#But I don't now so I have no clue how or why you dmed me about this random person I don't even follow

[dbphantom]

Listen if you're gonna send me an ask about why I shouldn't interact with a person, can you at least do it off anon so I can request actual proof privately? I'm not replying to these since the only way to respond to them is publicly and I don't want to contribute to an unsubstantiated rumor about someone. That's not fair.

[m3ab]

1? 2? 3? 4? 5? 6? 8? 9? 10? 11? 12? 13? 14? 15? 16? 17? 18?

Right now? Ship in a Bottle by Fin Argus

2. (Frantically scrambles to see if I've ever actually listened to an album) ...does a soundtrack count? I love Knives' Piano Theme from Trigun Stampede

3. Uhmmmmmm I loved Dynamite by Taio Cruz

4. ....................uhhhhhhhh.............I haven't listened to it in a very long time, but I guess Hall of Fame? I don't often listen to music that makes me feel strong, my music taste tends to be songs that fit my blorbos or whatever scenario they're in(if that makes any sense)

5. If I had to choose, I have to say Let me Down Slowly by Alec Benjamin. Not the saddest song, but it started playing when my playlist finished a little bit after my oldest childhood friend said she was moving 15 hours away. I don't know why that song hit me so hard specifically, but it was the first and only song to make me cry.

6. Hmmmm.....gotta go with Somewhere Only We Know. I didn't hear it that long ago, only a little over a year, but it somehow became my biggest comfort song.

8. ...............................um......none....?

9. Ship in a Bottle by Fin Argus

10. Nothing specifically, there are a few songs I listened to a lot when I wasn't in the best of places mentally

11. A New Horizon from the musical Starry. A friend was really into this musical over the time we dmed this really silly DND campaign together, listening to it brings up some really funny moments from that campaign. One of my favorites is when one of our players ate some of Bigfoot's hair and said it tasted "tangy".

12. A song that grew on me....hmmmm.... Honeybee by Steam Powered Giraffe. I didn't know how I felt about it at first, but now it's one of my favorites.

13. A song from a musical......ngl Ding Dong the Wicked Witch is Dead from Wizard of Oz is so funny

14. .......I can't hear anything so I normally watch a lyric video and then just play music while I'm doing a different task....I don't think that any music videos I've seen have ever stood out to me

15. SPG's cover of Summertime Sadness

16. Uhhhhhhhhh I have no clue

17. A song with great lyrics.......fire fire by SPG. A more serious answer, ECHO by Crusher-P

18. A song for summer.....Steam Powered Giraffe's cover of Summertime Sadness.

So uhh, there you go. I got a bit lazy at the end because I told myself I'd go to bed half an hour ago:)

[andys-control-center]

Very personal me stuff that has nothing to do with rp whatsoever so you can ignore this if you feel like I won't be upset

(If you don't want a long summary of examples skip to the big-ass tldr)

I remember when I was in Young 5's-1st Grade (5-8 yrs old), and I knew this kid who I'm gonna call Homeboy G.

Homeboy G was great! We liked the same stuff, he was aesthetically pleasing to look at, I liked his style and was naturally drawn to him (As I'm typing this I'm wondering if I had a lil bit of gender envy towards him but shhhh we can confront that later).

So, as the little kid who was raised on Disney Channel and Nickelodeon due to a mom who didn't really know what she was doing and had to leave me with various babysitters to work and provide for the two of us, I assumed that I had a crush on this kid.

When my mom told me bedtime stories, Homeboy G would be the prince who saved the princess (*gagging noises*), and I would occasionally admit my crush on him to a close friend who I knew wouldn't snitch.

Fast-forward to 2nd grade; I had moved from Michigan to Arizona due to guardianship being handed over to my grandparents, I was at a new school and very much an asshole due to the Lil Bucket of Trauma that I carried with me at all times. I met this kid, who's real name was Richard (1. I say this because his nickname was different and I'm not sharing that because Richard is common and 2. His mom is my math teacher rn so thank Hodur she doesn't know what Tumblr is).

Richard was...alright? He was smart, looked alright, so little me looked at him and went "Yep that one". I even wrote a cringe love poem to him (I started young folks), which I don't remember the contents but ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww--

I was so dramatic about it, it was insaneee. He knew I had a crush on him, the whole class knew I had a crush on him, and I'm pretty sure the teacher had an idea of it too.

3rd grade: A dude named Jacob! He was a dick to his little brother, I have no clue what I was thinking

Skipping over 4th-7th grade, because I skipped 4th grade like the smart cookie I was (where did those brain cells go???) and the other grades had no crush-related incidents.

8th grade? It was this girl named Carly. Her name isn't actually Carly, cuz you can see a pattern where I only keep the most common-ass names honest and change the rarer ones, and also Carly was my shitty abusive ex-aunt so HAH SUCK ON THAT CARLY AND "CARLY"--

My crush on Carly developed from the beginning of the year since she was in my homeroom (homeroom is the first class of the day for my British friends, it was science for me) and my orchestra class.

Now Carly? She was an 8.5 out of 10. She was my eye-candy in both classes, I'd be staring at her like there was no tomorrow (except for when someone might notice). I started documenting my progress with potentially romancing her, and I got nervous when I realized that I didn't know if she liked girls or not.

Then I realized I was trans, and I went "Whelp problem solved"

My desperation to win Carly over stuck throughout the entire year, one time I cried because she snapped at me (not in front of her thank god, my grandmother had to deal with that).

AND THEN my best friend dmed me.

They told me about how another friend of ours and someone else would constantly go at them for being the first chair in the first violins (talented best friend <3<3<3), and how these two would say that MY bff didn't deserve their spot.

Who was the second person?

Fucking. Carly.

The moment I found out, I lost all interest in Carly. No more trying to get to know her or impress her, I didn't even TRY to get her side of the story (mostly because my BFF is the most honest person I know, they've only ever told white lies, and they definitely would ruin my view of someone I like unless the claims were legitimate), I just...dropped her instantly.

TL;DR - I was very weird and shallow about the people I liked.

For a few years, I've been dancing around the answer as to why. I thought I was asexual for a while, and then realized after a dream I am NOT going into that nope, I'm definitely sexually attracted to people, which was how I found the label of Bisexual that I still claim with pride to this day.

And to past me; A little confused, but you got the spirit.

It wasn't the sexual attraction I was missing, it was the romantic attraction.

I've been dancing along the line for a few years, sometimes going "yeah probably" and sometimes going "NO"

The only person I've ever told was my grandmother, and if you guys know anything about her then you know that she didn't take it well. Because she didn't.

She cried, was so scared that I'd never be happy and never find my soulmate and blehblehbleh.

Other than her? Not a soul.

But I've thought it over a lot, and a Youtuber who I used to watch as a tiny gremlin (Spoiler alert: It's JaidenAnimations) came out as aroace, and she talked about her experiences with being aro, and I realized that I Am Aromantic.

And I don't wanna hide anymore.

I was never into Homeboy G, or Richard, or Jacob or Carly. I was just into the idea of being with them. I had romance shoved into my brain since I was a little kid, due to being raised by a TV, and I thought that it was the most important thing on the planet, that I'd be unwhole without it.

And clearly, people around me feel that way too.

I thought romance was more of a promise (which it is) than an actual feeling. I thought it would happen to me eventually. I thought it was this great final puzzle piece to my being, and that maybe if I had a s/o I'd be less empty, less depressed, less dysphoric.

It doesn't work that way.

Am I shunning all possibility of a romantic relationship? No, I think I have the potential to be in one and actually enjoy it, I just have a rare view on what romance actually is that other people don't quite get. Aromanticism, like many things, is a spectrum. I also fall on the spectrum.

And the ironic thing is that realizing that I'm aro, I feel like the hole's been filled. I don't need a s/o to make my life complete, all I need is to be accepting of myself, and to be accepted by the people I find most important.

(P.S. When I say I don't have romantic attraction for people I am NOT including Vision from the MCU if he pulled out a ring I'd be putting it on my finger IMMEDIATELY--)

Also look at this neat sticker I ordered for my laptop. It's so neat dude--

Fin

[kookie-doughs]

Beta Tester

Kozume Kenma X Reader

-YN LN is a popular mangaka

Chapter 16: Stage

Seeing you running towards him made Kenma frown.

"Kenma!" You waved. "Thank you for not leaving yet!"

Ignoring you he continued to walk towards the direction of the stage.

You pouted and crossed your arms. "You know... As sorry as I am for that kiss I really don't regret it."

Jogging up in front of him with a shit eating grin, you positioned yourself in front of him where he'd have no choice but to look at you while you looked at him. His ears were slightly red without a doubt but who were you kidding yours were too.

Kenma cleared his throat, "Good for you then. Now get out of the way so I could get out of here. "

"And honestly I liked that kiss." You continued determined to see him flustered again. "Your lips were soft and I bet my ass you're a great kisser. I rate you 10/10 would do it again."

With a glare he looked at you straight in the eyes, "So do it pussy." Then went ahead before you could see the red settling on his face.

"I- Wh- Excuse me- Wh- Huh? K-Ken- Kenma!!" You squeaked as you chased after him.

"I said what I said."

You finally caught up to him when he was about to climb the stairs towards the stage. Luckily(?) you also have to go up with him.

"Ehh... Where's the flustered Kenma? I wanted to see you all blushy and panicked. You looked so adorable. I don't want hot daddy Dom Kenma. I want cute baby sub Kenma..."

As he was halfway up the stairs your height gap grew and he was way over you. He just looked down on you, leaning closer the gap barely existent he smirked.

"Too bad." Then turned away.

There were a handful of people who saw the scene. Which made you more embarrassed. Holy shit you acted all alpha online only to be dominated by a hermit named Kozume Kenma.

Boy were you happy. You'd happily submit to him.

"Let us all welcome the two people who made the game possible! YN LN and Kozume Kenma!!"

You might be confused why you two were the ones going and why you were introduced like that.

As you are the creator of Puri-Puri you of course are the reason why this game existed.

But Kenma came here as he's the biggest investor, the face of the game and no one else wanted to go. So yeah...

As you two came up the stage you were just wishing the blush from the scene a few moments ago. The cameras flashed and claps were heard.

"Shit the media is here..." You mumbled.

"Your surprised, why?" Kenma gave you an amused and disappointed look. No idea how he managed to do that but he did.

"Shut the fuck up. I just got a feeling the questions won't be about the game thanks to the media."

"So you do think sometimes..."

"You want me to hit you?"

A clearing of throat behind you stopped your argument. It was Akaashi handing you both microphones to be clipped on you [I'm sorry I dont know what they're called] .

"Good luck, don't do and say anything stupid. And remember this is the release of PPM's demo." He reminded and got off the stage.

"Good evening to you all! I hope you've been having a great time!" I started.

"We'd like to thank you again for attending the release of PPM's demo."

"Now of course the game is yet to be played but from the trailer that was shown, I hope you had enjoyed it since the game is going to be much better than the trailer!"

"I'm sure you all must've questions as well. That's why Me and your idi-- dear author will answer."

"You definitely were about to call me idiot." You frowned at him.

He smirked and shrugged. "I have not a slightest idea what you mean."

"You're the worst."

Ignoring you... Again. He motioned at one of the reporters to probably ask their question.

"Ms. LN, as the initial plot of the Puri-Puri Magika is about [REDACTED], and the trailer we saw have quite a large difference from one another only having the universe in similarty. Is it just the universe of the similar one to the manga? "

"Of course the plot would be different. It disappoints me quite a bit that none of you realized how they're connected aside from the universe. Well, I don't really want to spoil you but if you actually read the Manga and saw the trailer," You gave a proud smirk. "Everyone that was a fan of PPM in the team were ecstatic. They were all just-" You mimicked a mind blown. "They were so excited about the game and a those."

"Thank you Ms. LN."

"Next please."

"Mr. Kozume," the next one called. "You were neither a fan of YN, nor PPM, why did you decide to not only beta test the game but sponsor and invest big sum of money on the game."

"We--"

"No wait ! I want to answer some of those questions!" You cut off cackling. "The one about him investing and him beta testing! It's actually an annoying and Hella funny story."

"No I was a--"

"Shut up you'll probably lie."

"Shut up." Kenma now had his ears red. "Don't you--"

"He was the biggest asshole back then!"

"Stop talking."

"He fucking beta tested despite not knowing shit about PPM because it was the biggest game. And he just banwagoned  on it like a bitch he was."

"I did not. I had some clues about you Manga."

"You did not know shit about PPM cut yo bullshit. You didn't even know who the MC was!"

"Shut up."

"That's why he beta tested! Now the reason why he invested is really hilarious!"

"I really hate this story..."

"This was the reason why Kenma became Bae too! We didn't know shit about how to contact Kenma, we only had his email address and his social media. Keep that in mind. "

"So since he didn't know shit about PPM he really couldn't care about the plot and just looked for bugs and shit. He wasn't even aware of the bugs in the plot since he didn't know which what was supposed to be part of the plot and not. This bitch ass decided there wasn't any bugs anymore so we went with that. But then we had to play it and saw a shit ton of bugs."

"I said there were some bugs don't make me seems so stupid."

"You didn't even inform us about the glitch at the time skip part! That could've ruined the entire thing! Anywayz, so we had to code the game again. So we emailed him that there were way too many bugs other than what he told us so the next testing would be later. But the asshole never replied. And since I was the one entasked to guide this bitch ass, I  had to flood his email! And he didn't respond! Not once! It had been DAYS! I send him at least 20 emails everyday! I have up on the 3-4th day and DMed him on Twitter."

"I really hate this part."

"No. No. This is the best part. Do y'all remember that one trending #KodzuGone started by Tenma? It's because, this asshole never responded to our emails so I DMed him all the shit important shit in the emails. Then this bitch fucking blocked me! I fucking rante to Tenma and he canceled Kenma like he deserved to! I was panicking about it since Mr. Suzumiya told me that Kenma could be a potential investor if he wanted. And I needed cash... "

"Do not call me that publicly. You are disgusting."

"He went full sugar daddy on me!" You cackled. "His entire squad had betrayed him! They were canceling him so he just fucking slid into my DMs apologizing about the shit he did and I told him, bitch I'm coming over there and see you play this fucking game or I will not stop this canceling and make it worse. So he was forced to telll me his address and I'm not sure if yall saw the live but it was hot shit. The next day he bought all the copies of PPM at this one store and gave them to me and then he invested shit ton of money on my on going works, bought me a new tablet, paid my Keiji bills, and many other shit. Yall would die to have him as sugar daddy I'm telling you. Ya don't even have to give him sugar for the treats. "

"That was the biggest mistake I made."

"Awwe, but thanks to that we're closer than ever. "

"Exactly my point."

"Thank you for answering Ms. LN."

"I hate you so much." Kenma sighed pinching the bridge of his nose.

"No you don't. Admit it you love me."

"I really don't. Next question please."

"A-Ah, my initial question was actually answered in the previous question. It about your live. Now my question is, Ms LN and Mr. Kozume, is your relationship really a platonic one or a romantic one? "

"Okay, babe," You chuckled. "my man won't even let me breathe the same air he does. Ya think we're dating?"

"Well your right."

"What?"

"Excuse me?"

"Huh?! " You exclaimed a little louder than you thought since the mic made a loud noise.

"The relationship we have is both platonic and romantic. As labels aren't placed we share a romantic relationship." Kenma smirked.

You looked at him and the crowd with a clear eminent blush. "I-I I- Wh-"

Pulling you closer to him and turning around so the crowd won't see you both. He lowered the mic to prevent them from hearing.

"I wanted to see you all blushy and panicked . You look adorable." He whispered to your ear before facing the crowd again who were now going crazy over what Kenma had just confirmed.

"Y-You're an asshole..."

"Yeah, an asshole who..." lowering his mic again he leaned to your ear. "Still has your favorite onsie at his place. You really shouldn't have left it at my place. I'm so tempted to burn it."

"You leave my onsie alone! I will drown your consoles."

"With that threat, you're suddenly stripped of your house visit privileges."

"W-Why would you say we're dating?!"

"I didn't. I just said we both share a romantic and platonic relationship with no labels. I technically didn't lie too."

"Why did you do this?"

"Aside from wanting to see you all flustered? I'm probably drunk." Kenma smiled and turned to the crowd again. "Next question please."

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I'm sorry lately there's been to many words and less pictures it's just that... Idk

Lol I'm sorry this was supposed to be smau but there's been too many words

Ooc Kenma is shit so I made him drunk

-kookie-doughs

Taglist?

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[ecstasydemon]

so i got dmed by this account today

when i saw this i immediately assume it’s encoded. so i go on their account and go on a decoder website and start talking to them. they’re using the ROT13 method.

here’s what we said at first (bold is 2by2by2by2, italic text is mine)

do you think you can help?

no probably not. sorry

then i go on their account and notice a post when decoded says:

you have to help him. he doesn't know how to do this himself.

and i notice in the title of their blog is a twitter account, so i go see what that’s about

i ask them if Luke is who they were talking about that needed help, and they said yes.

i go lurk on luke’s account a lil and noticed this

the instagram account in question:

i chatted with the tumblr blog some more:

who is this he though.. is he luke?

well, you're far more perceptive than the others so far. yes, that's him. shame you don't think you can help him, though.

well what does he need help with? maybe i can squeeze some time in

he's going to start needing to leave where he is right now. and soon. he won't want to, though, because he's an idiot. i need people to get him out of there, so that i can win the game.

what game? and where exactly is he supposed to leave from?

well i can't tell you everything. that'd ruin the fun for me. he's in, well, let's call it a temporary holding cell of sorts. not an impossible one to escape by any means. but something along those lines.

he seems fine to me, considering he’s in a “holding cell”

you can still get luxuries, even when you're in a pen. you feed cattle fattening grain before they go to a slaughterhouse, don't you?

oh

so if you know where he is and in order for you to “win”, he has to leave, why do you need others to get him out? why dont you do it?

games have rules, duh. "no direct contact with the other players." we can't message each other, use the same sites, or get people to say something like "oh she said you need to leave that place" for us. it's a really stupid rule, but it's certainly making it more fun.

is luke a “player” in this game?

well yeah, that's why i can't directly talk to him. if i could, this would be so much easier, dear lord

is anyone else a player besides you two?

oh yeah, that idiot on the instagram account. he's a player, but not like me and luke are. he's more of a measure to make sure we're not breaking any rules. seems to be taking his own sweet time, though.

oh yeah i noticed him too. is he supposed to post anything?

i don't know. maybe. it depends on how things go, i guess. if one of us break the rules, he'll probably do something. no clue what, though.

most likely some kind of punishment. luke doesnt seem to be aware that he’s a part of this game. how come you are?

oh yeah, no doubt it'll be a punishment. not sure what it'd be. as for luke, i don't know that much. it's not like i can look in on him and his weird little cell when i please. but unless i'm mixing stuff up, he's got a shit memory.

he mentioned that he’s been in that cell for as long as he can remember, so im guessing not that long judging from your words.

probably not, but maybe. either way, at least he's got the idea of leaving in his head. thanks for that.

(i had been talking to luke on twitter while this was happening, asking him abt his place and whatever. you can see the convo i have w him on his profile)

so this is really interesting so far. luke in particular has to leave wherever he is for this person to win the game. im most likely gonna continue playing if i have the time, but i’d like to see yalls interactions too!