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i got shit to catch up on

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just finished writing komaeda's bio for his carrd! jfc i wasn't intending it to get so long. but if you don't read it all i do want to quote this bit, as it is one of my favorites:

komaeda was different from his fellow despairs. his motives for joining ultimate despair were not based in the same infatuation for junko enoshima the others had— not based in the same need to drown himself in despair. rather, he joined so that he could see it rise— only to come crashing down. komaeda believed that despair was nothing in the face of hope… and that ultimate despair, including junko enoshima, would eventually face utter defeat. in joining ultimate despair, in working with the girl he loved and hated more than anyone else in the world, he would be able to cultivate that great hope. a hope like no other. the ultimate hope that could wipe out every last trace of despair in the world. during the tragedy there was no one quite like komaeda. he never actively did anything… not unless he was told to. he was willing to do what his fellow despairs asked of them— receive their orders, receive their abuse. but he contributed to the tragedy in his own way, independent of the other despairs. in short: komaeda was a force of nature. a natural disaster. a ticking bomb that could go off at any time, hidden away under the guise of a generally pleasant young man. in order to avoid tragic events— to avoid the despair of having those he cared about being taken away from him— he had started avoiding people. but now that was no longer an issue. he was here to drag out all of the worlds despair to the surface. and so, there was no issue if he found himself getting closely involved with other people. refugee groups, resistances— all those innocent people… all those people trying to fight against ultimate despair and bring hope back to the world. he would befriend them. he would join them, get invested in their fight, get invested in their struggle to survive. and his bad luck would send tornados through their camps— cause buildings to collapse on their leaders— cause tragedy after tragedy to wipe them out. but komaeda, while briefly despaired by each loss, would quickly get over it. they didn't survive because their hope was weak. far too weak to overcome ultimate despair. they clearly weren't the people he was searching for. luckily, he would survive all the incidents. and he'd benefit greatly from them— gaining supplies, intel, access to places he shouldn't. the rainbow of fortune shined upon him at the end of every storm. and he shared that fortune with ultimate despair, only further increasing their power.

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the greatest struggle of all is believing komaeda would be hypersexual (it makes sense given what we know — i could write up a whole thing on it), but knowing half the fandom portrays him that way — but like. in a way i hate and view as really strange LMAO.

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reminder komaeda’s birthday is coming up on the 28th and y’all should send him some bday asks

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sometimes i see horses... and i think about my horse muses...

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the dream is to have enough dangan muses out there to allow me to make a full remnant/ultimate despair group promo

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the amount of y'all liking this post is wild

incoming rant in the next day or two about komaeda hypersexuality and also my thoughts on what fanon did to servant because jfc i lose my mind every day. it's so jover for you guys.

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finals almost over… and then i’m gonna go wild over here and on @politesper

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komaeda at the end of dr2 fr fr. — also my ult hope verse that i gotta write out

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hmm i’m tempted to make a sin sideblog…

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the face of a little guy loves hope and can do no wro— *chokes* no, sorry i couldn't do the bit. i couldn't.

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i listen to dr2 LPs as bg noise and the one i’m listening to rn… they’re trying to determine how they want to do komaeda’s voice and have decided “makoto but sensual” and that’s cracking me up

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once again i am obligated to bring up the funny silly goofy idea that — in an umineko context — komaeda is just some guy that bernkastel messes with when bored. his luck isn't simply good/bad, but insane. the events are incredibly unlikely even for your average lucky guy — i mean what are the odds of a small meteor somehow managing to crash into a plane and kill the guy trying to hijack it? basically impossible. you could call them miraculous events. he just flips flops from extreme to extreme, and even though he suffers because of it he still holds onto hope. ——— i also think bern would find him entertaining. he's a little weirdo, esoteric freak who's hard to understand. what witch wouldn't want to observe a guy like that?

anyway, tl;dr is bern be fucking with komaeda's entire existence.

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every day i see umineko and miss my multimuse

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this cover is making me lose my mind.

tempted to make a new verse for an au where komaeda has a dr2 ch5-style delusion of grandeur when all his classmates (who he believed were such strong symbols of hope) all fall for junko’s despair. except him.

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