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dent-de-leon · 8 years ago

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Wait, i just... I need to ask you 'cause i'm really confused. You think sheith will be canon? Please don't take it as an attack, you can of course ship it in fanon but i really don't see how it could ever happen in canon? It's been mentioned multiple times that Shiro is a mentor/brother figure to Keith (and even said by Keith in the show) and hinted that there's this big age gap, and we actually saw Keith in his student uniform while Shiro's wearing his teacher one in the flashback so?? pls tell

Alright, so–the fact of the matter is, I just don’t see how Shiro or Keith could end up with anyone besides each other in canon. All of their major character development coincides with one another, they’re each integral to each other’s story arcs. They care for one another first and foremost, are closer to each other than anyone else. Keith in canon has this desperate desire to see Shiro–in his trial, Kolivan says as much. Keith’s constant fear of losing Shiro and this sense of longing for him–you don’t see that in a platonic, brotherly relationship. Keith’s fear of Shiro walking away and abandoning him is far more characteristic of unrequited love.

Shiro and Keith’s dynamic is built up like a romantic relationship rather than a brotherly one. It’s written with clear parallels to zaggar,

and the dynamic is noticeably different from Matt and Pidge–two actual sibling characters. This isn’t an accident, it’s very much apart of the narrative. Compare the way Matt looks at Pidge to how Shiro looks at Keith. There’s an obvious difference:

Keith’s overarching quest to save Shiro “as many times as it takes,” is also incredibly romantic. The way Keith mourned Shiro like his grief was the only pain that mattered, like no one else could’ve possibly cared about Shiro the way he did, like he’ll keep carrying a torch even when everyone tells him Shiro would want him to move on, that reads far more like someone grieving a lost lover than a brother. And you could see it in how differently Pidge reacts to losing Matt.

There’s also the fact that Shiro always gets these very personal, tender goodbyes with Keith, something you’d expect from a love interest. Not to mention how Shiro is the only one Keith will prioritize over the mission. And even Shiro and Keith’s first scene would’ve established them as clear love interests if Shiro were a girl. The longing gazes Shiro and Keith share certainly aren’t brotherly either. And so many sheith scenes are very purposefully given a mood, framing, and intimacy of romance. Consider how Keith reunites with Shiro in the first episode compared to him seeing the other paladins. The closeups, softness, and tender way Keith reaches out to turn Shiro’s head closer. Or how they both hug after the BOM like they’re the only two people in the world, with Allura staring on and then quickly turning away guiltily–as if she’s intruding on something very private and intimate.

Or how the reunion between Keith and Kuron was exclusively for them and no one else. No team, no loud excitement or group celebration. Just two people longing gazing out at one another as they slowly drifted into each other’s orbit. Or look at any scene where Shiro and Keith are having a tender heart to heart. They’re usually either under a sunset or lowlight. The bedroom scene is especially telling, particularly when you compare it to Keith’s talk with Lance afterwards.

One shows Keith and Shiro in the dark and vulnerable, there’s a heavy atmosphere and gravity to the scene that you didn’t get with the lightheartedness from Lance. The way Keith and Shiro are so close yet so far, closer to one another than they’ve ever been with anyone else, but still backing away and holding their distance–that’s not brotherly. It seems more like two people who are trying to suppress their feelings and are afraid to make that breach. And there’s always that sense of gravity that draws them together anyway

There is the “Shiro, you’re like a brother to me,” line. But curiously, I’ve never seen anyone say kl/ance was impossible because Hunk throws his arms around Keith and Lance and says, “We’re brothers.” I’ve never seen people say ka/llura or all/urance or sha/llura is impossible because Allura says “I’ve grown to consider you and the paladins my new family.”

I’ve never seen people say you couldn’t ship Keith with anyone on Team Voltron because, prior to the brother BOM line, holo Shiro says, “We’re all the family you need.” We as in, everyone on team Voltron is seen as Keith’s found family. Keith singling out Shiro with his brother line response is interesting though, because–yes, he does see all of Team Voltron as family.

But he only focuses on his bond with Shiro, because it runs much deeper than what he feels for everyone else. Focusing on one line out of context as if Keith and Shiro is the only instance of found family is really transparent to me. If you’re going to discount sheith for that, every other ship between Team Voltron is out too. All of them.

And as a bi guy, I’ll tell you that I’ve pulled the “you’re like a brother/sister to me” card before because I was scared of admitting my feelings for someone and it was a way to backpedal out of the situation without worrying that the other person would leave me for it. And we do know Keith’s worst fear is feelings, know that Josh said “[Keith’s] constantly scared he’s gonna say or do something wrong and he’s gonna lose Shiro.” It makes sense for Keith to hide his feelings. Plenty of people who’ve felt romantic attraction have done something similar. Also–Harry and Ginny, Ed and Winry, Aang and Katara–why is it that thinking of someone as just being like a brother or sister and then having it evolve into something more is seen as a natural progression if you’re straight, but somehow doesn’t apply if you’re gay?

We already know that age isn’t a problem in canon because Matt flirted with Allura. He did that. That was fine. Allura has been said to be about the same age as Keith (who started at 18 and now is either 19 or turning 19) and we know Matt is the same age as Shiro. They were in the same class, and they graduated together. One wears the cadet uniform though and one wears an officer uniform. This is because, despite age, they have different ranks. Shiro has never been referred to as a teacher and has only been acknowledged as a past student at the garrison by staff. And we also know that Shiro graduated only a few years prior to Kerberos. You also don’t go up to your teacher and say you think of them as a brother. That’s not how it works and they’re not student and teacher. And if Shiro mentored Keith a bit in piloting, I don’t see a problem. Katara mentored Aang in water bending, but they still got married.

Staff have repeatedly supported Shiro and Keith in a romantic context, and have done so since the very beginning. To the point where Shiro’s VA came up with the ship name for it and one of the episode Directors drew fanart of it. Doesn’t sound to me like they were trying to push the whole “brotherly” idea very much.

And we’ve been told that the show runners are fighting for lgbt representation, and that it’s something they’ve been working towards since the very beginning, that the start of that has been there since the first season:

Lauren (after being asked about the lgbt rep in korrasami and whether Voltron would ever “take that step”): “We have those first 13 episodes and if we ever went beyond that, we would like to push the envelope.” (source here)

Will we be seeing any lgbt representation?

Lauren: “It’s super important to us.”

Joaquim: “Just know that from our prospective, we’re fighting to create as open and broad a spectrum of characters as we can.”

Lauren: “We can’t give you any definite answers, but just know that–”

Joaquim: “We’re fighting for as broad and open representation as we can.”

The only possible relationship I can think of that could’ve grown between two characters since season 1, that the writers have been steadily growing and still supporting, that has even a fraction of a chance of happening and would be worth fighting for in how prominent and well written it would be–is sheith. I know people like kl/ance too, but the writers have already said point black it isn’t happening and have only used female pronounce to describe Lance’s future love interest:

Interviewer: “I feel like there was a little tease? It seems shippers want to ship Lance and Keith together, so are there gonna be any hints of that at all? Or is it just more like–okay, they’re friends, they’re starting to become friends.”

Lauren: “I think we had a very natural arc in mind for those two. Which is, they start out at odds, but then they grow to kind of respect each other. And if that leads into people being like–they’re spending time together! Then that’s a ‘thing,’ but…We’re not trying to cater to or bait anyone into anything, we’re just trying to do what’s right for the story.”

Joaquim: “We also try not to be overtly affected by what popular opinion might be.”

Lauren: “And we’re working in animation. Our schedule is so far in advance for that–even if people shipped Keith and Lance, we couldn’t go back and just change the story–to be like and now they’re in love!”

Joaquim: “There’s just no way. We’re already years past that storyline, you know?” (source)

Interviewer: What would Lance look for in a future Mr. or Mrs. Blue Lion? I’m gonna guess she meant Red Lion now. I think she’s trying to fill out her space Tindr profile. But yea, what is Lance’s–And I like this, because Lance is kind of all over the place. He hits on anything that moves and is pretty, which all the aliens are pretty. But what would he look for, really, in a partner or a soulmate?

Lauren: I don’t know if Lance knows what he needs. I know what he might look for, but what he might look for is not necessarily what he needs. I think he needs someone who is self-assured and knows herself, so that he can kind of become that same person and know himself. (source)

So if there’s going to be any lgbt relationship, I’m certain it’s sheith. Recently, Lauren has also talked about fans pointing out the sheith cameo at the garrison, and excitedly said, “I put that shit in there!” And added that, “Shiro was still his guiding light. It was good.” I honestly think part of why she got so enthusiastic over it was because they’re coming closer and closer to revealing a relationship they’ve worked very long on and fought hard for and have kept under wraps. This was also teased when Jeremy said, “Hey, backstory guys. There’s more of it.” And Joaquim added, “It exists!” So there is a big story there, and we’re definitely getting it. (source)

Unlike Matt and Pidge, any inkling of Shiro and Keith’s backstory prekerberos is something the narrative’s always very secretive about it. Why keep that hidden unless it was going to reveal something monumental about their relationship? Like say, Keith harboring feelings for Shiro? Even just throwing in this little cameo like that, people might say it’s nothing. But we saw a similar background cameo with Zarkon and Honerva in the Black Lion’s flashback–and that leads to a whole love story. It honestly makes sense to me if they were planning something similar with Shiro and Keith.

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I know @radioactivesupersonic has done several posts on the issue of Keith’s heritage -- in particular theories on Altean, the druid-dad theory, and his backstory -- and I think @ptw30 has had brought it up once or twice in the wild theory posts. But I was just rewatching S1E10 C&E, and I realized something: VLD doesn’t play the card of the unreliable narrator, but it does lean heavily on a different kind of unreliability.

Memory.

In S1E9 (Crystal Venom), Allura basically comes out and admits that she actually recalls very little of her life before the long sleep. She seems to have filled in the blanks as best she could, guessing at more, and dismissing the rest. Just how much of the ‘dark history of the paladins�� does she recall, then? Other than big points like, oh, Zarkon was one of them. Was that enough for her to figure the rest were allied with Zarkon? Does she even remember her own father’s role? Does she remember -- or not -- whether her father was even a Paladin, as well? Unlike the immediate POV we get for Shiro’s flashbacks, we never see into Allura’s head.

As for Shiro: by end of S1, we’ve had multiple similar cases with fallible memory and/or slanted memories. When Pidge rescues the prisoners, their version of events casts Shiro in one light; his returned memories fills out the story into a completely different read. Over most of season 1, bits and pieces come back, until we get his explanation in S1E10 (Collection & Extraction), where the sentries trigger another flashback.

Another detail; he remembers being in his cell, counting the sentries’ steps. But in S2E3 (Shiro’s Escape) we find out that this counting had nothing to do with his escape. It was engineering by someone else, and his flight was in a state of half-drugged panic and confusion. While his guess was a good one, based on what he knows of himself and what little he remembers, it ended up being almost entirely -- if not intentionally false -- at least misleading.

That brings us to Keith, and the BoM-influenced ‘memory’ we get of his father. Two things in particular leap out at me. First, the fact that Keith’s father carries a sheath for the knife, across his lower back, just as Keith does. Keith may have been given -- or inherited -- the knife at some point, but his father wearing the sheath makes me suspect the original recipient wasn’t Keith, but his father.

Second, when his father says, “your mother will be here soon,” Keith’s response isn’t “My mother” but “Mom”. This could either be Keith’s mind instinctively correcting the BoM’s incorrect title (mother) to the more informal nickname (mom), or it could be because Keith’s dad preferred the formal while Keith and his mother were on informal/familial terms. (My own parents used ‘mother’ and ‘father’ when speaking to us of the other, but we kids always used the informal nickname version for each.)

Whichever reason we get that disconnect, it reminds me of Shiro’s own memories. Not entirely wrong, but missing a large chunk of the puzzle.

That has me asking: why are we assuming that ‘Dad’ is even biologically related, at all? And while I like the idea of a female Galra in the BoM, it seems entirely possible that this maternal parent was not the ‘mom’ that Keith knew.

However, what is noticeable is that when everyone’s discussing what they’ll do after defeating Zarkon, Keith says he guesses he’ll look for his family. Not that he’ll head back to Earth, though, or go home (whatever might be ‘home’ to him, which that shack is probably the closest thing, as lonely as that might be). It makes me wonder if perhaps Keith was always aware he was adopted, and the only new information is that his parents weren’t human. I mean, it’s one thing to learn you’re not human; it’s another layer of shake-up to realize your parents weren’t even your parents.

As much as the dad-as-druid and altean-galra theories are interesting, they also feel far too byzantine for the storyline. In each case so far, the ‘truth’ has turned out to be much simpler, though usually with huge ramifications. Just unravelling the complicated history of, say, a BoM infiltrator and a former druid? The VLD writers like dropping hints for the readers to puzzle out -- but that’s a tall order when the puzzle has five hundred pieces, instead of just a dozen or so.

I’ll be waiting to see if Kollivan broaches the topic at all with Keith as to the knife’s original owner, but if Kollivan says nothing, the simplest explanation might be that Kollivan doesn’t actually know. The knife may be from a BoM member well before Kollivan’s time, and could even be something handed down through Keith’s (adoptive?) father’s family.

We know, also, that Ulaz knew the blue lion was located on Earth, and we know the shuttle landed not far from the lion’s location. Earth’s a big place -- why did Shiro land right there?

What if the simplest explanation is that the BoM already knew the locations of all the lions, in their own closely-guarded secrets from the Altea-Galra war? We know from the Green Lion’s planet that a guide was waiting to transport Pidge and Shiro. What if Keith’s adoptive father was in a long line of people meant for that same duty, but on Earth? If someone in the BoM wanted to hide their child (and had the magic to cloak the kid’s identity, which is an entirely different ball of wax, story-wise), could the family with that guardianship task been considered a safe place to bestow that child?

And now that I think of it, that might be why Keith’s adoptive parents felt it better to give him up -- if they could be targets b/c of their duty, wouldn’t Keith seem even more of just one more average kid, if placed with some regular family?

Regardless, given the way VLD has treated memories up to this point, I would be truly surprised if Keith’s BoM-induced vision wasn’t another Shiro-in-prison maneuver, where the truth turns out to be quite different.

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This is for u…

“Walking the streets

With you and your worn out jeans

I can’t help thinking this is how it ought to be

Laughing on a park bench thinking to myself

Hey, isn’t this easy?

And you’ve got a smileThat could light up this whole town

I haven’t seen it in a while… “

“ I’m dreaming about the day when you wake up and find that what you’re looking for has been here the whole time…

If you could see that I’m the one who understands you… Been here all along

So why can’t you see?

Standing by and waiting at your backdoor

All this time how could you not know, baby?”

Hey again. Sabes que adoro escrever não é? Já deves ter reparado. I’m weirdo. Duh. Até te assusto com os testamentos que te mando. Ora felizes e eufóricos. Ora tristes e assustados. Sou um vulcão em explosão mesmo… sorry for that hahahaha.

Esta semana fui à piscina e como não ando a comer e o meu sistema imunitário está fraco, acabei por apanhar uma bactéria… e por causa disso estou com uma pneumonia. Estou internado desde sexta… já estou a ficar bom… mas estou a soro e ando a receber injeções de penicilina… tou fdd e com muito tempo livre, então decidi fazer esta surpresa para ti…

“I’m helpless… overpowered… I swear you hit me at a hundred miles an hour I stoked the fire and dimmed the flame We crashed and burned and do it all again You’re reckless No mercy… I can’t resist it, even though I know it hurts me So roll the dice and play the game We’re lost in love with no one else to blame I’m falling down I’m falling for you now So, catch me love before I hit the ground I know we’ve crossed the line ‘Cause your heart beats just like mine And every star will fall in line When your heart beats just like mine And all our stars align… This battle It’s senseless I’m paralyzed inside, you leave me so defenseless I still reach out and call your name We’re lost in love with no one else to blame I’m falling down I’m falling for you now So, catch me love before I hit the ground”

Sinceramente? Não estou sad, nem chateado contigo. Óbvio que adorava ter estado contigo nos meus anos. Foste a primeira pessoa que pensei para estar nesse dia. Tens me desiludido um bocado… mas enfim, quero desta vez escrever-te algo mais feliz e divertido. Já percebi que algo não está bem na tua vida… Espero que não seja nada de grave. Gostava de te ajudar. Mas tu és discreto a esse ponto. Compreendo e aceito. Afinal, da última vez que escrevi algo para ti disse que esperava pacientemente. Sabes? `Às vezes, não é que não o faça… sou muito impaciente mas logo a seguir penso “caralho, eu prometi que não ia ser assim” hahaha, mas depois volto a ser mas é por tristeza, ou coisa do género… não sei, já senti frustração, medo, tristeza, felicidade, fraqueza, insónia, euforia… só não fico mais triste… Não vale a pena. O resto curto sentir hehehehe, dá mais pica para a cena. Tu és difícil, mas eu sou forte. Lembraste que te disse da última vez que tudo o que tu és, eu gostaria de ser? Fortalecer a minha mente e o meu coração está cada vez mais a ser uma aprendizagem e estou a conseguir. Estou orgulhoso de mim mesmo por te ter conseguido dar o tempo que precisas sem te pressionar. Fuck, ás vezes apetece-me ir atrás de ti e abraçar-te, dar-te mesmo muitos beijos na testa e ficar agarrado a ti a pensar que aquilo poderia ser para sempre. Mas primeiro, é muito longe e iria perder-me a ir para aí, segundo acho que seria um ato um bocado psicopata hahaha

“The way you move is like a fool on rainstorm

And I’m a house of cards

You’re the kinda reckless that should send me running

But I kinda know that I won’t get far

And you stood there in front of me just

Close enough to touch

Close enough to hope you couldn’t see

What I was thinking of

Drop everything now

Meet me in the pouring rain

Kiss me on the sidewalk

Take away the pain

‘Cause I see, sparks fly whenever you smile

Get me with those brown eyes, baby

As the lights go down

Give me something that’ll hunt me when you’re not around

'Cause I see, sparks fly whenever you smile…”

Uau, já passaram 2 meses desde a última vez que estivemos juntos. 2 meses que estive com o coração on fire (literalmente). 2 meses que fiz de tudo para te tirar da cabeça, dancei, cantei, sai com amigos, fiz piscina, fui a festas, dormi, ouvi música, brinquei com o meu cão, estive com outros rapazes. Mas todas essas coisas têm uma coisa em comum… EM TODOS ESSES CONTEXTOS ALGO ME FAZIA PENSAR EM TI. Ora porque dava uma música que tinha ouvido contigo, ora porque brincar com o meu cão me faz lembrar de ti porque gostas de cães, ora porque estar com outros rapazes não faz sentido quando existes tu… damn. Nenhum encontro ou tentativa de dar o “move on” resultou porque eu ficava com grande cara de cu e a ser mesmo antipático. És um demónio António Manuel.

“I’m fallling in, I’m falling down I wanna begin but I don’t know how To let you know how I’m feeling I’m high on hope, I’m reeling And I won’t let you go Now you know I’ve been crazy for you all this time I’ve kept it close Always hoping With a heart on fire A heart on fire“

Ahahaha, eu sei que me achas um parvo. Todas as vezes que te mando mensagem triste ou frustrado pela tua falta de atenção, deves pensar “fds, ele é um chato de merda”… well, a verdade é que o sou…. I admit it… Mas sabes que de todas as vezes que te mandei esse tipo de mensagens acabei o dia a sorrir com a tua resposta ás mesmas. Respostas vagas mesmo à António. Curtinhas… Supostamente não dizes nada de especial, mas EU sei que lá no fundo dizes. Pqp, eu não tenho mensagens nenhumas nossas porque sempre que te respondo apago … porque não quero estar sempre a olhar para a tua cara quando vou ao separador das mensagens. Foi literalmente um mês a evitar olhar para mensagens tuas, fotos tuas, etc. Não queria estar a bater com a cabeça na parede sempre que olhasse para a tua foto sem uma mensagem por ler. MAS EU LEMBRO-ME DE TODAS AS COISAS IMPORTANTES QUE ME DISSESTE. Aquelas coisas que ficam no meu coração. Entre as quais:

- “I will never forget you”

- “Não consigo parar de ler a carta que escreveste”

- “I’m doing this because I like u a lot telmo”

- “I miss u too, só quero estar contigo”

Eu sei que vivo o amor muito à minha maneira. What can I say? I’m in love. Eu não fiz de propósito. Nos meus momentos de raiva (ainda tenho, só não os demonstro como antes hahaha mas eu adoro-te, são só momentos repentinos) eu literalmente desejo que nunca te tivesse conhecido… duh, tinha evitado tanta coisa. Eu punha os meus ex a chorar porque era tão mau com eles… well, a ti só te quero ver a sorrir. Eu trocava todos os dias os meus namorados para estar com amigos e ir sair a noite… well, eu trocaria o mundo inteiro para estar contigo. Tipo, cenas tão simples como estarmos no carro abraçados a ouvir música já me fazem o dia fds. Dar-te chocolate à boca enquanto estavas vendado e eu só pensava “bem, será que o posso beijar agora?” enquanto olhava para os teus lábios. E eu adoro quando me olhas nos olhos e depois desvias o olhar para os meus lábios. E adorei o facto de me teres beijado de surpresa. Idk, fiquei nervoso. Mas adorei… you know…

“I don’t wanna touch you, I don’t wanna be Just another ex-love, you don’t wanna see I don’t wanna miss you like the other boys do I don’t wanna hurt you, I just wanna be Drinking on a beach with you all over me I know what they all say but I ain’t tryna play I wanna be your end game I wanna be your first string I wanna be your A-Team I wanna be your end game”

Depois nem consigo dormir porque penso tanto nisso que sei que vou sonhar contigo. E eu não quero… sinto medo disso. E isso faz-me chegar a uma conclusão. Parece que descobri o que é gostar mesmo de alguém… That’s funny. Eu pensava que tinha amado alguém antes. Mas tu és o primeiro que me faz sentir tudo de uma rajada só. Tipo eu não consigo ver o teu jipe a chegar que me tremem as pernas, wtf. Depois o teu ar despreocupado mete-me raiva e mete-me feliz ao mesmo tempo. Porque tu chegas, paras o jipe e começas a mexer no telemóvel enquanto olhas para mim simultaneamente. Sou uma pessoa de pormenores. Adoro a separação dos teus dentes, por exemplo. Adoro o teu cabelo esquisito que cresce para a frente e é macio as fuck (uh that’s sexy tho). Idk eu gosto muito das tuas imperfeições. Adoro a maneira como me tentas dar atenção á tua maneira. Adoro a maneira como me tocaste nas pernas e no braço. E adorei tentar dormir em cima do teu peito, provavelmente esmaguei-te e não consegui dormir porque o fdp do comediante era muito bom e eu só me ria. Bem, vamos esquecer o facto de eu me rir aos gritos aos teus ouvidos.

eu: “ei, estás a curtir totil mexer aí”

tu: “é mesmo fixe….”

És um bocado weirdo também.

São coisas que gostava de te dizer cara a cara para ter mais impacto. Mas como não há oportunidades tento ser inovador. Quando estou contigo não gosto de falar de problemas porque já estamos tão poucas vezes juntos que não quero ocupar tempo com estes stresses. Que na minha opinião são cada vez mais evitáveis. Da minha parte, a partir de hoje, só vais ter amor e carinho. Não esperes que esteja na tua mão para quando for preciso. Não me disseste para caminhar na tua direção? Estou a fazê-lo. Preciso que caminhes também na minha senão vamos andar desencontrados. Só queres estar comigo, muito bem, basta estares. Queres beijar-me? Muito bem, quando quiseres. Não posso beijar sozinho, preciso de outro par de lábios hahahaha

“This is looking like a contest´

Of who can act like they care less

But I liked it better when you were on my side

The battle’s in your hands now

But I will lay my armor down

If you say you’d rather love than fight

Too many things that I wish you knew

So many walls up I can’t break through

Now I’m standing alone in a crowded room

And we’re not speaking

And I’m dying to know

Is it killing you like it’s killing me?”

Acho que desta vez a coisa não ficou tão lamechas. Era para ser engraçado e deixar-te feliz… Entende, que só quero estar bem contigo. Estou farto desta sensação de não te ter aqui por perto… Eu acordo todos os dias e faço a minha vida mas estou constantemente a magoar-me com pensamentos. Porque não há dia que não pense em ti… Yh a maioria das vezes faço-me de forte porque não gosto de atrapalhar a tua vida e dar-te razões para te preocupares com mais uma coisa. Fuck…. I’m so confused right now. Entendes porque é que nunca quero sair da tua beira quando estamos juntos? Porque ninguém me garante que essa não é a última vez…

Só me lembro no nosso first date quando puseste Paramore e começou a dar the only exception. Fuck, é exatamente isso que eu sinto em relação a ti. Que te quero conhecer melhor e estar mais vezes contigo porque posso não ter tempo para mais ninguém, mas para ti quero estar aqui sempre. Porque, simplesmente, gosto mesmo de ti… aff, queria não gostar, that’s the truth, deixar-te na tua vida complicada e ocupada… mas a verdade é que quero entrar nela…

“And I’ve always lived like this

Keeping a comfortable distance

And up until now

I had sworn to myself that I’m content

With loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk, but

You are the only exception”

I know…. tu disseste que não ia ser fácil. Mas também disseste que me ias ajudar e que eu não ia ficar alone. Sinceramente não penso mais nisso. Eu estou a fazer a minha parte. Não posso fazer mais infelizmente. E é isso que me deixa frustrado ás vezes… O tempo passa e parece que não saímos do sítio e isso deixa-me com um sentimento inexplicável de missão não cumprida. Por outro lado, és o primeiro rapaz que me testa em todos os sentidos e me desafia e isso é bom. Mas estou tão cansado de esperar e ao mesmo tempo tão feliz por ainda te ter comigo no matter what. Penso eu que assim seja…

E acho que temos seguido um caminho “natural”… Tipo podíamos ter feito sexo no primeiro encontro ou assim. Eu, pelo menos, nunca quis isso para nós. Nem coragem para te beijar ia ter, mas ainda bem que o fizeste hahaha e agora só penso em repetir… Acho que estamos num bom caminho. As coisas menos boas passam-me ao lado. Esqueço… porque é uma coisa que quero tanto que nem ligo. Eu sei que vales a pena e que somos dignos de ter uma coisa bonita os dois. Só depende de mim e de ti. Precisas de estar disposto a isso. Eu estou… aos bocadinhos vamos conseguir se tu quiseres.

“One look and I can’t catch my breath Two souls into one flesh When you’re not next to me I’m incomplete Cause I’m on fire like a thousand suns I couldn’t burn it out Even if I wanted to These flames, tonight Look into my eyes and say you want me too Like I want you Oh love let me see inside your heart All the cracks and broken parts The shadows and the light There’s no need to hide“

Fds, achas que das 5 vezes que te obriguei a dizer-me para me ir embora e deixar-te em paz (para conseguir seguir em frente) não fiquei todo cagadinho que o dissesses mesmo? eu recebia a tua resposta e tremia do tipo “é agora” e tu nunca o disseste… fuck, that’s so important to me… Eu sei que apesar de eu ser mais explosivo que tu, eu amo a calma com que levas as situações (porque acho extremamente atraente btw) e eu sei que preciso de um rapaz chill como tu para me ajudar com esta personalidade. Não preciso de problemas na minha vida, preciso de calma e serenidade. E prometo dar-te isso. Acho que, em parte, consegui cumprir algumas coisas que prometi que iria fazer na primeira carta. Quero dar-te isso tudo e, sobretudo, quero fazer-te feliz. E quero ser feliz contigo. Tu sabes que sim… com as nossas piadas secas, o nosso sarcasmo, os nossos momentos estúpidos. Isso já me chega. Mas eu tenho a certeza que te quero conquistar ainda mais e ficar contigo muito tempo, porque sei que tenho essa capacidade e potencial.

“Nice to meet you, where you been?

I could show you incredible things

Magic, madness, heaven, sin

Saw you there, and I thought “Oh my God, look at that face”

You look like my next mistake

Love’s a game, wanna play?

So it’s gonna be forever?

Or it’s gonna go down in flames?

You can tell me when it’s over…

If the high was worth the pain

Cherry lips, crystal skies

I could show you incredible things

Stolen kisses, pretty lies,

Screaming, crying, perfect storms

I can make all the tables turn for u

Rose garden filled with thorns

Keep you second guessing like:

“Oh my God, who is he? I get drunk on jealousy”

But you’ll come back each time you leave

'Cause darling, I’m a nightmare dressed like a daydream”

E quê? Vens dar-me uns beijos ou nem por isso? heheheh és um crazy, quero por-te esta pulseira no tornozelo e ver as estrelas contigo enquanto ouvimos Paramore mais uma vez. E durante este tempo no hospital só desejei que estivesses aqui comigo… I really wish you were here… E que me pudesses dar um abraço… fuck, i hate you, but i love you 2.

“ I promise that you’ll never find another like

I’m the only one of me

Let me keep you company

You’re the only one of you

Baby, that’s the fun of you

And I promise that nobody’s gonna love you like me”

Always yours,

Telminho.

YUK que lamechas

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