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Yandere and angst mixed in one fic

Thanks for the request!! It's not really a fic but a thought based on that.Thouughhh the qualilty is kinda ehhh..lol- it was still fun to think and write though!:

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Yandere Angst Scenario

Tags: implied bullying, sadism, yandere goes from cruel to a desperate individual, darling had feelings for the yan but then lost them, mentioned ex partner, angst.

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Imagine a yandere who absolutely despises you but desperately clings onto you. They need you but at the same time berate you for the littlest of things. They say they love you but never fail to make you cry. They claim that you have them wrapped around your thumb but can easily ruin your life just by muttering a few words into someone's ear. You try to get away, but they always follow.

There's been multiple times where they've come into your workplace, only to slowly turn everyone against you. Passive glances, total silence, uncomfortable deadpanned stares. You've never felt so alone whenever they were in your life. You'd be all alone, and they would always be surrounded by others- smiling and passing by you without any acknowledgment. There was one time at a company celebration where everyone was supposed to be at a bar drinking together. Everyone sat at a table together, and you sat there alone, watching them. When you prepared to leave, you recalled them paying their farewells. You smiled, thinking it was for you, but only to realise in embarrassment that it was for the newbie who stood up after you made your way to the door. You remembered how empty you felt when you got home, no tears to be shed - but just that suffocating acceptance.

The worst part is, this person, the reason why your social life has always been in the dumps - was the person you were so in love with. It's funny how that works. Shouldn't you hate them? You can't bring yourself to though..It seemed so long ago, but there was one point that the two of you were in good terms. Were you friends? You weren't so sure. The memories were so distant, but the feelings were still there. Why did you like them again?

That didn't matter anymore. It didn't help that they were with someone you knew closesly only to hurt you out of spite. So what was the point in all this? The gossiping, the microaggressions, the dread. You've tried confronting them about it, only for them to feign innocence and make you feel stupid at the end.

"You think I'm the reason why your social life is shit? Seriously? How old are you?"

"Take a look in the mirror. Maybe that's why no one talks to you."

"Your desperation is so obvious and pathetic. It drives people away. So stop seeking validation from others and love yourself, kay?"

"Now sorry, I'm busy. I have someone to meet. Unlike you."

So this person that you love so much, that for some awful reason- seek validation from, crushes you in the most heartwrenching way. And when it comes to this person, they don't pay any mind to you. They like how you're underneath them. They adore how you seek validation from them in the most subtle of ways (even though its not really to them personally), and they find you laughable. You knew that for sure - they've told you so many times.

So, did they love you? Surprisingly, yes. In their own twisted way, this is how they loved you. So they break your heart over and over again. Eventually, though, you move on. You find new friends, workplaces, and lover.. Of course it would happen, nothing lasts forever. They let you have your fun of course- but begin to get tired of it. So they take it away all over again. Your friends..And of course, that lover.

So there you are, angry with tears as you stand outside their apartment. Banging on the door as you call out their name. They answer, and they stare at you- smiling as they tilt their head to the side mockingly, asking you whats wrong. You yell, scream, and sob as you show them the messages you're now ex sent you. How they framed you for cheating on them..With them.

"What the fuck is wrong with you? What the actual FUCK is wrong with you. I never fucked you, I never- EVER will. So why did you say that- why, WHY?! Wasn't it enough when you made my life at the office a living hell? Isn't it enough?!"

"Oh, you came. That was quick. Do you wanna come in? Or do you wanna continue making a scene out here? Your choice."

"A-Are you even listening?"

"In or out?"

So you go inside..And you just sit there on their couch crying. You think for a moment they have some remorse as they stare at you with empathy as they sit beside you, placing a hand on your shoulder..But..

"Oh hun..I just love seeing you cry. That's it. It's not over pure love or some complicated shit. It just turns me on seeing you all pathetic."

"I need you by my side. You're the only one who could ever feel so..Alive like this. Maybe I do love you. Who knows?"

"Maybe we could find out..I'm sorry you have to suffer like this..But..I mean what else is there to say pft?"

"I know I'm being selfish. So just bare with me alright?"

"I think I love you. I don't want you being with anyone else. At the same time..I want you crying because of me. Then that shows me how much I matter to you"

"You don't cry over a nobody..So I'm somebody to you"

"Don't you see why that's special? It's stupid...So huh, maybe I am in love with you."

"....I love you. I think? That's why I'm doing all this.."

Laughing bitterly, you just stare in disbelief as you shove them and leave.

"There’s something fucking wrong with you. Get help."

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Years later they would get softer as they realised how much you really mean to them. How much love you actually deserved, how dumb they were to use you in a way that was cruel. Sure even now they had sadistic urges, but they could've acted on them in other ways. God it's embarrassing thinking about it! Looking back on their cruelty like it was some middleschool cringe and not ruining someones well being- they often think about you and the ways they could bring you back.

They messed up, and the day you left and never returned made them realise it.

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"Hey, it's me-"

"Who the fuck are you? H-How did you get in?! Why are you in my house-"

"Look..I wanted to say sorry. 5 years ago I never realised how much you really meant to me, and I took that for-"

"I don't care go away. I'm calling the cops-"

"Says who? Try it, the service is dead."

"What..?"

"Look. I know you must've been pissed for the shit I pulled back then..But I changed! The day you left, I realised that-"

"Oh my god..It's you.."

"Yeah.. I know it's been a while.."

"Wasn't making my life miserable back then enough? Or not? You took a lot from me back then, what more could you want now?"

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"So now you're sorry? You're only sorry cause I left. I'm never loving you, I never will."

"Well you don't know that.."

"Ohhh trust me. I know so."

"We'll see about that."

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"Honey..Look stop struggling. I know back then I must've really hurt you, but it's going to be different now okay? I love you. I mean it. And I don't care how far I have to go to show that to you"

"I know you love me. You loved me before..So I know you'll love me again. I'm not the same as I was before, I promise!"

"Give me another chance..I promise I'll make you happy"

"So stop struggling, or I'll twist that pretty leg of yours."

"Aww..Sorry hun. Didn't mean to slap you that hard but- I think I kind of like this look on you.."

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A/N: So I tried to go for a sadistic yandere being cruel to their darling who had feelings for them but then went too far...Only for their darling to no longer like them due to the heart break!

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Sad yandere scenario again based on my two ocs April and Hyun (god these two angsty men that I love sm):

No one ever talks about the darling in most of these yandere situations being in love with their obessessor. All the time their always running away in fear, despising them, wanting nothing to do with them. How their lives would've been better if their 'lover' had never taken them in the first place.

But what if it was the opposite? What if this darling was so in love with their obessessor but couldn't accept the murders and lives their crush destroyed. What would that say about them? They can't let those lives go in vain.

So their caught up in this moral debate within themselves that's so painful. They love them so much that they can't imagine anyone else loving them like they do. Their insecurities often get to the best of them, the self loathing that can only be comforted by them often acts as a temptation for the darling to just instantly melt into their arms.

Why couldn't they be evil like them? Why couldn't they be selfish and ignore what they've done? Why did they have to kill and torture all those people?

Those thoughts always flip from grief to hatred.

They want them dead. It's not fair that they have to suffer. They have to avenge those people, it's their fault that their dead.

It's always a chase of cat and mouse. But the yandere doesn't even have to try that hard. All they have to do is just continue to be all sweet and loving- that alone is enough to torture the darling to spiral down.

"You love me, and it's painful for you to keep running away. So just stop torturing yourself..Please."

"But I won't force you to do anything, it's always up to you."

But it never is. No matter how much they give them space, no matter how many times they let them go- they really don't have a choice in the end.

In the end, this darling does run away like the rest of the other typical darlings. But not because of their fear and undesire for their obessessor, but rather because of the fact that they can not handle the grief that comes with mouring the death of someone they thought they knew and loved.

I mean, you can't lie. Wouldn't you be devasted if the person you absolutely adored and loved for so long turned out to be a mask or an illusion?

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Working on the yandere obey me writing event prompts and I just love how my brain just flat lined with these 3 for their backstories 😭

Like Beel really really said "omg..They're just like me fr.."

I'm thinking of rewriting Beelzebub's prompt for this...But I'm not sure what to think of. Like for the writing event, it's a Human world Au where the brothers fall for an Mc without them going to RAD- but instead just happened to stumble upon them when visiting earth--

So man I don't know..But my brain is so fried right now ('A`)ﾉ

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"Look. I know you must've been pissed for the shit I pulled back then..But I changed! The day you left, I realised that-"

"Uh-huh, okay!"

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Hear me out:

Yandere Fem Grand Admiral Leviathan x Demon Secretary who's been by her side for YEARS

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Writing practice: 2023

[Context: How Yan CEO and darling employee stopped being friends when they were in university]

[Pairing: April x Hyun]

Note:(For anyone confused, I'm basically just writing yan Oc scenes to get back into writing^^)

Also this is an old writing I just decided to post!

Tw: cringe, edgyness lmao, but also mentions of bodily fluids and someone being forced to eat vomit so....

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He looked at the floor, his vision wavering as he stared at the mess on the floor.

He thought tonight would be the night where he could finally let loose, make some friends and for once feel like he belongs in a group, to catch a break from the constant tired feeling that weighed him down everyday. Was that too much to ask for?

What happened?

Mixtures of red, spit, and orange chunks laid on the floor. He's currently hiding behind a corner, listening for any footsteps and voices. How could a night like this go so wrong? It was only a drink, it was only a get together, how did it end up so violent? He's not in the right mind, he can't even walk straight. He for sure knows that his appearance is a clear tell tale sign that he's drunk beyond comprehension. He can a hear a heavy wheeze inhale from someone, so out of instinct he holds his breath.

He should probably leave.

It wasn't his party. He usually hates going out with groups of people, but just for him he decided that maybe he should get to know his bestfriend's friends. At first he was miserable, feeling left out and awkward about the people who conversed in their own little worlds, but slowly he became part of that world. It was fun. So why did it come crashing down? The guy was only drunk, he didn't mean to say what he said. He forgave him! So why is he doing this?

What should he do?

He can hear everything now. The footsteps, the desperate crawling, the laughter. It was him, that was his voice. With each thud, he could feel his heart jump, with each groan of pain, he can feel his body eletricify with fear, and with every word that came out of his beloved best friend's mouth, he felt awful. Looking from that corner, he saw everything.

What the fuck is wrong with you?

The man groaned in pain, aplogizing profusely. He didn't mean to say those words, he was just angry at the moment. It didn't matter to Hyun though, he just kept smirking as he kept walking towards the man who tried so desperately to crawl away. Tears were in his eyes, his hands were swollen with a deep purple and yellow. All he could process was the guy on the floor was begging, and Hyun was just mocking him back with a high pitched voice.

Why wasn't doing anything?

Another blow was sent towards the brunette's stomach. Lurching forward, trying to pick himself up, he let out a pain moan as held his stomach, throwing up out of the pressure that came from the kick.

He should do something.

Now Hyun was leaning down, grabbing onto the man's hair with disgust before spitting on his face. With the grip with his fingers tight, the man tried to reach out for the hand that pulled on his scalp, only to have his face smushed against his own stomach fluids. Again and again, Hyun stayed crouched, laughing at the sounds the poor man made everytime he wheezed out of agony.

"You wanna say that again? You have the guts right? So eat it up. Every single slop of your filth, eat. It. Up."

Back and fourth, up and down, the man's body was smashed against the concrete. Laughter filled the room as the man gurgled against his own spit and blood. He could see his eyelids getting heavy, his breathing slowing down. Oh god oh god, why doesn't he step up now?

"Holy shit, you're so pathetic. Look at you making that face. Aww, is someone a bit drowsy? Go on, lick the vomit off the floor. Do it. You know what?"

Scooping up the mess on the floor, he pulled back the man's head, making sure his mouth was off the ground. Satisfied, he proceeded to take the filth that he scooped up and shoved it against the man's mouth. All the blood, the bile, everything, was smeered onto his face.

"Go on. Eat up piggy. Go on, you can do it you little bitch."

Horrified he finally revealed himself from the corner, speeding towards him. Angry and worried for the man's safety, he pushed him away from the man, yelling as he put himself in between him and the man.

"W-What the fuck is wrong with you? What the actual hell are you doing?! I don't wanna hear it, go away before I call the cops on you. Jesus christ..What did you do?"

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(Yandere CEO's right-hand man) Marco's dialogue towards his darling lover in his original canon universe:

"Me? Murder Angela? Do you really think of me like that?"

"Man, remember college? Pftt- I remember I had that midwest emo phase! But you? You haven't changed one last bit.."

"I'm sorry if I'm too clingy, you just make me happy that's all.."

"Y'know with this new promotion..I could treat you out to a dinner no one else could ever~ what do ya say?"

"Matheias..Man, I haven't heard from him since college..Now what did he say about me?"

"Ahh, well these gifts are for you and no one else! I mean for my first paycheck, I thought the first thing I'd spend it on was on you..Afterall you've been there for me thick and thin.."

"Man, to I'm related to one of the richest men in Korea! Damn..Dude you know what that means? I can do anything I want! Anything.."

"I'm just saying, you shouldn't be around them. I'm not trying to control you! But I'm just telling you, you're better off without them. I mean look at you! I wouldn't want anything to happen to my sweet employee~"

"I won't hurt you! L-Look, I know you saw me with that other guy, and..It was all just a misunderstanding! Trust me, I'd have to be dead before anyone touches a hand on you.."

"I don't understand it, you love me - I know you do! How could you not? You said it yourself before.. I've done so much for you. How could you say that?"

"Don't you understand how happier everything has been ever since you let me in your life? I was made to be with you, you can't deny that."

"I can give you so much more than what anyone could give you in their life! With the job I now have...With my money..You'll be set for life! You'll be spoiled rotten, you won't ever know what it's like to want something ever again. So stop making this hard for yourself, I don't want to be forced to do something that you might hate me for.."

"So what if I'm pathetic? You made me this way. You made me into this wallowing mess. It's your fault, so fix it."

"Honey..Honeybee...Stop this..I'm not mad at you, just a bit frustrated..Now open the door. I said open it...I SAID OPEN THE GODDAMN DOOR."

"It's funny watching you struggle in my arms..You're like a small rabbit kicking around pftt- what? It's true. You're so light, I could just easily pick you up and drop you anywhere I want, and you won't even be able to stop me haha!

"Now now now..As much as I like the feeling of you holding me, I'm afriad that I'll have to get rid of your limb privileges if you pull that shit again. Now put down the knife or else."

"I won't let you get away from me. Killing yourself isn't an option. You'll grow old with me, you'll love me until we both die together. I don't care if I have to chop off your hands in order for that. Just... Honey, I love you, okay?"

"Have you ever heard of Sonic underground? Dude I used to watch that all the time as a kid! Like the- oh..Are you there? Ah..I think I might've put too much of a dose..Eh, it's okay, you're cute when your limp against me~"

"Honey... HONEY?! I swear to FUCK when I find you we are going to have a nice lovely fucking chat. Come on..Where are you?!"

"Haha.. HAHA! So that's how it is? You just lie and run off after everything? God, aren't you just a perfect manipulator"

"Ahh.. There you are. And right in the garbage bin? Do you really think I wouldn't tear through this whole entire city to find you? Awww.. Isn't that cute?"

"But ugh- I'd usually kiss you, but you're covered in gunk.. Okay ha. Ha. Ha. You won! Whatever, I'm taking you home you trash goblin."

"I'm sorry honey baby..But you've really tested my patience..I mean running off to the police like that? Causing a scene? I'm sorry but I have to put you in your place for being such a brat. I'm not upset at you darling..But I'm never letting you step foot out of this door again. Don't worry! Maybe we could figure out how you could get some company while I'm off to work..But you really hurt me doing that..You said I could trust you!"

"Haha! You're so cute when you cry like that. I want to see more of it."

"I'm not usually the type to do this, but seeing how you've been acting..I'm afraid that I'll have to collar you up like a dog. It won't hurt, I promise! It's only just a safety precaution for your own safety."

"Mhnn..You're so soft..So warm..I can't ever let you go..Ha! Well- not like you'll ever have the choice to leave me"

"What is it? Is it my looks? My voice? My personalilty? I can change it for you! I'll do anything to make you happy. But I'm not letting you go."

"I don't care how much you beg or scream at me, I don't care how annoying or bitchy you are- I'll never get tired of you."

"After everything..You just expect me to forget it? How can I? You're everything to me. You can't just do that. That's just cruel.."

"I know you're upset at me for getting rid of them.. I know its gonna be hard for you to forgive me..I'm sorry I hurt you that way. But there was no other option."

"I know their dead, but that's okay. I can provide more than they could ever. I'll be your everything, I'll provide everything for you."

"I know you love me, you’re just not ready to say it yet."

"I can't wait to see you dressed in all white.. Haha..Imagine what our wedding would be like?"

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the word “diavolo” is “devil” in italian, how did that person get pasta 😭😭

siri did him so dirty

I had the same thought! I was suprised as well since I thought they would show this guy Diavolo from Jojo's since he's the first thing that pops up when you search up Diavolo.

Idk I guess Siri's craving some pasta or smth

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Ain't no way..Holy crap??

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I'm so tired of the porn bots...LIKE SHOO FOUL DEMONS- SHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

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My brain: OMG I just thought of this new yan au story! Dude we have to start writing this. I already thought of part 1, 2, 3 and-

My old unfinished yan story waiting to be finished: 🧍‍♂️

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So close to the home stretch!!! ^^

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The summary of my Obey Me obsession...

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I love your obstacle reader fic so muchhh

I've always like the concept of reader being the yanderes victim rather than their crush type of slow burn

So reading your fic makes me very hapy

(sorry if my English is bad)

Hihi! (*^^*)

Thanks dude! That makes me low-key pretty happy to hear that!

To be honest when it comes to Yanderes x darling type of things- I'm a sucker for the Enemies to lovers type of trope with a dash of angst. It makes for a nice slow burn idea!

So when it comes to the concept of darling not being the yandere's crush for once- my brain just goes ballistic with ideas since it fits my criteria and not a lot of people do it!

Also glad to hear my writings make you happy ^^

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Me when I post my hyperfixations and ramble about my self indulgent fantasies:

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Hey yall. So I'm gonna be transparent- things haven't been really going well lately and I've been overwhelmed by school and mental/emotional things, so I'm gonna take maybe a month break.

Until then, I'll just be looking and ghosting around liking and reading posts/fanfics lolol.

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