#Also I did come up with a fun plot involving Bill and Dipper being forced to work together out of it

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I have a chapter plot idea for Triangulum that solely exists because I had the idea of Dippers 3 and 4 laminating their bodies to protect themselves from water/liquids and I just thought that was funny for some reason.

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Kenz x Bill in So Much for Stardust is part satire against Billdip/Billford shipping and part satisfying my urge to let Bill do things to me that are dangerous to anyone’s mental health. Thats why a lot of his iffy behavior is implied and not outright said in detail. Kenz X Bill by definition is a proship, and it’s more so told as a person escaping lifetimes of abuse rather than the abuse and relationship itself.

Kenz won’t end up with someone romantically in the end (maybe with Bee way way way after the events of So Much For Stardust.) All those scenes where Kenz is getting romantically involved with consenting adults is them indulging in an unhealthy coping mechanism or being a slave to their Umbredoggo biology. Which is another plot device I use as satire for omegaverse and the furry community. It’s not being mean making fun of the furry community or omegaverse, it is more so an inside joke made to make fun of the fact that furries are cringe and kinda into anthropomorphic animals, most notably wolves and foxes. A lot of So Much For Stardust’s plot is dramatically written edgy satire poking fun at proships, omegaverse, forced religious plot lines (think all the prophecy shit that happens in warrior cats, which is where a fuck ton of the hellverse shit comes up), and authority figures being major idiots (My interpretation of the Axolotl is that he’s a major Cornelius Fudge level idiot that decays into a state of self preservation.)

The reason why Ford and the Pines are generally friends with IMP and there’s no general hatred for hellborn demons and hellaverse characters is because Gravity Falls is a general place of religious trauma. Also, I like to write Ford and Stolas having some sort of crush on each other but it’s very minor and it’s more an excuse to write two confused owls try to figure out parenting adult children with Blitzø. Kenz fits the role as Ford’s adoptive child, and a lot of Kenz’s angst comes from general hatred for parental figures.

I had a feeling that it would be shitty to remove Kenz from their family, but the reason I did that was because one, I wanted to showcase how powerful Bill had gotten, two, I wanted to use this to poke fun of the forced religious plot, and three, I am processing how close to homelessness I myself have gotten too, and how easily I could end up alone myself. A lot of Kenz’s backstory is based on my own that is dramatized (bill didn’t fuck up my childhood and things happen for a reason) and So Much For Stardust is basically about healing from generations of trauma.

Rabid Dipper is my love letter to whump. I want there to be a shit ton of romantic tension between Kenz and Dipper later on, without it getting gross. I had a crush on Dipper as a kid, and now I see him as something to protect. Like an adorable baby cactus or a baby crocodile with Cheerios balanced on his head. Not in a pedo way, more like a protective older sibling way.

That being said, Kenz (not IRL Kenz, being me) would be a shitty partner but an amazing friend. Kenz often goes through back and forth phases of being super promiscuous to being completely abstinent, mostly due to umbredoggo biology. Kenz tried to basically use sex as a coping mechanism. Kenz has a lot of intimacy issues and trauma, and I write more of those than the sex itself. Kenz is far better at platonic relationships, and loves physical contact. They’re touch starved.

Kenz’s autism isn’t because they’re part Umbredoggo. They’d be autistic without it. A lot of the Umbredoggo stuff is also me trying to figure out my own non-physical identity. As a kid, I would identify as a cat and would hiss at my father from the trees in the yard. I still question if I’m a therian or otherkin a lot of times, and I’m scared to come out. I’m scared to age regress or pet regress or to involve myself in the therian/otherkin community because of my fear of loss of autonomy, something that Kenz deals with all the fucking time.

Anyways, Check out So Much For Stardust. I update it at least once weekly on this blog. Once it’s done, it will be posted on Wattpad, Quotev, and AO3. I work super hard on this fanfic and I would really appreciate if it got the love I feel it deserves. It’s in its initial rough draft phase, and even when all the chapters are written, I still won’t be done with it. I still have to write more drafts of the chapters and eventually make a final draft. There’s a whole multiverse involved with alternate versions of Kenz from alternate universes (A Pokemon version, a warrior cats version, a Pokemon mystery dungeon version. Fuck. They’re even a FNAF animatronic version.) This blog is basically all about the Kenzverse (Yeah, that’s what I’ll call it.)