#2) ur also v v kind to say the thing abt my presence in fandom

[fluxweeed]

hey. hope this message doesn't bother you. I love you. I love your work. you are one of my favorite fic authors, I am absolutely obsessed with everything you write. reread everything ten times over, drarry or not, fluffy or angsty - even when it absolutely shatters my heart (e.g. for lack of wanting, SUCH a great fic btw i'm so obsessed with it). the four doors? life changing. two to lie and one to listen? engraved into my brain for eternity. what's mine is yours? what a ride holy shit, im VERY normal about it. wrapped? my comfort read. and so it goes.

if I could aggressively smother you with kudos and love I WOULD!!!

awhile ago you said that there's no such thing as "big deals" in fandom and I 100% agree but at the same time you are a big deal TO ME!!! not in the sense of any kind of hierarchy but purely based on the fact that I think you are such a cool person and your writing is amazing and poignant and your presence in fandom makes it so much better. it's been a pleasure following you here on tumblr and just reading your tags and posts.

idk I just think you rule. that's it. thank you for hanging with us. MWAH 💛

ahhhh anon sorry for leaving this message sitting in my inbox for a couple of days but !! i have zero idea how to react to this!! you're so kind!! thank you!! please discard any and all inclinations u have that i am a cool person bc i can assure you i am NOT!!

[binnieseason]

hello!! so a few days ago i reached another milestone which is,, p crazy!! i’m v thankful for everyone who has like,, just?? taken time out to interact or look at my content. it means a lot n reading peoples’ tags on my posts is just so!! lovely bc everyone is so nice n sweet n i rlly appreciate it!! so thank u for making me feel special n for validating me i hope u all know that i love u all n u have made me v happy n i can’t believe that 2k+ people want to?? see stuff i post?? what?? anyway!! i hope i didn’t leave anyone out but i’ve tagged my mutuals n bolded some who i’m gonna leave a special message for at the end!! look for the emoji i put at the end of ur tag for ur message 💕✨once again, thank u to anyone and everyone who has ever looked at my dumb blog or said smth nice or has sent me sweet asks. i truly appreciate it so much and i hope u all know i love u 💓💫

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@minhoie @minhostrology @minkiwans @naegahoshsvt  💙@pillix @prodskz @risingsan @seungmies @seungminsmile @seungmqn @shortminho @skzbc @skzd @spearbe @spearones @stray--kings @stray-kids @stray-moon @straykids01 @straymemes @thegoodkindoftrash @theminho 💜@thiscaratwillstay @threeracha @ult-minho @ultscb 🌸@uwulix @wlwleefelix @yngbok 🌹; lyka!! bub,, u have no idea how much i love n appreciate u. u have been so lovely to me always n i’m sending u so many hugs bc u deserve them all. ur gifs are always gorgeous n ur tags are the cutest n i love you lots n hope u know how much i appreciate u and ur presence in my life n in this fandom 💌❣️ 🍊; ana!! u are the SWEETEST n idk what i did to deserve u giving me lov n stuff :(( i love u lots n i’m always wishing u the best bc u deserve nothing but love n happiness. ilu ✨ 🌻; lea!! hi hello thank u for always supporting me when i decide to make another sideblog sdjkjsfjk (even tho u should be discouraging it fsdjkfdjk). ur rlly the sweetest n i really appreciate everything u bring to my dash n this fandom ilu!!  🌿; bella!! u were one of my first pals on this site and i’m so appreciative of u. ur lovely and ur so funny n kind n i hope u know how special u are and how much u lighten up my dash 💖💫love u!! 🦋; amy!! first of all ur so funny and cool and i’m INTIMIDATED by cool u are. u do ur own thing n i think that’s amazing!! plus,, i’ll never forget the time where u rb’d my changbin gif everyday FSJKFDJK. i love u so much and i really hope u know how wonderful and appreciated u are bb. plus ur a leo n that’s the most valid sign so there’s that 😔👊🏻n/e way ilu 💞 🐳; cheese!! my bal!! i love u so much u superb little dude,,, even tho u clown me for my accent :// ur literally the FUNNIEST. u have made me laugh so hard so many times i can’t believe that u really be that hilarious???? will NEVER forget that photo u sent that broke me. love u so much u funky cheese kid 😔💘 ☂️; kashi!! did u know that u are the loveliest person 2 exist?? n that ur writing is so gorgeous n i’m so envious that u can just,,, write stuff that is so!! stunning?? n u are my #1 hypewoman so it’s time for me to hype u up: ur so talented n sweet n amazing n everytime u send me cute asks it instantly makes me feel!! the best!! u are such a lovely presence and deserve the whole world and more. love u bub 🤧💓

💕; jan!!!! my bal,,,, my personal clown,,,, the biggest hyuck enthusiast,,,, i love u so much. ur SO funny n real and i love that. also u send the bals lots of memes so i appreciate that thank u sm. ur really the funniest ilysm thank u for being my bal 🤧❣️ ❣️; ellie!! hello hello i know we haven’t interacted a lot but i hope u know that i rlly lov seeing u in my notifs n we are all lucky to have such a sweetheart in the fandom 🤧lov u !! 💕 🧡; kelly!! i need u to know that ur SO SWEET N CUTE. like,, what is it like being that lovely n kind n wonderful?? plus!! ur a bundle of talent and when u deny it i am ready to fight u on it okay. ur talented n sweet and i don’t deserve u 🤧💞ilu!! 🌼; lulu!! hi hi i think ur rlly cool n funny n i love seeing u on my dash!! plus,, ur a fellow aussie which instantly makes u my pal okay okay. i know we haven’t interacted much but i jus,, wanna tell u that i appreciate u n think ur wonderful 💫lov u!! ☘️; vale!! did u know i love u to bits and think u are mega talented n sweet?? like ur gifs are gorgeous and ur SO talented u gotta trust me. and ur always so supportive of me and my content and ur tags are always ????? so sweet wtf???? n/e way ur so special n talented and i want u know that ur so lovely n wonderful and u deserve ALL the happiness and love. lov u, u talented little bub 😔❣️ 💙; rick!! suck my ass!! jk lov u and i said i would include u so here u go baby boy. tell aki and ur new cat,, big chungus,, that i love them. love u sweet prince 😔🤙🏻 💜; bub!! hello!! i wanna tell u that ur amazing n that ur gifs are amazing and that u are wonderful n so sweet. ur tags are always so cute dsjkkj and i really appreciate all the nice stuff u say abt my gifs n stuff. please keep doing what ur doing bc ur content is gorgeous and ur lovely 💖 lov u!! 🌸; taryn!! i NEED u to know that ur colouring saved me. like,,,, whenever i see ur gifs i’m just!! in awe. how do u do that!! bls,,, how are they all stunning. but yes yes ik our interactions are v few,, but i really love ur presence on my dash n ur so talented and nice and funny and i want u know that ily 💌🌹 okay okay ik this is long,, thank u everyone i’m truly so appreciative :(( 💓

[kkukkung]

Im crying in the school bathroom rn I seriously love wonho so much I'm in pain why is he my ideal guy in every way he's so amazing and handsome and sweet but whO CARES BEVause he don't kno me haha am I right

big mood all the time im always in pain bc he rly................ doesn’t KNOW i would let him shave off my eyebrows if he wanted 2

tardy replies as usual under the cut!

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I wouldn't even care if wonho was a high maintenance boyf tbh I'd just sit and comb his hair all day and tell him he's pretty

hdjkfh this was so long ago but i think i was mostly kidding abt him being a high maintenance bf... like he would do so much giving? but i guess the only thing he’d need is constant reassurance that his s/o loves him imo jfdhgjk... i also think he’d b someone who either doesn’t settle down ever or does it very late in his life!

annie 🌹literary queen ❤️ literally crowned with a laurel wreath! not be drum attic but this midsummer nights monsta au is so!!!! give me sistar as the four star crossed lovers then drag me to h*ll and give me this doctor faustus au i'm itching for with kihyun as faustus and k.will as mephistopheles bc i love to watch my faves s*ffer but don't let me rip until i get my much ado about nothing au with the entire cast of starship ent and a lil cameo from giriboy!

(in refence to this monsta x as shakespearean archetypes ask!) fjdshgkjs shh i lov u... why is k will as mephistopheles so Accurate esp no.mercy k will lmao. um u should write all of these? in fact if... if anyone has mx literary aus.... hmu...... i’ll n*t

another thing about that incident is that it seems like the fan doesn't think Changkyun and Jooheon undersood them?? (an extension i guess they assumed they don't understand english very well) and that's pretty problematic. it seems to me that when they didn't respond the fan assumed they didn't understand and kept repeating it, as a joke. but they literally did That to the two with the most proficient english in the group... it's rly a mess all around. it's disrespectful through and through

(in relation to that gross “d*ddy” incident from a while ago) ik i feel like some intl fans think korea is a land completely culturally and linguistically alienated/divorced from the rest of the world or something and while cultural relativism is real to some extent... the idea that koreans are completely unaware of ~outside~ things is deeply racist. like mostly white ppl think that diasphoric poc are completely Different from them? when my mum went to the states 15 years ago some ppl literally asked her if there were newspapers in china lol...

i just randomly thought of monsta x as sesame street characters mostly bc i wanna see kihyun and wonho duke it out as bert and ernie (kihyun w/ the waste paper bin on his head and wonho asking 'where's the waste paper bin' and kihyun saying 'ask me that again and look into my eyes') and also minhyuk being elmo tbh...

JKGHKJDF PLEASe!!!! when will something like this b photoshopped... minhyuk as elmo is... spot on... i remember once elmo appeared on a now-discontinued late night talk show program i used to watch when i was in primary school and he was like “elmo likes wasabi, that’s why elmo has no eyebrows” and idk why ive never been able to forget this????? very lmh. also this made me think of a monsta x muppets au n minhyuk is the pic of ass-gape kermit.... next post of mine will b monsta x as kermit reaction pics

Hyungkyun is such an under appreciated ship. Like, they just get each other so well? Why do people overlook it. ㅠ.ㅠ Do you have a moment that made you ship them? How would you describe their dynamic?

it’s bc they’re intp x intj they don’t rly... Understand each other with minimal effort/real communication lmao it’s very efficient. both quiet lil darlings who aren’t emotionally That Open but enjoy their own little space together sometimes?? their dynamic is like... they’re weird in different ways but they’re v chill together. u can tell hyungwon is super fond of changkyun like he has this Expression when ck does anything at all.... i think these two rly love each other’s personalities bc they’re both kind/gentle/peaceful types and their overall ?? vibe is just highly compatible... they’re absolute darlings... v soft together... i can’t think of a favourite moment but i rly rly love their birthday messages for each other last year like changkyun’s message for hyungwon was like “ur rly cool bruh ur rly such a great person” and hyungwon’s message for changkyun was rly... just him obviously doting on him n finding him cute jksfdhg i lov them a lot :(

soyou: i know how to make hair pretty :))) knetz: dirty fckn iljin why can't she be out there being being PRODUCTIVE in society by having babies and learning how to be a good wife for her future husband ://// smh how dare she be successful now when i'm stuck doing what society wants me to do but also anonymously attacking ppl i don't personally know on the internet bc THATS respectable the irony of ugly knetz is so transparent

The whole thing about Knetz and wonho's "scandalous" past reminded me of something. As a PSA to those people who are so insistent and pushy that idols aren't allowed to have sex/date/be anything but straight: Fuck all of you. You do not own these people, and if you really cared about them you'd be happy if they were happy. Like tbh, if anyone that famous and busy could also balance out a relationship at the same time, I'd be so happy for them. It really bugs me how all idols are supposed (1/2)(2/2) have this squeaky clean innocent image where they have to look and act a certain way and have these stupid fucking dating bans because once they don't meet up to that image their success suffers. Idols already give up so much privacy, and the last thing they need is millions of people scrutinizing every little thing they do. I don't even know where I started this rant from, but basically, GIVE IDOLS PRIVACY AND DONT JUDGE THEM FOR THEIR PASTS OR FOR BEING IN RELATIONSHIPS OR WHATEVER

yeth ty for highlighting the gross obsession w purity and productivity (like the first anon said -- a very confucian sort of ideal)... i don’t rly have anything else to add here i think. also i would fight for soyou i fact i would fight lmh who said she was his ideal type in no.mercy era... she’s rly one of my faves and the way she was slandered for the hairdressing thing was one of the most ridiculous things knets ever did lmao honestly yuk

u a kihyun stan now👀👀👀

im a @fhiz​ stan it’s the same thing tbh

ahh so i saw your tags on that jh gifset! as one of the few jh stans (or maybe there are way more than i think there are lol) i rly love his "reversal charm." he has a lot of what i lack as a person: a strong presence and a lot of confidence! i respect him so much as a person alth i rag on him a lot LMAO. sorry if this is a bit long winded but i just rly wanted to put this out there ;;

this is rly cute i lov hearing ppl talk abt their faves lovingly it rly... Heals Me. i think it’s strange how underappreciated jooheon is in this fandom especially bc he’s usually the one who catches ur eye first bc he’s so hyped by starship as being a one-in-a-million talented rapper u know? and he rly shines in mvs and no.mercy but............. y does he have the least fansites jkfhdg ?? you’re v right abt the reversal charm thing but i feel like sometimes it’s very overdone like... on lots of shows he’s asked to do aegyo when rly he should be asked to... idk... rap or dance or something?? i actually think jooheon is the most serious member of monsta x sometimes bc he seems to have a sense that he’s.. the pillar of mx if that makes sense? and that’s why he’s always pushing himself and working tirelessly like he feels very Responsible for this group, more than anyone else. idk if that makes sense!!! i love him and i want him to... unwind a bit bc sometimes he looks so stressed and tired but he still feels the need to pretend to be energetic like my heart rly hurts for him :/ this got so emo im sry i do rly love to hear that u respect him sm i love jooheon stans :(

i can see what u mean about jooheon being 1 of the most masculine. (iirc u also talked abt kihyun being that in a post a while ago) like with his face and his physique he really is striking; his body=like that slim,upside-down Y that you'd learn to draw men w/ in Anatomy 101 , but i think.. ,--not that u asked, but,, i think the jury's still out on if he's comfortable w his masculinity with the way he acts feminine lyk misogynistic comedians Can sound like dead ringers for women,? idk & i take +

(not sure if there was a 2nd part to this? there’s nothing else in my inbox so i’m sry if there was and tumblr ate it) yeth i think i meant that his demeanor is the most ~~masculine~~ whereas i think kihyun is still the most... idk... mature-masculine?? if tht makes sense, and i definitely agree w u on that second point! i didn’t think of that at the time but now that i... do... think abt it... ur right and also the way he comes back from it by putting on the >swag demeanor again in an attempt to polarise it is definitely a bit 👀👀👀 he probably doesn’t want to risk his Manly Rapper Image for real u kno? that said it’s ingrained in kpop that behaving cute --> “girly” entails that sort of “comedic” high-pitched voice + compact body language etc.... like i’m not condoning that ofc but i definitely think it’s broader than this particular case! :/ hm

maybe i'd be doing better in school if i could major in kihyunology ;~; i stan him but i def think we still don't know much about him even after all this time after debut. especially when i look at him compared to wonho who wears his heart on his sleeve (bless him i love wonho sm, gotta protect this bun at all costs!!)...but ya it just makes me wanna learn more about him like who is the real kihyun??

i want to write a kihyun meta when i have time... i feel like i Get him a bit more these days but it’s also very hard to put into words bc u kno when u kinda sorta mb get some1 but it’s a feeling rather than anything conveniently expressable gkjdhfjk.... idk if anyone wants to send in some Kihyun Thoughts + Meta feel free! :>> i don’t think he’s actually... as complex as we sometimes make him out to be lol like his behaviour is actually kind of predictable? more on his later

wait is the february comeback actually true? ugh i'm so conflicted cuz on one hand i'm excited if there's really gonna be a full length album, but i also think they need more rest but then there's the matter of getting their first win and idk i'm super psyched but i'm also worried that the boys are being overworked

i still feel like they had a comeback like yesterday lol like looking at their schedules stresses me out bc they do so much..... im glad wonho got to go to his mum’s cafe recently tho! all we can do is have faith in them rn and when it’s time... stream, buy things if ur able to, spread the news and the hype etc. i am definitely Worried abt some things like the competition they’re up against but.... gotta have faith u kno... and i feel like all active idols are kind of... permanently worked very hard but i think currently only jooheon and shownu are a bit Overloaded. also has the date been confirmed yet... it’s february already...