#I LOVE ONE PIECE UGGHHHHHH

[vhiveka]

JUST FINISHED WATCHING MARINEFORD THAT SHIT WAS LITERALLY PEAK OMFG, THIS IS WHY I LOVE ONE PIECE

[kinaesthetiqueer]

I CAN'T DECIDE SO I'LL ASK YOU

what was YOUR favorite part of that HUGE chapter?

*vibrates* uuuh oh fuck oh gods

to write or to read? for the payoff or for the future implications? planned or unplanned? hey get back here!!!!!

just kidding, you know I'm going to answer all of those

[chapter 19 spoilers below]

to write: weiss having that really gay thirsty moment @ yang. this toed the line between weiss being gay and weiss being a [vampire] but i think it was fun to play with the idea of repression and desire. definitely had some moments of being like damn this is gayer than i expected but still fun. the fight overall was fun to write but even moreso because i knew how the aftermath went. i was happy to write that first.

to read: i love weiss' emergency conversation with klein. i think her relationship with him is so interesting and when she needed to get away from the room, i had to think about what would she do? she was at a point where she needed to talk to someone. the idea of him having been someone she could go to on the DL and confide in feels right to me. i put waaaaay too much thought into a way for them to chat that skirted plausible deniability. as implied, weiss' everything is connected and monitored. more on that later

for the payoff: ashes to ashes to ashes! poor weiss, so fond of fine cuisine from the very beginning, no longer being able to taste anything she likes. someone pointed out in a comment that ive been leading up to that since the very beginning with the steak and lemon pie and that made me giggle so happily. food has been so important, one because i love cooking but also two because i knew where this was going the whole damn time

for the implications: the velvet/yatsu study sesh is me trying to find that natural rhythm that leads to velvet describing weiss as a close friend in after the fall. as im (un)healthily obsessed with the novels, i take a lot of vibes from them. there's a lot of future implications that i cannot fucking talk about with this scene, but it's fine. :)

planned: ugghhhhhh it's a toss up between the very beginning and the very end. the 'weiss doesn't know what to freak about about first' thru to 'tooth, that's a tooth, my tooth' and 'weiss screams herself awake' were some of the only pieces actually written when i finished 18. i love the cliffhanger a lot but i love weiss just waking up in absolute horror. ch 19 was a single page of those two bits and a few mini plot beats. which is why i thought it was gonna be short but lmao. longest chapter to date. I'd say weiss is trying fight nora for her queen of the castle status but they're gonna kiss [eventually], not fight.

unplanned: the fucking rage of weiss when she learned what jacques did. i did nooooot see that coming. that just spilled out of me. she was mad. i was mad. it just happened and it was a loose end that needed some closure. i wanted to hug her so bad because she's pissed but she's also aware it was a disproportionate response but also not but also scary. i want her to be mad about it

sorry this got cut abruptly bc i had to pay attention in class! but yeah, those are some of my favorites and that's definitely not all of them.

[spilledcrabs]

Hello I'm now going to gush and cry and sob over RDR2 there will be heavy spoilers so if you don't want them move along thanks

UGGHHHHHH I HATE THE FACT I CAN'T SAVE ARTHUR. I CAN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT. I I I I I FUCKING REFUSE TO SMOKE ANYTHING IN MY PLAYTHROUGHS BC I JUST WANNA PROTECT HIM BRO. THIS GAME HURTS SO BAD MAN I'M SO ATTACHED TO ARTHUR HELP ME 😭😭😭

I don't care if it's just a game Arthur means so much to me and I can't help but wanna protect and care for him. Keep his little cowboy ass fed and happy and out of trouble.

Greatest joy is just seeing how my fave cowboy interacts with people and stuff

This game is having such an impact on my miserable little life it's like OUUUGHHH ARTHUR I DON'T WANT YOU MISERABLE LIKE ME PLEASE

And the way Arthur shit talks himself about being old and an ugly bastard makes me SCREAM AT THE SCREEN. Like stop it you are GORGEOUS. You are HANDSOME.

Can't stand to see him miserable bro, overwhelming urge to just grab him and hug him and like

Love him and change his fate :(

Dying of tuberculosis is such a sucker punch to the gut, and I can't ever get over the fact there isn't one little way to just,,,

Change his death. Keep him alive.

I'm gonna keep a save file before Guarma, before all the TB happens, so I can have a little piece of him left. I can't bring myself to make him suffer twice over with a save file AFTER Guarma

Blissfully oblivious

Also I'm gonna leave so much money for John when I finish the game.. Love him too, the poor bastard

Anyways rant over I'm gonna go lament

[sabraeal]

Time to pick between children! 15, 25 (All That Remains), 36

15. What is the fanfic you’ve written that you’re most proud of?

Ohhh hmmm, a couple. All That Remains is probably my technical masterpiece, which is why each chapter kills me to make. All Pain Will Turn to Medicine is probably my most OC heavy, and thus probably closest to the way I write my original fiction, and so it's always nice to get back into that world. And Documented for Posterity is sort of a nice showcase of my humor & my smut writing, and I'm always a little chuffed to have another chapter out, even though it's FAR from my most popular piece.

25. What scene in All That Remains took the longest to write? What was difficult about it?

hghhghghg ALL OF THEM? 🤣 I think the hardest was definitely the run of scenes with Shirayuki and Zen having dinner, especially the last one. Zen's a great character, but everyone's worst flaws are on display in that fic, and the interplay of Shirayuki's and his are just...so painful to look at directly. I think it took me a couple days to get those scenes done, just because I didn't want to deal with the emotional conflict. I'm happy with how they DID turn out but, ugghhhhhh.

36. What fanfic of yours has the symbolism you’re proudest of?

Already answered, but if I had to choose another, I really enjoyed getting to play around with symbolism the way GRRM does in Family, Duty, Honor. I've always loved how he does the metaphors with the members of and the people who work for with the noble families, and this one I finally got to go ham on.

[hamilton-one-shots]

Hamilton High School AU 52

Alexander sighed and plopped down beside John on the couch as they arrived at his apartment.

"Are you alright?"

"I don't want to deal with Thomas..."

"I'll be just in my room. I promise you'll be fine."

Alexander nodded and buried his face in his chest. "This week sucked.."

"Why don't we skip tomorrow? I'll treat you to another date, if you're up for it."

"... Last time we had a date, you almost broke up with me the next day."

"That's not going to happen, I promise." He kissed his head. "We can go to the movies and a museum and wherever else you want to go."

"Can we get our costumes for the dance?.."

"Yeah." He smiled.

Alexander sat up and kissed him. "Okay.."

John kissed back and held Alexander close, staying like that with him for the next hour and a half.

By then, Alexander grabbed his phone and checked the time. Did drama really take that long? He decided to text Thomas, just to be safe. [Dnt 4gt 2 cum 2 John's plas]

He got a reply almost immediately, but it wasn't one he expected. [... Do what at John's? xx]

[dnt b gros]

[I'm on my way, I'm just getting Lucy. xx]

Alexander sighed. "Jefferson's on his way.."

John nodded and kissed his head. "Let's go get Susan, then."

"You go.. I'll get ready to deal with him.."

"Okay." He got up and left, coming back with Susan in his arms a minute later.

She hopped to the ground and went over to Alexander, pulling herself up into the couch in front of him. "Hi."

"Hi." He smiled.

"Johnny says I'm meeting a new friend!"

"Yeah, you are.."

She smiled and ran off to John's room, Thomas buzzing in soon after.

John buzzed him in and opened the door for him, Lucy hugging his legs as tightly as ever.

"Hi, Johnny!"

"Hi Lucy." He picked her up and smiled.

"Do I really have to share you today?.."

He nodded.

"I don't want to.." She buried her face in his shoulder. "You're my friend..."

"I know, but I'm her friend too. Maybe you'll like her, okay?"

"No.."

John sighed. "Let's just try, okay?"

She didn't respond and John realized that this was not about to be easy.

Thomas rubbed her back. "Be nice for Johnny, okay? Otherwise, I won't bring you next time."

She pouted and nodded, John carrying her back to his room. "This is your house?.."

"It's my apartment, yeah."

"Where's the rest of it?"

"This is the whole apartment."

"That's it?"

He chuckled. "Well, it's just me here most of the time." He took her into his room and set her down beside Susan, who was coloring, and kissed her forehead. "I'll be back in a second. Be nice, okay?"

Lucy pouted, but nodded.

John went back to the living room just as Thomas sat down with Alexander. "I'll just be in the next room. I'd better not hear you two fighting. If either of you starts a fight, I won't hesitate to make you leave. Understood?"

They both nodded. John may have been treating them like kids, but maybe it was necessary.

"Good." He smiled and went back to his room just in time to hear Susan crying. He walked back faster and found Lucy coloring in her book. He picked up Susan and rocked her as he sat down beside Lucy. "Isn't that Susan's coloring book?.."

"I wanted to show her how to color right. She was coloring all wrong, see?" She flipped the page and showed John the fully colored picture that she'd scratched out.

He frowned. "That's not nice, Lucy. There's no one right way to color."

"But she's not doing it right!" she whined.

"She's coloring her way. She's only a baby, she's still learning."

Lucy pouted. She was definitely Thomas's sister. It was obvious that she had good, albeit self-serving, intentions, but she was going about it the wrong way.

"Did you ask to color?"

"I wanted to show her! She shouldn't be crying.."

"You took it from her and the picture she colored looked nice. Why don't you ask if you can use it and tell her why you want to?"

"But.. But... It's not fair! I wanted to help her!"

"I know that, but you have to tell Susan. She loves her coloring book because I made it for her."

She frowned. "Why don't I have one?!"

"Because I didn't know if I'd be able to give it to you. I'll make you one right now if you promise to play nice with Susan."

She pouted, but nodded. "Okay... Can I help you color, Susan?.."

She sniffled as she finished crying and looked at Lucy, nodding. "Okay..."

John smiled and cleaned her face, then put her down. "There. Isn't that better?"

Lucy nodded. "Yeah.."

He sat up on his bed and watched as they colored, sketching out a coloring book for Lucy as they played.

Thomas watched from the door from the second that he heard Lucy getting herself into trouble and smiled at the sight. John was one of the few people she'd actually listen to and it was nice to see him dealing with kids. It was sweet. He went back to the living room once John got them situated and sat with Alexander, both reluctantly working together.

They managed to get a few things done without arguing, but what would the pair be without bickering over a few petty points? The only things that was able to stop their bickering was when John came out from his room with two small children following him into the kitchen. Both boys felt their heart melt at the sweet sight and they were able to silence their arguing, resorting to just mouthing and typing insults to each other with only the occasional whispered curse.

John went into the kitchen and let the girls watch and help him cook lasagna, glad to see that they were starting to get along. While it cooked, they went back to John's room and colored again, John still drawing. When it was finished, John went back and pulled the dish out of the oven, letting it cool before serving it on plates. He even cut Thomas and Alexander a piece, taking their plates to them.

Thomas smiled. "You always were good at cooking, especially for someone so addicted to pizza."

John chuckled. "Thanks." He kissed Alexander's cheek before walking back to the kitchen and taking plates back to his room for himself and the girls.

Thomas picked up his plate and began eating, noticing that Alexander just picked at his own. "What's up with you?"

"Not hungry."

"You should eat. It's good."

"I'll eat when I'm ready."

"Well, we need to take a break, then just get back to it."

Alexander tutted.

Thomas rolled his eyes. "Whatever." He kept eating. Arguing like that wasn't worth it.

After eating, John began watching movies with the girls on top of a few piled blankets and pillows on the floor, mainly Disney movies, and hardly even noticed that he'd fallen asleep until he woke up hours later to Lucy wrapping her arms tightly around his neck.

He carefully pried her arms off and got up, taking their empty plates to the sink and making sure that World War III hadn't broken out in his living room. What he found was quite the opposite and made him smile. "Aww.."

Thomas and Alexander had fallen asleep as well and were leaning against each other, Thomas's arm around Alexander's shoulders and Alexander's head against his side. They were practically cuddling.

After putting the plates in the sink and going back for theirs, John draped a blanket over Thomas and Alexander before going back to his room and going back to sleep.

In the morning, he woke up to his phone blowing up with texts from Alexander.

[JON] [JHON] [FUCK] [HLEP] [SHIT] [IM W/ JEFRESON] [HES OHLDING ME] [WAT DO I DO]

John chuckled and got up, deciding to let this play out. It was funny. Alexander hadn't even tried to wake up Thomas, he just let him sleep at the time. So, he carefully picked up Susan and covered Lucy, taking her back to Maria for daycare.

Alexander perked up a bit when he heard John shifting around from the other room and smiled as he came into view... Before it dropped into shock as he just walked past him. "John! John!" he whispered as he walked out. He grumbled and waited for him to come back, leaning up as he came back.

John smiled. "You two are cute when you're not fighting." He walked back to his room with a grin.

That stupid grin. John knew what he was doing. "John!" Alexander whined, trying to escape Thomas's grip, only for him to hold him tighter. He tried texting John again. [cOME BAK] [WAT TH FUCKJOHN] [HELP ME I SWARE 2 GOD] [U R THE WORST PERSN] [UGGHHHHHH] There was no response, John just left him on 'read.' He groaned and accepted his fate, going back to sleep for a few minutes.

Thomas woke up then, tutting as he looked down at Alexander. "Ew," he muttered as he pushed him to the floor.

"Ow!" he complained as he was forced awake.

"Do I look like a bed to you?"

"I tried to wake you up earlier, but you couldn't hear me over your disgusting snoring."

"How dare you, you intolerable-"

"Hey!" John interrupted. "Both of you were cuddled up against each other, so cut the arguing."

"I'd never want to come near him," Alexander snapped.

John shook his head and pulled out his phone, showing them pictures that he'd taken of the two undoubtedly cuddling. "You two were just so adorable, I couldn't resist," he shrugged before heading to the kitchen, both boys in pursuit of the god awful pictures.

"Sunshine, honey, you don't want that silly picture... If you wanted a photo of me, all you'd need to do was ask."

Alexander rolled his eyes. "Nobody wants a photo of /your/ sorry ass." He turned to John. "John, if you love me, you'll get rid of that phot-"

"Oh, now you're going to play /that/ card?" Thomas snapped, leaning over Alexander. "How pathetic..."

"You really should stop talking to your reflection, Jeffershit."

"Jeffershit? Is that the best you can do, Hoemilton?"

John rolled his eyes. "I'd knock it off, if I were you. If you guys fight, I will post these pictures."

They both backed down a bit.

"Good. Lucy is just in the other room. You have to take her to school, Thomas."

Thomas tutted and nodded. "Okay.. Do you want to come along? I want to take you somewhere."

"You're not taking my boyfriend anywhere, especially not today."

Thomas rolled his eyes. "If he dumps your sorry ass, that won't be on me. If you're that insecure that you can't let him hang out with someone else, that's your problem."

Alexander glared after a few seconds, unable to think of a witty reply. Or any reply.

John sighed and frowned. "I'll just be a bit, okay?.. Then you and I can spend the rest of the day together, I promise.."

How could Alexander turn him down? He had to trust him more. And he had to stop hurting him. "Okay..."

"I guess he can come with. As long as he walks."

Alexander growled in response.

"Hey John, your dog needs training."

"Hey John, there's a rapist in your house."

"Well, aren't we learning things about you, Alex..."

"If I wanted my own comeback, I'd have wiped it off your mom's chin!"

Thomas looked like he was going to throttle Alexander and Alexander looked just as on edge. But with John in ownership of those photos, both knew it was an awful idea.

"Forget it. I'll just stay here.."

John kissed his cheek. "Thank you. You can choose what we do today."

He nodded.

Thomas headed to the bedroom and had Lucy get ready before taking her to school, John in the passenger's seat.

"Who was that other guy?"

"He's my boyfriend, Alexander."

After a few seconds, that information processed and she came to the first conclusion that came to mind. "He stole you from Tommy!"

"Lucy, he didn't steal me. He only became my boyfriend a bit ago."

She pouted. "He stole you..."

"I promise he didn't. Can you trust me on that?"

"... Okay.."

Thomas dropped her off at school before taking John to Mulligan's.

"What are we doing here?"

"I've got a surprise for you. Come on." He led him into the shop, holding the door open for him.

Sarah smiled as she saw John coming in and let it fall as Thomas followed him in. "Thomas."

"H-Hello Mrs Mulligan..."

"Just what do you think you're doing here?"

"Okay, I know a lot has happened, but-"

"Without giving me a hug?" She beamed once again before pulling him into a tight hug. "Oh, Tommy, it's been far too long! Hugh told me you were coming in with Johnny here!"

He caught his breath as she let him go. "It's nice to see you again too!"

She smiled and let him catch his breath, taking John away in the meantime. "So, did he tell you what we were doing today?"

"No, actually."

"I'll let him explain, then." She had him stand in front of a mirror and Thomas walked over, now recovered.

"What's going on?.." John asked him.

"Well.. I know I haven't been the best person to you these past couple of weeks and I want to make that up. I'm buying your costume for the dance next week. Custom made, whatever character you want, I'll pay for it."

John's eyes widened in shock. "Oh, you really didn't have to do that."

"I don't care. I want to. You deserve something special."

John's first thought? Alexander was not going to like this.

Sarah smiled and began taking his measurements, then asked what character he was thinking of.

Of course, he told her that he wanted to be Belle.

She nodded and wrote down the numbers when she finished. "I'll let you know when we have it done."

John nodded and followed Thomas out of the shop when everything was done, still trying to figure out what to say on the matter.

[b12gummies]

Seige and Storm

I started reading the Grishaverse series recently! I was going to post a lengthy review on Shadow and Bone but I decided against it because it was mostly complaining (i’m sorry). Nonetheless, I rated the first book a solid 2.5/5 stars for a multitude of reasons but mainly the worldbuilding, Alina and Mal being annoying, and I found it kinda boring. BUT I just finished Seige and Storm and I found it to be soooooo much more enjoyable than the first book. So here’s a brief review (SPOILERS):

Rating: 4/5 stars enjoyment // 3.5/5 stars quality

What I LOVED:

- Alina’s character development; she irritated me considerably less in this book. I genuinely enjoy the fact that she has started to stray away from whining about being powerful to embracing it, even if it she’s embracing it a bit ~too~ much. The potential for her to become an anti-hero is my cup of tea and though I don’t have hopes of it happening, her internal struggle with her own power and the lure of the Darkling are very compelling to me.

- NIKOLAI. That’s all, I love him and every time he opens his mouth I laugh. (or my heart pangs a little, depends)

- The politics and strategizing. I found it to be more compelling than the angst and action in Shadow and Bone. This book had a much better balance of both. Even if every scene with Mal made me want to punch a whole in my wall

- The last 3 chapters, WHOOOOOOOO I was feeling a lot of emotions.

What I hated (not quality-of-story related):

- MAL oh my god Mal drives me insane. He is so whiny and selfish and annoying. There is nothing in me that feels bad for him. I didn’t like the way him and Alina became lovers (I think he’s a prick) and I definitely can’t stand him in this book LOOOORD like cry me a river. If he dies, I won’t even care for him. I’ll maybe care for Alina but not for him I literally cannot stand him OOOOOOOH he makes me so angry. If the author’s goal was to make him so insufferable, than she Very Much Succeeded and that alone deserves applause.

- Genya. I love Genya and despite how little she is shown, she’s one of my favorite characters. When it was revealed what the Darkling did to her, my heart shattered into pieces. I LOVE HER UGGHHHHHH I’m so heartbroken. I think her and Alina should kiss.

Overall thoughts

Despite the fact that I feel like this series isn’t extraordinary in comparison to the rest of YA Fantasy, I enjoyed this book sooo much more than the first. I don’t love the writing, but there are moments that are good enough to distract me from the bad parts. I think I’ve just reached a point in my life where I’m tired of reading about the orphaned-and-ugly-yet-all-powerful-protagonist and their whiny-normal-love-interest/brooding-alluring-mysterious-second-love-interest love triangle. SO, this book was better than the first in the way that this dynamic didn’t take up so much of the plot. I’m enjoying Alina’s internal struggles with her own power and the last three or four chapters had me on the edge of my seat. Also, Nikolai VERY MUCH contributed to the story for me. I LOVE HIM. If Alina doesn’t (consentually) kiss either Genya or Nikolai, I’ll kiss BOTH of them myself.