#I can't say you're welcome because that feels weird 😅

[lady-phasma]

Me staring at you with my love and adoration.

Thank you for being you. 💜

ilysm!!! gifs can't express how much you (and this picture) mean to me and what I feel but I'll try 💕

^that is a whole ass mood right there

Also Feyd is such a pretty babygirl in your pic! 🥹

[dinas-a-bird]

A Rocky Start - 1

Pairing: Ellie Williams x fem!reader

Warnings: mean!Ellie (at the start), modern college AU, Ellie is handsome because I say so

Summary: You start college and meet your roommate, Ellie Williams.

Word Count: 957

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A/N: Sorry for any spelling or grammar mistakes, I already have this entire fic written but I'm not going to post it all at the same time... sorry 😅

It is a hot August day as you step out of your parents' car and look up at the towering buildings of your new home for the next four years - college. You had dreamed of this moment for so long, imagining all the new experiences, new people, and the newfound freedom. As you hoist your backpack on your shoulder and make your way towards the dorms, you can’t help but feel a mix of excitement and nerves.

The campus is buzzing with activity as students and their families scurry around, hauling boxes, and saying goodbye to loved ones. You make your way to the check-in desk where you are greeted by a friendly-faced orientation leader who hands you your room key and a map of the campus.

You take in a deep breath and make your way to your new room, unlocking the door and stepping inside. It is small and sparse, but it will be home for the next few months. You start to unpack your belongings, feeling a little lonely and overwhelmed.

Suddenly, there is a loud knock at the door. You look up to see a girl with short auburn hair standing there, her arms crossed over her chest. "Hey, you're the new girl, right?" she says bluntly.

You nod, your mouth going dry. God she’s handsome. "Yeah, this is my first semester. My name's y/n."

She rolls her eyes. "I'm Ellie. Just so you know, I don't do the whole 'welcome wagon' thing. So don't expect any baked goods or any of that crap."

You raise your eyebrows. "Okay...I'll keep that in mind. You're my roommate then?"

Ellie nods, pushing past you and plopping down on her own bed, not bothering to introduce herself further. You don’t know what to make of her, but one thing was clear - she isn’t going to make your transition into college life easy.

You start to feel a knot forming in your stomach, wondering how you're going to survive the next few months with this girl as your roommate. You decide to try and break the tension by starting a conversation.

"So, what are you studying?" you ask, sitting down on your own bed.

Ellie gives you a look of annoyance. "Astronomy and Astrophysics. What about you?"

"I'm undeclared at the moment," you reply, feeling a little embarrassed.

Ellie scoffs. "Figures. Well, good luck with that. College is tough, and if you don't know what you want to do, you're screwed."

You start to feel even more intimidated by Ellie's blunt demeanor. "Is it okay if I put up some pictures on the wall?" you ask, trying to change the subject.

Ellie shrugs. "I don't care. Just don't make it look like a kindergarten classroom."

You try to ignore her attitude and start unpacking your pictures and posters. As you start to decorate your side of the room, you notice that Ellie is staring at you.

"What?" you ask, feeling self-conscious.

Ellie shrugs. "It's just weird seeing someone actually care about how their room looks. Most people just throw their crap around and call it a day."

You start to feel a glimmer of hope that maybe you and Ellie can find some common ground. "Yeah, I just want it to feel like home, you know?"

Ellie nods, her expression softening slightly. "I get that. Home is important."

You smile, feeling a little more at ease. "So, do you have any tips for surviving college?"

Ellie leans back on her bed, looking thoughtful. "Yeah, don't drink too much, don't procrastinate, and don't rely on anyone else to do your work for you."

You nod, taking in her advice. "Thanks, that's good to know. So, do you have any plans for the weekend?"

Ellie shrugs. "Not really. Maybe hit up a party or two. You?"

You shake your head. "I don't really know anyone yet."

Ellie raises an eyebrow. "Well, we can't have that, can we? Have to change that soon."

You can't help but feel a little surprised by her sudden change in attitude. "Yeah, that would be nice. How do you usually meet people?"

Ellie smirks. "Parties are always a good bet. But if that's not your scene, there are other ways. Join a club, volunteer, or just strike up a conversation with someone in class."

You nod, "Thanks, I appreciate it."

Ellie nods in response, her eyes scanning your side of the room. "So, what else do you like? Any hobbies, interests?"

You think for a moment before answering. "I like reading, listening to music, and watching movies. And I've always been interested in writing, but I'm not very good at it."

Ellie raises an eyebrow. "You should join the writing club on campus. I heard they're pretty good."

You feel a spark of excitement at the suggestion. "Really? That sounds cool. Do you think they would let me join even though I'm not majoring in English or anything?"

Ellie rolls her eyes. "Of course, they would. They're not that exclusive. Just go to one of their meetings and see if it's something you're interested in."

You nod, feeling a sense of motivation to try something new. "Thanks, Ellie. I think I'll do that."

Ellie nods in response before checking her phone. "Hey, I gotta run. I have a meeting with my advisor in ten minutes. Talk later?"

You smile and nod, feeling grateful for the unexpected conversation. "Sure, sounds good. Thanks again."

As Ellie exits the room, relief washes over you. Maybe you and your new roommate could find some common ground after all. You finish up decorating your side of the room and take a moment to sit back and take it all in. It's not much, but it's a start.

[vro0m]

Around 5 months ago I said that I was leaving the f1blr and everything F1 related because I had reached the point where I had parasocial fantasies and could cry if I saw my fave with a woman. So I unfollowed all the F1 related blog and deleted all my socials in order to touch grass. I took me one month to remember that celebrities are not my friends, I do not know them and that the probability for me to meet them is close to 0.

Recently I decided to come back to Tumblr and I remember that your blog was one of the few ran by a down to heart person who saw things for what they were and not what they want it to be and I liked your analyses of the seasons. So guess what I did, went through all the F1 blogs to find you!

And now here I am.

I do not know if I remember correctly but I'm sure it was some of your posts that made me realise that it was not normal to be living only to scroll on a website to see what someone you do not know is up to becayoy want "to know them".

All of this to say I'm glad that I found your blog at that time and that it made me somehow deal with the aspects of my life that made me unhappy and that led me to avoid it altogether and escape here on this site, on F1blr. I have been able to dissociate less and be more present in my own life .

I hope it doesn't weird you out 😅🥲. You are one of my fave blogs and I hope only good things happens to you.

Hi Anon! I didn't expect to read such an ask today, or ever tbh.

When life gets tough it's natural to want to escape from it one way or another and God knows I do it too. Escapism isn't a bad coping mechanism as long as we keep in mind it's just a break and not a solution to what makes us need breaks. It's difficult to face our problems, it's brave of you to do so. I'm very glad to know you're feeling better and more grounded. I hope you don't find me too forward when I say I hope that now that you're dipping your toes back in the fandom, you're able to enjoy it while maintaining a healthier distance with things than you used to. Because F1 is not worth the hurt it has caused you before if you can't. No fandom, no hobby, is.

I'm very touched by your kind words. I'm glad I had a positive impact somehow, I never expected that when I made a blog about F1. I do often try to stay down to earth it's true, but please don't forget I'm as subjective as anyone else on this website. It's human. I do a lot of interpretation as well, especially in my race reviews. I hope you, and honestly anyone else that might read me, take everything I post with a spoonful of salt. Still, I also do hope you find me worth the effort you made to find me again!

Welcome back! I wish you only good things as well.

[mondscheinprinzessin]

Hi sorry to butt in but I really wish stuff about sexual attraction or lack there of was more openly talked about? I always thought I was super weird because I never had a ton of crushes or obsessed with boys(or girls) in that way but I never thought I could be asexual because I'm not anti sex and uhm some other stuff that's tmi 😅

But now I know more about this stuff thanks to you guys in the bc fandom no less! And I'm more comfortable saying I'm in the ace spectrum 💕

You people are always welcome to butt in!

Yeah really apart from tumblr and I guess now the one or other character in a show I wouldn't have known that even existed! I got more familiar with it through a character that was often written as being asexual in fics and that helped a lot and then I had several crisis because of tumblr posts. It would have helped sooo much to learn this earlier. You know, before you start thinking you're weird.

I've felt it all my life that I was different in that department from my friends and I never knew why, and it's kinda a relief to have something to explain it with.

And honestly as a teen I never thought I had crushes either? Now looking back I think I did, but at the time I couldn't seperate between wanting to have them as my friend or something more (actually a reason why I had to break up with someone, I am so sorry for that). So for a bit I thought demisexual could fit because feelings didn't really happen without me knowing them for a while, but the rest still was there.

Yeah and then I thought haha you can't be ace, you have sex you stupid, asexuals don't do that🙄

But thankfully some nice people on discord gave me a few starters so I'm more secure in it now.

[chaotic-historian]

Hello. Hope you don't mind this ask. I saw you wrote about how you tapered off SSRIs and it resonates with me bc I am also autistic and have been using them for many years. Now I'm thinking of quitting them gradually but I'm scared bc I don't know how they really .. relate/affect autistic traits & symptoms while also treating depression? Like did you feel any difference in sensory sensitivities, restlessness, energy for social interaction, etc, while using SSRIs vs not using them? If you're comfortable sharing anything about it. Sorry for mistakes in English. Wish you a good day.

Hi anon!

Forgive me for taking so long to answer this, I figured you'd want a good thorough answer rather than a quick one, so I went through the journals I kept during the first few months on SSRIs, and before. I can say a few things for sure:

My emotions were dulled, almost like the edge was taken off them. I also felt like the SSRIs somehow made my emotions less variable. I didn't get very sad, but neither did I get very happy. It was a sort of constant in-between. Now that I'm out, one of the first things I noticed was that my feelings got more wild, and I felt them more. I could get super sad and cry all of a sudden, but my happy moments are also SO much happier!

Another thing that was dulled were my senses. I could still get overwhelmed about as often as I do now, but I spaced out more on the SSRIs, and had more dissociative moments where I felt like I wasn't really... physically present. I don't get those moments as much after I stepped out of them.

It was kinda weird, but I had less energy for social interactions while on the meds. Maybe that's because I was on them due to sickness, but I noticed I don't get as... overwhelmed, I guess, afterwards.

Lastly, I can't say anything about energy levels yet. It's the dark part of the year and I live in Scandinavia, so no one has any energy whatsoever anyway, meds or no meds. It's dark and cold and miserable, so I'll only be able to tell if I've got more energy after stepping out once I have any energy at all 😅

Hope this helped, and you're welcome to ask again anytime!

Love from the Admiral

[akane171]

Yes, I am sure😅😂

Yuuup, definitely poor dude 😅😖

Well, the SPN fandom is a place of crazies and madness, soo🤷🏻‍♀️😉😂

Wasn't that the scene in the OG Naruto? But Shipuuden had flashbacks of Naruto hanging out with Shikamaru and Choji🤔 Ah, whatever, I'm starting to get confused😂😂😂🙈

Yeah, I never understood that either, like the Third Hokage even PROMISED Minato and Kushina to protect Naruto and showcase him as a hero😅🤦🏻‍♀️

HAHAHAHAHA that is quite ironic😂 But didn't the newest pope even speak up several times about ACCEPTING such stuff? (I might be remembering this wrong, I don't really keep up with what which religion is currently in favor of but I think he said sth a few years ago?)🤔😅

Yes, worry about you... Calling that "entertaining" is quite worrying😅🙈

Yes, RL is like that, NOT fanfics😭

😂😂😂😂 I suppose? 😂😂😂😂

Hmm, not sure if the theory will ever be addressed🤔😅

Yeaaah...Most fillers are annoying tho some were indeed nice🤔😅

Hahaha, they'd throw the most awesomest of parties😂😍

...Please don't remind me of Scott and Malia, that was just random and weird...🙈😅

You're welcome?😅😂

Naah, I'll accept suggestions but most often then not, I'll choose, so kinda yeah😂 Everybody else just gotta shut their cakeholes😉😉

Honestly, Keith and Jim are two of my absolutely most loved things ever right now😂😂 I could watch them be silent and make gestures in interviews all day every day😂😂 (Imagine those Space puppies meeting our Karamel Space puppies😂 I feel like Keith, Jim and Mon (and Winn) would get along brilliantly😂😂😉)

Uhh, now that you say it, Linkin Park fans really do seem to be Skillet fans, too🤔🤔 Maybe because the vibe of both bands' older songs is kinda similar?🤔🤔

Ohh, Sleeping at Last is kinda an opposite to the rest😂🤷🏻‍♀️ They usually have more calming even kinda sad songs🤔😅 You might know their song "Saturn" tho, that one seems pretty widely known🤔

Ohh, FictionJunction and Two Steps from Hell?😱😍 I'll need to check out the rest when I have time tho, I'm really bad with titles and names, so not sure if I know them😅🙈

😂😂😂 medical harassment, Huh?😉

Thanks😊

Btw, OMG HAVE YOU READ THE NEW CHAPTER SHE UPLOADED, LIKE, OMG, IT WAS SO UNEXPECTED AND AHAHSHSHSHSHDKFLFLFLDNDBDKSÖSÖSNEBEKDODLDDK I WAS TOTALLY SCREAMING AND HYPER-ENERGIZED AFTER GETTING THE NOTIFICATION😍😍😍 (already read it twice, but still gotta read again and finally get around to commenting🙈🙈) I AM STILL SOOO HYPED EVEN THO IT'S BEEN HOURS😍😍😍😍😍😍😍

XXX

Don't believe ya :)))))

SPN fandom made me realize how incest is popular in some spaces.... and my life was not the same since then....

I think it was during the flashbacks of their first big ass battle? When Naruto was for the first time remembering how their relationship started. I think? It was long time ago and I ERASED the memory of that manga/anime from my brain =='

And here we ended, with Naruto hated by the whole village and Sasuke alone, miserable and cultivating a big ass piss at his brother. Splendid!

He was telling some progressive stuff and then told some shit about Ukraine and well, pissed me off :))) but I guess he is better than the last two. What is not a big... improvement, but whatever.

I'm innocent! You are creating some weird stuff about me in your head!

Probably it won't. That's how the producers approach their shows *glares at the SG*

Scott and Malia was the perfect example of how they fucked up perfectly working ships (Stalia and Scira) for fanonship (frucking sty dia) and realized they don't have a ship for the main hero, so they put him with his FRIEND, even when there was nothing romantic. Ever. Because friendships between males and females can't exist right??? I'm still so pissed :/

Lol, best pals for lives xD Seriosuly, we need more weirdos in our lives XD

Yeah, and some of the other bands you sent me have that vibe too, I guess it's similar genre? Not sure, because aside of the Linkin Park, I don't listen to this type too much. Still good music :D As for Skillet, there is something in their music that doesn't make me their fan, but can't tell what exactly.

Nope, sorry, I don't know that song, bands like them are not really popular here and I have never really dug into them.

FictionJunction is just perfect. And Two Steps From Hell made a lot of pieces that help me creating the space opera ideas xD they are very... epic xD

medical harassment - fuck yeah.

Nooooo, still didn't have time for that, but will soon :D Happy you are happy and for sure LW is going to be happy too xDDD

[lossie92]

Hello again! I'm glad to hear my ramblings are welcome, I'll endeavor to keep them up. And no worries about response time, I completely understand the sentiment and would never want to press someone into responding, much less on a time schedule.

I'm glad that you're feeling better, even if it's not perfect! Naps have been both the bane of my existence and the highlight of my day recently, oh so nice and relaxing but God am I tired of being tired, ya know 😅? I was feeling much better, til I got a kidney infection for the first time a few days ago lol. Have to say, 2/10 not the absolute worst but wouldn't recommend.

On the artsy front, wonderful! I had an outline for the project I wanted to make, now all i need to do is order the materials. And I'd love nothing more that to credit you and your lovely art 💜 (but it may be a long while before it's done 😭 sorry I'm a little slow with projects).

Speaking of projects, I absolutely adore little bby Madara and Tobirama, their just so soft and smol and squish and Mada being protective and Tobi just clinging and ahhhh so cute 🥰. And the comic where bickering ends in Tobirama basically /throwing/ himself at Madara is hilariously sweet, I keep chuckling and going aw🥺 at the same time. Also, you've begun doing drawing streams! (or have you streamed before and I just missed it whoops) I do hope you're having fun with them, it's quite enjoyable on my end. I find watching someone draw or paint meditative almost idk.

As for the food side of things, pineapple on pizza is incorrect but I suppose mistakes are human 😞. In my opinion though, your weird food combo doesn't really seem that weird to me either. But I am also the person that swears by avocado mahsed potatoes so maybe I don't have a leg to stand on here lol.

Here's a question for ya, if you would like: If you could have any superpower possible, what one would you pick and why?

Thank you for understanding! ❤️

Oh dear, I hope your kidney is better now? That sounds terrible! I have recently avoided a stay at the hospital, but only just... Hope you didn't have to stay there or if you did, it wasn't for long. I think every chronically ill person can relate to the dislike of hospital stays and visits, even if we all know they are needed sometimes.

I can't wait to see it whenever it's ready! Take your time, I will await the results patiently and keep my fingers crossed that you have fun completing the project 😄 That's all that really matters in art imo: having heaps of fun.

Aww thank you so much! I like that sketch of them too! Need to finish it finally instead of just glancing at it every other day lol. Same goes for that comic... Which you can see another sneak peek out of below, because why not 🙃

I haven't actually streamed art before, but it's really fun and I'm happy to hear you're enjoying yourself watching them. It is kind of meditative, I suppose... 🤔

In my defence, I haven't had pineapple on pizza in years and I'm not sure I would like it much nowadays. Hmm avocado mash potatoes doesn't sound weird to me tbh. I may actually try it out one day, cause now I'm curious how it would taste...

On the superpower front, I think I will be a bit boring, but I would love to be able to teleport. I have trouble walking, so that would honestly be a life (and time!) saver for sure! How about you? 🧐