#( sorry I'm losing my writing steam atm )

[bladedwoe]

honorhearted asked : 🌿 *snorts* Cuz I'm curious if this would be another form of manipulation or not (but you don't have to answer unless you want to!).

Send 🌿 to accidentally get caught under the mistletoe with my muse. / @honorhearted​ -- still accepting

      𝐀𝐬 𝐬𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐛𝐞𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐞, 𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐣𝐨𝐛𝐬 𝐭𝐨𝐨𝐤 𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐩𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐜𝐨𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐢𝐞𝐬. It never stopped and there were no breaks even when the cold weather persisted, and Astrid found herself in Washington’s camp. Her goal was not to spot Mr. Tallmadge in a crowd this time, the target didn’t require this, but instead, her job was to kill an entirely different man. One lowly soldier, she assumed, was the brunt of someone’s ire.

      She watched from beside a tent before moving away deeper into the shadows of the night. She was supposed to be disguised as a camp follower, but for this night, in particular, she needed to be on the other side of camp a woman would not be allowed in. So, for this, she tied up her blonde locks, discarded her stays, and donned herself as a rosy-cheeked soldier.

      So far, Ben hadn’t noticed her lingering gaze as he perched around the fire with his fellow men. They were singing the night away in their drunken stupor, but from the looks of it, Ben didn’t look as deep in his drink as the rest of them. To soften his stubborn nature, Astrid might’ve preferred for him to be well into his cup, but if she was dressed as a soldier, she would prefer for him to be as sober as he could be to remember her. 

      In her position, she turned her head to the sound of footfalls against dirt. The taller figure in blue and the wind-tousled strands of hair were a familiar sight to her and she had to soften her grin at his appearance. Ben didn’t look as dirty or worn as he had in their previous interaction, but there was still a human, wild look to him that always caught her eye. As he passed by her, she grabbed a hold of his arm and shoved him inside the nearby barn. Pressing him against the wooden walls as her heart thrummed in her ears, she covered his mouth with her hand.

      He struggled beneath her and it took the knocking of the hat off her head and the rising of her voice to get him to finally settle down and comply.

       ❝ I came here for you, ❞ she told him, her voice airy and breathless as she uncurled her hand from over his mouth and instead rested her strong grip on his shoulder, digging through her pockets with her other hand. She shoved away the dagger in her pocket and instead felt for the thin stems of the plant. As her finger hooked through the hole of the ribbon, she drew it out of her pocket and hung it in front of his face with a smirk.

       ❝ Did you miss me, Mr. Tallmadge? ❞

[moonspirit]

Ask game but I'm sliding in your inbox instead. 🤭 (sorry I'm bored and high on medication soo..)

(Ik, this is a hard question. You can choose the second question if you want)

what’s your relationship with constructive criticism and feedback like? do you seek it out? how well do you take it?

Or

do you have any kind of consistent writing schedule or just hoping for the best?

Hiya Raine!

(and woah medication ._. I hope you're doing okay? Please take care of yourself ._.)

But about the questions - I can answer both!

Yknow, one year ago someone asked me the same thing regarding concrit and back then I said "Yeah sure! I welcome it". But since then my stance has changed, mostly because writing is one of the very few things that gives me genuine happiness these days, so unless I ask for it, I'd rather not receive it.

At the same time, I've always been the kind of person who appreciates critical feedback on everything I do so I can improve on the areas I lack in. However writing is a hobby atm, it's a way for me to escape and find some joy, and I don't want to invite negative comments and lose the happiness it gives me, especially considering I'm not in a very good headspace these days.

I believe that this is the general opinion in fanculture too and for good reason; if you like something, yes of course, please say it, it'll make someone's day, but if you don't like it then veer away.

As for consistent writing schedule - yes! I was posting every weekend until Dec 2023, but then some stuff in my life changed and I can no longer keep up with that schedule so it's once every 2 weeks now (or twice a month basically). I try to write a bit everyday so I don't push myself too hard. It also keeps me from procrastinating and eventually losing steam (which is what scares me most lol).

Thanks for the ask, Raine ._. please recover soon, or I hope you feel better at the very least :3

[fieurissons]

28 & 43 for the numbers game! 🙏💕

coming right up!!! sorry to keep you waiting; answering these takes longer than I anticipated and every time I answer one, something else comes up on my to-do list :________:

28. How do you deal with writing pressure (ie: pressure to update, negative comments, deadlines, etc?)

I think I'm very fortunate so far! I don't recall anyone stressing me out to update or sending negative comments (there have possibly been some instances but nothing jumps out atm). I am generally happy to take constructive criticism so if anything does come my way that's not entirely friendly, I'd probably interpret it as that.

Deadlines: I am Horrible with them I've only done 2 fests (dropped out of a third so we'll leave it at that), but my approach tends to be: write the first 50% on the day of the fest sign-up, then write the remaining 50% within the week it's due. I lose steam so easily after the initial burst of creativity and often only regain it under time pressure. No idea why this is, considering I don't procrastinate in real life. Anyway, mods are more often than not accommodating so when I need an extension/to drop out I'd just be honest ^_^ there's not really a point in doing what you don't enjoy and writing's supposed to be fun.

I suppose it goes for being pressured to update too. I want to see things through, of course, but I'd do the people asking for updates more justice when I do things at my own pace!

43. Talk about a positive experience with fanfiction or the fanfiction community that you will always remember.

just one? I have so many! will list them out anyway!

not writing-exclusive but the friends I gained over the years (blowing kisses to kiyay and ara especially, listed in chronological order here I love you two equally)

having my others join my creative space using their own media: final approach & orion soonhoon artworks, this a city of roses edit.

stumbling across compliments which aren't necessarily meant for you to see. knowing people just feel a certain way about your writing, enough to write about the fic in a blog post, live tweets, etc. may not mean A Lot to them but definitely means A Lot to me. (looking at wren. almost cried when I was casually, happily reading through their dreamwidth and found shadow come together). 

final approach changed someone's life in a way I never intended it to................I'm going to keep the details confidential but yeah. man. hits hard every time.

17hols remix by hwa #goals. literally screamed when I got the email notification. whatever. I am just a Person

probably every time svt adapts a concept remotely close to something I wrote moons ago and people go: hey, this reminds me of _____! and vee you manifested this! so....cool. you get excited with me??? are we on vee island, population 5? a kiss for you! and you! and everyone!

see what I mean about one answer taking forever? anyway, thank you for indulging me. hope these entertain you!!