#I don’t have gold but I’m very grateful 💛

[raplinenthusiasts]

master of flirting

for @jinstronaut 😘

{cr. namuspromised}

[luvdsc]

i actually miss you so much here🧎🏻‍♀️

oh honey bee 🥺🤍 i miss you too 😭 thank you all soo much for all the wonderful messages everyone has sent in — there are so many of them, and i have read every single one and cried a little 🤧 i am so sorry that i don’t have the time to respond in detail to each one, but i am so so grateful and touched for all of them, and truly thank you for thinking of me 🌼 i hope you all have been doing well, and life has been treating you kindly 💛💛 it feels like coming home for the holidays after being away for so long 🥹

i finally logged back in today (after needing to reset the pw for this and for the email this blog is linked to oof) but i’m so out of the loop for kpop aside from shinee, bp, and taeyeon 🤧 i heard from alice that nct dream is touring !! 💘 i hope all of you were able to get tickets and i will live vicariously through you :’) and also hbd to renjun today !!!

a life update from me — i’ve been having the time of my life (minus some burnout from work but we won’t talk about that because it still pays the bills very well and then some), and i have long trips to japan with my friend and to australia to visit ti and steph coming up 💕 i have a fun work trip and a keshi concert with my friends including moon next month !! and i have two music festivals lined up for the summer already !!! dpr is coming to hitc nyc and i’m so sad that i’ll be out of the country when it happens but fingers crossed they come for the LA one ! and my friend just texted me a couple days ago about another music festival she randomly got tickets to so vegas here we gooo 🥳 and possibly a second vegas trip too that my other friend brought up today ??? also the usual weekend trips to LA, of course 🤩 omg and i saw jisoo irl up close at their concert and she is beautiful, and i can’t wait for her solo 🥹🫶🏻🫶🏻 and i’m currently blonde 🤧 my hair is really going through it like i first dyed it all lavender, then silver, then blonde, then i chopped it mid length and dyed it pink, then pastel pink, now it’s blonde, and it’ll be rose gold in two weeks !!! also i made like $5k from my investments and stocks, and i’m so incredibly proud of myself even though i know it’s not much compared to others :’) and i bought a chanel bag to celebrate my career milestone when i was promoted last year and got a big raise and bonus !!!! 🥳 i found the one i wanted after checking shops over the span of five months in like 8 cities and 5 countries djjdjkskd OH and i still hang out with els and she is still very much in l*ve with taeyong and jaehyun 💞 also blind boxes, specifically sanrio ones, have taken a chokehold on me thanks to els, and i’m still playing genshin so gacha addiction go brrr

tldr ; i’m really happy and content with where i’m at, and i sincerely hope from the bottom of my heart that every single one of you is experiencing the same amount, if not, even more, of happiness in your lives, honey bees 🤍🐝✨ as always, i’m sending you all my love and well wishes, ily all so so much 🌷🌷

[maxfew]

1, 10, 19, 38, 50!💛

1) did you have a good year? i think i had a decent year! it was all definitely on an upward trend, with a few bad periods here and there, but overall i’m just very grateful to not be where i was at this time last year :)

10) what song sums up this year for you? sea of dreams by oberhofer!

19) what was one nice thing you did for yourself? i did some solo travel at the beginning of summer and it was so wonderful. i’ve always been an independent person and taking some time to reconnect with myself was definitely needed :))

38) what was the best moment of the year for you? so this year i moved out of the big city i was born and raised in to go to my tiny college town in the middle of nowhere, and a few weeks into the semester, a few friends and i drove out a bit and watched the sun set over town from the surrounding wheat fields. that moment is sooo unforgettable. just the warmth of the sun, the presence of my new friends, the way everything around me seemed to turn to gold, knowing that i’m on the right path...literally perfect. i don’t think i’ll ever forget that <3

50) what do you wish for yourself? i have a few resolutions (making a better habit of working out, quitting nicotine, saving instead of spending, etc), but honestly, all i can really ask is to be better connected to myself. i’m not quite sure what that would look like yet, but i feel like i’m on the right path, so :D