#I’m actually so glad I got up at 5am

[foreverylie]

these three hours in our swiftie bubble have been actual magic 🤍🤎🩶🖤

[utahlive]

No episode today (i have a test i gotta study for booo) :( However in usual “no episode today” style, I’ve got some behind the scenes stuff! (+ answering asks). I’m really glad you guys like hearing about this part of the blog :D

It’s a little long so I’m putting it under the cut

So my latest method of answering asks is to write a quick outline/reply and save it in drafts (as opposed to what I was doing, which was copy pasting asks into the notes app and writing replies there. dont ask whats wrong with me; I dont know). Anyway this specific comic had its first ‘script’ (shoutout to @/ghostburface for the ask)

I usually draw out what I imagine happening and then add text to hit the points im aiming for, but I did the opposite in this one. I had a lot of trouble figuring out the actual visuals for this one

(For the record I tried to find the original price of the glasses on the las Nevadas merch page but it wasn’t there. I remember losing my mind over the price tho)

attempt/draft 2 (sort of) since I wasn’t sure about the layout. I was really hoping to just have three panels (as you can see by the “if 3 that would be epic” note above)

And then I transferred it digitally! I did go over the script in DMs with my friend so it ended up as it did I did see one person pointing out the whole “rose colored glasses” thing (shout out to you fr !!). I had a lot of meaning I was going for with this one but I have a hard time finding a middle ground between “so obscure its not there” and “way too obvious”

I also wanted to answer some asks (as per usual :3 because I love talking with you guys)

I wish he would grow it out!! However as anyone who’s gone from short to long hair... the awkward phase is NOT pretty. I did hear on one of his streams he might cut it when the EP comes out rather than the album. because he’s a coward (but I can’t blame him)

who doesnt feel like ripping up their pillow though, amiright fellas? Shout out to all the utahlive fictives out there (I’ve heard of reported sightings). Would love to talk to you guys some day <3 It still baffles my mind that this blog leaves any sort of lasting impression on people (for reals though, I hope you guys are ok!!)

this one isnt directed at me but I just think its funny you say this because summer 2022 I went to the Winchester house with my friends, but we all decided it wasn’t worth the price so we just checked out the gift shop and walked around the outside for about two hours. it’s actually very pretty! super cool architecture

this one is under the “what would you recommend I get at the gas station”

It’s also not a question but I think it would be funny to let you know I wrote and queued that post (and the other one posted that day) at like 5am I don’t know how I missed it because I usually check my posts the next morning before they get posted I know it’s bad I’m trying real hard to get my sleep schedule to be normal (this post is sponsored by melatonin tablets)

GET AWAY GET AWAY GET AWAY GET AWAY 🤺🤺🤺

I assume you’re talking about the mcytblr sexyman poll?? Im already making predictions and bets in my head on this one but Ill be fighting for MY meowmeows till my last breath

[theworldoffostering]

Hi, I’m an emotional puddle over here.

Ms. 6 and I had lunch with her mom this week. It’s the first time either of us have seen her in like 12 years. The lunch went about as well as it could which I was glad about. Mom looks good and appears to be doing well.

The county is looking to place one of Ms. 6’s biological siblings with Mom. Talk about full circle. It’s still way too much for me to process. I can’t reconcile what I know to be true about the case and this reality.

Ms. 6 is keeping her feelings close to her vest per usual. Mom paid for lunch which was very kind of her and unneeded particularly since she drove about 3.5 hours to get there. Ms. 6 was a complete disaster prior to the lunch, but got through the actual lunch very well. She has already threatened to move in with her grandparents next week as well as for the school year.

DD has a birthday this next week. She blasted me on social media during pride month for not being supportive of her sexuality choices. She neglected to add that she’s never talked to us about her sexuality despite me making 800 attempts to talk with her about it. One post said she has finally been able to figure out who she is now that she’s out of her “childhood” home. Spare me dude. You didn’t move out. You left without notice (several times) and then made several demands on me. It’s just gross and hurtful and so dishonest.

Baby went to overnight summer camp for three nights. Came home and has wet the bed every single night despite staying dry at camp. He’s gotten up at 4 and 5am daily and has screamed and cried every night at bedtime and every morning as our alarm clock. He’s also stolen several pieces of candy and gum from his siblings, and just continued to create general chaos in our home to the point that I feel pushed over the edge and just don’t feel like I can do this any more. I cried at 8am when his “community case worker” showed up for this appointment earlier this week. We took him out of one program and put him in a different one in order to access Theraplay. However, we had to give up in-home help in order to get the therapy. It’s maddening. I basically said that I cannot live my life without in-home support for him. Our family therapist told me I needed to get out and do self-care which I absolutely cannot do because I don’t have enough/any help for Baby. I also called the state and asked them to send a packet to amend his adoption assistance. I’m hoping that perhaps if we can access more money then we could allocate that for therapy and go back to the program that was giving us in-home help.

Every single thing feels like an emotional landmine. I feel so down and haven’t been working out, walking, etc. I had so much more in-home help last summer and my dad wasn’t dying which certainly helped.

[xsezzie]

Profile Tag Game

Hello: My name is Sezzie, I know I can be rather blunt and robotic at times, but I promise you I don’t wish to intentionally hurt you. I am always open to having a chat whether it be in my DMs or through asks.

Chat: Tickling - Of course I like tickling, no shame in that. It’s completely normal… some people get flustered by it? Oh well, those people are the cutest~ Hm? You aren't cute? Well, I guess someone will need some tickles to convince them otherwise!

Chat: Identity - I wonder who I was yesterday, who I’ll be today, and what I’ll be tomorrow… I wish I knew who I was.

Chat: Masking - That thing I just did now, it was incorrect. I will be sure to act correctly in accordance with societal norms next time. If I do not act correctly then others will become disgusted or angry... Just as I would if you were to do the same.

When It Rains: Ugh, this would be nicer if it was at night time…

After the Rain: Everything either looks really clean or really dirty depending on the area… oh look, the birds are coming back out.

When Thunder Strikes: Ah… so relaxing.

When It Snows: What’s that?

When the Sun Is Out: Everything is as it should be…

When the Wind is Blowing: Ugh, my hair is messed up now…  

Good Morning: Get up already, the world is perfect at this hour. The bad people don’t come out until later so it’s best to enjoy it while it lasts! 

Good Afternoon: So hungry… must do my best to not eat a big meal…

Good Evening: Better get inside… they will be coming out soon.

Good Night: The optimal sleeping hours for those who suffer from depression are 10pm to 5am. Setting yourself a strict bed time will do wonders for your mental health, so hurry along, time for sleep.

About Sezzie: Alphabet - A fellow neurodivergent coworker taught me to think of all my disorders as “my alphabet”… so my alphabet currently is GAD, MDD and BPD… with ASD and ADHD in the process of being diagnosed.

About Sezzie: Writing - I actually hate that I’m the writer in the family and cannot physically draw. But, having a high literacy IQ certainly comes in handy when I’m creating. I’m glad people are able to feel my writing when I put the effort into it.

Something to Share: Name - My real name means “princess” apparently… I hope I don’t come off as one.

Interesting Things: Senses - Ah I love exploring sensory things. Honestly, I believe that feeling sensory pleasure is very soothing and not always supposed to be NSFW as most see it.

Sezzie’s Hobbies: Each of my personalities seems to have different hobbies, but if had to take a guess on the true me… writing, worldbuilding, and video games would be on top! I do also enjoy learning new things and gardening.

Sezzie’s Troubles: My existence troubles me… too dark? Well, deal with it. Life isn’t sunshine and rainbows, and I’m tired of coddling the special ones.

Favourite Food: I do not have the ability to have a favourite food due to my sensory eating issues… my addictions and interests change constantly. Ah but if there is one I’ll always come back to… Chicken Kievs hehe

Least Favourite Food: All of them! I like the art of food but eating? Bleh. I wish we didn’t have to.

About @otomiyaa: Ahhh she is my idol! I have been following her for years.. and only recently got the courage to begin talking to her more. I get nervous and think I come off as some weird fan that thinks they are friends with their idols. Forgive me Otomiya-SAMA!!

About @ticklystuff: He is the first person I began talking to when I joined the community. I feel like I owe him something for all the kindness and chats we have had together. I wish I could talk more often about hot MEN with him hehe

About @ticklish-n-stuff: Sakura-chan is one of the few people I can let my guard down and show my more "embarrassing" or "fangirl" sides to when it comes to characters I like. I am grateful to have her in my life. She also gushes about MEN with me and we have a blast discussing tickling.

About @nataliewritez: Nat is my adorable little sister and is a joy to chat to about anything. I can't believe we have known each other for nearly 2 years already!

About @fanfic-chan: Dessie is so adorable and such a comfy person to be around! Also the biggest lee ever hehe

About @ticklygiggles: Little does she know how cute she is. Perhaps I should go tease her sometime soon...

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Tagging @fanfic-chan @nataliewritez @ticklish-n-stuff @ticklystuff @italeean @thatonetickleblog @anzynai @stopiteatpopcorn

[estellamiraiauthor]

The Stars May Rise and Fall: The Annotated Re-read (Chapter 7)

Well, I did not expect to have such conflicted feelings over Chapter 7.

Just joining us? Start with Chapter 1 or grab a copy of the ebook here or order the paperback from your local bookstore of choice and read along.

As always, spoilers abound, including the possibility of spoilers for chapters beyond this one? OK with that? Then let’s read on!

So this was actually kind of an important chapter, in that it’s the first time the rest of the band actually meets Rei, and also when they record the single that’s really going to put them on the path to success. If you’d asked me going into this to name my favorite and least favorite parts, this chapter wouldn’t have been on either list, but now that I’m really looking into it in depth, there’s kind of a lot I don’t love.

Looking back at the oldest draft I still have, the beginning of this chapter was another place where a lot of filler was cut. I had ALL these text/email conversations between Teru and Rei and Teru and Kiyomi written out, but you really don’t need them. Teru tells Rei that the band wants to record the song, and Rei books the studio. Teru gives Kiyomi his number, which he didn’t have time to do at the show, and tells her that they’re recording and have some more shows coming up. You really don’t need the whole conversation, so I’m glad I cut that.

We find out that Rei has booked a studio in Ginza, of all places. Teru’s reaction to this part of town is pretty much mine when I was his age. Everything is EXPENSIVE, and it’s not just regular old Tokyo expensive, it’s CLASSY Tokyo old-money expensive. Teru feels immensely out of place there, and I don’t really think Rei intended that at all, he just wanted the Best Possible Studio that he knew of, and this was it. But it’s another sharp reminder of the big wealth gap between them.

Long descriptions were another thing to get trimmed down in cuts, so I don’t know that this comes across at all in the final version, but I always imagine the studio lobby looking like the Death Records lobby from Phantom of the Paradise, if anyone would like to borrow that image.

So, everyone arrives. Teru is early, because he was so nervous he got up at 5am and couldn’t find enough random tasks to fill the time. That’s… totally me. Sorry, Teru. Minori is also early because he is Professional and Punctual! 

Seika shows up with his co-worker who they’re going to get to play drums. I decided I didn’t really want Teru to be like, a legendary drummer, because if he was, A) it wouldn’t be very in character for Rei to want him to STOP doing something he was brilliant at, and of course Rei had to want him to sing because I had that in my mind as one of the key elements of a Phantom retelling (although there are other retellings where the Phantom character trains the Christine character in dance or magic or an instrument… I had decided I was going to stick with singing), and B) it would seem kind of cruel if Rei DID try to stop him from doing something he was genuinely very good at. So… he’s competent, as long as he’s playing Minori’s or Yasu’s songs. But Rei’s songs are just INCREDIBLY DIFFICULT, so I had them use Seika’s friend here instead.

Another reason I wanted it to be Seika’s friend/co-worker is because this is kind of an eye-opener to Teru that not all gay men are like Seika, in the sense of being flamboyant and somewhat effeminate, because up to this point I think he had been telling himself that HE couldn’t be gay (and somewhere very very very deep down in his subconscious, maybe also that Rei couldn’t be gay and therefore couldn’t be interested in him) because he does not have these stereotypical things in common with the exactly one out gay may he knows. So Seika’s friend from the gay club where he works turns out to be a muscular, masculine dude, and that makes an impression on Teru, even though I think he still hasn’t really consciously realised what, exactly, he’s starting to understand about himself.

Yasu is slightly late, and this prompts Minori to ask Teru if Rei is usually on time. Of course, Teru has no clue, because he has only ever interacted with Rei in his own apartment before, but he’s definitely not going to admit how very, very little he actually knows his “friend” at this point.

There’s a tiny little exchange in here between Teru and Tetsuya, the other drummer, that isn’t SUPER important but it was a way to drop in a little bit of worldbuilding—namely, that Teru doesn’t have his own drum kit, which is actually SUPER common in Tokyo. A lot of drummers just don’t have ROOM for one, and even if they do, a lot of apartments don’t allow instruments. It’s pretty easy to get around that with electric instruments, since a guitar doesn’t make a lot of noise if it’s not plugged into an amp (or if the amp is plugged into headphones instead of a speaker) and electric keyboards can be completely silent if you use headphones, so the landlord and neighbors never have to know. There ARE electric drum kits as well that are a lot more affordable these days. But at the time they were really expensive, and still required the room to actually set them up. There’s also just not a lot of room at most of the venues for everyone to bring their own kit, so most of these guys bring their own snares, and rent everything else. The fact that Tetsuya DOES have a nice kit also sort of sets up the fact that, out of all the guys in the band, Seika is the only one who actually has a pretty good-paying job, which isn’t a HUGE plot point but will come up again later on. And it’s a sign of Teru’s success much later when he DOES have his own drum kit, and a place to play.

ANYWAY. Rei is the last to arrive. I’m not sure how intentional this was up until the moment it actually happened… maybe he planned to get there early and it just took longer than he expected to get there. But I think the late entrance ends up working for him, because it gives Teru and his bandmates absolutely zero time to comment on anything.

There was another little exchange at the beginning of this chapter that I’m a little sad I cut, because it showed that the studio engineer is actually someone Rei knew before the accident, and this is the first time they’ve seen each other since. I think it would have taken a LOT of courage for Rei to reconnect with someone who would’ve known him back when he was “beautiful” (Of course he’s still beautiful, but he doesn’t believe that), but he does it because he wants the best for Teru and his band, and this is the best studio he knows. I don’t really remember why I cut it, other than for length. Maybe I thought it already showed enough courage for Rei to be meeting the rest of the band at all?

Anyway, I really love Rei in this scene, and I think he probably spent a LOT of time just agonizing over how he was going to present himself, to leave absolutely NO room for anyone to pity him or make an awkward comment. So he comes in with his Presence™️ turned up to max, dressed in full costume, and the mixing booth itself is above where the band is setting up so he’s kind of lording over them, and the way he looks, plus the fact that he wrote this brilliant song and paid for this ridiculously expensive studio is just going to intimidate these guys so much that he KNOWS—or at least is seriously hoping—they’re not going to say a thing.

You know, I really do think that I gave Rei a lot of my own worse qualities and demons in some ways, but I also think I gave him some qualities that… may not really be objectively GOOD (or bad), but that I sort of wish I had, and I think this scene shows one of them. No matter how grand of an entrance he managed to make, he KNOWS he’s going to have to show a little weakness here. There’s absolutely no way he’s going to be able to walk over to the mixing board without limping and heavily relying on his cane—especially after what was probably not an easy trip to get there on the train—but rather than having a panic attack or just not showing up (which are usually my go-to options when I have to do something that’s going to embarrass me or make me look weak), he just makes sure his attitude leaves absolutely NO room for comment. A reviewer called Rei “prickly” once, and I love that. Yeah, he comes off as harsh or even callous sometimes, but—as Teru notices here—underneath it all, he’s really terrified.

So they play through the song and Rei asks Teru to come sit beside him while they record the instruments, and now that I think about it he’s never been this close to Rei before, and now they’re like almost touching, and its wreaking havoc on poor Teru and WOW I really didn’t realise how much of this came from my own didn’t-know-I-was-bi-just-thought-she-was-a-cool-friend teenagerhood.

One line I want to kind of mention here, because I kind of like it even though it’s also kind of a not-great thought to have: “Teru stared in spite of himself—at the wig, the long cloak, the cane that now lay propped against the mixing board, at once the most innocent and the most sinister thing in the world.” I actually got a comment from an early reader about this, that they didn’t understand why I (or Teru) used the word “sinister”… but I do think this line really does reflect Teru’s way of thinking at the time—as we’ll see later in this chapter, even though he doesn’t actually KNOW what happened to Rei yet, Teru has this deep sense of… justice, I guess, of RIGHTness? And because he’s 21 and hasn’t really experienced any great loss or tragedy yet in his own life, I think he sees it as deeply wrong and unfair that someone as massively talented (and hot?) as Rei was injured so badly… so I think “sinister” is not so much for the cane as an object itself, but as a symbol of something that Teru sees as unfair and unjust, and “innocent” because he does realise that it doesn’t actually make a lot of logical sense to think so… it is just an object, after all.

(Apologies again for the length here.)

SO. They start recording, and Rei says something here too that I think is very VERY indicative of his character. He keeps asking for more takes, even thought Tetsuya on the drums is great, but when Teru says so, Rei says “Yes, almost perfect. What good is almost?” This is another line I really like because I think it sums up not only his attitude toward music, but toward himself. Rei needs everything to be perfect, he needs everything to go according to plan, and I think in his mind there’s not much difference between almost perfect and complete trash—it’s either perfect or it’s not worth doing. (Although I think he does soften a tiny, tiny bit on this as time goes on.)

So, they take a break after awhile, and this scene is another one of those weak links I think that just got stuck in my head as “necessary” at one point and I never really figured out how to fix it. The other guys ask Teru some questions about Rei, and Teru really doesn’t know the answers to a lot of them, but he’s starting to be a little protective of Rei here, and doesn’t really give them any gossip. Then he’s kind of rescued when his phone rings… and it’s Kiyomi, asking him if he wants to have dinner on Saturday. And of course Teru says yes.

Originally, I was leaning MUCH more heavily into the Phantom retelling thing, and this was supposed to be a case of Rei being able to overhear a conversation he shouldn’t have been able to overhear…. but there was no real reason to make this particular character a ventriloquist or a master of mirrors or anything, and rather than copying those aspects of Leroux’s character directly I translated them into the modern world as being good with various types of electric instruments and computers, and this scene just ended up as Teru having a conversation that of course Rei overheard because he’s in the next room and the door’s open.

And when they go back into he studio, Rei seems angry and Teru can’t figure out why. Now, at this particular point, I think Rei maybe, MAYBE is starting to think that there might be a chance that Teru could actually like him. He doesn’t necessarily have much reason to think so, but up to this point, just about everything he has done, he’s EXPECTED to lead to Teru freaking out and rejecting him, and Teru… hasn’t done that. Instead, he’s come back to see Rei again. He’s played Rei’s song live, and is now about to record it. But now, of course, all that hope has been crushed, because Teru’s going out with a girl. Of course he is. Not only is there no chance he’d ever like Rei, in particular, but he’s straight!

Again, I don’t think Rei is angry AT TERU. I think Rei is very rarely angry at Teru, or at anyone, really, except himself. But he takes that anger out on other people, so he gets even pricklier.

Finally, it’s Teru’s turn to sing, and he’s trying to think of something sad to give some emotion to this sad song, and I think here he’s really kind of realising that he DOESN’T have any great sadness in his life. Sure, he’s poor and he hasn’t managed to become a rock star yet, but the things he tries to think of as sad aren’t real tragedies, and he ends up trying to imagine what must have happened to Rei, and what previous life Rei must have lost. Of course, he doesn’t wonder if Rei had a boyfriend, only a girlfriend… it was definitely very intentional that it really, honestly doesn’t occur to most of these characters that other people might be queer—that’s what happens when you grow up in a society where there just really aren’t many visible queer people at this point in time. :(

So Rei gives him kind of a sarcastic compliment, and that makes Teru mad because he doesn’t know what he’s done to make Rei mad, and the rest of the takes all suck so they end up using the first one anyway.

The last little bit of character building that I really like here is when they decide to go for drinks after recording, and Seika asks Rei if he wants to go too. Seika is definitely flamboyant and over-the-top, but that’s really a defense mechanism more than anything. He doesn’t know at this point that Rei is also gay, but as a more effeminate gay man, he DOES know what it’s like to be a visible minority, and I definitely think he sees how uncomfortable Rei is here and is really trying to be kind.

EDIT: Little addition about Seika and Rei. Seika definitely does not know who Rei is at this point, even though their careers would have overlapped with each other a little. Their bands at the time were just totally different in terms of popularity, with Rei’s about to go major and Seika’s just starting out. Seika would have heard of Rei’s band, but since he still thinks they all died five years ago, wouldn’t have thought to make that connection at this point. He’s just being nice because he’s nice and he knows what it’s like to be different.

Finally, Rei lectures Teru about smoking (legit) and about fraternizing with “fans”, so Teru finally knows he’s upset about Kiyomi, even if he doesn’t know why yet.

To be fair, Rei does have a point (even if he’s mostly making it out of jealousy). The bands that were more standoffish and acted like big shots even though they only had 10 fans were more likely to eventually succeed than the ones that were TOO accessible and friendly.

WHEW. That was a long one. Definitely didn’t think I’d have that much to say about this chapter. Next up… date with Kiyomi!

[isthatbloodonhisshirt]

hii!!!

i just wanted to say thank you so much for all of your writing!!

the past month has been really really rough for me and the only thing thats gotten me through is reading your work.... i ummm might actually have read through every single work you have on ao3 😅 the way you write is just incredible, i love the personal touch added to everything you write.

its funny because i think you truly excel at writing novels with detailed lore and backstories but my favourites are the cute domestic ones where theyre just neighbours or roommates or whatever. the way you write apartment living is so obviously drawn for your own real perspective in the best way possible and feels so real that i couldnt help but constantly agree with everything you were saying.

your dialog is so natural and fluid i often forget im reading tbh and you never write perfect people, theyre always realistic and fucked up and flawed and amazing. i always believe the world you write around them, and i constantly found myself at the edge of my seat at 5am desperate to know how the fuck they would fix everything.

i appreciate that you take the time to add the trigger warnings in the notes of each chapter, i always felt like i was prepared for what was ahead, or if something was too heavy before going in so i could walk away or go to sleep until i was slightly more ready.

i have maybe accidentally left a few essays in the comments of some of your fics already but i just wanted to let you know at the end of my journey (for now until you write more because frankly im obsessed and will probs go reread something after this just to fill the void) how much your writing has meant to me <3 thank you so much i cant imagine the amount of time, effort and love goes into writing so many full-length novels for free in such a short time span <3

Hello Anon! 

I’m really sorry to hear you’ve been going through a hard time lately, I hope that things have improved since you sent in this message ❤ And if you were able to find an escape even for a few minutes in any of my fics, I’m really glad I was able to help you, even if just a little bit 💕💕

Thank you so much for your kind words ;~; I’m so glad that you enjoyed both the lore-based fics as well as the slice-of-life fics XD And that’s good that it’s realistic enough to obviously stem from real life haha. I’ll be honest some things are fading from memory though (I legit cannot remember how periods in school work, but like, I don’t feel like I should have forgotten that??? I think I just purged school from memory because it was awful HAHA) 

And thank youuuuuu!! I have so much fun with dialogue orz I try sometimes not to write too much of it because I know I write it a lot but it’s just really fun to me XD And everyone’s got flaws, no matter how perfect we all think we are pfft ;) 

I find sometimes something needs to be warned about without being a legit tag, so the end note warnings are the easiest way I found to do that, especially in situations where it’s a spoiler. That way people can read safely without worrying about being triggered because I’m defo not about that |D 

You are seriously so sweet, thank you so much ;~; I’m seriously so glad you enjoyed my stuff and I hope that you keep finding things to enjoy in the fandom as a whole because it’s a fun one :3 Thank you so much for the lovely message, and for any essays you left me on Ao3 <3<3<3<3<3<3<3

[thecollectionsof]

i’m sorry you did poorly on an exam :( i’m sure you’ll do well next time :)

i love the idea of an enemies to lovers crygi fix !! i’m sure it’ll be good, stop doubting yourself darling

also ricotta cheese by the spoonful? feels sinful.

my day was okay! i went to classes and work, so nothing exciting most of the day. i did put up christmas decor with my roommates so that was fun :D

thanks for asking sweets <3

- your 🍄

...so funny story.

this is attempt number three of answering this ask. the first time i tried, i was in bed and i got through most of it before falling asleep. then i woke up at about 5am with my phone in my hand and got re-excited to answer this ask, but i only got about halfway through before i fell asleep again. and now i'm here!! i won't fall asleep this time, i promise <3

ricotta cheese by the spoonful, sometimes with some tamale or pomegranate (or both) but mostly just. cheese. i mean if you find a food combo you like go for it, but the sheer amount of texture in that bite would knock me on my ass i think

and !!!! decorating for christmas!!!!! it's so fun, i love doing it. putting on some christmas music and dancing around while you make your place look all festive? what could be better?? i'm so glad you had fun with that, it sounds so nice!!!

but ok it's probably gonna take me a while to finish up the enemies to lovers fic so here's a little bit as a teaser (under the cut because it got a bit spicy)

Crystal sneaks out of her room to refill her water. She hates having to sneak around her own apartment, always feeling on guard, just waiting for Gigi to come around the corner and say something snarky to her, but she didn’t have the funds to move out. Not yet, at least.

It’s only a second after she grabs the pitcher of water from the fridge that Crystal thinks she hears Gigi enter the room again. She scoffs, not even turning to check if she’s right. “Oh, did your little replacement for me leave? Because I was planning on actually getting some fucking sleep tonight, not just trying to block out those probably-fake moans all night because you can’t keep it in your pants,” she spits, her eyes glaring at the cup she’s filling with water. She turns when it’s full to see Gigi’s hardened face, a glare of her own piercing through Crystal.

[tianazlater]

Because why not?

Check it off the bucket list.

It takes like 24hrs when driving. 😂

At least a storm was avoided. I would def prefer that. And prefer there aren’t any errors and stuff MX-wise that we are ignoring…and then the staff shortages I guess due to the random ass high demand…

I’m just glad it’s finally done.

“Bucket List” now including…things that you really wish didn’t happen but that give you a story to tell.

Why is Nicole so weird?

Go through her bucket of memories. Anything that made her feel like dying…that she almost died from for real…that feel like an escape (even the twilight zone of missed and cancelled flights on Memorial Day)…that are so amazing they have to be done BEFORE dying (the typical one this phrase refers to)…let’s not limit the bucket so it’s empty or anywhere close to being so.

Hmm… 🤣

Someone: Lets take a plane!

Me: Are you sure we shouldn’t just walk there?

Everyone just finds important the positive things…which is ironically negative.

My bucket could be more full…just like a glass…if I put not so good stuff in there, too, that’s just absurd or rare and that happened to me to shape me.

Badges of…what the fuck hole did you fall down?

I fell down a hole and didn’t KICK the bucket…but filled it a little more.

Me and a future someone else:

Someone else: OMG we are going to miss the connecting flight! I think we literally have to run to it!

Me: I’m not in the Olympics. And…actually…I think my ankle hurts and I have to go to the bathroom and can’t wait.

My fear of missing and cancelled flights?

Gone.

For the record, on this trip…I missed a connecting flight by 5min…I came 5min after boarding ended and was fucking staring at the dumb thing…this was after the first was delayed by a MX issue I believe.

This was Reno to PHX (delayed). Then I think it was going to just be PHX to MCI…but I missed that one. So it turned into PHX to Dallas to MCI.

I stayed the night in PHX. PHX to Dallas got delayed from air traffic control issues (I think too little staffing for random high demand), weather, and MX. I stayed the night there…was DUMPED at our final destination (Dallas) just about literally. It was so late (past midnight) there was no one to talk to for a hotel. I called around…10+ hotels didn’t have vacancy…so I said fuck it I’ll pay for an expensive one because I’m going to punch a random person out at this point if I don’t get a shower and a bed.

The next morning was Dallas to MCI. Made it…I don’t remember if there was delay but whatever. I got home Saturday at 1pm-ish when I had meant to be home 5am on Friday. I missed my HS Reunion that was on Friday but just went to the one on Saturday night. Luckily it was both nights.

Now I’m coming back home and things seemed to be good…but my connecting flight was randomly cancelled.

So I’ve stayed at every connecting flight area…due to one reason or another…and even the unplanned Dallas one (I don’t think it was originally in the pic).

I am now a plane travelling expert.

Fear gone.

If they owe you a flight and a hotel and some food…a shuttle/taxi…get it. The time and what you miss due to it can’t be saved…but the rest has to be made up for.

Now what can I do to make use of my weirdo Tuesday? Maybe make some calls for my grandma before I have to start really grinding for school again.

My friend is like, work on your apt! And I’m like, I have running water, cats, and a bed…I’m good at least until school is over.

[weeple]

I just remembered that I’m turning 21 in a month. What. What the hell. Earlier today we were just discussing what we’re going to do for dad’s birthday cause his is also next month but mines actually sooner which is why I feel so shocked that I remembered my birthday because I genuinely forgot how soon it is. I wonder if I’ll be able to have some friends over for a party, I haven’t had anyone over in a couple years and I would quite like to show my new friends my house. I actually don’t remember the last time I had friends over, I’m going to look through my photos and see… wow quite literally a couple years, 2 years well guess not even quite 2 years yet as it won’t be exactly 2 years till my birthday. Anyway wow that’s wild. Like I have literally since then gone to college and graduated that is messed up. I don’t even really talk to the people that were at my last party. Like I talk to one of them and I don’t even actually text him that much, we used to talk all the time and even tried being in a relationship TWICE! That’s sad. Now he’s gone and gotten a partner and they’re planning on moving in together. Happy for him but it hurts because he was the only person I ever really felt I had a chance with. Finding out he had a partner was also the moment I found out I am the only one out of all my close friends that isn’t in a relationship. And all of theirs seem quite serious like they’re either actively planning on moving in together or already are living together while I rot away in my parents basement an hours drive from all the rest of them. The aforementioned ex boyfriend used to live in my hometown but moved to the city for university so now I feel quite lonely and left behind. I told myself I would try and go to bed earlier tonight but now it’s 3am. I’m just glad I haven’t seen 5am because of my staying up in a while. A red hue has just come over the bottom of my keyboard and I’m not sure as to why. Evil keyboard activated. Hehehe I love typing everything that comes into my head. It made my class laugh for one of my jokes in my standup performance so I continue to do so cause maybe I’ll give a good chuckle at it or potential viewers that have decided to read my ramblings for some reason (it’s because they’re in love with me, ya that’s why and no other reasons whatsoever) I’m typing on my tablet as per usual as that’s where I have tumblr downloaded but I am loosing my mind because the keyboard is orientated slightly different from on my phone so I end up hitting the wrong punctuation and I don’t like it, I will continue to go back and fix my mistakes but gosh it’s annoying.

Back to being sad about aging and being alone and stuff. I think I don’t even actually understand what it means to be in love romantically, like I’ve looked up the definition of a romantic relationship because I just don’t get how it’s different from just being best friends. Maybe I’m just deeply in love with all of my best friends, which I have been assuming as I’ve confessed to all 3 of the people I’ve deemed my best friend in my life so far. I only got my feelings recuperated once, was with the again aforementioned ex boyfriend. The first time it was in grade 8 and it wasn’t directly a confession to her but that was what I was going to try and lead to but when we were laying together on the pull out couch in the shed at her grandparents trailer park and I told her I really wouldn’t mind dating boys or girls and she went quiet. I don’t;t even think I realized at the time that I essentially came out as bisexual to her. In the morning we walked out to the rocks by the lake and she asked me about what I said last night and asked if I was kidding and said we couldn’t be friends anymore if I wasn’t kidding so obviously I lied and said it was all a joke and I was kidding. What else was I supposed to do. My best friend just said we wouldn’t be friends anymore. Though I never was her best friend because her best friend was a girl from her old town. It really hurt how every time I said she was my best friend she would remind me that I wasn’t hers. It makes me feel slightly less guilty for accidentally ghosting her the next year. We haven’t talked since but I do still feel guilty. I often wonder if we would still be friends if she hadn’t changed to home school in grade 9 and if I had seen her “hey”. I ate lunch alone in a dark corner of the school next to a forgotten pair of washrooms (very nice washroom cause no one used them since they were so tucked away.) Time by Ben Folds is playing right now (thank you YouTube for this mix that is literally just Ben folds/ben folds five cause like ya that’s the good stuff) very on theme. I often catch myself missing who I was in my past but have I really changed all that much. I think I just miss the circumstance of not “now”. I find it weird looking at old photos of myself because I don’t seem to recognize myself like did I really look like that? Do I reflect any of that now?

My head hurts and I keep feeling dizzy but not quite dizzy and not quite woozy just like woogly or something I don’t know, bad I guess. I should really try to sleep maybe it will be nice tomorrow and I won’t think of my woes and I won’t pick all the skin off my face. I feel like I’ve been holding in tears but like they’re not falling just on standby I guess. I am probably forgetting many words in this long ramble because my brain is behind my body so to any potential readers, if you’ve noticed any missing words, no you haven’t. Thanks.

[umichenginabroad]

WEEK 7: Nice Pt. 2, Taco Tuesday, Field trip

Dobry den!! Continuing my trip to Nice from last week:

On Thursday, we took a bus to Eze village and it was soo beautiful! It was an old medieval city on a mountain with a gorgeous view of the ocean. We spent a couple hours walking around there, and then headed to Monte Carlo, Monaco. To take the train to Monaco, we had to hike down a huge mountain in the hot sun in our nice outfits which was lowkey brutal lol. When we got there, we walked around and saw the casino, giant yachts, and the F1 race track. There wasn’t a ton for us to do with our budget in Monaco, but it was still fun to see. It was a long day of walking around but so worth it to see so many cities in the south of France.

On Friday, we took the train to a beautiful beach that was recommended by Tik Tok (so obviously trustworthy), Google, and our Airbnb host. It was so so beautiful and we felt like we were on a remote island somewhere. There were beach clubs there, but we just laid on the rocks to save money (which didn’t hurt too bad). It was called Plage Mala, near the Cap D’ail train station, and I definitely recommend coming here. 

On Saturday, we woke up at 5am and walked to the beach to watch the sunrise. Alyse and I swam while the sun was rising, and it was such a peaceful morning for our last day. There was a man sleeping outside our apartment door (so awesome to see that at 5am) when we came back, so I would definitely be careful and always stay in groups when traveling. 

Sadly, it was time to leave Nice, and we headed to the airport. Our flight connected in Zurich, which was funny because my roommate Alyse had been dying to go to Switzerland all summer, but we never found a weekend to make it work. We finally made it to Switzerland (even if it was only the airport for 30 minutes lol) and got to try some Swiss chocolate (10/10 recommend). 

For Taco Tuesday this week, we decided to go to Zluta Pumpa, a Mexican restaurant near our apartment. The quesadilla and mango frozen margarita were so good! We’ve been wanting to try this restaurant out since we first got here, and I’m so glad we finally did. We’ve been saying “we have to go here” or “we need to try this cafe” or “we need to do this” about so many different things in Prague all summer. Now that we’re leaving soon, we actually have to make an effort to do all the things we’ve been wanting to do (I’ve literally been planning everything out in my calendar so we can make everything fit). 

On Wednesday, our math classes took a field trip to the Technical Museum. It was really cool to see applications of what we’re learning in the real world. We saw many different types of planes, cars, trains, and more. I can’t believe I only have a couple math classes left- time flew by so quickly!! After class, we went to Knedlin to try fruit dumplings, a traditional Czech dish that we’ve been wanting to try since we first got here. I got the raspberry and white chocolate flavor and it was a 10/10.

Weekly Favorites:

Cafe: Bistro Monk

Restaurant: Zluta Pumpa

Food: Raspberry and white chocolate fruit dumplings from Knedlin 

Sight: Technical Museum

I can’t believe we only have one more week here. I’m going to miss Prague so much!! I’m leaving for Brussels and Amsterdam tomorrow, so stay tuned for that and to see how we spend our last week in Prague!

Parker Peterson

Industrial and Operations Engineering

Engineering in Prague

[eddito]

POOPEH!!!! a favourite, he is ridiculous 😂

mmm i slept so good and glad it's friday!!!!

how are you?? do you have plans for the weekend? 🥰🥰

have you heard phil dunster speak regularly? I was shocked and upset he doesn’t actually sound like that lmao

oh good I’m glad you slept well ☺️

I am goooood, went out for brunch with a friend today, but right as we sat down she got a call from work asking her to come in rip but we still stayed there a while and I hung out at her cafe for a bit

there’s a korean food festival on in the city tomorrow, so I’m going to meet up with a friend there and she’s gonna come stay at my place so we can wake up at 5am for eurovision 😅😅

also unimportant but there’s an event in pokemon go rn to get double components when you fight team rocket and I desperately need them bc I have been stuck unable to level up for literal months and I’m finally gonna get through it this weekend

hbu???

[blog-name-idk]

Hi. I fell asleep after reading ‘(Right) Hook, Line, and Sinker’ cos it put me in such a good mood but also because it was already past 5am 😬 so I’ve come back this afternoon to tell you how much I enjoy your writing.

‘Everything Falls (Into Place)’ was a masterpiece and this one did not disappoint. Your humor is the best and every thing I’ve read has been super funny to me. I think it’s been three months since I’ve read EFIP but up til today I still randomly remember some scenes that make me laugh. When you mentioned the ‘cavewoman brain’ here it brought me back to the Jin strong line from EFIP and I couldn’t stop laughing again 😭 but really this Jungkook is such a trip. He’s such an idiot and I love him so much. But the unexpected best character still goes to Jin. ‘because me Jin!’ you’re a genius for this lmao

And even though I’ve only read two of your works, you’re easily one of my favourite writers. You’re also one of the few that I follow on here cos I want to keep up when you post new works. I’ve already told you before how much I’m looking forward to ‘Business As Usual’ and after this it’s making me want to start reading it already but I just have to keep being patient cos I’m also too anxious to read an in progress fic 😭 thank you so much for sharing your works and looking forward to all the wips in your masterlist!

Ohhh it's you!!! I'm glad you're back!

Thanks so much, I had a lot of fun writing Right Hook and actually it was done for like 2 months before the "me Jin" line hit me and I was like "wow how did I not think of this earlier" lololol.

Gosh, that means so much to me - you're gonna give me a big head T_T. Not gonna lie I only had chapter 1 of BAU written when you sent that earlier ask about how you were excited for it, and that's what got my butt into gear to write more!

I've actually been feeling kinda meh with life and with writers block lately, and comments like yours really really REALLY mean a lot and help me get excited about writing again :')

Thank you so much for this lovely wonderful ask, you are a wonderful, cutey sexy lovely anon <3

[rianafying]

i’m very anxious today. it’s because of my assignments and how late i am at them. i feel a lot of guilt and stress right now.

it’s 8 am right now. i went out at 5am and got hashbrowns and instant noodles. something’s missing. i haven’t been able to think clearly for a while now. because of all the background noise and stress. it’s like a constant buzzing of cheap headphones, or the static of a radio. i’ve been thinking too much. aimlessly.

i have accepted that i am unable to start my assignment at the moment and i hope i will find it in me to start it at some point. there are fun things i want to do when i’m supposed to be studying. but when i’m done with my assignments, i don’t end up doing those fun things, or doing anything at all. i just end up watching youtube, or sleeping, or something. i don’t even clean my room when i have the time. i want that to change the next time i’m free. i want to be able to paint and clean and cook when i’m done with my assignments. 

i also need to go to the hospital for something important that i’ve been ignoring for too long. there’s always so much to do. when do i get a break. when can i process it all. when am i supposed to reflect? like how babies need to sleep every few hours to process what they’ve experienced or they get overwhelmed and start to cry. that’s me. except babies grow up and i don’t.

man i’ve been journaling like crazy. as i always do during assignment season. instead of … doing… my assignments… i miss that satchi and satchi gallery in london. it was raining heavily when i was in there. i had just walked by gallery 5, i think it was the second floor, near the stairs, by the big window, and it was dark out, because of the rain, not the time of day. i was waiting there. i don’t remember what i was waiting for but i miss that moment. i also miss the moment i was walking back from serpentine gallery over a bridge, and the sun was either rising or setting, because it was golden, and i was humming the song in the aeroplane over the sea. and i felt it. what a beautiful face i have found in this place. that is circling all around the sun. what a beautiful dream that could flash on a screen in a blink of an eye and be gone from me. it’s gone from me.

now i live in melbourne. i actually live here. i’m trying my best to take full advantage of that. it’s really pretty here. but i’m alone. and i’m often scared. i’m away from daisu. and i don’t know if i trust anyone else. i’m just. i wonder if it’s raining outside. it was cloudy when i was out this morning. it should be sunnier at this time of the day but it might rain. which is always a good thing.

i think about when there was a flood and i was little. and the electricity was gone for days. and i was the youngest of the kids that lived in our building. and how we used to have charger lights, candles and hurricane lamps. and how the kids gathered together in that room on the second floor, and played games? or shared stories? in the dark. i don’t know what they were doing because they wouldn’t include me. and i was too proud to beg. i’m glad i never begged. for anything. i hope i never have to.

i want it to rain. i want somebody to hold. and to keep me warm when the Tuesdays grow cold. it’s a cold tuesday today. my class is at 2:30. i feel unworthy of anything good. i feel ashamed. it’s been hard to love myself. i forget to be kind to myself. it doesn’t come naturally to me. but it’s not impossible to do. it gets easier the more i practice. maybe i should go to the beach. maybe that’s what was missing. maybe that’ll fix me. the sun sets at 8 these days. i can’t find my earphones. earphones make music so nice.

i want to escape. i want to run away. i can’t. i literally can’t. when can i leave? what am i doing? what is all this for? what am i working towards? all important questions i don’t have answers to. maybe if i find my earphones and blast some music, i’ll feel powerful and energetic again and it will all start to make sense.

[ciaomichaella]

Almost two months after I fell and hit my head, I FINALLY got my CT scan done today woohoo! Wish me luck 🙏🤞 I definitely have PTSD from the last time I was in that building - my first attempt at an MRI when I found out at 5am that I was claustrophobic. They make you check in 20 minutes before your appointment so I sat in the waiting room for 20 minutes just listening to the sound of the MRI machine and it was very unsettling. I got sweaty, my heart rate was elevated, and I had to try my hardest to get my breathing under control and stop my leg from moving too much while waiting. It was really cold in the room and I was glad I made a comment when I first entered so the tech got me a warm blanket. I kept my hands clasped under the blanket and repeatedly rubbed my right hand w/ my left thumb to help soothe myself. It helped. I also kept my eyes shut as tight as possible because even the sensation of just lying on the table and the machine moving to position me for the scan brought back nightmarish memories of my 2 failed MRI attempts. I read up on the CT scan and the actual procedure felt shorter than all the things I’ve seen online even for one that didn’t involve contrast. Thank you Taylor Swift and to 2 certain curlers who were on my mind during the procedure—I was trying to distract myself w/ songs and random things like a certain auction and packages both one that I sent across the world and one I’m expecting from Europe. Nevertheless, the #headache wins again today. I had one during the drive there (likely due to photosensitivity even though I quickly put sunglasses on when I got to my car). Headache hasn’t subsided so I cancelled my spot in the Afta Shock pre-audition workshop tonight. I might finally cave and start It’s Okay To Not Be Okay. #TGIF #friday #weekend #summer #concussion #concussedcurler #concusseddancer #postcomncussionsyndrome #newnormal #postconcussion #lifeafterconcussion #heatwave https://www.instagram.com/p/Cg5g2Mkpf2D/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[survey--s]

316.

Have you stayed up past 3 in the morning this week?: No, I’ve been asleep before midnight but I keep waking up at like 5am and then I can’t get back to sleep for some reason.

What was on the last sandwich you had?: I don’t remember - I’m weird and I’m not really a huge fan of sandwiches.

What does the soap you use smell like?: Honey and vanilla.

Do you prefer to wrap gifts or use gift bags?: Wrapping them as I think it looks nicer, but if something is an awkward shape then I’m guaranteed to get it wrong, lol.

The last person you spoke to, do you know their eye color?: Yeah, blue/grey.

Does anyone you know have their hair bleached?: Probably, but I don’t really pay all that much attention to people’s hair.

When you’re on the phone, do you doodle?: I did when we had a landline, but nowadays I just mess about on the computer.

Is there anyone you know by the name of Frank?: My cousins’ granddad was named Frank. He passed away a couple of years ago from heart issues.

Do you own a trenchcoat?: Nope.

Name the hardiest piece of technology you own?: Probably my phone. It’s survived numerous falls with no issues. So has this laptop actually, though the battery life is really bad now.

Have you ever written with a pen that had pink ink?: Sure, all the time when I was a kid.

Do you remember the last thing you took a picture of?: Layla.

From where you’re sitting, can you turn the lights off?: I can turn two of the sets of fairy lights off, yeah.

When was the last time you accidentally slept in?: That never really happens - either my alarm wakes me or I don’t need to get up for anything, in which case any sleep in is on purpose.

Tell me the last thing you searched on the internet?: The name of an actor from Sweeney Todd.

The last argument you had, who started it?: Mike, though it wasn’t really a proper argument, just him moaning and me not having the patience to deal with it, haha.

Do you wear a ring on your left hand middle finger?: No.

Are you currently in a smoking environment?: Nope.

Can you remember the title of the song you last sang aloud?: I’m half singing along to the Sweeney Todd soundtrack at the moment.

If a stranger smiles at you, do you smile back?: Yeah, of course. Around here, not smiling back and saying hello is considered the absolute height of rudeness, haha.

Tell me the current time?: It’s currently 8.33pm.

Are you currently listening to music through earphones?: No, i’m watching Sweeney Todd.

What color shirt are you wearing? Is it your favorite color?: Black and white - and yeah, one of them.

Do you own a pair of rubber boots?: Yeah, two pairs for work and riding.

Have you ever owned a tire swing?: No. I remember a friend of mine had one in her garden when we were growing up and I was always really envious, hahah.

Does anyone you know own a bird that can talk?: No.

What make-up are you wearing currently, if any?: Nothing. I couldn’t even tell you the last time I wore make-up.

Name one thing you are glad you accomplished today?: I worked, did two loads of laundry, washed the dog, cleaned out my car and got all the housework done so I have a totally free weekend ahead of me.

Name one thing you wished you accomplished today but didn’t?: Sleeping until my alarm went off.

Have you ever been afraid to call someone, even if you knew them well?: Yeah, I HATE talking on the phone. I’ll do it now as I kind of have to with my business but I really don’t enjoy it at all.

Do you ever not speak to someone because you’re afraid you’ll annoy them?: Pretty much, ha. Is there any drama going on in your circle of friends?: I don’t have a circle of friends, all my friends are from various different parts of my life and most of them don’t know each other.

Have you ever known a guy who caused a lot of drama?: Of course.

Is there anyone you know who wears their hair in pigtails regularly?: I used to a lot - I still do in winter when I wear beanies for work, lol.

Personally, do you think you have a nice smile?: No.

Do you have a nervous twitch?: Not as such, but I have lots of nervous habits.

Have you ever taken care of a drunk friend?: Sure, plenty of times.

How about a hungover friend?: I have done a couple of times.

Does the idea of snow-peaked mountains and a large lake sound appealing?: Absolutely. It makes me crave going back to Canada.

Pick any number that has personal significance to you?: Thirteen.

Have you ever lost your luggage at an airport?: Not in an airport, but it’s been lost on flights and stuff before. Luckily it turned up both times.

What’s your opinion on people who go hunting for sport?: It’s grim. I mean, if you’re going to eat what you kill, or sell it and use the profits to live off, knock yourself out, but I can’t get my head around killing another living being just for fun.

Have you ever been on a rollercoaster that actually scared you?: Yeah, but I mean, that’s the point lol.

Do you know anyone who can fluently speak more than two languages?: Sure, loads of people.

The last person who texted you, have you ever fought with them?: Nah. Sam is a client lol - well, the daughter of a client, anyway. She was just texting me to make sure I could take the dogs a couple of extra days over August.

How many windows are open on your computer right now?: Just this one, but there are five tabs open on here.

Do you have a fairly fast or slow internet connection?: It’s pretty fast considering how rural we are.

Have you ever gone in a sauna?: Yeah, I prefer steam rooms though.

Out of these colors, which appeals most to you: orange, blue, or green?:   Blue or green.

Have you celebrated your birthday yet this year?: No, my birthday isn’t until December.

Is there anything you’re saving up for?: Just life, I suppose. Has anyone ever been prejudiced towards you?: Yeah.

Are you taller than most of your friends?: Yes.

Know anyone with a really annoying laugh?: Nobody is coming to mind off the top of my head, no.

Have you ever punched someone and broke their nose?: No. I like how you ask this as if that’s a normal thing to have done, lol.

What is the longest time you have gone without sleep?: 48+ hours.

Have you ever been someplace tropical?: Sure.

If given the opportunity, would you act in a commercial?: No.

You see an ant on the ground, do you squish it?: No.

Have you ever baked a pie?: I have, but I’m generally not very good at baking. I don’t have the patience.

What is your favorite social networking site?: Facebook or Instagram.

Who was the last person to call you?: Jade.

Does anyone in your family tell funny stories?: Sure.

Do you believe in finders keepers in most situations? No.

Is there a war memorial where you live?: Yeah, in the main square.

Has anyone in your family fought in any of the wars?: One of my cousins fought in Iraq but I’ve never met him.

Would you make any changes to your current bedroom?: It needs re-painting so I’d probably pick a new colour scheme for it.

Has a stray dog ever tried to bite you?: Not a stray dog as such, but an off-lead dog out of control.

When riding a bus, do you prefer to sit up front, down back or the middle?: In the front, otherwise I get sick.

Have you ever been on a cross-country train ride?: Yeah, from Austria to Switzerland. It was both long and boring, lol.

Are you normally a person to tell people off?: No. I hate confrontation. Name an object that most would consider odd that’s special to you?: My teddy bear.

What animal have you always wanted as a pet but couldn’t have?: A horse, but the cost is extortionate and honestly I don’t think I have the energy or dedication to care for one everyday.

Do you currently have any bugbites?: Yeah, I got bitten about ten times on my last walk today.

Is where you live on a boulevard, road, street, or avenue?: None of the above.

Is there currently any caffeine in your system?: Probably, but I’m trying to cut down on caffeine before bed.

Look around, are things organized?: Yes.

Is there any TV show that ended that you wish hadn’t?: Nothing is coming to mind right now.

Know what you’re planning to do after this?: I’ll finish watching Sweeney Todd and then probably go to bed and read or something as my back is starting to ache.

[just-a-torn-up-masterpiece]

Morning!! I’ve finished season 1 of stranger things. It was okay not the best first season of a show I’ve seen but still good. Joyce is awesome. Love her.

I’m definitely going to be buying more books, I usually get a few from charity stores and they always have good ones!

I’m glad you are enjoying it so far. 🤞🏻 hopefully it’s stays like that through the book.

It definitely is. Though when it turned about 1am I was able to do a few paragraphs of my series and start another fic too. Words were wording. Yay!! Did I fall asleep about 5am. Maybe ? Did I wake up early too. Yes. I’m exhausted now. I NEED coffee. Lol

I thought so, I was like where is she?? So I looked in up and she replaces someone I forgot who. I have to wait a full season to see her!!! DAMNNNNN.

I don’t have all the names yet. But I definitely know who Spencer is. He seems a little cocky but that’s about it. No feelings towards him yet. I would like to see this rant about spencer! I’m already on episode 5! I don't know her name I've been trying to get it for the last couple of episode, Elle? Idk. But for some reason she reminds me of Dana. I don’t know why though.

Don't say that!!!! If I saw that last night I would've been able to sleep. Creepy Little dolls. 🤮 disgusting. Now I can't stop thinking about it!!!! How dare you!! Ewwww.

Also, I finally have a new fridge! No more sour milk. 😃

How’s everything going ? Any plans for today ? Any new fics that you are doing ?

-🪐

season 3 is my favourite - i think i’d rank them 3, 1, 4, 2

yesss, charity shops are so good for books - i buy a lot of mine online from world of books bc they’re cheap and free shipping and mostly second hand

wooooo, glad you got some writing done, i have been tired all day so haven’t even started trying yet :/, been drawing and watch tv with the dogs lmao

yeah, emily replaces elle but I really think they could’ve been so good together i really like elle

spencer is so fking cocky, he annoys me so so much i can’t even find one likeable trait about him it confuses me. like, the only reason he’s as ‘smart’ as he is is because of his photographic memory that he just happened to be born with - he’s not intelligent he’s literally just been born with a rare thing that means he can remember stuff i-

i could literally go on all day about how much i dislike him - a few reasons i hate him would be spoilers though so i’ll tell you those when you e watched more

i won’t mention porcelain dolls knocking on your door again 🤭

yay to new fridges

hoping to write later on, i’ve got so so many things that i’ve started or ideas i’ve noted down. i just need to actually write them

how about you? how’s your day been??