#'I’m also really confident in myself and genuinely don’t care about the opinions of other people'

[ace-race-ace]

I have a somewhat interesting theory about some people disproportionately HATING Esteban but liking Pierre.

To me, being / not being Francophone heavily influences how people seem to perceive them.

I am French (ew exposing myself Ik) and I absolutely ADORE Esteban. He’s really sweet, authentic and hard working. Pierre on the other hand is like the epitome of a French fuck-boy to me, overly confident, showing off, and not genuinely caring for people that aren’t his friends. I actually think he’s a great driver but his personality gives me the biggest ick.

People who aren’t Francophone (especially Americans and Brits) seem to think completely differently. They see Esteban as undeserving because he’s had scraps often (NEWS FLASH: THEY ALL DO) and not being a strong driver despite he holds his own against his teammates for a long time . And Pierre is idolized like crazy despite fumbling a red bull seat and only having 2021 as an actual impressive performance. He’s seen as super cool, confident and having good looks and apparently that’s good enough.

It must be a cultural mistranslation/mismatch because to me it’s SOOO obvious Esteban is a great driver and a great person who obviously cares about the sport, not being a ‘celebrity’. While Pierre is too often glorified despite causing many accidents himself and also seems obsessed with his image. NGL him talking about Michael Jordan being bigger than his sport and him (Pierre) wanting to recreate that gave me a huge shift in how I see him.

Esteban is just a more humble guy in my opinion, and he’s getting an un proportional amount of hate for the actual situation.

Again, I don’t even hate Pierre that much, but the way people seem to punch down Esteban so much while praising Gasly makes zero sense to me.

Those are my quick thoughts! I’m willing to discuss other people’s opinions as along as we stay respectful to each other 🫶

[exileorexodus]

It’s weird because this is the most genuinely alone that I’ve felt in a very long time. I make one or two circumstantial friends at Brock to sate myself for the day, and I never talk to them again afterwards. There are no kept connections, no reach-outs, no hangouts. I’ve always had some kind of codependent friendship (or multiple) to keep me going throughout my life, so this is a very strange change. I walk the university campus alone, I go to class alone, i don’t really talk to anyone, I leave class alone, and I go back home in solitude. I spent my birthday alone, in the quiet, with crickets chirping outside.

It’s nice. I don’t find that I mind it as much as I probably should. After a lifetime of being tugged about, ripped apart in the torrents of other people and martyred to kingdom come, it’s refreshing to not have to deal with anything interpersonally - or at all. Being confided in feels healthy now. It’s no longer only my burden to weather, it’s no longer my obligation to wade through. It’s not my job to stay as someone keeps ramming themselves into a wall over and over and hands me the damage to mitigate. I’m there as a passive (oftentimes harsh) support and a second opinion, and a relieving finality, a total outsider. It’s incredibly peaceful. I haven’t felt this at peace socially in years.

I’ve also never felt this much of a stable footing towards the (oftentimes unintentional) nasty interference of my parents either. It’s still draining, and annoying. But it doesn’t make me want to run out into traffic or self-mutilate like it used to. I don’t flinch anymore.

A lot of the lack of connection is probably just because there’s no one else that really cares about making more ether. I’m not very easy to talk to and can’t really hold a conversation with those outside of my wavelength for the life of me, so maybe I’m just boring. Maybe other people are boring to me too. Maybe we both find eachother exhausting.

[mueritos]

Hi! As a fellow trans dude who has recently discovered his autism at the ripe old age of 26, I can wholly sympathize with how you’re feeling right now. Everyone’s experiences are different, but from what you described we have very similar ones. I get extremely overwhelmed in loud, cramped situations to the point of losing speech, I get irritable and angry when planned events don’t adhere to my scheduled expectations, and certain frequencies (like clattering cutlery, loud drum beats through speakers, etc) make my nerves go haywire. What I can say is that you don’t have to call yourself autistic if you aren’t comfy with that, however it may help to learn and lean into autistic coping mechanisms for overstimulation (which sounds like that is happening during those social situations) like acquiring stim toys to help regulate, bring sensory dampeners like ear plugs (loop is a great company that makes ear plugs that block out certain frequencies for different situations), and listen to your body and your mind. If you can tell you’re starting to shut down, don’t force yourself to be like everyone else and stay if that isn’t what you want/can handle. It took me a long time to accept that I’m NOT like neurotypical people and i don’t have to pretend like I am just to fit in with the vibe. Do what feels best for you and your needs — no one else’s opinion is more important than that. If you find that you really do want to stay but can tell you’re shutting down, sometimes taking a break in a quiet space like a bathroom can help, and you can return after feeling better. I also highly recommend finding someone you trust in those situations who can help you leave if necessary. Whether it’s literally getting you out, or making it more socially acceptable/comfortable for you, I can personally attest to how much better it is when you can confide in someone about your needs in those moments and allowing them to assist you. Also, if it helps to know, I am not formally diagnosed as autistic for a variety of reasons, namely the things that can be denied of those with a formal diagnosis (like gender affirming care), but I have several autistic friends who have helped guide me to this conclusion and my life is much better for it. I know who I am and why I am Like This, and every day is easier knowing the ways I can actually help myself instead of questioning why I’m not like “everyone else”. I don’t need a diagnosis for that, and I’m happier this way. If you don’t want one either, that’s okay. Being autistic comes with a lot of ups and downs, but truly learning how to live with your brain and the way it works can lead you to so much light. The first time I let myself stim out of joy was a euphoric experience. I promise you that being autistic isn’t all sensory overload. I wish you all the best on this journey <3

thank you 😭 this is really sweet and really really helpful. I don't think I'm looking for a diagnosis either, mostly because I doubt most places I can get one will fully respect me or my experiences. I also don't want it to impede on getting GA care. Other than that, I feel like these symptoms have prolly been around for a long time, but it wasn't until a few years ago that I've been able to focus on them because HRT has made me have less turmoil. I guess my brain decided now was the time to start unraveling these experiences.

I relate though, and I genuinely dislike when plans are thrown off schedule or when things don't go the way I expect them to. It has made me rigid and become irritable when things change. For example, i was at a party that I was told would end at 10, except no one left, and I felt forced to stay an extra 2 hrs and I become overstimmed and silent. Other times it has happened when I already have a low social battery, and someone wants to be spontaneous and go do more social stuff.

I will say I have been focusing more on letting myself stim as well. I rock and fidget a lot more than I used to, and I rock forward quickly and sometimes shake my hands when I'm laughing (it's a lot easier to hide it when I'm laughing). Other times, I rock forward and shake my hands as I'm about to eat because i'm so excited. (I love food!!!!). It's also been in the way I process stuff, like taking things literally, delays in hearing, not being able to multi-task, being angry at being interrupted/distracted, being detail orientated, and I seek and avoid certain sensory stuff that aligns with other common autistic experiences (avoid bright lights/heavy noise, but seek pressure and low stimulation).

but I thank you for your input, it definitely makes me feel a lot better about having these experiences and also not being sure about taking on a label or not...i know self-dx is just as valid as an official diagnosis, but I can't deny these experiences and I also can't deny that autistic ways to cope with the world and with stimulation is working with me. It helps to learn about other people's experiences and compare it with mine, but also to know there are a lot of people in the same boat who are unsure or questioning :,)

[ropebuny]

whats your type in women?

I don’t have a specific type, I never have ! I’ve liked many different types of girls over the years. it’s just important to me that she’s a good person, who is caring for others and especially animals. someone who knows how to deal with my mental health issues, someone who I feel safe with. I know it’s a cliche answer but I genuinely do not have any specific requirements other than that. I’ve gotten along with both introverts as well as extroverts so I don’t mind either, but if I had to choose I would have to say I prefer being with an extrovert because I am way too shy and introverted for my own good and I’d appreciate having someone to lean on in public if needed. physically, I also tend to prefer people with body modifications & dyed hair because I do have those myself as well, but it’s never been a requirement. I’ve also liked people who were the complete opposite style as me, although I do tend to lean towards people with who I share a similar one. I most importantly would like someone who I can talk about cinema, especially horror, with. I’m a huge fan of movies and literature, so I’d like someone who I can talk about all of that with. discuss directors, different movies, genres, etc. it brings me a lot of joy. and also music, I like all kinds of different genres so I’d like someone who is open to trying out lots of different styles as well. I’m very emotional and struggle with lots of mental issues, so I always appreciate people who are open and honest with their emotions and opinions, so I’m never left second guessing myself or questioning our relationship. someone caring and someone who’s not afraid or embarrassed to be seen with me, is important to me too. as someone who has an alternative style I’ve found myself engaging with people who are only interested in me because of how I look, but never because of anything else, or I’ve had people be embarrassed to be seen out in public with me because of my style. so it’s really important to me that I don’t feel like a burden in someone’s life. I’d like to be shown off, so someone confident in that aspect would mean a lot to me.

I feel like I am just repeating what I said in a different ask that asked me about my likes in a guy, so I’m pasting that answer here, it’s pretty much identical anyway: https://www.tumblr.com/ropebuny/732102069452996608/biggest-turnons-in-a-guy

[valeffelees]

Fandom asks 9, 13, and 19!

hey Ace, thanks for coming to hang out! 🖤

9. Best new fandom discovery of the year

best fandom discovery of the year for me was def your aromantic Carry On content. no, i'm not just saying that. i don't know how to explain, but there was something really good for me about getting to read aspec headcanons and realising, hey, i can just... do that, if i want to. i'm living in a happy little world of my own with my demiro Simon hc now and, fuck, is it ever nice here.

13. Favourite villain of the year (oh no this is about to be so long) (had to switch to my gdocu to type all this) (i'm so sorry)

So... It’s the Mage. BUT LISTEN, I want to defend myself here ‘cause it’s not like I read Carry On and was like, “oh man I love how commendable this guy’s actions are”, like no.

My whole thing with Davy is that I like what an absurd shitbag he is. I mean, at the end of the night, he is such a deplorable motherfucker. (And okay, sure, maybe I’m a little notorious for getting puppy-eyed over an atrocious fictional bastard or two.) (I acknowledge and accept my flaws.) I don’t think he’s a good person. But I think he’s interesting, and part of the reason I ended up getting so attached to him is because I got tired of the way he was portrayed in fanfiction like he was one top hat away from tying damsels to railroad tracks. I kept expecting Dudley Do-Right to make a cameo.

I got such a chip on my shoulder about it that I started really thinking about him as a character, y’kno? And I thought about him so much, and wrote so many personal meta essays about him, and created this whole character analysis of the way he speaks, the way he thinks—every time he’d appear in a fanfic in a way I didn’t like, I’d pause from reading to write a breakdown for myself of why I felt the portrayal didn’t align with what I expected of him—and when you spend that much time with a character, y’kno, it is hard not to get a bit attached. You start to care, and have fun. I think he’s fun. In my own fanfics, I’m very confident in my portrayal of the Mage when he’s the main antagonist per canon, but I’m also not afraid of pulling out his stitches and making him into a better character for Simon’s sake because of the perspective I have of him. It’s actually really neat to explore, creatively speaking.

I get why people don’t like to think about him very hard. I don’t blame them. He hardly deserves it. And there are plenty of characters in the series that other people really like (Fiona Pitch, for example) that I don’t care for and so don’t think about much, unless I have to for a scene. But I think it’s a shame, too, ‘cause in my weirdo opinion, he's genuinely an interesting character, he’s a great villain.

When we think of nuanced characters, we usually think of morally grey ones. Of good people on the wrong side of things, or no side of things, who make selfish choices and aren't always trustworthy and don't pretend to be otherwise, but what happens when you have a character like Davy who believes in goodness, who views himself as the absolute good, but has fundamentally failed at every opportunity? Davy’s character is plagued by his sheer capacity for making bad decisions. He’s an extremist, and he’s capable of a staggering amount of cruelty. Davy Cadwallader worships at an altar of false gods and logical fallacy.

In the tags of another post, a long while ago now, I once talked about Davy and how his mind functions on a trolley-problem-system. His moral compass, his political pursuits, they are a set of tracks, and he is at a lever: if he pulls the lever to the left, he sacrifices only a few people. If he pulls the lever to the right, he sacrifices thousands. Against all odds, Davy intrinsically values the path of least resistance: to save more people than he hurts, except the problem is that he hurts readily, there is no middle ground for him, there are no other options, he believes it is necessary and doesn’t care who those “few” people are. He doesn’t care if they are his friends. He doesn’t care if they are innocent bystanders. He doesn’t care if it is his child. Afterall, it’s all for the greater good, right? 

This is how he views the entire world, he has so much bitterness in him, so much resentment, he fuels every choice, action, decision, thought by this logic, and because of that, he feels absolved of the wrongness. 

I’ve had a post in my drafts for the last few weeks that sums it up pretty good: “the thing i love about the mage and what makes him a really great villain to me is the way he has this looney tunes logic about him, you kinda have to look at him like he's animated out of nothing but smear frames. the mage views himself as ultimately and fundamentally righteous. and it's not even that he's ignorant to his own moral failures, he feels absolved of them, he truly believes everything he does is for some greater good. he's claude frollo with a robin hood complex. i fucking love his final scenes bc it's like watching a candle that's been burning for too long start to drown in its own wax.”

And n e way, yeah, that’s the story of how Davy Cadwallader is my favourite villain of the year. here’s his theme song:

19. Fandom that made an unexpected comeback

Merlin, for sure. i've been in the Merlin fandom for years, but i go through phases with it, yk?

[questions are here, ask me things!]

[arinishi]

So I was wondering if you'd mind explaining why you like tgs!lanyon as much as you do?

I've really wanted to like his character for a while but I'm struggling to see anything that I actually do like about him or signs of him actually doing anything. And I've never found myself able to really see/understand jekyll x lanyon as a ship considering the way lanyon left jekyll and the state of their future friendship. (Especially with how the latest chapters has portrayed them but honestly I haven't liked the newer chapters at all character or story wise)

I'm really not sending this to start a fight or anything I'm just really genuinely curious as to your reasonings for liking him and such

(And I normally do really like characters similar to lanyon I just don't like him for some reasons.)

Don’t worry about it, I’m happy to share ! I mean first of all you don’t necessarily have to like any character; it’s alright if you just don’t like Lanyon ! But I can share anyways ☺️

I personally relate A Lot to Lanyon, I headcanon him as autistic too, it’s just that a lot of the traits he seems to show aren’t generally seen as “good to have” (struggles with empathy, emotions, not great in social situations outside of aristocracy etc). He’s super confident and has a strong sense of justice in himself and what he believes. He struggles with empathy and understanding his own emotions and other people’s (which is Very Relatable to me and I’m really happy to see traits like that in characters that aren’t antagonists, even though the fandom Kinda dislikes him for those reasons🥲), but he has a small group of Really close friends (Jekyll, Rachel etc) that he cares Immensely for, Hell, he spends Most of chapters 6 - 10 trying to track down Hyde Just Because he thinks he might be posing a threat to Jekyll!

I think it’s really interesting how he’s written and also how he interacts with others, especially now that we’re getting more context for his upbringing and whatnot. He had some more.. questionable ways of dealing with his negative emotions and commitment/attachment issues in University, not ignoring it at all, but it’s super interesting to see how he’s come from that 15 years later.

I just think he’s Very Neat is all ☺️ You’re Absolutely free to have whatever opinion you want of him, I’m not trying to Convince you to like him! Just sharing my view on him ☺️ Have a good day man ✨

[distinguished-slacker]

Heya! So there's a thing going on about Shinoa's feelings for Yu, but I think people have misinterpreted what Mika said to Yu about her in chapter 119. So why do you think Mika said what he said in the way that he did? Do you he was annoyed at Yu? Or do you think he had a different intention or feeling? Just curious about your opinion.

Hi! :3

Oh, The Question™…Tbh I didn’t want to go into this topic when the chapter came out but I’m happy to hear that someone wants my opinion and I am always glad to answer asks❤️ Also, maybe you expected a short answer but I think that by now all the people who know me here should be aware that I write long ass posts😅 So sorry if this is too much🤧

Before starting I would like to say that my opinion on this matter is not something I am 100% confident on, and it’s rather more of a hunch that I can make if I place myself in Mika’s situation (or basically how I believe any person in Mika’s situation would feel and act) as I think we don’t have enough information on Mika’s inner self as an individual outside certain aspects of his character to make a precise assumption.

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So…this chapter starts with Yuu once again having it his way (going to the tower and fooling around) and it ends with Yuu finally including Mika and letting him design a plan. So this makes me think that the conflict of this chapter (basically why Mika acted the way he did), or rather, the motive of this chapter, is for Mika to seek for a change.

Mika is the type of person who usually keeps his feelings to himself and whenever he has an opinion to say, he is just ignored and collectively treated like a fool. It probably hurts him the most that the person who should listen to him the most is the one who listens to him the least. I think that by this point, Mika is already aware that Yuu loves him (be it romantic or platonic, Idk) but it must be innervating for him to hear how Yuu always talks about how important Mika is to him but Yuu doesn’t prove it with actions except when the situation involves saving Mika physically. When it comes to caring about Mika emotionally (in other words, taking into account what he wants), Yuu most of the time automatically puts himself and his needs first. So I think that in this chapter Mika finally hit his own limits and didn’t want to be only a follower anymore.

About what Mika said in his outburst, specifically about Yuu having had turned his back on him in the past and about Yuu having kids with Shinoa, I don’t really think Mika really meant it. For the first one, this reminds me of those cases where you are so angry that you cannot think clearly and so sometimes you say something that tbh never crossed your mind before. You want to prove a point so badly that you don’t think of the arguments you are going to use enough, and so they don’t end up making full sense. Alternatively Mika might have also said it with a clear mind but in this case I think that he was still manipulating the truth of his words. Whether it is the first scenario or the second one, I think Mika said this to push Yuu away, because he believes Yuu deserves a better life, one that focuses on the present and the future (Yuu’s squad), not the past (aka Mika).

That brings me to my second point: Shinoa. I’m not sure about what you meant about thinking people have “misinterpreted” but if the question is if I think Mika ships yu*noa then my answer is clearly ‘no’. The story hasn’t given us sufficient and good reasons as to why Mika would genuinely think Shinoa specifically would be the one for Yuu. I think he used Shinoa’s name in here because she was the obvious choice as she is visibly the person who has the strongest feelings for Yuu out of the whole squad, especially considering the recent events of chapter 118. I think that what Mika said here about what kind of future he thinks Yuu should pursue with Shinoa here is actually him (aside from wishing Yuu a better life) projecting his own desires. Be it romantic or platonic, I believe what Mika ultimately wants is for him to be the one to spend Yuu’s future with. However, in my opinion what is happening here is an inner conflict between Mika trying to make Yuu take the route that he considers to be objective (in other words, marrying a woman and having children with her, which universally is considered by society to be the “standard” familial route for a man and ultimately the way to happiness in life) and Mika also thinking about what he wants for himself, which is entirely understandable since he is human too (well he is not but you all know what I mean). He probably doesn’t think the latter one is the right path, as he is already dead while Shinoa is alive. Maybe in case he holds romantic feelings for Yuu (idk, same sex relationships, queer representation, queerbaiting, canon, fiction, etc…all that stuff is too complicated for me to believe one thing or another) the fact that he is a guy while Shinoa is a girl probably is a factor too that contributed to his words.

I would also like to mention that I found a tweet made by @/CeltDl which points out how the English version isn’t entirely loyal to the Japanese original.

In the English version Mika’s words are:

“That Shinoa girl likes you! Learn to like her back! Make a new family with her! Have kids! Smile! Live!”

Meanwhile in the original:

“You can return that Shinoa girl’s love, smile at everyone, even have a kid, live!!”

English one is more explicit whereas the Japanese one tries to include everyone too. Nevertheless both versions hold the same intention in general but I thought it was worth mentioning this information in case you might not have seen it yet.

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So to wrap things up:

Mika’s outburst is due to him finally reaching his breaking point and wanting to be heard. He wishes for Yuu to finally move on from the past, from Mika, as Mika believes this is the best for Yuu. He wants Yuu to focus on his friends and do ‘normal’ things ‘normal’ people want in life, such as having a family, instead of going through the difficult route, obsessing over a guy who is already dead and basically going against everyone. However, at the same time Mika also has his own feelings and wishes, and that’s why he is visibly struggling. Maybe I could have said this from the beginning to make it shorter but I like writing this kind of stuff😅😭

[pinkandgoldensoul]

(Some) F1 drivers as guys I’ve met in high school

: ̗̀➛ Charles Leclerc - the fattest crush of my life. literally would turn red like a traffic light anytime I saw him enter the classroom and choke on my own saliva whenever he said hi to me. Not helpful, since he’s been my historical deskmate. I honestly don’t know how I survived sitting next to such a positive, fun, confident, trustworthy and shamelessly handsome guy. Brown hair, big green eyes either sparkling with childhood mischief or pure innocence, and the most athletic guy I’ve ever seen in real life (he’s a sportsman). Definitely had any girl lying at his feet - and he was extremely aware of it - but only cared about his girlfriend and never bragged about his charm. Humble af despite his family being quite wealthy and him being such a nice person. I’ve involuntarily been his point of reference for anything school-related and he’d blindly trust me, which always made my heart melt. He’s the type of guy you need to send a “let me just screenshot this so that I discuss it with my bff-lawyer before replying” text when you see a notification from him. And he’s also the one you look from afar, contemplating his senseless perfection. “I’m so lucky to live in the same historical and geological era” “I don’t know if I’m worthy of him” kind of vibe.

: ̗̀➛ Carlos Sainz - a unique type of nerd. At the beginning he deliberately ignored me. Then he started slowly talking to me about things he really enjoyed and, seeing I was okay with it, he began showing me books he liked, getting all excited in passionate perorations, lending them to me and demanding I’d give him my piece of mind. Also bought and gifted me for Christmas  the copy of a novel he was reading ‘cause he thought I’d be interested (the weirdest and most awkward gift-receiving experience of my whole life. I’m not doing it again). Really liked to push all my buttons to see my reaction (but I ultimately gave him a lifetime lesson) and had a few banters. Don’t think we were really that compatible, he was too opinionated for me, but most of the times I enjoyed having conversations with him. Friendly jokes and benevolent banters with Charles; he’s been class representative for five years, once together with Max.

: ̗̀➛ Max Verstappen - the lonely, misunderstood genius. Didn’t give a crap about school and spent his free time riding motorbikes and getting hands dirty with engine oil. Everybody knew he was original (he had a lot of other hobbies and interests) and all my teachers always felt challenged by his way of thinking. Not afraid to speak up, at all. We’d never talked in five years, but during the dinner we had with all the professors before our finals, completely drunk, he sat next to me and started asking me things about my life. He seemed genuinely interested in what I had to say, but I think he struggled following the conversation since I had to repeat myself at times (he didn’t even hear a tipsy friend of his calling his name twice. “UH?! What?!”). It’s one of the deepest conversations I’ve had in my life. I think in another life we would’ve been good friends, at least. Elected class representative and we still don’t know how but ngl, it didn’t feel that wrong because we’ve always known he’s got that… plus.

: ̗̀➛ Lewis Hamilton - the dreamer. Not very focused on studying, but chased his dream of becoming a dancer like crazy. He was insanely good - like, national level - and skipped a lot of school days to attend competitions. Pretty energetic, confident, mr brightside; always blasting music through his wireless speaker whenever we got out and vibing. If he knew you had a dream, a passion or a special hobby, he’d push you and encourage you as much as possible. Incredible motivator and coach. S t y l i s h     a s     h e c k . Could rock anything but chose to beat us all every single day. Really good friend of Charles. Actually chatted with everybody, but wasn’t really that close with a lot of people.

: ̗̀➛ Alex Albon - the surprising kid. A mediocre student throughout the years, but actually a math and physics enthusiast and genius. He started to show signs of his abilities only in the last year and a half. The only one actually knowing what he was doing with formulas lmaooo Surely wasted in the type of high school I was in* and he acknowledged making the wrong decision, but he didn’t know back at the time he liked physics that much. One of the most chilled out and laid back people I’ve met, really pleasant to talk to. Would often find ourselves in bad situations and look at each other as to say: “It’s a mess, but nothing I hadn’t expected to happen anyway”. The defeated-but-we-already-knew-when-we-started resigned duo. * we mainly studied humanities. We also had physics and chemistry classes, but there are other types of high school more “science” oriented, which would’ve been way more suitable for his skills. #badchoices

: ̗̀➛ Valtteri Bottas - i haven’t figured him out. Like, he was pretty basic and easy to talk to, but had so many hidden interests. Currently studying aerospace engineering. Part-time cosplayer. His instagram posts have descriptions we’re still trying to decipher. Sometimes perceived as a low-key genius, others acting like a fool. I honestly don’t know what to think of him, he just confused me a lot lol.

: ̗̀➛ Bonus: Mick Schumacher - first love. From another class, but the same high school. A bit reserved at first, but the ultimate sweetheart. Thoughtful, polite, calm, soft-spoken, kind, just- you get it. Awkward hugs, talking on a bench for three hours as a first “date” and arguing about who’s going to pay for breakfast (‘cause I couldn’t accept him being the one to pay, like, we were just friends). That was the first time I felt the need to shower someone with love without caring about being reciprocated, at all. I’ve been in the friendzone - voluntarily - for 3 years only to get to know from a shared friend that he had got together with a girl four months prior but didn’t want/ didn’t know how to tell me. To this day he doesn’t know a thing. Not in love with him anymore, but unknowingly gave me the best thing I’ve ever felt. 

[themovieblogonline]

Avneet Kaur Exclusive Interview: Dreams, Cannes, and Bold Roles

In our Avneet Kaur Exclusive Interview, we dive into the vibrant life of the young actress who’s taking the entertainment industry by storm. The stunning actress dishes on her rollercoaster ride to success, from Bollywood aspirations to conquering Cannes for her new movie Luv Ki Arrange Marriage.  With her dazzling smile and unstoppable drive, Avneet shares her thoughts and is clear about her career goals. She dreams of transitioning into Bollywood but isn't limiting herself. "I want to experiment with web series and OTT films," she says. Her love for digital platforms shows her versatile approach to acting. Avneet’s enthusiasm for trying new things keeps her fans on their toes. Can you tell us about your plans for transitioning into Bollywood and your thoughts on web series? Avneet Kaur: So, yes, I do want to transition into Bollywood eventually, but I would love to experiment as well when it comes to web series. I love OTT, so I don't entirely want to go in a certain way. I want to experiment with web shows or maybe web movies also, OTT films as well. So, yeah. How was your experience at Cannes? Avneet Kaur: It was magical. I think I was very nervous when I got the news and I didn't really know what I wanted to do. I definitely wanted to go to Cannes, but I did not know if I should go to represent a brand if I get this opportunity in my future. I thought that this is going to happen after like 10 years or something when I've actually established myself and I go for a film. I had so many questions in my mind. But when I got this opportunity to release the poster of our film called Love in Vietnam in Cannes, that was a huge opportunity for me. I was the youngest Indian actress to walk the red carpet at Cannes. It was unreal. I feel really proud that I got to represent my country there at such a global platform. Tell us about your character Ishika. Avneet Kaur: Oh, absolutely. I love her. Her name is Ishika and she is so confident. She is a powerhouse herself. She is outspoken and doesn’t care about other people's opinions. She does what she loves and protects her family. She takes care of her mother and I love that about her. Personally, I'm really different from her, and I love experimenting with my roles and looks. I wanted to do a character this bold and strong in my career. So, when I got this opportunity, I said yes immediately. Do you prefer playing strong characters, or is it just a coincidence? Avneet Kaur: It’s not an intentional choice. I said I really like experimenting but it just happens. Maybe I have such a strong personality that people like giving me roles in that certain genre, but yeah, I enjoy them. I love being a part of roles like that. How was it working with Sunny? Avneet Kaur: So, I think the fact that Sunny is also a Punjabi, like me, helped us relate. We had a blast while shooting. The first few moments were a bit awkward since we didn’t know each other, but I was very excited. I had seen his work in the past and he’s done amazing films. I wanted to work with him for a long time. We connected quickly because we could talk in our own language and share funny little jokes. We became really good friends in two or three days. Personally, he’s a really honest, genuine, and sweet person. I’m glad I got to build such relationships while shooting, with people like Anu Kapoor Sir and Supriya Mam too. They are amazing and so genuine. What has been your biggest challenge in the industry? Avneet Kaur: The biggest challenge was coming into this industry because I do not have any personal connections here. I belong to a small city in Punjab called Jalandhar. My family has been doctors and teachers. They wanted me to get into their field, but I told them that acting is something I’d like to pursue. The challenge of moving from Jalandhar to Mumbai, the city of dreams, was significant. The struggle to enter this industry was tough, but now I feel proud and great that I can say I’m an established actor and I’m doing well for myself. How do you balance your personal and professional life? Avneet Kaur: Personally, I’ve always balanced these two things well. Even in my school years, I remember going to school and shooting at the same time. I used to get some breaks to go to school, give my exams, and then come back to the set and shoot again. This was routine for me, and it made me experience a lot from a young age. So now, I get time, or if I don’t, I make time for both. How do you handle negativity on social media? Avneet Kaur: I’ve seen and experienced negativity for a long time. You cannot tell people to be positive all the time, right? There is always going to be negativity. You cannot change everyone’s opinion. I love it when my fans support me, and they’ve shown so much love over the years. But when unnecessary negativity pops up, I just try to avoid it. I do not have the time to reply to every negative comment, so I choose to ignore them. Can you tell us about your upcoming projects? Avneet Kaur: Yes, absolutely. We launched the poster of my next film, Love in Vietnam, at Cannes. We’re going to start shooting in Vietnam, and the film will release next year, mostly at Cannes. Fingers crossed for that. There’s also a series coming up, which I’m really excited about. It’s a mystery, murder series, all gory stuff. I love experimenting with my roles and stories, so I’m looking forward to it. Thank you for your time, Avneet. Avneet Kaur: Thank you so much, Anthony. Nice to meet you. Avneet Kaur's journey is nothing short of inspiring. From dreaming big in Bollywood to walking the red carpet at Cannes, she proves that hard work and determination pay off. In this Avneet Kaur Exclusive Interview, her passion for acting and love for her fans shine through.  Avneet is gearing up to shoot her next film, "Love in Vietnam," in Vietnam, with a planned release at the prestigious Cannes Film Festival. She also has a mysterious and thrilling murder-themed web series on the horizon. We can't wait to see what Avneet does next! Read the full article

[trulygracious]

I’m sad and I have no one to talk to. I’m really sad and I have no one to talk to. You know, it always ends like this. I always feel like I’m invisible to the people who are around me and no one is ever going to understand what it is about me that I actually consider important or anything. I feel like I don’t exist if other people don’t have opinions about me, and what their opinions are, even if they’re something in the back of my mind, are important. No one has given me love for being smart, or affection, or anything, not unless it was in some stupid jerk-off sort of way. I just want to die. I genuinely do not want to be alive if all I can feel is this just… pain. You know, it’s constant. I want people to have opinions about me that are good. Confidence. Someone who I know could get it and be like, yeah, you know Marco? I do get it. And I have confidence that you’re doing something important. You know, someone on my side who can, more specifically look at everything I’m doing and have a genuinely mature or detailed or thoughtful opinion about the things that I’m doing or can even think about them. No one can tell me what to do. I dunno. I dunno why I wanna just be told what to do all the time. I don’t really want to. I don’t know. If I go out there into the world and reach for what I want I won’t just not get it; I’m never going to get what I actually want and I’m actually going to be speeding myself away from what I actually want, which is organized love and affection and just respect from the people who are around me. I don’t think they could offer it to me; they’re too uncomplicated for that. But I also want it so bad, more than anything. If I don’t have that I have nothing. It is getting cold, and dark, and I am alone here, with nothing but wanting everything but warmth and light are not an option. Just walking forward and a lack of competence. I don’t know. You know, I could do so much for the people who are around me. I’ve always wanted to do that; go forward with a direction I really trust and respect that someone built up out of some confident, competent direction and I could not be scared of life and make some beautiful things because I’m doing my best job and know exactly what I’m doing all the time. But in that place of exacting detail and divulging enterprise I could be recognized for doing or coming up with all of the things I could come up with; people could be kind, respectful, conjunctive and really know what the hell is going on and know that I can come up with things. But no one can hold my hand for these things which are so beyond me that I cannot portray my expertise over them anymore. I want to explore with a guided hand, a mouth over my eyes which could explain to me what exactly is occurring or going on and what and how and why. I am a greater part of the Earth than people could know. I wish it was simpler than to discover everything myself and get myself killed. I wish I wasn’t someone anyone could marvel at. I want to go outside and never interact with anyone in the water I would have to interact with them ever. Life loses its meaning when you are compromising against all odds, like a fool. Less of me for more of them. I would like to give them nothing until they could give me everything from the world, and then some. I guess that explains why some people are so distraught for me; I want them to act in a certain way that they cannot that actually makes me not just insanely dissatisfied but ridiculously dispossessed from the people who are around me. I could look at these things around me and know I could do great things. That makes me very unhappy, because no one would care. I want someone to care about the things I offer to other people in a mature and competent way; something with an end goal. End me, please. That’s what I’ve always wanted. What am I supposed to do if no one ever actually gets it? The simplicity of the world violates my mind. I am incompetently capable of dealing with this problem. For that I will ____ myself. Just kidding, no I won’t. I’ll just sit here and suffer forever an

d ever and ever and ever and ever and ever like some weird little mollusk in the side of your ocean view. The world cannot cure me of my illnesses, I think. But I want to just have a proper relationship, with anyone; I so desperately want to connect with someone so badly. Just, please, anybody, anyone, please. Give me what little you can. I am a man of no expertise in any of the fields I’m exploring; I just want to perform and do my best and be needed where I am needed. Where I am wanted does not matter to anyone. But, I also want to sacrifice myself to other people, I guess; I would be super comfortable with that but no one has ever actually told me what I should be doing with myself. I’m not that independent, and neither is my brother; I see a lot of my repetition, my naivety and hesitancy and poor due diligence in the things that I want to do, and I’m doing everything quite wrong. I would like it a lot if that were not the case but it’s true. And this leads me to believe that the things that are wrong with me are not just wrong with me, but they’re wrong with my brother, too. This incestuous taste of life. The taste of nothing good but everything wrong with me. I would like it a lot if I could just be the kind of man people could look up to, and I was encouraged to divulge in and explore my ideas or thoughts or propositions with not such a ridiculous amount of resistance and deposition; I am reorganizing everything people are explaining to me in my head, against my better judgement or better good; but it is simply the kind of person that I am when I explain the things that I do to other people. I would like very dearly if that were not the case. I think one of the worst things about being alive currently is that there just isn’t anyone who can interpret or intricately digest the things I have to explain to other people. I don’t want anyone to veraciously have already categorized my ideas and if they have, would be willing to recategorize them in a more detailed or intricate sense. I would hate a parent or a father or a mother who would like to shove their “competent or confident” intuitions down my stomach and past my throat, for this would be more than terrible for me. I would like it a lot if people could just be totally honest to me and detail exactly what’s going through my head and why, and mot be so hesitant around emotions or regarding the fact I’m so unlike them. Why am I so unlike you people? God, that just destroys me. God, if you’re out there, please, send me someone real, who is alive, to look at me and realize things about me and just listen. Please, for one second. Please. Please. Please. Life is so hard for me, God. My consciousness tortures me like no one else. I would like to be set free of this ailment, but not in a scary violent way. I would like to be cured of my diseases and alleviations and be whole again. I want to be a good person, God. And take care of myself. You know, it’s not that I don’t want to take care of myself. It’s that I don’t want to do it under the constant guide or guise of other people and/or their attention. I want other people to be less attentive to me, and I guess part of my solution to that is that other people aren’t going to see the real me until they realize I’m not really supposed to be watched or given attention to; it’s one of those things my dad is really bad at and does jot realize. I do not want to be under his guidance anymore. I don’t want him to sit there and watch me like a hawk, constantly, without limitations. Say anything and everything about anything I do and constantly make assumptions about everything I’m doing. I would like him to stop talking about me to other people. I don’t want other people who I cannot predict making opinions about me based on my dad’s stupid thoughts about me. I just want someone who cares about the things I think and won’t just delegate me to some stupid idea or example because my dad said it out loud. I wish he wouldn’t simplify and decomplicate everything I say like some kind of fervish asshole. He does this in a way that’s so e

asy, simple, and easy to digest and disprove that I don’t understand why he doesn’t just listen to me. Why he doesn’t just take what I say seriously and disallude himself and actually learn properly, competently, how to do things in a much better and more interment way. I would love that so much but he just doesn’t understand, or can’t get it, or want that and won’t get it but it’s so god damn converse either way for me. I just want him to love me and to treat me with kindness and respect so I could relax for once. One time. He’s never really been able to offer that to me. But when he says anything to me it affects me so much because he’s got so much to say and so many things to think and he just bothers me so much because he never knows. He never learns. And you know, I offer him so much in terms of my language and literature or ideas but he doesn’t listen, ever. I don’t know if it’s him refusing to take my ideas at base. I think he’s just not capable of organizing himself or expressing himself in more complex or detailed manners. What should occur is that he explores the world and details things out in a nice way and when things change he can change quite competently and in an intentional and detailed kind of way. But I think to him it’s extremely expensive to change the kinds of things I’m asking him to change constantly, all the time. The price for the expenditure of his competence is extremely high. To turn something into a new idea is so much for him that it’s extremely hard for him to change or come up with new things in a salutary or sensitive way, and he needs more simplified but sophisticated rules and/or ideas or etc so he can break down what he wants into physical parts that work and address his concerns. He’s maniacally simple in that way, but quite complex and fast and deep and mysterious and not really willing to open himself up unless he’s begged to by his knees. I hate him. I’m not going to beg to you, you stupid fucking bitch. ____ yourself. Well, don’t actually ____ yourself, I’m just mad, sorry. Everything hurts and I’m tired and do not want to be alive, you know? Bleh. Bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh. Blegh. Anyways, I guess his ability to change is just very simple. But he’s hurt me in so many ways because he refuses to even open himself up to the idea that I’m competent- very competent- and can be successful in so many god damn ways. He just doesn’t get it. And I want to just stop giving him chances but I don’t know how. I want to fix him, so he stops doing everything incorrectly and disorienting everything that I think about in such a way that I’m lacking, seriously lacking, and details are gone and mysterious in such a tensile way that I’m not even here or being myself. I’m not ever here or being myself, because when he’s here he’s always hurt me so it fucks me up or somebody else needs something and he has all of these crude of faux opinions. I would like it if he didn’t have those opinions and could just handle being my dad and some level of competency could come about like roses in a grass bud. (the joke is that that’s very cheesy) You know what else is cheesy? I can’t stop listening to him and I don’t know why. When my dad says something I understand it and it bothers the absolutely shit out of me because part of me just wants to believe him (because of habits I’ve developed) and part of me just hates him because of how he is as a person, and like, those two things can’t mix. I can’t just distraughtly hate everything he does, because if I was to tear him down it would go nowhere- as if it’s ever gone anywhere- and next thing you know, poof, he’s just wild and lost again and out of my control. There needs to be some way to fix this because he makes me madly uncomfortable and distrustworthy but I don’t know what that would be. Life is quite difficult because of this. When he’s around me I get extremely distrustful and angry and fake, false and possessive. I do not trust him very greatly but if I was adamant about this I would be frustrated and angry and fighting with him all the time. And then I would

just leave because he doesn’t understand that one day, I’ll need him to be competent, or he’ll completely fail me, but that never helps. I guess I am just some sort of a machine to him. The death of my mother stroked him like the grip of death. He got hurt by my mother a lot. Not just in his passing but in his dispossession to do anything complex or competent about it. It’s quite weird that this is me and this is me in my body. I’m kind of completely dissociated with a lot of the things that happened around that time. It just never quite connected with me because of on top of all of the complex thoughts I was having there was my dad, also making complex thoughts and trying to fix or make up for the fact my mom died. I didn’t actually feel anything or even care about my mom dying in the moment. And you know… I don’t know what to make of that. I never really knew what to make of it. I knew it was coming. It hit me and I cried because it felt like the right thing to do. And I didn’t know what to do or how to do it or why. I was so confused at the time by this. And then there was all the faux reaction from everybody else in my life. I can’t believe, this girl Novali, told me that, as the very first thing she knew about me when I asked her the question, was my mom dying. Now, I don’t mean to pose that as a pharmacologically suited question but like as in order she told me firstly that my mom had died, my dad lost his leg and my brother was quite autistic. Wow. Okay, cool, thanks. That’s what you know about me? How on earth does any of that make any god damn sense? Why do you know these facts about me? And I’m still so god damn confused about it. Like, how? Whyyyy? That’s what you god damn know about me? Is that what everyone god damn knows about me? Jesus fucking christ, that’s disorienting as balls. We haven’t talked to each other in about 8 fucking years and that’s the thing you bring up to me? Not that it’s wrong. It’s just very shocking to me that you can even conclude that that’s what’s up with me. Like, holy fucking shit. God DAMN, man. Fuck. I don’t want to have these kinds of conversations with other people where I have to bring things up to them that are outside my scope of pharmacological research and reasoning, and such that I’ll need to come up with stuff on the spot to just even barely approach the subject of… my mother dying, my father losing his leg and my brother being autistic, all in one go and in such a way that it won’t activate other people’s habits of being disapproving and bringing other people in like, and actually not bother the shit out of them and make them talk to me like, you know, ohhhhh, you can’t do that Marco, you can’t do that Mint, ohhhh you’ve got to figure yourself out and detail yourself in such a way that you’re confident and successful and yadda yadda yadda- fuck you, that’s what I think about you. Fuck you stupid fucking bitches who think that or apologize to me. I’m so done with people like you that I can hardly even think to come in contact with you, confidently or elegantly or partially even physically because the last time I sat here you’d sit there and waste my time and energy and money and happiness and now you’re sitting here again wasting my time and energy and happiness AGAIN so you know what? I’m done with you and your stupid humbly hosy rosies-and-posies bullshit fucking storytelling negative-head-assholery bullshit. Fuck those fucking people, man. God. My fingers hurt and I can barely even keep typing, even though I’ve got a lot more to say. Fuck me, man. Fuck. God fuckin damnit.

Feb 22 2024

[obervation-subject-753]

(dec 5, 2023) uhhh first rant/venting post on this blog, if you don’t want to hear me rambling about my personal problems, block/don’t look through my tag ‘#subject-753’s scribbles’

so idk if i’m depressed. i’m pretty sure it’s because i don’t have much of a social life.

i realized around end of high school that the only friends i ever had were from school.

up to this day, besides relatives i suppose, i can’t even semi-confidently say that i have one friend. rather, irl friend..like, i know much about them and vice-versa. i haven’t talked with them in months.

i’m not blaming either of my parents for the next blurb i’ll vom out

recently (almost a month later) my mom had a stroke, and she’s home now, recovering well.

i’m the only person that can take care of her basically 24/7. i love my family. i love my mom dad and sibling. i can’t blame any of them for me questioning if i’m in a not-so-great mental state rn

but soon, i’ll be the only person that can stay home with her (my dad will go back to work in a few weeks)

i love my mom and i’ll never blame her for me feeling this way.

i don’t know if it’s because i don’t have much drive for anything (really is a big part of it honestly) or i’m an introvert (not anti-social, just difficult for me to socialize with people i don’t know well)

i just…feel so alone. i know i have a loving and supporting family..but idk if they will be as supporting if i try to explain to them more of the lgbtqia+ community that i’m a part of, bc most of my immediate family are rather ignorant or intolerant of trans, and most likely gay people too.

i. i like to think i’m an honest person. i’m really not. only when i’m alone with myself i say my true opinions and feelings. especially when i’m crying alone in my bed at night, most likely quietly bc i still live with my parents and sibling. i do that too often.

all that accumulates, and makes me not like myself. maybe even not love myself. most likely the latter.

i want to be better, for myself and others..but living and life is just so hard. most likely because i’m not trying enough bc i think i don’t deserve it or i don’t think a world like this is worth living in.

no i never attempted to harm myself, but i have thought of what possible painless ways to go.

yeah i’ve been thinking about all this for a few (7/8? years?) years…and i really don’t know if i can ever stop quietly cry in my room or feel comfortable enough to tell my close and loved ones that i feel and think this way.

fandoms i’m in help me cope, but also heavily reminds me of my personal problems. a double-edged sword if you will.

i confide in fictional characters for comfort. that’s just sad. i know they’re all fake and i’ll never be able to truly get to know them like i want to. they’re all fake. not in the reality i live in.

the reason why i’m only now making these feelings and thoughts of mine known, i think is because now i have even less of a chance to tell someone close to me. my family’s going though a hard time adjusting and dealing with the recent event with my mom, and i need to stay relatively strong for them. but i do know that we care about the well-being of each other.

i really want to have a genuine, not forced, relationship with someone. i really don’t want to burden my family with what i’m going through. tumblr and games and fanfiction have been such a break for me from my real life. not to say that social media and entertainment don’t bring up real life problems and how to deal/solve them, some thankfully successfully do, but there’s only so much we can do.

life can easily be cut short. i don’t want to live like i’m trudging though the mud, nor do i want to life completely carelessly…i’d like to live a nice life where i helped people.

especially a life where i somewhat helped myself.

[haikyustanaccount]

Taylor Swift (again)

My opinion changed enough that I’m running it back! Honestly, I’ve just had enough time with each album that I really feel like I can make a confident statement about all of them. 10. Taylor Swift: 7/10. Sooo sweet. This album is just really sweet and even this early in her career her eye for lyrical specificity and chorus catchiness is amazing. Even with that though, the youth blinders are on pretty hard and its the hardest to ignore it on this one. I think the best song is maybe Our Song or maybe Mary’s Song it could even be I’m Only Me When I’m With You. There’s a lot of choices.

9. Fearless (Taylor’s Version): 8/10. Exactly the same except the youth blinders have lowered a lot. They’re still visibly there, but the improvements are massive. Her lyrical ability is only going up and the songs just straight up sound better and more unique. I think my favorites are probably Hey Stephen or The Way I Loved You. I just like the way they sound.

8. Midnights: 8/10. I feel really bad for this one. I really wanted to like this one. I organized a listening party with a bunch of snacks, drinks, and over 20 people in a massive room and it was actually really fun. Even with all those great memories this album just isn’t much to latch onto. Lavendar Haze and Sweet Nothings are really the only songs I’ve continued to listen to. Although Karma is kinda great too.

7. Speak Now: 9/10. ooooooo dam this ones good!! I’m honestly kinda upset with myself cause I couldn’t click with this one as much as I can with the others above it. The songs all smack and they all are surprisingly unique. Just looking through the tracklist I remembered how every song went even though its been years since I listened to it. My faves are maybe Haunted and Enchanted.

6. reputation: 9/10. Now this one was one of the first albums to reallllly grow on me. To the point that several other albums grew on me more, but I still love this album. It’s kind of a beautiful madness and in the right mood nothing feels better than this album. Faves are I Did Something Bad and Getaway Car.

5. Red (Taylor’s Version): 10/10 Oh how times change, this used to be my top and now its fifth. Even though its literally still a 10. Yeah this one’s amazing, it soundtracked such an important period of my life and it still remains one of my favorite albums of all time. Faves are my namesake Starlight and Stay Stay Stay. 4. Folklore: 10/10 AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA i realy like this one. Its just so simply perfect. Everyone takes this one to death, but yeah the instrumentals are beuatiful and Taylor’s best lyrics make for a damn good album. The bonus track is even amazing. Now my favorites on this one slides around constantly, but seven is always amazing, illicit affairs and invisible string have been growing on me, and like i mentioned the lakes is amazing too.

3. 1989: 10/10 I recently had my 1989 era and it was super slay and sad. So I am contractually obligated this album up pretty high. Also important disclaimer that I am referring to the deluxe album since all the bonus tracks are bangers! This album has a pretty similar album arc to reputation just with different genres and the layers slowly pealing back to reveal a love story. Whether falling in or out of love, but love is a primary focus of both. faves are definitely clean and wonderland those songs mean everything to me.

2. evermore: 10/10 I don’t think any album has grown on me as much as this one. It just means so much to me and every song is kinda perfect. It basically takes all the things from folklore but change the setting to a lonely cabin in the woods and you’ve got it. Each song feels so slow, methodical, and careful. It’s her most beautiful album. fave songs are marjorie, closure, cowboy like me, and ivy.

1. Lover: 10/10 Shut up I like being happy. I don’t care if other people think other albums are better this album is the most emotionally mature she’s ever made. It feels like healing, thriving, and genuine happiness in a way none of her other albums do. It just makes me happy to listen to. I don’t love every song, but I believe that she does and that’s more important. faves are Death by a Thousand Cuts, Cornelia Street, Afterglow and the Archer.

[thedancefloorsilly]

Hey congrats on your 300 followers!! I’ve been around for a while now and I still live your writing and wanted to participate in the event you have rn.

Pronouns- she/her

Personality- (INTP) I’m a pretty introverted person and I naturally talk quietly. I’m not shy tho I just keep to myself. I’m a perfectionist and like learning. I’m also really confident in myself and genuinely don’t care about the opinions of other people (it’s my favorite quality) I’m also really ambitious and like getting what I want.

Appearance- I’m 5’1. I stopped growing in middle school :(. And I’m also Latina so i have brown skin and really long hair it’s black and wavy and thick (low key my favorite thing about me). I tend to obsess over the way I look, I’m not insecure but I’m an extreme perfectionist and it helps me feel put together so I always make sure I look clean.

Likes- anything sweet. I have an actual sugar addiction. My doctor is concerned 😀. It’s the one things that never fails to make me feel good.

Dislikes- anyone trying to control me. Things not going the way I want it to. Being unprepared. Tomatoes.

Hobbies- I’ve been doing gymnastics from a young age so that’s definitely my favorite hobby. But I also really like just reading books while listing to music.

HxH F/o- Feitan and Machi, separately.

Thanks 💖

Tysm!! Omg glad you stuck around for so long and ty :)) hope u like these ;D

Event post: here

Feitan

- You and Feitan both share the similarities of often keeping to yourself. Maybe at first it might’ve been a little hard in trying to branch out to each other. Then again, there was probably this mutual interest that you and Feitan first felt with one another. He kept a close eye on you as you did interest him at first. Sooner or later, you actually ended up getting to know each other, and boom! A great connection between you guys formed. 

- Even though he might not show it, Feitan is actually a big sweet tooth for chocolate! To hear that you’re an even bigger sweet tooth as well is also good news to him. If you ever go to a candy shop, I can imagine that you probably come out with a whole bag full of sweets (plus another whole bag that Feitan secretly stole). 

- Once you get home, it’s not surprising that you’ll just eat all your candy right away (assuming that you didn’t eat any on the drive home). You guys will just be chilling on the couch together, quietly watching a movie or a random show you like, while eating all the stuff you got from the store. I mean, what’s better than spending time with your love while also eating a bunch of good stuff?? Literally none of you guys want to share it either. 

- Feitan usually prefers being organized, and with that being said, he’ll help you if you’re ever unprepared with anything.

- Knowing that you love to read books, he’ll always gift you with something new that he thinks you might like. Seeing the summary from the previous books you’ve read, Feitan already has an idea of the type of books you like to read. Maybe when you’re done with them, he’ll also take a look and start reading the books himself. There are times where y’all also love to read together. These moments are usually very silent, but the quality time is something that Feitan definitely appreciates. He just loves spending these calm, quiet moments with you!!

- Despite not really caring about appearances, Feitan enjoys the fact that you guys are the same height! It’s another thing you both have in common, and plus it’s also easy to give you kisses. One of his favorite place to kiss you is actually on your forehead!! Feitan will come up close to you, pull down his cowl, and then just shyly plant a kiss in the middle of your head :)

Machi

- One thing Machi loves about you is the fact that you’re confident in yourself. She always enjoys how whenever she gives you a compliment, you just take them with pride! Plus, you’re both on the same boat with the fact that you don’t care about other people’s opinions. Machi could care less about what people have to say about her. Knowing that y’all feel the same way just makes you and her a badass, headstrong couple.

- She’s not going to think tooo much of your sugar addiction. Sure, Machi might ask like one or two questions about it, but once she here's that it makes you happy, she’ll just then shrug it off (and then maybe join you in your candy eating. 

- With your perfectionism directed toward how you look and to feel clean, it might take you a little longer to get ready. You and Machi are opposites when it comes to this (since she gets ready relatively fast). Even though she sometimes jokes around for you to get ready faster, the end result is ALWAYS worth it when she see’s you! The way you just always end up looking so nice and pretty makes her all blush-y. Even though Machi will act all nonchalant and just give you one simple compliment (”Oh wow, you look nice”), in reality, she’s trying her best to contain her blush and not stare!!

- Machi loves your hair just as much as you do! I can imagine you guys just cuddling on the couch (you laying on top of her as she holds you), while Machi just plays and twirls the wavy tresses of your hair around her finger. It’s just so relaxing to the both of you, and the way she plays with your hair so soothingly can honestly just put you to sleep.

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what catches their eyes/attracts them?; mcyt x reader

+ this is in no way factual information, only my very weird and specific opinions :)

dream:

free-spirited people

someone who isn't afraid to speak their mind

confidence, to a certain extent

someone he can be loud with

someone who will wake up in the middle of the night with him to go on a car drive to nowhere

the colour blue (dnf👀)

clean and fresh-looking clothes

satin fabric

big height difference

the smell of citrus fruits

large smiles

silver jewellery

small hands

smart people who aren't afraid to show it

george:

calm, laid back people

someone quiet, but still able to have a laugh

very friendly vibes - even when first meeting them

the colour blue (literally the only interesting colour he's able to see lol)

bright eyes

lip gloss

flower print

slightly shy people who are actually easy to interact with once you start a conversation with them

pastel-coloured nails, not too long

pink-tinted lips

ponytails

the smell of vanilla

puppy eyes

sapnap:

energetic people

someone who can hype up their friends no matter the situation

the colour red

like, a bloody red

soft skin

full lips

loose shirts over skin-tight tops

when shoelaces have a different colour on each shoe

corsets

a very subtle scent of perfume

thigh highs

someone who just wants to enjoy life with the people they're surrounded by

badboyhalo:

large, bright smiles that spread up to your eyes

freckles

button noses

rose-gold jewellery

french manicures

bangs

slightly shy people

genuinely sweet people

not the fake type that talks shit about people behind their backs and then will compliment them a few seconds after

someone who when they enter a room feels like a breath of fresh air to everyone else

someone completely selfless

the smell of lavender

shiny hair

technoblade:

people who aren't afraid to take the lead

glasses

intellectual people

like, for example people who know a lot of random stuff from a bunch of different things that they're interested in

or also just book smart people

slightly clumsy people (finds it cute)

gold jewellery

someone with some mystery to them

refreshing scents, like clean laundry or shampoo

cat eyes (eyeliner)

wilbur soot:

long legs

chokers

shy people

someone who gets flustered easily

glasses + thin bangs

the colours brown and beige together

baggy, comfy clothes

the smell of newly baked cookies

beanies

the kind of person that makes him feel like he can always talk to them - someone he can feel safe with

birth marks

accents

jschlatt:

smart people

the way they speak is just so clean without even noticing

fox eyes

people who aren't afraid to wear sweatpants in public

generally just someone who isn't afraid to do, say and wear whatever they want

someone who stands for what they think and have the balls to say it when needed

nose rings

simple yet flattering pieces of jewellery

long nails

someone who he can stay up all night with and never get tired of them

high heels

hip dips

corpse husband:

fishnets, of course

someone who give 0 fucks about what everyone else thinks of them

unique people

wether that be physical features or straight up the personality, it draws him in

chokers

chunky, black sneakers or boots

someone who can make him happy without even trying

a positive aura for the most part

as in he doesn't want to be surrounded by someone who’s negative or dragging everyone else down with them

the colour yellow

rings - lots of them

karl jacobs:

a walking ray of sunshine, basically

tbh, karl has a couple of things in common with what corpse is attracted to;

positive energy, uniqueness and rings

a palette filled with bright colours

like, almost rave style colours

that could be clothes, makeup, hair, nails, accessories

chunky, white shoes

selfless people

someone who as each day goes by becomes more charming to him

he likes the smell of candles from bath and body works, as we all know

the colour purple

skeppy:

big eyes

someone who’s able to make him laugh without even trying

tooth gaps

someone who has very playful, innocent vibes to them

and someone who can take jokes and pranks

people who walk confidently

the smell of strawberries

long eyelashes

someone who collects things others usually wouldn’t

someone who is very respectful to others

a mix between really comfy clothes and really feminine clothes

fundy:

someone who comes across as “different” than others

and don't you dare think of ✨I’m not like other girls✨ (I know you did -_-)

he just thinks people who think and act very different than others are very interesting

beauty marks

nicely shaped eyebrows

someone who finds mystical things interesting

fox eyeliner (yes, I put this in here because: furry)

someone who has unusual, yet surprisingly good taste in music

people who are constantly warm

red lips

the colour light brown, almost beige-like

quackity:

someone who gets his humour

someone like him, but more quiet and slightly shy

especially when on screen in front of an audience

sliver necklaces

the smell of flowers

dark, extreme eyeliner

loose clothes

freckles

piercings

someone who teases others and who can handle to be teased by others

the colour dark blue

punz:

the colour grey

a fresh fashion sense

yet still very comfortable fits

messy buns

someone who he just knows will be a cool person before he even talks to them

someone who just has that kinda vibe, y’know?

glossy lips

independent people

someone responsible and caring to others

tattoos

navel piercings

awesamdude:

cropped jackets

the colour neon green

hair put up in a bun

someone with a free nature

someone who is a complete wild card

like, someone who will jump over a fence just to get closer to a bunny they think they saw on the other side of it

loose strands of hair

clear nail polish

cargo pants

the smell of chocolate

slimecicle:

people who have comfort items

someone who knows random facts that no one else usually knows

people who have a unique way of thinking

passionate people

and when they talk about what they’re passionate about, they talk for hours

shorter hair

sweet and nutty scents

natural beauty

fluffy hair

honest people

but not brutally honest

the smell of coconut

eret:

eye glitter/shimmer

silky clothes that shine in the moonlight

platform boots/heels

long, flowy dresses

someone who does whatever they want

and who doesn't like being told what to do by others

the colours pink and dark purple

the smell of the ocean

someone who already knows how to live their life

stretch marks

foolish:

low-cut jeans

someone very silly who knows how to have a good laugh

someone very supportive of their friends

curtain bangs

long-sleeved sweatshirts

someone who loves food

puppy eyes

straight, white teeth

someone who is willing to help others in need

someone who doesn't talk badly about others behind their back

someone who knows what they want

jack manifold:

confidence

white, wide-legged pants

the colour light blue or just pure white

people who are very easy-going and fun to be around

someone who can fit into and understand anyones humour

an open-minded person who likes to hear from other people’s point of views when they have a different opinion than them

butterfly patterns

crop tops

oversized t-shirts

hair beads

tommy:

people who are just as loud as him

and at the same time knows when to be serious

the colours yellow and grey

people who are kind to everyone

creative eyeliner

fluffy hair

people who can get so lost in their own world, they almost forget about their surroundings

colourful accessories

someone who isn't afraid to be who they are

someone who has many passions and loves to talk about them

oversized hoodies

tubbo:

hoodies layered over skirts or dresses

frilly socks

people who are very adventurous, and wants to make their life as interesting as possible!

someone who can help him overcome some of his fears

charm bracelets

cute habits

the colours yellow and orange

dimples

the smell of almond milk and honey

people who twirl their hair unknowingly when bored or unfocused

ranboo:

someone who looks intimidating at first (he thinks people like that are cool as fuck)

but then is, like, the sweetest person he’s ever met

loves someone who can speak fluent sarcasm, just like him

he likes sass

glassy skin

fingerless gloves

people who act cocky for the fun of it

but actually don’t care about winning or losing or proving anything

simplistic earring placements

people who have hidden talents, and the more you get to know them, the more talents are revealed

people who don't gossip

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questions i have for the signs

libra suns – do you learn a lot from observing other people’s behaviours? because libras do so well in group settings, and they value their emotional intelligence and ability for being likeable a lot. once, a libra sun man came up to me and just told me that he learned a lot of his behaviours from observing others and that’s how he learned better coping mechanisms/better ways of expressing himself and his emotions. at first, i found that absolutely preposterous because as someone who’s always focused so much on my own individuality and authenticity, the thought of taking aspects from other people just repulsed me, but the more i think about it, the more it makes sense – after all, there’s so much to learn from others and since observational skills are so important, why not use them to better ourselves?

also, to my libra suns once again – how the hell have you managed to build a reputation for being stable and peaceful? i swear every libra i’ve ever met was absolutely unstable – the type to throw their phones on the wall during arguments, to randomly go up to me and start psychoanalysing me, to immediately go confrontational mode no matter if they were in the middle of class, simply because they couldn’t leave shit unresolved. i’ve noticed your tendency for playing devil’s advocate in every situation in the name of “fairness” has you being VERY confrontational. it’s kinda refreshing not gonna lie.

now, ladies.. have we noticed how misogynistic cancer sun men can be or am i losing my mind? i swear to god i’ve never met ONE in my life who didn’t have extremely sexist opinions. even the ones who seem like great people and who get along with everybody – they still think that girls who sleep around casually have no self-respect and that sex workers are disgusting. also, hating on girls for doing the buss it challenge and for posting pictures where they’re showing skin and feeling themselves? saying they’re sluts? as if they’re not the same men who click on those videos? not only the misogynist part, but also extreme anger issues that come out at the most unexpected times. i believe it’s their traditionalist views and their hatred for their own femininity that has them projecting their insecurities onto other women. either way, cancer men terrify me. perhaps it’s that my father’s a cancer and he’s the blueprint of all terrible men in my life, or perhaps cancer men really are batshit crazy. either way, please change my mind lol there are probably some good ones out there but my experience has me believing otherwise

pisces mars – (18+) do you get pleasure from simply pleasuring your partner? i do this and i feel like it’s to a point where it’s toxic, every time i’m the one receiving i’ll be thinking about how i could be using this time to pleasure them instead, even if it feels really good. i don’t know what it is but the act of knowing i’m making someone feel good feels 1000 times better than everything else, it feels my soul and i think it’s a pisces mars thing. it’s crazy because it’s only in sexual matters, in day-to-day basis i’m very assertive but in bed i’m extremely submissive and just want to fulfil all of my partner’s needs. do you also have very intricate sexual fantasies that you’re constantly thinking about? also, are you masoquistic? i’ve seen other pisces mars talking about this, about how they get off on pain a lot and it makes me feel less alone. it might also relate to lilith in the 12th house because it indicates mixing pain with pleasure + escapism through fantasies + some very extreme fetishes like r*pe-play. let’s start this discussion lol

leo placements – how does it feel like being the baddest bitches alive? serious answers only. also stop making me fall in love with you it’s annoying

capricorn/scorpio suns, do you gravitate a lot towards one another? im a capricorn and i attract a lot of scorpio placements, and scorpios are the people who bring me the most intense personal transformations. it’s also definitely because i have scorpio in the 8th, but either way, i feel like these two signs attract each other like crazy because they’re the darkest signs. scorpio simbolizes death while capricorn simbolizes the devil, they’re both so difficult, complex and drawn to dark topics that i feel like it’s a match made in heaven – or hell. i’ve also observed that the most powerful power-couples in media are always relationships between capricorns and scorpios, too.

moon in the 10th house natives – do people baby you a lot? i feel like i’ll just be walking down the streets and my friends will be screaming at me to be careful like i’m a 5 year old, or offering to do things for me, or feeling an inherent need to supervise me as if i’ll get in deep shit if i’m left alone for more than 5 minutes LOL but i do think it’s something about this placement. moon in the 10th indicates being very emotional and getting easily overwhelmed, also a lot of charisma and being very sensitive when it comes to personal relationships. also the way we radiate authority makes others unconsciously be more obedient towards our needs, and we have a very strong need to protect others and create a family within our friend groups, which might be creating these dynamics.

leo suns/moons/risings – do you feel like having a low self-esteem quite literally contributes to the deterioration of your physical health? i think there’s such a stark difference between when you’re feeling insecure and in an unhealthy relationship vs when you leave the toxicity behind and work on your self-confidence, there’s an immediate glow up, like you’re literally glowing and it shows.

gemini suns – why do so many people hate you? even people who know nothing about astrology will say they hate geminis. genuine question because geminis are one of my favorite signs. i think it’s something about the way you easily adapt to other people’s personalities and mirror their energy, so you’ve built this reputation for being two-faced when you’re literally just.. socially intelligent.

air moons – how tf can you turn your emotions off? what do you mean using logic instead of feelings i will literally unalive myself

capricorn moons – how does it feel like having healthy coping mechanisms? oh wait, it’s not like you’d know LMFAOOOO

scorpio mars – are you as sexual as people portray you to be or do you feel a bit weird about the way people talk about you? because people always talk about scorpio mars as this sex machines, but like.. scorpio’s a water sign. very sensitive. i’ve noticed you guys literally avoid having sex with people because it’s like giving them a part of your soul, and you know you’ll get extremely attached to them afterwards. is sex a casual thing for you or can you only feel satisfied when there’s an emotional connection established? this goes for all water sign mars by the way.

scorpio risings – do you only listen to music that you feel has a deep meaning? my brother is a scorpio rising and he prides himself a lot on his music taste and how deep the music he listens to is. and as an aries rising im just like.. sir i listen to doja cat because hearing her sing about sex and fat tiddies makes me happy

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Avneet Kaur Exclusive Interview: Dreams, Cannes, and Bold Roles

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I want to experiment with web shows or maybe web movies also, OTT films as well. So, yeah. How was your experience at Cannes? Avneet Kaur: It was magical. I think I was very nervous when I got the news and I didn't really know what I wanted to do. I definitely wanted to go to Cannes, but I did not know if I should go to represent a brand if I get this opportunity in my future. I thought that this is going to happen after like 10 years or something when I've actually established myself and I go for a film. I had so many questions in my mind. But when I got this opportunity to release the poster of our film called Love in Vietnam in Cannes, that was a huge opportunity for me. I was the youngest Indian actress to walk the red carpet at Cannes. It was unreal. I feel really proud that I got to represent my country there at such a global platform. Tell us about your character Ishika. Avneet Kaur: Oh, absolutely. I love her. Her name is Ishika and she is so confident. 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I do not have the time to reply to every negative comment, so I choose to ignore them. Can you tell us about your upcoming projects? Avneet Kaur: Yes, absolutely. We launched the poster of my next film, Love in Vietnam, at Cannes. We’re going to start shooting in Vietnam, and the film will release next year, mostly at Cannes. Fingers crossed for that. There’s also a series coming up, which I’m really excited about. It’s a mystery, murder series, all gory stuff. I love experimenting with my roles and stories, so I’m looking forward to it. Thank you for your time, Avneet. Avneet Kaur: Thank you so much, Anthony. Nice to meet you. Avneet Kaur's journey is nothing short of inspiring. From dreaming big in Bollywood to walking the red carpet at Cannes, she proves that hard work and determination pay off. 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