#ADHDammit

[ladytemeraire]

One of my least favorite things about having ADHD is how stuff will just... straight up disappear.

I have a sweet little pocket knife I’ve used for years. It fits neatly into even tiny women’s pockets with its clip, and it’s the perfect size for my small hands. I used it just last night to cut the ties on a skein of yarn so I could wind it! But I cannot currently find it, and I am losing my mind trying to figure out where it could be. It has to be somewhere on my property - I realized it was missing as I was going to run errands, and I'd only been in the house and the fenced in backyard between then and when I last used it - but I haven’t found it yet, I’m running out of obvious places to look, and I’m so frustrated I could cry.

I’m mentally retracing my steps trying to think of where it could be. I know what I normally do during my nightly routine (stuff in pockets goes in a little candy dish before bed), but it’s not there, and it’s not in my pockets from yesterday, and if I try to remember exactly what I did with it? Big old 404 error in the brain.

And yes I could, in theory, replace it if it’s well and truly vanished... but that’s the ADHD tax for you. Now I’m out more money replacing something. Not to mention that little voice in the back of my head going “maybe you don’t deserve to have nice things, if you’re just going to lose them.”

Anyway, happy ADHD Awareness Month, I hate this.

[silverserpent]

So I am sleepy. I found a post I wanted to append something to. And when I try to remember it, I get something like "it felt like the a smooth rock in a clear stream on my tongue"

My brain comes up with very hinged stuff

[mayra-quijotescx]

nobody: absolutely no one: me, 0.5 seconds after hitting submit on a form I first reread five times: wait uh. can i look at it again i'm. not sure i spelled my name right

[anonnymaus-author]

This worldwide adderall shortage is such fucking bullshit, I swear to god. My pharmacy gave me ten pills for my script cause it was all they had, and Im grateful, but at the same time Im just.. I wonder if abled's ever consider shit like this happening to them, sometimes. Like what would they do if they had to ration their executive function and ability to think without brain fog or even focus? I dont just mean on work but also things they like.

I dont go through withdrawel from my adderall xr like I do my venlafexine (god, now THERE is a miserable mess) but if I go off my daily dose My sleep schedule gets FUCKED. I'll basically sleep for two whole days with maybe a couple of hours awake (which is apparently a withdrawel symptom from going off stimulants) and then BAM

Suddenly I cant sleep at night or stay awake during the day, and Im only sleeping in two to three hour increments. I could drink all the coffee and espresso in the world and it wouldnt help me stay awake more than a few hours, although it COULD set off a panic attack. Its even worse if you consider that I take generic because I dont have insurance and name brand is ungodly expensive.

I dont know. This is just me being frustrated with the world right now, I guess.

[thisistrashking]

Fuck this ad.

[grosutina]

Biggest dick energy is pulling off a feat of absolute god tier boolean arithmetic to solve an incredibly stupidly complex problem in just two if statements literally live, on a call, out of my ass, and then immediately crying about my one overclocked braincell, getting off the call, and going back to the fourth week in a row of Not Fucking Doing The Easy Part Of Writing Documentation For This Shit God They're This Close To Riding My Ass About It And I Can't Fucking Start

[losergirlranboolive]

just come out of an adhd hyperfixation -10 HP immediately

[babetriz]

That ADHD feel when ur in a club n overstimulated so ur on Tumblr in the corner

[smugkoalas]

I promise I’m not an asshole, I just have an itchy tag inside my shirt, my hair keeps ticking my ears, someone on the other side of the room is talking, and I have the hiccups.

[townofcadence]

I finished the last art piece last night, and I can write again! I'll be working on drafts and maybe reblogging some new starter memes for anyone new (though the old ones don't expire either if one catches your fancy!) ^^

[abowlofpetuniasandawhale]

Perfect ADHD Morning Routine

step 1: catch yourself 40 minutes behind schedule because you were looking at your phone for the fifth time (it wasnt even in your hand???)

step 2: recognize that you should probably take your meds early today or it’s possible you will never make it to work

step 3: oh but i need to eat before i take them

step 4: wait the cats also need to be fed they’re going to be annoying until they eat and i need to focus

step 5: when did i start looking at my phone

[ladytemeraire]

Man, I really want this ADHD med to work because it would be so much cheaper and easier to get than a stimulant (e.g. Adderall or Vyvanse), but it makes me so damn nauseous even if I take it after I eat something and I haven't even worked up to the full dose yet. I'm going to ride out the two week trial and see if it improves but if not that's going to be a dealbreaker.

[sokkatheboomerangbender]

HOW am I still this unfocused I took a 10mg adderall and I chugged a coffee and im in an academic setting brain please please please let me do my work AHHHHHHH

[mayra-quijotescx]

ok, I figured out how to fool my brain into keeping up with a day planner (spend a total of many hours making your own in a blank notebook and let that sunk cost carry you home), now I gotta figure out how to Make Myself Keep Up With Skills That Require Maintenance

like I'll emerge from The Depression and be like OH YEAH I wanna GET BUFF and BUILD SPICE TOLERANCE and PARLARE L'ITALIANO and LEARN TO ROW A FUCKIN' BOAT* or some shit YEAH

but I just got the spark back after like a week or two of effectively laying around waiting for death in between work or sleep, and my joints are mad and the hand weights feel heavier than they did a week and a half ago and my tongue doesn't remember that chili powder isn't literally fire e non posso fare le belle parole and uhhh i never actually started on the whole boat-rowing thing

and so I feel like I have to start over : ) and then by the time I make a little progress I'm back in the shit again

so I have to figure out basically a similar 'let this logical fallacy work for you so you can work on you' exploit like I did with the day planner, for stuff I have to do like... every few days.

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*i live in a place that was once a swamp, got a billion shittons of concrete poured over top of it, and remembers its swampy glory days and tries to return to them every time more than three raindrops fall in the same place. And it rains a lot more than it did

[dumbass-extraordinaire]

hey guys im having rlly bad executive disfunction and i have a shitload of make up work to do for school so if its not too much trouble could y’all drop some cursed images/memes/good vibes in my inbox to help me motivate <3333

[thisistrashking]

my first hit of t since yeeting out the organ and i have emotions again? fuckin bullshit