#ITS LIKE TOMORROW OR SMTH AAAA

[evanescentdawn]

(8th sept)

today’s writing:

—THIS DAY DESERVES THIS GIF BECAUSE OH MY GOD FINALLY I WORKED ON THAT SOOHEE PIN ME DOWN WIP THAT I HAVE!!!! BEEN THINKING!!! EVERY GOD-DAMN TIME!!! AND WAS SO CLOSE TO FINISH!!!! AND FINALLY, FINALLY I WAS LIKE FUCK LIEK LETS ACTUALLY WORK ON IT AND I DID!!! I DID!!!! AND I FINISHED absolutely crazy but so so so happy AAA YES YES YES YES it came out to be 2K, which wow. This is certainly more than I expected to write smut which. DID I SAY THIS IS MY FIRST SMUT FINALLY COMPLETE? YESSSSSS and it has my lovely jhw too, aaaaa really happy with it

—whoo hoo! I’m writing that sequel after all with sangsoohee. so excited ~

—dedicated this day to finishing tg anniversary fic since ITS TG DAY. I was gonna just go for touken....but since the big ol’ anniversary I wanted smth different. perhaps is ambitious of me, but I really wanted to do it! was pumped up!!! I did start it!! but aaaa I didn’t get to finish it after all. it was a mix of I don’t remember how canon went, how do you write these characters again, and....I fell asleep. dhfjkf im still determined to get this done, though....so hopefully tomorrow? [pleading emoji]

[kerm-the-fro]

oopsies its vent time

mainly abt insomnia and a little bit of dysphoria, feel free to scroll past tbh

i think my family heavily underestimates how bad my insomnia is, like they think i get to bed at what? 12? midnight?? idk, but i have trouble getting to sleep before 5-6am, im surprised it doesnt show how sleep deprived i am tbh

but like i think also some of my friends dont see it as bad as it is sometimes, like if im up at 5am and one of my friends is pulling an all nighter its like “oh you staying up too? lol me too im not sleeping tonight” and im like “aahaha yeah yeah, all nighter am i right hahaaaa” 

i dont look at myself much, and when i do i dont look at my faces, but i stg there has to be mega bags under them

god i just want some concealer or smth, like some eyeshadow and concealer to cover up the darkness under my eyes(and possibly for cosplay idk)

my sister and i are texting rn cause shes upset and needed someone to just kinda talk to and shes like “put down the phone”, i tell her thats not whats causing it and its just really bad insomnia and shes like “your bodys used to whatever sleep schedule youve had” but like aaaa ive never had a sleep schedule???? ive never once had one i dont think and idk why it just gets this bad but it does

my ‘sleep schedule’ is like falling asleep at somewhere between 6am-8am and sleeping until noon-1pm, whats that?? likeee a max of 7 hours of sleep??? maybe???? idk im terrible with math, but honestly it doesnt matter how many hours i get in cause like if i get a lot im bound to get so little the next night, and if i get a little sadly it doesnt make me get a lot the next night i just get a little bit more

my brother recently said smth that really kinda stuck out to me today and it was on the topic of insomnia and depression(which I brought up but nobody questioned), it was him saying that hes decided societys day-night cycle is dumb and if he wants to have breakfast at midnight and clean at 1am as his girlfriend is going to sleep then hes gonna do it, i said “i wish i could do that” and guess who was instantly berated by their mom!!!! surprise. its me. 

also fuck. my dysphoria is getting worse with each on-off cycle, sometimes ill be completely okay with my body but my next on cycle ill want to actually cut my fucking chest off with a pocket knife, i asked my brother for a binder a little while ago and idk if he ordered one so i might just cave in and ask my mom

aLso also fuck just realized i have piano tomorrow(technically today) and i havent practiced my new song i was supposed to pratice this week and ill have to sightread and learn at least the whole first page maybe an hour before lessons

god now i wanna play der flohwalzer, its such a nice song and idk if its easy to learn but ik how it goes and i sightread a little and ik it goes (running)e d (walk) a b+g b+g (running)e d (walk) a b+g b+g (running)e d (walk) a b+g f b+g d c+f c+f 

that last part probably makes no sense to anyone but in my head it does

[lumingi]

yeah, there def feels like there's smth deeper to it. the order is interesting too, cause now we have no idea who's next either. idk why but I feel like its aron for some reason?? or minhyun, I'm getting the feeling somehow that jonghyun is gonna be last but we really have no clue and aaaa tomorrow can't come fast enough I need to know where this is going (also thank you 💕💕)

i have no idea about whos next............ i saw your post about jr and minhyun being the last ones and i think i agree... honestly that live of jr baking a pie was so random AJDNAKXNK he is also the leader, they might use this as well

I HAVE SO MANY QUESTIONS

[queenangst]

hELLO ANNIE SORRY ABT THE LOW AMOUNT OF PUNS LATELY D: im doing the ssat (i think its like the psat but kinda different? its like an entrance exam for private schools in Canada or smth but its an american test so idk) in a week and im kinda stressing? i was rlly tired these past days and hit my head on a bunch of stuff so. also in science we're doing space and my social teacher randomly walked in and said "they should change uranus to urectum" and everyone groaned. have a pawesome caturday!

*squints* we have, like, the psat and the sat um, 

ceci my buddy my guy my punon do not stress u will do well u will do great don’t worry about it i believe in u space friend. just like, roll with it, u’ll take it and after that is that :)

i say, as the chillest has no chill person to exist

hope ur head is ok haha honestly i saw urectum and i thought about homo erectus and thats how u know world history has taken over my life,, i have an essay due on monday, it’s fine really

aaaa i do actually. have a little competition (it’s not little it’s. well. quite the opposite) but like, whatever, this is like, my third year,, i still get nervous when i go in to the juror interview. tomorrow’s gonna be good tho. i’ll get lunch and boba afterwards. ill see some damn fine art and cry because i’ll never, like, actually be that good. boba. friends. boba. 

sorry this was a mess im a little sleep deprived

next week ull see even more sleep deprived annie

[sunnysidewrites]

(sorry for sending you like a billion messages) aaaa it's bad and idk how to show you ;; That's awesome, I'm glad you got to attend!! o///o I'm like always on your blog haha when I get my license/become independent, I would love to 💕 ofc!! You inspire me, I'm always glad to know more about you, and I'm so proud of you 💓 lol I'm glad you like them, I just want to let you know how much I appreciate you!! Aaaa yes I'm so excited!! I even have an alert on my phone, and smth else for you

dont apologize hun i get so giddy and warm inside whenever i see messages in my inbox bc i never get messages hahaha im sure it’s amazing and worth seeing!! you can maybe leave a separate ask and link me to it somehow?? and you can specify for me to not post the ask!! aaa that’s so sweet im glad someone checks up on my blog!! :)) i hope that will be in the near future!! its honestly tough maintaining this blog but i try my best!! omg you’RE SO SWEET IM VERY PROUD OF YOU TOO!!! aaa I can’t wait to see what it is!!! I also have the post of it queued so hopefully people will be reminded that it’s tomorrow!! aw you’re just so cute i love you!! 😊😊💓💓💗