#I don’t mind problematic ships but child/adult ships are where I draw the line

[stepharts]

I really wish there were not so many Larten/Darren fics when you look up CDF fan fiction 🙃

[voxvulpina]

Hello, fellow anti-sessrinner here and I have a bone to pick with the way you worded one of your answers in your last couple of asks, this sentence right here: “You can't expect a 10 year old to look at a romanticised portrayal of a grown man getting with a 14 year old or of siblings screwing or whatever sick shit proshippers are into.”

You do realize anti Sessrins are not like regular antis and run the gamut from your standard fandom antis to outright proshippers don’t you? I happen to be the latter of the (same sex and consensual adults only) of the two and I resent the fact that my shipping preferences are being put in the same category as the outright criminal lolicons and pedos. First of all there is absolutely a group of us out there (me and my friends in particular) who are caught in the middle of general shipping discourse. We’re generally pro-ship in most ways on a variety of subjects such as dubcon, non-con, toxic dynamics and yes, incest, but we absolutely draw the line at ships that depict pedophilia and/or child grooming and hate that we’re being associated with the loli and shots crowd. The difference between our ships and theirs is that at least our ships are actually legal and are between two adults with an equal power dynamic while they’re consuming literal child porn.

Also shipping problematic content such as incest and whatnot at least has nothing to say about what type of person you are, someone with maybe a weird and little gross fetish to most regular people okay, but as soon as you touch anything with a child in it you’re automatically a pedo suspect, and me and my kind would prefer not being lumped in with the actual criminals thanks.

The proshipping vs anti debates aren’t so black and white like either side makes it out to be, there absolutely are some of those stuck in the middle who feel like we don’t completely belong in either side. Running in proship circles means we risk having to see child porn and being associated with pedos when a lot of us are just proship for anything and everything that’s NOT pedo/grooming content.

Regardless all of us anti-sessrins are here for one thing and one thing only: We believe fiction affects reality when it comes to the minds of impressionable young children and don’t want the romantization of pedophilic grooming dynamics being normalized and aimed at their age demographic This shit is actually very serious and dangerous so let’s not muddy the issue with talk of petty general shipping politics.

Also FYI, the hardest of hardcore of the raisins have come after Inucest shippers as well (I’m not personally one, my brother/brother ships lie in other fandoms but I do have friends of mine who have been attacked) remember that 10k stalk list that put people on it for simply headcanoning Sesshomaru as gay? Like it or not we’re all in this together as a fandom against Sessrin and Yashahime as a whole.

Look, Anon, nothing you've written changes the fact that incest - yes, fictional incest too - is sick and gross. Let's imagine for a second that, instead of taking the pedo route with SessRin, HNY had gone with InuSess. I'm pretty sure we HNY Antis would be exactly where we are now, protesting about young viewers being made to watch a positive depiction of an incestuous relationship.

As far as I'm aware, the entire reason Antis in this fandom have no issue with InuSess shippers is that they KNOW their ship is problematic. They don't pretend otherwise and tag it accordingly. Antis in this fandom, myself included, aren't that fussed with what people support in fanon, as long as we're not jumpscared or made to run headlong into problematic content. People can absolutely ship InuSess or whatever, but please don't ask me to pretend it's not gross. You really resent the fact I called sibling incest "sick"? I mean, isn't it? You disagree on the fact that incestuous relationships are sick? You said "at least they're legal", but I believe intimate sibling relationships are in fact a criminal offence in most places ☠️

[littlemisssquiggles]

so I just recently found ur page and I’ve been trolling though a lot of ur rosegarden theories and I love them. Rosegarden is my favorite ship and my favorite theory I’ve read has to be the one were u pitch the sketch for Oscar to be in RWBY China. Anyway, I have a theory I would like ur opinion on. Oscars semblance. I don’t know if you’ve posted about this but, I think it should be plant manipulation (full poison ivy). I know this theory isn’t new but think the evidence is there what u think??

Pleased to meet ya Dark! RWBY China? Oh you mean RWBY Chibi! I’m assuming you meant Chibi XD And awesome, yeah I’ve been noticing your likes on some of my posts these past couple of days. Thank you so much. I’m pleased to hear you’ve been enjoying them. Particularly my Rosegardenones since they’re always my favourite ones to write.

Regarding Oscar’s semblance; I actually shared one or two posts on my idea for Oscar’s semblance including one which was a response to RWBYYoutuber ThatKaitoDan.

Aaah yes, ye ole Oscar’s plant-based semblance. That was one of the first headcanons I heard for Oscar’s semblance and it’s pretty much still a pretty popular one.

But if you’re asking me for my thoughts on this being Oscar’s semblance, I’m gonna be honest with ya fam. I never quite bought into that theory. I mean…Iget it. I get why many folks would jump on this theory bandwagon. Oscar’s semblance must be something Earth-elemental or plant-based because he’s our veteran precious freckled small farm boy, right? When I look at it through that lens, I can see why folks would like it.

However my reasoning for never truly hoping on-board with this theory is because, what do we know about semblances?

According to World of Remnant, by definition, one’s semblance is an extension of their aura into a more tangible form. Basically one’s semblance is a unique power associated with said individual. From what I understand, semblances are meant to represent who they are as a person since it’s more or less a projection of their very soul. Their very being.

Up until this point, you can pretty much say that everyone’s semblance is a reflection of their character and their personality.

This is why I’m not in favour of the plant manipulation theory. When I hear that as Oscar’s semblance, I automatically see the reason being because Oscar is a farm boy and as I said, I get it in that sense. However being a small farm boy from Mistral isn’t who Oscar is. I mean…yes it’s an integral part of his upbringing and past but it’s not representative of him as a person.

If Oscar was someone described to have a love for nature and be interested in plants then I can see that being his power. However, when I look back on Oscar’s story, part of it involved him desiring to be more than just a farmhand. He wanted to do more with his life than what he was raised to be.

So him, having a power that represents the lifestyle he grew up in that he secretly desired to move away from didn’t click with me. It’s no problem if you or anyone else are fans of this theory. That’s fine.

It’s just that I’ve always had a different idea…well ideas, on what Oscar’s semblance could be and none of them involved plants or Earth powers.

In the past, I pegged Oscar on having more of a mind-based semblance. Before, the only person with a mental semblance was Emerald and back in V5, I was hoping that Oscar would become another huntsman with a mind semblance. I was hoping that Oscar’s power would’ve been something along the lines of Telepathy—where he could connect to others through their minds and thus help heal them from within. I figured that could’ve been Oscar’s power since he strikes me as the type of individual who’s always willing to do what he can tohelp others. Despite still knowing very little about him after three seasons,if there is one thing I can card about Oscar as a person is his readiness to help even when he himself might be limited.

He’s always eager to lend a helping hand even when he might not have the right words or know what’s best to make. But he still tries. He will still make an attempt if it meant helping someone in someshape or form.

If I were to play Blake Belladonna and describe Oscar Pine in one word, it would be selfless.Not to make it sound bad or anything but Oscar seems to care very little abouthimself especially in the face of a danger. In the sense that he’s always more fervent to put himself before another. At the time when I made the telepathy theory, I perceived Oscar as the type of person with a knack for connecting with others on a deeper level. Back in V4, Ozpin voiced Oscar that he had the potential for greatness. That he had the aptitude to be the kind of person to give a helping hand when humanity needed it most. And ever since that season, I feel as if ‘helping hand’ is a trait that Oscar has almost come to live up to.

It is both noble and…somewhat problematic how very little Oscar seems to care about himself in the face of others. He wants to do the best he can, even within limits. In my eyes, I see Oscar as an individual whose desire to help and do more is infinite while he himself is often rather limited—whether it’s by his own experience as a huntsmen or his time as himself. He definitely seems like he wants to do more but there are chains that are keeping him from doing so…in a metaphorical sense.

Ultimately I wound up abandoning the telepathy theory for Oscar. Especially now when RWBY After the Fall revealed the CFVY member Fox has that power. Currently, one of my key theories for Oscar’s semblance is Nullification—disabling someone from using their semblance so that, in the event of a threat, they can no longer be a danger to themselves or others. I explained this theory best in its original musing post right here.

My second choice for Oscar’s semblance is Magic. I like the idea of Oscar’s true power being magic itself since it fits into so many things about him. From a fairy tale standpoint, it fits since Oscar draws inspiration from Princess Ozma—the rightful ruler of Oz and powerful magic-user. So it makes sense to me that Oscar becomes a powerful wizard with magic as his signature power.

Another reason why I like the idea of Oscar’s power being Magic is due to the point that I made about Oscar’s character. Oscar is someone who is selfless—willing to do whatever he can even within limitations. Imagine Oscar being forced into a scenario where he wants to do more but he can’t because there’s something stopping him. There’s always something stopping him. Always something holding him back.

So imagine if…in the past, Oscar always wanted to do more but was told he couldn’t for whatever reason. Maybe as a little boy, he was told he couldn’t do certain things other kids could because he was too small in size. Or perhaps as a teenager, he was told he couldn’t help the adults (like his parents) because he was too young. He was just a boy. A child and because of that, he’d only get in the way.

As a huntsman, he can’t help his team as much as he’d like to since he’s still tooinexperienced as a fighter. And the final crutch, he wants to help as much as he can as Oscar—he wants to keep fighting with his friends as Oscar but he’s limited by time since he’s not sure how much longer he has as Oscar.

There’s always something holding Oscar back from what he’s truly capable of doing. His weakness is that he is always limited by something withholding him from his true potential. So…perhaps Oscar’s semblance—his true power would be something that would grant him the unlimited power to do anything.

Currently, magic is a source of unlimited power in RWBY’s lore. Therefore, I believe it’s a power very suitable for Oscar to become a master of. I strongly believe that magic is destined to be Oscar’s hidden strength.

I don’t know if Magic could even be considered a semblance. Nonetheless, like I said, I think it can work for Oscar since it feels like a power he should have given who he is, who he’s destined to become and more specifically, who he was inspired by.

One’s semblance is their own individual power. An ability that is unique to them since it’s an extension of their aura—their very soul. Their very sense of self. So that being said, I’d like to toss out this new Oscar semblance theory.

What if…and this is a BIG IF…Oscar can’t have a semblance. 

What if…Oscar will never be able to unlock a semblance since his whole Man with Two Souls thing spiritually prevents him from unlocking a power that’sunique to him. 

Hear me out with this one, okay? Like I said, as person’s semblance, in the words of Nora Valkyrie, is their very own superpower. It’s a power unique to them (in most cases) since it’s meant to be an extension of their very soul.

This brings to light a question I wish to ask about the Wizards of Light. Did any of the Wizards before possess unique semblances of their own? One’s semblance is a power unique to them. So my question is, if a Wizard unlocked their own semblance during their lifetime, is their semblance then passed down to their successor upon death since a Wizard’s soul never dies, it’s just reborn in the body of the next candidate in the cycle. And then when that present Wizard unlocks their semblance, do they have control over that plus their predecessors’ semblance?

Is Oscar, as the current incarnate of Ozma, just sitting on a gold mine of powers waiting to be tapped into or…could it be my hunch where Oscar, and by extension, any Wizard of Light, can’t possess a semblance since a Wizard isn’t one soul.

A semblance is the power projected from one’s individual soul. However Oscar isn’t just one soul. He isn’t even two souls despite the key term. Oscar is part of a culmination of many different souls over lifetimes in one body. When I look at it from this perspective, I’m starting to wonder if it’ll be possible for Oscar to even have a ‘semblance’ at all given his ‘condition’.

What if…this might even provide another limitation for Oscar to dealwith.

Imagine…Oscar training and working so very, very hard to unlock hissemblance only for Ozpin (or perhaps someone who’s been studying his aura, like let’s say General Ironwood) to sort of drop the ball on himand say that he’s incapable of ever unlocking a semblance.

As I’ll reiterate again, semblances are an individual’s own unique power. Even in the case of family bloodlines (like the Schnees), this still applies since while blood is thicker than water, it’s not thicker than the soul; that makes a lick of sense. Even with shared semblances, individually, the Schnees are still their own people sharing in the power that their family was built upon and using itas they chose to use it. They may share a power. But they don’t share a soul.

This is the kicker with Oscar. He’s not just one individual. Sadly to say it but, Oscar, technically, isn’t …his own person. His soul is bound to another in a string of many other lives. I can see if being difficult for Oscar to have his own individual power when he’s not just one person. 

It’s not even a case like with the Schnees. He’s not inherited a power viablood. He’s sharing a body with another soul who is an embodiment of many.While I still think it’d be cool for Oscar to have a semblance, I’m going totoy around with the concept of what if he didn’t. 

What if…our precious small farm boy can’t have a semblance? He’s even worse than Jaune in that regards. With Jaune, it was more or less a mental block and waiting for the right trigger. With Oscar, imagine if he can’t do it at all because of the very thing that’s been his crutch from the get-go. Him being part of two souls. Him eventually merging with said soul and possibly disappearing during all of it.

Imagine…Oscar clinging to the hope of unlocking his very own semblance as a sign that there might be a small chance for him to still be his own person despite everything? If Oscar were to have his own power—a power that represents him. A power that is his and wasn’t something he inherited from another. If he had that then he would still be him.

Picture…Oscar clinging desperately to this goal as some sort of lifeline in a sense only to be told upfront that he’d never be able to have his own unique power since he isn’t his own person. He could never be his own person. Not anymore. Never again.

Can you imagine… Oscar, the boy who has been silently bottling up his emotions over the Merge, becoming hopeful about semblance training only to learn that…no matter how hard he tried. No matter how hard he worked or trained, nothing is going to change. He can’t stop it. He was never going to be able to run away from his fate. 

I don’t buy into Oscar fully accepting his fate with the Merge from V6 C9. I feel as if Oscar has become like how Ruby was back in V5. Indifferent and trying to act all brave to keep up appearances when in reality he isn’t truly fine with everything that’s happened to him and is going to happen to him. You cannot convince me for a millisecond that Oscar is 100% fine with the Merge.

I feel like Oscar’s run since V4 has been about him constantly convincing himself that accepting his fate was what he should do. It’s all he could do when there’s been that other side that’s been screaming the latter—the side he suppresses most of the time.

Nope. I think he’s bottling up his truefeelings and at some point, Oscar’s going to have another meltdown like in V5 C5. Probably even worse with more tears. Might even punch a wall in frustration…or SOMETHING with extreme anguish. 

Ozpin was allowed his tearful meltdown. I’m still patiently waiting on Oscar’s to happen cause you can somewhat feel it coming. 

Back in V5, Oscar was mostly scared about previously fighting in the Battle of Haven. So I could only imagine now what’s really going through his head (literally) regarding the whole idea of signing his body and life away to an entity whose been trying to stop an immortal threat for years and has failed multiple times. 

I feel like another epic meltdown is on the way for Oscar. An actual one this time, with tears and lots of wailing. A golden opportunity for Aaron Dismuke to give us his best emotional acting in the history of anime voice acting.

I’d actually be pretty disappointed if it doesn’t happen by now in V7 since; and I cannot stress this enough, Oscar needs to vent. It’s part of the reason why I’ve been dissatisfied with how the Writers just constantly portray Oscar with just being perfectly ok with everything that’s happened to him. 

I get that he’s a young, impressionable teenager made to have the maturity of an adult beyond his years but Jeez Louise on cheese, would it kill these guys to give Oscar some more depth and ACTUALLY delve into him as a person and character. I guess, only time will tell for V7 I suppose.

Resuming talk on semblances, if Oscar is revealed to have NO semblance, this is where I can see magic being his substitute for a semblance. When I think about it, Oscar doesn’t really need a semblance. As a matter of fact, there’s no unique power more fitting for Oscar to have than magic in my eyes.

If magic can be a semblance, then I’d pick magic to be Oscar’s true power. He’s meant to be a destined for greatness. So let him be that. Forget semblances all together for Oscar Pine! Let him use magic instead.

Let this small farm boy become the great and powerful wizard I know he’s meant to be. This is why I’m gunning for my theory of Oscar taking the Fall Maiden magic back from Cinder. Since the Maiden magic are connected to Oscar via his connection to Ozma—the original source of the power, I believehe might possess the power to take the Maiden magic back without having to killthe Maidens.

I’m banking on Cinder overpowering Oscar only for him to suddenly start revoking some of the Maiden magic into his body, empowering him.

Man, imagine if karma comes back to bite Cinder in the ass. Funnily enough, when Cinder had ambushed the original Fall Maiden with Emerald and Mercury, she ended up stealing some of her magic with a Grimm that left a nasty blemish across Amber’s right eye. Ironically, when Ruby first used her Silver Eyes on her, Cinder lost her eye on the same side. 

Now I’m picturing karma returning to chomp on Cinder again where, just as she blindsided Amber and stole some of her power—imagine Oscar blindsiding her and taking back some of Ozma’s magic.

Then imagine Oscar using that magic to defeat Cinder and similar to Amber, just as how she was made to kneel helplessly while Cinder stole her power—Cinder would be put in the same position as Oscar takes back what she stole. A power that was never meant to be hers in the first place. Isn’t that not what Cinder said to Pyrhha before she murdered her? Wouldn’ that be an interesting scene to see play out. 

So Oscar takes back the Fall Maiden powers and thus, becomes empowered with magic and finally unlocks his true potential. That’s my main theory.

Besides, if Oscar’s power is indeed magic then I can see Earth-themed magic being his preference. With the Maidens, they all seem to have a base element ofchoice. For Cinder, it was fire. For Raven, it was ice (even though she’s supposed to be the Spring Maiden?) so for Oscar, earth can his elementof choice as a wizard.  This in turn can play into yours and everyone’sfavourite Pinehead theory of Oscar becoming an earth bender of some kind.

I’ll only accept the plant powers for Oscar when it comes to his magical abilities. Those are my thoughts on that. Hope that answers you Dark. Sorry if I took so long in responding. Thanks for the inbox fam~

~LittleMissSquiggles (2019)

[cupkayke]

For the fanfiction questions thing: 1, 3, 6, 11, 17, 21, 25, 27, 36, 40, 41, 46, 50 and 51 (I hope these aren't too many)

 Not too many at all! I like talking about myself lol.

Under a cut because longggggg.

1) What was the first fandom you got involved in?

Oh gosh, definitely Tokyo Mew Mew. I never wrote fanfics for it but I co-owned and then owned an Avidgamers RP site for TMM called MewUSA back in like 2004-2006. Avidgamers was a forum site engine that was pretty damn nice for its time (also FREE, that was a plus) and I spent HOURS creating characters, storylines, and layouts for it. There were TONS of individual in-character boards and I think we may have had up to 100 unique users at one point. The detailed characters/plotlines were BASICALLY fanfiction- I think I did an entire rp with myself between a few of my characters once- and it was a whole lot of fun. Some of the OCs from that site were repurposed into a longrunning rp I have with @liarino on AIM and I am FOREVER grateful that I met them through that site

Fanfic-wise, it was Full Metal Alchemist. I had a horrendous LITERAL self-insert OC fic called ‘Nice of Me to Drop In’ that was based on an RP I did with a different friend. Plot? ‘Fangirl of FMA LITERALLY FALLS INTO HER TELEVISION AND WAKES UP IN THE UNIVERSE AND FALLS IN LOVE WITH ALPHONSE’. The end. I never finished it but holy shitballs it got SO MANY REVIEWS. I’m surprised how many people actually enjoyed it- I did get some criticisms but despite the fact that it was so cringe-worthy that I took it down it still got sooooo much positive feedback. I sometimes wonder if people would still be reading it on ff.net if I hadn’t taken it down the last time I overhauled that account. I still have some Ouran oneshots on there that I wrote TEN FUCKING YEARS AGO that still get reviews. Dayum. 

3) What is the best fandom you’ve ever been involved in?

I have to say it’s a tie between the Tokyo Mew Mew fandom circa 2003-2006 and the Ouran fandom from about 2006-2008. My experience with them was limited to RP boards but I had the MOST FUN running MewUSA and a long-running Gaia RP ‘Hosting the Hosts’ because of the warm response to the concepts. The TMM fandom especially was super creative even back in the day- there were so many fan mew mews because the formula was so easy and that was one series that I didn’t mind OCs because the concept was easily applied. In-universe, the creator could have easily made more Mew Mews. So the possibilities were endless. That’s also the fandom I learned the majority of my writing skills from, even if I did get called out a couple times for shitty RPing. I got better and I was so sad when the engine finally kicked the bucket. Aside from the RP sites the TMM fandom had sooooo many fansites dedicated to the show- my other favorite being Neko Tokyo. I think that site might still be up… 

Ouran was limited to that RP I ran but damn I never had one so fun. That group of writers was hysterical and I actually met one of them in person because by sheer coincidence she lived near me. She moved soon after we figured it out but she came back for a convention and we hung out all weekend. Unfortunately I don’t remember her name and I lost her phone number T_T I wonder where she is sometimes. I wonder where a lot of my fan friends from back then are. The problem with early 2000s internet.

Tho I think Boueibu will be my new modern fave fandom.

6) List your OTP from each fandom you’ve been involved in.

 Ohhhh dear. I’ll keep it to ones that I actually ship characters in because a lot of my early fandoms were MYSELF AS AN OC X HOT MALE CHARACTER. OTL. I was a weeb. Most of these are fandoms I’ve rped in rather than written fanfiction for, however.

Tokyo Mew Mew- PuddingxTart. I like to read IchigoxKisshu fanfics sometimes but that ship is highly problematic looking back on it lol

Code Lyoko - THROWBACK. JeremiexAelita. Adorable.

Ouran HSHC - I’m fond of HunnyxHaruhi (as evidenced by my mostly abandoned ff.net account) but basically AnyonexHaruhi is super cute. I think I read a fic once where Haruhi was in a relationship with ALL of the guys and it was actually super interesting. I don’t think I can find it again, tho.

Harry Potter - Drarry.

Walking Dead - CarolxDaryl FTW. and Richonne. I’ve toyed with the idea of writing fanfics for WD but never quite get up to it.

Mass Effect - Shakarian. Fuck yes. Fun fact I have an unfinished smutfic on the mass effect kinkmeme livejournal that I will EVENTUALLY FINISH ONE DAY AND PUBLISH UNDER MY NAME buuuut for now it will remain an anonymous abandoned fic.

Boueibu - …All of them? OTL I can’t pick one ship… tho if you force me… IoRyuu and BeppuMoto OT3.

YOI - I think everyone’s OTP is Victuuri.

11) Who is your current OTP?

Victuuri.

17)  Who was your first OTP and are they still your favourite?

Since Boueibu is my current fandom- I immediately was drawn to Enatsu since s1 had a relatively large focus on them but I’ve kind of fallen out of actively shipping them. I like them as a couple and I think they’re def boyfriends material but they’re definitely a comfortable ship. Their personalities are just… drama-free, so their relationship to me just seems like a quiet background relationship. IoRyuu is a little more volatile and I really like ships where there is a lot of between-the-lines interpretation and potential for conflict. Also I just really like the Beppus

21) What was the first fanfic you ever wrote?

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. The aformentioned ‘Nice of Me to Drop In’ FMA OC Mary Sue Self insert fic. Definitely the first one I ever published on the interwebs. Although I think TECHNICALLY my very first one was a Pokemon story that I was writing for a little kid neighbor of mine back when I was like… 11. I think I had just gotten a computer in my room and I remember typing it up and drawing some cover art for it… it was basically an expanded version of the episode where Meowth and Pikachu were handcuffed together or something… except there were more Pokemon involved and ALL of the characters were friends. Like Brock and Tracey were both with Ash and Misty and all of the Team Rocket people were friends for some reason. Idk I was a weird child.

Ohhh maybe a tie for the FMA fic was a Code Lyoko one I wrote around the same time called ‘Desert Rose’. I can’t remember now which was published first because I deleted them all. Another Mary Sue OC fic but I actually am still kind of proud of how I expanded the Lyoko universe in my head. I came up with new areas to Lyoko and like a central region and how they all connected. Nevermind the fact that the girl with a CAT THAT COULD OPERATE THE COMPUTER was the main character and obviously I shipped her with Odd because YumiUlrich and JeremieAeilita were OTPs. It was weird.

25) What’s your most popular fanfic?

If the story was still up it might have been ‘Nice of Me to Drop In’ because that fic still haunts me. Buuut it’s either ‘Naptime’ or ‘Desire’, one of my two Hunny x Haruhi fics from my Ouran days that I left up on ff.net for posterity. I have no desire to go read the cringe and find out which one has more hits but I bet it’s the G-rated ‘Naptime’ cuz ‘Desire’ is a) the first M rated Hunny x Haruhi fic on ff.net EVER and b) really really bad porn written by like, 16-year-old me. Oops. It’s a smidgen OOC on the part of Haruhi if I remember right buuut I actually still stand by the idea that Hunny is not as childlike as he seems.

Oh dear maybe that’s why I like Yumoto so much. Similar character type. OTL

27) What do you hate more: Coming up with titles or writing summaries?

I feel like I’m horrendous at both but lately it’s titles that are giving me trouble. 2 of the 3 Boueibu fics I’ve written had different working titles that got changed the second the story went up to be published. I’m having a brain fart and can’t remember them but both ‘All the Pretty Little Horses’ and ‘Completely’ were titled something really stupid. And your giftfic was ‘?’ until I decided on the central theme lol.

36) What’s your favourite genre to write?

I don’t like reading romance novels but I love writing shippy stuff. Tension, build….smut

40)  What do you struggle the most with in your writing?

Pacing in longer works, definitely. Also just… keeping up with it. I am a horrible procrastinator and if I don’t actually have a deadline with external consequences then I never get anything done. I can’t set my own deadlines because I can always move them. I can’t get my family or friends to set them for me because I know they’ll forgive me if I fail (how horrible lol). I have tons upon tons of unfinished fics from fandoms past sitting somewhere in the depths of my word documents folder and about as many original short stories. I have so many ideas but because I get easily distracted and also because I am now working full time and suffer from typical adult exhaustion I can only put a fraction of them on paper. 

My inner critic is also a fucking bitch. I can’t get her to shut her face long enough to write a sentence sometimes. Again, I have to have a deadline looming before I can put her on mute most times. If I have infinite time, she doesn’t shut up and makes me rewrite a sentence 100 times because it sounds stupid.

41) List and link to 5 fanfics you are currently reading:

Ahahahaha… I don’t have 5 simultaneously because I can’t just… not finish reading something before moving onto the next one. I don’t also read things that are unfinished unless they sound REALLY interesting because I’m stupid impatient. But I guess for my current fandom (Boueibu) I’ll link 5 fics I read recently that I liked! 

1) Pink Blood - @magiccatprincess (okay actually this is one I’m going to read soon because it looked interesting… so it fits the question lol)

2) tuesdays - @vagarius (because how can I not love something written for me?

3) Liar - BlackJoker77 (A whoooole lot accomplished here in not a lot of words. Also, Yumoto character study/reading between the lines? Yush.)

4) ….. ok I ran out of ideas. I don’t bookmark anything OTL. I’ll come back to this question at another time with an ACTUAL answer.

46) If someone was to read one of your fanfics, which fic would you recommend to them and why?

I’m most proud of ‘Completely’ at the moment- I really like how I pulled off Ryuu’s voice and it’s most definitely a scene I wanted to see written… so I’m happy that I was able to provide that scene

50) How did you get into reading and/or writing fanfiction?

It was basically an extention of RPing for the writing portion of it- ‘Nice of Me to Drop In’ was basically a cleaned up RP and when it wasn’t rping it was fan gratification for the other early fics I did. As a kid I used to (and still sometimes do) make up stories in my head when I was about to go to sleep, and a lot of them were episodes of my favorite shows that I wanted to see. So I’d put some of them on paper. And then it moved into the ~romance~ category; I was a hopeless romantic as a teenager and like a lot of teenage girls I was kind of horny so fanfiction was a way to explore my sexuality in the comfort of my own head, basically. I still like me a good smutfic and bonus points if it’s romantic AND smutty. My bf can definitely tell when I’ve been reading something naughty….

51) Rant or Gush about one thing you love or hate in the world of fanfiction! Go!

Okay, Imma do both! And I have 2 things to rant about because I can’t shut up.

Rant: This is more of a thing that I hate about MYSELF reading fanfics, but I hate that I get turned off of fics so quickly because of writing style. When I can push past beginners writing mistakes or mediocre quality writing I can sometimes find gem fics with plots/characterizations I find adorable, but more often than not I click out of fics after just a few sentences because I can’t stand poor writing. And I feel so elitist about it! Fanfics are free, fan-generated content. A lot of fanfics are written by kids or beginner writers. I have to keep reminding myself that not every fanfic author has gone to school for writing. They may not know the conventions of literature. They may not realize that they’re head-hopping in the middle of paragraphs. They may not know the proper way to punctuate dialogue (and I DIDN’T EVEN KNOW until grad school!!!!). If I let mistakes get in the way of content I may miss out on an up and coming writer. And lord knows I was horrendous when I first started. Everyone starts somewhere. I hate that it takes me so long to get out of teacher/writing student mode and truck through some writing that may not technically be the best but their heart is in the right place. 

Rant2: I don’t like how isolated fanfiction can feel sometimes. It seems like people don’t comment on fics as much as they used to, and I see these posts going around on tumblr about how authors LOOOOOVE comments and want more of them but then comments just… don’t appear. It’s not so hard to post one thing you really liked about the story, and even one thing you didn’t like. Comments help authors grow.I also don’t like how it’s so hard to find a beta reader or three to bounce ideas off of and proofread your work.

Gush: I love communities. I love the events fanfic authors put together. I love how when communities get tight-knit how everyone builds each other up and gives one another ideas. I just love fanfiction in general, really

aaaaaand SHEW. That was a lot. BUT DEF NOT TOO MUCH