#AT LEAST WE HAVE THE EXCUSE OF IT BEING 3 AM >:DDDD

[willonerdygoat]

Musings about labels, and what our plurality/medianship is like ^^

ughh we need to research more into daemonism and medianship and whatnot. Because likee we don't relate to a lot of common experiences of plurality- Snafu usually kind of just blends into Tomira (host) when not like thinking about being separate, and Snafu doesn't really inhabit the body to the same extent, prefering imposition + identifying with a very different body, and we're generally happy just presenting as Tomira. We're also not all that separate in terms of likes and dislikes, we generally want the same thing at any given time, like we want to do the same stuff (with exceptions for minor stuff like lightheartedly disagreeing on a couple songs, and also very disagreeing when it comes to knowingly making stupid decisions/feeling self-loathing)

So we feel more like singlety than plural systems

But also we don't relate to most median stuff we see, (albeit we haven't seen all that much), since like, we are very distinct.

And obviously not a daemon/daemian pair since that also involves a whole bunch of other stuff, but also Snafu doesn't really vibe with the way most daemons talk about themselves. But also, Snafu vibes with elements of daemonship that aren't present in other plural/median things, so something we need to find out about more.

I guess we need to delve into the tulpa communities that are more separate from the general plural community, maybe that'd be similar to us. Like Snafu was originally created as a tulpa, using a more "traditional" guide not really connected to the wider plural community (we just don't use the term anymore, because if some tibetan buddhists say it's cultural appropriation then I ain't gonna argue)

Also this makes talking about our experiences difficult, because we don't really know how to word them

And I suppose that that's why we don't refer to ourselves as a "system". We just don't feel like a system, our dynamic is very different to what a system usually describes

[after-nine-at-the-oasis]

I'm starting the review a few minutes late but I have been watching :)).

Hmm busy?

Ope

OPE

Girl xDD

She ain't even watching LOL

C'mon girl turn around xD

YES phew xD

Awww :'DD

Aww 🥰🥰 <33

OH GOSH

O.O

UH OH

Hi Maddie :DD!!

DANG a bank robber lol???

(me acting like I didn't watch the promo 25 minutes ago xD)

SLFKGJDKHGS she literally just answered the call XD

C'mon y'all

There's no WAY this is good for this guy 😭

The road burn must be real xdd

Hi Athena :D

Ope fake money?

WHAOPE (like woah-ope almost) PAINT

UH OHHH

I hope the guy's okay 😬😬

Okay phew he's alive :)

Hi Bobby :D

Hi Chimney 🥰

Hi Buck :))

Hi Eddie :)!

Hi Ravi :D!!

Hi Hen :))!!

Oof my guy though xdd

Ope?

AWW the ring :'DD

Aww there she is 🥰🥰

YAYY she siad yes :DD

Aww 🥰🥰

Wait girl why?

O.O

OH GOSH LADY

I mean I get not wanting to drop it on him now but GIRL 😭😭

I don't think it's gonna lessen the blow too much in the long run xd like I mean he'll still be like "I got dragged across the road for her" lol xdd

OOF Chim's gonna doubt it now DD:

NOOO

XDD Eddie lol

Ayy y'all off :D

On an unrelated note we at least deserve a mention of the tarlos wedding

Like sure anything beyond 2x03 we DID make up about their (the two teams) relationship BUT STILL

They might canonically be friends xDD

Anyway lol

Honestly slay Hen good for you 🥰

THEN DOOOON'T!!

YOU HAVE BUUUUCK!!

Oof all except for Chim and Ravi xdd

Rip y'all good luck lol

I am sorry about the ring Chim xdd

NOO Chim DD:

Come on man nooo :(((

Chimmmm 😭😭😭😭

Aww hey Madeie :))

Oof lol xD

Oop o.o

Ooh lol good excuse xD

Ahh saved by the bell Chim XD

Lol that does sound kinda sus

UH OH

AAHHHH SHE'S GONNA FIND IT

AAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!

I am not okay xdd

Lol hey Eddie xD

Is Chris being his tía?? I'm confused XDD

I guess just random shot of Chris anyway hi my boy <33

Sir nooo

Date BUUUUCK xDD <33!!

Wait is that the same lady lol

Is that her again??

Sir it's giving stalker XD

Oh okay no lol

Different people xDD

Ope xD as it should be 😌 /hj XD

OOF not the dog too Eddie xDD

Ahh lol <3

SLFKGJDKHGS Maddie xD

Bestie lol

The way she's about to drink the coffee and just sets it down again XDDD I can't lol

Honey xDD <33

AWW :')))

Lol at least she seems to like it xD

But the aww I just mean her trying it on and being emotional

Aww :'))

OH NO

Oh crap XDD 😳

IT'S STUCK SLFKGHDHKGS 😭😬

NAUR girl xD

I don't think tugging it like that is gonna help lol

Ohhh nooo girl xD

Ope hey girl!

(psst. Buck. GET WITH EDDIEEEE)

Wow that place seems cool :D

:OOOOOOOOO?????!!?!!!??!!?

H E Y L U C Y :OOO :DDDD!!!!!!!

Now Buck's acting awkward XDD

AHH (awh not aah) so that's where she went!! Good for her :))

Girl you're making it awkward xD Like no need to talk like that lol

Dang Buck way to be subtle lol xD

Less to Lucy more to what's her face lol

Sir XD

Lol YUP she knows xdd

I mean it wasn't reeeally a thing

Not enough for you to break up with your girlfriend xD

At the time I mean not this not-even-girlfriend lol

[1rmono]

100 Reasons to Love Kim Namjoon

today is my 3 year anniversary of loving namjoon and so here’s 100 reasons everyone should love him !!!!!!!

he gave up a stable future of studying and going to college (despite being so smart) to risk everything and pursue his dream of becoming a rapper

had to fight criticism for being an ‘idol’ rapper and struggled for years with his decision and identity

when he says he loves himself !!!!

never forget this cute tummy flash !!!!!!!!

he loves all his members so much sosososo much, he always puts them before himself 

WHEN HE’S LAUGHING REALLY HARD AND HE STARTS SEAL CLAPPING

that one time tae came to sleep next to namjoon and namjoon sleepily held tae’s hand and wouldn’t let go

his signature move when he takes his two index fingers and covers one of his eyes while looking deadass into the camera

HIS DOE SHAPED PRETTY CHOCOLATE BROWN EYES !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

professional self-dragger, literally willingly drags his own ass

his mixtape release in 2015, every song was so important and deep and okay, it’s largely forgotten because of yoongi’s mixtape but it has so much emotion and meaning behind every song

he loveloveloves dogs !

literally has looked like the best thing the world has to offer no matter what rainbow ass hair color bighit sticks him with

that golden age when his hair was black when will that look come back from the war ://////////

you know that thing he does when he’s been rapping and suddenly breaks out into a smile and scrunches his nose and winks with one eye mmmmmmmmokay !!!!

his angry rap when his neck veins show because he’s literally putting his all into it

the way he looks in beanies !!!!!!!!! with one ear tucked in and the other sticking out

the mole on the left side right under his jawline 

the fact that he literally read books on philosophy for hyyh

THE WAY !!!!!!!!! HE LOOKS !!!!!!!!!!!! IN A SUIT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

that time his speaker wasn’t working and he yelled at it and it started to work, Legends Only

the fact that he isn’t afraid to try out weird kinds of fashion and won’t hear shit about it

has been known to support LGBT since 2012

THAT TIME BTS WERE IN ISAC IN 2015 AND HE WAS EVERY MEMBER’S HYPE MAN 

when he’s too lazy to wear contacts so he wears his thick black rimmed glasses :’(((((((((((

that time he had a wardrobe malfunction and had his whole shirt ripped off during that dance break and he did the whole performance holding up the sorry remains of his shirt 

the fact that kim namjoon invented dimples !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! no really he did

how he is literally incapable of doing a fan sign without making it a display of how much aegyo he can fit in any given span of time and then immediately be shy and embarrassed about it

6 feet tall, he is 6 feet tall also don’t forget that he is literally the eiffel tower because nothing is taller than 6 feet just sayin

that amazing and blessed time he had silver hair and my heart literally exploded !!!!!!!!!!!

HIS PRETTY PINK POUTY PLUSH PERFECT LIPS 

that time bts was doing rainism and he was the only one who didn’t know all the moves and messed up but pulled it off confidently in the end

he literally loves his mom so much i’m :’(((((((

HIS ALL BLACK OUTFITS AND THE WAY HE LOOKS WHEN HE WEARS ALL BLACK AND THE WAY ALL BLACK LOOKS ON HIM AND -

the fact that every time someone tells him to do a freestyle dance, it’s literally the same awkward robotic jerky dance with the failing arms and legs since 2013

when he tries to sing even though the members laugh at him

HE JUST WANTS TO CATCH CRABS FOR GOODNESS SAKE

his cute soft pretty pink knees :’))))))))))

in the fire era when he had that acorn haircut and pulled that shit off when will your fave ever

he reads, he has an IQ of 148, he was the nation’s top 1% in 5 subjects in high school, he -

his smile his beautiful glorious soft glowing stunning breathtaking smile that smile that you only have the privilege of seeing someone have one in a million times in your life, the kind of smile that could change the world

the way he looks in a choker the way he looks in a choker the way he looks in a chok-

okay !!!!!!!!!! but his cute squishy tiny nose so kissable n someone please bop it and pinch it and it’s soosososo cute 

the way he gets his hands inky and dirty every single fan sign every single darn one !!!!!!!!!!!! why are they dirty? what is he doing ?????

THE AUDACITY HE HAS TO WINK AND BITE LIPS AT CAMERAS THE SHEER AUDACITY

the way his arms look in sleeveless tops his arms !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the way he looks in snapbacks mmmmmmmmmmmm

that time on running man when everyone was supposed to have as many boxes as possible and he literally got his box snatched from his hands and he tripped over nothing he’s the dorkiest softest boy -

SAILORMON !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

that time he wore the army khakis and outfit and i just ://////// oh my god

his side profile his perfect gorgeous beautiful angelic side profile !!!!

his obsession with ryan and how happy he got when jimin got him a ryan cake for his birthday fkdsfhgfd

legs for days !!!!!!!!!!!!!

that time namjoon was a minion for halloween 

“I had to dance to survive in this cold, cruel world.”

his cute outfit in the baepsae dance practice video :((((((((((

he looks sosoososososo unbeliveably beautiful bare faced i just love him so much 

that time during the hyyh prologue shooting when all the members were piling onto him and he yelled ‘MY BALLS, MAN’

his fucnkgn !!!!!!!!!! puma photoshoot binch !!!!!!!!!!!

the fact that he sang expensive girl and took the fact that he didn’t get a grammy for it like a man :///

that time they won their first award in 2015 and he was cleARLY CRYING but denied it like “i’m not crying”

THAT TIME HE LITERALLY DESCRIBED HIS ERECTION ON LIVE RADIO AIR IN ENGLISH 

that one time !!!!!!!!!!!!!! bts had an outdoor performance and his white shirt got sososososooso sweaty it was basically stuck to him and see through if you don’t know what i’m talking about then goodbye

those RARE times when he smiles and sticks his tongue out at the same time !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

that time he was complaining about jungkook and the fruit flies and the weird as shit way he pronounced ‘vaccuum’

his messy friendship with jackson 

the fact that he apologized for the mistakes he has made in the past and made no excuses about them 

award for having the world’s cutest and flattest tushy !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i don’t know if anyone noticed but the way he holds his fingers when he’s explaining something like he puts them in awkward bent angles and they’re really long and expressive i just looooovvveeeee

that time he was doing a duet with this female singer for a show and he picked her up from the airport and held a sign with her name and got shy around her he’s the biggest gentleman DDDD:

deep husky voice like shots of pure liquid gold sends shivers down my spine ://////////

 KIM DAILY

that time he held a tiny itty bitty baby frog on his index finger i dont know why it was so cute of him i just !!!

sweaty namjoon when namjoon sweats the sweat namjoon produces 

that time he tried to twerk but ‘something keeps dangling’

when !!!!!!!!!! he wears tight pants and his thighs are almost bursting out of his pants jdfkkhkj

the way he says ‘baby’

EVERY ‘WHAT AM I TO YOU’ PERFORMANCE HE’S EVER DONE

that time he was asked to pick between solo and bts and didn’t hesitate for a microsecond before saying bts

THAT TIME NAMJOON DID THIS GUITAR ACOUSTIC WITH SOMEONE ELSE AND HE RAPPED SO SWEETLY MY HEART OVERFLOWED

taught himself english by listening to 10 english dvds 10 times over 3 years 

special thank you to every namjoon stylist who made him wear low cut shirts

THE WAY HE LOOKS WEARING A MASSIVE HOODIE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

‘and i’m sexy like a porn star’

accepts and settles for being the least popular bts member

the way he looks when he wears headbands 

when his sleeves are super long so he has sweater paws and his pretty fingers stick out slightly jdsfkshgkjfmncvb

sub par body rolls that can still make you squirm and cry :////////

once when he was the first in a lineup in a fan sign he told a fan ‘now you’ve practiced on me, you can do this in front of your real bias’

got to write in “힙합하다 1” (‘This is Hip Hop 1: South Korea, Hip Hop and Life’) which is a hip hop book for 42 top korean hip hop artists

THAT TINY MOLE BELOW HIS BOTTOM LIP THAT YOU CAN ONLY SEE IF HE SMILES REALLY WIDE

the way he looks in a tie ohohohoohohoho my gosh !!!!!!!!!!!!!

that time in the ariport the cameraman said ‘the girls love you guys’ and namjoon was like ‘thanks, we love you too’

the way he wrote about the sunset in his diary when he went to dubai 

HE HAS BENDY ARMS !!!!!!!!! NO REALLY I SWEAR THEY BEND BACKWARDS 

he once told a fan ‘sorry’ when she told him she got him photocard

he said that he wanted to know what it was like going to college and sometimes he feels like he missed out on that experience :///

can you believe namjoon invented having pretty hands??????? Amazing

he cares sosooso much about other people he’s always wondering how his fans are doing, what they feel like, always giving advice, always learning and growing, never stopping

“I’m still existing, still breathing. Even though I keep looking forward and run, sometimes I still look back. The path in front and behind are still far, but even so, if the people who look at me are still dreaming and picking up their strengths, that alone makes me feel good. It’s okay to live this way, breaking down, getting hurt and looking back at the past. I will live. I am living like this. Me. Us.”

[after-nine-at-the-oasis]

:OOO O.O

Oop yep she said the name

D A N G

Oh gosh that promo looks CRAZY

xDD Like good but CRAZY

Wow

Gosh xdd

That's the end of my last thoughts!!! Woah, that was wild xDD. Now onto the. . .

REVIEW

Wow. That was. . . Wild xDD. Just- straight up crazy lol

Some quick last thoughts, since I said a lot for what I was thinking the liveblog!! Plus some condensing if what I said

Buck, Eddie, and Chim just vibing and seeing if Hen keeps it together is iconic xDd But also Buck's barely keeping it together lol, trying to find peace and all and that situation. Poor guy :((.

Also Evan sir you are gay <3 Just accept it and move on

Nah fr xDD I headcanon him as bi but eh anyway lol

And UGHHH Hen this episode!!! Poor Hen 😭😭😭😭. She does not DESERVEEE THISSSS!!!

I saw something recently that was like I love Henren and I love angst and all but can they have one storyline that isn't super serious or sad, and like xDD Yeah lol

I love the angst but y'all 😭😭😭 You're killing me here lol xD

I like how they're a very realistic couple though and still have emotions even when the other one does yaknow? Like Karen is justified in being upset about Hen forgetting to pick Denny up but also she understands and is still there for Hen <333 Iconic, truly.

Love them :DDDD

Still heartbreaking though xdd. Just watching her go through something like that, something I kind after myself. . . ugh. Torture xdd. I loved it, it was great, but ow xd. ❤️❤️❤️😭😭❤️❤️🥰

And honestly poor Athena :((. And her mom! Beatrice, that's her name. It's so rough when a family member is sick, especially in the hospital, let alone in a coma. I can't even imagine the pain and the stress <33

I hope everything works out with them, besides the uh, yaknow (segue lol)

BODY!!!

LIKE WHAT??? EXCUSE ME???

THAT WAS S H O C K I N G XDDD

More just the fact that there even WAS a body, not who it was lol

Although since that was a prevalent (or at least, more so than any other information about this town) storyline in the past, it does make sense that it would come back up. Still, though xdd. CRAZY.

Also, just. Bathena <333 🥰🥰🥰❤️❤️❤️😭❤️❤️❤️❤️. Crying because they're adorable lol <333 :DD.

Okay I just watched the first 10 minutes and UHH. XDD DANG lol. I kinda figured it was something like that but still xdd. Also a tunnel is a little extra. It was funny and interesting tough lol

And ahhh it was a medically induced coma, okay, I see. Still, it sucks :((. And there's the start (that we see) of her denial too. Poor lady :((. Poor all of them, honestly. Just, oof xdd.

Also, it sucks that he choked a bit (I don't know if I'd call it crashing and burning lol - also I find it funny how with "burning" they had a chance to have the fighters actually fight like. A fire xDD but I get that they're ent more with the crash theme lol - oh wait, back from putting the title at the end, I just remembered it's learn XDD Nevermind then, lol), but I'm sure whatever his face was, 9-1-1 dispatcher boy, will do great :)). He just has to get a little more experience first :D. I think he'll do great <3. Hopefully he's not evil lol.

Overall, I loved the episode. The calls were fun, though a bit sad at times Hen's storyline was amazing, as was Athena's side. Ayy, our besties have an episode :D. Kind of together, but also super far apart lol. Also, poor Buck, honestly. Man is struggling lol. But yeah, I really connected with Hen here so I just feel extra bad for her <3. Anyway, it was a great episode. This season's shaping up to be really good :).

So, that's about it! It was an amazing episode, and I am looking forward to the next one. This has been my review of. . .

9-1-1, Season 6, Episode 2: Crash and Learn

It was awesome! I am so excited for what comes next. It seems like it'll be great! See you next week for. . .

9-1-1, Season 6, Episode 3: The Devil You Know

See you guys then!