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#FFXIV NOW TOO 🥹
noxtivagus · 1 year
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DEATH UNTO DAWN ON SPOTIFY 🥹🫶🏼
#🌙.rambles#[ ffxiv. ]#pls. listen. it has the tea ost n the nier collab n sorrow of werlyt n eden.#it has so many osts dear to me uwahh i've been waiting. so long 😭😭#looking at the album properly now that i'm back home from feeding the cats. help one of them even followed me from the#lower ground lvl to. 2nd floor HFLAKSJFLKSD. those cats. r very dear to me :<#back to ffxiv though. not only w ^^ but there's also hearthward.. ishgard my home. oh my god#n then. danshig naadam iirc? the 'a __ air __' around the start. my fav frontlines map hehe. i miss frontlines honestly#oh my god the scions & sinners stuff too 🥺#spotify wrapped w to the edge at the top fr. OH MY GOD THIS MONTH#W KH FINALLY. YK ON SPOTIFY 😭 riku n dearly beloved those osts mean so much to me hehe n then#FFXIV NOW TOO 🥹#so weird listening to these on spotify. this means i can remove a lot of my mp3s now that i downloaded from yt hdkfajsdkfl#i remember yk? IM GNA CRY SO BADLY I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY ANYMORE#I MISS. EDEN SO BAD IT HURTS. i miss raiding w my friends i miss laughing w them i miss calling n then. clearing. together.#i miss meeting new ppl. n. oh that one silly friend i still rmb those compliments man he made me attached for a bit i can't deny that but#IT'S JUST. FOND FOR ME TO LOOK BACK ON NOW.#n then. with this is just. endless small reminders of what i love in life so much. yk these memories these people these emotions n thoughts#all these stories. fuck. i feel like. a kid again n it's. smth i've missed lately. it soothes me so much n comforts my heart n soul n mind#sweet serenity oh how i missed you. yk that. that certain peace even though the world around me may be. yeah#even if the apocalypse wld come to test us all or smth i know that. the love i just have for. life wld. yk always return.#i'll always keep it close no matter how much it'll fucking hurt.#i love ffxiv so much i really do it just. yeah for the past few years has become one of my homes fr. always gives me comfort#always makes me remember myself again yk? hdflasdjflkd.. i miss emet-selch can you tell one reason why he's. rlly special to me#like bro he's. i mean. i find him. oh god how to put this i find him attractive fuck it but uh. his uhm. form as solus is.. he's#ffxiv shb grandpa simulator jokes for a reason 💀 but my bro i loved you ever since i knew you EMET-SELCH HE'S JUST. SO#SO ANNOYING. FUCK. PROMISES TO KEEP RN JUST MAKES ME EMOTIONAL ALL THE TIME. THE ORCHESTRA MAN#i want to write so much but. my mind is such a mess rn. but it. i feel better. i remember again. it. hdlfajsfkdjf :^) 😭#i. have sm to write. but i just wna cry i'm overwhelmed again but it's bcs i love. ffxiv sm 😭😭 imy n ilysm not just ffxiv but. everything
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astrxealis · 2 years
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ass (savage) looks. agh. i don't want to do it tbh
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azxremoon · 9 months
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HIII AGAIN ELLU !! i am glad u are doing well ... me too hehe (aside from being a bit bored & tired lately but i am ok) <33 and NP OFC HEHE you're like. aside from being one of my fav writers you are so nice n lovely n yeah 🥺💗
NYWAY OKAY ... vv understandable, we love lucina vv much here <3 but omg a grima!robin theme would have been SO cool as well (i see you're having awakening brainrots recently it seems) ;) !!
anyway. AGHH TYSM ..... 🥹💞 crying in the club rn /pos :(( (back to u btw! hehe <3) i don't really have Thoughts rn but lately aaa since i've been really back into ffxiv lately. g'raha and themis literally own my heart LOL </3 ... i hope this isn't too much but i js wnted to say i'm really looking forward to u maybe one day getting into xiv bcs that'd be really cool and w all my friends/moots i am so interested in seeing who u'd like !! ANYWAY i have to sleep now in my timezone but. have a great day ellu !! 💖
I’M ONE OF YOUR FAVORITE WRITERS?!?! BRB LITERALLY SOBBING THAT’S THE NICEST COMPLIMENT EVER!! it’s been way too long since i’ve visited your writing (and i plan on changing that very very soon hehe) but i remember your writing being insane and amazing?!?! hello?! pleath spare a crumb of the talent.
AND YOUR THEME!! did you say it was incomplete? even so, i think it looks amazing so far! you always have the best themes ever, i’m so jealous! i always wonder how people make them look so nice and sharp.
oooooo!!! would you be willing to tell me about g’raha and themis? whether it’s about your selfship with them or them in general / from ffxiv, i’d be more than happy to listen! i love their designs and i wanna pinch their cheeks so bad! and i prommy it’s not too much at all, i’ll be sure to update you on any news about ffxiv along the way ^-^
thank you for chatting with me and have a good night, apollo!! i hope you have a lovely day when you wake up!!
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emetkoto · 2 years
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do you think emet and koto would have wine dates together? (emet looks like a red wine kind of guy tbh; haven't played ffxiv but he feels like that on design vibe)
I'm glad you also sense his wine aunt potential! I personally have this hc that wine was pretty popular with the ancients bc idk all the like Greek god influence and such just makes me think yeah those were people who appreciated a fine wine! One of my ancient characters is actually named and based on Dionysus who was known for making wine so I might be biased since he's part of my story LOL but anyway yeah I think wine reminds emet of better days! Even if the alcohol doesn't do anything for him it's just comforting. Tho now that ppl aren't immortal they rarely let wine age past a hundred years or so which probs leaves him with a yearning for something better 😔 he probs takes bottles of wine he sees potential in and stores them in the rift to try and get a longer age on them tbh
So yeah I can totally see him rolling up to the inn room with a bottle and preparing dinner for K'oto (and him when K'oto convinces him to eat too) making sure the meal suits the wine and just. Enjoying it with him 🥹 k'otos not very cultured booze is booze to him but I think if he saw emet looking displeased or disappointed in how he was drinking it or describing it he would take the time to learn how to properly enjoy it from him 💜❤️
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noxtivagus · 1 year
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i screamed.
#🌙.rambles#[ ffxiv. ]#i forgot abt the manga for a bit. GOT NERVOUS TO READ BCS I'LL GO. HDFKLASJDFLKSJDFLKADSJF YK#( apollo's watching over my shoulder n said to write that i'm ugly. like. artemis is ugly. sobs )#oh my god. i can't read this. i just want to change all my pfps now n. be delusional. daydream. FUCK#EMET-SELCH YOU'RE SO UNFAIR 😭😭#& yotsuyu ma'am you're so pretty pls step on me hahahaha#n then alphi my bb first year he's so adorable i love love love him so much. my bb boy my dearest#AYMERIC YOU'RE SO LOVELY N HAURCHEFANT YOU'RE SO PRECIOUS I'LL CRY#the rest of them too but. rn my brain. is in school mode. i cannot. handle this. rn. oh my god. help#GAIA N RYNE WAHH THEY'RE SO CUTE I LOVE THEM SO MUCH 🥹🫶🏼#i'm enjoying this so much but i'm just skimming through to look at stuff#guys i love final fantasy xiv so much.#alphinaud at the end of the second chapter is so me actually#i froze when i saw emet-selch w the book. i have no words. oh my god.#GAIA N YSAYLE INTERACTION MY GIRLS I LOVE YOU BOTH SO MUCH 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#i have. assignments to do tho lmfaoooo that's enough for now. actually maybe i'll just quickly skim to the end of this chapter#i'm too shy to add more pics bcs. the 4th chapter. BUT. ALPHINAUD SAVING THE LIL KID I'M SO IN LOVE 🥹🥹🥹🥹🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼#alphi n alisaie. i'm emotional. I LOVE THEM SO MUCH 😭😭 alphi's soft smile there though.. i'm. so. in love.#alphi w the kid. alphi n alisaie. hdflaksdjfldk i love alphi so much my dear alphi :c#i want to ramble so much help me. but. SCHOOL. HFDALKDSFJDLKFJ SOBBING BYE#just some snippets from the manga yes. don't mind me
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noxtivagus · 9 months
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i've been using my priv twt a lot lately & i've been rambling sm abt ffxiv n other stuff but i think Soon i will get back to tumblr
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noxtivagus · 1 year
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..this is the new adventurer plate i made that i was talking abt a while ago hehe ><
#🌙.rambles#[ ffxiv. ]#looking through my drafts rn#I CHANGED MY PORTRAIT N#i like how it looks now 🫶🏼#TODAY'S BEEN A BIT OF A ROUGH DAY BUT#🥺 my wol makes me so happy she's my baby#i removed the fc hfjdkgjsj#i'm#OH MY GOD SHE LOOKS SO PRETY WAIT#don't mine the like. the alternating hours in the mid r like just for fun >.>#weekends 5 am so true though#oops#i miss raiding#edenmorn glam flex n ultimate legend hehe#flame captain! mentor! >_<#i feel like. dying my edenmorn top to jet black again#soot black is far too brown for my liking but jet black is.. expensive 🥹#adding a lil more blue this year tho has been nice tho. but#apollo still calls me emo 💀#i'm rlly rlly happy w my achievements in ffxiv. there used to really be a time where#it felt like. none of this was ever possibly in my reach. so to.. have all of this just means so much to me#i really wna be more active again! 2 years of ffxiv for me n nearly 1 year of endwalker#w that friend of mine i'm. really excited to make the fc together n aaaa i rlly look forward to raiding together? hehe bring them into more#content! & maybe even like. vc sometime. i wonder how her voice sounds like#N ALSO PLAY W. ok i'm like too shy to ramble about ppl who have tumblr or irls that know my @ but#i'm really excited to play ffxiv w. when yk who you are starts the free trial hehe ><#& then i'm too shy to say but i rlly look forward to playing more w my irls n. ffxiv means the world to my oh my god but#but i'm more of the kind of person that'd. do things for others like idk play their games or watch read their interests#i'm rambling so much oh my god but thinking abt the more. yk good possibilities in the future make me so happy
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noxtivagus · 1 year
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wahh just need to get this just THIS done then i can play. gbf. n ffxiv. for a while. hopefully
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noxtivagus · 1 year
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yoko shimomura i love her style so much
#🌙.rambles#shimomura w ffxv & kh is just. oh my god that#no wait this is so funny to me bcs i really just Cried for a bit n now i'm listening to music while eating a lot of chocolate 😭#random but brookside has always been my fav chocolate ever since i first ate it like years ago n no other chocolate compares to it for me#wait shimomura w the alchemist code! for whom the alchemist exists 🥺#goddamn i grew up playing a ton of gacha. like gacha strategy games n gacha uh.. otome.. 💀#oh man i love shimomura's compositions so much#apocalypsis noctis & forza finale & noctis & nachtflugel & melancholia & dearly beloved & apocalypsis magnatus & vector to the heavens#& moonlit melodies n. oh my god there's rlly so much !!!!#i'd say like.. i don't know how to describe it well right now but it's rather elegant in a way?#is it very obvious i really like orchestra#as much as i love piano uh. violin is tied w it as my fav instrument bcs it just sounds so elegant i love it so much#random i'm really just talking abt osts in general but gbf 'illuminated world' & ffxiv 'insanity' pls i love them so much#going off-topic from shimomura but yasunori nishiki w octopath n granblue n. 🥹🫶🏼#some of my favs r cyrus the scholar &. hdflajsdfj yk the break ver. of octopath songs!!!!#n then gbf.. the path of duty & weisser drache &#yk when i first listened to the path of duty it immediately reminded me of octopath's ost 😭#peacemaker's wings it immediately reminded me of uematsu n look he did contribute to it#I THINK AT LEAST.. I'M BASING ALL THESE OFF SPOTIFY I'M SO SORRY IF I'M WRONG#tsutomu narita ilyvm for gbf's ost!!!! n. oh nah if i talk abt soken i won't stop n uematsu too oh my god#keiichi okabe too ily. n the other nier composers i think i'm sorry i don't remember their names as well ><#i have no idea how all these ppl r all irl but i love all their music so much#listening to all these osts just make me so happy they comfort me sm fr i love video games so much :<<#nier automata my fav osts r voice of no return & grandma (destruction) & a beautiful song & emil (despair) & fortress of lies &#weight of the world ofc. n then gestalt/replicant there's uh grandma & song of the ancients / devola & dispossession & yonah & kaine#& emil & his/this dream & the dark colossus destroys all & shadowlord & ashes of dreams ofc!!!!#oh man i love music boxes sm.#THERE'S SM SONG I DIDN'T LIST BUT THERE'S SO MUCH 😭😭#other games n series like chrono & zelda & fe & soulsborne & persona & the witcher &. IM FORGETTING SO MUCH BUT <33#WAIT I FORGOT I CHANGED FROM BEING INVISIBLE IN DISCORD;;;;;
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noxtivagus · 1 year
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OCTOPATH TRAVELER 2 AAAAA i haven't played the demo nor have i. idk watched most of the trailers 😭😭 but i just watched one short clip on twt n. oh my god
#🌙.rambles#[ octopath. ]#THE MUSIC#N. FUCK#THE GRAPHICS R SO LOVELY AAAAAAA FUCK FUCK FUCK#IT'S SO BEAUTIFUL !!!!!!!!!!!!!#guys i love hd-2d so much okay#i just remembered i havent watched the totk trailer yet either 💀#N I HAVENT TOUCHED CCR N I HAVENT TOUCHED NIER EVER SINCE N#i forgot to finish shadow of the colossus n uhm i think it's been more than over a year since i last touched ac odyssey n#help. too many games to remember#but.. but i want fire emblem engage so bad 🥹🥹#n i haven't done 6.3 yet for ffxiv jeez#when that guy finally plays ffxiv again i'm gna persuade them to play in materia#n then my promises w my twt/discord/ffxiv friend i miss talking to them so 🥺 hopefully soon when i have less work#i'm so busy. more like i keep on getting distracted actually#i want to listen to dedicated to moonlight so badly#n then i want to socialize too but.. aghh no fuck that stresses me out so much i don't want to think abt it#aside from 1 friend irl i think n my online friends. like. this is just for now at least bcs from my irls there's only one that i think#apollo n i have been talking too consistently lately? n then one of the others is busy n#the. other one has like. ig probably lots of friends so i don't usually initiate anymore bcs yk they're busy w other stuff too i bet#guys nah i have to stop writing abt that keeping up w my friendships or wtvr just stresses me out i can't keep up w the pressure when i want#to do so much too on my own n it makes me sad.. at least w my irls bcs i don't. feel any pressure w my online friends thankfully :c#but i rlly need to stop this train of thought rn bcs it just drains me more n i can feel myself getting sad rn n#NAH 😭 okay i ended up rambling. i'm fine. i love video games n music n literature. yes#n i'm nearly done w this thing for lit which i was very excited for but i forgot bcs of my attention span#but i'm nearly done yes 🥺 n i'll try to help apollo. n. i'll go online tmrrw instead#n my chest aches rn maybe i need to eat less sugar idk or. nah idk#i'm rambling 😭😭 ahh.. i need to fix ffxiv on my pc bcs i uninstalled n.#i want to take pics but. shaders :( i like my new black mage glam a lot i did some farming in pf today. fun
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noxtivagus · 1 year
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HELP HFSJFKSJFJS
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6.3 is. rlly indeed closer than i think 🥺🥹
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noxtivagus · 1 year
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LITERATURE CLASS RN!!!! IM SO GIDDY
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noxtivagus · 1 year
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oh my god . endwalker 🥹
#🌙.rambles#[ ffxiv. ]#i'm rambling so much oh my god i'm listening to endwalker ost n i'm crying shush#but um oh god this just brings back so many memories#yk before i really used to play ffxiv nearly everyday#now i. i think this is the first in this whole week?#'hush love close your eyes and in sleep abide as sun's distant light echoes down to dreams below'#ffxiv's effect of me is insane it just brings out. this vulnerable more soft part of me?#it's much easier for me to communicate in-game#sending letters. i love sending letters in-game. unfortunately it's only for per world though :<#i finally have a close friend yeah that plays ffxiv more actively n isn't in free trial yeah? she has a house so i put messages#listening to ffxiv endwalker's ost outside of the game feels so foreign to me honestly#listening to. 'each drop' just. my poor heart it makes me emotional in such a confusing way#it comforts me and it puts me at peace.. is that why it feels so foreign to me 🥹#i have a lot of memories tied to these osts#one for example hehe w this is yk hermes my beloved. when he talks to us of.. his dreams. his loneliness. of meteion and of the world#' to know that you too have experienced suffering...is a comfort '#bro really said that. i love him so much#dynamis is also just. it just sounds like hope.#ffxiv easily enables me to remember n it just makes me feel like myself. reminds me of all the love i have for life#it brings back a lot of memories#bcs it's something that's. despite my activeness in it may fluctuate it rlly has been something constant for the past two years n#a lot has changed. i've met a lot of people. made a lot of memories. so many things that i wouldn't even have dared would happen#and when i think of how much has grown in these years it just.. brings me so much peace. count my blessings yeah i'm just#i'm just so inexplicably happy to be alive still n have all this. n to think that in the future.. yeah loss in inevitable at some point but#i hope to retain what i can. to grow even more. to live on.. with. everything n everyone. yeah. i'll do my best#I'M SORRY IT'S LIKE 1:44 AM RN N I'M EMOTIONAL HFLKASDJFL
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noxtivagus · 1 year
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'to the edge' 😭😭
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noxtivagus · 1 year
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can you hear me crying!!!!
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#🌙.rambles#[ ffxiv. ]#IM SORRY I HAVE A LOT OF INTERESTS BUT FFXIV'S GRASP ON ME IS JUST...... BRO#i was thinking about hermes earlier n got emotional#now i'm thinking of drk n my heart aches!#or maybe my chest is like this bcs of my sleep but oh well#i'll go watch some cutscenes but w jpn audio so i can#FUCK#FUCKKKKK IM GAY IM GAY IM GAY OH MY GOD I AM SO GAY#ZERO'S VOICE. ZERO. ZERO???? MA'AM. OH MY GOD I AM ACTUALLY NOT OKAY SHE BARELY TALKED BUT#THAT HAT. THE HAIR. SHE'S SO GENDERRRR SHE'S SO GIRLBOSS SHE'S. HDFKLAJDFLKSD#sqex was so unfair for this ngl she's my type fr. her design is so pretty#OH MY GOD YSHTOLA I AM#the feathers in zero's hat. her hair is. n then her colors. her eyes! n her clothes the design n everything n her scythe n she's so cool ><#fuck i am getting emotional just from the quest titles. N OH NOO THE OST JUST TURNED TO NIGHT IN THE BRUME#BCS IT'S NIGHT IN-GAME NOW.. THIS IS TOO EMOTIONAL FOR ME RN#'hope upon a flower'; 'in from the cold'; 'beyond the depths of despair'; ' the color of joy'; 'a trip to the moon'; 'when all hope seems#lost'; 'a past not yet come to pass'; 'a flower upon your return'; 'caging the messenger' (hermes.. it's so good. birds n then name meaning#n then w lore in ffxiv itself tying to canon. it's so well connected); ' unto the heavens'; 'youre not alone'; 'endwalker'#just some titles at a glance. i remember the story so well.. everything. i love it so much it's honestly very overwhelming 🥹#sharlayan.. playing w apollo. i have so much dear memories. n then the story n all the characters.#everything is just so. special to me. i remember many snippets of lines n quotes from the story#i write them down and repeat them from time to time. to remind myself.#the ost oh my god. dynamis.. each drop.. aghfkasjdflksdk
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noxtivagus · 1 year
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I LOVE THE ENDWALKER TRAILER SO MUCH !!!!
#🌙.rambles#[ ffxiv. ]#have i ever mentioned how i literally cried the first time i watched it#i was just in heavensward back when it released.. in the free trial too 🥹#ALPHINAUD MY BABY BOY UWAHHH ILYVM#MY GOD I LOVE HIM SO MUCH I'M SO PROUD OF HIS GROWTH???? SUCH A GOOD BOY HE OWNS MY HEART WTF#n then emet narrating i always get emotional!!!!#n then the throwbacks to all the expacs :((#can't believe still they really got. yk the vocal of architects. sam carter#IT'S EVEN MORE CRAZY BCS NOW I ACTUALLY LISTEN N LIKE THE BAND HAHA#AGHHHH SUCH A BANGER I LOVE FOOTFALLS#I LOVE THE TRANSITION THERE#FANDANIEL'S VOICE???? ILY#URICRED THEY'RE SO PRETTY. THEY ROBBED US OF URIANGER'S BACK THOUGH#AGHHHHH SHARLAYAN MY BELOVED#OUR SONG OF HOPE!!!!!!!!!!#:<< 'ere our vows endure and remain forever strong / standing tall in the dark do we carry on'#ON WINGS OF HOPE WE RISE UP THROUGH THE NIGHT AAAAAAAAAAAA#N THEN RAHA. RAHA BB ILY HE LOOKS SO GENDER OH MY GOD#I CANT. YSHTOLA N FORCHENAULT I CANT STPELL RN#🥺 im emotional i love ffxiv so much#zenos rpr oh my god that throne can i be that throne uh i mean. nothing!#estinyan ehe I LOVE MY ELEZENS SO MUCH#I LOVE THE EYE THING SO MUCH N THE MOON!!!!!!!!!!#n the lyrics.. oh im emotional#'though our fleeting moment has gone / youre not alone youre not alone yeah'#as you turn your eyes to the stars n then the forge ahead stuff n#THAT SAVED ME BACK THEN. GENUINELY N LITERALLY#GOD I LOVE FFXIV SO MUCH#logged in the game after watching the trailer again in yk n aghh the music my heart feels so warm. this is one of my homes fr
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