#((....... I don't think I've ever drawn these 3 consistently anyways))

[tophattrio]

Why is oncie so TALL the other 2 can stack on top of eachother and he'll STILL be taller😭😭

Once-ler: I'm not THAT tall! Well… least… not anymore! That magical money thing was kinda weird. Professor: Our anon here is incorrect. The height difference between us isn't that significant.

Warden: I dunnoooo I think you could still loose a few inches. Maybe we could get the doctor to do you a leg surgery!

Once-ler: ....... Not happening. Professor: Thinking it over, perhaps it's the hat? If Warden and I stood atop each other without hats, I could see that adding up to your height with a hat. Not perfectly, but closer. Once-ler: Makes sense, but it's SUPPOSED to be tall. It's an advertising method. I'm the face of a company here!

[weirdnerdygoat]

Oh look, a younger ford blushing picture...

I... may or may not be making something...

[bakapandy]

All right, so I wanted to share this with you, and anyone interested. So there's a little something I've noticed about the sand sibs, which prompted a little headcanon. So you see, I'm a nerd who likes reading the wiki pages of my fave characters, and while reading theirs, I've noticed smth. Now, we know that in the timeskip between og Naruto and Shippuden the characters grow obviously, they get older, taller, and most of them gain weight. The thing with the sand sibs, is that while Gaara and Temari do gain a respectable amount in this time, Kankuro doesn't. Like, Gaara goes from 36 or 35 kg in chunin exams? To 50 in Shippuden. Which yeah, it's good to know the kid has been eating better, but Kank just went from 60 to 61 kg in 3 years. Which led me to believe Temari was behind it. Thinking about what they could've done with their father gone, in the period where they would have started bonding as sibs, I think it kinda makes sense for Tem to put Kank on a diet while making sure Gaara eats 5 meals a day. She'd do it in a "Kank your love of burgers is getting concerning and if we don't do smth about it, you'll end up like the Akimichi kid from the Leaf", kinda way. And like, Kank would dismiss her advice at first, but then start thinking about it, and "perhaps Temari is right" (ofc she always is), so he listens to her, and she takes care of both of them. And just, the image of them coming back from training hungry, and Temari putting a toast with some eggs and water in front of Kank, while preparing a whole meal for Gaara is hilarious. And I think it's true, cause in Boruto, when Tem isn't there anymore, you can see Kank has let himself go again, and has gained some chub (which all things considered, could've come as a result of alcohol consumption, as it was stated in Gaara hidden, that Kank enjoys drinking).

Wanted to bring this up, cause Kishi is consistent with how he draws everyone except Kank. He's the only sib we've ever seen shirtless, in the ep where Sakura heals him, and there he was thin with a narrow waist, but. If you've ever seen the beach ending (an ending where the characters go to the beach) we can see the sand sibs in their swimsuits (it's the one where Gaara is wearing that weird full body piece), and Kank is in the background, but we see him shirtless again, and he clearly has some chub there. Like, Kishi just choose a body type for the kid and stick with it. Anyways, thoughts?

Hmm.....idk I never really saw where this whole "kankurou is pudgey/fat" thing comes from and like it's fine, I believe in body type rep and I like seeing the designs where he does have it, but bringing up this kinda body-shamey response from the sand sibs is reading a bit too much into it I think.

And like....61kg when he's 175cm in Shippuden is like....not heavy at all...it's very average frankly if not lean (61kg is only like 135 lb at 175cm which is like 5' 9", even in part one he's 165cm which is like 5' 6" at 135 lb is still pretty average...) which is why I put very little stock into the weights in general.

My characterization of him is that he's always been on the stockier side and wears baggy clothing...which I guess is where the pudgy characterization comes from...but I mean, it's really just how clothing has weight and fall on the body when it's loose?

idk like obviously this is my style and interpretation but I'd say it's pretty close to how he's typically drawn in canon?

[genericpuff]

Same anon as before talking about writing stuff and worrying about if people will find it (but not the same anon as the other asks before that) - I think many people who are budding writers and artists have these concerns and bring them to you because you A). Are a creator yourself so you know what you're talking about in a verified sense and B). Idk about other anons but some of us (like me) take your reasoning (and critique) in regard to writing seriously because of your experience and how you analyze stuff such as LO.

I think at least some of us (again I can't speak for everyone nor can I or should I) wants to make sure they're not making mistakes such as the ones RS does in writing.

Also I might just take you up on your offer of Zelda fanfic - I do so love LoZ 😅.

ugh god, am I y'all's role model now or smthing? why would you do that to yourself (ㆆ_ㆆ)

okay but jokes aside, obviously people can't help who they look up to and I'm not gonna be a dick if y'all look up to my work and what I do here, just remember also that you're not obligated to agree with everything I say or take it to heart, you also shouldn't take my analysis of LO and how it's written/drawn personally because so much of that analysis is within the VERY specific definitions in which LO exists, definitions that don't really apply to many other webtoons on the platform. If there's anything I say or criticize LO for that speaks to you and your own work on a certain level, try not to take it as a direct personal attack towards you and more just like... if the things I'm saying about LO feel like they apply to your work, take it as advice for improving your own craft.

Or don't! You can literally ignore me and do what you were gonna do anyways. I literally cannot take that away from you and you absolutely shouldn't let me. I have no real power over anyone here, that's what I mean when I say I'm just a guy participating in their hyperfixation so don't feel like you gotta take me too seriously lmao

Also, yeah, okay, I'm a webcomic creator myself, but to put myself on the cross for once - I've never succeeded at this gig. Rekindled is the most consistent audience I've had in years, I think the last time my work was in a banner rotation was in 2015 (and it wasn't on WT), and I somehow make something like $20/month off Patreon. I've had small victories along the way, it hasn't been all bad, but this isn't my living and chances are low I'll ever find mass success with it. Everything I said about not taking my opinion too seriously because I'm just a random Internet guy applies to people like Rachel as well, while I criticize her work on the basis of it being a commercial product that should know better and I DEFINITELY harp on her for a lot of shit, at the end of the day she's in no way obligated to pay even a second of attention to me because she's made way more money in webcomics in the last 2-3 years than I could ever dream of making in the 10 years I've been doing this, that's something I can't take away from her and that was never the goal when it came to discussing her work. All I have to show for my own efforts is experience and rhetoric, and a few odd readers who have been around so long I wonder why they even still follow me LOL I am your typical "can never live up to the success of those who they criticize" chronically online shitposter. I don't think I should have to be on Rachel's level to be able to discuss her work, mind you, that's half the function of an audience to begin with, but it's not like I have any real legitimacy in this industry that you should worry about what I have to say. It's not like I'm capable of robbing Rachel of her awards or the money she's made lol

And by all means, go ahead and look for my fanfiction stuff, but I'm not providing any eye bleach because I wrote it when I was like, 13 years old, so search at your own risk lmao

(and if you do find it, no you didn't （︶^︶）/hj)

[alovelyburn]

I was wondering who your top five favorite Berserk characters are and why you like them? My bad if you’ve gotten this ask before.

Not in a few years! 1-3 are easy for me, it just gets tough after that because at that point there are a lot of characters I like without any of them standing out as particularly more amazing than the others.

...this is very long.

Guts Despite I guess being more of a vocal Griffith advocate, Guts is actually my favorite character not just in Berserk but in Manga as a whole, and arguably in..... fiction. I mean I can't think of anyone I like more offhand, anyway. As for why... I'm generally fond of the kind of character that he is: a complex personality with a lot of heavy issues, rage and emotional struggles. If you look at any media with a Guts-like character I probably like them - Auron, Senji Kiyomasa, Jason Todd, whatever, they're just my kind of thing but Guts is really the granddaddy of that type and he's more nuanced and interesting than any of the other ones I've personally run across. Jason kind of skirts close sometimes but it depends on the writer... and Western franchise comics are just less consistent by nature. There's also the Punisher but he's a homicidal maniac.

So, even though I like this type in general, it's sort of rare that they're the actual protagonist right, like usually the protagonist is some teenager and the broody complicated guy is like the mentor, or a scary guy they have to deal with or, in the case of a romance usually the love interest. That doesn't stop them from being fun characters that I like, but it does tend to limit how much exploration they get.

I appreciate that he's a protagonist who isn't always a nice or admirable person - that he makes mistakes and hates himself for it, that he sees his own monstrousness and struggles to control it and sometimes gives in to it (or even makes use of it). And the coexistence of his sometimes seemingly contradictory traits - his protectiveness vs the way he hurts people, his desire to belong vs his tendency to abandon, his insecurity and his cocky swag, his uncertainty vs his steel will - also makes for a multifaceted personality. Miura said he designed characters with a mind toward what they'd bring out in Guts and as a result, Guts has a lot brought out in him, I guess. Generally speaking the more complicated a character is the more interested I'll be in them anyway. This is something that's going to come up with Griffith as well, but I also have an attraction to moral ambiguity. I genuinely believe he's capable of being just as cruel, just as monstrous, as Griffith ever was (and vice versa) - and in a lot of ways we've already seen him do that - it's just that I guess a lot of people don't register it that way because his specific priorities better align with their sympathies and also he's the protagonist so people will tend to side with him anyway. But that... doesn't change that he's a person who will use a child as monster bait, or that he sexually assaulted a woman he's supposed to be protecting, or that he let the pilgrim camps around the tower of conviction get sucked into hell in order to get his ex back. It doesn't change that he's selfish and cruel sometimes.

Traditionally I also tend to be drawn to characters who kind of defy I guess stereotypical gender...norms? Guts in a lot of ways is a classic masculine type, but I appreciate that he isn't the no-emo badass that, I guess, he gets perceived as by some people. I love that he cries more than most of the characters in the series, or that his primary motivation is heartbreak over Griffith betraying him. That his rage is more cope than anything else.

I always say he'd reconcile with Griffith if he had a chance, as we know, but if you think about it that's kind of a dick move, I mean Griffith did feed the Hawks to demons and rape Casca in front of him. But that doesn't mean I dislike that I feel he'd do it, on the contrary, that just makes his emotional workings more interesting to me because it's a little desperate and sad, and a little selfish and monstrous, and I think he'd... know that it was a dick move and that he's a little pathetic for being willing to do it. And I think he'd struggle with it and hate himself for it. But I still think he'd do it. Which is interesting to me.

I also love that he's not motivated by romance. It's a rare gem of a thing, and I mean I do obviously believe he has romantic feelings for both Casca and Griffith, but even with that being the case I don't think his romantic feelings for either are his true motivators - he's not attached to Casca just because she's the woman he was planning to be with, he's attached to her because she represents the Hawks in his head. And while his feelings for Griffith have a romantic component I do think it's just one color in a massive storm of feelings. I always think Griffith is in love with Guts, whereas Guts loves Griffith which includes also having romantic feelings for him but it's not necessarily the primary driving force in those feelings.

Also, I really love a stone-cold badass. I've never been a person who automatically gloms onto the underdog, I guess; I know a lot of people are inherently turned off by overpowered characters or characters who rarely lose or whatever, but that just doesn't bother me, I love watching a character cut through an army solo, it's just fun for me.

Along the same lines, I love that he's relentless and can't and won't be stopped. This is kind of an interesting one because I feel like for a lot of people a big chunk of his appeal is that he is always kind of struggling against larger forces and he gets fucked up and he takes hits but keeps going. Whereas for me, the part that appeals to me is just... that he keeps going, whether that means fighting and fighting and never taking a hit or taking hits and getting back up is less important to me than the fact that he's always continuing to go.

And I like the way he mouths off to gods and demons.

Griffith Even though Guts is my favorite, I do actually think Griffith is Miura's master creation. The subtlety of his characterization, the ambiguity that sometimes ripples back just enough to reveal the edge of this vast and complicated personality and the way the reader is left to connect the dots is really fascinating to me - though I do wish people were better about connecting the dots instead of drawing over them.

I say this a lot, but Griffith is the one who actually embodies the reasons I love Berserk the work itself, the world, the philosophy behind it, etc. That someone like him can break is evidence that anyone can break. That someone as good as he is can be cruel is evidence that anyone can be cruel. That someone as terrible as he is can be kind is evidence that anyone can be kind. He encompasses the breadth and depth of humanity in Berserk's world, in all its beauty and all its hideousness.

I love every Griffith, though I do think all of them are distinct in their own ways.

During the Hawks Era, there is a certain innocence to him that persists despite the things he sees and does. He is... childish, I mean honestly, when I think about Griffith in the Golden Age this is maybe the main thing that comes to mind? Because he can be the adult in the room, he can be the genius strategist, the brilliant combatant, he can be serious when he needs to but these are all roles, and when his guards are down (mostly around Guts) his reserve melts and he's expressive and silly and playful and ultimately his self-image is literally that of a barefoot child.

That kind of informs a certain earnest purity that comes through in the way he sees the world and the feelings he has about things or people, and the specifics of the ambitions he holds. Even some of the things that people use against him - the piles of corpses you could say - are things that by the standard of the day really aren't anything he needs to feel bad about, but he's tormented by them to the point where guilt ultimately becomes arguably the driving force behind his actions more than the original ambition that created those corpses to begin with.

I think in the end, what drove Hawks Griffith was still a kind of kid looking at the castle kind of idealism - the dream of self-discovery intermingled with the yearning to build the kind of world that wouldn't make people go through the things he did. The issue is that in a more realistic world, as Berserk has tended to be (magic and stuff aside), that is hard to sustain.

You know what he reminds me of? For anyone familiar with Fate/ there's a thing about Artoria/Saber where she became a martyr to her own Kingdom because she ended up living for the country and sacrificing for the country which made her increasingly dehumanized and Gilgamesh, charmer that he is, realizes she's trying to carry the world on her shoulders he basically determines that she's inevitably going to be crushed under the weight of her own self-imposed burden, which he thinks is hot. Aside from the hotness of it, that always reminded me of Hawks Griffith - the way he tried to carry the Hawks on his back and never let them see that he was imperfect, the way he lived to maintain that image so they had something to believe in, and the way it strained the man underneath.

And that! Is! FASCINATING, look as much as I love Guts for being basically made of steel, I also love Griffith for not being as mentally resilient as Guts is - in fact so many of the reasons I glommed onto Griffith are the direct opposite of reasons I love Guts - so much of Griffith's character is driven by his feelings for Guts, especially during the Golden Age, and I find that to be just as fascinating as Guts' romantic ambivalence. In so many ways Griffith seems larger than life and inhumanly perfect - invincible like he can withstand anything, but all that strength can't hold him up when his heart breaks. In the end its his fragile human heart that is his downfall every time. And the breakable interior underneath his epic hero exterior makes for an interesting cocktail.

This is getting too long so I'm going to try to be brief with Neo - obviously he embodies the larger cosmic themes of Berserk even more than Hawks Griffith does - but I also find him fascinating as the fallout from everything that went on with Hawks Griffith. Because Griffith tried so hard to be a person who lived for his dreams and wasn't battered about by his emotions but he couldn't manage it and so when he's remade in the image he desires he becomes the thing he wanted to be, and its beautiful and epic and inspiring but also kind of hollow and sad. Griffith lives in the fallout from making the wish with the consequences he didn't expect, and it's interesting because it's not wholly clear how much he realizes what he's lost - how much he feels it - until the external imposition of factors that bring his emotions back full force for those shreds of time between transformations.

Farnese She's been my third favorite for... ages. That said, she's not Guts or Griffith so I don't have as much to say about her. I just think she's an interesting character - the changes that take place in her as she tries to reinvent herself are really cool to me.

If you line the events we know up chronologically you get a pretty cohesive story about this emotionally abandoned girl who cycles through various forms of trying to locate herself and her place in the world and forming kind of frantic dependencies on various copium flavors until she is ultimately forced to face the lie that her life had been, at which point she has to start over from nothing. I think that's a cool and very human story. Also, it's interesting to me to see this person who, when we first meet her, seems so powerful (in a political sense) and determined have all those masks torn down until you see the terrified lost person inside all the trappings... and then to see her build herself back up, but in the way she chooses and through the means she desires, having finally been untethered from the obligation and demands of her family or the church.

Farnese is kind of a normal person to me, you know? Like Guts and Griffith are Epic Heroes - they're Made Differently in that heroic form. And people like Serpico are kind of skirting the edges between normal and epic - I'd call him kind of a normal hero as opposed to an epic hero and then there's Farnese who is very cool yes, but ultimately also a basically normal person. And watching her grow and adjust in this world that is deeply hostile to normal people - not just the Berserk world as a whole but the specific path that she goes onto by following Guts - is A+ entertainment for me. It also makes her admirable, because she was born to such extreme wealth and could have had such an easy life if she decided to put her tail between her legs and run home, but she didn't.

So... yeah I mean I think it's a good arc.

From here the short list was Charlotte, Serpico, Zodd and Rickert.

Charlotte I talked a lot about why I like her so much pretty recently, but to quickly recap... I enjoy watching her develop from a sheltered shy shrinking violet into someone who is, while still very gentle and quiet, far stronger and more resilient than one would have expected. I love that she has these progressive views - I assume she got most of them from her father who was quite progressive as well before he lost his damn mind, but it means she and Griffith are aligned on a lot of political views.The risks she takes to save Griffith, the way she loves him even when he's lost everything and can't talk anymore, the way she's able to fight off the King without assistance and protect herself for the year that follows... it works for me. She's a different type of character than someone like Guts or even someone like Farnese, and of course she doesn't get a lot of screentime since she's a relatively small character, but I've seen a lot of growth in her. I also think she's adorable and her romantic fantasy version of the world is kind of... just. Interesting. It's interesting when one character is in a different genre of story than everyone else, I don't know.

Rickert He stole Zodd's spot. Mostly because I always like that "last of the old Guard" type of character, and I find his emotional struggle where Griffith is concerned really interesting. In a lot of ways it echoes Guts' struggle, albeit without the UST. The bit where he smacked Griffith - that whole scene and everything leading up to and after it, is one of my favorite parts of the series - I love that despite knowing what Griffith has done, he still wavered on the edge of whether to stand with him or not. I also love that he decided not to, and that at the same time he still holds his reverence and love for the Griffith who used to be, even though he can't accept the Griffith who is. Even then after that, he's still reluctant to believe Griffith would have him killed - which I think he's right to doubt, because I'm so sure it was Locus who did that. Anyway, he doesn't do much - rather he does a fair amount but he does it in spurts and then vanishes for years at a time - but I'm always glad to see him when he shows up.

Serpico is still on the edge for me right now, but I've been warming to him more during the current reread, I guess because I had to think about him more than I normally do. So I wouldn't be shocked if he eventually overtook Charlotte or Rickert - not sure which. I just need to see more of him/think more about him to get a sense of where he falls for me.

I also think that if we get the full backstory on Skull Knight and Void there is a high chance that they'll just knock the bottom two off entirely and give me a legitimately solid Top 5 instead of, honestly, a Top 3 + extras.

[tomb-bloom-noctem]

ship ask game: sonally and sonaze if you want

!!! YAY Thank you for the ask!

Sonaze sits in a slightly limbo state for me as like...I could ship it? I guess I sorta ship it? I'm certainly not against it. But I have other ships with these characters I feel more passionate about. And for Sonic that ship is absolutely Sonally 🥰

Why I ship it:

1. What made you ship it?

It started with Sonic SATAM 😂 I had no desire to ship Sonic with any character prior to watching that show but after getting into the series, I fell hard for them. And then I couldn't read the Archie comics consistently but the ones I did get usually depicted them in a positive manner. Just found myself getting hooked on them and staying hooked.

2. What are your favorite things about the ship?

I found myself really drawn to their dynamic in SATAM. I've seen some people describe them as nagging and condescending towards one another but I don't feel that way. I always felt it was more like friends who care for one another enough to push each other to do better. But they still had their sweet moments together too like Sonic crying in front of Sally and she comforts him and he wrote her a poem, etc. They absolutely affect each other, sometimes negatively and other times positively. But I always felt that they stood as and viewed each other as equals. That their friendship was the base of their eventual romantic relationship. It felt very real and appealing to me. And still does.

3. Is there an unpopular opinion you have on your ship?

Ummm...none that I can think of? I mean other than the ship itself has really fallen out of favor for various reasons, no small part in thanks to a certain Archie writer I'm sure. I remember when it used to be a more popular ship....but with that came a HEAP of ship wars. Seriously it was so bad I didn't wanna admit that I was a shipper because I didn't wanna be lumped in with that. Mostly it was Sonamy vs Sonally shippers and though I despise Sonamy as a ship I absolutely do not want to ever be a ship basher like that. That's just pathetic you know? No ship drama for me thanks. I will absolutely sit in the corner by myself and just be happy with my own little wips and headcanons without any drama.

Anyway whoops that went into an off topic tangent rant haha whoops. So nope. No good answer for number 3 for me.

Thanks for the ask! 💙💙💙

[adakechi]

thank you @deathclassic for the tag <3

i cant put a read more on tumblr ipad what the fuck

1. Do you post on Ao3? If so, how many works do you have on AO3? If not, where do you post?

i dont post art there, but i do post fic.

2. What is your total art count?

I have been drawing digitally since I was 8 (traditionally even longer), it's well into the thousands. Maybe even tens of thousands.

3. What are your top 5 pieces by likes/kudos?

I have no idea, I just know my most liked piece is a tie between a P5 valentines day comic and a really old Buzzfeed Unsolved shitpost.

4. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I try, but I'm not great at it. ADHD brain.

5. What is your current fandom, and what was the first fandom you drew for?

I'm all over the fucking place rn, mostly Star Wars, Scott the Woz, Umbrella Academy, Adventure Time. My first was Sonic the Hedgehog. :)

6. Have you ever received hate on any art?

Bestie I had THREE separate hate accounts dedicated to me on instagram back in the day.

7. What’s a fandom/ship you haven’t drawn for yet but want to?

Stonathan from Stranger Things, do more Adventure Time stuff, uhhhhhh,,, honestly idk.

8. What’s your all-time favorite ship?

Shuake/Akeshu.

9. Do you draw outside of fandom?

Not as much as I'd like, but I'm working on an original horror graphic novel so.

10. What’s the an art piece you’ve drawn that came out completely differently than you expected?

Hmmmmm. This one changed like eight times.

11. Do you draw smut?

Not as often now, but sometimes.

12. Have you ever had any of your art stolen or copied?

A lot more in the past, not so much nowadays. I don't mind tracing or reposting anyway, so I don't really keep track.

13. Have you ever collaborated on a piece?

A long long time ago!

14. What’s an idea you have that you have yet to draw?

I have about 636372 STW ideas rattling in my skull right now.

15. What are your drawing strengths?

Honestly? I don't think I have many. I dislike my art a lot and think I struggle far too much. I guess I'm okay with hands, if I HAD to pick.

16. What are your drawing weaknesses?

Faces, perspective, light source, legs, proportions, fluidity, environments, consistency, line weight.

17. What’s your favorite art piece you’ve drawn?

This is the only thing I think I've drawn in the past 2 years that I didn't just like but loved.

18. What is one thing you’d like to tell people about your art that they might not know?

I don't know what I'm doing, ever. I went to college for this and really I'm still just winging it.

19. What inspires or motivates you to create for fandom?

As fucked up as you may see this, honestly, a big reason is I like the attention. I like interacting with people who find something in my work, it's nice and I like the validation, sue me.

20. And finally, can you describe your process a little? Do you have a favourite place to draw? Do you play something in the background? Do you do research or just go for it? Give us a little insight:

I like to draw on the couch, or in bed. I used to draw in the most uncomfortable position ever, which was on my fucking stomach with a pillow under my jaw. Pre-iPad, I drew at my desk with my Wacom Bamboo tablet. And it depends! Sometimes I'll listen to music, other times I'll put on a YouTube essay or something. Beforehand, I work out a few thumbnails, then open Safari or Pinterest for references. :P

If you're an artist, feel free to do this if you'd like!

[hinamie]

hi hina! i hope you've been well 🩵 for the art asks: 5, 6, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 22, 23 🎨🖌️🖼️

Mariam !!! It's so good to hear from you I hope you've been well also <3 <3 <3 this will get long

5. Anything you haven’t drawn yet but want to?

oooooh I've had an idea in my head for an s/e piece inspired by visuals from the blood sweat and tears mv for like 5 years but no matter how hard I throw myself at it I can never get it to look right so i've just been waiting until i manage to catch lightning in a bottle i guess :< (((I also found a few notes in an old "to draw" folder from like 2 years ago that include but are not limited to: jjk band au with guitarist brothers yuuji+sukuna/bassist megu/drummer nobara; gojo in crocs. ))))

6. Which artists inspire you right now?

HHHHH its the same crowd as usual i am so hides face in hands bc they intimidate me /pos :'))))) vacuumchan, ohprcr, gloomyhome, trickywagon, meru90 to name a few ANYWAY RUNNING HIDING

15. Biggest artist pet peeve?

this is a tough one im such a hater and everything inconveniences me ,,, when the perfect csp brush costs money >:C,, when u cant find reference from this One Specific Angle >:C,, when u dont realize youve merged the wrong layer until you've been working for hours and all of a sudden your folders are out of order and its a mess >:C SPEAKING OF MERGING LAYERS hot take i think that they should invent a way to let u merge layer modes without converting them all to the same type. let me put my multiply with my glow dodge !!! cowards.

16. What’s the most daunting part of your process?

rendering :') so much of it is trusting the process and there are so many ugly phases that make u wonder if u were ever good at art to begin with

17. What inspires you?

hdsj i mean im a fanartist so i think it goes without saying that I'm mainly inspired by the content I like ,, but i also am very inspired by fashion !!!! saw a guy walking the other day with a hoodie that said CASH FOR SOULS | COLD HARD CASH | CA$H4SOULZ.com and i had to take a picture of it like a creep bc tht + Sukuna ??? hello??? anyway yea ive got a pinterest board dedicated to insp-y clothes and a notes folder dedicated to jotting down cute outfits I see in public

18. Do you have any larger projects you’d like to pursue?

I've always wanted to do speedpaints ! but even more than that I want to do something aNYTHING with my ocverse but alas...time.....planning....plot.. so in the meantime they simply live in my head bouncing around like globs of wax in a lava lamp

19. Favourite character(s) to draw?

megumi jjk gojo jjk sukuna/yuuji jjk kotori love live rina love live ichigo tokyo mew mew + shiro n eden from My Brain ,,, im crying the duality of my fav chars is either feral shounen twink or idol/magical girl and eden is both simultaneously actually

22. When is your prime time to work on your art?

usually mid to late afternoon but it depends on the season because it gets so HOT in my room in the warm months which I dread >:( How it works is if I start in mid-late afternoon then I'm able to hit my stride and draw basically through the entire evening (also because of the aforementioned Heat I vastly prefer drawing in fall/winter because that means I don't have to evacuate my room at 4pm sdfhdgshd)

23. Do you listen to music or watch shows while you work? If so, what’s your favourite?

I have to have music or something on while I'm drawing or the fans in my cintiq will drive me insane . Sometimes i listen to music that matches/drastically contrasts the piece I'm working on but most of the time I can't be bothered and just throw on my youtube mix which consists embarassingly of mainly vocaloid and utau ,, though sometimes if a piece is kicking my ass and I need to just hunker down and get shit done then I'll put the entire discography of an artist I like on shuffle (some favs include 1D/waterparks/former vandal/harumaki gohan) and for some reason the Predictability activates intense productivity mode?? I cant explain it gdsj its like I have music on that I like but it's not jumping around between artists so I don't get too distracted or excited whenever the song changes

[lucky-starling]

Sometimes I think about this old friend I used to have. I think he was 6 years older than me? And in hindsight this friendship was like a buffet of red flags but nothing really came out of it?

Cw for talk of grooming and mentions of drawn csam

I literally met this guy on 4chan, so... Yeah. First red flag. I was 14 and really into mlp and i drew fanart for it, and he wanted to put together like a fan art collection for a specific niche on the board. We exchanged contact info on it (I know) and just started talking and being friends. So I'm pretty sure he was 20 at this time.

We'd talk about sex pretty frequently? Like not in regards to doing it with each other at all just, sharing turn ons and offs and casually sending each other nsfw things. I was always really open about that kind of stuff even from a young age and they're like the same kind of convos I had with people of my own age too at the time that don't seem unhealthy to me in hindsight. Lots of just raunchy humor too. But I have to wonder if the age gap between us put those conversations in a different context for him.

I even specifically remember him sending me an nsfw drawing one time of a character from a 90s kids cartoon. And I was like "woah isn't that character only like 9 or 10?" And he was like "yeah but it's fine cuz it's a cartoon" and I, at like 15, didn't really know much about this topic and didn't want to argue and possibly push away someone who had become a close friend to me but it felt icky so I was like "hmmm I just don't like that so please don't send me nsfw art of children characters" and he backed off. Years later I realized this is a tactic used by groomers to normalize the concept of underage ppl having sex. But like I had already been sexually active with ppl my own age at this point and just was not attracted to him? So the only thing I felt was "ew please don't do that again."

He'd commission art from me a lot. I wasn't very great at art but he'd consistently commission me, mostly nsfw. I had no problem with that but again in hindsight I wonder if there was an extra layer of enjoyment for him knowing that a 14/15/16 year old was drawing his porn. He even asked me like a few days after I turned 18 if I could draw nsfw art of him and his gf (yeah he had a gf this whole time too) and send me nude photos "for Reference" now that I was "legal". I was like sure and he sent them but I never ended up drawing them.

When I was like 17 or 18 we actually started hanging out irl after realizing he lived close to a family member who I visited every summer. (My family was so paranoid about me "meeting up with a guy you met on 4chan???!!!" And I was like girl relaaaaax it's fineeeee I've been talking to this now 24 year old for 3 years. Lmao. Sorry fam I get it now.)

Nothing ever really happened on these hangouts? He even took me to his house twice but didn't do anything. There was the same raunchy jokes and openness about sex but he didn't ever touch me or afaik try to flirt with me. EXCEPT one time he said something like "you know i always thought if me and [gfs name] weren't together that you and I would go out" n I was like "huh? No silly we're just friends and you're too old for me lol. I've never thought of you like that!" And he never brought it up again.

Anyways we didn't talk as much the next few years because I just kind of ghosted EVERYONE after high school (no object permanence and bad mental health) until eventually when I was 20 he randomly blocked me. Welp. I'm 25 now and haven't heard from him since. Anyway that's my story of how I was probably definitely being groomed but was saved by the power of autistically not realizing he was showing interest in me.

[dyed-red]

Recently stumbled on your S5 non-con fic where Meg forces them and I'm in awe of your writing. Your depiction of Dean -- his anger, his guilt, his possessiveness -- is phenomenal. It's totally IC too because we know Dean will do anything to "save" Sam, wouldn't care about his autonomy or consent. And the way you write Sam is both provocative and thoughtful, it's a delicious combination that I have never seen before.

I'd give anything to read Sam pov/aftermath but even without that, the story is perfect. Thank you so much for writing and sharing your talent with us❤️

Dear anon,

thanks so much for this lovely message omg <33333 it's so lovely to hear that my characterization rang true and that the emotions were coming through well :)

i'm fundamentally drawn to messy noncon narratives in part because i'm fascinated by the ways people (characters) act when placed under extreme situation constraints.

dean violating sam's autonomy as a function of protecting/saving him (for certain values of the words "protect" and "save") is also my jam. most of my fics on that are actually much more focused on how sam copes with those violations though, so oddly enough Lesser Evils is the outlier in that regard.

meaning, of course, that i've mentally walked through the sam-aftermath pov and like, i can write it, but i haven't figure out the "to what avail" piece yet.

rest is under a cut because both spoilers for if i ever write this potential sequel as well as some major trigger warnings (check this post's tags).

with a sequel, i can walk through all the pieces that happen next, but where does it lead and what is the end and what does it meaningfully and purposefully add to this narrative? what point does it get them to which is different either from the point they're left already at the end of part 1, or the point they land in canon anyway?

(not that enjoyment itself or the joy of writing/reading require a purpose, but most of the time when i write there's a central 'something' i'm getting at, whether i know what that is when i start writing or not. and if i lose what i'm getting at along the way, or can't figure it out along the way, i don't end up finishing the piece. so the potential sequel is 'stuck' because i haven't figured out where i want it to go)

where i'm struggling is that in my head so far, i haven't determined if the rape in part 1 would lead sam and dean closer together or farther apart (and if neither, what's the point?).

i know the themes and tension and sam's pov though, like i have mentally drafted it with words. it explores sam's headspace and pain and emotional devastation and all the very messy feelings related to the timing of that fic because this is, again, still happening just a few days, like 48 hours? (canon timeline unclear) after killing lilith and lucifer coming topside. so he was already mired in guilt and shame and then that happens and there's a very real internalized self-blame happening there, a sort of sense of penance and deservingness that stop him from accessing his also very real anger over what happened, anger directed at dean that sam needs to give space to in order to process it properly.

much like part 1 which has this refrain of dean's sleepless exhaustion as a steady driver of desperation, part 2 has a refrain of sam's sense of not being clean, a consistent callback to how badly he needs a shower but there hasn't been a second in which to have one.

because this headspace is unfolding as they get bobby to the hospital, as they find out about the michael sword being dean, as they rush back to the hospital and cas brands their ribs. there just isn't a moment to spare for luxuries like washing up after being assaulted.

so that's part 2 and it's really this sort of heavy piece. but i don't think it's enough to sit own it's on as a follow-up, not in a way that satisfies me.

something i know i would need to play around with, potentially in a part 3 depending on length, is whether what happened changes the decision for sam to go his own way (5x03) for a while or not. if they're still together when lucifer starts appearing in sam's dreams in the guise of a dead lover, when zachariah drops dean out of bed and into the future, when they realize simultaneously that sam is lucifer's vessel.

i think yes because that's more interesting than following canon, but does it mean lucifer's plan here backfired and what meg did to them brought them closer, or is it worse than ever between them? do hunters still track down sam and try to force him to drink blood? would dean be there to see that, to help? does cas still ask dean to help with raphael and dean remembers what having fun is like, or is he too full of self-loathing? would sam be there when raphael drops the line 'god is dead'?

or maybe i skip over that because ehhh, not actually central to the narrative here and wouldn't be the same if they were together. maybe i just focus on the lucifer piece, fast forward to it. but then what?

on the one hand, there's some truly heavy stuff i have thought about for the start of s5 and whether or not sam ever tried to call lucifer's bluff -- sam said he'd kill himself before becoming lucifer's vessel and lucifer said he'd just bring him back. sam knows an angel can do that, but sam's also got enochian sigils on his ribs now that hide him from angels (from lucifer), and at this point he might still assume that even if the angels aren't trustworthy they should in theory not want lucifer to get his true vessel, so wouldn't necessarily hand him over without a fight if lucifer came to try and grab his soul out of the afterlife. maybe taking himself out of the game is the safest move for mankind. at least worth trying, right?

or maybe rather than dean reappearing in the present day with zachariah only to find sam's corpse and blame himself, maybe the narrative takes itself somewhere else, somewhere easier, like dean appearing in their motel room right after seeing lucifer in sam's skin in the future at exactly the moment that sam wakes up from his dream of lucifer where he finds out he's the devil's vessel. and maybe after banishing zach and hightailing their way outta dodge, both brothers cling desperately to one another in the face of the cruelty of everything coming at them, and maybe that's the softest epilogue i can give them here, the one they earned.

hmm. there might be something to that.

[northerngoshawk]

Happy FFWF on a Saturday! (sorry it's a little late!) When did you start getting into fanfics and ATLA? Did you see the ATLA fics and thought "hmmm there is a large amount of fluff here, would be a shame if someone were to....write some angst >:)"

Happy FFWSAT!

I'm-- 💀

anYWAYS--

In general, I started getting into fics around... 3 years ago, I think? I was encouraged by people who told me I was pretty good at writing, and I loved making up stories in my head, so I decided to delve into the world of fanfiction. Truthfully, it was more of an accident that I found myself on FF.Net, but it was a happy accident ^^ And the first fics I read were (to no one's surprise) angsty fics.

I don't think I got into ATLA until around... 2 years ago, before the Renaissance. And wow, what a ride that was.

Would you believe me if I told you that I actually didn't watch the original series before reading fics about it?

I remember there was one day where I was bored, so I decided to watch a movie. And the movie was the... ahem, one that didn't exist in Ba Sing Se. It might've been objectively really, really bad, but that was what sparked my intrigue for the worldbuilding and lore, and that's how I got sucked into the ATLA fandom!

Then, I started reading a fic by my good friend Brisalad--more specifically, her fic Tribulation on my own, which was an aangsty fic that had a personal resonance to it that I was drawn to. I was going through a bit of a hard time (that I've talked about before), so maybe that's why I stuck with it for a while. Her fic was the one that got me reading countless other Kataang fics ^^

However, it wasn't until I read the fic Distorted Reality by Ogro/Baithin and actually watched ATLA for the first time during the Renaissance that I felt confident enough to write the characters and make them... y'know, in character. First fic I've written was a Kataang-ish introspection fic whose universe diverts from Distorted Reality, and I just went from there.

I don't think I really ever meant to fill the role of the angst writer, tbh. For some reason, every time I see a show with a happy ending, I tended to think of an ending that... isn't happy? 🤣 I think it only intensified as I got older and started thinking more and more about life, death, grief, and legacy, how beautiful and moving it can be, and I guess I just wanted to explore those themes a little bit more 🤷‍♀️

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And also because no one else was consistently writing character death fics 💀

[elstreem]

Behind the scenes for this comic -

This is preeeetty long, so I'll put it under read more.

So as with all the other comics I have done, the process usually is: lay out panels - lineart - adding special effects (which really is just adding gradients, I haven't really figured out using proper comic tones and stuff -)

Sketches for pages 1 and 2! I often used red pencil for basic outlines, just to figure out what goes into which panel, and then a more polished blue sketch I can draw off.

Initially, dark Bedi (lol) had one eye showing but that just made him look like the angry mango Avenger so I decided to show only the mouth instead.

If I'm feeling confident enough, I go straight off my initial sketch, as was with page 3. Here's the comparison between the sketch and a finished lineart!

And it is not fun drawing the bby so distressed :'''<

Page 3 had a few things going for it, like the fact that it had a gradient background and character outlines were in white - which I kind of blunt-forced my way into doing by clipping another layer on top of my lineart and painting that white. So many layers lol. I had separate panels for the blood drip on Altria's chest because I honestly wasn't sure what I was doing lol.

As for Princess Helena's design (again, she's the princess abducted in the story of the Saint Mont-Michel) there's nothing really deep about it. I don't think Fate will ever show what she looks like so I just thought to draw a princess-y outfit, but I ended up kind of liking it.

And man, the fact that Bedivere still remembers Princess Helena and feels guilty over it after all those years, enough to tell Ritsuka about it in his Interlude. I kind of wanted to explore that really, that he feels a lot of guilt for the people he thinks he failed, and naturally, that fear of losing another person he loves extends to Ritsuka. Which leads to imagined fears on the next page.

Page 4 is probably the most complicated page, it took me 3 hours working on the line art for this. The hands around Ritsuka are the Foreign God and Goetia...well, I tried, but Beast I has really detailed hands...

It's a bit confusing to me how much of Chapter 6 the summoned Bedivere actually remembers, because Mash says he probably didn't experience it, but he definitely is aware that he's a Bedivere from a different history - the profile even says he swore loyalty to Ritsuka because they helped him fulfill his wish. So...does he actually remember it or not? From some comments on character materials on the wiki, he acknowledges the Camelot allies, and he finds himself upset at seeing Altria Lancer (which she also comments on in her own materials and I realllllly wish we see this interaction in the game.) He also knows she isn't his King, so he seems to know that they were able to let Goddes Rhongomyiad to rest. On the other hand...Bedivere seems to avoid talking about Camelot in Tristan's Interlude and doesn't seem to acknowledge it in his My Room lines. Which could just be him not wanting to talk about it rather than having forgotten, but couldn't be Fate without some messy lore. Welp. This got long.

Anyway, these four pages are actually the only ones I initially laid out, and the rest is me going rogue and thinking, "Let me add one more page....hm, not concluding enough, one more - and one more -" so the rest of the comic is a bit plain in comparison.

It's a bit of a mind twister figuring out where Ritsuka's side ponytail is every time I draw her. I've drawn Bedi enough times to not be confused where his metal arm is lol.

I also realized midway that it's a little confusing as to what is really happening and half-assed it into Bedivere having his intrusive thoughts while walking with Ritsuka. The first four pages had something going for it which changed in the last six pages, that's me not planning ahead lol.

What else...oh yeah, I initially wrote all dialogue in by hand but my handwriting is atrocious and not really consistent, so I ended up using CSP to insert the text. If you're ever gonna make a comic, don't be like me who lays out all the visuals with only a vague idea of what the dialogue is gonna be and then end up with longer text than expected in place ^^;