#(i used to have a HORRIBLE serious phobia of them when i was younger fun fact)

[ink-livi]

Mmmm thinking about zombies again... :]

[holdthosebees]

Ok not to be weird about it but the Eye liking adulthood fears more than children’s fears proves that the Eye is a weak idiot with no taste or imagination Kids’ fears? Bonkers as hell. Children are creating neural pathways as they go, which means that they draw connections adults would never dream of. Grown adults are neurotic, fine, whatever. We have anxieties and phobias and a general miasma of existential dread, but kids? Kids can attach symbolic meaning to anything, and they’re doing it in relative isolation without a connection to society at large apart from a small pool of other children and children’s media. Which means that the stories they concoct will often be unique in comparison to adults, who have less plastic neural pathways and also are more likely to have set, shared ideas about what’s meant to be scary and what isn’t. 

What children might lack in complexity (which, come on--kids are far more capable of coming up with complex ideas and having layered experiences than people give them credit for) they more than make up for in intensity and creativity. Children’s ability to feel is intense, both for biological reasons and because they don’t have all the tools adults have for managing (and repressing) emotions. No wonder the Eye picked Jonathan “What’s even the point of poetry” Sims and Jonah “I find budget paperwork thrilling” Magnus. It’s not just a snob, it’s a snob for the boring shit. 

The Eye is like That Guy in a film class who turns in black and white shots of buildings and like.... women with bad haircuts smoking while staring off into the distance. And then tells you you just don’t get film when you try to make something with a plot. The Eye refuses to listen to music in languages it understands because anything that conveys direct meaning is too plebian for it. The Eye doesn’t read comics--it only reads graphic novels.

Hey, big scary eldritch abomination--you like cults? If there’s one thing elementary school aged kids can do, it’s make little cults. When I was at summer camp one year we decided to worship mushrooms, you can’t tell me the corruption wouldn’t have a field day with that. You like terror of isolation? Children’s experience of loneliness is intense as hell, and separation anxiety is a serious thing. You like random acts of violence? A bunch of younger kids tied me to a tree once, just because they could. It wasn’t bullying, there wasn’t a grudge attached, they just thought that would be fun (I didn’t.) 

It occurs to me that I’m describing children’s trauma to an eldritch abomination like I’m trying to sell it a used car, but the point stands. It’s not that I think more children should be tortured for the enjoyment/nourishment of a horrible fear-god--I just think that if they’re going to be tortured about it anyway, the least said god could do is be a little more appreciative. 

[scrumptiousdonutangel]

All :P

The meaning behind my url:

there isn’t really one

2. A picture of me:

I’ve posted enough selfies, y’all are tired of my face by now

3. How many tattoos i have and what they are:

zero

4. Last time i cried and why:

I cried yesterday just thinking about some really cute cats??????

5. Piercings i have:

just one in my ears

6. Favorite band:

Sleeping at last

7.Biggest turn offs:

someone who is rude, people who don’t know how to take a joke

8.Top 5 (books):

Throne of glass, Odyssey,  percy jackson, lockwood and co, and literally any book on psychology

9.Tattoos i want:

I really want to get a smaller version of my grandpas arm tatoo 

10.Biggest turn ons:

when someone is super dominant and/or knows what tf they want, when someone has their shit together, when someone isnt afraid to be feminine, when someone is super open about liking you a ton

11.Age:

bout to turn 18 boiiiiiii

12.Ideas of a perfect date:

honestly just chilling at home is perfect for me

13.Life goal:

make as many people as happy as possible

14.Piercings i want:

I want to get a few more in my ears next

15.Relationship status:

Single but currently talking to someone serious

16.Favorite movie:

tangled

17.A fact about my life:

it has been cat filled therefore good

18.Phobia:

heiGHTS

19. Middle name:

L (das all you gettin)

20.Height:

5′2 but ready to fight you at all times

21.Are you a virgin?

depends on your meaning of the word

22.What’s your shoe size?

like a 7 i think

23.What’s your sexual orientation?

bi/pan

24.Do you smoke, drink, or take any drugs?

drink, but thats about it

25.Someone you miss:

My boyfriend, I haven’t seen him in like four days

26,What’s one thing you regret?

Not buying more candy as a kid

27.First celebrity you think of when someone says attractive:

TOM HOLLAND

28.Favorite ice cream?

I’m allergic to dairy ;;-;;

29.One insecurity:

My bigass thighs

30.What my last text message says:

“GET IT GIRL”

31.Have you ever taken a picture naked?

no?

32.Have you ever painted your room?

nope

33.Have you ever kissed a member of the same sex?

no ;;-;;

34.Have you ever slept naked?

yea and i hated it

35.Have you ever danced in front of your mirror?

yeaahhh…..

36.Have you ever had a crush?

boy have i

37.Have you ever been dumped?

not really??

38.Have you ever stole money from a friend?

hell nah

39.Have you ever gotten in a car with people you just met?

friends of friends I guess

40.Have you ever been in a fist fight?

not anything serious

41.Have you ever snuck out of your house?

mmm kinda

42.Have you ever had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back?

hahahahahahhahahahahahayesahahahahha

43.Have you ever been arrested?

nope

44.Have you ever made out with a stranger?

nahh

45.Have you ever met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere?

yes? I do have friends you know

46.Have you ever left your house without telling your parents?

yeah, but half the time i dont think they notice

47.Have you ever had a crush on your neighbor?

the guy im currently seeing is actually my neighbor

48.Have you ever ditched school to do something more fun?

I’m homeschooled, there is no escape please send help

49.Have you ever slept in a bed with a member of the same sex?

thats like every sleepover ever

50.Have you ever seen someone die?

no

51.Have you ever been on a plane?

yeps

52.Have you ever kissed a picture?

do posters count cause i think i kissed one as a joke when i was little

53.Have you ever slept in until 3?

hELL YEAH

54.Have you ever loved someone or miss someone right now?

missing someone hardcore rn

55.Have you ever laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by?

most relaxing thing in the world

56.Have you ever made a snow angel?

every winter dude

57.Have you ever played dress up?

yeee

58.Have you ever cheated while playing a game?

monopoly, constantly.

59.Have you ever been lonely?

my life in one word man

60.Have you ever fallen asleep at work/school?

not yet

61.Have you ever been to a club?

nope but i wanna check one out sometime

62.Have you ever felt an earthquake?

not that i know of

63.Have you ever touched a snake?

yeps

64.Have you ever ran a red light?

…maybe…

65.Have you ever been suspended from school?

again, NO ESCAPE

66.Have you ever had detention?

*cries in homeschool*

67.Have you ever been in a car accident?

yeah

68.Have you ever hated the way you look?

constantly

69.Have you ever witnessed a crime?

probably

70.Have you ever pole danced?

no but id like to learn how just for fun

71.Have you ever been lost?

i have horrible sense of direction, so a big yes

72.Have you ever been to the opposite side of the country?

no, but id love to

73.Have you ever felt like dying?

very much so

74.Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?

big oof, yeah

75.Have you ever sang karaoke?

fuck yeah

76.Have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn’t?

all the time, I’m really spontaneous about rule breaking too 

77.Have you ever laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose?

mhm

78.Have you ever slept with someone at least 5 years older or younger?

NOPE, at my age thats like a jail order 

79.Have you ever kissed in the rain?

no but it sounds super romantic

80.Have you ever sang in the shower?

absolutely

81.Have you ever made out in a park?

nah

82.Have you ever dream that you married someone?

you betcha

83.Have you ever glued your hand to something?

I once dropped hot glue on my hand if that counts?

84.Have you ever got your tongue stuck to a flag pole?

nope

85.Have you ever gone to school partially naked?

i mean technically i guess????

86.Have you ever been a cheerleader?

no

87.Have you ever sat on a roof top?

yeps

88.Have you ever brushed your teeth?

I SHOULD HOPE SO

89.Have you ever been too scared to watch scary movies alone?

yeah… dont judge me

90.Have you ever played chicken?

nope

91.Have you ever been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?

no, i would murder someone

92.Have you ever been told you’re hot by a complete stranger?

yeah

93.Have you ever broken a bone?

nope

94.Have you ever been easily amused?

im a giggly shit so yeah

95.Have you ever laughed so hard you cried?

all the time

96.Have you ever mooned/flashed someone?

nope

97.Have you ever cheated on a test?

a spelling test when i was little

98.Have you ever forgotten someone’s name?

more like when havent i

99.Have you ever met someone who didn’t seem real?

yes

100.Give us one thing about you that no one knows.

sometimes I’ll just lay in my room with music playing and not think for a bit

[milkdrinker123-blog]

When I was younger.

Isolated

Victim, Noun. A person harmed, injured, or killed as a result of a crime, accident, or other event or action. The word originated from Latin - victima.

Falsehood, Noun The state of being untrue, a lie.

When I was thirteen years old I was schooled in an all-boys high school. Optimism filled my soul and I was much more eager to learn that all the other classmates. I had a dedicated motivation in my heart to learn mathematics and digital studies in the hopes to learn to code and make video games. I was Naive, but that was the motivation pushing me forward in learning. I selectively isolated myself so I could listen and get work done with no hassle. The first couple of days were all right, but I (for some reason I can't remember) was moved to another group class. I didn't mind much and got along fine with the boys in there, there wasn't an issue. I got through the year and did... all right to say the least.

Trouble for me started around year ten, though I don't remember how. It all just seemed out of the blue and unexpected. My naive attitude was something to make fun of with harassment and bullying, one kid burnt the back of my head with a lighter when I was dozing off in a chair. When I asked about why they targetted me, they couldn't give me an answer, it usually resorted to something stupid like "you're gay" or something like that, the people that I thought were my friends ended up wanting to hurt me more than the people bulling me. Threats about breaking my teeth and bashing me into the ground I thought were just boyish jokes - but when the look in their eye told me they were serious I moved desks and away from everyone.

The first time I ever got hurt was during a game of bullrush. The aim is to run from one side of the field to the other and not get tackled. One classmate grabbed my arm and slammed me into the ground - he friendly to me before so whether it was intentional or not I do not know. The inside of my lip was cut from the braces, my nose was broken and sore, and I was bleeding with dry grass in my mouth. After going to the medbay, my parents just picked me up - I didn't get any apology and things started spiraling down from there.

I started becoming depressed and took a lot of days off school. When I came back, no one was happy. I never thought about hurting myself because most people at the school did that for me. I escaped in literature and video games. I spent most of my nights playing Skyrim to have an empty feeling of someone thanking me for helping them. I felt isolated and removed from everyone at the school. The guidance counselor helped me in some instances but talking about it didn't really clear up the horrible emotions I had boiling in the pit of my stomach, the only thing that ever made me happy genuinely was just playing video games, saving the world from dragons and NPC's thanking me for it.

I went back to school one day and I punched a taller kid who was picking on me in the face, he punched me in the throat and knocked me to the ground. I still remember the cold floor and the laughing. By god the laughing. I pitifully got myself off that floor and the teacher hushed me and the taller kid out to the teacher's office. I was a blubbering mess, to be honest.

Before the year ended, my parents thought the best thing and had me change schools, I was more than happy. Albeit the first few months were a bloody mess with me not able to talk in conversations like a functioning person. But before December I had a small group of friends, and then I didn't because of some bullshit. But It all resolved itself.

I'm in year 12 now, things have been smooth sailing so far, a couple of bumps but I manage to make it decently. When I met a couple of people from my previous school and politely asked why they still didn't give me an answer. And at that point, a thought dawned on me, its a mob.

To give a clear example of how the mob works it goes as followed.

I had a friend I made in primary school and for a while, we still hang out, he then starts to group with some people who are a "group" and I see him less and less. When I don't see him anymore and he doesn't want to talk to me and repeats things that the group says to me, he isn't my friend anymore. He's become part of the mob.

The mob has a ringleader, the instigator, Typically its the baddest egg of the group, the one who disrupts the class and openly tells the teacher to go fuck themselves. They have an opinion and everyone just agrees with it. And anyone who doesn't fit a quota of the ringleader deserves shit. Again I will say that I don't remember what I said, or did to provoke them, but as it stands they won't listen. When someone holds power, the gullible will follow.

Today, a mob mentality seems to be the norm in society. fitting into a more - If you're not with us you're against us. Sort of thing. And its the young adults of this society and to an extent, even the adults. A toxicity of racism, sexism, Phobias, and regression in the minds and words of the grown-ups who are "Mature".

I'm not particularly good with politics. But where I stand on in the belief of life, some people will call me a bigot, and the ones that did didn't give me a good reason other than I hurt their feelings or because it "didn't work with them".

Where I stand on most things is this: Feminism (currently) is nothing more than a label for angry women to wear. To Blame and harass men for being men; manspreading, mansplaining, man everything. Not fighting for the rights of literal oppressed women in middle eastern countries, and generally just complaining about Men.

Racism is now a power structure where, if you're white you've got a silver spoon in your mouth. Being white is in itself an act of racism because a long time ago there were slave owners who were white. It seems encouraged to call white people racist or white supremacist for sampling having a color of skin.

LGBT+ has only gotten more neurotic with the word of gender being a simple thing, to a complex and unending meaning with new genders and definitions for those genders. Paranoia grows when a common person asks about when does this ludicrous spectrum end, and it goes far to say that the normal and hetro are somewhat afraid of these far-fetched definitions and thus they must another thing to openly and actively hate against.

So here I stand. A white middle-class male, an enemy of groups of people that have never met me and hate me for the things that I am. And to be honest - I can't hate them, I can't hold any anger or be spiteful towards these groups. I can criticize them as they can criticize me if they wish. But to genuinely be angry and want to see them hurt I can't. I still have the benefit of a doubt that any stranger on the street will be genuine to me if I am to them. Kindness goes far and opinions of normal politics shouldn't dictate how you treat people. Both the left and right have problems and if we can't meet in the middle and talk about these problems like mature grown-ups, then let god burn down the buildings until we learn how to work together.

You don't have to be friends with everyone, but you can be tolerant and not be a pitiful person like I was.

Here is my final note, If you really are oppressed, then you wouldn't be reading this.

[lxnxly-bxy]

1-100 😜

The meaning behind my url:I am a lonely boy, and i threw in some x’s because edgey and tumblr

A picture of me:Check my snap, or insta, Madd_flame

How many tattoos i have and what they are:0

Last time i cried and why:My papa’s funeral

Piercings i have:0

Favorite band:uhhhhhhhh

Biggest turn offs:none?

Top 5 (insert subject):(insert answers)

Tattoos i want:all of them

Biggest turn ons:everything

Age:20

Ideas of a perfect date:just any date at this point, someone take me out

Life goal:be something

Piercings i want:all of them

Relationship status:ahahahaha, single af. hmu if you wanna change that tho?

Favorite movie:uhhhhhhh

A fact about my life:it sucks and i dont want it anymore

Phobia:dark, heights, being alone and unwanted forever.

Middle name:James

Height:6ft2 ish

Are you a virgin?ahahahah, yes.

What’s your shoe size?12-13ish

What’s your sexual orientation?uhhhhhhh, pan? maybe idk.

Do you smoke, drink, or take any drugs?i wish

Someone you miss:everyone

What’s one thing you regret?everything ever

First celebrity you think of when someone says attractive:idek

Favorite ice cream?i like a good vanilla

One insecurity:all of them

What my last text message says:sent? 35

Have you ever taken a picture naked?yea, why you want one?

Have you ever painted your room?nope

Have you ever kissed a member of the same sex?yup

Have you ever slept naked?always

Have you ever danced in front of your mirror?no

Have you ever had a crush?constantly

Have you ever been dumped?ahahah, no

Have you ever stole money from a friend?no?

Have you ever gotten in a car with people you just met?not really

Have you ever been in a fist fight?no

Have you ever snuck out of your house?nah, i got nowhere to go.

Have you ever had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back?constantly

Have you ever been arrested?nope, im a goodie two shoes

Have you ever made out with a stranger?i havent made out with anyone, i would though.

Have you ever met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere?yes.

Have you ever left your house without telling your parents?yes.

Have you ever had a crush on your neighbor?no

Have you ever ditched school to do something more fun?yes.

Have you ever slept in a bed with a member of the same sex?yes? when i was younger.

Have you ever seen someone die?no.

Have you ever been on a plane?yup.

Have you ever kissed a picture?maybe?

Have you ever slept in until 3?nah, i dont sleep in.

Have you ever love someone or miss someone right now?constantly

Have you ever laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by?yus.

Have you ever made a snow angel?yes.

Have you ever played dress up?yes

Have you ever cheated while playing a game?ahaha, yup.

Have you ever been lonely?i am constantly lonely.

Have you ever fallen asleep at work/school?no.

Have you ever been to a club?nah, im boring af.

Have you ever felt an earthquake?nope.

Have you ever touched a snake?no.

Have you ever ran a red light?on purpose, no.

Have you ever been suspended from school?nah,

Have you ever had detention?yus, but it was for something dumb.

Have you ever been in a car accident?nope.

Have you ever hated the way you look?ahaha, always.

Have you ever witnessed a crime?yes, but not like a serious one.

Have you ever pole danced?nah, id be down tho.

Have you ever been lost?i am constantly lost.

Have you ever been to the opposite side of the country?yup.

Have you ever felt like dying?constantly.

Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?yup

Have you ever sang karaoke?yus, singstar counts as karaoke right.

Have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn’t?constantly

Have you ever laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose?maybe, probably not.

Have you ever slept with someone at least 5 years older or younger?i haven’t slept with anybody.

Have you ever kissed in the rain?i haven’t kissed

Have you ever sang in the shower?not like proper singing.

Have you ever made out in a park?i haven’t made out.

Have you ever dream that you married someone?constantly, 

Have you ever glued your hand to something?sure have.

Have you ever got your tongue stuck to a flag pole?nope, never cold enough for that here.

Have you ever ever gone to school partially naked?no.

Have you ever been a cheerleader?no

Have you ever sat on a roof top?yes

Have you ever brush your teeth?yup

Have you ever ever too scared to watch scary movies alone?always.

Have you ever played chicken?not like in traffic, but like infront of a swing set.

Have you ever been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?probably

Have you ever been told you’re hot by a complete stranger?ahaha, no.

Have you ever broken a bone?nope

Have you ever been easily amused?im always easily amused.

Have you ever laughed so hard you cried?sure have.

Have you ever mooned/flashed someone?no.

Have you ever cheated on a test?ahah, yup.

Have you ever forgotten someone’s name?constantly. im horrible at remembering

Have you ever met someone who didn’t seem real?sure have

Give us one thing about you that no one knows.theres lots about me that noone knows.