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May 13, 2019: I want you to be more important to him than running away

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(Joint project from @riddikulus und @shakshuka-grandpasweaters, translated from @girlwholovesagirl, @divingdeepintothewater, @m-ger and @julerocks. Here is the timeline and the link to the original blog @unsere-zeit-ist-jetzt. If you would also like to help translate, please contact one of us.)  

Monday, 4:30 pm:

Matteo: *came back home an hour ago* *took a shower and put on a fresh shirt* *wanted to throw his clothes in the laundry, but then smells at his hoodie which still smells so wonderfully like David and puts it on again* *knows that the boys wanted to come by at half past five and was just thinking about making some food when he hears the doorbell* *goes to the intercom and hears that it’s Jonas who says that he wanted to come by earlier* *buzzes the door open and awaits him* *grins when he sees him* Hey… were you bored?

Jonas: *is supposed to meet the boys at Matteo’s at half past five but had some time before and was very curious what Matteo has to tell* *just stopped by earlier on a whim and was happy that he opened the door* *puts out a ghetto fist to greet him and then gives him a quick hug* *grins slightly* Yeah, that too. But most of all, I'm curious to hear what you have to tell. *looks at him for a moment questionly* It's okay that I got here earlier than planned, right?

Matteo: *laughs because Jonas has always been curious* Sure, come in... *walks with him to the living room* *has to wait for a moment because of course Jonas takes off his shoes* Do you already want a beer? *sees Jonas nodding and goes back to the kitchen to get two beers* *hands one to Joans and plops down on the couch next to him* *doesn’t really know what Jonas wants to know and what he is willing to tell*

Jonas: *grins pleased when Matteo invites him in* Nice... *comes in and takes off his shoes first before following Matteo to the living room* *doesn’t say no to a beer and puts his guitar into a corner* *sits down on the couch and accepts the beer Matteo is offering to him* Thanks… *waits until Matteo joins him on the couch and then stretches out his beer to toast him* *takes a big sip and then looks at him expectantly* *when Matteo stays quiet he asks* So since you stood us up Friday and apparently spent the night with David, I assume congratulations are in order? *looks at him carefully* Did you guys finally made it and are together now?

Matteo: *toasts with Jonas and takes a sip* *grins slightly and nods* Yes *sees Jonas’ look which clearly says “don’t let me tear out all the answers out of you” and sighs* Okay, well… you know he planned on coming back on thursday but then I got a message of Laura, his sister, that he didn’t came home… and well I went a bit crazy… and I went looking for him and tried contacting him… well yeah on Friday he got in touch and I went over and we… well, we talked and clarified a few things and… yeah that’s how it is. *nods slightly and takes another sip* *knows that this probably won't be enough for Jonas but leaves it for now*

Jonas: *beams when Matteo confirms that he is now together with David and shortly ruffles his hair* Perfect bro! I am so happy for you! *waits expectantly what else Matteo has to tell and is happy that for once he doesn’t has to tear all the answers out of him but instead he starts telling by himself* *only understands vaguely and asks again* What? He didn’t came home? Did he stay at his godmother’s longer or what? *understands that Matteo was worried and thinks its stupid that David didn’t get in touch with him until friday*

Matteo: *shakes his head* No he came back on Thursday… well to Berlin at least… he stayed in this run-down building, I think it once was some health institution or something like that… he somehow has this flight instinct… *takes another sip* There we had… well after we escaped from Abdi’s party we were there as well… I never thought he would be there until he sent me the message…

Jonas: *takes a sip while Matteo talks and frowns when Matteo talks about the run-down building* *nods slightly when he talks about the flight instinct* *shakes his head and has to ask again* He spend a whole night in an abandoned building!? Very spooky! *takes another sip* Do I get that right? You didn’t know where he was since Thursday and on Friday he sent you: I am here by the way… And you then went there? And then? *doesn’t get why David didn’t came to Matteo and why he didn’t tell him earlier where he is* *thinks it’s all pretty weird but holds back with comments*

Matteo: *just nods slightly at Jonas first question* *nods again* Yeah, well… actually I think he said goodbye… but he mentioned something and then I knew where he was so I went there… *shrugs* He was really miserable and thought he is alone anyway and… well… that’s why he didn’t contact me I guess… *looks at Jonas and tilts his head* Sometimes we just can’t accept help right away… you and I know that quite well…

Jonas: *widens his eyes when Matteo tells him that David wanted to say goodbye and interrupts him* To say goodbye?! To you or what?! Dude… *doesn’t likes that at all and snorts quietly* *can’t hold back anymore and it practically bursts out of him* Ey, Brudi, being miserable or not, but he could have known that you were worried! And saying goodbye… don’t you mean anything to him or what? If I understand you correctly then running away was more important to him than you? *frowns when Matteo tries to compare David to the both of them and shakes his head* Not being able to accept help immediately is something different than running away! You and me... we just occasionally needed some time... but in the end we've always been looking for a way to talk!

Matteo: *swallows slightly at Jonas’ outburst* No man, he was just… it wasn’t about me, ok? It was about everything else going on… *shakes his head because that doesn't sound any better either* Yeah, okay, it sucked.. but it all just came back for him after being outed by Stefan… what happened at his old school and all… *swallows slightly* He knows that it was shitty of him… and to be honest in this moment it didn’t matter to me… *hesitates for a moment to sort his thoughts and feelings and to decide what he wants to say to Jonas* I just wanted and want to be with him, okay?

Jonas: *wanted to ask what Matteo means with ‘everything else’ when he adds some parts* *is a bit sceptical and wants to add something but closes his mouth again to think first and takes a sip of his beer* *would like to know what happened at David’s old school but knows that Matteo would never tell him and that if at all he would hear about it from David at some point* *looks a bit surprised at Matteo when he says that all of it didn’t matter to him but begins to understand at his last sentence* *feels his heart burst a little bit when he realizes the extend of what Matteo just said an has to admit to himself that he doesn’t know Matteo that way - him really fighting for something he wants - but knows to well that he holds himself back* *however wonders to what extent "holding yourself back" is actually decisive when you get what you want in the end* *nods hesitantly and says* Okay. *takes another sip and adds apologetically* I didn't mean, and I don't mean to talk bad about him, okay? I just want him to appreciate what he has in you. I want you to be more important to him than running away. *looks at him questioningly and then carefully adds* I hope he's got the point!

Matteo: *nods slightly at his okay* Okay. *shrugs at Jonas’ statement* *can’t speak for David* *but then thinks back at the last three days and nods* I think so… *grins slightly at the memories and looks a bit lost for a moment* *looks then back to Jonas* I mean he is here now, isn’t he? *nudges him with his foot* Don’t give him the “I will kill you” speech immediately when he comes by later, okay?

Jonas: *nods hesitantly when Matteo tells him that David is here now and sighs quietly* The important thing is that he stays... *laughs and kick Matteo back a bit harder* Dude, what do you think of me!? *takes a sip of beer and grins* He won't get it until next week at the earliest... when he feels safe in my presence... moohar... *pretends a mean laugh, but then shakes his head* Just kidding! *then sits up a bit straighter and gathers himself* Okay, go on... you found him in this building and apparently found the right words... no, don't worry, you don't have to repeat them... and then? Did you drag him back to your place and you have...? *does some obvious sex moves and grins a bit dirty*

Matteo: *shakes his head but grins at the same time* I knew I could count on you... *had hoped that question time was over, but knows that it's not when Jonas sits upright* *shakes his head and kicks him again in his motion* Dude! *throws a pillow at him* First of all, it's none of your business and secondly, it wasn't here and with that the topic is closed!

Jonas: *avoids the pillow and laughs* *asks innocently* What?! *makes big eyes and says* Ohoo... you dragged him to his place and then you... *wiggles his eyebrows and protects himself in his corner of the sofa from any more possible kicks or pillows* *laughs but then eventually it gets serious* *sighs once and then sums up* So in summary: You've got it all figured out, and now you're one of those cheesy couples in love...

Matteo: *nods and grins big* Yep, that's it. We stand outside our windows and sing love songs all the time now and... um, I really don't know what else is cheesy... *laughs* Besides, we already got Carlos and Kiki for the super cheesy stuff... *then grins a bit meaner* Or some others who may find back together...

Jonas: *laughs together with Matteo* Yes, Carlos is very passionate in this role... *then sways his head back and forth as Matteo obviously talks about Hanna and him* Oh, come on... Hanna and I have never been cheesy... *leaves it uncommented whether they get back together or not* *has no idea if it’s ever going to work out between them anyway and is also unsure whether or not to take the initiative*

Matteo: *laughs* Sure… you and your guitar were never cheesy when it came to Hanna… *takes another sip of his beer* Is that the end of the question time? *sees Jonas nodding and hears the doorbell*

*Jonas laughs and says that there must be someone else who is curious* *Matteo lets Carlos and Abdi in, gives them a beer and but only tells them the short version, that he and David saw each other again on Friday and not Thursday, but that they sorted everything out and now all is good* So please guys, don't make a big deal out of it when he gets here later, okay? We'll just chill together, okay?

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Our bodies are chemical systems, and you know this already if you’ve ever drank alcohol, had flu medicine, or taken psychedelics. Feelings and emotions are basically the side-effects of chemical reactions, so with the right chemicals, any emotion can be synthesised.

I was thinking about this because of Ramadan. While fasting, I notice things about my general being that are different.

The obvious one is my mood. The farther in the day we are, the more likely that someone small will annoy me. It’s unlikely that I’ll react to it, because I’m usually conscious about what’s happening, but it’ll be there.

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What this reminds me of is that the mind is not separate from the body. They’re one and the same, and a change in one will directly affect the other.

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Excerpt from this article from InsideClimate News:

Seizing a new opportunity they believe has been opened up by the White House, hard-line foes of climate action on Monday once again asked the Trump Administration to reverse the landmark Obama-era finding that greenhouse gases are a danger to human health and the environment.

The Competitive Enterprise Institute (CEI), a conservative Washington, D.C., think tank and steadfast ally of the fossil fuel industry, filed a petition with the U.S. Environmental Protection Agency (EPA), seeking to block the agency from continuing to use the so-called "endangerment finding" adopted by the agency in 2009 as a basis for policymaking.

The endangerment finding served as the foundation for most of President Barack Obama's climate agenda, providing the legal basis for his administration's actions to curb emissions from power plants and motor vehicles. The U.S. Supreme Court had ruled in 2007 that the EPA had authority to regulate greenhouse gases as pollutants if it found that they were a danger to human health and the environment.

If the EPA were to suspend the endangerment finding, it would have profound consequences for rules the agency adopted under the Clean Air Act.

CEI has long challenged the science of climate change, and soon after President Donald Trump took office, the organization filed a petition with EPA challenging the endangerment finding on its scientific merits.

But CEI's new challenge is different—it doesn't attack the science per se, but instead challenges the process that the EPA used to adopt the endangerment finding. CEI argues that the scientific peer review done at that time did not meet the government's legal data quality requirements under guidelines expanded on April 24 by Trump's Office of Management and Budget.

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