#BUT IT STILL SUCKS

[teaboot]

if anyone is interested in the current situation on Canadian Healthcare, it is 6:45 in the morning and I am in line for the 8:00 opening of the only walk-in clinic in the city, which takes no appointments, has only one doctor, is full by 8:30, and closes at 1pm.

There are two people ahead of me, and they brought folding chairs from home.

[sunflowerdigs]

It's so frustrating that even though Loki is canonically attracted to men, Lokius fans are still somehow delusional. Like, when does it become not delusional to ship the bisexual character with a man he's clearly very fond of? The whole Loki bisexual reveal seems to rest on the tacit understanding that Loki will never actually feel or act on any attraction to a man, and that's reflected in fan reaction to queer Loki ships. It's like the character is, for all intents and purposes, straight...but Marvel gets to call him bi for diversity points. It's kinda bullshit and I don't love it.

[yamisnuffles]

I've been ghosted by a lot of friends over the years and man, it always hurts. To have people you spent a lot of time with, who you thought cared as much about you as you did about them, just disappear? It really stings.

[theparadoxart]

I wish a man's value wasnt decided just by his assets, his money and how much he can provide.

[rexxdjarin]

I think the vast majority of this fandom has forgotten I exist as a writer/artist/creator

most of my work hasn’t been touched in months

which is really deflating

[the-brutal-hymn-of-gunpowder]

Someone stole my fucking CD´s from my mail box. My life is a fucking disaster. Im gonna burn something.

[pizzaqueen]

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[nightixx]

salaries in this damn country makes me cry

Why even going to college when the highest job will pay you the same as a cashier.

[borderlinereminders]

This is a personal vent, so feel free to scroll by.

I feel like I keep getting bad news after bad news.

Being an adult sucks a lot.

I missed over half my hours last month because I was so sick and still am, so I’m missing more hours today. In the same month my partners commissions got cut in half because of a survey (the question on the survey is “would you recommend this place to anyone?” And if people say “no,” he loses “points” even though they’re usually unhappy with the service they received by the mechanics vs him (he’s a service advisor and lets people know what services their vehicles need) and it sucks. Side note: please keep in mind that when doing surveys like these, it’s usually the employees that get punished.)

And we now have to spend $900 to fix his car. And I spent a lot of money last month fixing my vehicle. And my vehicle still has issues and safety concerns and I can’t afford to get it fixed. And I am so tired. In the same month we get less money than usual, we have more issues than usual. We live in a rural area with no available bussing and have to commute to work in two different directions.

The exact same month that my freezer went and we lost all our meat and other foods that I’d bought on sale that would have helped us not go grocery shopping this month.

I am frustrated at my body and at finances. And being an adult. And my fiancés employer.

I also feel like a failure even though a lot of this is out of my control. For not being able to work, and for having too much in the freezer so that we lost a lot of value.

I know it’ll all be okay in the end. And it’ll work out. But right now, feeling overwhelmed and just frustrated at everything. Except my dogs. My dogs are my lifeline. 10/10 for them.

[seonghwasblr]

I talked to a job consulent the other day, and she was so great. I am so annoyed I didn't get to talk to her before now.. She was so much more helpful than any of the other ones I've talked to lol

[lonelyplanetfag]

fun fact i got on a call tn cuz i thought itd make me feel better cuz ive been rly fucking miserable lately n usually that helps but in all honesty it made everything one million times worse n im so sad abt it

[laughinglynx]

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[littlekinng]

the more i think on it the more certain i am that i didn’t necessarily dislike the ending. yea the episode itself was a little rushed and frankly unfulfilling but that do be the mcu’s way babeyy. however i think that it was one of the most poignant and just ways to wrap up the character (if that’s actually it for him) after 12 years of mercurial existence, unclear motives, and a blatant lack of resolute sense of self. out of every conceivable and practical outcome, it certainly wasn’t the worst, and it read as almost poetic.

that being said, it still feels a little unfair— particularly as the continual focus throughout seasons one AND two was Loki’s fear of being alone, after a lifetime of feeling as if he had no place

[leona-florianova]

Damn I wanna draw but I have blocked my neck so bad that I cant really look down at my tablet.. Cant really look comfortably anywhere besides forward..

[sugarycloud1]

I miss sleeping. I miss not waking up all the time. I miss being able to fall asleep. I miss being able to sleep in the dark, rather than with the blinds half open cos I panic when it's pitch dark. I miss when eating dinner didn't feel like an accomplishment. I miss when I was able to eat dinner that isn't some crackers, or a sandwich, or anything that required a hob or a kettle. I miss not having to talk myself through a meal and tell myself well done. I miss having a shower not being an effort. I miss not having to tell myself that I'll feel better after and that's what gets me in and out. I miss my flat being tidy. I miss absolutely everything not feeling like an effort. I miss coming home and not bursting into tears and crying all evening. I miss not being overwhelmed at being alone cos it's just me and my dark thoughts. I miss not feeling like absolutely no one gives a shit. I miss not feeling like I'm screaming into a void.

[msviolacea]

Lesson of the day is that if you have reason to believe you might have been exposed to COVID, even if you get a negative test result, keep testing a couple more times just to make sure. Because it took me until the third test to find out that yes, my misery over the last few days is in fact COVID. Sigh.

Thank all the tiny gods for vaccinations, though, which make it no more than a particularly nasty summer cold for me. I mean, it sucks, don't get me wrong, no one ever wants a fever and painful cough. But I'm on the mend now in terms of symptoms, and no signs of anything known to be a long-term side effect as of now.

Biggest irritation, other than the illness itself, is that it derailed my vague plans to keep walking/exercising after I got back from Colorado so I wouldn't lose the momentum I gained. Ah well. We'll revisit that after I'm fully recovered, I guess.