#Excusemymind

[geekycreativesoul-blog]

Battling the Pangs

People close to me now say i have changed, that I've grown and become a more confident self, yet inside all i am feeling is I'm fighting a battle that I'm not sure I'm even close to winning yet. Theres no way of telling how well I'm doing, how far I've come, or changed or developed because in my head i can only see the way i take one step forward and 5 steps back. Im a constant anxious mess inside, trying to not only be more of the person i want to be, but also the person i both should have been but lost along the way somehow, and the person i deserve to be. Im dealing with thoughts left there by your control, and how you turned me into something else and how even though the cord is cut and you're not here to overthrow me and my thoughts, the way you had me trapped in that mindset often still remains. I struggle to love myself because i can't see it most days. What i seem to present to the world, is true, there is no denying that everything i do, how i act and am as a person is real and with every little bit of me involved in every action, feeling and word, yet on the inside i feel that I'm not even close to being that person. I feel shy, anxious and like I'm burden to everyone, I'm constantly saying sorry as i can't help but feel I'm always wrong and that not only do i mistakes but i am one. I can't shake this feeling and no matter what i try i always end up back here.. the never ending cycle of thoughts that go through my mind and that will always lead me to panicking that i will never be good enough. I just can't see what those people see... But there are rare moments when i feel empowered and try to make the most of that feeling as it becomes so rare.. i make sure i try and spread it and share it around as i dont want to keep it to myself, i will always give the best of me to make others happy even if it means that i end up back in the vicious cycle of my anxiety again... because i will always will want to try and make sure that I'm liked.. even just a tiny bit by someone for whatever reason... I suppose the thing that i am taking from this is that despite the cycles i go through and how i think that in all honesty i will never be good enough for anyone, i know that I'm at least trying to make a difference and hopefully that difference with occur in how i see myself later on down the line... I hope this is not forever and that my life flourish like i hope i can....x

[thatswizardschess]

thank you so so so much @sparklebabyadore for tagging me <33

rules: fill in the list and tag ten people you’d like to know better

relationship status: so single and so looking

favourite colour: red!

lipstick or chapstick: LIPSTICK

three favourite foods: pasta, fruit, pasta again

last song i listened to: Forever Yours from Once on This Island

top three shows: Drag Race, Scandal, and Jane the Virgin

top three bands/musicians: Adele, Bruno Mars, Beyoncé

book I’m currently reading: ummmmm I haven’t read a book in a minute i’m sorry

okay im gonna tag 10 people: @@cursedhoney @alaskaquaria @trixya-thunderfuckery @briaquaria @trixie-katya-tati @biadoreyou @giovannipalandrani @katyazamomattel @excusemymind @emmafangirl

[biadoreyou]

do you have any fav biadore fics?

I do! I am currently loving Simplicité, by @theofficialcunt. I love literally everything by @failingandhiding. Back to Life by @artificialtaurus is amazing. Older by Nellie. Oh, and A Head, A Heart and A Crown by C*NT.He Sings His Heart by excusemymind. These are just a few off the top of my head, there are so many that I love!

[katyasunburnt]

Rules: Answer 20 questions and tag 20 followers

Tagged by: @russianwhore

Nicknames: Art or Artie Zodiac sign: Gemini Height: 5′3 (1,63cm) Orientation: Pansexual Nationality: Brazilian/Portuguese Favorite Fruit: Apple, Banana, Watermelon Favorite Season: Winter!  Favorite Book: don’t really have one, but I enjoy Dostoievski and terror/horror storys. Favorite Flower: don’t have one but all of them are pretty Favorite Scent: gasoline, my mom’s perfume Favorite Animal: dogs!!!! Favorite Color: pink, white, red, black Coffee, Tea, or Hot Cocoa?: Coffee! Average Sleep Hours: bleh, usually 5-6 hours max. don’t really know how to sleep well :/ Cat or Dog: I like both but dogs are my thing Favorite Fictional Character: ok this is hard but probably Helena from Orphan Black # of Blankets: one because brazil is fucking hot Dream Trip: L.A, NYC, Portugal, Japan, Canada, London, literally take me anywhere. Blog Created: around 2 years ago, I’ve been inactive for a looooong time. Favorite song at the moment: Lust For Life - Lana Del Rey; The Cure - Lady Gaga; C.L.A.T - Aja, Sasha, Peppermint, Alexis.

tagging: @biancadelqueen @ru-ru-ru-ru-rupauldragrace @prettyfakedoll @fuckoffdana @velour-sasha @excusemymind @queensofdragrace @trixiechachki @katyaja @katyaismymom @adore-delano @missmalanaphy @katyandtrixie @roygaylock @kingk8d @katyazamo @pastelpepsi @glamtron @polishremoverbitch @alaskathunderfucks

[violenceandmilk]

i met @excusemymind today and she’s a dawleeng : D we just forgot to take selfies wtvs 

[andyreyesv]

RULES: Bold the statements that apply to you, italicize your aspirations, and tag nine people!

I was tagged by: @dy-biadore. Thank you :) (by the way I love your blog hahahaha)

AIR: I have small hands • I love the night sky • I watch small animals and birds when I pass them by • I drink herbal tea • I wake to see dawn • The smell of dust is comforting • I’m valued for being wise • I prefer books to music • I meditate • I find joy in learning new truths from the world around me

FIRE: I don’t have straight hair • I like to wear ripped jeans and overalls • I play an organized sports • I love dogs • I am not afraid of adventure • I love to talk to strangers • I always try new foods • I enjoy road trips • Summer is my favorite season • My radio is always playing

WATER: I wear bracelets on my wrists • I love the bustle of the city •I have more than one set of piercings • I read poetry • I love the sound of a thunderstorm • I want to travel the world • I go to sleep past midnight most days • I love dimly lit diners and fluorescent signs • I rewatch kids’ shows out of nostalgia• I see emotions in colors not wor

EARTH: I wear glasses • I enjoy doing the laundry • I am a vegetarian or vegan • I have an excellent sense of time • My humor is very cheerful • I am a valued advisor to my friends • I believe in true love • I love the chill of mountain air • I’m always listening to music • I am highly trusted by the people in my life

AETHER: I go without makeup in my daily life • I make my own artwork• I keep on track of my tasks and time • I always know true north • I see beauty in everything • I can always smell flowers • I smile at everyone I pass by • I always fear history repeating itself • I have recovered from a mental disorder • I can love unconditionally

I’m tagging: @chinayshlongs @biadorable @excusemymind @fyeahbiancadelrio @unmistakable-girl @imafleurchild

[everythingsallmight]

What if when Mirio was young he used his quirk to get into movies for free?

Just like how weird would it be? Because his clothes come off as well when he uses it so? He just enters through the wall butt naked. He thinks he's free to watch but everyone just stares at him

Mirio: Ah Sweet the new Spider-Man!!

Everyone in seats : ....

[thatswizardschess]

I was tagged by @shadyqueenie!! Thank you so much <33

RULES: We’re snooping on your playlist. Set your entire music library on shuffle and report the first 10 songs that pop up. Then choose 10 victims.

1. Hallelujah by Panic! At The Disco

2. Thriller by Michael Jackson

3. Woe is Me from 25th Annual Putnam County Spelling Bee

4. Bloodstream by Ed Sheeran

5. It’s All Over from Dreamgirls

6. Candyman by Christina Aguilera

7. Your Makeup is Terrible by Alaska Thunderfuck 5000

8. Time Warp from Rocky Horror Picture Show

9. Pierre & Natasha from Natasha, Pierre, and the Great Comet of 1812

10. You Know I’m No Good by Amy Winehouse

I’ll tag @trixiespads @gueuledebois @sparklebabyadore @biadoreyou @katyazeroni @i-am-your-taxidermy @excusemymind @dy-biadore @alaska5000 @fruit-floral-nut and anyone else who wants to!!

[violenceandmilk]

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KKKKKK to chorando socorro @excusemymind​ @dragqueensmoods já viram isso?! a voz da Miss Fame wtf!

[violenceandmilk]

RULES: Bold the statements that apply to you, italicize your aspirations, and tag nine people!

I was tagged by my lovely friend @excusemymind ( sorry for taking a while to answer) i love these pls keep tagging me! XD

AIR: I have small hands • I love the night sky • I watch small animals and birds when I pass them by • I drink herbal tea • I wake to see dawn • The smell of dust is comforting • I’m valued for being wise • I prefer books to music • I meditate • I find joy in learning new truths from the world around me

FIRE: I don’t have straight hair • I like to wear ripped jeans and overalls • I play an organized sports • I love dogs • I am not afraid of adventure • I love to talk to strangers • I always try new foods • I enjoy road trips • Summer is my favorite season • My radio is always playing

WATER: I wear bracelets on my wrists • I love the bustle of the city • I have more than one set of piercings • I read poetry • I love the sound of a thunderstorm • I want to travel the world• I go to sleep past midnight most days • I love dimly lit diners and fluorescent signs • I rewatch kids’ shows out of nostalgia • I see emotions in colors not words

EARTH: I wear glasses • I enjoy doing the laundry • I am a vegetarian or vegan• I have an excellent sense of time • My humor is very cheerful • I am a valued advisor to my friends • I believe in true love • I love the chill of mountain air • I’m always listening to music • I am highly trusted by the people in my life

AETHER: I go without makeup in my daily life • I make my own artwork • I keep on track of my tasks and time • I always know true north • I see beauty in everything • I can always smell flowers • I smile at everyone I pass by • I always fear history repeating itself • I have recovered from a mental disorder • I can love unconditionally