#𓆩♱𓆪 「 ᵈᵉᵛⁱˡⁱˢʰ ᵈᵉᵛᵒᵗⁱᵒⁿ 」 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚

[unsaintness]

"You deserve better"

No darling I don't want better, I just want you.

I want you, the genuine you, the depraved you, the flawed you, the you that you try to hide from everyone, the you that you aren't even aware of. I want all of you.

[unsaintness]

" Stalking. "

God forbid I have access to public information and know how to utilise my resources.

[unsaintness]

like a parasite, you're the only warmth that nurtures me

like a parasite, I want to crawl beneath your delicate skin

like a parasite, it physically hurts when I can't be with you

like a parasite, I want to fester and feed from the insides

like a parasite, I will leech on your vitality and craves more

like a parasite, your existence is my needed sustenance

like a parasite, my hunger for you is eternally insatiable

like a parasite, I'll cling on and consume your everything

like a parasite, I cannot survive on my own without you

like a parasite, I will follow you to the grave, my dear host

[unsaintness]

"Maybe in another universe-" No. No it's this universe or nothing at all. We're stuck in this universe and you're stuck with me for eternity or I'll end the both of us so we can both be in that perfect universe in our next lives.

[unsaintness]

Just heard about a surgeon branding his initials onto the livers of his patients. Fuck carving names onto each other's skins, let's brand our initials onto our livers

[unsaintness]

My favourite hobby? Daydreaming about our future life and planning every possible route and path that leads to us being happily married together in the end but I can't afford to scare you away so I'll just say gaming

[unsaintness]

I used to want everyone's attention to be on me. But now I only crave your eyes on me.

[unsaintness]

I should haunt and lurk every single corner of your mind

I'm still out there, on your trails, chasing you 'til the end

I'm watching from somewhere, waiting for an opening

I'm nowhere yet everywhere and anywhere that you are

see me in the shows you watch, the media you consume

the people that you're with and the nightmares you have

everyone that you see, every single thing that you look at

always be reminded of everything that's related to me

a ringing, screeching voice in the dark when you're alone

I live in your brain, your mind, your thoughts, your heart

I'm a shadow you can never ever hope to outrun from

realize that you can never truly escape from my clutches

freedom is a feeble delusion when you never truly left me

[unsaintness]

yearning for the kind of dominant yandere that puts up with my bratty masochism

the kind that tries to subdue me from escaping, enforcing rules, restraint me and taming the little brat that I am

locks on the doors, ropes and handcuffs all on me. anything to prevent me from straying too far from them. to have my absolute submission

but I won't make it easy for them, I'll be defiant

then get caught on purpose whether in the act or trying to escape, oopsie I tripped on a branch...

acting out and being a slippery little shit

I'll laugh and taunt them when I manage to get away

"how did you get out of those ropes?"

"I don't know, what are you gonna do about it?"

secretly I want them to wipe the snarky grin off of my face and turn me into a sobbing mess for disobeying them

I'll enjoy adrenaline rush I get by challenging their authority

I'll enjoy trying to outsmart them and displease them intentionally

enjoying when their face contorts into annoyance when I pulled a stunt yet again.

and pretending to act horrified when they announce a punishment is in need

I know I can get away, but I won't

because I'm theirs, along with the love of being hunted.

rules are meant to be broken after all

[unsaintness]

an angel brutally dies, falls straight down mid-flight, headfirst, wings broken and feathers plucked out whenever you think of someone else

[unsaintness]

I realized now that there were no gods up there for me

the truth is right in front of my eyes, it's always been you

you are a god, the universe, the one true deity

you are the proof of theology, the definition of religion

you are a god layered beneath a mortal's flesh and skin

you are my devotion, my religion, the pinnacle of divinity

I heed not for the words of the ignorant regarding you

foolish, sinful heathens who know no better, but I do

your presence itself is a blessing for any earthly mortals

you, the concept of perfection, deserving worship by all

the one I would follow blindly without any hesitation

the one I would sacrifice anything for, no matter the cost

the one who owns me entirely ─ body, mind and soul

I'll rip my beating heart out and offer it to you as tribute

I'll worship you forevermore. I'll gladly die in your name

[unsaintness]

CW: body horror mentions!!

No. Skin to skin is simply not enough.

I want to fuse ourselves together, for our bodies to become one by occultist means or whatever

for us to become a part of each other, so we'll never have to be away from each other ever again

I want every string of our fiber to be stitched together, until people can't figure out who is who anymore

I want our cells to connect, every chunk of flesh, every tissue and every single bone to intertwine and intermingle permanently

our body alone is the definition of true love and even if we were to perish, our remains will still be the ultimate proof of that love

whether we'll become an amalgamation of abomination or a perfection, we'll always be together, we won't be able to part away even in death

How delightful

[unsaintness]

heaven is but a place for someone like me

so far away, so out of reach, the agony of longing.

yet I still yearn for purification, to be accepted

let myself be cleansed of my mortal sins and indecency.

I've always been a sinner, a filthy, dirty heathen

but I yearn for you, my dear god, the definition of heaven.

the despicable unholy craves the divine unreachable

I pray, worship you in the irony of defying purity myself

and if I can't move heaven, I shall raise hell.

[unsaintness]

"love is like a drug."

you're an addiction that had entrapped me in the labyrinth of my own mind.

you're an anodyne that alleviates my suffering and pain, making everyday more bearable.

you're an antidepressant that gives me a reason to continue breathing in oxygen, to exist just for you.

you're a sedative that lulls me into peaceful slumbers when insomnia peaks, my dreams plaguing with the imagery of you.

you're a stimulant that motivates me to strive forward and never give up, damned the consequences.

you're a hallucinogen that overrides all of my senses until it's only you that I can think of.

you're a narcotic that I'd commit the worst crimes for.

[unsaintness]

you're my sculptor, I am your one and only sculpture.

mold me into something you want, I'll bend to your whims, like an unpolished gem in your hands.

chisel away the vapid layers, shape me into your dream, turn me into a figure that you can love.

I'll endure the pain, let you carve away the unneeded parts of me - just so I can be your perfect vessel, a piece of art, something that you truly desire.

I breathe and live to become whatever you want me to be tell me, make me, force me. 

my one and only artist.

[unsaintness]

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I struggle with BPD, ASPD and some form of OCD

don't report, just block. Thanks! You aren't helping anyone by taking away their safe spaces

I'm paraphilic (nothing within the big 3) and very much pro-consent. Open to respectful discussions

this is not a fantasy blog nor is it sexual, my struggles and obsessive tendencies aren't your fetish

I condone everything I write about with clear and enthusiastic consent, I'll never force / coerce anyone

I'm an irl and extreme yandere, this is your official warning to not approach me

no, I don't wish to recover or change! However I'm neutral-recovery towards everyone, it's your choice

most people can follow / like / reblog from my blog, keep in mind that I'm a MINOR, sexual comments and advances from anyone will NOT be tolerated

flirting is off limits. Platonic asks only.

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𓆩♱𓆪 「 ᵈᵉᵛⁱˡⁱˢʰ ᵈᵉᵛᵒᵗⁱᵒⁿ 」 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚ : obsposting

𓆩♱𓆪 「 ᵈᵒᶜᵗʳⁱⁿᵉ 」 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚ : mundane ramblings

𓆩♱𓆪 「 ᵖᵉⁿᵃⁿᶜᵉ 」 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚ : sadposting

𓆩♱𓆪 「 ᵖᵘʳᵍᵃᵗᵒʳʸ」 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚ : vents

𓆩♱𓆪 「 ˢᶜʳⁱᵖᵗᵘʳᵉ 」 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚ : my reblogs

𓆩♱𓆪 「 ᵖʳᵃʸᵉʳˢ 」 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚ : asks!

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» all heavily edited and altered by me. ۶ৎ