#😭😭 the epitome of what the fuck is going on here?!!

[kneelingshadowsalome]

Genuinely so obsessed with the ask you answered about reader being associated with König’s childhood bullies and coming back years later to try and make amends……. I need the angst, the drama, the nasty disgusting degrading sex, the absolute turmoil on both of their parts 😭 I am starving for this, the way you portray König especially there is exactly how I’ve always envisioned him in my mind!!!!!! And then with reader desperately trying to make him happy now out of guilt and her crush that’s grown 10x since she saw him in school, delusionally hoping and believing there’s a *relationship* between them and she can fix what she thinks she allowed to happen back then 10 years after the fact, while König is constantly fighting himself to not fall for reader despite his own buried crush resurfacing, and convincing himself he’s only using her to release stress and tension after assignment while simultaneously holding so much resentment for her and her sheer proximity to the people that tormented him back then, I am foaming at the mouth for the toxic dynamics to be found there !!!!!!!!! The old him begging to fulfill some childish need to have her, while this new monstrous version of himself only wants to watch her suffer to repent for how he had to suffer !!!!!!!!!!!!

I know right?! I’m obsessed with this too!

I’m so here for the toxic relationship dynamic (sue me), also me and @bucca2/@wordstome had a whole conversation about this yesterday because König would bend over backwards to self sabotage this shit.

(The following is mainly a summary from our brainstorm session from last night + I have bucca to thank for the precious meme at the end, it’s König in a nutshell with his high school crush lol)

First of all our girl is sooo in love. She was in love when they were young, but now? She’s a goner, König is out of this world. He's so handsome, so confident, the epitome of cool if there ever was one... and God, would you look at those muscles?

Now she can finally drool all over him but back then, what was she to do? As the shy one of the clique, she always tried to avoid attention; she could never have endured what König did. Perhaps it was cowardly of her, but she really was just scared. She could only dream about him from afar, and in her dreams, they would both change schools due to their parents moving or something... Ending up in the same area, finally getting to be together like it was a miracle, Deus ex Machina.

Her silly dreams never came true, but it looks like they're coming to fruition now. And this time, she's going to make everything better! Now that they're both grown up and free from their tormentors she can finally admit that she has feelings for him, feelings that are only sparked fast aflame when she sees the man he has become.

And König can’t stand it.

Where was she when he was odd and scrawny? Where was she when he cried himself to sleep over her?? Of course she wants him now that he’s big, independent and menacing, an odd nerd who discovered guns and gym... He thought she was better than this.

Deep inside, he’s still like this:

...but we just need to forget about it because König is NOT going to fold for this girl.

He’s not.

And the sex is so NASTY. Bordering on degrading, König wants to be a gentleman when it comes to ladies, but this one? This one he wants to fuck like he paid for her. She brings out the beast in him, and he finds himself asking her to get on her knees and blow his cock on some filthy cruise... Fucks her like he doesn’t love her, and she’s absolutely lovestruck, when did König become so mean? (God, that she loves him)

Trying not to fall in love with her (as if he ever fell out), König is so incredibly mad at this girl – is this what she wanted this whole time? A buff jerk who fucks her doggystyle until her knees bleed, who gives her the bare minimum, who barely even calls her when he’s away? (He has to physically restrain himself from doing that because of course he’d like to hear her pick up the phone with pure hope in her voice)

While changing his tactics and devising a plot to make her pay, König doesn’t even understand that he’s falling fast for her again while becoming now (seemingly) the best version of himself. It's only to dump her later, of course. He's just being nice so that she'll cry over losing him later. He brings her flowers, eats her out for hours, getting sick satisfaction from the way she cries about how it’s the best sex she’s ever had. He’s going to bring her to her knees, in more ways than just one... She’s going to remember him for the rest of his life when he rearranges her guts, ruining her for any other man.

König is becoming the thing he hates the most while she’s learned her lesson, now wearing her heart on her sleeve. No more shame and secrets, she’s not afraid to tell him how she feels! How she always had a small crush on him… And not even that small… How she loved to hear his presentations, no matter what silly subject they were about because he had actually done his research. How she could’ve swooned when his voice changed. After a short breaking period, he started to talk lower than anyone else in the class, earning himself more of that bullying because he sounded so manly at such a young age.

König is about to burst a blood vessel when hearing all this: she had a crush on him back then? What the actual fuck??

And then come the cuddles, the slow mornings, the coffee and toast, the showering together… She leaves her toothbrush in his place, and it stares at him accusingly from the side of the sink. She wears his t-shirts and looks absolutely gorgeous, mouth-watering and sweet in them. His sexy little minx, the one who didn’t get away…

Wait, what? No. No. No!

And when his high school sweetheart confesses her love for him for the first time, she's so open and vulnerable and sweet about it. Like she has been from the start, his sweet, sweet girl, exactly the kind of woman he always wanted to bring home to see his mom. König is about to lose his mind when she tugs at his shirt, almost cries when she says how much she loves him and couldn’t bear to live without him… She would cry herself to the grave if anything ever happened to him…

(König is like:)

[targaryenluvs]

Hii! I saw that you like au's so i ask if you can make a time travel au?

Where the modern reader goes to their time and meets simon, he falls in love and asks her to marry him but she gets weirded out bcs she is still so young and doesnt plan on having children.

Dark-ish plsss? 🥺

Totaly get it if you dont want to write it, up to you 🌹

Thank you

(this was pretty short but here!)

warnings: darkish simon? young reader (16ish since she’s young but nothing happens!! pushy and possessive simon, implied fem!reader and poc!reader MADE UP ROYAL NAMES IDK HOW IT WORKS

notes: (my writing usually tends to lean towards an indian reader i’m sorry i don’t even realise when i do it 😭) i’m going to make a part two and post it tomorrow since i actual love this idea!!! you’ll meet simon!

Infatuation

summary: the one where you somehow travelled into your favourite tv show along with your family. and as you debut in society, you catch the eye of a certain duke.

part ii

shonda rimes was nothing short of a goddess in your eyes for her casting abilities.

you’d been obsessed with the books ever since they came out and the second you’d heard of it being picked up by netflix you screamed so loud your family thought you’d died.

it was the release day of the first season and you had to meditate before watching since your heart was absolutely running hundreds of miles inside.

you’d settled into bed, had your favourite snacks to your side and your emotional support water bottle clutched in your arms as you pressed play.

you’d overestimated the power of meditation to calm you down, and underestimated the power of warm cocoa.

you’d dosed off after the second episode, and you were aware of it as it happened. the sounds of your favourite show lulled you to sleep and you’d never felt happier.

but after a while, you’d realised the sounds never really faded away, they became, stronger?

the sounds of the bickering bridgertons echoed through your head, preventing further sleep.

what the fuck?

as you opened your eyes, you felt, energised.

and as you rolled over you couldn’t believe your eyes.

daphne bridgerton by your side?

“y/n, are you alright?” she questioned as she closed her book, giving her undivided attention towards you.

you reeled your shock back in as you cleared your throat, “uhm, yes, i’m alright. where are we?” daphne smiled at the question, “we’re at my home.”

you nodded as you took it in, you fell asleep last night in your own bed and woke up in your favourite book, great!

this was quite literally the epitome of all of your daydreams and you couldn’t believe it was happening. you took into account that if you were with daphne you were most likely good friends with the bridgertons, you looked down and saw your nightgown, definitely not the same pjs you wore to bed, your hair was in a braid, and-

“since you’re finally awake, let’s get ready. i’ll send the maids in! i’m so excited and nervous for today y/n/n. this is our day!” she gushed as she allowed the maids in.

our day? this most likely meant that this was starting of like the first episode. oh god, you were going to meet everyone. anthony, benedict, violet- oh god you loved violet.

the next hour was a blur, maids everywhere, millions of dresses, hair pieces, jewellery sets and so on. you’d settled on a (obviously) white dress, with a diamond like waist details, puffy sleeves, gold details/flecks around the sleeves, a tiara, bracelets and a sweet yet simple necklace. daphne had on a similar dress, but the details were different and she wore a feather in her hair.

gods, she looked amazing. the two of you stood in the middle of the mirror, clutching eachothers arms as maids touched up your hair. “you look phenomenal sister.” daphne spoke to you admirably. over the hour you realised many things, the two of you had been friends since kids despite your age gap, your mothers being the best of friends and the same for your fathers, and since hers passed the two of your families had only grown closer.

your own family were very well-known amongst the ton. your father, being marquess of anderton, lord y/f/n l/n and your mother, lady y/m/n l/n, and your brothers, eldest son, earl of anderton lord b/n, and lord b/n. then you, the youngest, lady y/n l/n.

your brothers were also best friends with the bridgerton brothers, your eldest and daphnes, your second with benedict and colin due to their shared/similar responsibilities as second/third sons. but they all got along, nothing happened in the bridgerton family without you knowing and nothing happened on yours vice versa.

you all usually visited eachother whenever, living not too far from eachother. your town home being larger than theirs, and anderton being an three hour ride from london, your country estate being much larger. you were wealthy as hell and you loved it. not that you weren’t back home, but obviously nothing like this.

you still couldn’t tell if this was a dream. usually in your dreams nothing seemed as realistic as this, and you had free reign of your body, you controlled your body, nothing odd had happened, no floating unicorns, no random nightmares, nothing. all realistic. and despite your age gap of of roughly four years, yourself and daphne got along well, she at first saw you as a younger sister and soon enough, her best friend.

even if it was a dream you’d take as long as you could here.

as the doors opened yourself and daphne stood proud and happy. the nerves dying down after you reassured one another.

your mother and lady bridgerton stood infront, teary eyed. “our girls! you look-” “breathtaking.” anthony cut his mother off as your families stood, shocked.

daphne squeezed your arm as you walked forwards, you were so relieved to see your family looking all the same, just a change in clothes, and it was odd. everyone looked so- regal! somehow your brothers had cleaned up.

“enough fussing! let’s get going now.” daphne spoke as you all made your way down. “are you going to marry a princes sisters?” hyacinth squealed as you and daphne laughed, “i wish! we do not know who we are marrying yet sweet hyacinth, that’s what the social season is for, to meet people, make friends and to meet the person you’ll marry. soon enough you’ll be in our position and you will have a line of suitors waiting for you.” you answered sweetly as she grinned from ear to ear before it was struck down by george.

“don’t lie to her! the men won’t be lining up to get to her they’ll be running to get away!” he joked as hyacinth gasped, “how dare you?!” she shouted as she chased him down the steps. for some reason this all felt, right. you felt like you belonged here. once you’d gotten past the initial shock everything just came to you so easily. the manner of speech, how to act, what to say etc.

maybe it was due to your constant daydreaming of being here but it was so easy.

“kids slow down please! you will hurt yourselves!” your mothers shouted at the same time. you were all one big family and you loved it. it was like double the love, and whilst the bridgertons may not have had their own father with them any longer, your father did his best. he spent time with the brothers and sisters, giving the support they needed, doing what he can for the children of his best friend, his family.

you had really underestimated the chaos of the bridgerton family.

you were surprised your own mother wasn’t greying in the hair at the constant bickering and fighting. but at the end of the day you knew everyone loved eachother. but right now you wanted to lunge across the carriage to strangle your eldest brother.

“it’s no big deal.”

“you’ll be fine stop fussing.”

“what’re you worrying for.”

as if this wasn’t one of the biggest days of your entire life. you had to make a good impression upon the queen, god knows the gossip in this town else wise would drive you into a hole.

“i am sorry sister, i should do well to remember the seriousness of today, i apologise.” he responded, reaching across to grab your glove-clad hand, squeezing in support.

“we should all remember the seriousness of today. but do not worry, our dear y/n will do well, i believe it wholeheartedly. you are sweet, confident, intelligent, understanding and so much more my daughter. you will find a good husband, someone whom you love preferably. but otherwise a good man, someone deserving of such an amazing woman as you and it doesn’t matter if you do not marry this season either. there is always the next. if you are not ready you should say so now.”

you’d never seen your father so absolutely understanding. you would’ve thought. especially in this day and age that he’d press you to marry but no.

“eloise has postponed her debut has she not? would it be alright for me to do the same? at ten and eight she will debut and so will i. i fear i am still to young, a lot of the others are older and know more than i.”

“no one knows more than you dear sister.” your other brother spoke up with a smile, “besides eloise of course.” he said as you all laughed, “very well then. we do not have to explain ourselves to anyone and i will send forth someone to relay the message to the queens servants and withdraw your announcement card. and i am not against the idea of keeping you caged up with us for another year. the dread!” your father joked as you all laughed.

the debut had gone better than you could’ve wished for. besides a fainting or two, and you having to endure prudences whining and complaining. the queen seemed to favour daphne and you could not have been more thrilled for her. the two of you chatted everyone’s ears of at dinner to the point where you were separated from sitting together, which did nothing as you both spoke from across the table!

at home you were restless.

your room was much larger than your own.

but you loved it nonetheless.

you couldn’t help but continue to think, you hadn’t woken up yet, you’d literally spent an entire day here, and you hadn’t awoken. you’d pinched and slapped yourself which earned you a few strange looks from the maid that you’d forgotten was in the room and nothing. you hadn’t woken up, annoyed at leaving the bridgerton world.

what you were most excited for was to meet more people if you woke up tomorrow. penelope slipped through your fingers due to lady featherington fussing over her, lady danbury hadn’t been seen, you hadn’t been able to visit madame delocroix nor anthony’s opera singer and perhaps the most disappointing of all,

simon.

you had the fattest crush on him, especially after seeing him in the show. if you woke up tomorrow, you were going to make sure to see everyone you’d missed.

and at the top of your list.

a certain duke.

and if you’d known what would happen once you met him you would’ve steered clear of him.

[diorsluv]

casual , part 10

“ you said, ‘baby, no attachment’ ”

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next chapter notes ) HERES TO WINNING THE SERIES AGAINST VEGAS (and proceeding to blow a 3-0 lead and lose to the avs in ot) i know i know it’s late as hell but.. i was burnt out and preoccupied with studying for finals 😓 #rutsupremacy

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[lotus-n-l0ve]

Random but like imagine you having a sweet dream of your favorite food so you took a bite, and in reality you actually bit your s/o 😭 may I request headcanons with Samuel, Gun, and Jake?

I know it's been sooo looooong. I'm so sorry for that but I just couldn't think of anything. Here is the fic. Hope you like it 💕

𝐖𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝐁𝐢𝐭𝐞 𝐓𝐡𝐞𝐦 𝐈𝐧 𝐘𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐒𝐥𝐞𝐞𝐩

— Samuel, Gun, Jake x Reader

☯ SYNOPSIS : When you bite them in your sleep thinking they are food.

☯ WARNINGS : cursing, Samuel is a babygirl, reader got slapped, Gun's part is short as fuck, pet names, Jake is the epitome of green flag.

☯ NOTE FROM LOTUS : Hey guys, this one was in my ask for so long but I could not think anything. If you like the fics please leave a like comment and reblong. Follow me for more like this.

𝐍𝐀𝐕𝐈𝐆𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍 || 𝐋𝐎𝐎𝐊𝐈𝐒𝐌 𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓

𝐒𝐀𝐌𝐔𝐄𝐋 𝐒𝐄𝐎

If you bite his cheeks, even in sleep, get ready for punishment because he is a babygirl and we all know that. Samuel takes special care of his beauty. He spends millions on his skin care and even if it's you, he ain't letting anyone fuck with his skin.

So, that's what happened. One moment you were dreaming about your favourite food and the next moment you are thrown out of the bed with a stinging cheek.

You stare at Samuel, who was breathing heavily while caressing his right cheek, feeling confused as fuck. Then it hit you, your burning cheet like someone had hit you.

"Sammy, What the hell!" You exclaimed loudly as you stared at your boyfriend with betrayal written all over your face, "Why did you slap me?"

"Why did you bite me?" He snapped back, rubbing his skin.

"I was dreaming about my favourite food. How would I know it's your crusty, dusty cheeks."

Samuel gasped, dramatically long, before glaring at you, "You take that back —"

Thus began a bekering that lasted till morning. Samuel and you went to your respective work sleep deprived.

𝐆𝐔𝐍 𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐊

Gun stirred from sleep when he felt something nibbling his cheeks. He blinked his eyes open and adjusted to the darkness, he saw you, who was wrapped in his arm, nibbling his cheek.

He frowned in confusion. What the fuck! He was sure he fed you more than enough and you didn't have any flesh eating kink, did you?

Gun slapped your face slightly, "Oi dumbass, The fuck are you doing?"

Instead of waking up you mumbled some nonchalant nonsense and went back to sleep. Gun decided that it was not worth giving up his precious sleep so, he too went back to sleep. He would deal with you in the morning.

𝐉𝐀𝐊𝐄 𝐊𝐈𝐌

It was middle of the night when Jake's slumber broke when he felt a sharp pain in his fingers. His eyes snapped open, looking for danger. He sighed in relief when he saw everything was clear. Then what was the reason, he woke up?

Just then another shart pain came. Jake followed the source and saw you biting his fingers.

Jake shook your shoulder gently, "Bub? Wake up, baby."

You moaned in your sleep, not wanting to wake up but Jake was persistent and you had to wake up at last.

"Jake? What happened?" You mumbled in your sleep as you turned to lie on your back.

"Did you have your dinner tonight, bub?"

Jake gave you a pointing look when you stayed silent. You definitely skipped dinner. When he came back home you were already dead asleep so he assumed that you already had dinner.

"What is this baby? I told you that you should always have your meals at right time."

Your heart sank at the disappointing look on his face.

You quickly sat up on the bed, "Jake, I'm so sorry. I just wasn't hungry at that time."

"Well, are you hungry now?"

You nodded your head sheepishly. Jake chuckled at you and picked you up in his arms. You quickly wrapped your legs around his waist to support yourself.

He asked, walking to the kitchen, "Then let's go and get my baby fed. You want some ramen? Or tteokbokki?"

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[goldeneyedgirl]

I feel the NEED to talk about how much Deaf Mary Alice means to me because this story doesn't get enough love??? I have so many questions and thoughts and headcanons (headcanon over the fic yes because I can't help myself) Like.......Jasper just created a language to communicate with her?? Try to tell me this isn't the epitome of romanticism. I would very much like to know how were the first days he spent with her in South, the ideia that he let her get so close to him makes me so 😭💝🥰😫 (also this is very funny in my mind. I supposed she didn't know how to read back then so the communication had to be a challenge, especially if the only thing Jasper was used to teach people was murder)

Anon, I am SO happy and excited that you love Deaf Mary-Alice; I have fun writing a version of Mary-Alice that isn't as depressed and miserable. This version of Mary-Alice definitely tries to outrun her trauma and unhappiness and focus on the good.

I've only got notes for their first meeting (Mary-Alice is very much the 'lost kitten' that kind of keeps going to find Jasper over and over again. And all the other soldiers are bewildered by her, because the Major is *terrifying* and they wouldn't even make eye contact with him if they had a choice) because I keep changing my mind. I can't decide if Jasper did try to discipline Mary-Alice like the other newborns, or if he's always a little bit gentle with her.

Anon, I will cheerfully answer any questions about this verse, and squeal over your headcanons. I am always over the moon when people enjoy my weird little Jalice takes.

I've got a little snippet of some of Alice's feelings below, I hope you enjoy it!

deaf mary-alice.

Sometimes, it’s hard. Especially with the Cullens. She’s never really been bothered by the silence, especially with Jasper. It’s never about living in a quiet world - she doesn't remember any different.

It’s always been about not being alone.

But when her words run out, when she doesn’t know how to say what she needs to, the quiet presses down on her. How does she explain everything she needs Jasper to know? That all of the years, all of the darkness and rage and violence that she lived through, are still there - she just chooses to let it go? That she really does understand that she’s the weak-link, the canary in the coal mine, the thing that never should have survived? Jasper left her behind because it was a miracle she had survived her newborn year, let alone the ones that followed - at least he knew that she was surviving in the South. He had no idea if she'd last a day up North.

(That for Maria’s rage and resentment of Jasper’s defection, Alice lived because of the lingering affection and appreciation Maria held for the Major. That if she’d been the companion of any of the other soldiers, she would have been destroyed out of spite. Or maybe cast out and left to die trying to go north. However it might have happened, she wouldn’t be here if Maria hadn’t been truly fond of Jasper in the end.)

Monterrey is a time capsule, and she feels adrift and unanchored, and she’s really not sure of what can fix her. Jasper's grasp upon her doesn’t feel like enough most of the time, like something terrible is going to pull her from his grasp and this possible life will be lost to her.

She’s terrified he’s going to be the one to let go. That for all that she loves him and that he cares for her, it’s not going to be enough. Jasper will heal and want someone he can speak to, who can talk back; a girl who can fucking say “I love you” out loud. Who doesn’t get frustrated and bewildered when their words run out, when she has to take an extra beat to lip-read and decipher which language is being spoken. A girl who doesn’t need a buffer against the world to survive.

That's Mary-Alice’s biggest fear. That in the real world, the Cullen world, she’s not going to be enough for Jasper. That proximity had turned him in her direction, and now she was just faulty stock. She sure as hell doesn’t fit in with the Cullens - she doesn’t know how to be so neat and clean and calm. She doesn’t have the faintest idea how to be more human than she is. She can't even speak their version of sign language right.

But those are her problems. The ones she doesn’t really like to think about unless Jasper’s at school because he always knows how she feels. It’s only when she’s alone that she lets it all out, that crushing terror that she’s never going to be quite good enough.

(Maria wasn’t surprised when she was found in the wreckage of one of her last battles, leg torn off at the hip. Alice had still killed her opponent. But she knows there was a second that Maria considered just leaving her on the field to perish when scouts found her. Maybe even just douse and burn her; Alice had seen Maria do that before. The terror and determination had sat entirely in her throat. Her visions told her this could go either way, and she got to live.)

And yet, she’s still… hopeful. She might be terrified that Jasper is going to be the one to let go, but she’s clinging tightly to him. The room next to his becomes hers, and Jasper is the one that helps her paint it. It takes a day, as she painstakingly hand-paints mock-wallpaper; Jasper daubs her nose with paint, and she retaliates with a swipe of paint across his face. He laughs and kisses her, tracing the words they have for love down her spine. Later, she finds a heart painted on the wall near the window sill with ‘M-A & J.W.’ written on it, and that warms her right down to her toes.

(When she insists on painting all her furniture by hand, Jasper is the one that takes each piece apart for her; he sits with her as she works, a book in one hand, and the other locked in idle conversation about everything and nothing. He admires her work when she’s done, and she feels bashful, not having the words to explain that she wouldn’t bother with any of this if it was just her. This was her trying to build a ‘them’, trying to turn her room into theirs. She can’t offer him much, especially when it comes to tangible things, but she can offer him this.)

Edward tries to speak with her sometimes. He struggles with reading her mind; she thinks in the signs she and Jasper made together, in Civil War-era Spanish read from lips. He struggles even more to speak with her - he speaks text-book perfect American Sign Language, and flawless Spanish, and she speaks neither. Alice is also not entirely literate in either language, so passing notes is out. It’s messy. But he tries, and she’s grateful for the effort, she just wishes Edward wouldn't weaponize her deafness when she’s upset him. She wishes he would translate so she could be friends with Bella, instead of keeping them apart to protect the human girl. She very much wishes he wouldn’t try and correct her so often.

And when he tries to talk about Jasper, about the toxic thoughts that trickle around in her mind, and his efforts come across stunted and insincere.

(It’s easier to believe Edward’s stilted reassurances that Jasper loves her when she realizes that Jasper walks into the house and beelines to her, insisting upon a kiss before anything else. She obliges, and his greetings are hurried and disjointed as he pulls her close. Sometimes those greetings end in shedding clothing, his hands grasping and stroking bare skin; counting scars, tracing the seams on her skin. Other times, he gathers her up and tells her about his day, asks about hers. He’s gotten back into his old habit of signing all his conversations, even if she��s not in the room; the same way he speaks as he talks to her, a rumbling vibration that is uniquely him.)

[ddejavvu]

stop im thinking abt the transition between platonic to romantic puppy!steddie

like maybe they know from the start that they like u more than just platonically, but they can’t help but skip over the whole confession thingy and get straight onto doting over you (and each other)

like eddie’ll get too excited when kissing Steve one time and he shoves his tongue too far so Steve naturally just crawls to u for comfort bc he’s just spoiled by you at this point when he’s all pouty and fake annoyed, and Eddie - bless him - looks like a (forgive the expression) kicked puppy. so Steve’s in ur lap throwing a pity party hoping for some precious coddling from u and u reach over for eddie too and it’s like his eyes flash up with a golden ticket handed to him bc obviously this means that you finally worked up the courage to want his kisses even if Steve’s pouting over em. and he plants one on you so Steve’s like ?? THIS is part of the comfort package cmere cmere cmere and it’s all super sweet bc here you have two pretty pups just heart eyed and tails going 50 mph cus they got to give u a kissy (shutup shutup shutup if they think it’ll get you to be sweet and give them another kiss, they WILL call it a kissy).

the idea of kisses and what they think it shows could be such a sweet origin tho. like imagine they watch tv or see some mutual friends (in my eyes it has to be human nance and SOMEONE else that’s human) kiss and they think it’s the epitome of showing affection, and maybe they get a bit downtrodden or pouty sometimes when they notice you’ve never kissed them like that and through like, a show or smthn you all like watching, they realise that oh you gotta wait for a sign!! to be able to kiss like that!! love love love the idea that there have been like, almost kisses. almost kisses are so cute and it’s so obvious that you wanna kiss them too but it’s just.. ur platonic? :] right? :]

until eds needs to slobber into someone’s mouth and if steves being a baby abt it, and ur reaching for him, then he can kiss you!! <3

send me more poly!puppy!steddie thoughts!! / hybrid au faq

anon. the love of my life. sorry this took me a fair amount of time to answer, i got it the second you sent it and i haven't stopped re-reading it since!! it's sososososo sweet and i need it 😭 i def wanna write a fic on this now!!

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no bc eddie is always too lovey for steve - he likes affection, he really does, but he likes gentle affection, and sometimes eddie's too excited for that - he'll let eddie drool all over him all he wants but sometimes he wants a sweet little kiss on the cheek so he mopes into your lap and looks up at you with sweet puppy eyes just begging for one. his face is all slobbery and drooly and you wipe it away and press a soft little kiss to his forehead :(

eddie's so distraught. you wiped away his kisses :( those were for steve :( but he sees that steve's all pouty and he gets considerably less pouty when you scatter little kisses all over his face - and so he thinks maybe he needs to start doing that too!

you offer him a hand and he's seeing heaven rn.. he's included? He s a part of this?? fuck yeah! he doesn't know which of you to kiss first, he's so excited. he goes for you, though, because clearly steve needs a break. man he lays the fattest kiss on you you swear you nearly pass out - you don't even have eddie's tongue out of your mouth before steve's trying to jam his in there too </3 he's tugging at the front of your shirt griping to eddie about sharing and suddenly your friends are not in your lap your boyfriends are in your lap and they are kissing the living daylights out of you <33333

i think you'd give eddie some kissing lessons! not makeout lessons, god knows he doesn't need to know anymore about that, he's got it down. but you have to make sure he knows that sometimes steve wants little pecks on the cheek and not a mouthful of drool - it consists of you and eddie sitting beside each other on the bed and steve sitting with one leg in each of your laps - he's sort of straddling the gap between you if you know what i mean? and you take turns pressing soft little kisses to his cheeks and he blushes so hard. he's got a dumb little smile on his face and eddie only bites his blushy cheeks a few times but eventually he gets the hang of containing his excitement to where steve'll lay in his lap now and he just bends over and smooches all over his face <3333

and yes!! if eddie's in the mood to be messy you and steve are his goal!! if steve isn't feeling it he'll plop himself right down in your lap and kiss away, tail going a million miles an hour especially if you scratch at his ears :'))

no i shit you not they see ronance kiss or maybe jonathan lays one on her before he leaves the room at a movie night and they look at each other like :0 later eddie goes for your lips 'cause he doesn't realize that it's not really casual like that (or at least, that you two are not intimate enough to do that) and you turn your head to the side so that he catches your cheek just because you think it's poor aim on his part </3 he's so sad!!!! genuinely mopes around for the rest of the night and you can't tell why but you dote on him while he's curled up pitifully at your side under the covers. it takes a lot of ear scratches and cheek kisses and face-smushes (exactly what they sound like. smush your face into his.) but eventually his tail thumps against the bed before he drifts off <3 luckily the next day steve catches a segment of a sitcom where a woman freaks out after her coworker kisses her and she basically spells it out for him and he runs to eddie like dude. we had it all wrong.

but that just means they're constantly striving to get to that point with you!! telling you how much they looove you, how pretty you are, how perfect the food you're making for them is: they turn into walking praise machines and it's only a matter of time until they butter you up enough to where you start wondering if they're still thinking of you as just their best friend <333

[macabrecravings]

Question about Cain: how did he get his angel tf? And how does Sydney react to it? Because from what I've seen Cain is not doing a good job of keeping him pure...

Question about Seraphina: was her friendship with Cain always rocky? Does she hate Cain out of jealousy and envy for his seemingly privileged lifestyle and purity?

- uhm 🧙‍♂️ anon because i think its funny

GHSHEJEJEEJ OMG. Taking a break from drawing Fifi to answer this (IM SO EXCITED !!! THANK YOU FOR THE ASK :3)

Statistically speaking, Cain got his angel TF pretty easily bc the first thing I did in his save was go to the temple & become an initiate. He’s been chastity belted & anal shielded up since the first week 😭 Never had a chance to get that purity meter down LOL! Like Sydney, he works himself to the bone with temple duties & school. His grace at the temple is almost always full, but lore-wise, with the molestation and close encounters he experiences, he’s kind of worn down & his heart isn’t really in it anymore :(

When he & Sydney started dating, it said “will you keep each other pure or fall from grace together?” the second one. Sydney is absolutely corrupt and once Cain’s promiscuity is high enough they’ll be sinning like fucking crazy 😭 I’d totally get his chastity stuff removed eventually when it fits my storyline. I think Sydney feels really guilty about it sometimes- Once i had this scene where he saw Cain’s halo in the reflection of his eye and he got all guilty n his purity went up 😨

As for Cain & Seraphina!!! I def have not developed them together much hehehe but it’s so fun to think about ty for fueling it >:3

I’ve never had a set in stone reason for why any of my characters are in the orphanage, but based off of vibes alone as i’m writing this? Seraphina’s been there since she was ~6 & Cain feels like he would’ve been sent there around 11/12. (Damn!! Actually developing lore ? crazy 😨 i don’t do that hehe) I imagine they had little to no interactions growing up just bc they had nothing in common

Her disdain for him is completely one sided & yes it stems from envy & jealousy. She’d start noticing him at high trauma and start despising him for being what she thinks is the epitome of purity while she’s out here, tormented. It’d kind of be like a Kylar-watching-from afar situation, where he’s unaware of her fixation at first. She hates him because he makes himself the center of attention all the time & doesn’t seem to reap any of the consequences that she does. He’s definitely more socially & physically privileged than she is and that blinds her from the reality that— he struggles in that town as much as anyone does 😬

[safety-pin-punk]

Sorry to be in your asks again about this 😭 but I love your posts and the resources you've got

How the fuck do you cope with not feeling punk enough as a disabled person

Not having the capabilities to actually go out and get involved in your local community and scene, not having the coordination to fix up or make your own clothes

I know it's mostly about philosophy and not (entirely) how you dress or what concerts you can go to, but it's so hard to not feel like I'm failing at being punk when I can't make my own battle jacket or go volunteer with how exhausted I am just from existing 😭😭😭

First, don’t be sorry! I love getting asks (I actually have a lot that I need to get through 😬)

I feel like in order for my answer to have any real meaning, you need some background on me and my life, so I’m going to put a cut so this isnt the longest post known to man lol

Okay, for anyone new, I need to point out here that I approach all of this from a chronically ill perspective. I’m not physically disabled, but I’m certainly not fully functioning by any means. Okay on to the actual answer:

You ask how I cope with not feeling punk enough without being able to get involved in a local scene and dealing with the realities of chronic illness.

When I was in highschool (mind you this was like 7 years ago), I was just starting to get into punk. I was enamored by it. But I grew up country. I was the kid that wore jeans and a flannel every day. To this day I own cowboy boots and a few hats. I still listen to country music when Im sad. So I was a country kid who wanted to be a punk rocker.

My friend group in school thought that was absurd. I was 16 when it first came to my attention that maybe I couldn’t be punk enough. At this point I hadnt even learned the first thing about what punk really means besides ‘sticking it to the man’. My friends, no my best friend at the time, she looked at me and said ‘You arent punk.’ Then she scoffed and went on her merry way. I was sad, I was hurt, but more so I was angry.

I actually stayed friends with her until about a year and a half ago. During that time, I learned everything I could about what it meant to be punk. I cut my hair off, I had a jacket with a few pins on it, I listened mostly to alternative music. But I could never really sew (Im still shit at it and stab myself every time I make an attempt at it), I never listened to the right bands, I never word the right clothes, I didnt go to the right school. Nothing I ever did was going to be ‘punk enough’ for her. Through out most of that time, I was a baby punk who had never met another person in the punk scene. And through out all of that time my supposed best friend never thought I was punk enough. (God this person is honestly a story in and of itself)

But when I went to college, I met new people. And to these people, I was the epitome of punk (mind you their experience with alternative people was basically zero because I went to a christian school). That was a new experience for me and gave me a lot of confidence. I still wasnt around punks, but the girls in my dorm would hear me playing Papa Roach or Falling in Reverse and see me in a band shirt and either avoid me or tell me I was pretty cool. I still didn’t have an actual punk jacket. I didnt know how to sew. I just liked music and was wearing a nirvana shirt I got on sale at walmart.

I tell you this to point out that simply changing my environment, neither of which were full of alternative people, drastically altered my view of myself and if I was ‘punk enough’.

I’ll even give you another example to think about. Is a chemist still a chemist, even when they aren’t surrounded by or doing research with other chemists? If someone likes chemistry and knows a lot about it, but are surrounded by business people, are they not still a chemist, even if they arent the ‘perfect chemist’? I’ll go even further, making your own capillary tubes out of glass pipets is a very common and almost expected skill that most chemists have. I’ve never been successful at this once, does that make me less of a chemist?

You can still be a punk even if you aren’t surrounded by punks. You can still be a punk even if you cant do all the things that are typically expected of punks. Not all punks have the same skill set. Some can sew, some cant. Some can garden, some cant. Some can make graffiti stickers, some cant. Dont try to fit yourself into this box of what punk is ‘supposed’ to be. Punk is whatever you want it to be.

And I know, I know. Theres a difference between knowing that and feeling that. I completely understand. And thats part of why this blog has been so important to me. Like I said, I live in a very rural place. There are no punks. I know a grunge kid and a few teenagers who like to dye their hair. Sure, I live near Pittsburgh, but going into the city isnt a daily occurrence for me. But on tumblr, I’ve met some really amazing punks like @/polyamorouspunk and @/my-chemical-ratz. There is a pretty awesome online community of punks. These people have made me feel welcomed and included in this community, and I’m very thankful for that.

And even if you just want to look at the chronic illness/disabled perspective… your existence is punk. You are here, and you arent being quiet about it. Thats punk. “In the face of extermination say fuck you” may have been aimed at trans people, but it applies just as much to sick and disabled people. You are punk by default.

[chaneajoyyy]

Dear brilliant and stunning librarian, would you happen to have a list for:

Miguel O’Hara x black or poc reader

Simon Basset x black or poc reader

Please please please with a cherry on top if you have the time. 🙇🏾‍♀️

Oh thank you boo🥹. Hey love!!! I sure do!!!

MIGUEL O'HARA X BLACK OR POC READER

on the way, sunday mornings- @demiesworld

"idk if it’s weird but do you know that thing where you grab your boobs for comfort?? imagine doing that to miguel 😭😭", a change in place, "omgg sunshine reader and her baby bots are an epitome of cuteness 😤🥺 i bet she would refuse to call then any other name than baby bots and watch miguel slowly loosing a "battle" - he will end up calling them like that too 😭", "i feel like miguel def gives rly mind blowing orgasms but not on purpose tho??", "no one can tell me that miguel isn’t the biggest gentleman ever!! He will carry your bags, open doors and all that like his life depends on it (all of it obviously with his constant frown but deep inside he couldn’t be happier)", mornings, "oml https://www.tumblr.com/inkdrinkerworld/723831735977197568/i-feel-like-miguel-def-gives-rly-mind-blowing imagine him giving you head…", "miguel would actually be *so* gently while fingering you..omg", "ab riding with miguel makes me go feral. like r is being so needy, and he's just like “this is all you're getting”, "can i request grumpy miguel x sunshine reader where miguel is more grumpy than usual because a spider keeps hitting on reader, but they’re so oblivious to the flirting and miguel interprets the interaction as them flirting back, when they’re just being nice (if that makes sense, no worries if you don’t want to :) )", "what about grumpy!reader and grumpy!miguel, like sexual tension and staredowns and aaalmost kissing but not and WHEEWAWWWSEDR", "sunshine civilian!reader and grumpy!miguel's date getting interrupted by some other anomaly and him being all grumpy and annoyed while she's just like "it's fine! just don't get hurt !!" , "could you write a blurb where autistic!reader is having a non-verbal day and miguel stops peter b from asking her a lot of questions and stuff because she can't respond? thank you <33", "Miguel prompts you say?? could i request "just...come here." pretty pls and ty xxxx", "pretty pls could u do headcannons of when miguel is jealous LORD cant get enough of him 😔😔😔", "Miguel asking Peter B for love advice since he wants so badly to ask the reader out on a date but it's been so long since he got involved with someone that he just don't know what to do 😂🩷", "Hiiiii what do you think about Miguel x grumpy!reader? I see Miguel and sunshine reader quite a lot here and as a black cat/ fellow grump…I was curious~", "Miguel doesn't want anyone to know but he actually loves that Peter brings Mayday to the association. His heart melts every time she laughs and he honestly loves watching her powers develop.", "for miguel maybe number 1 from the gesture prompts?? possibly with autistic reader<3", "mon bébé!! would u ever consider writing more abt your harleyquinn!reader x miguel?? i loved itttt soooo🥺🥺 maybe one where he learns about her past relationship with the joker and how bad he treated her which makes him want to protect and love her even moreee (also it just makes him want to track down the goddamn clown and beat the fuck outta him) I LOVE LOVE LOVE UR WORKKKK", "fawn my love!! If it’s no bother, what do u think abt miguel being with a harleyquinn!fem!reader? i am dying to hear ur thots on that!b🤍🤍"- @inkdrinkerworld

multiple endings- @infernalodie

drip- @daydreamingsirens

SIMON BASSETT X BLACK OR POC READER

pleasing the duke series- @royallyprincesslilly

*IF ANYONE KNOW ANY MORE MIGUEL O'HARA AND SIMON BASSETT FICS PLEASE HIT MY LINE!!!!*

[randoimago]

Castlevania for the Ask Game please <3

Had to do a little digging to find it again, but thanks Anon! This is specifically about the Netflix show as the only Castlevania games I played were Aria of Sorrow and Dawn of Sorrow on DS

Also I haven't watched Nocturne yet, but from what little I know, I'm gonna be sad 😔

Ask Game Here

3 male characters I love: Alucard, Hector, Isaac (Trevor came close for this list, but he's not broken enough)

3 female characters I love: Sypha, Lenore, Lisa (Lisa girlbossed and married Dracula, the monster lover in me respects her)

3 romantic ships I love: Trevor/Alucard/Sypha (just every iteration of those three rather it's just trevor/alucard or sypha/alucard or all three like I mentioned), Dracula/Lisa, Striga/Morana

3 platonic dynamics I love: Trevor/Alucard (yes I ship them romantically, but I also like shipping them platonically too depending on the mood, I enjoy the brotherly dynamic), Dracula/Isaac (the way he pushed Isaac through the portal to save him 😭),

3 favorite moments in canon:

Every Sypha moment tbh, I love her so much. She's a queen. She's the epitome of Chaotic Good and I love that for her. ("Where did you land the castle?" "Right on top of us :D"

"Eat shit and die." "Yes, fuck you" lives in my head rent free. Trevor/Alucard are great, I love them, enemies to frenemies to friends to lovers

The conversation in season 1 between the Bishop and that demon that enters. "God is not here. This is an empty box." "Lies? In your house of God?" so many chills. I wish the Bishop got a worse death, but hey, I'll take these awesome scenes.

3 favorite headcanons:

That Alucard either traveled with Trevor/Sypha or they tried to visit more often and that the twins thing never happened cause Alucard deserves happiness 😭

Alucard being a happy uncle to Trevor and Sypha's kid. Nothing bad every happens to any of them and they can live out their found family dynamics perfectly.

Imagining Alucard being such a great father figure to a lot of kids in his village. Just the little things he'd do. Townspeople watching the half-vampire, son of Dracula, running around and pretending to fail at Tag or Hide and Seek just for some kids to be happy. It's adorable.

3 least favorite things about it:

That season 1 is so short, but I think the reason is cause Castlevania was one of Netflix's first animation things and they wanted to see if people liked it? Idk, I just remember watching season 1 back when it was first on Netflix and going "That's it??"

I kind of wish there was more Hector moments. Isaac got like all the character development juice while Hector felt like he was constantly thrown in the mud. Idk, I just felt like he could've been much cooler if he wasn't just a way to show how scary Carmilla and her sisters are, even if he did eventually do some scheming.

The fact that it's only 4 seasons. I know there's Nocturne, but it feels like a thing where if a Netflix show is confirmed to have a last season, they'll put a huge thing in the last episode and then we'll just have to sit and wonder. I loved the show, I want it to at least have another season 😔

[onlyjaeyun]

oh my i was going through your little emojis that were in use and i just remembered that when i was an anon i would use the ♋️🩵. So user reveal that’s me hiii 👋. Still here promise ! Just not much of an anon anymore 😭

Anyways CH 18!!!! AAAASHHHJWJJEKEJENE is what came to mind when i read it. You writing from 12-4am DEDICATION and i aspire. Literally you writing at those hours gave me the motivation to get on my treadmill and do my workout. So thank you for that. I hope your pillow was the coldest most comfortable thing ever that night and forever and that you got enough rest 🥹🥹.

Now speaking about that chapter….

KAKEKEKNEMEMDMDMEI OH MY GOOODNESS 😱😱😱😱😱 literally me the whole time i was with my jaw on the floor clutching my pillow for dear life. The snippet of the fall out. I am seated 🪑 for that. I can’t wait for whenever you decide to drop that.

*sigh* Tsuki my girl fuck CH!Seung. I want her now 😩😩😩. Such a sweet soul and epitome of a girls girl. Love her she a fave love her wish nothing but the best hearts for Tsuki 🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼.

The build up to the them getting down and dirty. Sunghoon sir you are BOLD. Everytime this man spoke my jaw would be an inch closer to the ground. Left me speechless in a good way.

The baby pet name drop 😭😭 like CH!YN better than me would have allowed this man do just about anything no questions asked 😊😊😊. The aftercare round of applause for this man 👏👏👏👏. 📣 WE SCREAMED WE CRIED WE CHEERED📣. This man already running laps around the entirely of SK to get the image of her in his shirt out his mind 🏃💨. Got him sweating, huffing and puffing at the thoughts. Like ain’t not way she giving that back to him. Once they get together he going to purposely leave his shit in her room so she can wear it. When she does and he sees her wearing it he going to be whining, moaning, and groaning at her but in reality he thrives of that shit. Loves to see her wear his clothes. Got him all giggly and what not 🤭🤭🤭

Lastly how can i forgot the kiss. That kiss is going to have both of them spiraling 🌀 i just know it. Like they going to brush it off for a bit but every time they see each other they get like heated at the fact that they want to kiss each other again.

OMG YOU WRE THAT NONIE BABY WHEN I TELL YOU I WAS SO WORRIED BC I THOUGHT YOU DISAPPEARED 🤕🤕🤕 IM SO GLAD YOU DECIDED TO COME BACK OFF ANON FKDNFLFLF SO EXCITING HELLO BABY!🥺💗

thank you so so so so so much for these sweet words baby, they're everything to me like the fact you cuys are so appreciative and supportive really means a lot to me 🥺💗 and honestly i have only recently started writing so fast bc back when i had just started it took me so long but now i just write without overthinking too much, deffo recommend taht since ik a lot of my fellow writers go through the same struggles 😭

im so glad we all love CH!tsuki sm because she's really the cutest and sweetest babe ever and deffo one of my comfort characters in this fic she's SUCH a girls girl and it makes me so happy WE LOVE CH!TSUKI!!!!🥺💗

STOP YOURE SO FUCKING CUTE THANK YOU SM FOR SO MUCH LOVE ON CH.18 YOURE THE BEST THIS MADE ME GIGGLE SM😭😭😭💗 and your brain is so so sexy for the last part because FUCK yeah he would leave his stuff at her place and then get excited to see her in it but she'd pretend like she thought it's one of the other boys' just to see his reaction until he makes sure to fuck her in his clothes and make sure she knows not to fuck with him I LOVE THEM AND YOU SM 🤕🤕💗

ngl i am SO happy you guys loved the kiss as much as i do bc damn i was so sadni couldn't elaborate it further bc you know i would have gone full on romantic mood and had to hold myself back...sOON!!🤕

thank you sm for this baby, glad you decided to reveal yourself i always loved your asks sm 🥺

[rillils]

its missing then hours, rils

do you think bucky thinks hes the reason why everybody he knows are leaving him?

sweetieboo, why do you do this to me 😭😭😭 I just saw your tags on that post and I'm gonna have an emotional breakdown

the thing is, I didn't watch/am not going to watch the new What If season - I mean, season 1 already hurt me enough, and I'm just not down to getting more st*ggy shoved down my throat, or more possible eventual Steve-related jokes like the mcu keeps tossing around, about him/his virginity/his ass/all the girls he allegedly had tons of sex with bc of course he's nothing if not The Epitome of Heterosexual Masculinity™/the rogers musical/blablabla, SO I'll admit I don't have the context here for whatever happened to Bucky in this episode

so I'm just going to ask you, honey 🥺

was it that bad? 😭 why do they keep hurting him and can't they just fucking leave him alone for once 😭😭😭 and why do I always get the feeling that they're treating him more and more as though he was a villain, when he literally never was 😭😭😭 they did him so dirty, honey, whyyyyyyyyyy

[missingn000]

i just finally got around to reading your immaculate spy x family fic (which i was saving reading for when i could get maximum enjoyment from it) and then got caught up on the latest phantom guardian chapter (we love tonal whiplash <3) aND BOTH WERE GREAT AS USUAL

loid teaching yor to slow dance in their living room before confessing his love to her? yeah yeah, that’s cool, just gonna fundamentally shift what i consider the epitome of romance, it’s all good. also also also, your descriptive writing???? i wanna eat it, im absorbing it into my bloodstream (affectionate). also all of your writing for their kiss was just, so fantastic. my asexual ass has never been so invested in a kiss before lmao. (also the scene of anya crying and loid trying to comfort her but ultimately failing because she knows his true intentions was fucking gut wrenching in the best way omg my heart)

and then y’know. the phantom guardian. delightful and agonizing as always. the shoko/nanami and yuki/toji content? immaculate, showstopping, 11/10. toji and gojo being sent to tengen’s place? screaming, dying, panicking (but also their father and son dynamic ;-; they fambly). THINKING OF RIKO WHEN SEEING MAKI AND THEN CALLING SUGURU????? agony, panic, morbid curiosity. suguru and mahito? dead, dying, throwing up. LAWYER MAN???? fascinated, hooked, oh god he has airpods in he doesn’t know he’s about to get roped into insanity. all this to say another stunning, and very on brand chapter to add to this masterwork of a fanfic. also i love your writing so damn much it lives rent free in my head and rattles around like a maraca <3 thank you for blessing us with your writing and i hope you’re doing alright and have a lovely day!!

HI YOU ARE SO KIND I'M GOING TO MELT 😭❤️️ i'm so pleased you liked my sxf fic!! i was really proud of how that one turned out...writing for a series for the first time is always tough and it's so encouraging to hear you liked all those moments between loid, anya, and yor. also, i TOTALLY get what you mean, my ace ass is over here cheering these two on for the kiss of their life. kiss scenes are so hard to write, dude. what comes to me way more naturally is people beating each other up /lh

regarding tpg, yup we're back at it with the tonal whiplash xD (i say as if there isn't some form of tonal whiplash in like every chapter...in 32, too). YES THE LAWYERMAN IS HERE! i cracked up at "oh god he has airpods in he doesn’t know he’s about to get roped into insanity." he truly has no idea what he's in for, this poor guy.

seriously, this message made my day. thank you for this lovely ask, and i hope YOU are having a great day too!!

[thriev]

re: caroline and elena sharing love interests (ft. why i love for/wood and why i'm not so hot on ste/roline).

basically, i don't think it's a coincidence that caroline ends up going for men that elena has dated (talking about matt and stefan here). it's not intentional either, just like a... subconscious thing.

caroline's entire life she's been compared (by herself and other people) to elena and so elena becomes the epitome of everything caroline should be. the perfect daughter, perfect girlfriend, etc etc. it's only natural that caroline ends up wanting to emulate elena's relationships too. especially because they seem so much more meaningful than any relationship caroline has had herself. at first it's elena and matt, high school sweethearts, so sickeningly cute and in love. at that point caroline's never actually been in love herself, so she sees their relationship and she takes notes. so when matt's single, and available, and nice to her, she takes her chance with him, because she saw him with elena. and she she wants that god damn it! she wants a proper romance, a real love, a relationship that's deeper than any of the ones she's had before.

and the terrible thing is that she actually gets what she wants. matt's her first love and they become that cute, sweet couple she's always dreamed of, but then things fall apart pretty quickly. she blames becoming a vampire (and yes, that is technically why they break up) but i think they were always destined to break up. maroline at the end of the day were just an imitation mattlena so i don't think they would've been endgame. that's not to say they didn't genuinely like or love each other, but matt still had lingering feelings for elena the whole way through, and caroline wanted something from him more than she actually wanted him.

that's why her second relationship, with tyler, was so important to her (and her character arc). not only is he entirely removed from elena, but they both fell into the relationship together (as opposed to ma/roline where matt was initially either on an entirely different page or denying he felt the same way). caroline also wasn't looking for something with tyler, holding him up to some kind of weird pedestal she's crafted for him in her head. while matt's her first love in many ways, i kinda also consider tyler her first love in a maybe stronger, more truer sense. her relationship with tyler is all them, it's not about anyone else, that's why it's so sexy!!!!!! why it's so important!!!!!!!!!!! i think a lot of her other relationships fuck with her sense of self worth, but her relationship with tyler is the first one that boosts it. strengthens it.

so. okay. putting her with stefan at the end is a choice. i get the appeal of friends to lovers and i do think they're sweet. like yay a full circle moment. the june wedding!! but i also feel like in a way it backtracks on some of care's development? 😭 she moved on from all her elena hangups, only to end up with the man she was convinced was elena's soulmate??? you could argue that this is actually the truest proof of her getting over her elena stuff, by dating a guy who was literally fated to be with her, but.... no. good relationships don't always have to mean character arcs/development but what did ste/roline do for caroline other than make her sad and insecure again for a chunk of the show? and listen. there is simply no way to date stefan without being in elena's shadow. caroline was there for all of it!!!!! she witnessed everything first hand!!!! how they got together, and how they ultimately fell apart. and maybe you or someone else would be strong enough to get over that but caroline???? being with stefan would only slowly push her back into her old insecurities like i just know it.

mar/oline was very much a stepping stone relationship for caroline, something to help her realise what she wanted/what she didn't want/what does and doesn't work/and maybe to help her get over her elena problem for good. for/wood was a relationship that taught her about love, helped her find her self worth, made her a more compassionate person, and gave her something that was (for once) all her own. ste/roline was there. it did something for someone but it certainly didn't do caroline (or me) any favours 🤧.

[dustofthedailylife]

answer this publicly or privately idc but i have to vent my frustration about that anon, i wish i had more time to do it

first of all: i‘m so sorry, anon; if this is your take on things then i truly pity you

BUT

that ask was the epitome of entitlement if i’ve ever seen it and i don’t care if i‘m about to sound mean, you need to hear it apparently

writers share their stories for FREE and ask for what? reblogs on a site that works on reblogs? feedback on their work or a word of appreciation when you liked it?

guess what nobody asked for or needed: people who are too cowardly to come off anon and then give their unsolicited opinion while being rude as fuck about it

i think a lot of writers would appreciate constructive criticism, the keyword being constructive which involves naming points you like and dislike in a polite manner

i don’t know what your goal was with that ask, if it was to make a writer cry, i can assure you, the opposite happened bc you’re a clown at best and an absolute laughingstock at worst

honestly, please, enlighten me, what was your motivation here? do you feel better about yourself now? again, so sorry it takes putting others down for you to feel a sliver of self-worth

so, sorry not sorry for being rude but if you disrespect someone else i absolutely don’t see a reason why i should show you any respect

with all due respect, which is none, fuck off

Holly, you absolute queen! Go off! 😭❤️

And I couldn't agree more with everything you said. It is peak entitlement and writers aren't asking for much in return...

I'll stick with my theory that is someone who is unhappy with where they are in life so they need to take it out on others. Can't help but feel pity.

[sugarcherriess]

BESTIE YOU SCARED ME FOR A SEC 😭 I DONT KNOW HOW MANY ASKS I LEFT (im sorry) BUT IM SO GLAD NOTHING HAPPENED AKDNFKSKSOFNSKAK

1. congrats what the fuck professor adonis making their entrance

2. FUCKING FOR REAL BECAUSE??? WHAT THE FUCK TXT??? beomgyus been bias wrecking and IM NOT EVEN A FUCKING MOA WHAT THE HELL. also i love devil by the window an unHEALTHY amount. healthy.

3. i am so excited i screamed into my pillow and then scared my cat

5. bestie should i buy nudeshot or NOT i am. so. conflicted AGH

7. i will throw hands at anyone trying to kill you over this it is YOUR CHOICE. im so happy to hear that youre not going to end it and also dont worry abt slow updates or no updates at all!! go at your own pace aifnekskkd HOBBIES ARE SUPPOSED TO BE FUN if i catch anyone trying to rush u 🔪🩸

8. wow this got kinda long love you too mwah

A professor losing it over someone named Hyunjae who is the epitome of loser babygirl now. What decision did i make in life to end up like this

Devil by the window is. So fucking good honestly i love it so much i want to fuck this song and Yes you should absolutely buy nudeshot. Live my dream😔😔😔😔

I have so much fun on here i think even if i stop writing at all I’d still keep visiting this blog because i love hanging out with you guys😭😭 thank you bestie i luv u 2 muaw💖