#Alexidas playlist

[findusinaweek]

Annotated Alexidas playlist, as inspired by @aeide and @ainulindaelynn. I don't organize or layout when writing or making art most of the time, but I do make playlists to keep myself on track. Beneath cut is explanations, headcanons, justifications. I finally got it to work.

Run Boy Run - Woodkid. Alexios leaving Sparta as a child, running for his life. 

Show Him The Ground - Iron and Wine. Boys learning to fight. Rethinking whether learning to fight makes you a strong individual: “Would it make you feel much better to show him the ground?”

Wage Wars Get Rich Die Handsome - The Mountain Goats. My inner mantra while writing Alexios.

Korinth - The Flight. Because Korinth is lifechanging for them. 

Ancient Kithera - Kalia Lyraki, Assasins Creed. I like to imagine things playing in the background while they go about their daily lives.

A Spartan Fight - The Flight, Assasin's Creed, Mike Georgiades. Just seems right. I am sure it is not what plays when they meet, but I cannot remember and title wise it makes sense in this order.

Blood Royal - The Mountain Goats. "I remembered you/ I remembered where you come from". Brasidas recognizing who Alexios is, as a Myrinne's son.

How I Get myself Killed - Indigo De Souza. "I need to be kicked/maybe fucked/maybe told I'm in the way./ This is probably how I get myself killed". Brasidas on meeting Alexios. He isn’t wrong. 

Braid - Perfume Genius. "Secret is braided/ In between". What made me write Braid. I wanted to explore the intimacy I heard in this song.

Brasidas - The Flight, Assasin's Creed, Mike Georgiades. Ya know. I just picture him smiling at Alexios. 

Ancient Celebration - Kalia Lyraki, Assasins Creed. More background music. I think they should drink together while this plays, share soft smiles at each other. 

Epitrotos & Iambos - Petros Tabouris, Panos Stefos. More background music.

cherubim - serpentwithfeet. I like to think of love and devotion, how they can twine together to make something so strong that it is a bit off-putting (the song being in a minor key). "I get to devote my life to him/I get to sing like the cherubim./ Boy every time I worship you/ My mouth is full of honey". Sure, there is innuendo, I wanted that. But the song is tense, while the lyrics are full of longing and praise. I think that is how Alexios feels about Brasidas.Not me listening on repeat and learning to draw dick for Alexidas. 

Procession of the Olympians - Michael Levy. Background music.

An Angry Blade - Iron & Wine. "Who left you so?" and "You're an angry blade and you're brave but you are alone". Brasidas understands what it is to be a soldier, but he sees something in Alexios that he does not often see in other fighting men. He wants Alexios to let it go. It reminds him of Deimos.

A Happy Family - The Flight, Assasins Creed, Mike Georgiades. This is my favorite song on the ost! I wrote about it before, but I love the shift at 2:51. It's like Myrinne's theme, but...wrong? I like to read it as Alexios being unsure if a happy family is possible (I do not play him as forgiving his father, and if I can stand to continue after Amphipolis, he will not spare his sister. I need to play that at least once. Catharsis?). Can also be read as hopeful, determined to make a happy family possible. But I like drama and being sad.

Die 4 You -Perfume Genius. Alexios' devotion, love as something that pushes you offbalance. This a song apparently about erotic asphyxiation , so sure, maybe it's that too. I don't know.

Safe with Me - Soap&Skin. "No love can be safe with me". Alexios worries about whether it is possible to be good for a partner in a relationship. Whether he, with his job as a mistios and the cult at his back, can be safe for Brasidas. If he had a therapist, he’d probably worry about being too traumatized or something of the sort. But unfortunately, he only has Barnabas (who tries his best).

My Boy (Twin Fantasy) - Car Seat Headrest. "My boy/we don't see each other that much/ It'll take some time/ But sometime down the line/ We won't be alone". Alexidas pining. You know. When you are gay and long distance. As one does. 

Valley of the Two Kings - The Flight. Sparta stuff.

Alan - Perfume Genius. GUYS. GUYS. GUYS. This is it. THIS is what I think a good relationship looks like. This is everything I love about being in love. "Did you notice/ We sleep though the night./ Did you notice babe?/ Everything's all right". The joy and surprise of being queer and safe with someone you love. The utter shock at everything being ok. Feeling comfortable in your own skin. (Also I SAW Perfume Genius live and SAW Alan and hooo boy he has nice piano hands, good finger posture. I was entranced. I stared throught he strobe light at his fingers. It freaked out my ex. I do not have good finger posture. I get it, Mike Hadras. Your boyfriend is amazing. )

bless ur heart -serpentwithfeet. Arguably my favorite love song. Having a love that inspires others, that gives each other strength. Knowing you can be safe in that love? Alexios and Brasidas for each other. "Boy, whoever reads about how much I adore you/ I hope my words bring them something new". Being open about your love, having it become something that is passed on. Yeah. That’s some good shit. 

Something to Cry About - Daniel Rogers, Ensemble de Organographia. Background music, somewhat unsettling. As Herodotos tells you constantly: There is much to do, and many unknowns on the horizon.

Two Men In Love - The Irrepressibles. "Will you lay down your armor/ and be with me forever?". Well? Is that something they can ask of each other? Is love stronger than duty? Can you put both together? 

Forget About - Sibyelle Baiar. "You make me forget about/Past and pain". I think they are an island to each other. I think they are healing for each other. “You do me good”. 

Sparta- The Flight. Background music again. Good stuff. 

Wood Boy- serpentwithfeet. Alexios' thinking about bottoming. That’s it. 

Coast - Shannon Lay. OH wow, I have many thoughts about this song. I listen to this and picture Alexios thinking about how Deimos fought Brasidas at Pylos. "She came for you/ But now you're gone and I'm afraid for you, my friend". Alexios (and I) get weird about the sea: "Darling I am telling you I belong by the sea" for some reason (this is a reoccurring theme in my headcanons). He did not belong by the sea, he belonged by Brasidas side, but here we are. We are stuck at the coast. 

Bounty - Tiny Ruins. "Hey, I'm on the run/ Didn't I say I go where I want?" First verse is Alexios as a mistios. "Yeah, You're a wanted man/There's a bounty that keeps us/hand in hand". AU where Brasidas lives and also becomes a mistios.

Heal - Soap&Skin. I don't know, they talk out their traumas and get better together? "Do we heal?" And then they do get better! “Fear used to be near here/ But won’t be anymore/ I have no fear”. 

Lost in the Dark Forest of Questioning- Michael Levy. Background music that makes me think they get lost in thought together. Laying with his head in his lap, playing with each other’s hair, eating together. 

Age of Kings - The Mountain Goats. "Held you in my arms for the first time that day/ felt like god's anointed when you didn't push me away./Gold light shining on so many things/in the age of kings". Brasidas thinking of the first time he sleeps with Alexios. I think it means a lot to be mutually liked, to not have to portray Spartan ideals with a lover. Also Sparta has two kings, so...age of kings.

Historiography - The Mountain Goats. Loving despite everything going on. Cherishing time together. Not remembering all the details because you are together and you are in love and the world melts down into just the two of you.

The Woods - Daughter. Brasidas thinking about Alexios and his sister.

The Shores of Megaris- The Flight. Yup. Game music.

[brasideios]

I know nobody cares but…

This song is Alexidas to me. This is Alexios’ song. I’m dying, pleasantly, lol.

[findusinaweek]

unable to go to work today, staying in bed to cry about fictional men

[findusinaweek]

Tag game, put on Spotify On Repeat playlist and post 10 shuffled songs. Tagged by @luvjiro! 🥳

Ok, sorry if this formats weird, I'm on my phone and super tired. Also, I'm not tagging people for the same reasons, but if ya wanna do it, go ahead. 🌼👍👏

Pennsylvania Furnace -Lingua Ignota. Why have I been listening to this so much? ✨️Trauma✨️

F****t - Same Vance-Law. Original not censored. I wish I'd had this song at 18.

Come- Adrianne Lenker. Psychic damage, self-inflicted. I listened to it on repeat while writing "Come, ___,my daughter". I based the fic in the song with the premise of "what kind of mother asks for her daughter to kill her?" And the only mother I could think of who had the audacity and a daughter who would comply is Myrinne. I'm so salty about Myrinne. I'd like to know why I associate death with the ocean so deeply in ACO fics/playlists. I do not do this in my own life?

Pressure to Party- Julia Jacklin. This is just my ongoing mental state.

Bad Things to Such Good People- Manchester Orchestra, Julien Baker. So inspiring, but I keep deleting anything I write about this. It's such a good song. It gives me chills. Julien Baker's harmony hurts me.

cherubim- serpentwithfeet. On my Alexidas playlist/basis for some fanart I wanna do. The odd key used with the devotion of the lyrics just really gets me.

Requiem, K.626 Lacrimosa dies illa -London Philharmonic Orchestra. I listened to this on repeat while watching a chaotic conversation go down on discord. It really added to the moment. I think it's on my Deimos playlist. 🤷Mozart didn't have to go that hard (but I would too if I thought I were composing my funeral music).

Feeling Fruit- palehound. Did that little sketchy zine-y thing. You know that moment where you leave a depressive episode? Or you leave a bad mental space in general? And you have to relearn how to be a human? Yeah. Also, I like grocery stores. And fruit. 🍋🍊🍏🍐

St. Ides Heaven - Bright Eyes. Companion version( I think its Phoebe Bridgers in the background??). Surprised by this, I didn't think I listened to this much? Idk the drums make me feel something I'd like to chase.

You Missed My Heart- Mark Kozelek. My most played song for 2 years. Why? Because Mark singing about stabbing a guy and then getting killed in prison puts me to sleep. I like the Phoebe Bridgers version too, but Mark has not missed my heart. I also listen to train noises to pass out. I don't know why I'm like this. I wish I knew. 🔪🚂😴

[findusinaweek]

Niche Ask Game: Alexios and Demosthenes!

a song that reminds me of them: For Alexios, here is a playlist (it's my Alexidas playlist but a lot of it is how I think of Alexios). "I Lie Awake" by Lightning Bug is one of many songs of how I think Alexios feels in his very long life. what they smell like: Ok so I skimmed Theophrastus' Concerning Odours and had thoughts, most of them for that one very specific oil vial at the Met. But anyways, Theophrastus says light scents like rose, lily, and kypros are good scents for men. I don't know what kypros is and a quick search was useless. Demosthenes smells like oranges blossoms. I don't know if oranges were available to him, so think the very faintest floral citrus scent that makes you go "Huh. Ok. Hello, handsome". Turns your head, surprises you. Alexios, when he doesn't reek, smells like the forest and the sea. Like salty damp pine needles. It's not particularly good or bad, it just is part of his wandering existence. an otp: Alexidas. Alexithenes. a notp: Alexios/Timotheos gives me bad vibes and red flags. But that might just be because I HATE Timotheos' hair. Demosthenes/Kassandra. Just doesn't work for me. I head-canon Kassandra as into women almost exclusively. favorite platonic/familial relationships: EDIT: I realized I forgot to write these! Alexios and his siblings are just so much fun. I want him to rib Stentor every chance he gets. I want him to show Deimos he loves her by treating her the same as anyone else and nothing special. Just another person who is aboard his ship. She is frustrated to not be put in charge or made lieutenant. a headcanon that is popular in the fandom but that i disagree with: I can't think of one right now. Maybe Alexios forgiving his parents? but that's more like...a canon-based game possibility. Kassandra might, I played her as having done so. Kassandra has to be more aware of what she has to lose. She seems more in control of her emotions and she would have to. She doesn't have the same struggles as Alexios. Alexios is allowed a more free existence because he is a man and I think that's something you can see in the voiceacting/portrayal.

the position they sleep: Alexios throws himself down on whatever seems comfortable enough to get a night's rest. His limbs are thrown out, he'll curl himself around his surroundings or fling himself wide if there is nothing nearby. Demosthenes lays himself down in a straight form but he reaches his left arm out in his sleep. in a crossover au i’d love to see them in: Both of them in a regency period drama. Alexios is an incorrigible rake. my favorite outfit they’ve ever worn: Alexios in a suit. Alexios in the chiton he starts with, without any weapons. Demosthenes in an apron haunts me and someday I'll see it, I'll make it.

[findusinaweek]

Fandom ask game: 4, 6, 16?

Oh! Hi! 4) Mmm. Attack On Titan, off and on. I think any large fandom kinda just sucks to be in through. I'm not really in the fandom. More like hanging off the edge asking "May I please see Ymir and Erwin?".

Fruits Basket fandom in 2007?-2013 as an Akito roleplayer because Akito is a terrible person. I can't deny that. So everyone expects you to roleplay them in their worst moments. But I was more interested in the religious/familial hierarchy roles they fulfill and the gender fuckery from the manga. And most other people in the fandom circles I was in were there from the anime. So...not only was I roleplaying from a different gender, I was roleplaying with entirely different motivations than the others and it made everything rather annoying. I hated their favorite characters and they hated mine (which is fair, Akito and Shigure are terrible people that are meant for each other.). Honestly, anime fandoms in general have been pretty awful. And that brief trip into Homestuck. Oh yeah. The Borderlands fandom. I love more terrible people in those games.

6) The Locked Tomb because it has very visually appealing fanart and everyone keeps selling me on it. But I don't have the mental energy to finish a book.

I'm playing both Disco Elysium and Hades but they are very hard for me to get into gameplay wise. I really like the fandoms though. So I need to actually play the games.

Barbarians but I don't have the energy for subtitles either. I'm just full of mental blocks lately, but things are getting better.

16) Ok, here are some things I'd like to do:

I want to make a smutty Alexidas comic? series of pictures? to this song. I've had it planned out for months. I have the...references. I have time.

On the same note I want to do a comic of Deimos! Alexios and his...child self? to this song. I think it'd be healing?

I want to write the Eruri modern au/record shop au fic that I made a playlist for in 2018.

I want to make a series of Kassandra pictures in AUs.

I want to make a lithograph of Brasidas.

I want to singlehandedly make a sequel to Dream Daddy but it's just a Mary Christiansen and maybe Val but I've already dated a Val and that went badly dating sim. You can date her and she leaves Joseph for you. You live the rest of your days in a happy group with Amanda and Mary's terrifying children and Robert visits often and gets in recovery for alcoholism.

Uh. I want to write a lot more weird little fics for AC Odyssey and apparently they will all have to do with hair.

I want to finish my WIPs.

I want to start the planned depressing yet wholesome Steddie Christmas/holiday fics I had dreamed up.

I want to make some filthy Borderlands stuff. Idk what kinda stuff. I haven't thought that far. Just. Some stuff. Should exist.

I want to make a massive oil painting portrait of Eliot Waugh from the Magicians. Also one of Brasidas. Also one of Kassandra. Also one of Erwin Smith. Also one of Anna Karenina. Also one of...ok my teenage dreams were oil portraitist so that's just...a thing I want to do.

I want to learn how to sew really well and recreate every outfit Villanelle ever wears in Killing Eve.

I want to learn the shanties in AC Odyssey and record myself doing every voice so I can just do harmony with myself.

I want to write a fic to go along with the Alexidas pieta to explain how I feel about Alexios grieving.

I have a lot of dreams.