides that, I won't be adding any dates to the titles, because I do not want to make any promises that I might not be able to keep.Additionally I wanna say that order of the fics isn't nessecerally the order in which they will be published, but rather the level of intensity (so from tame to hella kinky). Since the fics haven't been written yet, the content warnings might change in the future. Without further a do, this is ZAYA'S KINKTOBER 2023

SYNOPSIS: After meeting a mysterious, yet beautiful woman, you begin to dream of her every night. Dream after dream, you find yourself craving for the affection of a stranger, that is, until you wake up with her in your bed...

CARMILLA: VAMPIRE! YUZUHA X FEM. BODIED READER ★

CONTENT WARNINGS: somnophilia, dubcon-ish elements, blood, strangers to lovers, reader has wet dreams of Yuzuha, cunnilingus, nipple play, scissoring, reader is gn but has female parts, lots of biting and marking, hints of aphrodisiacs

BIG, BAD WOLF: WEREWOLF! BAJI X FEM. BODIED READER

SYNOPSIS: Being the attentive grandchild that you are, you made it a point to visit your sick grandma in her village to help her recover from her illness. Unbeknownst to you, you arrived at the wrong place at the wrong timing, for mating season has started for werewolfs and one particular werewolf has his eyes on you from the moment you entered his territory...

CONTENT WARNINGS: ptv, reader is gn but has female parts, mating, breeding, marking, biting, scenting, fingering, dubcon but reader gets into it so it's consentual, stalking, gift giving, Baji basically wants to convince you that he's the perfect mate for you, love/attraction at fist sight

MR. GHOSTFACE: GHOSTFACE! SUKUNA X FEM. BODIED READER

SYNOPSIS: For the past few weeks, you have been receiving phone calls from a mysterious man. While skeptical and horrified at first, you grew to enjoy talking to the strange man on the other side of the line, even waiting for his calls. But no matter how much you've talked to him, you wouldn't have expected to meet your secret admirer, much less in your own home right after you've come home from a date...

CONTENT WARNINGS: stalking, reader is gn but has female parts, dubcon, possessive! Sukuna, ptv, spanking, degredation, choking, pussy slapping, fingering, unprotected sex, mentions of breeding, spit kink, dw he will turn a bit softer after he made you his

AND OF COURSE, THE SPECIAL MENTION: THE "Wouldst thou like to live 𝕯𝖊𝖑𝖎𝖈𝖎𝖔𝖚𝖘𝖑𝖞 ?" ENTRY

BEATA MARIA: PRIEST! TAIJU X SUCCUBUS! READER

SYNOPSIS: Seducing a priest is a sin, especially if you're a sex demon. You have been plaguing Taijus mind, haunting his thoughts and dreams, trying to lead him astray from the path of God. One night, Taiju finally catches you, but instead of excorsising you, he puts you back in your place...

CONTENT WARNINGS: ptv, reader is heavily fem. coded, spanking, face fucking, bondage (Taiju chains reader), multiple rounds, wet dreams, degredation, a bit of misogyny, this fic is vvvv blasphemic I gotta pray after writing this ngl, lots of taunting, reader tries to seduce Taiju, brat taming, rip your pussy

[notiddygxthgf]

12. three months

★ pairings: plug!wakasa imaushi x f!reader

★ synopsis: the one where you have the hots for your dealer, and Wakasa is always eager to please a customer. (don't let your bf stop you from finding ur hubby)

★ content warning: smut, angst, lotta porn w a lotta plot, car sex, dealer wakasa, cheating, oral sex, sneaky link, vaginal sex, vaginal fingering, sex while high, consensual drug use, mentions of abuse, unprotected sex, so much more...

★ a/n: so.... I have definitely been on hiatus. So so so sorry about that my little pookie bookies. life has been so cray cray lately. ur fave premed student has been struggling ngl. but I'm back up on my grind and I'm cranking out these chapters again! This one took a while to write because its definitely not a writing style I'm used to, but I needed to get this out to get to the good good. waka girlies, u will enjoy this chapter... I'm not spoiling but, stay tuned!!! love u allllll

★ w.c.; who even knows bru

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BLACK STILETTO HEELS CLICKED AGAINST linoleum, one after the other – the sounds rhythmic and soothing. You could faintly hear the fabric of your pencil skirt rustling as your thighs rubbed together, strutting down the aisle of the office with confident ease. You ran these streets. Least, that’s what it felt like when you came down that aisle every morning after you clocked in.

Right. Let’s run it back.

Three months had passed since your last meeting with Wakasa. You had taken some time to mull the whole thing over, and while a part of you wanted to hate him, you just couldn’t bring yourself to do it.

Three months of thinking, eight months of loneliness, three months spent repeating the same day over and over again. Three months at a job you didn’t really like, trying to make ends meet after Takeomi had cut you off.

Three months without him .

The unopened message sat in your phone the way it had been since you’d sent it. It seemed like years, now, that you had been running your tired gaze over the small field of text below the drunken mash of letters you had sent.

Read 12:01 AM

Swishing the burgundy booze around the bottom of your glass, you rested your head against the cold, unforgiving surface of the bar table. 

You swiped your ID through the reader, punching out for the day. Pocketing the little card and lanyard, you continued onward. You came up to an elevator, same one you used every day. You pressed the same buttons to get down to the same door you left through every day.

Every day.

With a quick nod of your head, you greeted your coworker – who was on her way in just as you were making your way out. You weren’t too big of a fan of her, in all honesty. You felt she was too superficial. Then again, who wasn’t in a place like this?

You were making good money, though. That’s all that mattered.

The rush of cool air that greeted you as you pushed past the gold-rimmed office doors provided a brief respite from the stuffy office. The city streets stretched before you, bustling with activity as people hurried by.

You took a deep breath.

Heels clicking against the pavement with every step, you walked with a purpose. The air of confidence you strived to exude seemed to mask your internal turmoil – feelings you felt were much better left unsaid, feelings that had been bottled away in the cellar of your mind for the past three months.

Three months of repetition.

Three months of regret.

Three months spent trying to remember the intricate valleys and curves of his body, the small features you had come to adore.

Three months spent trying to forget him.

Though you had struggled initially with your feelings toward Wakasa, you couldn’t really bring yourself to hate him. You had spent a good quarter of a year mulling it over in your head, breaking your last interaction with him into microscopic bits and pieces.

You had concluded that he had done it to protect you.

You knew he had been right to an extent but, shit… a man of his standing should have been able to find a way to make it happen…

…right?

You hadn’t heard much about Takeomi since the fight with him and Waka. Not even a peep. You didn’t know whether to feel alarmed about that or not.

You felt like you were being watched from a distance. Always. It felt like you were trapped in a never-ending cycle.

With your phone in hand, you dialed the number for a cab. The familiar anticipation began to build again while you waited for the vehicle to arrive. 

On the streets below, the city lights flickered to life, casting an amber glow on the sidewalk. You looked around for a moment, and then something piqued your attention.

Vrrrr.

There was a deep, rumbling sound in the distance, one that seized your heart in its grasp. For a moment, you were right back where you had been eight months ago. Your eyes searched the street until they fell upon a motorcyclist who had slowed to a stop in front of your building. Well, not in front of it, across the street. 

The sight of the rider stirred a pang of nostalgia deep within you.

In that split second, memories flickered through your mind. Memories of stolen laughter, hidden kisses… Memories of hushed promises against soft lips, some broken and some kept. His silhouette triggered an unexpected surge of hope.

You strained to see the rider’s face, heart racing. You yearned for that familiar, lazy gaze – the warmth it once held. 

But as he popped the helmet off of his head, it wasn’t blond hair that fell over his shoulders. No, just regular old brown hair and a stubbly face. 

It’s not him.

The realization hit you like a punch to the gut.

Your gaze fell. 

The cab’s arrival disrupted the moment, its tires screeching against the pavement until it came to a stop by the curb. With a weighted sigh, you climbed into the cab.

Your heart throbbed with a bittersweet ache. As the cab pulled away, you couldn’t help but wonder about the chances you wished you had taken with Wakasa, the what-ifs that lingered in the recesses of your mind. 

The cab carried you away from the scene, leaving behind the phantom of a love that had become a haunting memory.

-

The cold, yellow liquid felt refreshing as it burned its way down the back of his throat, that familiar acidic texture eating away at his stress. He sighed, setting the glass down on the counter.

As the bittersweet elixir numbed his senses, the pulsing beats of the club melted away, merging with the cacophony of laughter and chatter all around him.

Lost in a haze of intoxication, Wakasa let out a heavy sigh, setting the glass down on the counter with a thud. His friends eyed him up warily, faces etched with that familiar look of concern. He heard voices, people telling him to slow down, to regain control.

Of course, he paid them no heed. Glazed eyes reflecting a distant detachment, senses dulled from the liquor… worries numbed, just the way he liked it. In that numbing embrace, he found solace. Time and time again.

“I think you need a therapist, man,” Benkei whistled, nursing his own strawberry margarita. “If you’re still hung up over a hook-up this long after the fact, there’s something wrong with you.”

He pushed his friend’s concerns aside with an air of indifference and a quiet hum, too caught up in the muffled chaos of his own mind to truly acknowledge his worries.

“I think you need ‘ta hop off my dick,” He retorted, pursing his lips. “I know what I’m doin’, Kei. ‘M 27 years old.”

Benkei knitted his brows, muttering something into his margarita along the lines of, “Sure don’t act like it.”

“‘M fine, guys. Promise,” He smiled, although it didn’t quite reach his eyes. He knew he hadn’t been himself in a while, of course, but he would be damned if he admitted that. “What, a man can’t drink in peace?”

“No, Waka, the problem isn’t you drinking in peace,” Shin added matter-of-factly. “‘S the fact that that’syour eighth beer of the night.”

Waka glanced down at the half-empty drink in his hand – or half full, depending on how you looked at it – as if he, too were surprised at the number. “‘S Friday night, anyway. Go hard or go home.”

Waka thought he had put on a good show. He thought that, if Shin squinted hard enough, he could mistake him for a sober man. 

He thought wrong.

Shin shook his head, “It’s fuckin’ Thursday, man.”

Although he refused to acknowledge it verbally, he knew Shinichiro had brought up a good point.

Who was he kidding, anyway? It didn’t help. None of it did. The booze, the clubs every weekend, the faceless hookups and lap dances – none of it distracted him from the mess you had made in his heart.

Three months.

“It’s okay to admit you need help, Waka, y’know we love ‘ya,” Shin tilted his head. “Seriously.”

“Honest to God,” Benkei hummed.

The whole world knew he was a mess. Why couldn’t he just admit that something was wrong?

Waka ran his tongue over his teeth like the sharpened edge of a blade. He almost hoped it would draw blood. Anything to make him feel something.

“I…” He hummed, trailing off for a moment. “I think I need one more shot, then I’ll go home.”

Benkei shook his head.

Shin looked disappointed. Still, Waka couldn’t quite bring himself to care. 

Not even when his two friends had to carry him home.

-

[ 2:00 AM ]

Outgoing Message - 2:00 AM

You get home safe? 

.

Incoming Message - 2:00 AM

Yeah man. Thx 4 askin.

He holdin’ up ok?

.

Outgoing Message - 2:00 AM

He’s alr now, im staying w him tn

Gotta make sure he don’t puke in his sleep

Lol

.

Incoming Message - 2:00 AM

This ain’t healthy for him…

.

Outgoing Message - 2:00 AM

Ik… we gotta do smth man

.

Incoming Message - 2:00 AM

Ik, h8 2 see him like this

.

Outgoing Message - 2:01 AM

Idk i mean my lil sis is friends w her i think?

It may be time for ummm

.

Incoming Message - 2:02 AM

An intervention lol?

You know how Waka feels ab us gettin involved w his antics

.

Outgoing Message - 2:02 AM.

Not us.

I know a way

.

Incoming Message - 2:02 AM

It don’t involve Take’s ex girl, do it?

.

Outgoing Message - 2:03 AM

Jus follow my lead, alr?

.

Incoming Message - 2:03 AM

… I don’t like where this is headin, shin.

But I trust u.

Delivered.

-

[ USER CALL LOG ]

Best Bud (Waka)....... (Incoming) 5:00 PM (30 sec)

Lil sis (Emma) ………. (Outgoing ; declined)  2:10 AM 

Lil sis (Emma) ………. (Outgoing ; received) 2:11 AM (26 mins)

Benkei …………………. (Outgoing ; received) 2:12 AM (1 min)

Shibuya Pizzeria ……. (Outgoing ; received) 2:30 AM (1 min).

[ END OF USER “Papi Sano”S CALL LOG]

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Transcription:

“ Hi Waka, It’s me… I know ‘s… [hiccup] been a while. I’m- Just. Wanted to let you know that I’m in the area. And, first of all… fuck you, for what you did to, to me, you– ugh. You bastar- [hiccup] -d. I’m calling to let you know that I’m much better off without you. Me and my girls are havin’ a ball… a… a ball here tonight. Without you…….. Ugh, who am I kidding. I don’t even know why I called you. You probably haven’t even thought about me in months. I know I’m g’nna [hiccup] wake up tomorrow and forget I even sent this message so– [hiccup] just do me a favor, okay? You owe me that, after breaking my heart the way you did. Just forget you never saw this message, okay? Delete it. It’ll be better for both ‘f us if we just pretended this never happened. Fuck. How do I delete a voice message? I–

[???]: Girl, who are you talking to?

I gotta go, Waka, but… [sigh] I miss you. Okay? Fuck, I really miss you. I would never admit that sober. Thankfully I’m gonna delete this message before you ever see it, so it’ll be like it never happened. Not like I would have remembered anyway. Okay. Which button is it again? Ah, wait, shi –”

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The harsh neon lights buzzed against the night sky tonight at the Eclipse. Even from where you were standing on the curb, you could hear the bass throbbing through the pavement, the vibrations in the air, the smell of sweaty bodies grinding a few yards away. 

YOU  |  I’m here babe wya

Hitting send, you pocketed your phone. You took a deep breath, tightened your grip around the strap of your purse, and then stepped forward. The moment you entered the club, a wave of sound and sensation enveloped you. The air was thick with perfumes and colognes, the faint aroma of liquor lingering somewhere – probably the ground. 

Disco lights painted the crowd in fleeting bursts of colors, highlighting dancing bodies, dazzling outfits, and sin. 

In all honesty, you had no idea why Emma had even thought to invite you out here tonight. It had been eons since your last trip to the club. But, still, she said some event was happening and she didn’t want to go alone, and who were you if not the world’s best friend?

You searched the crowd for her familiar face and, sure enough, there she was, standing by the bar on the far end of the room. Blonde hair down to her back and a sweetheart dress that revealed just enough cleavage for you to know she was scouting out free drinks tonight, she was hard to miss.

You couldn’t help but smile as she waved you down wildly, gold bangles glinting beneath the club’s kaleidoscopic lights. There was an old song playing, one you couldn’t quite remember.

Emma’s grin only widened after you approached the bar and took a seat next to her. You scooted a little closer, cupping your hands over your mouth and shouting, “You weren’t kidding about this place!”

She laughed, a sound that you could almost hear in your head despite not being able to catch it over the music. “It’ll be fun! You brought ‘ya dancin’ shoes, right?”

Your eyes darted over to the dancefloor, where bodies writhed beneath the bass of the music. The sensation you felt was somewhere between excitement and hesitation. “I ‘dunno if I’m there yet, Emma– It’s been a while!”

“What?” Emma shouted. She rolled her eyes, glancing down at the other end of the bar. “I didn’t bring you here to mope, babe, we’re getting plastered!”

On cue, the bartender returned with two green drinks in hand, furnished with tiny little umbrellas. He set them down in front of the two of you, reached behind the bar, and then set two more red cocktails down before you.

“Let’s get this party started!” Emma squealed, sliding one of the green drinks your way. She held her drink in your direction, “To girls’ night!”

You clinked your glasses together in a toast.

Taking a cautious sip, you allowed the sweet concoction to flood your parched mouth. It was coconutty, with a hint of lime and –

The liquor hit you like a punch to the face. You scrunched your nose up, coughing a bit. 

“Shit, that’s strong,” You remarked.

“It’s a Coco Loco!” She answered the question you had yet to ask. “With two extra shots of rum! I knew you’d like it!”

You weren’t really a fan honestly, but you didn’t want to tell her that. Not after she had just spent money on drinks for the both of you.

“It’s good,” You said anyway. 

Emma clapped a hand on your shoulder, “That’s the spirit!” She exclaimed happily. Her makeup was creased a bit around the corners of her lips, where you knew she had been smiling all night. “Melt the pain away, girl.”

-

Wakasa stumbled out of the car, pulling his arm out of Shinichiro’s tight grasp. His annoyance was palpable in the way he kicked the car door shut behind him, paying no mind to the driver as he pulled away. He stood now on the edge of a bustling sidewalk in the middle of what might have been the shadiest-looking corner in Shibuya. He took a long drag from his cigarette, tendrils of smoke melting into the midnight blue around them.

“The hell are we doing at a seedy joint like this?” Waka grumbled, voice a low growl of discontent. With a scowl, he readjusted the collar of his deep purple dress shirt. 

Shinichiro bounced on the balls of his feet, stuffing his hands into his pockets with a sigh. His breath materialized into the air in front of him, a cloud of white amidst the darkness. 

“Figured we’d let loose a ‘lil tonight,” He spoke with such casualty that it almost came off as a little dismissive. He nudged Wakasa playfully, a humorous glint playing in his dark eyes. “Find some loose local girls for a quickie, yeah?”

Under any other circumstances, he would have been jumping at the opportunity. Seeing as he had spent the last few months attempting to drink his regrets away, however, he was anything but chipper at the prospect.

Waka’s annoyance only deepened, brows furrowing. He took another puff of his cig, blowing out the smoke with a quiet scoff. “I’m over fuckin’, man,” he groaned. “I’m goin’ celibate… startin’ today, no more bitches f’me.” 

“Like I’d ever believe that from you,” Shinichiro snorted, a subtle grin playing at the corner of his thin lips. He slung an arm over Wakasa’s shoulders. The height difference between the two of them was emphasized as they walked side by side. “Jus’ give it an hour, Waka,” he urged, tone oddly persuasive. “If you hate it, we can leave. If you don’t have a chick’s legs wrapped around your neck by the end of the night, I owe you fifty.”

Waka sucked his teeth, irritation melting away with newfound curiosity. “Might do it ‘jus to spite ‘ya,” He retorted.

“Right. Wouldn’t be so sure about that,” Shinichiro replied, a mischievous glint dancing in his eyes. There was something in his tone that raised Wakasa’s suspicion, the slightest feeling that Shinichiro might be up to something. “And don’t be bitchy with me ‘jus because I won’t let you pregame a fuckin’ liquor bar.”

Waka shot Shinichiro a fiery glare, cigarette ember glowing bright, before flicking the thing onto the ground in one deliberate motion. “Blow me,” he muttered beneath his breath. 

The two men stood in front of the club’s entrance. Wakasa slowed, locking his gaze onto the club’s exterior. Then, with a reluctant sigh, Waka entered the building.

-

As the night wore on, you found yourself lost in the spell of the music, lost in the endless sea of dancing, grinding bodies. The colored lights were hot against your sweaty skin. You knew the makeup would be melting off of your face by the end of the night if you kept going on at this rate. Hell, your mascara had started migrating already.

Emma’s Just-dance-inspired moves were contagious. The two of you were dancing on one another, performing a routine you seemed to remember all too well for someone who hated playing Just Dance so much.

The club seemed to ebb and flow like a living organism tonight.

You had lost track of time a long time ago. The songs had begun to bleed together seamlessly. Somewhere along the way, you lost your sweater. The dress you had decided to wear was stuck to your waist, plastered down with sweat. 

Yet, in spite of this, you were having more fun than you had anticipated.

Your flow was broken only when Emma grabbed you by the arm and led you to an empty corner. The both of you caught your breath.

Cheeks hot and flushed, you sighed contentedly, “I can’t believe I’m saying this, Emma, but you were right.”

“You havin’ fun, girly?” She giggled, giving you a playful sock in the arm. “Told you you’d feel better if you got out of the house.”

You nodded, feeling slightly liberated. She was right. You were actually kind of glad that you came out of your shell for tonight. 

Emma raised a playful brow. “You want to get a refresher?”

With a nod and a thin-lipped smile, you let Emma lead you over to the bar.

The two of you took a seat for the second time that evening, taking a moment to cool down and catch your breath. 

Emma turned her attention to the bartender – the same one she had just tried to hit on 30 minutes ago, “Two waters, please,” She ordered.

You tuned the bar out after that. Feeling a little melancholic, your eyes scanned the scene. The lights, the bodies, the music, the drinks. It was all so… messy. Yet, still, there was that unmistakable electricity in the air tonight.

Just as you were about to turn back to Emma, your gaze locked onto a figure against the wall. Immediately the recognition set in, and your heart skipped more than a few beats. It seemed to stop altogether.

There, standing in the dim corner, the lights danced over his familiar features – pretty button nose, downturned eyes, arched brows. His hair was back in a messy bun tonight. Even now, he had that passive, unamused look on his face.

He looked exactly the same as he had the day he closed the door on you.

Well, if you want to be technical, you closed the door on him, but you meant that in the metaphorical sense.

His piercing eyes scanned the crowd with a touch of his signature indifference. He exuded an air of mystique, momentarily entrancing you all over again.

And even now, three months later, his effect on you had not wavered.

Emma’s touch on your arm brought you back to the present, breaking the spell he had cast. “Hey,” She asked, concern evident in her voice. “You good?”

Your eyes were drawn back to the entrance, and your heart sank when you spotted your blond, ex-situationship once again. Panic surged through your veins immediately, seizing your lungs. It felt as if the walls of the club had gotten much smaller, all of a sudden.

Waka was standing there by the entrance, only a few yards away, with Shinichiro by his side. He looked every bit as breathtaking as you remembered him to be.

And he was looking right at you.

He can’t see me.

I need to hide.

He can’t see me.

You whipped your head back around towards your friend, flashing her a faux smile. “I’m gonna,” You swallowed, voice unsteady. “I’m gonna go back to the floor.”

Without even waiting for a response, you turned abruptly and slid off of the barstool. Your pulse was racing as you pushed through the wall of bodies behind the bar and made a beeline for the dance floor.

Emma was calling after you. You didn’t care.

The urgency to put distance between you and your past had consumed you whole. The bass pounded in your ears, matching the rapid thrum of your heartbeat. The music drowned out her voice as you merged with the sea of people once again.

Squeezing your eyes shut, you tried your best to lose yourself in the rhythm. Your movements were a frenzied, frantic mess of anxious movements. This time, when the lights flickered over you, the shadows they cast brought back memories of your history, your mistakes. 

I will not let him ruin my night, you told yourself.

Yet, still, you dared one last glance around. 

It was to scout the area for a suitor. That’s what you told yourself. 

Subconsciously, however, you searched for Waka amidst the colorful, blurred throng. Your heart began to race again when you spotted him by the bar, head turning slowly, eyes flitting over the club scene. It looked like he was searching for something.

The realization hit you like a train.

He’s looking for me.  

a/n: aaaand we are back with another cliffhanger! I'm so sorry. i have been, so bad to u all lately. life has been crazy! I think I may be shadowbanned, idk, I still dk how tumbly works. anyway! I did not like writing this chapter but it was a totally necessary segway into the next one, which will be very very very very very... jus trust me yall will love it. you know the drill, leave comments, suggestions, anything in down below and I will like, cry reading ur messages as always. Next chap is gonna be my fave like everrrr omg...

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[the-second-tonks]

★TXT reaction to their s/o randomly texting them 'i miss you' while they're at the practice

Requested!

˗ˋˏ ♡ ˎˊ˗ Soobin

They'd be having a break when he checks his phone and notices your message , it was loads of full stops , so he couldn't read . Well , we all know Soobin takes an eternity or more to respond because he reads the message from the notification and doesn't bother to reply , so you purposely used to add a lot of fullstops and spaces so that he couldn't read it from the notification. He opens the chat and notices you writing you missed him . His heart did a huge flip and his lips pulled out a smile as your phone started to vibrate . A video call from Soobin made you jump on the bed. He was outside the practice room for privacy and a break from his extroverted teammates. He talked with you for a few minutes and he maybe left the video call on inside the practice room, with the camera facing their practice so that you wouldn't get bored , on the condition that you don't make any sound.

˗ˋˏ ♡ ˎˊ˗ Yeonjun

Of course when it's the break he checks the phone and sees your 'i miss you' message with some emojis. He'll reply with an 'you miss me?!! No cuz same' and stuff . He'll call you and talk with you about stuff and promise you he'll be back very soon . He'll check his phone again and again in between practice so as to reply to your messages. He'll tell you to keep sending him messages , no matter if it's a rant or just 'i miss you's and he'll reply to them . The messages secretly boost him to finish his practice really quick so that his price is you . Well let's say he kept the promise because he finished his practice early . But the members were angry with him because they had to hurry . It happens every once in a while now , and the members get very annoyed at him , but they melt too bc ngl it is cute .

˗ˋˏ ♡ ˎˊ˗ Beomgyu

I think when he'll check it , he'll directly send a voice note and it'll have all the members talking because they want to disturb him but our boy runs out shouting like crazy because you're his partner and he wants to talk with you . Literally.. i see you waiting straight 5 minutes while the app shows recording audio.. or something. I think he'll speak so much that he'll forget about the break . When his break is about to get over he'll make a smooch sound to the mic and say “I miss you too” .. finally sending the voice note and disappearing. He'll be very happy though , and he'll be extra energetic in the practice then . I think when he'll return he'll stay glued to you the entire time because he doesn't want to leave you again!

˗ˋˏ ♡ ˎˊ˗ Taehyun

I personally feel when he receives this text he'll be delighted and will send you a few pics of him with that cute peace sign of his lmao . I also think Beomgyu would photobomb some of them lmao cue the members teasing him and Yeonjun whining “how cute” you both are . Taehyun really misses you too and you might have a talk for a little bit until he has to go. I feel like he'll feel bad about leaving you but will have to do it nevertheless. He does keep his phone aside and probably leaves your msg on read by mistake 😭 but he'll make up because he'll finish his practice pretty early and run to your house . He'll pick up some healthy food on his way home to enjoy and will definitely ask you to select a movie to watch .

˗ˋˏ ♡ ˎˊ˗ Huening Kai

I think he'll video call you too . But it'd be more like he does it with the members. He might even make you talk with the members lmao and would introduce you to the choreographer and the staff members. He'll have to disconnect soon though. I feel he'll then ask one of his staff members to shoot some of his videos and send it to you so that you can watch them and enjoy and feel as if he's near you . He's so sweet that he'll even ask some of the staff to play games like Ludo or Pubg or something so that you can keep yourself distracted until he pops up in your house with a bunch of icecreams and chocolates and pastries and chips and everything to make up for the time he couldn't spend with you .

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That's all for today (◍•ᴗ•◍)

[newtabfics]

Hello dear soul 0w0

Could I ask for a Rauru x reader where they love to draw, so they ask their crush Rauru to paint on his skin because it helps to relax - and so he takes his chance to confess to them? (I'm a sucker for cheesy romance I'M SO SORRY WVDEJDBJRJDBEUFB)

Have a wonderful day! <3

Ah! Thank you for the sweet message! i can't even say anything. Cheesy romance is so good!

Also ngl, this is a good break from the nsft content lmao

｡･:*:･ﾟ★,｡･:*:･ﾟ☆　　 ｡･:*:･ﾟ★,｡･:*:･ﾟ☆

Rauru smiled as he quietly sketched away on the parchment, dragging the charcoal carefully to match the scenery before him.

He was grateful Y/N suggested the summer house for a good sketching spot. The area around it was quite beautiful.

"Could I paint on you?" She suddenly asked, stilling her brush on her canvas.

"Sure. I don't mind if you paint me," He answered, focusing on his own details.

Her giggle made his ear twitch as he looked up, seeing her smile up at him. "No. Not paint you. Paint on you, Rauru."

He blinked and smiled. "Alright then. Should I remove anything?"

"Shirt. I'll paint on your back."

He nodded and stripped off the garments as she arranged her supplies on the table before standing behind him and getting to work. They both laughed when he jerked away.

"Sorry. It tickles."

"Not judging. Let me know if the paints are too cold though?"

He only hummed, clenching his jaw when the cold liquid began to brush against his back. He slowly began to relax, enjoying the brush strokes as his eyes closed.

Y/N watched him relax, smiling as his charcoal slowly stopped scratching against the parchment.

"Enjoying it?"

"Greatly," he chuckled. "It feels strangely good." She beamed and nodded, keeping up her work.

After a long beat of silence, Rauru took a slow breath. "Only you."

"Hm?" She hummed, blinking.

"I only let you get away with this sort of thing you know," He said. "You're the only one I could trust with this."

"Not the priestess?" Y/N asked, making him blink. "Everyone thinks you and Sonia are going to be a thing."

"Oh, well, ironically, i was asking her for advice on how to ask the woman I find myself attracted to to accept my advances."

Y/N gulped thickly, looking at the back of his head before refocusing on the painting. "What'd she suggest?"

"Taking her to the summer home and wooing her."

Y/N stilled as her face went bright red. She kept a still face though when he turned to look at her. "Is it, working?" He asked hesitantly.

"It...is," She mumbled. "Rauru...are you sure?"

"I haven't been more sure of anything in my life."

She smiled and took her brush, playfully painting a mustache on his face. "I accept, Mustachiod King."

He blinked and got up, looking at his reflection in the water before slowly turning to her with a devious grin.

She quickly bolted, fleeing the king uselessly as the guards looked on with a smile under their helmets. They watched their king scoop up the woman and drag her to the water, tossing her as laughter echoed from their chests.

Y/N would be a good balance for his more serious nature, they knew.

[ieilaf]

★ Drawing my OCs in 1900s fashion! ★

This was suggested by my awesome friend lucky, @quinnonimp!! (Please check out his blog!! its so cool!!) If you wanna see more of these OCs I personally recommend you check out my pinned message in my blog :D

this was made in ms paint it was so fun ngl! :>

[kalims]

ur cuter patootie

[toyama-division]

Yano Ietsuna stared intently at what was in front of him.

For the tenth time in the last minute, Yano turned his neck in all directions, making sure there were no people around him.

Slowly, he peered into the present once more and read through the card that was sent to him. Rather than being handwritten, the contents of the letter was entirely printed.

“A Merry Christmas to you,

Peculiar that I was assigned to you as your Secret Santa, is it not? I suppose it is only a splendid time to reward you so.

You irritate me to pieces every time you stop by. And yet, I await for your next visit. I constructed your present with my own two hands, so do be sure to bring this with you the next time you stop by. I assure you, I shall reward you rather handsomely so long as you continue to keep me entertained, my dear Jester.

Regards,

Her Majesty, The Queen Card”

"There is no way in hell I can show or even tell the others about this!!"

Yano whisper-screeched to himself. He didn't think he would have to worry about this Secret Santa event (outside of his own fucked up attempt at gifting). But he should have known the person who set the event up would pair him with that woman of all potential D.R.B. contestants. Still, a leash and collar was the last thing he expected to get from her. And handmade too? What the hell?!

Quickly, Yano made sure nobody was around one more time (if one of them saw him with this he was going to lose it) before booking it up to his flat. Open and shut, he ran into his room and threw the box in a shout.

On cue, his phone began to ping. Scrambling to find the gift, he snatched it up from where it had landed, hurled the gift under his bed, and fumbled his cell phone out.

Asato - I got my gift.

Attached to the text was a photo of Asato, with some wrapping paper in his hair in front of a giant framed 3D nature diorama. Yano felt a little jealous that Asato's Secret Santa seemed much more tame than what he was currently wrestling. Before he could dwell on it further, Kensaku's own messages started to follow.

Uncle Ken - Wow! Uncle Ken - You got something in your hair kiddo haha Asato - u guys got ur gifts Asato - ? Asato - btw wen u coming Uncle Ken - Soon! Gotta get my Secret Santa first before I load the car with your presents Asato - k Asato - Yano?

At that question, Yano's face started to burn. In a rush, he quickly sent his messages in a flurry.

★ Y-STARR ★ - I CAN'T ★ Y-STARR ★ - SHOW ★ Y-STARR ★ - I'LL BE THERE ★ Y-STARR ★ - BYE

Chucking his phone across the room, he slapped his hands onto his face and curled into a ball. He needed some time to breathe. Recover from the embarrassing gift from Queen Card... So he let himself scream as his phone's notifications continued to ping somewhere in his empty apartment.

Thank... You? Ngl I screamed when I saw what the gift was. This is basically Yano's second collar like bruhhhhh 😂

[decembermoonskz]

+ stray kids : ROCK-STAR (樂-STAR) | my comeback review/thoughts °˖✧

time for another skz comeback hehehehehe i have some thoughts about the mv so i'll jot them down as well but we're talking album first! if you're interested click under the cut >:D

album ;

★ - favorite

:: MEGAVERSE ★

!!!!! okay i love this song so much! it's a great intro!

i was getting a lot of maze of memories vibes ngl

the BEAT DROP THO :00000

i loved seungmin and jeongin's vocals

jisung and hyun's raps were my faves

chris doing the outro >>>>>

already i like it more than lalalala ngl but onto that one

:: LALALALA

the bass is so nasty /pos

i'm happy changbin opens the song hehehe

rap line really popped off fr fr

the pre-chorus is so heavenly 😩 i love it so much

the drop again is soooo good the key changing in the background is so satisfying hehe

HYUNJIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (start of verse 2)

kinda wanted seungmin's part to last a bit longer afterwards

jisung needs to chill /pos

CHRISTOPHERRRRRRRRRRRRRR (pre-chorus 2)

kinda not a fan of the song format this time around but lix saying "oh shit" is so good lol

jisung doing the second chorus start is perfect

CHRISTOPHER FALSETTO IS KILLING ME (I will never get over that ever. you hear me? ever.)

the hype ending reminded me of a yg song highkey (ikon/treasure vibes)

overall good title track solid 8.5/10 for me

:: BLIND SPOT

!!! oh! this is more upbeat than i expected!

jisung vocals!!!! >>>>>

jeongin 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

oh this is so uplifting.. 🥺🥺 heart feeling all warm and shit

OH HELLO THE SYNTH!!! i actually like it those really high synths sometimes bother but not this time

changbin!!! *head bops*

the pre-chorus feels really nice. like it's building up to something so happy and satisfying

the chorus is so cute tho!! 😭

hehehehe chris..... (read: FALSETTO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

oh i like the switch up for the last chorus/outro

this one is so cute. very tmt vibes ngl it's so cute

:: COMFLEX ★

👀 oh? (classic skz sirens)

HEY NOW! *starts jamming*

that intro tho was perfect

jeongin!!!!!!!!!!!???????? YOU DON'T GIVE A WHAT????? (are skz saying fuck it when it comes to cursing now LOL fuck yeah)

oh the message is awesome

CHRISTOPER?!?!?!? AYO FUCK YEAH

THE DROP IS SO GOOD!!!

hyunsung you better fuck that rap up

i love the embracing all my scars and imperfections

i knew felix would do the drop intro this time

OH I LOVE THIS SONG

the bridge has such a goof melody tho

vocalracha is killing it

CHRIS I WILL SCREAM (that intro to the drop is so hot i love that for chanlix)

oh i love that one so much

:: Cover Me

omg that first 10 seconds is so peaceful i love it

omg i'm kinda speechless. this song is so beautiful 🥺🥺🥺

my brain is so smooth for this song HAHA

that whole first section was so pretty i felt like i was being carried through it (if that makes sense)

chris has so many falsetto moments in this album and i'm loving it

"the sun will always be there waiting after the rain" damn i'm crying ig

i'm not usually one for ballads but this one hits so nicely

i think it has to do with that electric guitar in the back

hyun!!! 🥺🥺🥺🥺

SEUNGMIN MAIN VOCAL!!

omg him and chris holding those notes was so satisfying!!!

this is my new fave ballads they have (right next to waiting for us)

what? nooo i don't want it to be over 😭😭 that was so nice

need to see this in concert

:: Leave ★

WHAT IS THIS PERFECT LOFI INTRO???????????????

OMFG I LOVE THIS SO MUCH

THE JAZZY LOFI VIBE I'M IN LOVE

changsung serenading with rap somehow i love this

i thought this would be the ballad (i mean it kinda is) but this has more chill than ballad omg

feels like a jisung song

CHRIS PLEASEEEE

the chorus is soooo nice

omg electric guitar again!!! it's so good the way they use it

oooh the second verse with minho is so nice yesssss

hyunjin better stop...

ah i almost that it was over but i was like "there's one more isn't there" lol

CHANGBIN VOCALSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS FUCK YESSSSSSSSSS ALL I ASK FOR GOD

seungmin backup vocals are so good

that was so nice def a fave

:: Social Path Ft. LiSA (KR Version)

i wasn't sure how they could change much since it's a english predominant song but okay?

i'm very biased and don't like their language switch-ups most of my time but this one is okay

the lyrics sound fluid actually LET'S GO

LiSA vocals (i'm in heaven)

this is literally my dream collab you have no idea

my fave group and one of my fave vocalists ever they did this for me actually

i love the "now or never" melody so much still

i don't have that many thoughts about this one bc i liked this one before

the korean lyrics fit fine since there weren't that many to start with but this is an okay language switch-up imo (this is rare for me so know that's good lol)

:: LALALALA (Rock Version)

OH GUITARS FUCK YES

OMG FUCK YES THIS IS SO GOOD THE DRUMS!!!!

oooooo the pre-chorus is more intense instead of heavenly I LIKE IT

oh the drop feels so different ngl bc of the inst. it makes it feel like a diff song

oh seungmin's part after hyun is better in this version ngl the hits are nice

changsung raps >>>>>>

the guitars are so fucking good

the rock inst. + chris' voice is amazing

OOOOOH THE BRIDGE IS AWESOME SO INTENSE AND HYPE-BUILDING

THE MUSIC DROPPED OUT AND CAME BACK WITH HYUN LET'S GO I LOVE THAT

more caps in this version bc it's so hype

oh the hits with lix's la la la is so satisfying

hehe 24/7- anyway

this feels like this should be the live version (i hope it is)

OH! different outro i liked that outro more i think

overall i like the alterations in this version but i like the og more still

mv/performance ;

so i'll keep it brief on the mv. it's not good for me. i love the color palette (browns and blacks are so so nice for me) but i really don't like it overall. they've had so many better ones imo.

it's just not for me. it kinda tainted my first impression of the song but i like it a lot more after watching music bank (i'm so excited for the studio choom)

it was a bit too frenetic and chaotic for me. it didn't go with the song that well and felt too random (a bus, a pirate ship and clowns? alien cg creatures too? too much and it doesn't go together). the editing for this mv was some of the worst i've seen for a skz mv and that's shocking to me bc they are so well-known for the editing of their mvs but i just really have no words for how messy it felt.

also the way the screen time for the vocal line felt so much more scuffed compared to the rap line tilted me a lot (i barely saw jeongin and chris in the mv and that bummed me out a lot).

overall i won't need to rewatch the mv that much. i am content looking at stayblr's gifs of the mv.

now as for the performance aspects, i really like the choreo and it really feels intense and hype. it's perfect for a concert which is always smth i think about in terms of them.

the chorus choreo is so powerful and i love the pre-chorus stuff it reminds me a bit of back door's pre-chorus choreo. like the vibes and stuff

the outro chorus choreo is so hype and it makes me bop my head as i watch.

tldr: i dislike the mv, but the choreo and energy are great!

final thoughts ;

i'm so happy my boys are back and they definitely did great with this one. is it better than 5-star for me? mmm i don't think so if i were to compare them i still love the 5-star album more. HOWEVER i really think the b-sides are amazing on this album. megaverse and comflex are so amazing and cover me and leave are so nice. i love when skz show their more gentle and softer sides in their songs since they're known for bangers. the mv nearly tainted my whole love for this cb tho so i'm def gonna overlook that. however skz never disappoints with bringing the hype energy and once again they've shown out with this comeback. they definitely made it rock (lol lemme stop). overall out of 10 i think this comeback was an 8/10 bordering 8.5/10 bc i really like the album itself. i can't wait for their next tour i need to see this stuff live >:)

[lisxdumbr]

I just saw your reply to my last msg hold on this is my reply to that(AND its ok if u answer late, that's fine💖 i will still love u):

Forgetting to exist just feels like time is passing by and you're more or less out of touch with your body as if it's the realest lucid (dream) reality and your heart keeps getting emptier than ever even if it is empty anymore.. it's like. you are very tired of everything (even what u love. Literally everything), becoming more drained even by doing the bare minimum, and you can't burn yourself to do more (analogy that could help is how a dwarf star burns all its might until it's nothing and gets colder in the end. Then maybeee explode) To Summarize: silly sadness is not silly anymore and emptiness is emptier than ever! 🎉

(very sad. yes. but i am sillier than usual so. Let's focus on the silliness instead while acknowledging this sad thing.)

Oh no... it is a sad day for the free pulls... But perhaps the luck went to mika... You know.. I BELIEVE IN U (and your dias) LIS!! Yuta mirage you better come home to lis as well or else.

GOODLUCK ON MIKA CARD!! Go get the silly and prettiest idol ever 🧸💚 2day is his bday may he be kind to u <33 ngl his singing voice still stuns me so dang much like WOahh... I must see them personally and would kill (slash j... Ohh are we slashing people?? Why not? Again, this is a joke,, your sunflower is just feelin goofy.. ) to get a ticket if only enstars exists irl... I know u would do the same.

Okie that's all for now!! Keep being the silly cospro producer lis <3 All the love!! 🎀😉💌 I'm happy u chilled for the holidays that's so cool, i hope u enjoyed the stuff u brought for yourself <3

— 🌻.

I promised I'd reply to this soon, I am sorry it was,, sooner than the others at least? but yeah it still took me a couple of days ★

Ohh I get the feeling but ough :(( I'm so sorry you're going over that. Yes I know how depression feels, very much,, I've been severely depressed since I was a child and recently I got diagnosed with a cortisol addiction ! It's all over my blood plaguing it so,, yeah, the feeling won't go away in a whiiiile.

Emptiness is something very hard to overcome I'm, wahhh I want to give you a hug and put you in my pocket. Maybe it's my protective 6th sense idk, I'm not called ate/nee-san by my friends over nothing. If you ever need to talk, my asks and my dms are open ! it'll be a silly secret

I'M VERY GRATEFUL FOR YOUR WISHES TYSM. I hope that Yuta comes home soon, YESSS THE BIRTHDAY MANIFESTATION WORKED I got my Mika !!!! I will ramble forward in your next ask that I need to reply to too /sweats. Who wouldn't kill slash half jay slash srs to be in a Valkyrie concert, of course I know the feeling. My Mimika was my first favorite character alongside Yuta when I started getting into enstars. I was OBSESSED, to the point I made tons of Mika fanart ! I'm thinking I should redraw some.

YOU KEEP BEING AMAZING TOO !! Hang on there ! I know mental health is always something we struggle with but I don't know what I'd do without your silly messages in my askbox every now and then. I will proceed with your other ask, this time separated (I keep experimenting with the way I reply to you idk)

[yoonieper]

Conceal, Don’t Feel (1/2) | JJK

★ Pairing: Jungkook x Reader (ish?)

★ Genre: Idolverse, smut, pWITHp if that makes sense 

★ Rated: HR for Harsh Reality [❥]

★ Warnings: Important message, jk thirsting for yn, unrequited feelings, sad feelies, jk + fleshlight ;), masturbation (m), edging, jk a bit of a freak ngl

★ Word Count: 7.3k I have no idea how that happened omg

★ Summary: A late night purchase becomes Jk’s Friday night ;D

★ Author’s Note: Hey guys. So I know that this may appear quite light hearted, but I wanted to carry a small, but important message through this work. I will go into more detail in the author’s note at the end of Part 2! All I’m gonna say is that I really hope Jungkook doesn’t feel like this….. Also sorry if this smut sucks hehe 🙈 I’ll be uploading Part 1 of Secrets of the Sea very soon! Just doing some final editing, so sorry for the wait! 

No reposting, modifying. Translating not allowed unless given explicit permission. Thank you so much : D

Part 1 | Part 2 (to be released later) | Special (???)

“We need them in 5” the staff member announced to the makeup artists. They had been busy for the last hour doing last minute touch ups, finishing final details, making sure they have the members looking nothing less than perfect (even though that wasn’t hard to do on their own). 

This wasn’t going to be anything unfamiliar. As the global ambassadors of Fila, shooting these commercials had now become a common part of their schedule.

“So Jungkook, you have any plans after this?” You asked as you focused closely on his lips, trying to make sure they were flawless. Jungkook just prayed you didn’t notice how his face had flushed, heart rate speeding out of control. Practically turning into putty right before your eyes. 

“Um no, just uh, just going back to the dorm” he tried to say without sounding like a complete fool. Damn, why’d you always have to make him so nervous… 

“Ah, no Friday night plans for you then” you chuckled, dapping the brush lightly across his lips one more time. “Other than passing out on the bed later, no…. what about you?” He hoped he sounded convincing. Your scent was intoxicating at this point. You always smelled so good. Why did you have to be so close? 

“Mina and I are getting food, getting drunk, and we haven’t decided yet, but maybe hit up a club if we feel like it.” You said looking past Jungkook, at the hair stylist who was fixing up Jimin’s hair. Your lips were moving but he could hardly pay any attention to what you were saying. 

“Sounds like you’ll be having fun. Kinda jealous” Jk laughed sadly, making you tempted to ask him to join the two of you. “Did you wa-“

“Finish up everyone!” The staff member called out again. 

You used your index finger to list his chin so you could get one last look and examine your work. His heart was beating so loudly. Da dun da dun. He was worried you could hear it. 

You stepped back and admired your work one last time. 

Yep, you were happy with this. 

“Ok, you’re done. Go get em tiger.” You joked, but a weak laugh was the only thing Jungkook could muster. He needed to get out of here before he does something stupid. 

“JkKKKaaAAAAaaaYYYYyyYYY” Hoseok called out to the Maknae, making him turn around. 

Oh thank god. 

Jungkook got up out of the styling chair and ran over to his hyungs who were waiting for him. As he approached the group he could sense they had something to say, and it was obvious by the way they smiled, he knew what this was about. Not this shit again.

“And the question still is, when will Jungkookie ask Y/N out” Namjoon sighed as the group started walking toward the set. The poor boy frowned at the comment. As obvious as his feelings are for you, there have been multiple reasons why he’s never confessed to you (sober). Some reasons the other members, who often tease him, don’t even know. 

“It’s like I’m watching a kdrama or something,” Yoongi awed. “I never thought I’d see something like it in real life.” 

“It’s frustrating isn’t it” Taehyung laughed, making the other members join in. 

Jungkook shied away at their words. The teasing is something he’s gotten used to by now. 

You and Jungkook first met when you started working for Big Hit a couple of years ago. You had taken the place of Jungkook’s last makeup artist after she had left to go get married. He still remembers the first time you guys had met, like it was yesterday. 

It had been the first day of shooting the concept photos for Love Yourself: Her, Jungkook had been watching an anime Taehyung had recommended to him, when he felt a soft tap on his shoulder. 

“Hello, I’m Y/N! I’ll be doing your makeup from now on” you cheerfully introduced. As soon as Jungkook first laid eyes on you he knew there would be trouble. 

You were drop dead gorgeous and it had his brain going haywire. 

The whole time you were trying to be nice, making small talk here and there, attempting to ease the awkward silence as you worked. Jungkook struggled to say the least. He could hardly focus on his anime while you worked on him for the next half hour. 

As time passed, things only seemed to get worse. 

Jungkook started learning about you, your likes and dislikes, your past, your hobbies, your aspirations, every detail only made his heart tighten and feelings grow. 

You both could easily say you had become friends. You have talked and hung out outside of work environments (that being said, Mina was always there). 

These days, however, Jungkook can’t seem to shake the nerves everytime he sees you. It’s almost like you both were back to square one. 

But there had been a reason. 

It wasn’t that long ago when you, Mina, and Jungkook, all went out drinking together. That whole night was just a blur except the blaring memory of him drunkenly confessing his feelings to you when Mina had left to go get the car. 

He always assumed you never remembered, since you never brought it up, but part of him always worried you did. Then again, it wasn’t anything grand or even made any sense. Jungkook remembers hardly understanding himself, you could have just ruled it as drunken mumbling, not him pouring his feelings out in the worst way possible. 

The director quickly informed the seven of their directions and what they were to be doing exactly. It wasn’t anything too big or difficult, it’s just they had multiple commercials to film today that was going to be the exhausting part. 

“Jungkook” you called out and waved, Jungkook and the other members ended up turning their head in your direction only to see you happily flashing them a thumbs up. 

Oh no. 

There goes that fluttery feeling again. 

“See look Jungkook, she’s even cheering you on” Seokjin playfully hit his shoulder. Everyone happily waved back except Jungkook who was still star struck. You’re seriously making this hard on him. 

“Actors on set!” The director called out. The boys pulled Jk out of his trance and brought him to the set. They had a long day ahead of him. 

The whole time they filmed your eyes were on the boys. Even though he knew you weren’t necessarily watching him, the way you would intently watch over them, made it hard to focus. The little awkward conversations you would have in between scenes while you touched up his makeup, made him nervous and even more flustered. 

He thought maybe he seemed to be even worse today because of his plans later on. 

He wasn’t lying when he told you he was heading to the dorm, but he did still have something planned he was looking forward to quite a bit. 

One late night a few months ago Jungkook found himself in a bit of a frustrating position. A glass of beer in one hand the other lazily stroking his cock. 

It had been one of those days that Jungkook had been up at the ass crack of dawn and he felt fairly certain none of the other members were up or at least wouldn’t come barging in his room. Opportunities like this were rare as most of the time he would be asleep right now, but that day had happened to be one of his restless nights where he was particularly excited. 

Very excited. 

The next thing he knew he was sneaking out his room, grabbing a can of beer, and pulling up his good old reliable, favorite porn video. That would be the end of the story if his good old reliable had done the trick like it always did, but he still found himself frustrated, aroused, and unsatisfied by the time the end of the video came. 

In the name of sexual frustration, Jk found himself exploring the site in hopes he could find something to end the torture. He somehow, after many failed attempts, ended up on this video of a couple trying out a fleshlight and, to put it simply, Jungkook didn’t make it very long into the video. 

The toy had been relatively unfamiliar, he knew he had heard of it before, but never has he seen it in action. 

For an hour he laid in his bed wondering what it felt like, ‘was it as good as the real thing?’ the guy in the video seemed to really enjoy it… 

Basically this ended with Jungkook getting more beer and researching a bit more. The more reading he did the more curious he became. 

He highly contemplated getting one. 

On one side he knew it would be a lot better than using his hand, the reviews he read proved that point, but at the same time he still thought it was a bit silly. Was he really that desperate at this point? The short answer was yes, yes he was. 

Unlike some of the other members who have either had relationships before their debut, or have brought people home afterward, Jk never got that opportunity. Starting out young meant he had to forgo a lot of things kids his age should have. 

He was focused on work so much when he was younger that he never got a chance to look at the world around him. When he got older he realized this, but at that point the status they held got in the way of doing a lot of things he wanted to. 

So on a limb, after many more cans of beer, and the sun now peaking into his window, Jungkook found himself purchasing one (he remembers he got so drunk he could hardly remember his card number >_<). When he woke up later that afternoon, hungover as hell, he immediately regretted everything he did earlier that morning. That feeling he was fighting against, that embarrassment, overtook any of the thinking he did earlier. 

As much as he felt like this, he never found himself ever canceling the order. 

2 weeks later Namjoon had called Jungkook out of his room noticing a big box with his name on it. At first he had been confused wondering what it was as he didn’t remember ordering anything, completely forgetting about the purchase he had made a few weeks before, but in an instant it all came back to him and he scurried to get the box before anyone figured out what it was. He was embarrassed enough at himself, he would never survive if his hyungs ever found out what he had bought. 

He had hid the box deep in his closet, trying his best to forget about it until recently. Jungkook had been cleaning his room a bit and found the box again making the interest in the product return. After some time those feelings he had felt that persuaded him to buy it in the first place resurfaced. 

Maybe it had to deal with you, but it made him hot with need and wanting nothing more than to release some of that pent up frustration. 

Jungkook had waited until the perfect opportunity to show up. He wanted to make sure that no one would be near his room at the time, since this was something new, and he wanted to enjoy it without worrying to keep quiet or someone bursting into his room. This Friday night happened to be that perfect opportunity.

He focused mainly on the members who were on either side of his room. 

Tae had plans after the shooting of the commercials to go by the office and record some songs for the mixtape he was working, Jimin had plans with friends, Hoseok had work to do at the office as well, any of the other members room’s were on the other side of the dorm so he didn’t really worry (plus at this point he was too impatient to wait for him to be completely alone). He was ready, and you were really making things difficult for him today. 

“And cut!” The director called out. That was the last one they had to shoot today. Finally they could leave. Everyone cheered and the boys thanked the staff for their efforts. 

Jungkook watched as you happily bounced your way over to him and handed him the makeup wipes. “You did great Koo” you complimented, ah what that nickname did to him. 

“Y/N!” You heard Mina call over to you, you turned around to see her excitedly waving you over. “Hey Jk, you think you’ll be good without me” you asked, Jungkook nodded “Yeah I’ll be good, I know you had plans so….” “You sure, I could-“ “Go enjoy yourself, you’ve worked hard today” he smiled. 

It was weird, it terrified the shit out of him when you were around, yet he hated when you weren’t near him. 

Sigh

Feelings were exhausting. 

You said a quick goodbye before running over to your friend. Jungkook watched as you both laughed and cheered your way off set. Seeing how happy you were made him feel good. 

When he couldn’t see the two of you anymore, his attention refocused on his hyungs who were starting to walk back to the dressing room. He quickly ran up to join them. 

“You should probably head back to the dorm, rest and see how you feel after” Jungkook heard Jimin say.

“But my deadline-“ Namjoon tried to add, but Jimin stopped him.

“Go home. Hey, who’s going back to the dorm?” Jimin asked and Jungkook and Jin raised their hands “Make sure he doesn’t work and actually goes to sleep. This is probably because you were worrying about your deadlines so much” Namjoon sighed knowing he was right. 

All of a sudden when they had made it about halfway through the shoot, he started getting a terrible migraine. He somehow made it through, but originally he had plans to head to the office after and work on songs that had deadlines approaching. Seems like they’ll have to wait for today. 

“Hyung, you alright?” Jungkook asked, concerned, noticing the leader’s pained expression. 

Namjoon nodded “Yea, just got a pretty bad headache… I should be fine after some rest hopefully” Jungkook lightly rubbed his back. “You work too hard hyung” Namjoon chuckled lightly at his words. 

Sometimes he thought so too. 

The boys went ahead and got changed and went ahead and said their goodbyes as they went their separate ways. 

Jk led his two hyungs to his Mercedes “Ooooo Jkayyyy” Seokjin teased as they approached his car making the two laugh. “Jk’s our chauffeur~” Namjoon giggles happily as he opens the door in the back. 

The ride home was relatively quiet as the two rested peacefully while Jungkook navigated the bustling streets of Seoul. It’s kinda hard to believe how long he’s been here by now. Sometimes it feels just like yesterday that he took the leap of faith and moved here from Busan. Man… time flies. 

 “Ooo hey Jungkook look at this” Seokjin said as they neared the red light. He handed his phone over to reveal a picture from your insta of you and Mina at a Korean barbecue place, looking happy as ever. Seokjin noticed the way his expression changed, his eyes trained on your smiling form. 

The boys had quickly found out about his feelings even before Jungkook himself even realized them. They noticed the long glances, the way Jungkook would become a mess around you, how excited he was when you came up in conversation. 

It was more than obvious there was something there. 

They had been encouraging him for years to ask you out, trying in all their power to somehow give their shy maknae that one last push. Still though, he was resilient, and never made any steps toward confessing. 

“Jungkook seriously, what’s stopping you” Namjoon asked from the back, his eyes closed as the blinding neon lights only seemed to make his head ache even more. Jungkook gnawed on his lip, contemplating how he should answer. “I just... can’t” he said so quietly they could barely hear him over the sounds of the city around them. 

“You can’t… I don’t see what’s stopping you” Seokjin joked but he noticed Jungkook’s expression fall. 

“So, you never plan on asking her out then? I mean, you know she’s not gonna be with us forever… I see more harm in not trying, then at least knowing you took that chance,” Namjoon put wisely. 

Jungkook rested his head on the steering wheel, his hyungs’ words making him feel too many emotions. He was upset they didn’t understand, he was upset that they were right, he was upset that he couldn’t get out of his head about this. 

“Yeah, don’t let the nerves take over” Seokjin put simply, making Jungkook even more frustrated. 

There have been many reasons he never confessed. Of course the obvious fear of spilling your feelings and the other person not reciprocating them, terrified the absolute shit out of him, but something that’s stopped him even more than that was his career. He feared the most what army would think. He would hate to be the one who ruined their reputation just because of stupid feelings. The thought terrified him so much. They were such a big part of his life, it felt almost selfish. 

“Yah Namjoon” Seokjin said getting the attention from the leader “What if we make sure all members are out of the dorm and leave it for Y/N and Jungkookie~ They can get some alone time” He said with wiggly eyebrows, making the younger playfully hit him. 

“Yah, Jungkook, if you ever ask her out, if you want the dorm to yourself I’m sure all of us would be happy to give you guys that time to be by yourselves.” Namjoon beamed. Jungkook’s grip on the steering wheel tightened “You guys would look so nice together” Seokjin pointed out after seeing another picture of yours in his feed. 

Jungkook looked over and glanced at the picture when he reached another red light, he didn’t think much of it, until his brain fully processed what it saw. Jungkook hastily grabbed the phone out his hand and fully examined the photo. 

It was of you at the beach, you were looking towards the water as the sunset behind you and decorated your skin with a pretty glow, what absolutely made him lose his mind though, was the simple black bikini you wore under the light shawl that was draped over your form. Oh fuck.

The sudden beeping of the horn from the person behind him was the only thing that brought him out of it. Hastily he threw the phone back to his hyung and continued on. The two members laughed at Jungkook’s obviously flustered state. This conversation almost made him completely forget his plans later. This was a painful reminder. 

The rest of the car ride was quiet as Namjoon had ended up falling asleep and Seokjin started playing a game on his phone. Jungkook liked the quiet though. 

That picture reignited feelings that were extinguished by embarrassment and thoughts he didn’t really wanna talk about. Still though, that didn’t take away from the fact that he was still horny. The reminder had him pushing even faster to get home. 

“Bye everyone~” Namjoon said sleepily as he left for his room. “Don’t forget to eat hyung, it might help,” Jungkook called out. A small hum was all he heard to let him know the leader had heard him. The two heard the door close soon after. 

“Did you wanna get anything to eat now? I was thinking I might cook or maybe even order something later…” Seokjin said, stretching out his tired muscles “First though, games and maybe a nap???” the exhaustion was clearly present in his voice. It had been a long day.

As much as Jungkook could eat now, even maybe fall asleep, he knew he needed to take advantage of this peace and quiet. He had no idea when the other members might get back. 

“I think I might nap too, I’ll just figure it out later” Jungkook lied, adding an exaggerated yawn for extra emphasis. “Ok then,” Seokjin started heading down the hall to his room “Bye~~” he said with a little wave. As soon as the oldest was out of view, Jungkook made a beeline straight for his room. He almost slammed the door with how fast he had shut it. A sigh of relief escaped his lips as his head hit the door. 

Finally.  

He went over toward his closet, reaching for the top shelf and feeling for the package he had tried his best to forget. As soon as he got hold of the cardboard, he hastily pulled it out revealing the box. Jungkook had opened it once when he first got it to check it was indeed what he thought it was. Inside revealed the 3 things he bought all those months ago. The unopened fleshlight, the big bottle of lube he decided to buy (it was a sale), and the warmer that was recommended when he was looking at reviews. He felt his cheeks burn when he pulled out the box with the fleshlight. It made him really realize what exactly he was about to do. Part of him wanted to turn back, but he knew it would be a waste if he didn’t at least try it. 

He'll try it. If he likes it, he’ll keep it, if not he can throw it away. Simple as that. 

Jungkook grabbed the scissors, cut through the box, out revealed all of the components. It was dismantled and needed to be put together. With hesitation he examined all the pieces. The case, the two caps you can screw on it, but the insert is where he almost lost it. Seeing like that made him seriously realize he’s about to fuck a piece of plastic. Oh gosh. 

He took a deep breath. 

He can do this. 

A quick glance over the instructions and he had managed to secure the insert and stick the smaller cap on the back. He had read that the smaller one adjusts suction. Not sure exactly what that was, he left the cap unscrewed halfway, hoping to get a feel of what it’s like. Having now put it together, he set the fleshlight aside and took the warmer out of the box, plugged it up in his laptop, put the fleshlight on and let it start warming. Jungkook had read mixed reviews about how long this should take, so he just decided to get it once he actually gets himself hard. 

That wasn’t gonna be very difficult to do…

Jungkook let himself flop onto his bed. He stared blankly at the ceiling, his thoughts empty except the one that has been there for since the minute he glanced over at Seokjin’s phone. 

He hated himself for doing this, but he still grabbed his phone and pulled up the picture Seokjin had shown him earlier. He couldn’t help but bite his lip upon seeing it again. You really were beautiful. 

Jungkook remembers that you had texted him the week before saying you were planning on heading to the beach that weekend. His mind couldn’t help but imagine if he had been there. If you had shown up like that- Jungkook let his hands travel down his body- If you had shown up like that, he probably wouldn’t be able to stop himself at that point. As shy as he knew he was, he still has urges and desires like every human being. He has wants and needs that he can only go so far to keep repressed. As messed up as he is by this picture, if you ever looked like this in front of him, he knows what would end up winning in the end. Lust is a powerful emotion, something even he couldn’t defeat. 

Jungkook let his eyes train on your legs. The angle the picture was taken enunciated your figure and made your legs look long and gorgeous. It’s almost as if you knew what legs did to him. Jungkook couldn’t stop himself from letting his hands travel underneath the waistband of his sweats and boxers, he almost whinnied when he started a slow gentle stroke on his cock. It’s been too long. 

He couldn’t stop himself from letting his mind think maybe you posted that picture just for him. Just to ruin him like you knew it would. All for him. It was always moments like these that made him wonder if you felt the same. If he ever made you feel like this. Did you want him as much as he wanted you? Did you spend sleepless nights wondering what he was doing? Did you ever stare at your phone for hours wanting to call you and confess like he did almost every other night?

“Y/N” your name escaped his lips almost like a silent cry, hoping you would hear. Jungkook stopped and cursed when he realized what he'd just done. Again.

He always tries his best to keep you out of any of his sexual thoughts. You were still his friend first of all, he always felt a bit wrong when he’d picture you that. As much as he tells himself that, you still found a way to sneak yourself in. Sometimes you would be the cause of the problem, others you would float into his fantasies, and even worse would be the times the only way he could finish would be to picture you instead of the person in the video. 

In a hurry to move away from the thoughts of you, Jungkook turned on the incognito mode and went to his go to site. He scrolled for a sec until he found something he was sure to do the trick. 

It wasn’t anything special, just a girl going down on her boyfriend, still though, videos like these never fail at getting him worked up. 

He hurriedly pressed play and watched intently as the couple conversed and laughed together. 

The sight took him out of his lustful daze for a second. It was a bit bittersweet. He’s always been sort of a hopeless romantic, seeing this, and then you… Fuck, you.  

The transition was sudden as the girl, even though they were still talking, started subtly teasing the tip with her hand. Jungkook took a deep breath as the guy started to slowly lose himself in the pleasure. The conversation soon was replaced with curses, groans, moans, and words of praise from his girlfriend. 

In an instant Jungkook was suddenly too hot. He hastily removed all of his clothes and out popped his length that was way more than a little hard by now. He chuckled darkly. Fuck, sometimes it scared him how much you affect him. 

For fucks sake, you weren’t even here. 

With eyes trained on the video, he started pumping his length. His pace started off slow, but with each stroke it only made him grow in need. 

It really, really had been too long. 

Jungkook tried to pay close attention to the girl. She was definitely pretty. Someone that he considers the guy in the video, lucky to have. 

She worked her boyfriend like magic. He watched closely as she started running her tongue up the guy's cock and using her hand to play with the rest of him. Jungkook gripped himself tighter. 

This wasn’t planned at all, but did he ever make any efforts to stop? Hell no. This was a rare opportunity, he was gonna have fun tonight. 

All conversation by now had ceased and the video soon progressed to the girl going to town, making sure to take her boyfriend completely. Jungkook nearly lost it when his mind failed him and put you in the situation. Could you take him like that, all the way? Jungkook groaned at the thought. You on your knees pleasing him so well. Fuck. You would look beautiful. He would make sure to hold your hair back while you would look at him with those pleading eyes you have. Seeing you take him so well would easily push him over the edge, have him a mess as soon as you touch him. Would you let him fuck your month? Let him lose himself in pleasure. Oh god- Would you let him cum down your throat? Would you swallow?

Jungkook ended up losing himself, not caring at all anymore about anything. He needed this, needed this so bad. The stress of his career can be forgotten in moments like these. It was just him letting himself finally indulge in needs he often ignores no matter how frustrated he gets. 

Frustration… that happens a lot.

Sometimes it would be you. Maybe that day you would be wearing a short skirt or jeans that made your ass look phenomenal. Jungkook could just be really horny that day and you just doing his makeup (like today) can send him into some weird frenzy that even he doesn’t understand. All of this or none of the above would have him frustrated beyond belief, but as much as he loves living with his members, it made it extremely difficult to take care of those certain needs, discreetly at least. 

They’ve all by now, with all the years they’ve been together, walked in on something they weren’t necessarily meant to see, it’s just a price they pay for living with 6 other guys, that doesn’t stop them from avoiding it as much as they can. Jungkook knew some of the members kept their ‘activities’ strictly at the studio, but now that he doesn’t have his studio anymore (which even when he did, he was WAY too paranoid to ever actually do anything) it had to be at the dorm when they weren’t on tour (tours were definitely something he looked forward too, for more reasons than one). 

Jungkook avoided it as much as he could, but shit, he needed this. And you, you were making it harder. 

His breath was heavy and he quickly had to get himself to stop as he felt that familiar feeling that told him he was close. Already? He was confused but honestly not surprised. Jungkook looked over at the fleshlight that was sitting on his desk. The light was green telling him it was ready, but he knew he wanted to drag this night out for as long as he could. If he was able to get himself off this fast with just his hand then what could the fleshlight do?... All he knew is that he wanted to save it for the end, or at least, for as long as he could hold out. 

Choosing to take a different approach, Jungkook scrolled down the videos to see the same couple again. This time the girl was edging her boyfriend for a whole hour- a title that was put so pleasantly as “Torturing my boyfriend for an hour.” Reading the title alone had him bucking his hips into nothing. Fuck yes. He’s always been a fan of edging, it was just another one of those things that he enjoyed without any particular reason why. Maybe he just likes to make himself suffer but, he’s always enjoyed the buildup, and the orgasms, they were always so powerful. It almost made up for all the ones he missed out on. 

Jungkook quickly grabbed his own personal lube from his nightstand, tired of using his dry ass hands, and started this hour of “torture”. He made sure that his movements matched the way the girl would tease her boyfriend. It was slow, very slow, probably how he lasted the whole hour, but every once and awhile her speed would increase so that it would have both her boyfriend and Jungkook crying out in pleasure. 

Jungkook sometimes decided to take his own path and let his desire take control. He would push himself to that very edge, letting his thoughts of you take the lead. By now he made no attempts to stop you from clouding his mind, he was way too horny to overthink it at this point. Would you tease him like this? Bringing him to the point of begging you to let him cum. He would beg. He would beg for anything from you. 

“Please” he pleaded silently out into the world, hoping maybe you would hear. Hear how much he wants you, hear how fucked up you got him. Would you come to him if you knew? 

By the time the video came to an end, Jungkook watched as the girlfriend finally let the guy cum. As much as he wanted to join him in the bliss, the larger part of him wanted to keep going. 

He wasn’t done yet. 

Jungkook had to hurriedly stop himself, the sight in front of him got him a lot closer than he would have liked. He looked at the clock to see the night was still young, he probably still had some time to kill before anyone started coming back. 

Another quick search led him to a simple video of two people getting it on like crazy. Nothing too elaborate or anything like that, but after each time Jungkook would get himself close, he was shaking at this point. Jungkook had never been the loudest in moments like these, but the way he was working himself, had him needing to hold his free hand over his mouth in effort to prevent the members who were here from hearing him. 

Still desperate to keep this going he moved onto the next one, but it didn’t take him long before he had to stop it. It was starting to become too much too quickly. Jungkook looked down at the bar on the video, hoping it was almost over. He regretted going as fast as he did, he was already at the point he was scared of cumming no matter how long he waited to start again. When he saw there was still a good 5 minutes still left, he knew if he kept going he wouldn’t even get to try the fleshlight, so he decided to just stop it early.

Quickly Jungkook walked over to his desk, grabbed the toy from the warmer and sat back down on his bed to examine it closely. Maybe he had worked himself up too much, but suddenly he was really excited, and the realistic details of the toy were making it worse. He rubbed himself between the folds and threw his head at how good it felt. 

Leaving it on the warmer so long, he could feel, even from here, the warmth coming from the inside. 

Oh gosh, now, now. 

He hurriedly reached over to grab the big bottle of lube, squirting some in the fleshlight and a little in his hand. Jungkook pumped himself fast and lined himself up at the entrance. 

He hand planned to get another video to watch along with it, but now he was 1) too desperate to find one, 2) he didn’t really think he’d need it at this point. 

“Shit shit shit shit” Jungkook groaned as he felt the toy envelope his cock. The version he had bought had little bumps and grooves inside that already had him seeing stars. It felt so good, so good. 

His imagination quickly took him to the image of you happily bouncing on his cock. You gripping his shoulders while he helped you fuck him, use him. He wanted to see you fall apart on top of him, see how much you wanted him. 

Jungkook couldn’t stop himself lifting his hips to meet the slow, steady strokes from the toy. It was amazing and so warm and, and- He hastily had to stop himself, the feeling he’s been chasing coming faster than ever. He seriously regretted going for as long as he did, or at least pushing himself that far. He knew he would cum soon. A few slow pumps was all he could manage before he had to pull out completely. He decided to change tactics. 

Jungkook grabbed the two pillows that were on his bed, stacked them up, and put the fleshlight in between. If he wasn’t so lust driven he would honestly look at this and laugh at how sad it seemed, but he didn’t care at this point. At this angle he could really picture it was you underneath him, you he was fucking. He wanted you. Wanted you really bad. Wanted you underneath him while he was pounding you from behind. He wanted you to want him too. The thought had him quickly pushing back in the toy with a punishing pace. The slick sounds filling the room along with his moans. 

He couldn’t help but wonder if you were loud. Would he have put his hand over your month so his other members wouldn’t hear how good he was fucking you? Maybe you wanted them to know. What if instead you’d punish him for being too loud, not being able to keep his mouth shut because you just felt too good around him? 

Punish him. 

Fuck yes. Yes yes yes yes-

Jungkook’s pace quickened. His grip tightened on the pillow he was holding. He was so close. 

“Jungkookie~” Taking him out of his fantasy was the short knock he heard on his door and the voice of the oldest member. Panicked, but too close to completely stop, he pulled out of the toy and prayed his hyung wouldn’t walk in “Yes?” he answered back, obvious agitation in his tone. 

Seokjin outside the door was a little taken aback by it, mumbling something like ‘what was his problem?’ Instead of making it a whole thing though, he brushed past it. “Just came to see if you wanted any samyetang. I was making it for Namjoon later and I wanted to see if you wanted any.”

Jungkook could hardly think. He heard the words but his eyes were completely trained on the toy. He couldn’t stop himself from rutting against it, needing some type of friction. 

“Jimin also texted and asked me, since he said you wouldn’t answer, if you wanted anything from the place he went to with his friends.” 

Jungkook wanted, needed him to leave so he can fucking finally finish after this long build up. His desires, as much as he tried fighting, ended up winning and he went back in, going at a frustratingly slow pace. 

“Fuuu- Um just… where did he go?” 

“Some seafood place in Itaewon, Jimin sent me the menu. Here I can-“ Jungkook suddenly came back to reality when he heard the door handle. “Hyung no!” Jungkook called out making the older stop “You ok?” He asked concerned “Yeah um, just- just tell Jimin hyung to send it to me himself” 

Jungkook knew he was questioning him by the silence that followed after “Okay..? Um get back to him soon or let me know if you wanted any samyetang. I’m starting it soon and I wanna know how much I need to cook.”

Jungkook waited a little bit for the footsteps of the oldest to fade away until they became obsolete. Finally. Fucking finally. All he wanted to do was cum, was that so hard to ask? He doesn’t even get the chance to do this often, can’t the world just work with him for once? 

He quickly returned back to the pace he had set and the feeling he had been fighting with for the past two hours came back at full force. It hurt at this point. He had delayed this so long, the dull ache in his balls was frustrating at this point. 

Jungkook made no attempt at hiding his moans anymore, not caring who or what hears him. He knew if anyone was even near his room, they could hear him. Hear what you’ve done to him. All without knowing. You’re so amazing, you don’t need to be here to have him this worked up. 

Shit. Jungkook looked over at his nightstand knowing full well he should pull out and grab a tissue, but fuck. The way it was gripping him and how messed up he made himself from all the edging, made him going against any rational thinking. He was just so close, so close, so- a surge of pleasure came to him all in an instant. Every curse word Jungkook knew was cried out as his hips sputtered and stalled, pumping the toy full of his seed. The waves of pleasure being so intense it had him shaking and swearing he was transported to another dimension.

Holy shit. 

He definitely wasn’t expecting that… 

As his orgasm subsided and came back down from cloud 9, the reality of everything set in. 

The sleeve that had felt like a whole new world, only felt like plastic covered in lube and cum. 

Ew... 

He had been so out of it, he hadn’t even noticed that the warmth the heater provided had also faded to room temperature, for some reason making him feel even more disgusted. 

Jungkook regretted immediately coming inside. He knew it was gonna be a bitch to clean, the reviews had warned him so, but it really didn’t help how much there was. 

He was even more upset because, despite the terrible come down, he still felt that buzz that had him wanting another round. Maybe even another after that. He probably could have continued this until the wee hours of the next day if he had the time. 

But no.

This was probably gonna be it for awhile. 

Jungkook grimaced as he pulled out. His gaze was glued to the thing he made out of sexual desperation. 

It really was as sad as he thought it looked… 

He missed you. 

Really missed you. 

He missed your laugh, your smile, that pretty perfume you wore. Fuck if you were right here…

Jungkook fell flat on his bed and let his arm rest over his eyes. 

He was so frustrated. He wanted to tell you so badly how much you mean to him, but he knew he shouldn’t, couldn’t tell you. He carried way too many responsibilities, it was ridiculous to expect you to wait for that position to change as even he doesn’t know the future. 

This harsh reality of the situation had him wanting to scream out into the void, but he was still very much naked with a fleshlight stuffed between two pillows. If anyone came running he would never be able to face any human being ever again. 

Instead he just rolled over to grab his phone. Upon opening the Instagram app, the first thing he saw was a video, he’s sure Mina had filmed, of you dancing your heart out at the club. You were so cute. The lights were dark so he wasn’t able to see you explicitly, but he saw your silhouette flailing around, which had him feeling better. That was all until the song ended, changing to something way more sensual. Mina had moved and so had you, to a place where the lighting was way better. He saw you smile to the camera playfully as you slowly swung your hips to the beat, knocking the breath out of Jungkook. 

You just had to go and do that. 

He could also see your outfit. You were wearing a white halter top with a tight fitting black skirt. The video continued to Mina doing a whole 360 of your outfit, letting viewers see every angle. 

Jungkook hated how horny he was. He just finished and here you were turning him on all over again. 

Jungkook took a quick glance at the time. He probably could probably fit one more quick session in before anyone got here. 

He quickly texted Jimin saying he was eating the samyetang and brought the video back up. 

You were amazing.

[kalims]