#6.2.2025

[louisupdates]

Louis Tomlinson with fans in New Orleans [6.2.2025] 📸 ctto

[seasurfacefullofclouds1]

mackmgraham on TikTok on meeting Louis at Finn McCool’s Irish Pub in New Orleans (6 Feb 2025).

“And then we just hung out. The girls and him, just hung out. And he’s talking about, you know, cats and dogs, and about football, and about his kid. It was insane. It was just like hanging out with a friend.”

[septentrrional]

Eluveitie @ Quantic, Bucharest, Romania

6th February 2025

[yorkie-cat]

Day 3 - 6/2/2025

good god i was cooking with oil in that bottom right corner one. struck my divine inspiration the likes of which caused a temporary jump of 15 levels beyond my actual skill level. she has never looked so good by my hand

[sixtydaychips]

[prosy-days]

February 6, 2025 - Day 232

I'm glad that the ice wasn't too bad in the end.

[godsnameisjoy]

149

Date: 6 February 2025

Duration: 45 minutes at 11:15 PM

Depth:

When I sat for meditation, I wished to sit for the next 6 hours. In 6 hours, my morning alarm would ring. I wished for an all-nighter. In theory, it is possible. If my attention meditates in a mind space where I would otherwise be deep sleeping, then doing an all-nighter is possible. The wish may have stemmed from the unusually spent hours right from afternoon till meditation-time.

I began with adjusting my seat and then the opening prayer. Soon I entered the depths where the blessed stream of life energy is withdrawn enough from my sense of hearing. The unbroken sound of the first set of tickings made my attention turn to the centre of my head. My attention followed the short burst of sound as it went up the head from the centre in a straight thin line.

Maybe some day, I’ll be able to pull an all-nighter.

[twostonesreversecuatro]

6.2.2025

[sharp-diamond-ent]

❤️🎈•̩̩͙𝐁𝐀𝐋𝐋𝐎𝐎𝐍 // 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐅𝐈𝐋𝐄 •̩̩͙˚🎈❤️

𝘽𝘼𝙇𝙇𝙊𝙊𝙉 (발룬) 𝙞𝙨 𝙖 𝙛𝙞𝙫𝙚 𝙢𝙚𝙢𝙗𝙚𝙧 𝙆𝙤𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙣 𝙜𝙞𝙧𝙡 𝙜𝙧𝙤𝙪𝙥 (imaginary!) 𝙪𝙣𝙙𝙚𝙧 𝙎𝘿 𝙀𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙧𝙩𝙖𝙞𝙣𝙢𝙚𝙣𝙩

✦ Group Name: BALLOON (발룬)

✦ Debut Date: January 20, 2020

✦ Label / Company: Sharp Diamond Entertainment

✦ Number of Members: 5

✦ Fandom Name: Pitres (which means Clowns in French and fits the experimental, weird concept and the carnival/circus aesthetic)

✦ Fandom Color(s): #e00f00 and #aae3dc

✦ Concept(s): experimental, dark, carnival, circus

✦ Debut Song / Album: “Ensemble” - from their first mini album “5”, which was released on January 20, 2020

✦ Latest Comeback: “DTI” - from their second full album “Spiral”, which was released on February 6, 2025

MEMBERS

✦ Stage Name: Akira (아기라)

✦ Birth Name: Watabo Akira (わたぼ アキラ)

✦ Birth Date: November 19, 1999

✦ Nationality: Japanese 🇯🇵

✦ Zodiac Sign: Scorpio ♏️

✦ Positions: Leader, Main Vocalist, Visual

✦ Height: 165 cm

✦ MBTI: ENFJ

✦ Face Claim: Cho Mi-Yeon

✦ Stage Name: June (주네)

✦ Birth Name: Lee Ju-Na (이 주나)

✦ Birth Date: August 15, 2000

✦ Nationality: Korean 🇰🇷

✦ Zodiac Sign: Leo ♌️

✦ Positions: Main Dancer, Vocalist

✦ Height: 173 cm

✦ MBTI: INTJ

✦ Face Claim: Lee Chae-Ryeong

✦ Stage Name: Elena (에레나)

✦ Birth Name: Elena Kim (에레나 김)

✦ Birth Date: June 3, 2001

✦ Nationality: French Korean 🇫🇷 🇰🇷

✦ Zodiac Sign: Gemini ♊️

✦ Positions: Co-Leader, Main Rapper, Dancer, Sub-Vocalist, FotG

✦ Height: 160 cm

✦ MBTI: ISTP

✦ Face Claim: Jeon So-Yeon

✦ Stage Name: Lissy (릿시)

✦ Birth Name: Kim Ri-Hwa (김 리화)

✦ Birth Date: November 8, 2001

✦ Nationality: Korean 🇰🇷

✦ Zodiac Sign: Scorpio

✦ Positions: Lead Vocalist, Lead Dancer, Visual

✦ Height: 168 cm

✦ MBTI: INFJ

✦ Face Claim: Yeh Shuhua

✦ Stage Name: Grace

✦ Birth Name: Grace Park

✦ Birth Date: December 30, 2001

✦ Nationality: New Zealander Korean 🇳🇿 🇰🇷

✦ Zodiac Sign: Capricorn ♑️

✦ Positions: Main Dancer, Lead Rapper, Sub Vocalist, Maknae, Center

✦ Height: 172 cm

✦ MBTI: ENFP

✦ Face Claim: Hwang Ye-Ji

𝐀𝐋𝐁𝐔𝐌𝐒

1st Mini Album “5” - 20.1.2020 - Title Track: “Ensemble”

Digital Single “Damage” - 1.7.2020 - “Damage”

Digital Single “Forêt” - 2.12.2020 - “Forêt”

2nd Mini Album “Passepartout” - 30.3.2021 - Title Track: “Passepartout”

Digital Single “Tonnere” - 11.9.2021 - “Tonnere”

3rd Mini Album “Cold n Dark” - 9.12.2021 - Title Track: “Rendezvous”

1st Full Album “Santé” - 31.3.2022 - Title Track: “Santé”

Digital Single “Avantgarde” - 6.11.2022 - Title Track: “Avantgarde”

4th Mini Album “Pink” - 25.8.2023 - Title Track: “Sequin”

2nd Full Album “Spiral” - 6.2.2025 - Title Track: “DTI”

𝐒𝐎𝐋𝐎𝐒 𝐄𝐓𝐂.

Elenas 1st Solo Album “Mont Blanc” - 2.5.2022 - Title Track: “Château”

Graces 1st Solo (Single) “Fake Flower” - 4.7.2022 - “Fake Flower”

Lissys 1st Solo Album “Heart” - 6.11.2023 - Title Track: “Melody of Life”

-> Elena is/was part of the self-formed 3-member girl group “Les Copines” with two other half French idols from SD Entertainment. They debuted with a special Christmas + New Year Album on December 24, 2021 and had their international debut with the single “ÉTÉ” (which is sung in Korean, French and English) on June 13, 2022. In summer 2022, they even went on a small tour through France and bordering European countries. But since November 2022, they are on hiatus due to their official group schedules

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[seasurfacefullofclouds1]

https://x.com/notnotdylm/status/1887311503553974605?s=46&t=3v6fUO8HxEhcPbcR8Jxopg

good god… these record label assholes love to pretend that “times have changed”, but they are still just as greedy and evil as they always have been. i read something recently where Irving Azoff (could’ve also been Jeff? i can’t rmbr lmao) said - in so many words - that the real power in the music industry now lies with management rather than record labels.

while he’s not entirely wrong, i suppose, i cant help but wonder if it’s just some collective deflection tactic that all of these executives seem to be promoting lately. we look back at these culturally relevant, egregious cases of exploitation and abuse of artists by their labels - we watch cases like Diddy’s unfold and learn in detail how he utilized the insurmountable power he had over Cassie after signing her to his label to sexually, verbally, physically, & emotionally abuse her for over a decade - Sky Ferreira, Raye, Taylor Swift vs Scooter Braun & Scott Borchetta…

the overall picture that has been painted is a very lengthy history of record labels shelving and profiting off of and mistreating and taking advantage of the artists that they are supposed to be assisting, nurturing, and promoting. artists are told from the beginning that you cannot make it in the music industry without a label, so they have no choice to but sign to one - and the labels abuse that power. but as of late, with all of the aforementioned cases so prominent in our minds, it seems that the executives at these record labels have taken to framing it as a thing of the past.

it feels very much like them saying “sure - that happened then, but it doesn’t happen now. sure - it may have happened to George Michael and Prince and Kesha, but that’s ancient history. the people you should be looking at, the real villains now - are the managers!!!” 🙄

anyway, so much respect for Chappell Roan. i loved her speech and i cannot imagine how harrowing all of it was to say in front of some of the most powerful people in the music industry. the tweet i linked almost proves my theory imo - there was nothing inherently wrong with anything she said unless it somehow hurts your efforts to pretend record labels have “changed” and no longer mistreat their artists.

I haven’t read the article, but the headline of the opinion is disgusting. You would think that Chappell Roan was asking for the labels to make no profit at all. She was asking for labels who sign artist to provide basic benefits: a living wage and healthcare. The latter is especially relevant in 2025.

Music managers and music labels, like the healthcare insurance industry, play the game of probability, and they will always present themselves as those who take the big risks and deserve the huge gains, when they have the power to rig the numbers. They are parasites who can create the ideal parasitic system.

And yes, Irving said that quote.

Thank God for Halsey.

[septentrrional]

I most definately hate my reactions. I feel so. Not well

Will pass in a couple days though. Stil bad

[sombrefulgurante]

6.2.2025

[akiphotography20]

[6.2.2025]

Sony A6400 + Jupiter-8 50mm f2

[slafk0vsky]

happy jake evans day 🎂

(6.2.2025)

[gabapentinblues]

journal update 6.2.2025

just feeling like giving up completely today. feeling completely unworthy of everything and utterly alone. its horrible to be this depressed in june. i feel like im never going to recover from this. this doesnt feel like any kind of life worth living. my seasonal depression is just going to come back and i will have never recovered in the first place and it really will kill me this time.

theres no reason for me to live. the only reasons i can identify are other people and i just dont see the point in that. but i feel so complacent in my suffering too, like i'll never be abke to illustrate to anyone how bad it really is or actually plan to end my life or anything.

going to another iop feels pointless too. they all just tell you the sme things. they all just want to keep you alive so you can pay them and honestly id just rather die. death is all thats waiting for me at the end of life anyway so i might as well be ready for it. i dont fear death at all, i wish that it would come to me, im tired of trying to find a way to make this life worth living.

i feel absolutely nothing. im empty inside. i dont know how to feel worthy of anything. im never going to become anything. the only thing i was meant to do is die. thats really how it feels. theres nothing else.

im supposed to print out my resume and apply for jobs today, but theres no point in doing that. i dont want to it feels like a waste of time and gas driving to different places. i guess i dont have anything better to do with my time but it is a waste of gas money.

maybe i'll do it. maybe i'll call different dispencaries and ask if they're hiring. i feel like im never going to get a job, im just going to be a jobless loser or work in fast food my whole life. and maybe thats fine. why does that have to be such a shameful thing. i just feel like the world doesnt want me to be a part of it, theres no place for me here.

theres no reason for me to keep going. im in so much debt im never going to be free, i might as well die. i dont know what anyone wants from me. im so depressed and embarrassed and tired of explaining and justifying myself to people. theres no reason to keep going.

i know i have friends who care about me but even that leaves me feeling empty and im just tired of fighting. im tired of trying to make something more out of my life. theres nothing for me and there never has been.

i dont want to see my therapist again. she doesnt help me feel better or seen or heard or anything thats supposed to be the point of therapy. i dont understand and im just completely failing at recovering i want to give up entirely.

i hate therapy. i hate my meds. i hate waking up every day. i hate trying to fill my time with things. there's no reason to continue. im alone and i'll always be alone and there's nothing better waiting for me, and im so angry that anyone is expecting anything of me. im just tired and i want to be done.

i dont think i'll ever get a job, i think somehow im going to die soon. maybe in a car accident. that would be the best way to go. everyone would be sad but it would be something they could accept. something will happen while im driving some day and it wont be anyones fault and everyone will be able to move on and it will all be over.

i dont want to exist. its a prison and a punishment i didnt ask for. im tired im tired im tired. i hope i die soon. i hope something changes soon. but what do i deserve. nothing. nothing. nothing. a car accident death and a bare minimum funeral. i dont even care what happens afterwards. i dont have any last wishes i just want it all to be over. i have nothing to express. nothing that i care about. theres nothing.

literally im just sitting here in my bed thinking about how im better off dead and theres nothing i can do. my sense of hope for myself that i had when i was younger has worn off. i can talk to my friends and not be alone but that doesnt change much besides that someone else knows how i feel. i dont want to make someone else feel responcible for me like that.

i guess its all fine i just feel completely empty and apathetic and like i have nothing left to offer to anyone and no reason to do anything. i feel completely paralyzed and like i dont know why im here. just disconnected from everything.

[adelecri]

6.2.2025

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