#I'm probably gonna get my own PayPal

[jsuika]

I had this one idea whereas if I did convert them into stickers and/or keychains to turn into a merchandise immediately. But lmao, I guess this would be a great concept I'm looking forward also in events like cosplay events or anything I'm hyped for.

I was also thinking if I ALSO did make my sona as a marketable plushie for fun! I'm pretty sure he's gon' be short aside from being oversized too much lol.

[neganium]

So like, I'm just guessin that I'm never gonna be able to watch videos again, at least not on Youtube. which like. Cool! Cool, that's cool

[tf2heritageposts]

gonna make a new post for it since the situation has changed but basically

hi i’m cheavy, host of a disabled transmasc system. we just escaped our abusive family with pretty much just the clothes on our back and our rabbit, and now have an apartment. we’re low on funds and we need to head by tomorrow for needed stuff(forks, bowls, blankets, pillows, clothing because we do not have any changes of pants and only three shirts, etc) and to try and get testerone at the planned parenthood nearby, as well as food of course.

we’re gonna try and get a job, but we’re pretty much gonna be living on mutual aid for a month until our girlfriend comes

kofi: https://ko-fi.com/tf2heritageposts

cashapp: $theteufortdozen

venmo: @ theteufortdozen

paypal: https://www.paypal.me/blucheavy3

gofundme: https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-a-trans-disabled-system-escape?utm_source=customer&utm_medium=copy_link&utm_campaign=p_lico+share-sheet-first-launch

please reblog if you can, once june comes around we’ll probably not need donations anymore

[tommydarlings]

Tous les mêmes | t.w

pairing: toto wolff x reader

warnings: none

w/c: 0.9k

summary: You absolutely hated it when men raised their voice at you, what was pretty much your fathers fault… you really though that it would be different with toto but let’s be honest, what did you expect when you started dating a man that could be your father.

song suggestion: tous les mêmes by stromae

my masterlist <3 // my ko-fi to support me! <3 // my PayPal to support me! <3 // my Patreon to become a member! <3

You hated it when people yelled at you. You despised it. Especially when men were the ones that were doing it, thinking they can yell at you wherever and whenever they want because you are such a tiny and almost breakable little women that never opens her mouth.

You especially hated it because it always reminds you of how your father yelled at you back then.

His voice was always loud and deep, sometimes you still hear it ringing in your ears and just hope that it’s gonna go away as quick as it came. He never touched you or harmed you in any physical kind of way but definitely mental.

As soon as you left your father, you thought that it would stop. That you would never need to hear and face a man yelling at you ever again but your love life had different plans.

No man ever hit you or generally raised his hand, but definitely his voice. You were yelled at, cursed at, and other not really enjoyable things in the past from your ex-boyfriends and you thought that it would be different with him but let’s be honest… stromae was right with his song 'tous le memes', they are really all the same.

And also… what did you expect when you started dating a 51 year old man that could actually be your father. Of course it reminds you of him then but you were always a bit to oblivious and dumb when it came to loving someone, especially older man.

You bit your lip while tears blurred your vision as you looked up at your way taller boyfriend, hands grabbing your shirt in a rather tight grip. You were really angry and you couldn’t be angry at someone, especially the man that you love, without being on the edge of crying.

“Y/n! For the last time, I know Sandra for years, okay?! Longer than you!” Toto yelled at you from across the kitchen. You only shook your head, bottom lip already trembling.

Toto obviously noticed that, “Do not cry right now little one, you have no right to cry now.” He quickly told you with a tiny grin on his lips.

He was even smiling.

You gulped, “A-Are you serious Toto? It doesn’t matter!” You usually never raised your voice but you felt like you couldn’t hold it back anymore. “You were talking to her way more than to me!”

Your angry boyfriend sighed loudly, “What should I talk about with my own girlfriend that I’m seeing everyday, y/n!” He shouted at you from across the room.

You felt the first couple of tears sliding down your cheeks, eyes still focused on how his jaw was clenching and how his furious eyes were starring at your trembling figure.

Did you already mention that you hated men yelling at you? Probably.

“I-I don’t know-”

“Look!, you don’t even fucking know yourself y/n!” He said in a really uncomfortably loud tone. Finger angrily pointing at you.

You choked back a sob, bottom lip now trembling even more whilst your fingers were still clenching the bottom of your oversized T-shirt that was actually his bit you kind of wished it wouldn’t be his right now.

You were looking like a child getting yelled at for eating the candy that you weren’t supposed to eat because you’ve already had enough and Toto knew that.

“Like c'mon little one, don’t argue with me about utter bullshit, you know that I hate that.” He argued, voice now a bit quieter but still filled with anger and probably also slight hatred. You nodded, not knowing what else your supposed to do,

“I'm s-sorry.” You sniffled, tears not really stopping as your head hang low.

You raised your hand and wiped some of the tears away as new ones were already making their way down your cheeks again but then you felt two big hands grappling your wrist and pulling your hands off of your face.

You raised your head again and looked up at your still kind of angry looking boyfriend but now with a tiny not so mean grin on his face. The older man lowered your arms and grabbed your cheeks with his big hands, thumbs now wiping your tears away.

He sighed, “It’s okay y/n baby, it’s okay.” Toto muttered quietly while he was rubbing your back. You drew your gaze up to the way taller man infront of you and went on your tippy toes, leaning forward. He chuckled,

“Oh come here.”

He said to you before his hands got a hold of your hips and picked you up, carrying you now and leaning forward to capture your lips in a lovely kiss, thumbs stroking your skin.

You smiled into the kiss before you wrapped your arms around his neck. Toto also smiled, fingers squeezing your flesh. You squealed and briefly broke the kiss before you went in for another one as you felt him making his way up to the stairs.

“I am so sorry that I yelled at you baby, I know you hate that.” He apologised while he opened the door to the bedroom.

You retreated your lips from his and looked at him, “it’s okay-”

“No it’s not little one and you know it.”

You didn’t say anything, instead, you leaned forward and kissed him again, hands now intertwining themselves into the roots of his soft short hair.

“I love you so much.” Toto mumbled quietly before you two went on kissing. “I love you too.” You quickly told him as your kissing got a bit rougher and faster, both of you losing themselves in each other.

[dee-the-red-witch]

hi so. i'm sorry if you feel like this is something you've talked about too much but i'm genuinely having a hard time understanding- what's the issue with femboys? or is it a finnster-specific issue...? idk i can see how it's an issue of like. performing femininity but not really accepting what womanhood really means but what makes it different from drag in that case? or am i going in the wrong direction trying to understand? i have amab as well as afab ppl in my life that identify as femboys and use it as a loosely-nonbinary term but i also know a couple femboys that are. hm. probably eggs leaning on the term that's less "scary" when it comes to confronting gender, is it about that....?

sorry if this is exhausting for you to discuss i'm just confused and trying to understand

Ok, keep in mind, this is a nonny. Which means I need to treat this with the intent that it's bait. Because that's what fucking happens a lot to folks. So I'm picking my words. 1. Show me where I said I have a problem with femboys in general. Because honestly? No problem with the identity. No problem with the concept. Same with drag, same with Crossdressers, same with sissys. They're all just as valid. What I have a problem with is when people specifically use and abuse things like F1nn5ter's (last I checked, still using he/him pronouns, so that's what I'm using here) use of trap content. Content that gets trans women beaten, abused, exiled, ostracized, and killed on a daily basis to make profit, and does it scot free of any societal penalty, partly because of a massive supporting userbase and fame, and partly because he wasn't out about being a trans woman yet. That right there is where my problem is. People can and should explore, play with, perform, exist in femininity however and whenever they want, but the problem is ONE GROUP OF US KEEPS GETTING PUNISHED FOR IT while the others see far less, if ever. So again, no problem with the femboy identity or femboys in general, but oh yeah, big problems with the difference in treatment. 2. I'm also gonna ask this in return- why am *I* your expert on this subject? Because this happens to so many trans women- we're out, we get seen enough to be noticed, and suddenly we're supposed to be the pillars of the community, delivering Julia Serrano level philosophy, flawless looks, opinions, and knowledge? There's lots of other folks to ask this kind of thing about, why go to the terminally weird, 46-year-old, *OUT AND TRANSITIONING FOR LESS THAN THREE YEARS STILL* writer, artist, leatherworker, and tattooist, who's still VERY clearly in the process of dealing with her own self identification and a lot of past and present trauma, and think I'm going to be the one who's going to give you the perfect answer for this? (lbr, again, so many trans women get quizzed like this, then publicly crucified for saying the slightly wrong thing- see that bit about bait again? because oh yeah, this tactic, intentional or otherwise, has been seen a LOT this year.) Because honestly, there isn't a perfect answer. It's yet another messy human subject because all of us are messy to some extent to begin with. It's never going to have perfect sense or logic. I honestly don't think that it should. Perfect answers tend to not encompass being human answers very well at the same time.

And also, I'm not an expert. Nor should I have to be one. Especially when in my usual fields, I get to charge 50-100 bucks an hour for consulting, and here, I'll be lucky if you kick five bucks in my paypal or gfm in exchange for this. That said, nonny, hope you have a good night. Keep in mind this whole #2 section? Is rhetorical. I'm not expecting a dialogue or reply, and I don't really want one, at least not one with a greyface and shades. If you want to talk more? come off anon.

[virtualbeetle]

🎉antonio's double birthday commissions marathon!!🎉

my partners' birthdays next month are like a week apart from each other, so i thought i'd try and break back into productive mode by challenging myself to complete as many commissions as I can over the next 30 days, ideally saving up to get my partners something nice for their birthdays, maybe a nice dinner, etc :)

you can see more examples of my art by scrolling through this blog!

if you're interested in commissioning me, send me a message either here, on discord, or on my main blog @bbeelzemon !

i'll do a thumbnail sketch for your initial approval before requesting payment, and after I complete your comm you'll also get to request one round of minor changes if something isn't quite to your liking

alternately, i also do PWYW commissions - find out what you get for your price! i can try to provide price range examples if necessary, but im gonna be honest, it's probably gonna be arbitrarily different every time just depending on my mood -w-" order PWYW comms at your own discretion!

plain text under the cut:

Antonio's Double Birthday Comm-athon!

Both of my partners are Sagittarius with early December birthdays and I'm currently unemployed, so I'm challenging myself to do as many commissions throughout the month of November that I can!

Help me save up by commissioning me!

$40 - simple sketch (monochrome)

$55 - shaded sketch (monochrome + shading)

$75 - complex sketch (colors + shading + refining)

$130 - tarot card (colors + clean lines + opt-in shading [+$30])

Message me @virtualbeetle on tumblr or discord to claim a slot!

[payment through paypal, payment required after thumbnail approval]

[unolvrs]

EMERGENCY COMMISSIONS: OPEN!

i never planned on opening my commissions any time soon but my dog is unfortunately sick and it's admittedly getting pretty bad, bad enough that she's gonna get confined. the timing is horrible too since i'm starting college in a month so finance is a bit tough. so i'll be accepting as much commissions as possible regardless of length! the same rules apply as always:

any fandoms and original works will be available to be written with the exception of real people or celebrities. original characters and original plots will be accepted as well. for chaptered requests, i’ll be adding additional prices depending on its contents — tips are very much welcomed. it lets me know that you liked the work that i gave you but of course, it’s not required.

writing prices ━━ $15 for every 1k words [ex: 3k words = $45]

scheduling ━━ commissions are usually out within 1-2 months unless stated otherwise due to other priorities & waiting lists for other commissions.

portfolio ━━ here are the commissions written so far excluding the ones requested to be kept private: link.

for this batch of commissions:

commissions will definitely be posted by august to october and there will probably be little to no changes.

when commissions, don’t be shy to be as specific as possible and/or as vague as you want to be — you’re the commissioner, so everything depends on you! i’m open to any fandoms unless stated otherwise.

payments will be through the following: kofi, paypal, gcash (for this option, please message me).

or, if you just want to donate, you can refer to the payment links right above this bullet ^^

contact me through ━━ direct messages  ━━ discord, giratina.ex ━━ email, unolvrs@gmail.com

any help is appreciated! thank you very much!

© unolvrs 2023 ;; all rights are reserved. i do not own the series and/or whatever i am making a fanfiction of. please do not repost my works on any site. thank you in advance for commissioning!

[disease-danger-darkness-silence]

Okay, I can afford food, condiments, and possibly drinks for Raven's birthday party!

Raven grew up a Jehovah's Witness. They've never made a big deal of their birthday. Yesterday they kinda forgot it was their birthday. They've never asked for anything. Even their Amazon Wishlist is more a shopping list for them. (Linking in case anyone wants a looksie about Raven and their interests. They're a weird and diverse gal and I love them for it.)

So when Raven asked for a "Nerf War" for their birthday I was DETERMINED to make it happen. They've been wanting to Nerf fight my niece Madison (aka the Angry Prune, only 11 years old now) for years. This will also be the day my granddaughter makes her Dart Gun Debut, with a full discussion on gun safety.

Info about maybe helping out under the cut.

We don't actually buy Nerf products (unless they're secondhand or on clearance) because they're owned by Hasbro and we are boycotting them, but Adventure Force, Dartzone, X-Shot, and Air Warriors are all actually pretty damn good. Dartzone is known for making competition-level guns for Dart Sports (a real thing!).

So the thing is, plenty of people want to come. Not all of them have dart guns. We have some spares but idk that they're gonna be enough. But Walmart has some decent Adventure Force stuff.

Ideal goal would be to get two of the single pistols, one of the double, and one of the spare darts. So, roughly $21 after tax.

I'm gonna TRY to 3D print some guns. I have STLs for it. I just don't know how successful I'll be, and if I'll be able to get it done before this Saturday. I need hardware for them that I'm unsure I own, even though I'm a hoarder of hardware, and I definitely don't have the springs. 🙃

I'd also like to make some goodie bags, because I'm tired of society saying we shouldn't give adults fun goodie bags. It'd probably be candy, spare darts, 3D printed alternate dart tips, and a few other assorted things. That I can mostly do with dollar store stuff, but I expect I'd need another $10-$15 or so. I'd SUPER like to be able to provide eye protection. But...

They ain't that cheap. So I've asked everyone to bring some for themselves. Hopefully they listen.

So! If anyone wants to help get some fun stuff for Raven's birthday (There is a theme incoming):

Cashapp: $NovasPrime

Paypal: @NovasPrime

ChimeSign: $NovasPrime

Ko-Fi: NovasPrime

If not, it's cool. I super get it! But feel free to send a birthday wish to Raven via my inbox (they don't use tumblr) so I can show them that yes, their birthday IS important, because we get to celebrate them existing. They are so used to being overlooked on their birthday and it's upsetting to me.

(Also, I'm gonna try my hand at drawing my idea of their Hazbin Hotel demonsona. I cannot draw. I will post results here.)

[brainfilehasstoppedworking]

I wanna get keychains of Takaaki and Monomi. But only for myself. None of y'all get anything/j. I'd make some stuff and set up a little shop, but nobody would probably buy my stuff and also Idk how my mom would feel and I dunno how to set up a PayPal.

But maybe one day. One day when I'm in my own spot and my stuff gets better. But I'm still gonna get those keychains.

[cumbunnywitch]

Hey Friendos. I'm gonna impart a little bit of knowledge on everyone about some scams that go around every few months, and that I've seen more than once on Tumblr so far.

Basic Premise: Someone messages you, sends you an ask, or otherwise shows up on your radar with a story. Often it's a believable story, like their cat is in need of surgery or they need to pay rent because they got kicked out or some kind of sob story and they're requesting you boost them or contribute if you can. A lot of the the time these things are scams. Like most of the time.

How to Tell if it's a scam: This can be easy. Look at their profile, look at when they followed you and sent an ask, and how many things they've reblogged, and check if they've made any posts on their own.

Here's some quick ones I see:

Everything they've done is all at the same time or from the same day. For example, every RB is from 8h ago. Maybe if the've done it before there's another day with like 50 posts all in a row. No one sets up their queue like that.

The follow and within a minute you have an ask/dm from them and they've never liked/rb'd from you.

They're using PayPal. PayPal is one of the most widely used money-sending tool for scammers as it's easy to get hold of someone else's account and perform further scams using it without leaving a trail.

Their cry for help is a single pinned post with very few reblogs and no verification.

They don't have any posts of their own, especially text posts.

Scammers don't like to use things like CashApp or GoFundMe because it's a lot easier to track scams, and payouts usually require ID verification. If someone is being legit, they'll probably have multiple avenues of receiving money. I'd use cashapp, set up a GFM, post about it constantly, and have my mutuals RB the shit out of my post by asking them directly for help.

Most of these are set up by bots in droves. They're a little more sophisticated, and are using the lessons learned from all those blank bot accounts you see come up as new followers. They've also been training you; "those random accounts are clearly bots and I'm talking to you like a normal person! I'm totally real and you can trust that because I'm using real words!" That sob story is meant to make you drop your guard. To make you consider that no one would actually try to scam people out of money with such a sad story.

Well there are people that shitty. There are scammers all over that have been manipulating your grandparents out of their retirement savings because they think you need to get bailed out of jail. Before that there were Nigerian Princes trying to give people money if only they could pay for the wire transfer.

Wire forwarding. Fake checks. Western Union scams. All of these things prey on our gullibility. Our sense of honor or curiosity or that someone made us feel special or wants to make us rich! Or our empathy and sympathetic nature, our desire to be helpful and get someone out of a bad situation.

I'm not saying you should think all of these requests are scams. I'm asking you to employ critical thinking, to look for warning signs and make a judgment call.

And if you're ever unsure, hit me up. I am more than happy to take a deep look at these things and give you my best opinion, free of cynicism. I've gotten hit by 4 of these in the last month, so I've got a decent eye on what to see.

[askingexorcists]

So am i gonna have to circle round to anon? Since im blocked on everything else and youre ignoring me on paypal? Thats fucked dude. I wouldnt have had a problem if youd just said to me 'hey man so sorry i actually cant/dont wanna send you stuff' but to block me with no explaination dude?? Cmon! Did you forget youd sold stuff to me? Did you not care?? Did you just want money?? Bullshit.

So I've not been on tumblr for a while now because I've been so stressed out with this... most of you probably know that I sold some blue exorcist merch a little while back...I maybe sent out like 15 parcels round about?

A particular person I sold too claimed they didn't arrive, I had provided proof of shipping, screenshots/tracking number and whatever else. I have no idea if the items actually arrived to this person and she's lying about it, however I don't want to belive that, and I've had issues with royal mail (who I shipper with) in the past so it's possible her package was just lost or something of the sort.

However since it didn't arrive I tried to resolve this with this person, but like I said I had all the proof of postage. I asked if they'd sort if with their bank/PayPal or royal mail. Once it's shipped there isn't really anything I can do about it.

I cannot afford to refund for a package that I have the proof I shipped, especially since I do not know for sure if this person received the money or not. We've both opened a case with PayPal to try resolve this, and since I had the proof of postage there wasn't a lot to go on.

I never wanted to sell any of my merch, it was honestly a very sad sale for me, but I've got my own child now, and life gets very expensive and I just wanted to earn some extra cash for him

Despite this I could NEVER scam anyone or anything of the sort. Every other single person I sent parcels too told me their stuff arrived and were very happy with it. I included little free gifts and notes in every order. I really, honestly tried. I chased up the order with my local post office. I spoke to the post company online. I've spoken to PayPal. I've tried everything for a peaceful ending to this, but ultimately I have to let this person sort this out either their bank or PayPal or something.

It's been really stressing me out and I've been so anxious over the whole thing for a good while now, I've blocked this person and I hope they get their money back/get the parcel or such, and I wish them the best.

I've been in the blue exorcist fandom for almost 9 years now and I've made so many great friends through this app and this fandom, and talked to so many great people. It was such a big part of my life and my childhood. Even though I don't update the blog anymore hardly...I still read the aoex manga monthly, I'm always lurking on posts reading everyone's content, always reading everyone's theory's. I've stayed of my blog a while now as I've been so anxious of all this but now honestly I just want it past me as I know I've tried all I can to resolve this.

Also wanna say thank you to everyone who's bought from me / supported this blog ♡

[sharkface-daydreams]

Hello this a long shot call, am a citizen of Palestine. I am here to request for your support to help get my insulin (Humalog), just an injection for today to save my life please I beg.I was diagnosized with type 1 diabetes and due to current situation in Gaza I'm unable to get my insulin injection as a result I'm here begging for little financial support to help me purchase insulin for this week. Am sorry if am sending you again this request, kindly donate any amount please. My donation link is in my pinned post🇵🇸

yeah it's gonna be a long shot bc this is a scam with copypasta lol

followers please be aware:

please take a look at these screenshots from different blogs at different times. (two posts i searched for and the 3rd is from this blog's pinned) if a fundraiser is actually vetted/verified it will say by who and will usually have been reblogged by that person, or will link to a post where it's verified

actual Palestinians will typically have a custom user url often with their name, but these ones with three random words smashed together are defaults Tumblr offers when you make a blog. i assume someone making probably hundreds of these blogs to post the same scam message doesn't have the time to make up hundreds of actual names.

besides all that, you should familiarize yourself with the text of the post and look for suspicious "tells" in the way it's written. claims to be vetted/verified but doesn't say by who, uses the same copy pasted text about needing insulin, word for word (i found the other posts by searching a whole paragraph in quotes).

also scroll down on the blog-usually these blogs are only a few days old and will have reblogged posts that are in popular tags first and then Palestine-related tags most recently. they usually will not have even reblogged their own "donation" post

finally, the link goes to a paypal instead of a go fund me. now that's not a red flag by itself, I'm not sure what money transfer programs are most easily used in Palestine, but generally real people tend to list what their handle is on the platform (ie, paypal - "Username", cashapp - "$username" etc). again not a red flag by itself but combined with all this other shady shit it looks suspicious as hell

anyway! keep an eye out. if you're overwhelmed by trying to figure out if something is legit, you can always just go to gazafunds.com (<- clickable link) instead, they'll have a verified campaign highlighted that needs more attention and donations 👍

[bearpillowmonster]

Today's got me all twisted up. So about a week ago, I learned that someone stole my Best Buy account and was buying and picking stuff up at Best Buys around Northern US. I had to shut it down and get a new credit card and dispute the transactions. Luckily, it didn't reach my bank, it was a credit card that I had on there but I go on Paypal today (which should be entirely unconnected) and see that there's a new billing address. I look it up and it's this dinky little house in Alabama. How would that get there? So now I have to figure out if someone got into that too.

Over the weekend, my sister went to a mall with my grandma and I've made previous posts about her but this is on a little bit of a different level. She's reflecting her husband's personality and adopting his habits, she's nothing like the way I remember her. This is coming from my sister who makes stuff up but the stuff she says seems to make sense in this context.

I'm gonna pop a spoiler here because I want it known that I don't want chastised for this, critique it all you want but please respect my opinion.

When I was a kid, my family made their best effort not to cuss, my grandpa, grandma, mom, even uncle, nobody did no such thing around me as far as I remember. I think my stepdad was the one that made me aware of a lot of them when I got past double digits. Cuss words exist, I get it, they probably said things that I've never heard, I'm sure everyone has and I see different family dynamics where they use cuss words and that's their family but for my little old grandma to suddenly come out and start cussing after years of my mom not even hearing it when she was a kid? Let alone in front of my siblings? It's not like her, it's not what she's doing, it's that she only does this because that's what her husband does.

The big kicker is that (I don't even know what brought it up) but she doesn't consider herself religious now?? You gave up religion for your alcoholic husband? She responded with "I have to believe it to see it."

She's someone that took me to her church before, she's well known there. She used to go on Wednesdays and Saturdays (catholic I guess) and participated in those dinners they held and would donate to them. And suddenly someone comes along and says they don't believe in that and you drop everything? I actually don't know what he believes because he's a drunk but I can't imagine it's much more than her from what I've seen.

Then the little remarks "Me and your mom are going to listen to each other from now on." And do what? When? And my sister actually pointed this out to her "That lasted real long." It's almost like she's trying to win the favor of these kids but also not really trying. "I'm not going to go to the beach for a whole year." way to to applaud a fish for swimming but what's the end game? You didn't clarify a reason so it doesn't count and you know that's not going to happen so why promise it? It's not like she'd use that time with us anyways. And she asks everyone "Are you coming over for Thanksgiving?" That was never a question before, it was a given, the only question was "what time?" but this time, she asked everyone individually, it's like she knows that something's different and honestly I'm not sure if she cares one way or the other.

But one thing hasn't changed, she loves to complain, loves to gossip, even does so to my sister about a bartender she's apparently friends with enough to babysit her dogs. But the problem with this is that, that's all she does. There's no break in between, there's no nice thing said to break pace or crack a joke like my own household does but she literally lives for its toxicity. So why is she still with these people? My sister actually asked this and her response was "Because he needs me."

Like what favor are you doing babysitting alcoholics, you're not helping them get better, you're just along for the ride, the drama, I know, I've been there, I dated someone who did similar things, my own sister does it, it must just be a girl thing, I don't know. "I'll leave if he drinks again." like I've heard for the past 4 years where he inevitably does drink again either in secret or a week later when he's in the hospital and can't move and nothing is done about it. If he was trying, I'd understand, addiction is horrible, but he's not.

But this is a lot to blame on one person because I think it's actually more than that now that I've had a day to process. I saw my uncle at the gas station, truck mirror still busted up from years ago (it's not an old truck either) facial hair all over his face (he'd never grow it out) hasn't been heard from in a while (not that I really blame him) and he walks out with a case of beer. He's probably a heavy alcoholic now too, it just looks like he's been letting himself go just like everyone else around me.

And really, I imagine it's because he's alone. He talks about this mysterious "Sean" that I've never even seen, every time I see him, he mentions his kids birthday parties, camping trips, fishing, everything you could think of. I went on "Sean"'s Facebook page, curious one day and there's not one picture of them together.

You see after my grandpa died, I remember my mom asking about her stopping going to church because it seemed out of the blue and she said that "he was more catholic than I was" or something along those lines and those spaghetti dinners and donations and participation and friends, stopped, she stopped them over time, little by little. Now, I'm not going to be hypocritical here, I don't really do those things, not necessarily because I don't want to but because I haven't found my place in world yet and she seemed to have it right on her lap.

My uncle also participated in this, he was right along side my grandparents but once she was out, so was he, he too lost his place because then everyone associates him with his mother despite going to church longer than she was, he might even still be going, like I said, I barely see him, he's an uncle but it didn't always used to be that way.

To hear that my grandma said that just really sets it in because I don't know what to do. She put herself in this situation and she acts like she enjoys hating it. I don't want to give up on her but I keep asking that she be shown the light here, for her own sake. I believe that my grandpa is in heaven, doesn't she want to see him again? Or is she ashamed of what she's become and is avoiding him. What if I die and make it to heaven but find out she's not there. It's just a surreal feeling that I certainly don't want because no matter what problems we have here in mortality, they won't transcend into death.

And the other thing that bugs me is that everyone acts the same. Like it's just another thing. How is my mom, who showed me what religion is, not worried? How is my dad- well actually, I'm not sure he could do anything either, his lectures aren't always effective but I don't know if she thinks God somehow failed her because my grandpa wasn't cured of his disease but he sure lived longer than the doctors said he would and that's all I could've asked for. Time is time, I came to terms with that, I came to terms with the idea that he's no longer hurting, that's my reasoning, I've told her my reasoning and while it's one thing to lose a grandpa and another to lose a life long companion, she acts like she moves on so quickly but she doesn't let herself breathe which I've also told her. It just makes me re-evaluate the idea of family, how do you deal with people that you don't know anymore. (coming from someone who believes in change)

[lunarflare64]

I might have to try some commissions at some point, this year has declared war on my savings and while I do have enough to get through the latest potential hit, its still a massive fucking hit. First there was the $600 MRI that announced my arthritis, then there was the $700 washing machine because my old washing machine broke, then there was the $600 glasses because unfortunately I need bifocals and my head shape is apparently too much for cheaper frames, and now its the $100 vet appointment and the looming figure of $1500 if my youngest cat Cloud starts showing signs of a blockage and requires surgery

I'm probably gonna need someone to help me figure out the process of commissions, I'm not familiar enough with PayPal to get through that kind of thing on my own

[funneylizzie]

Hi there! First of all, I love your art -- all your rottmnt stuff is so lively and fun and a joy to behold. Secondly, I know you do commissions, and I was actually wondering if I could ask for a bit of advice? I'm looking to start doing my own commissions, but the process of starting is pretty daunting. I'm a competent artist, but I'd hardly call myself popular, and I have no idea how to advertise that kind of thing. Or how best to organize payments, or deadlines, etc. I don't expect you to have the perfect solutions/answers to these questions, but any tips for a beginner would be greatly appreciated! And, again, thanks for sharing all your lovely art <3

Hi there! So sorry I am soooooooo late to responding to this, but I’d love to help! (Even if I’m not the best at it lol) so I’ll go down the list!

1. I’m gonna jump right out there and say I actually was influenced into doing my first commission by someone who rlly liked my art back in 2017! They told me how to set up PayPal n all that stuff, wish I still had that drawing I made for them, it’s rlly neat thinking of how far I’ve come since then!

2. Getting yourself out there is definitely something you need to do, I’ve learned the best way to do that is have a semi-consistent posting schedule, use LOTS OF TAGS, interact with anybody you can, and get your name out there! Social media IS a lot more work than you’d expect, but have fun with it!! I wouldn’t want that to discourage you. As soon as you get a routine it gets real easy

3. For payments, I recommend sticking to one money transferring app. I use PayPal business’s invoicing system, and I’ve found it’s great! Only issue is it keeps your money until you’ve had ~15 transactions, just to show your business is legit. Something like that. You can use regular PayPal too, but I’ve found this one is easier to use for both me and customers, and you’re less likely to get scammed! (Also my tax lady loves PP it makes everything easy for her)

4. As for deadlines, I usually don’t have any, but that’s just how my system works! As soon as my customers send through payment, I let them know that I’ll tell them when I get started. Give yourself plenty of time though! Your customers won’t mind as long as you keep them updated on how you’re feeling and when you think you’re going to begin work.

They love to see updates on rough pieces, lineart/inking, and color!! Makes the wait time seem shorter, it’s content for them, and they can voice anything they need to when you’re working on their piece!

5. I really really really do strongly recommend accepting payment first, whether it be paid in full or half first then half later. Make sure you’re getting at least something for your time! (And it’s a great motivator)

6. That’s really all I have! It’s definitely a learning process, I perfected the commission system probably just at the beginning of last year, and I’ve been doing this for 5 years! You’ve got this though! I believe in you (:

[obaewankenope]

I need some help

My dog has just been attacked.

He's gonna go the vet for treatment because the dogs that attacked him had no collars and I have no idea who owns them—and because that's what you should do when your pet is attacked. Not only did he get nipped a few times, he also injured himself trying to get away from them.

Troy might be a lurcher but he's a sweetheart. These two dogs were Terriers and anything but sweet.

[image blow has blood in it, not a lot but its there. Injury is from Troy trying to escape being hurt and also a bite]

I'm able to do art commissions, fic commissions, whatever because I need to make sure I can cover the vet fees. We'll need to give him extra shots because of this and probably end up with him stuck with a cone until his chest heals up from the scrape and bite the little feckin terrors have given him.

Below are my PayPal and kofi and my askbox for requests etc. If you don't want a commission but want to help, that'd be very very appreciated.

[paypal] [kofi] [askbox]