#Frightmare horror video music

[thunderbunny24]

Second Chance at Love

I have to give credit to Jelly Roll for his song Save Me. I stole it for my OC.

Part 10

            You pulled up to Matt’s house and before you could get your car door opened, he was outside waiting for you.  As soon as you shut the car door Matt picked you up, swung you in circles and started kissing you as you wrapped your legs and arms around him.  He carried you in the house and set you down.

            “I have missed you so much this last 2 weeks.”  He pulled you back into his chest.

            “I was only gone for like 9 days.  It’s the joys of having to actually work.”  You looked over towards the bar in Matt’s kitchen where Addison was sitting.  You smiled and waved at her.  “Hi!  It’s nice to finally meet you.”

            Addison’s cheeks turned bright red.  She got up from her seat and walked over to you.  You opened up your arms to offer her a hug.  She took the hug but her body was stiff and she was giggling nervously.  “It’s nice to meet you too.”

            Matt nudged Addison’s arm.  “Don’t tell me you are star struck kiddo.”  He winked at you.

            “Dad!”  She shook her head but the teasing seemed to relax her a bit.

            “Don’t feel bad Addison.  I still get star struck and I’ve been in the business for almost 30 years.”  You smiled sweetly at her.  “And if it helps, I’ve been nervous to meet you.  I’m scared I’m going to make an ass out of myself and you won’t like me.”

            “If you are a fraction as cool as Dad says, you are good.”  You blush.  “And you can call me Addi if you want.”  You nod.  You both go sit at the bar while Matt started cooking.  “You said it’s been about 9 days.  I know Dad had that horror con in Ontario weekend before last.  Where have you been?  I don’t think he told me.”

            “Well,” you pulled out your phone and opened your calendar app.  “Last week I was in Arkansas for a few days with my daughter because my mom had a doctor’s appointment she wanted me at and to get Violet some grandparent time.  Mom is getting ready to have carpel tunnel surgery next month and wanted me to be at her last appointment to hear everything the doctor said since I’ll be going down for the surgery.  The rest of the time I was in New York City.  I worked a few days at my security company there and shot the music video for my first single of this new album.  I just got back in yesterday.”

            Addi nodded.  “When is the video and album coming out?”

            “The video drops Wednesday, Valentine’s Day.  The album,” you scroll on your phone, “it drops on March 15th.”

            “Damn.”  Matt said.  “I was going to ask you to come with me to the convention I have in Kansas City on March 8th.”

            You shook your head.  “I wish I could but that is smack dab in the middle of the press tour.  I’m sorry.”  You gave him a little pout.  “Good news though.  I’ll be at Texas Frightmare Weekend in May.”

            Addi asked.  “Are you one of the guests they haven’t announced yet?”

            You shook your head.  “No.  I’m actually going as a fan.  I went last year for the first time with some friends and loved it.  Plus, I have family that lives in the area so it gives me a reason to see them and have Violet have some Great Aunt and Uncle time.”  You looked over at Matt.  “And maybe we can get there a day or so early so you can meet my family.  Their approval is kind of important to me.”  You bit your lip.

            “Approval, huh?”  Matt winked at you.  “Moreso than your parents’ approval?”

            Addi saw you blushing and decided to change the topic.  “So, do you and Dad have any special plans for Valentine’s Day?”

            You nod.  “I’m actually going to take him out.  Flowers, chocolates, date planned around things I know he enjoys.  I plan on being a romance ninja.”  Matt gave you a questioning look and you winked at him.  “I have a rough cut of the music video.  Would you both like to see it?”

            “Of course.”

            “Yeah!”

            You smiled and pulled it up on your phone.  “The song is called Save Me.  I wrote it with a newer artist named Jelly Roll.  It was the first track I wrote for this album, almost a year ago.”

            “I’ve heard of him.”  Addi said.  “He’s got a few songs I really like and his wife’s TikTok is awesome.”

            You smiled and nod.  “I love Bunnie!  She is one of the sweetest and most straight forward people I’ve ever met.”  You let out a nervous sigh.  “Remember, this is a rough cut.”  You hit play.  The video showed an empty bar besides yourself, a bartender and a guitarist sitting on the stage.  The visual goes between you sitting on the stage singing to you sitting at the bar taking shots with a cigarette burning in the ashtray.

Somebody save me, me from myself I've spent so long living in Hell They say my lifestyle is bad for my health It's the only thing that seems to help

All of this drinking and smoking is hopeless But feel like it's all that I need Something inside of me's broken I hold on to anything that sets me free

I'm a lost cause Baby, don't waste your time on me I'm so damaged beyond repair Life has shattered my hopes and my dreams

I'm a lost cause Baby, don't waste your time on me I'm so damaged beyond repair Life has shattered my hopes and my dreams

What if the night sky was missing the moon? There were no shooting stars to use wishing on you And all of my sorrows, I'd just wash them down It's the only peace, I've ever found

All of this drinking and smoking is hopeless But feel like it's all that I need Something inside of me's broken I hold on to anything that sets me free

I'm a lost cause Baby, don't waste your time on me I'm so damaged beyond repair Life has shattered my hopes and my dreams

I'm a lost cause Baby, don't waste your time on me I'm so damaged beyond repair Life has shattered my hopes and my dreams

            Both Matt and Addi were quiet when the video ended.  Their silence felt like screaming to your heart.  “Thoughts?”

            Matt bit his cheek.  “You wrote this before we met?”  You nodded and look down at your hands.  “Do you still feel that way?”

            You glanced up at Matt then quickly back down to your hands.  “Not as much, but there is still some of that in me.  This whole album has that sense of I don’t feel worthy post-divorce.  But the last few tracks show some potential for hope.”

            There was an awkward silence as both you and Matt avoided eye contact.  Addi finally broke the silence.  “I think the vocals are lovely and to be only guitar with you is nice.”

            “Thank you.”  You looked up at her and gave her a small smile.  “I had a very clear view of what this album was going to be…and then things kind of changed a month or so ago.”  You gave a quick glance to Matt and saw a tiny smile cross his lips.  “I thought about scrapping the whole thing and starting over, but I loved the work I had put in, both musically and emotionally, and didn’t want to just ditch it.”

            Matt leaned over and put his chin on top of your head with his hands holding your upper arms.  “Your voice sounded beautiful in the song.”  He squeezed your arms.  “I look forward to hearing the whole album.”  Matt then kissed the top of your head.

            Addi cleared her throat.  “Well, while Dad finishes up dinner, do you think I could borrow you?”

            You nod.  “Sure.”  Addi opened the door to the backyard and led you to a table by the pool.  You both sat down and you started picking at the hem of your blouse.

            Addi cleared her throat again.  “So, things have moved kind of fast for you and Dad.”  You nod.  “He seems to really like you.”  You smiled and nod again.  “I have begged him to get back out there for years but he never really did.  Hell, he only quit wearing his wedding band a year or so ago.”  You sat quietly, making eye contact with Addi so she knew she was being heard.  “I want him to be happy but I also don’t want this first time he’s really putting himself out there for him to get his heart broken.  If you have any feeling like he’s not the one, please promise me that you will end things and not break his heart.  He deserves to be happy.”  Addi wiped a tear from her eye.

            You take a moment to breath then started to speak.  “I don’t know what the future holds for your dad and I.  What I do know is that I want to find out what could be there.  I am nowhere near perfect and your dad is pretty close to flawless and the last thing I want to do is hurt him.  It hasn’t been very long, but I have felt more seen, understood and cared for during our time together than I have felt my entire adult life.  He makes me want to write love songs.  He makes me look forward to every text and phone call.  He makes me want to better my mental health for more than just my daughter.  I don’t know if we will still be together next week, next month or even next year, but I sure hope to hell we are and I’m willing to put in the work to make each milestone happen.  I haven’t said this to Matt yet, but I’m in love with him.  Like head over heels, jump on couches, in love with him and I want to make sure he knows and feels that every day.”

            Addi smiled at you.  “You love Dad?”

            You nodded and chuckled.  “Yes ma’am.”

            “He is so in love with you it’s not even funny.”  Addi reached for your hand.  “Just make him happy.  That’s all I want for him.”

            You wiped a tear that had run down your cheek.  “I will do everything I can to make sure our good days outweigh our bad tenfold.  Can I give you a hug?”  Addi smiled and opened her arms.

            You both were hugging and crying when Matt stepped outside.  “Sorry to interrupt ladies, but dinner is about to be ready.”  You wave him off as you kept hugging Addi.

            A few moments later Addi broke the hug and asked, “When can I meet your daughter?”

            You looked surprised at her question.  “I’ll talk to Matt and if you guys aren’t busy tomorrow, you can come over for dinner.”

            Addi smiled.  “I’d really like that.  Dad talks about her like she was his and I want to meet both the women that have stolen his heart.”

            You blush.  “I don’t know that we’ve stolen his, but he has definitely stolen ours.  Violet is so happy to have a father figure around and the fact it is Shaggy doesn’t hurt either.”  You both laughed and got up to go inside to keep chatting and to enjoy the dinner Matt had prepared.

[chiseler]

THE SHADOWCAST

For eleven years now, I've been writing daily about films at my blog, Shadowplay (dcairns.wordpress.com). Since apparently that wasn't onerous enough, even combined with teaching film, writing about it professionally (Sight & Sound) and making video essays (for Criterion, Arrow and Masters of Cinema, mainly), I recently started a podcast, inevitably and unoriginally called The Shadowcast, with my wife, Fiona Watson, and our cat Momo.

Our approach is not hugely different from most informal podcasts: a free-ranging discussion centred around a chosen subject each episode. By chance we fell into the scheme of picking three films with something in common: polar exploration, madness in outer space, human miniaturisation, or the black experience in Britain. 

I think our biggest innovation -- and even that was borrrowed shamelessly from the excellent Music for Films (http://www.thebeekeepers.com/category/radio/music-for-films/), is the audio collages which open and close each show, in which we mix and match music, sound and dialogue from a wide range of films at least somewhat related to the subject at hand. The intention is to give a kind of immersive effect, along with a sugar rush to those who recognize most of the movies, and a frank bafflement to those who don't, enhancing their Keatsian negative capability.

This is our feed where you can access all our shows: https://theshadowcast.libsyn.com/rss

Individual shows:

Black History Month: three British movies from the late fifties/early sixties which attempt to explore the reality of the multiracial society. The movies are Pool of London (Basil Dearden); Sapphire (Dearden again) and Flame in the Streets (Roy Ward Baker).http://traffic.libsyn.com/theshadowcast/The_Shadowcast_1.mp3 Midterm MayhemThree US poltical satires from the nineties: Mad City (Costa-Gavras); Wag the Dog (Barry Levinson) and the gobsmacking Bulworth (Warren Beatty).http://traffic.libsyn.com/theshadowcast/The_Shadowcast_2.mp3 Fall of the House of HorrorLooking at the last horror films from the three main horror studio in Britain, Hammer (To the Devil a Daughter, directed by Peter Sykes); Amicus (The Monster Club, Roy Ward Baker again) and Tigon (Frightmare, Pete Walker).http://traffic.libsyn.com/theshadowcast/The_Shadowcast_3.mp3 The Frozen WastesInspired by the excellent TV series The Terror, we compare it to Scott of the Antarctic (Charles Frend) and little-known masterpiece The Red Tent (Kalatozov).And the audio montages kick in.http://traffic.libsyn.com/theshadowcast/ShadowcastFrozenWastes.mp3 Space MadnessJohn Carpenter's Dark Star, Jindřich Polák's Ikarie Xb-1, and the obscure but startling no-budget Spaceflight IC-1: An Adventure in Space, directed by Bernard Knowles, form the basis for a discussion of how space travel can make you crazy.http://traffic.libsyn.com/theshadowcast/space_madness_final.mp3 Let's Get SmallThe eternal human dream - to shrink to microbial size and go up some bloke's nose - gets throughly delved into this time, with The Incredible Shrinking Man, Fantastic Voyage and Innerspace (Jack Arnold, Richard Fleischer and Joe Dante) forming the mainstream of our symposium. ScarfacesA practically exhaustive analysis of Al Capone in the movies and TV, focussing in on Howard Hawks' Scarface, Roger Corman's The St. Valentine's Day Massacre and Brian De Palma's The Untouchables. Say goodnight to the bad guy, and say hello to my little friend.

Coming soon: United We Fall. Laurel & Hardy reconsidered, with special guest Stephen C. Horne.

by David Cairns

[the--king--in--yellow]

Hey! Here's 10 questions for the ask thing :) 12. What are your 5 favourite songs right now? 22. Where would you like to travel? 32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with? 35. Would you rather live without TV or music? 42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean? 44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean? 72. How many pillows do you sleep with? 81. Favourite tv show? 82. Favourite movie? 95. Last movie you watched?

Hoo boy, I am NOTORIOUSLY lazy at doing this kinda thing, but since it’s you I’ll oblige :p

12. What are your 5 favourite songs right now? 

Like Water - Ladi6

Come Together - Gary Clark Jr

Angel in Blue Jeans - Train (biased as Danny Trejo is in the video, but I do really like the song too!)

Nobody But You - Delta Heavy ft Jem Cooke

M. Noob Saibot - Damso

22. Where would you like to travel?

Been to Australia a couple times but would love to go back :D the US definitely and Canada, have a few horror cons I’m dying to attend such as Texas Frightmare Weekend, Horrorhound Weekend and Days of the Dead (okay, maybe Scares That Care and Walker Stalker Con too!)

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with? 

Umm. not that I’d ever be confident enough to have an ACTUAL threesome irl, but if I HAD to choose I guess it’d be Mickey Rourke and Josh Brolin (and Benicio del Toro can watch ;) )

35. Would you rather live without TV or music? 

Neither, to be honest. I’m partly audial and partly visual when it comes to things I like/that keep me happy, but if it came down to it… probably music. TV has music in it, so that would probably be okay for me.

42. If you’re being extremely quiet, what does that mean?

Umm… usually that I’m balls-deep in a phone game like Candy Crush Soda or my cross-stitch app XD or I’m tired and about to doze off, or I’m really upset/in a depressive episode and don’t want to talk (but I absolutely love cuddling and watching comfort films with someone ^___^)

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?

Uhh… how about neither? XD Both terrify me in equal measure quite frankly. They’re both endless dark voids where you’re gonna die either way…

72. How many pillows do you sleep with?

Always at least 2-3. Plus my plushie trio bed companions… giant-ass rabbit, Christmas flamingo and sandwich plushie XD

81. Favourite TV show?

Oh c’mon, really? You’re really gonna make me pick?? *sighs* I’m just gonna say that it’s Sons of Anarchy, because I have the Reaper tattooed on my leg - New Zealand chapter naturally lol - and I’ve met three of the actors from it and it was the biggest moment of my life. Which I got to share with a very dear friend (which is the person who sent this ask XD)

82. Favourite movie?

Damn, another hugely unfair question XD I’ll say Guardians of the Galaxy, but pretty much any Marvel movie I adore. And since it’s my ask, I’m allowed to say Tango & Cash, Expendables 1 and 3, and ABCs of Death 2 >:)

95. Last movie you watched?

ABCs of Death 2 XD but before that it was Rampage. Love me some JDM