#Idk what to share here without it being annoying but yeah he's the sweetest

[brighteststar707]

Boyfriend!!!!!!!!!!!!

[t-lostinworlds]

..... 11 and 82? With shawn? Fluff with a little steam? Ily bby

A/N: well, this took a lil while but it reached 1k words tho aha and there’s not really fluff but there’s a whole lotta steam alska hope you like it hun! and ily too 🥺❤️

P.S. this is the last Shawn blurb and idk when I’ll write him again aha but yeah, just a heads up.

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"You can share my jacket with me, since you're shivering."

"Bite me."

~~~

"You're really getting into my nerves you know that?" you huffed, arms tightly wrapped around your now, soaked self.

"Well, I'm your only ride home so you'll have to deal with it," Shawn retorted with a roll of his eyes, holding the umbrella over the two of you, but more on your shuddering figure to not let you get anymore wet from the rain.

You've just been stood up from a date, again. And when you were waiting for a cab in an otherwise deserted street, the universe clearly doesn't like you when the sky rumbled and then pissed on you not long after. To make matters worse, the moment you looked up to curse at the rain – as if karma was quick to work – a car pulled up in front of you, then appeared the last man you ever wanted to see. That's when you knew that the universe does in fact hate your very being to the core.

He told you to stay where you are as he rolled down his window, drove into this empty back lot — due to the pouring rain — before coming out with an umbrella in hand. And when you two were walking back towards the car, he just decided to ask so many questions that's now worsen your mood.

Shawn opened the car door for you, only earning a small thank you as you slipped inside, one you uttered under your breath, didn't spare him even a second of a glance.

You just can't stand that smug face of his, walking around in those Chelsea boots all tall and buff like he owns the place. Not to mention the way he always acts so sweet, a mere façade because no one is ever always that nice, and don't even start with those eyes. Those beautiful brown eyes and that charming smile to match, a whole package with his handsome face it's just—

"You can share my jacket with me, since you're shivering."

You only scoffed with a roll of your eyes, turning your head away to look outside the window, distracting yourself with the droplets of rain running down it so you don't have to acknowledge the man in the car with you.

Shawn has no idea why you don't like him.

He's always been nice to you, despite when you're giving him attitude. All he knew was that this all started when Brian introduced you two. Well, he may have been a bit of a dick when that happened, but to Shawn's defense, he wasn't in his best mood. Plus, he apologized soon after, but still, that first impression seemed to last on you.

It was quite of a bummer on his part because the curly-headed boy was smitten with you. He sees pass the bitchy-attitude. Because to other people, you were the sweetest and kindest person, he's seen it firsthand. Now, it was just a matter of Shawn getting over this wall you solely built between you two.

While he does find it cute sometimes, one's patience can only last for so long.

"Quit being a brat Y/N."

Your head snapped back at him in surprise since that's the first time he's actually sounded angry. He's been annoyed of course, but never mad whenever you give him a hard time.

The low growl in his voice made you feel tingles in your belly, a small lump now forming in your throat at how undeniably hot that sounded. It only magnified even more once you met his eyes, intensely boring right into yours with a gloss coating over them. His jacket was now off, the hoodie he wore a bit tight on him, making you see more of his toned arms and bit of his torso, but oh do you want to see more.

But you only sat straighter, seeming unfazed, glare matching his as you crossed your arms over your chest. "Bite me." you hissed.

Shawn's jaw visibly clenched at that, nostrils flaring since you are making him very frustrated in more ways than one.

His mind was traveling through places as he slowly took you in, thin blouse now wet and clinging tightly against your body. The short skirt you wore hiking up, exposing even more skin when you decided to cross your legs, and with your lace bra very visible that it left so little to the imagination, Shawn lets out shaky breath.

"Would you rather want me to warm you up in a different way?" he said, tone very suggestive as he cocked an eyebrow at your direction.

You felt your heartbeat quickened at that, but you tried to stay unaffected, voice steady as you tilted your head at him to the side. "What do you suggest then?"

Shawn turned the car off swiftly, parking lot turning dim. The only sources of light were the moon up above and the lamp post in the far corner. The sound of the rain hitting the roof was more prominent than before. Then, Shawn reached down the corner of his seat, pulling the lever and pushing it backwards to give more space, making it easier now to climb over with ease.

You bit your bottom lip at that. You're not naive, you know where this was going, and you couldn't stop the heat and excitement course through the whole of your body at the thought. And when his brown orbs met yours, they were already a few shades darker than seconds ago.

"Come here and let's find out."

Maybe it was the way he sai—commanded it, or maybe it was the pent up frustration you've had on him for the past months, because Shawn annoys you yes, but you're not going to deny that you've thought about many other ways on letting out your frustrations on him.

And without any hesitation, you climb over the console and onto his lap, straddling him as comfortably as you could, a low groan coming out of him when you crashed your lips against his.

Kiss rushed, hot, needy, Shawn's hands gripped your waist under your damp shirt, pads of his fingers feeling your skin leisurely as he pulls you closer to his body. You gave his bottom lip a light nip, a soft moan coming out of him as he parted his lips to let your tongues meet.

Shawn hands made their way down until it rested atop your bum, giving it a firm squeeze that made you lurch forward, both your breaths hitching at the sudden friction below.

Your hands found its way to tugged at his hoodie, Shawn pulling away from you so he can take it off himself, including his shirt with it so now he was left in nothing but his grey sweats. Eyes locking, his fingers played with your own shirt, and when you gave him a quick nod, he removed the sticky fabric off your body swiftly, discarding it in the backseat.

"Fuck."

His eyes only took you in briefly as his lips were quick to connect on your now exposed skin, sucking at your neck, trailing up your jaw and leaving marks as he did so.

Shawn captured your lips again not long after, one hand on the nape of your neck while the other took home on the small of your back, running it up and down your spine that's made goosebumps erupt on its wake.

"Guess you don't hate me now don't you," he chuckled lowly against your lips, a guttural growl following suit when you bounced on him just once, clothed heat pressing on his bulge hard and quick.

"Don't test me Mendes," you challenged, pulling away slightly to shoot him a teasing glare. Shawn bit his bottom lip as he looked up at you hungrily, both his hands going to grip your hips firmly before he started pushing it to move, back and forth, encouraging you to grind on him.

And that's exactly what you did, a deep hiss coming out of the both of you at the blissful feeling. Shawn groaned deeply when you moved a little faster, throwing his head back and exposing his neck fully. You took this opportunity to litter it with not-so-gentle kisses, marking up his body as he did with yours.

Shawn gasped when you sucked on his sweet spot, his grip on you tightening as you continued to swirl your hips on him, all teasing, taunting, his length now straining in his sweats.

As you lifted your head back up to meet his eyes, you saw nothing but a smug, cocky smirk plastered on his swollen pink lips, and with his voice deep, he said,

"Looks like your nerves aren't the only thing I'm getting into tonight."

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prompt requests are closed. until next time <3

Overall/Everything Taglist: @theunwantedomega @vinylmendes @fallinfortom

Shawn M. Taglist: @2018shawn @vlogsquadfan101 @turtoix @badreputationlove @sunkisseddreamer @enchantingbrowneyedgirl

[cole-grey-writes]

Kiss Me Better

Universe: Marvel Cinematic Universe

Timeline: Post-Captain America: The Winter Soldier

Character(s): Sam Wilson

Pairing(s): Sam Wilson x Male Reader

Warning(s): swearing, completely inaccurate medical procedures because im not a doctor and 16 y/o

Summary: You were injured on a mission and in order to stave off infection, you have to get a shot...

OLD A/n from over a month ago: I got shots at the doctors probably a week ago (and I'm just now finishing this because frickin executive dysfunction kicked my ass). I don't have a bf/gf in real life to kiss me better, but I can always pretend with fanfiction. Enjoy

NEW A/n from right now: shit it’s been a long time huh? yeah, this was supposed to be uploaded over a month ago but for some reason I just... didn’t put it up. Idk, I think I was going through some shit so I wasn’t interested in anything at all and I was super unmotivated. Anyway, I finally got it up. Hope you all enjoy :)

“Sam!” you say his name with joy. The pain coursing through out your body isn’t enough to keep you from throwing your arms around your boyfriend as soon as he’s close enough to where you sit on the plain white bed in the SHIELD medbay.

You wrap your arms around him and squeeze as hard as you can without causing pain to shoot up your arms from your injuries. Sam returns the favor and hugs you close to his chest. You can’t help but wince when he unknowingly presses into a large bruise stretching across your stomach, but you don’t want the hug to end so you try to hide it. Sam obviously sees right through you and let’s go, although he doesn’t stop touching you. Sam’s hands rest on your arms gently, trying not to press on the bruises and cuts that are covered in bandages.

“Don’t ‘Sam’ me. You are an absolute moron,” Sam tells you, pointing a finger. Your mouth falls open in offense and try to say something but he interrupts you. “Did you think jumping in the line of fire was really your only option?”

“...Well, it seemed like the only option at the time.”

“Jesus,” Sam swears. “You are just as bad as Steve.”

“I am not nearly–”

“Don’t you dare try to deny it,” he tells you. He reaches up with his hand and shuts your mouth for you. “You know it's true,” Sam says it without judgement, like he knows how much people’s lives mean to you.

“Agent L/n,” SHIELD Doctor Vivienne Becker is suddenly standing next to you. She addresses you with a comfort as if talking with an old friend. Or maybe with exasperation of talking to an annoying younger sibling.

“Vivienne,” you greet back with a much lighter tone than her. “It’s nice to see you again.”

“I wish I could say the same,” Dr. Becker says, “but you're covered in contusions, lacerations, and just had two bullets removed from your femur and scapula.”

You tense when you feel Sam shift next to you, feeling his gaze on the side of your face. You aren’t even looking at him and you just know that his eyebrows are raised in scorn. “Oh, so you were shot, too?”

“Uh.”

“Fortunately, there was no damage done to any vital organs or major arteries.”

“Well, at least that,” Sam mumbles.

“However,” Dr. Becker interrupts pointedly, “there was foreign residues found on the bullets that were designed to attract special bacteria.”

You sigh. “And now it’s in my blood.”

“Correct and we’ve figured out how to neutralize the effects, but…”

“‘But’?” you wonder, whining. “‘But’? No, why ‘but’, Vivienne?”

“But,” Dr. Becker continues, “the treatment is in the form of a syringe.”

You suddenly sit up straight. “A shot?!” you scream, eyes going wide.

“A shot?” Sam wonders completely cluelessly. “What’s wrong with a shot?”

“It is one shot and it will be injected into your right shoulder,” Dr. Becker informs you before walking away to let you wallow in self pity.

You groan and throw your head back because fucking goddamn it, this would be your luck. A shot right when you get back off the field.

“What’s wrong with a shot?” Sam wonders again. You sigh heavily and took at Sam with your eyebrows raised. He looks at you blankly for a few seconds before he breaks out into a smile. Sam aws at you, causing you to purse your lips. “Are you afraid of shots, baby?”

You click your tongue and say, “Sam,” while growing more annoyed with his sugar sweet smile.

You ignore him (whether it’s because you love him or because you have no idea how to respond to his question, you don’t know), deciding instead to work out some stress by looking at anything other than the needles that seemed to be everywhere you look now.

Sam actually has to reach over and stop you from wringing your hands dry. “Come one now, baby,” he untangles your hands and intertwines one of yours with his. You aren’t able to help just melting under his smooth and caring voice. “It’s just one shot, it won’t be that bad.”

You hum doubtfully, squinting your eyes at him but squeeze his hand harder. “I hate shots,” Sam nods understandingly. “Shots suck. Shots can go fuck–”

You don’t get a chance to finish your rant because Dr. Becker walks back over to you and wonders, “Are you ready?”

Taking a deep breath and releasing it, you squeeze Sam’s hand to reassure yourself. “I suppose,” Dr. Becker doesn’t say anything, turning to grab the syringe. You bite your lip to steal yourself.

“Hey,” Sam says softly. You look at him and he shows you your interlocked hands. “Here, you can squeeze my hand to help you through it.”

“You sure?” You crack a smile, feigning hesitation. “I might break your hand.”

Sam hums dismissively. “I’m sure I can bear it.”

Dr. Becker turns back to you with a syringe in her hand. You tense at the sight of it but Sam moves closer, the warmth of Sam’s body on your leg enough for you to let go of your lip.

Dr. Becker pinches your arm and starts to inject you. Your face contorts and you wince in pain. While you’ve been punched, kicked, stabbed, and shot many times, it doesn’t make this any easier. You have to squeeze Sam’s hand as hard as your weakened state allows you. And it may be a bit of an ego boost but Sam winces from your grip.

In reality, it only takes about ten seconds but to you, it feels like a lifetime before Dr. Becker pulls the needle out. “Alright, all done,” she tells you, putting a bandaid where the dot of blood is. “The medicine should take effect immediately, so you need to rest up as much as possible. You can get your crutches from Nurse van Wieren when you’re ready,” she tells you and then leaves.

You look up at Sam to see him with a small smile on his face, looking back at you. “What?”

“Now, was that so bad?” he asks you.

“Yes,” you conclude firmly. You watch Sam try to hold back his smile, but failing miserably. You click your tongue at him, half heartedly hitting him in the chest. “I’m serious. Feels like a rod going through my arm.”

Sam chuckles but says, “Sorry, it’s just…” Sam shrugs. “I didn’t know that about you.”

He says it warmly. It reminds you of the first time you two had met almost a year ago when Sam had tested your name on his tongue right in the middle of HYDRA 2.0. You and Sam exchanged phone numbers right after the whole mess had been cleaned up.

“You know now,” you tell him. “So what?”

Sam shakes his head. “So nothing. I like learning new things about you, even almost a year into our relationship,” and isn’t that the sweetest goddamn thing? You are the luckiest guy in the world. Sam’s tone goes comically serious. “No, seriously… you want me to kiss it better?”

“Shut up,” You blush. “And help me down,” Sam smiles, holding out his arms for you to grab. You put a hand on his shoulder, balancing yourself. Wincing as you shimmy your way off the bed, you favor the leg that didn’t have a bullet in it.

“You okay?”

“I’m fine,” you tell him, “thank you.”

“It’s no problem, baby,” Sam coos while gripping onto you. “And be prepared because I’ve got a special dinner waiting for you when we get home.”

You snort and scrunch your nose. “Dinner? It’s 10 o’clock.”

“Then, it’s a midnight snack,” Sam tells you sassily.

“It’s not midnight, either.”

“Humor me.”

You sigh. “Fine, it’s a late dinner snack.”

“Alright, then,” Sam concedes. “Let’s go.”

Nurse van Wieren hands you your crutches as you and Sam leave the medbay. You smile and thank him before he walks away.

Sam’s words finally hit you as you get into the hallway. “Wait, waiting for me? How did you know I was coming home today?” you question, grabbing your boyfriend’s attention. You watch as Sam’s face begins to flush. You squeal. “Oh my god! Did you make SHIELD tell you where I was?”

Sam doesn’t respond for a few seconds before, “...Maybe.”

“Aw,” you coo, causing Sam to scoff.

“Yeah, don’t let it go to your ego, L/n.”

“No, but you have to tell me,” you tell him, stepping into the elevator before Sam does. You stand side by side, staring at each other with matching grins on your faces. “Is this special treatment reserved for me alone… or do you keep tabs on Steve and Nat, too?” as you expected, Sam doesn’t answer and you can’t hide your laugh. “That’s sweet,” you praise. “I might just have to tell Steve and Nat about it.”

“Don’t you dare!” Sam warns, though the smile on his face doesn’t disappear.

“I won’t, I won’t,” you agree without a second thought. “I know Steve would be indignant for about a week and who knows what the hell Nat would do to you,” you and Sam share a laugh, Sam’s gaze falling to the floor while you continue to stare at him because god, you love that deep, breathy laugh he does. You feel like you’re a goddamn king everytime you manage to get even a single giggle out of your boyfriend.

“Hey,” you say, grabbing Sam’s attention. He turns to you, looking extra adorable with his hands in his pockets and that tooth rotting smile on his face. “I think I might take you up on that offer to kiss me better.”

This causes Sam to hum smugly, his grin growing bigger and even more sugary. “Really?” Sam says slowly while he places his hands on your arms, rubbing up and down tenderly. He’s obviously being careful of your wounds. Noticing this single detail about Sam and how he is around you, you’re struck with how much you love this man standing in front of you.

Sam places a chaste kiss right over your bandaid before he rests his chin on your shoulder. “I love you,” he whispers against your skin. You feel your heart grow warm at his words.

“I love you, too,” you breath. “Now, let’s go home so you can kiss me better. And before dinner gets cold.”

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[isthatbloodonhisshirt]

New Year’s Wrap Up!

Thank you @corancoranthemagicalman​ for tagging me in this! I honestly don’t ever think about these things ahaha |D So this is kinda cool tbh. Thank you :3 

Does my current WIP technically count in this case? I’ll pretend it does, I mean, I WROTE it in 2019, just didn’t post it until December 30th |D lol So technically, it counts, it’s only a WIP on Ao3, not on my computer :P 

Fics that you wrote in 2019

Up Down Lock Unlock (Sterek, 42k, G)

Through the Window (Sterek, 6.8k, G)

Business Skype (Sterek, 6k, G)

It Was a Wednesday (Sterek, 80k, M)

Be Still My Heart (You’re Beating Too Loud and my Neighbour’s a Bitch) (Sterek, 34k, T+)

What Fresh Twilight Bullshit is This? (Sterek, 196k, E)

Everyone Needs a Little Mischief in their Life (Sterek, 18k, T+)

There’s no Escape for the Potato Man (Sterek, 54k, T+)

SuperWing, Stucky and SlaDick, Oh My! (Sterek, 34.8k, T+)

Quack (Stiles Stop Calling It That) (Sterek, 16k, T+)

Because Family is More than Just Blood (Sterek, 5K, G)

I mean, again, TECHNICALLY Actions Speak Louder Than Words also counts because I wrote it in 2019 and am just posting most of it in 2020... So... (Sterek, 384k, E)

We are going to assume all questions are answered with the inclusion of Actions.

Total Fics: I wrote 12 fics this year. Enough to be considered one a month, except definitely not one a month since Twilight took me two months and Actions took me a fucking ETERNITY, like, I think I started in July? Maybe August, but still, took me FOREVER!  

Total Words: 877,632. Less than last year :( I broke a million words last year. Maybe I can break 2 Million in 2020! (LOL Yeah no...) 

Ship/Character Breakdowns: LOL Sterek. That’s... that’s it... 

Best/Worst Title:  Best Title (IMO): What Fresh Twilight Bullshit is This? (Idk man, I laugh every time I think about it, so I like it) Runner up Best Title: It Was a Wednesday Worst Title: Up Down Lock Unlock. (I legit had no idea what to call that fic, so, you know |D)

Best/Worst First Line:  Best First Line: From “Everyone Needs a Little Mischief in Their Life” 

To be fair, he hadn’t exactly meant to throw him into a tree.

Worst First Line: From “Quack (Stiles Stop Calling It That)”

“Stiles.” A loud grunt escaped said individual at the harsh smack to his posterior. “Up. Get up.”

General Questions

Looking back, did you write more fics than you thought you would this year, less than you thought, or about what you predicted?

I feel like kind of less than I thought. I had plans for two others but then Actions took over and I know myself well enough to know if I didn’t finish it first, I never would. So I’m gonna take a short break to catch up on like, life >.> And then start back up again starting with a long overdue birthday present. Hopefully I can write more in 2020 \o/

What pairing/genre/fandom did you write that you would never have predicted last year?

HAHAHA Uh, I only wrote Sterek and I knew I would only write Sterek so I guess I knew all along? Man, I write too much Sterek... 

What’s your favorite story this year? Not the most popular, but the one that makes you the happiest.

Probably It Was a Wednesday. I mean, it was super SAD, and I was AWFUL to poor Stiles, but idk, I don’t write Derek’s POV very much, and I kind of liked having Derek be the one to save someone else for once. And I liked that he was the only one who could truly understand what Stiles had gone through compared to everyone else. It was also nice being able to write a fic where it showcases the pack can’t survive without Stiles because once he disappeared, the pack fell apart, and my honest opinion is that that is 100% what would happen. Without Stiles, the pack can’t function and begins to fracture, so it was fun writing them coming back together around him when he returned. 

Okay, NOW your most popular story.

From 2019, What Fresh Twilight Bullshit is This? To be fair, it’s like, 116k words longer than my next longest fic of 2019 so I feel like that’s an unfair comparison lol.

Story most underappreciated by the universe?

I say It Was a Wednesday -slams hands on desk- But I’m biased because it’s my fav from 2019 >.> But it’s number 5 kudos-wise for 2019! I think it’s the angst. The first four are all more fluffy (Except Twilight, but it has an equal amount of fluff and angst). I guess my real self is coming out. SURPRISE! I am an Angst Queen >.>

Story that could have been better?

Be Still My Heart (My Neighbour’s a Bitch and You’re Beating Too Loud). Honestly, not super happy with that fic, but I wrote it for personal reasons. To copy/paste so as not to repeat myself: 

(As of October 2019) So basically, Stiles is currently me. I have had a neighbour complaining about me for literally 31 months (which, for people bad at math like me, is OVER two years) and they are literally ruining my life. I have massive anxiety every time I do anything, INCLUDING SLEEP, and I basically cannot live my life in any capacity. The building manager is really nice to me, but the property manager is pretty much useless and the complaints continue to come during times where I am literally passed out in bed. In light of that, I wrote this fic because by God, I needed some fucking happy in my life over a situation I have no control over. Is Derek in the wrong? I mean, yeah, I never say he's not. Did Stiles suffer? Of course he did. But you know what? He got a happy ending, because turns out his anxiety was due to a poor decision on Derek's part, and he felt terrible about it. I don't get a happy ending, I get constant anxiety and apologetic texts from the building manager because it's his job to tell me he knows I'm sleeping but lady is still complaining. So given I wrote this to make myself feel better, and I decided to share it with you, do me a favour and instead of making me feel worse by telling me how horrible I am and how shitty Derek is, just hit the red X in the corner instead and you can avoid having to look at this fic again. People write things for various reasons, it'd be real great if there was a bit more understanding and a bit less attacks in the world. You don't know why someone wrote something or what's going on with the person on the other end of the computer screen. So just click the X if you hated this fic and thought Derek was a dick to Stiles. I know he was, but Stiles at least gets to live his life anxiety-free because the building manager was in love with him. I get to go cry in the shower every night.

Sexiest story?

What Fresh Twilight Bullshit Is This? It’s the only one with smut, I’m pretty sure, so it’s really the only one that counts |D

Saddest story?

It Was a Wednesday, hands down. I was really mean to Stiles in it.

Most fun?

Oh man, uhhhh... Oh maaaaaaaaan.... I thought it would be between two of them, but it’s between FOUR... Business Skype, There’s No Escape For the Potato Man, Quack (Stiles Stop Calling It That) and SuperWing, Stucky and SlaDick, Oh My! 

Hmmmmmmmmmm..... hmhmhmhmhmhmhm....

UGH! This is hard. Okay, I’ma go with Potato Man. I got the idea randomly and it was ridiculous but still fun, so I’m gonna stick to that. It was my first instinct, going with it. 

Story with the single sweetest moment?

Actions Speak Louder Than Words, but I can’t quote the part because it hasn’t been posted yet |D 

So runner up is It Was a Wednesday:

“Need is a very specific thing. Your dad needs you, because he doesn’t know how to function without you. He needs you to be there to watch what he eats, and he needs you to stay close to him so he knows he hasn’t lost everyone he cares about. He needs you like a dying man needs one more breath. He’s desperate for it.

“Scott needs you, too. He needs you to keep him out of trouble. He needs you to challenge him, to keep him in line, to keep the Pack together. He needs you to be the voice of reason, to make the plans, to know when to fight and when to turn tail and run. Scott needs you like an Alpha needs a second, because he doesn’t know how to do this without you. He doesn’t know how to exist without you in his orbit, because you’ve never not been in his orbit before.

“But me? I don’t need you. At all. Because I survived before you, and I survived after you. I can manage without you in my life, but the difference is I won’t. Because I want you. I want you to be in my life. I want you in my space, arguing with me, annoying me, being infuriatingly right all the time. I want you to be a part of my future, whether it’s as a coworker at the garage, as a Packmate to this broken Pack that I don’t even know can be salvaged, as a friend, as a brother, I don’t care. All I know is that want and need are two different things, and just because I don’t need you doesn’t mean I don’t want you.”

Hardest story to write?

Actions Speak Louder Than Words, hands down. I love dialogue. Like, loooooooooooove dialogue, which is why writing fics with tons of texting make me supremely happy. And I decided, hey, what if I wrote a fic where one of the two main characters is cursed and can’t speak? What if I did that? And then what if I made it ALMOST 400k? WHAT IF I VERY SMARTLY DID THAT LIKE A VERY SMART PERSON? 

I’m lucky I’m still sane, tbh. 

Easiest/most fun story to write?

Okay, Business Skype can go here then. Because it was definitely the easiest, and also really fun :) 

Did any stories shift your perceptions of the characters?

I mean, kind of It Was a Wednesday, I guess. Like I said above, it made me think about how the pack can’t function without Stiles, personally. So I’d say probably that one for that reason. 

Most overdue story?

Actions Speak Louder Than Words. That thing was an asshole to me :( 

Did you take any writing risks this year? What did you learn from them? I don’t think so? Unless writing really excessively long fics this year counts? Because I did two of those... And clearly, I learned nothing from that suffering.

What are your fic writing goals for next year?

To not take five months to write one fic... That’d be good |D Kinda wanna do another challenge, but don’t know what. I’ll think on it. If anyone has any challenge ideas, let me know :) 

[theexecutionerssong]

I’m replying to everyone who’s sent me a message regarding the being nicer thing from yesterday under the cut because I don’t want to be annoying by publishing so many asks. thank you, all of you ♥

Honestly, I think it’s ridiculous that people are accusing you of sounding mean/rude etc. sometimes I think you’re still too nice to the rude anons and I feel like a lot of this is passive aggressive on their part. They come at you because they think you’re an ‘insider’ fan and they’re jealous, and if you come back defensively, then they accuse you of being rude blah blah blah. If these people are making your experience on tumblr a negative one then just ignore those asks and enjoy yourself bb! 

Hmm idk I mean it wouldn’t cross my mind to go after someone because they know some things I don’t? So they probably have a point somewhere in telling me I should be kinder, I know I can be short when I answers asks because I get so many and sometimes the same ones every other day so it gets a bit tiring...

hello! for sounding "nicer" i know when it comes to like texting friends and stuff. i always over use emojis and 'lol' bc i think when you don't it makes people (including myself) read it in a kind of boring/unimpressed tone in my head. LIKE HOW CAPS MAKES ME YELL IN MY HEAD LOL. (disclaimer: i'm a recent follower and find you nothing but nice. and you definitely don't owe any of us to go out of your way to type differently so you come across as 'nicer'. your english is fantastic!)

if I ever use lol then it’s because I find the thing extremely not funny and it’s ironic ahah I try to use emoji but when on my computer I can’t really be bothered... Thank you very much for your message!

I don’t think you’re rude, I think sometimes you get defensive because you’ve been getting the same questions over and over again and you must get tired. And you’ve talked about having insomnia so you must also be physically tired on top of mentally. That’s normal, we’re all humans. Don’t worry about it.

Yeah it’s true, I do get defensive when I’m more tired. Sometimes when I need to vent, I read my inbox outloud to a friend - the asks I don’t publish I mean - and it helps but sometimes I don’t have anyone next to me to do that with so I get cranky when I see people prying into the cast’s lives, asking personal questions, things like that. It’s hard to ignore when you read the same disturbing things every couple of days. Thank you ♥

You're not annoying at all, on the contrary, you're the sweetest! It's just that I think people are frustrated that you know so much without sharing, and maybe also the fact that you continue to think you're a normal fan, even though you're clearly "in". I don't know, I'm trying to understand... I think it might be jealousy as well.

The thing is, I can’t say for now how I’ve come to know some stuff because it would spoil way too much and I don’t know if I’ll even be able to ever. I’m not really “in”, that’s the thing. I am a normal fan, as normal as a fan who’s lucky enough to live in Paris and who could go to a lot of events - and that’s a couple hundreds of us. I don’t know how much the international fandom is aware of that but David and Niels and the cast know hundreds of us by name just because we were lucky enough to meet them several times. I’m not really more “in” than those other people. Some from the cast have not a clue who I am at all and others only know my @ on instagram because I send them the pics. I’m a bit closer to some for reasons I can’t talk about. The team got a lot of complaints about everything always happening in Paris and some fans ending up being more priviledged than others. I’m hoping there will be more events outside of Paris, maybe screenings or something in the future so it doesn’t feel as ~Parisian elite~ as last year.

I think you’ve always been receptive when people came to you with a different opinion and from what I saw, you’re always willing to learn. Some people are just too entitled and come barging in and that’s when you raise you hackles. It’s not really on you, it’s hard to be kind to everyone when people don’t always deserve it.

Hmmm yeah, my friends have told me I have strong opinions and don’t change my mind easily so... idk. I could maybe be more receptive, like you said, at times. I went from getting one ask every six months to dozens a day in a few weeks last year and it still blows my mind. I wasn’t ready for that. There must be people who disagree with me in my followers. Idk. Something I need to think about. Thanks ♥

bonsoir tumblr grandma! 💫 in my humble opinion, you do not come off as rude. I just think sometimes people tend to read what they wanna read and make the worst out of it. Plus, the whole Even season is a really touchy subject because everyone would love one and when such announcements of possibles seasons happen, they can't help but be hopeful. So of course they don't like it when they're told it's not gonna happen. You're not rude, you're just saying things they don't want to hear. 🤷‍♀️ ily!

I know how much people must be upset to see their hopes crushed, I was disappointed too back when I first heard about it, and my hopes were not that high to begin with since David had said before Eliott wasn’t considered as main. I get asks every week about Eliott being main, almost every gifset I make will have a tag about how whatever is clearly a reference to Eliott being main and I’m just like... let it go. Or talk about it on your own posts. I’m sad it’s not happening. Don’t rub it in my face, you know? I didn’t say anything for months and accepted it was the way it would be so I couldn’t complain but then Henrik mentioned it to someone at HOS2 and I thought that finally those asks and comments would stop but they don’t and it’s very tiring. Anyway, thank you as always!

I don't think you're rude and i don't know you irl it's just that some of your anons are creepy and acted so demanding like you owe us something and it pissed me off actually. Like those anon who asked something like you know this right? How you know abt this? Why you know the cast? It sounds so suspicious that you know them etc. these anons are so nosy like why so negative. Istg i thought they would interrogate you yesterday after you mentioned abt working with assa before skamfr.

I’m gonna say something I haven’t really shared in details before but it’s weighting on me. Some anons are really creepy, so I don’t publish them. For exemple, somebody found my spotify recently and through it found my old Facebook. My friends have sent me screenshots of people following them on their instagram after being tagged in my stories and they are always Skam stans, even when my friends have never posted about anything Skam related. Someone once went digging into my personal life so far that they could have ruined the theme of season 5 in september if they had decided to make what they had found public instead of sending me an ask about it. That shit is not okay. I blew up about this once last year and somebody told me “why do you make it sounds like we’re creepy fans of yours” and well, because some stuff IS creepy. I understand being curious but I will never share anything about the personal lives of the cast or anything that could spoil the seasons so I’d just like it if people stopped asking, you know? Thank you for reaching out ♥

gaëlle you never even once came off as rude (i started following you in february-march when s3 was airing). you're always helpful and patient. it's obvious when ppl go to cons/projos/meet the cast they might unintentionally find out smth that's not public knowledge. and it's a good thing actually that you don't immediately run here to share bc maybe a cast member didn't mean to reveal smth etc. in any case you don't owe us any information and those who demand answers are the rude ones

Thank you, love. yeah I’ve lost counts of how many times they’ve accidentally spoiled something at cons or screenings or in the background of ig stories, especially in the beginning. They are more careful now and some even let slip fake spoilers to see if it will spread (and by some I mean Axel after his play when he stays to talk to fans lmao). The fans who’ve learned stuff that way are usually super protective of the show though so nothing really spreads and that’s really nice to see - sorry Axel, joke’s on you ahah

Hi Gaëlle! Just want to say that I followed you because you always sound soooo sweet and sincere when answering asks. Never thought you're rude, even sometimes I thought you could be ruder because the ask was rude😂 Anyway, just thought let you know my opinion on the last ask, have a good day!🥰

Thank you darling. I’m sure I must have been rude at some point, I don’t think the anon from yesterday would have said that out of the blue, and I’m very sorry that I don’t realize it. Unless when people are REALLY rude then I allow myself to tell them to fuck off dfghjk

You don’t know me but I saw you a lot at HOS2, I recognized you from your instagram. Every time I saw you, you were cuddling people, laughing, singing - I heard you sing with your friends and Maxence joining in, it was adorable! The cheers the cast let out when they saw you come up for the group pictures weren’t fake. You have an aura around you that brightens the room. I really hope this isn’t too weird of me to say. I don’t think you could ever be unkind. You wouldn’t have so many friends otherwise - I mean, it looked like you do - and the cast wouldn’t have reacted like that upon seeing you. That alone convinced me you were a good person.

Oh my god I don’t know what to say. This is very unexpected, why didn’t you come say hi if you knew who I was? I wouldn’t have minded at all! Thank you, I don’t know what to say, really this is so kind. Have a lovely day. Thank you. thank you.

You're one of the nicest people I know, you're a literal bundle of love and sunshine (I'm not even kidding, really). And you're always so considerate about everybody when you're responding to asks that are asked NICELY... so really I don't know how you can come across as rude. And you deserve all the love 💕

Merci @littlhedgehog love you so so much and I’m so happy Skam brought us together. It’s been way too long since I gave you a hug ♥♥♥

and at 3 parts anon with advice who told me not to publish, thank you too, I’ll remember everything you said ♥

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #235

“the monster you made is wearing the crown; i’ll be the king and you be the clown.”

What is your favorite move franchise? The Lion King. What was the last fast food you ate? I had a hot dog from Sonic and one of those pretzel twists things. What is the saddest book you’ve ever read? Johnny Got His Gun by Dalton Trumbo. Do you prefer heroes or villains? Villains. Duh. They're like, always more interesting. What is something you think is overrated? Uhhh coffee, for one. But like what you like. What political cause are you most passionate about? Gay rights. What country would you most like to visit? South Africa. Have you ever considered having children? Literally the only period where I wanted kids was later into Jason's and my relationship. Hell, I wanted three while he was always like "onLY TWO." Now, I don't want a single one, ever. I would be an awful mother for many reasons. If you ever took field trips as a child, which was your favorite? The zoo with Dad, my then-best friend, and her mom. One and only time I've seen meerkats. I was so excited I almost cried. Do you have any weird family traditions? It's not like, a tradition, I think, but we have a unique thing where saying "I love you mostest period" is something Mom, Dad, and my sisters have used for all my life. It's a way of saying "I love you more than you could ever love me, no arguments." Now Sara's been dragged into it lmao. Have you ever considered acting? Nope. Who was the last person you slept next to? Sara. Do you think you can be in love and still cheat on your S.O.? You can't "be in love" with a person and fucking cheat on them, no. Do you subscribe to any streaming services? We have Netflix. Idk about anything else. Have you ever been in a physical fight? No. What is the most embarrassing thing anyone has on video of you? I don't even wanna know. Did you ever get lost as a child? Yep, in a Wal-Mart lmao. This old lady helped me find my fam. What is your favorite condiment? Honey mustard. Or ketchup. Depends. Have you ever had an existential crisis? Very surprisingly, not really. Do you like country music? Begone, demon. It's still so weird to me that I loved it as a kid, but I really just grew up with it. What color are the eyes of the person you love? Brown. What is your favorite kind of flower? I looooove orchids. What town were you born in? Not the best thing to share on the Internet, eh? Do you know how to play any card games? I only vaguely understood/understand Magic: The Gathering. It's honestly really fun, but very complex in rules. It was Jason's thing so he got me into it. I miss my PS3 working because I used to have the "Duels of the Planeswalkers" on there, and doing it digitally is much easier and helpful. I loved it mostly because the art is fucking incredible. It was an old little aspiration to wind up designing the art some day and I don't think I ever saw Jason more excited. What is something about your childhood that you miss? Being more into video games than I am now alskdjf;awe. I'm more of a viewer of let's plays now than an active gamer; meanwhile, as a kid, video games were my favorite things in the world. Did you ever have MySpace? Do you miss those days? Yeah, I had one. Honestly though I can barely remember it (other than the song on my page was "Pocketful of Sunshime" lmaooooo as well meerkat-flooded), so it doesn't matter. What is the best television show you’ve ever watched? Meerkat Manor is my favorite show of all time, but as a proper show could have been better. AP made up their own shit and deviated from the KMP facts A LOT (guess what: Mozart killed a competitor's litter before; not exactly MM's her, right?), and not only was that confusing, but just annoying. Give me the real shit; don't just tweak stuff for dramatic effect. I could list a novel of lies in the series. Now, what I feel is the best show without a meerkat bias and just has an overall good plot. I kinda wanna say Supernatural, but the boys dying five million times got old. Possibly Fullmetal Alchemist. Are there any songs you can’t listen to because they bring back memories? I 110% refuse to hear "Stairway to Heaven." Have you ever saved someone’s life? Funny this is brought up after recent events. My sweetheart online bud had a cerebral aneurysm while having an extremely difficult time talking to me, and no one was home quite yet. Her final message was concerning and she didn't reply to me for a while, so I wound up messaging her again after a bit, and her boyfriend heard the b.net notification sound. Saw it was me and asked what was up. Told him, and he figured out she wasn't sleeping on the couch, she was passed out. He told me he never would have known if I hadn't said something. So does that count, even though I didn't like, physically save her? Have you ever broken any major bones? No. Are there any websites you’ve used for over 10 years? Good question? Idk. WAIT HOLD THE FUCK UP, KM's 10th birthday is coming up real soon. Wow. I know YouTube has been much longer. Idr when I joined deviantART. Maybe there's more, I dunno. Do you have any siblings? If so, what are their ages? My two immediate are 22 (ew) and 26 (double ew). Anything exciting taking place today? No, today was A N X I E T Y !! ! ! !! !! What are you craving? Okay so I have been MEGA in "the mood" lately and it's frustrating especially because I don't masturbate so I have like nO OUTLET. Who did you last hit? Nobody saving for when I was a kid repeatedly slapped my sister's arm for doing something I don't remember. How do you do in school? It depends on the subject, but in anything, I am a MASSIVE procrastinator, and I need to fix that. Schoolwork, good good, homework in the library, good good, but when I'm at home, I cannot seem to convince myself to work. As Sara puts it, home is like my "safe" place, and I don't want to bring school into it. Adjusting to school life again after like... two whole years or so of doing NOTHING at all, almost every day all day, is very difficult. I'm SO glad I picked school again, it's just a lot for a person who was so isolated and void of responsibilities to get used to. What’s your biggest goal? Right now, continue to improve my mental health. Fight social anxiety and AvPD. Who have you texted today? Just Sara. Who do you aspire to be like when you grow up? In most ways, especially in kindness, wisdom, relentless determination, passion, creativity, etc. etc. etc. etc., Mark. I think it's obvious he's Role-Model #1. I would loooove to be like Jane Goddall and Steve Irwin, too, feeling with such ferocious potency for animals and how they should be respected and loved. UM AND ALSO, EUGENIA COONEY IS THE SWEETEST PERSON ON THE ENTIRE GODDAMN EARTH AND I WOULD LOVE TO BE AS FRIENDLY AND PRECIOUS AS SHE IS. Oh, and then there's Shane Dawson. I relate to him SO much. He is the most selfless angel that seems SO down-to-earth and relatable as hell. I feel like he could be like, my best friend. Ahhhhhhh there are so many more, I love talking about my inspirations, but I'll chill here. Do you know if you want to go to college or not? I'm in college right now, and I desperately want it to stay that way. I'm fucking going somewhere in my life, and the education it provides will bring me closer to that. College is far from mandatory for everyone, but I feel it is beneficial for me. Do you like grapefruits? I haven't had one in a LONG time, so I don't really remember how they taste. I just know sour. What do you think of guys who wear eyeliner? *drools in Darkiplier* the fuck do you think Do you like online games? Only World of Warcraft, really. Who’s one person you care about more than yourself? Okay, real talk, and I hope this is everybody's answer. No one. I'm putting my goddamn self and my mental peace first for the rest of my life. Are there any pets you’re wishing for? I want another ball python. When’s the last time you used hand sanitizer? Two days ago when Mom and I stopped somewhere to eat. Wearing anything that isn’t yours? No. What type of bread did you use on the last sandwich you made? White. How many doors are in your house? Uhhh six. What was the last compliment you received, that made you smile? Sara said she was really proud of me, and to me, that's one of the biggest compliments you CAN give me. Think you need to lose weight? How much? ugh When was the last time you watched a VHS movie? I don't have a clue. We kept our VHS longer than most, though. We had too many movies on it. What event would you go back in time to see, if you could? Ummmm I dunno. Do you remember the last thing you said you wanted? To hug Sara. Who was the last friend you hung out with&what’d you do together? Sara stayed for a week. We did a lot. Who is the person, other than a spouse, that you are closest to? Sara. If you watched it, who was your favorite Hey Arnold! character? Oh my god, I hated that stupid show, but one of my sisters liked it. Have any good school pictures? or do they all just suck? There is literally ONE picture from elementary school where I think I looked pretty. Do you like trying on clothes or not? & Why? NO. I try to avoid it if I can. It's just annoying to change clothes for like five seconds. What are your thoughts on marriage? It's sweet, but I've come to find it... kinda needless for the most part? Like I know it has financial pluses and the symbolism is beautiful, but it's just that: symbolism originating from fantasies (imo, don't scream at me). It only adds pressure to stay in a dying relationship and makes splitting much more complicated. BUT, even with all that said, I personally want to get married someday, but only if I am *sure* about this person. It's the symbolism I like. That and it's so ingrained into my head that that's the "end goal" of relationships, so I'm pretty much just conditioned to want it. How long have you lived in the current place you’re living? Two years. Do you plan on moving anytime soon, if so where? I want to, but I am not in the financial position or at a level of independence where I'm ready for that. Are you more of a follower, or a leader? Be honest. This may alter with the situation, but mostly, I'm definitely a follower. Are your dreams/nightmares in black&white or color? I've heard of this condition before and it really intrigues me. I dream in color. Have you ever wanted to be some sort of hero outside of video games? I mean, define "hero." Like an action superhero in a literal way, nooooo. I'd die on Day #1, lmao. As a hero/inspiration as a person, of course; who doesn't? Will you admit that you’re at least somewhat superficial? I mean, probably in some places? How often do you go to the mall closest to you? Almost never ever. Our mall sucks and has experienced too many shootings. Do you still count with your fingers, even if only every so often? Yep. Like, always. Have you ever gone on a road trip with just friends? No. Well, I went to the beach with my friend and her mom, but just for a day or two because my separation anxiety from Mom got too bad oof. Without trying, do you act differently around different friends? Depends on the friend. I don't "fake it," just how reserved I am can move around. What was the last thing you drew/wrote on your own or someone else's skin? Probably a butterfly on my wrists when I was actively part of the Butterfly Project community. The last time you spent money, what was it on & how much did you spend? $1.25 for a drink at school. What’s the most money you’ve ever spent on one piece of clothing? Idk, but definitely not a lot. In elementary school, were you more of the bully or the bullied? Thankfully, neither. Do you like when a spouse is clingy, or can you not stand that? I'm sure to a certain degree it would be annoying, but for the most part, hell, I think it's attractive. Especially since I NEED validation you like me. How much do you say you walk in a week outside of school &/or work? Just around my house if you exclude school. Is there anything you wish your parents did differently in raising you? I wish they'd given us chores. Wish Mom didn't spank us. What would you do if the last person you texted asked you out? Lol yo we JUST broke up like an hour ago. We're not ready to get back together yet, obviously. Don't worry a bit, we're both cool. Still best friends, even. To compress a long story, needed personal growth and distance have brought us to returning to just friends. For now, at least. Have you ever received a scholarship? I think so... but not like a huge one, I believe. Who was the last person who got frustrated with you? Most likely Mom. When was the last time you mopped your kitchen floor? I myself have never mopped it. Or maybe once. What is your favorite work of art? I mentioned the Denialism painting in my last survey. What was the last appointment or plan you had to cancel? Plan, my next one with my psychiatrist. What spur-of-the-moment decision that you’ve made has had the biggest impact on your life? I don't know if any have truly changed my life. The ones that did (that I remember) were pondered over. Do you know anyone who is (or has been) a refugee? I don't think so, What is your best friend’s worst habit? She doesn't have faith in herself for ANYTHING lj;ljalwie Do you like spinach and artichoke dip? alksd;fjwei no Have you ever felt like you were about to pass out, but didn’t? Yep, a couple times. What was the name of one of your childhood imaginary friends? I didn't have any. What’s your favorite phase of the moon? Full. Do you wish you were richer? I physically refuse to be anything less than stable, hopefully even above that, once I'm independent. We've been poor all my life and it is fuck-ing HARD. It's stressful as a motherfucker and I am done with it. Very. What’s a middle name you like? Quinn. Fits a lot. I planned on giving that middle name to my hypothetical daughter. Are you scared of spiders? y e a h Do you weigh the same as your mom? No. Were you a Mary-Kate and Ashley fan? Like the average 90s/early 2000s kid. Coffee mugs, teacups, or water bottles? Uh, aesthetically? Teacups, probably. Bubblegum or cotton candy? Gum. I like the taste and texture of cotton candy, it is just RIDICULOUSLY sweet. It bothers my sensitive teeth sometimes. Do you prefer to drink soda from cans, bottles or cups? Cans. They get the coldest. Game you were best at in P.E./gym? Idk, I didn't excel at any. What do you have for breakfast on an average day? I'll typically just have a meal replacement shake or a Pop-Tart. Favorite non-chocolate candy? Sour Punch Straws (gotta be red). Favorite book you had to read for school? The Outsiders. Most frequently worn pair of shoes? My flip-flops, 'cuz they're easy to just slip on. Ideal weather? Cool but not windy (a light breeze is fine) with a partly-cloudy sky. Obsession from childhood? Webkinz. Favorite crystal? Dragon's breath opal. Favorite activity to do in warm weather? Swim or stay the fuck inside. Favorite activity to do in cold weather? Taking pictures in the snow. Five songs to describe you? "Get Up" by Mother Mother, "That's What You Get" by Paramore, uhhh... I don't feel like thinking over this any longer. My iPod isn't near me to scan through what I have, so yeah. Best way for someone to bond with you? Let's have deep philosophical talks about like the meaning of life 'n shit. Top 5 favorite Vines? Oh my god, this is impossible. To name some that come to mind first, in no order: "It's Wednesday, m'dudes *insert mating call*", "I cOUld'vE dROPPED My croiSSANt," "this is why mom doesn't FUCKING LOVE YOU," that one at a club where a girl is doing smoke tricks and the dude just goes "check that out" (or "wow," idr) or something similar (I couldn't find it), and omfg I adore that Snoop Dogg one with the little boy just semi-dancing to that iconic song???? I LOVE IT??????? Man, there are so so many more. Very honorable mention: "a d a m". Ads you have stuck in your head? None, thankfully. What is the first meme you remember seeing? Uhhh maybe Happy Bunny? Idk. Sci-fi, fantasy, or superheroes? Fantasy. Favorite type of cheese? American. What saying or quote do you live by? There's a lot I've picked up on and cling to. #1 is perhaps "Deal with life, or life deals with you." What are you currently stressed about? Some... things I realized about myself that disgust me. Favorite fairy tale? Shrek is a goddamn fairy tale and I will fight to the death against anyone who claims otherwise. Favorite tradition? I don't really have one anymore, but I remember as a kid, I would NEVER let Mom forget to throw some "reindeer food" outside for them lol. Talent you’re proud of having? One that warrants pride, exactly? Not just random talents? Well, uhhh. I suppose writing. I mean it modestly, I really do, but as a kid, my teachers all the way through high school always thought I was cheating or a parent did my papers at home. Some were only convinced by me writing in the classroom. I don't feel as good about my writing as I did in high school, but I am sill proud of excelling in it and taking writing anywhere seriously. If you were a video game character, what would your catchphrase be? I mean, name the game and genre here. Probably like "what the fuck" at like, everything, because I already do that. If you were an anime character, what genre of anime would it be? Like, based on my current life? I dunno. A sad and repetitive one with some bright days to it. Ohhh, and the color scheme and lighting vary with my mental state. Yo that would be dope. Character you relate to? lmao THRALL from WoW for being like "can y'all bastards just chill tf out" until he goes off to an isolated land away from civilization bc he's seen enough shit. Also compelled to help. Any good luck charms? I don't believe in those. Least favorite flavor of food or drink? As far as consistent flavors go, normally cherry or grape. Left or right handed? I'm a righty. Favorite potato food? Fries, when I wish they weren't. Earth tones or jewel tones? Jewel. How many phone numbers do you have memorized? Literally just Mom's. Not even mine.

[quantumarvel]

@oh-snap-bucky and I like to scream fic concepts at each other a lot. I, somehow, convinced her to let me share them with yall. Here’s a recent one. 

It all started with this post (please read the tags)

Courtney: can we talk about this cause wow 

Sam: you thought up an entire fic 

Sam: we stan 

Sam: sitting under a tree and rEADING 

Courtney: Sammy help me out here cause I may just roll with this

Courtney: how do they meet? 

Sam: Park? Library? Cafe?

Courtney: library 

Courtney: he looks vaguely homeless and he’s BRILLIANT and studying something to do with poetry 

Sam: English major? I think yes 

Courtney: and she’s studying at the library and has to keep pushing her glasses back up her nose and she’s tapping her pencil on her chin 

Courtney: and he can’t help but SAY SOMETHING cause she’s pretty ya know but also cause she’s currently reading the only copy of the book he needs 

Courtney: and she’s like ha good luck cause this poet guy doesn’t make any sense 

Courtney: and of course Bucky understands it 

Courtney: but poetry isn’t her major, she just has to read it for like this one class she has to take so she can get her teaching degree 

Courtney: he’s all knowledgeable in poetry and junk and she just… doesn’t get it. Like at all. And he thinks its adorable. And she’s all “I’m gonna be a history teacher idk why i even need this.”

Courtney: and being the flirt he is, he offers to tutor her 

Courtney: and she knows EXACTLY what he’s doing 

Courtney: says yes anyway  

Courtney: so they start meeting up on Thursdays at the library 

Sam: I support her saying yes anyway 

Sam: bc we get that

Sam: take your chance girl 

Courtney: they spend a couple of hours talking about how this poet dude was annoying and pretentious and a douche and he’s like, “just imagine all this being said but the whitest, richest, most uptight dude you can think of” and she starts to Get It but also thinking of it like that makes it SO FUNNY 

Sam: “oh so he’s just being a spoiled brat?” 

Sam: okay so for how long do they meet at the library? 

Courtney: oh this lasts the rest of their first semester. They met in like September and they get together every Thursday and she invited him to a Halloween party some of her friends are throwing and they accidentally show up in complimenting costumes (probably different Breakfast Club characters cause I’m dumb) and he complains about having to go home for Thanksgiving (she still doesn’t know what kind of a family she comes from) and they text the whole break and when they get back they hang out so much more than just on Thursdays and by the time Christmas rolls around, they get each other the sweetest gifts right before they leave for break and standing in the train station (they’re both taking trains home but going different directions), he realizes how long he’s gonna be without her and they’re both getting kinda choked up, more than you would if you had to leave a friend for a nearly month and they’re making all these promises to call and text and “maybe I’ll write you?” and after like the nineteenth hug, 

Courtney: he realizes that the girl he’s been halfway in love with since the fall maybe likes him back? the girl he’s been opening his jacket to tucking her against him to shield her from the “stupidly cold” wind. the girl that shares her candy corn and bring him hot chocolate when the temperature drops below 40. the girl who reads poetry books that he recommends cause he just KNOWS that if he finds the right style, she’ll fall in love with it. the girl that he spends so much time with that he knows which colors mean what on her color coded notes. the girl that he helped bandage up when she was too busy staring at a dog to notice the raised pavement and when she tripped, he felt it in his chest. the girl that tells him that she knows he deserves better than the hurt he carries in his eyes. the girl that doesn’t know anything about his past, but knows him. the girl he feels so lucky to be around. that girl. she’s looking at him right now like it hurts her like it does him to part ways. and maybe he realizes then that he has a chance? so he musters up just enough courage to press a kiss to her forehead and walk her to her train. as he watches her disappear down the tracks, he decided that when he sees her again after the new year, he’ll take her to a museum or a planetarium or a park or something, and he’ll ask her to take a chance on him.

Courtney: (he doesn’t get the chance because when she asks for his address to send him a Christmas card, she really drives up to Brooklyn from Boston just to give him a New Years kiss. his parents aren’t home (to his relief) but Becca absolutely adores her)

Sam: ummmmmm

Sam: that’s gorgeous 

Sam: and so so so heart wrenching 

Sam: but SHE DRIVES TO BOSTON 

Courtney: it’s only like 200 miles yeah 

Sam: only 

Sam: for a kiss 

Sam: that’s a lot 

Sam: for a FIRST kiss at that 

Courtney: okay I should clarify 

Sam: yes please do 

Courtney: she get there at like 7:30pm and he answers the door and he’s so happy to see her but he’s like “?? why are you here?” and she’s blushing and “well I wanted to talk to you... in private...” which makes Bucky look over at Becca who’s 15 and standing at the other end of the foyer. “It’s my house too.” And he just rolls his eyes and takes his girl outside cause that’s not the fight he wants to have rn. anyway so they go walk through the garden and it’s all so pretty cause the Christmas lights are still up and the stars are out. “what do you have to talk to me about that’s so urgent that you couldn’t wait until next week and had to drive 200 miles instead of just calling me?” he’s all smiles. “I, um... I wanted to tell you that I uh... I think I like you? Like a lot? No, I know I do. And I have, for a while. And I can’t it out of my head, when you kissed my forehead at the station, and I KNOW that sounds ridiculous and childish but I can’t stop thinking about it and how maybe you like me too and yeah sure that could’ve waited but I needed to KNOW cause to be perfectly honest, I’d really like to be your New Years kiss this year, which again, dumb and childish but I do and so I didn’t really think, I just decided to take a chance. I’m sure I’m making a complete fool of myself right now too, like that idiot poet we read about in September but you told me something once about stepping out of your comfort zone and taking chances and so that’s what I’m doing, I’m taking your advice, so you really have no one else to blame here but yourself and-“ he finally just puts a hand over her mouth cause he can tell she’s working herself up into a frenzy. When she finally looks up at him, he’s smiling. He takes his hand away, “you came a few hours early for a New Years kiss” And for some reason that embarrasses her more than anything else has. “Ugh I know I just, I just couldn’t wait any more. I paced around my parents house for three hours and spent another two in this diner once I got to town. Think I would’ve gone mad if I waited any longer.” He laughs and tells her “well it’s...” a quick glance at his watch “7:59pm right now. It’s midnight somewhere.” And even though he takes his time, and she knows what he’s about to do, the kiss still surprises her.

Sam: I’m screaming 

Sam: “It’s midnight somewhere” 

Sam: I can imagine Becca totally seeing all this happen from the window

Sam: keeping quiet bc “that was kinda sweet I guess” 

Sam: okay okay okay even if you don’t write this part i gotta know 

Sam: what happens after New Years? 

Courtney: Oh after New Years, they’re disgusting. STUPIDLY in love and constant heart eyes and “darling/baby/doll/sweetheart/honey” and they’re ALWAYS TOUCHING. like, hugging all the time and holding hands and tucking hair behind her ear and linking pinkies and he always has an arm around her shoulder and it’s all adorable and innocent and TOOTH ACHINGLY SWEET. she reads to him and plays with his hair (braids it when it gets long enough) and laughs at all his jokes and just adores him. he cooks her dinner a lot and carries her books and takes pictures of her and gives so many sweet kisses on her forehead, temple, nose, chin and (finally) mouth and just adores her.

Courtney: he picks her flowers in the spring when they have a picnic by a pond and she ties them together into a crown and puts it on him. that night, he takes one and presses it into the back of the book she gave him for his birthday

Sam: I love this so much 

Sam: he wears the flower crown 

Sam: and rocks it 

Courtney: she meets his parents at his birthday party. they insist on throwing this big party every year and this is the first year since he was like 10 that he actually enjoys it. she wears this pretty floral dress and curls her hair and just about knocks the breath out of him when he opens the door. she’s nervous and he squeezes her hand as they walk up to them. all she really remembers is Bucky introducing them and the way her mom smiles and says “so you’re the one that got him to finally shave that hobo scruff” and thing is, she wanted him to keep it cause she loved the expression on his face when he saw how it turned her skin red but he insisted on shaving it for a job interview (that his parents didn’t know about) but Bucky saves her from clarifying by saying that he’s going to take her to get something to drink. they drink punch that turns their mouths red and stay huddled together giggling in the corner (Bucky was doing his best impression of Mr. Harris from his dads company) until his mother comes and insists that he comes and mingles with company people cause in her mind, Bucky will be joining his father soon. Bucky tells his girl to meet him at the pond behind the house in half an hour before being dragged off

Sam: the look of “help me” as he’s walking away but like his ma is talking so much and his gal tells him to pay attention and he just winks before giving her this ridiculously gorgeous grin 

Sam: her and becca chat a little more and she introuced her to their grandmother bc grandma Barnes couldn’t wait another second more 

Courtney: I love Grandma Barnes 

Sam: boo me too 

Sam: literally her and his gal get on like a hose on fire and she completely forgets to meet him and he appears after waiting five minutes 

Sam: his hands rest on her shoulders and he looks between them “see you two seem to be having a ball”  

“oh we are” 

“I was just telling this sweetheart about your 11th birthday party, do you remember that one James?” 

Courtney: “There was a petting zoo incident.” 

[ohhimatt]

Reasons Why

1. You’re hot. Like super hot. Like Lauren was like wtf Michaela when I was like idk if I should hook up with you 

2. You’re super smart. There’s this Frank Ocean song “Novacane” and he’s describing like this perf girl(?) idk he’s gay so maybe a guy but anyway “brain like Berkeley” that’s a line in it. That’s you. Frank Ocean would date you for your brain. How does that make you feel? 

3. You know how to handle your alcohol. This feels like a skill I would never possess, so it’s cool that one of us can do it 

4. Head. Game. Strong. Like I was super not down for that and then it happened, and wow 

5. You’re really just great in bed in general. I mean, I was willing to hook up with you more than once, and that’s not very me of me 

6. You’re always complimenting me. And like yeah I don’t really know how to handle that, and it makes me kinda squirmy, but it’s still kinda great tbh 

7. You put up with me when I’m a mess, and you listen to me complain about things that really don’t make sense to be complaining about, and you don’t invalidate my feelings or make me feel dumb for feeling things 

8. You basically kept me alive on Fourth of July, and you didn’t make fun of me for being the definition of shit show, and that was supposed to be a fun holiday for you to get drunk, but you had to deal with me, and you didn’t even (appear to) get mad at me for ruining it 

9. You put up with me at concerts even though we’re very obviously in two different places, and I sometimes look like I’m really not having much fun, and you don’t get annoyed with me for not having the same energy that you have 

10. You remember a lot of the things on the seemingly unending list of health issues I have, and it’s nice that I don’t have to keep explaining why I can’t or shouldn’t eat or do things 

11. You just remember things about me in general, which is really sweet 

12. You get wine for me. This is actually very important. Like yeah a $5 bottle of wine doesn’t seem like much, but it is. It’s super important 

13. You let me hang out with your friends. Your friends are an important part of your life, and you’re sharing that with me, and like idk that’s just super cool 

14. You’re super funny. Like yeah part of it is because of how obnoxious you are, but this is like so so so important. I’ve slept with super not okay guys because they were funny, but you’re great and funny and also somehow interested in me. Idk why but wow yay awesome 

15. You got me into snapchat. I used to not be into it as an app at all other than for sending nudes sometimes, but wtf this app is fun, and I would have never realized that if I hadn’t started using it just to keep our streak going 

16. You were willing to be friends with me. Okay this one really doesn’t seem like much, but it is. It is so so so hard to find guys who are willing to be my friend without the promise of sleeping with me in the future, and we hung out for months without hooking up, and besides Justin you’re like the only guy I’ve met in college that was willing to do that, so like idk it was just really cool 

17. Your choice in movies is A+. Okay yeah this one goes both ways because we like the same movies, but I wanted to say it anyway 

18. You brought me Taco Bell when I was super drunk, and if that’s not the sweetest thing ever than idk what is 

19. You let me steal your shirts. This is also super important because stolen shirts are more comfortable than non stolen shirts, especially when they come from a significant other 

 20. You don’t get angry with me when you’re drunk. Maybe this is one of those bare minimum things again, but I’ve never experienced this, so I’m going to count it 

21. You don’t get super jealous about things. Like I can still go out, hang out with my friends, go to frat parties, and I don’t have to worry about you getting all weird about it 

22. You finish my alcohol for me when I severely overestimate me drinking capabilities 

23. You put up with Lauren. This should honestly count as two. If you’re not the kind of person that wants to be her friend, she can be a lot, so you hanging out with her and not hating her or me for bringing her along is great 

24. You have sick friends, and I feel like that reflects on how sick you are as a person 

25. You’ll sit and chill with me after I eat things I’m not supposed to, and you don’t just tell me that I did this to myself the whole time even though I definitely did 

26. You don’t even realize what a gem you are. Like you’re somehow unaware that you’re the coolest person ever, and it’s kinda adorable lol 

27. You play soccer. My tinder bio used to say “My only weakness is soccer players” Yeah sure I can’t play anymore, but there’s just something about soccer players that makes them better than everyone else. Idk

28. You share things with me. I know sharing isn’t really your thing, but you still do it sometimes, and it’s really cool when you do, and then I feel all special that you feel comfortable enough with me to do that 

29. You put in effort. I guess this kinda relates to the last ones, but you try to do things that matter to me like sharing things, and idk it’s just super cool 

30. You understand consent. Okay yeah I guess this is one of those bare minimum things again, but understand that this can’t be said for most of the guys I’m around on a regular basis 

31. You like my cats. So many people are so against cats, and yeah maybe dogs are better, but my cats matter lol 

32. You have good taste in music. And now that I’m not afraid of concerts anymore this is super important because I feel like I could pretty much ask you to go to any concert with me and you would be down because we’re kinda into the same people 

33. You’re always boosting my self confidence. Even when I don’t feel like I look that great you tell me that I do, and it’s annoying as fuuuuuuck, but I guess I kinda like it too 

34. Okay this one is going to sound so so lame, so never repeat it. Just read it once and never talk about it again. But you make me feel all warm and fuzzy, and I really forgot what that felt like, but now I feel like that all the time, and fuck you for that, but also thanks I guess lol 

35. Sometimes you do this thing where you’ll push my hair back behind my ear, and normally that’s something I would hate because ew human contact, but I kinda like it when you do it 

36. You sorta made me question everything I thought I hated about relationships, and I hated that at first, but I’m happier now, so I guess that’s a good thing. I’m a lot less salty about relationships in general now 

37. You’re super reassuring. Whenever I tell you about how much I’m doubting myself or my life choices, you make me feel better about not having myself as together as I would like to be 

38. I swear every single time I wake up in the middle of the night and move a little you move closer to me or pull me closer to you, and it’s adorable. It’s something I would have absolutely hated a few months ago, but now I really like it 

39. You get along with Max. This might not seem like it’s that hard, but he hates everyone, so this is actually really big 

40. You let me be extra. I’m so so so extra, and I normally just feel like I’m being super annoying, but you let me do me, and that’s cool 

41. You’ve seen the absolute worst snapchats and videos of me, but for some reason you’re still into me? That’s wild 

42. You passed my vine test. Okay yeah this one doesn’t seem like much, but it shows that you were actually paying attention to all of the vines I sent you instead of just kinda looking at them because you had to 

43. You’re always down. Like for whatever. I feel like I could come at you with any idea of something we should do and you would be like yeah 

44. I made the worst first impression on you. The first thing I said to you was oh my god you’re the guy who cheated on my sorority sister. And for some reason you didn’t just say fuck off and walk away. And here we are now, so thanks for not being a dick lol 

45. You for some reason don’t think I look like some sort of weird alien without eyebrows. And? You?? Tell??? Me???? I????? Look?????? Good?¿?¿?¿? 

46. Your bed. This counts because it’s an extension of you. I love your bed oh my god how is it so comfortable??? 

47. You make me drinks. Not only that, but you’ll make me drinks that are only 50% the strength that they should be because you know I’m a lightweight when it comes to that 

48. You’re weird, but you’re a good weird. I don’t know why it took me until now to list this. This should have been how I started the list tbh 

49. You didn’t freak out on me and tell me I was being weird or rushing things even though I made you meet my dad already and I’m about to make you meet my mom when you get back. I def felt like as far as normal relationships go, I kinda did this earlier than I was supposed to, but my parents like to be super involved in my life like that, and I don’t want to deal with them complaining about not knowing who you are 

50. You make me happy. This probably should have been number one. Not that these are in any type of order, but this one is probably the most important. And even before we were dating, just hanging out with you as a friend made me happier, and idk like not a lot of people actually make me happier just by existing in my general vicinity, but you do. So yeah.. okay I’m ending this list for now, but this is in no way a complete list. It’s just complete enough for me to fairly say that you’re the gem. You’re the national treasure, and you’re honestly such a catch that it’s obvious that I’m the one who tricked you into liking me

51. You didn’t freak out when I was like, “oh. hey. yeah. I’m really fucking depressed.” Not only that, but you were super understanding, and I don’t even think you know how helpful you’ve been, but like.. Just thanks

52. You (as far as I know) don’t go through my phone without asking me. I really hate it when people do that. Not that I have anything to hide, but I just feel like it’s really rude, so good on you for not doing that, especially since you know this blog exists and is pretty much only accessible through my phone

53. You put up with how fucking indecisive I am literally all the time. Like wow I’m basically incompetent when it comes to ordering anything off of a menu, and you don’t get mad at me for staring at it forever

54. You’re a super reasonable person. I know you know this because you say this a lot, but it’s true, and that’s nice. I feel like I never have to worry about you getting mad at me for something small or insignificant

55. You let me play drinking games with your friends on your team even though I suck. You don’t make me sit out to save yourself the embarrassment of how bad I am

56. You aren’t weirded out that I made this list or the fact that I keep adding onto this list in my free time

57. You don’t get weird about how much I like your friends. Like I fucking love John, but you’re not like weirdly threatened by that, which is super nice

58. You do this really cute thing where you’ll come up behind me when I’m staring at myself in a mirror, and idk, but like, I like that

59. Free frozen yogurt. That should count for something. I don’t even care if I’m lactose intolerant. This has to count as a perk of dating you

60. Oh god. You listened to me when I was puking on FaceTime on New Year’s, and you weren’t like ew wtf why am I dating her? You just like kinda dealt with me, and I know a lot of these numbers are me just talking about times I made you put up with my drunk ass, and I could probably condense them all into one, but I feel like I’m so bad when I’m drunk that they should all count as individual points

61. You’re not hella weird about my body count or the fact that I don’t even know my number. A lot of guys get really fucking weird about that, so it’s cool that you’re not like that

62. Tbh you got me back into tumblr. I know this wasn’t directly you, but I had to replace Tinder with a different time wasting app, and I had forgotten how much I liked tumblr and being able to type out my feelings, and now I’m doing that again, and tbh typing things out is really cathartic, so even though this isn’t something you really did, it’s a result of you existing, so I’m counting that

63. You like La Burrita. I swear to god everyone tells me it’s trash, but I don’t care. It’s good, and I’m no longer the only one who likes it

64. You don’t feel threatened by my friendship with Justin. Not that there’s any reason you should feel threatened, but I’m used to guys feeling threatened by any friendship I have with another guy (which tbh doesn’t make much sense because they don’t mind my girl friends, and I like girls too???)

65. I can be like, “I fucking hate all men” and you don’t feel attacked, and you get that it’s’ not about you or all men but like a lot of men

66. You got me to break celibate summer/school year seventeen, and if you hadn’t done that, I might still be celibate, and wow what a sad life

67. We’ve spoken every single day since we’ve met, and I’m pretty bad about texting first a lot of the time, so that means this has probably been due to a lot of effort on your part, so that’s just really cool tbh. I appreciate the effort

68. You weren’t like wtf Michaela when I told you I look up statistics on when the average couple had their first fight, said I love you, met parents, etc. I know it was a little weird that I was so concerned about that, so thanks for not making me feel weirder about it

69. Lmao 69. The ratio is so bad. So so bad. So in my favor. I’m so sorry, but also wow ty. You’re the best

70. You don’t get frustrated with me when I get overwhelmed by seemingly simple things like ordering off of menus or being in large crowds

71. You put up with the fact that the paint is literally peeling off of the walls in my room, and I don’t do anything about it. Like I know it’s really bad..

72. You still wanted to be my friend after dropping acid with me. I was super annoying and not okay, and I know that, so I’m glad that that didn’t make you hate me lol

73. You send me things on twitter. It isn’t just me sending you a bunch of stuff and you being like lol. Like having someone send you a tweet like hey thought you might think this was funny too is such a great feeling

74. You like Black Mirror. I don’t feel like this really needs explaining. You shouldn’t date people who don’t like Black Mirror. Something is probably wrong with them

75. I can call you out on things, and you don’t get really angry with me. Like I don’t have to be worried about being like, “hey you’re wrong” which is cool because that has always led to problems in my past relationships

76.  You aren’t super weirded out by how invested I get in your friends’ relationships. I care a lot about Min-cob, Max-chaela, and C-an (New development: Car-lex)

77. You make me drink water, which is really nice because I forget to do that really often when I’m hanging out with people

78. I just feel comfortable around you. I feel like I can speak candidly about my mental disorders or my past traumas, and you’re not going to judge me for any of it

79.  You like Taco Bell. I know that Taco Bell has already been mentioned, but it deserves its own number on this list because it’s so important to my life. I honestly don’t think I could date you if you didn’t like Taco Bell tbh

80. Your laugh. I don’t think I’ve said anything about this yet, which is weird because I’m literally already at 80, but I really love your laugh

81. You’ve helped me to be a better person just by existing. I went from being the most vindictive person ever (like actual snake emoji personified) to being completely uninterested in revenge or ruining lives. I don’t even know why. I guess I just felt like you would like me better if I was nicer because Stephen introduced us, so obviously you like nice people, and I kinda like nice me better too tbh, so thanks

82. You didn’t want to stop being my friend when I stopped having coke all the time, and I know this doesn’t seem that big, but I’ve had it happen enough times that it’s a big thing

83. EDC is a thing. And this year it’s going to be a thing that both of us are at. Together. Wow. Just the idea of this has me excited af. Tbh the idea of future plans with you in general has me super excited

84. I have now experienced Korean barbecue thanks to you, and you didn’t make fun of me for having to switch seats with you part way through because there was too much going on in front of me

85. You supported my tuna egg, even though it turned out to be (unsurprisingly) gross..

86. Cheez-Its vs. Cheese Nips. I hate you, and you’re wrong, but I also kinda feel like this is going to be a debate that goes on forever, and it’s kinda funny, so I’m going to count it as a reason

87. You only kinda made fun of me for how much I cried watching South Paw, which like fuck you for making fun of me, but you cuddled me to make me feel better too, so I guess I can’t complain

88. Okay you don’t know it yet, but since we’ve been dating I’ve had this playlist of songs that just make me think about you for whatever reason (Actually, now that I think about it, I’m going to make a post explaining them), and I listen to it when I need to cheer up because thinking about you makes me happy. Sorry I’m so lame wtf omg

89. You’re willing to binge watch shows with me. We literally watched three seasons of The Great British Baking Show with me, and you weren’t like okay maybe chill down on the netflix Michaela

90. You spent like a week straight with me, and you somehow didn’t get tired of me or decide that you hated me, or come to some realization that I am a mess that should be avoided at all costs

91. You give me your pickles at Chick-fil-a. Normally I would consider it a problem that you don’t like pickles, but I think I can let it slide and actually consider it a good thing because of this specific reason

92. When we were on our way to go bowling when I was super upset I put you in charge of music in the car, and you put on that one Area21 song that I’m always saying I love, and I know it wasn’t like anything big, but like it lowkey meant a lot to me

93. You let me talk about my friends with you. Like you’ll let me explain all of their problems and all of these elaborate theories I have about their lives to you, and you don’t get annoyed with me for doing that. You just let me talk, and it’s nice

94. Bread OH MY GOD. You’ll go with me to get bread even though you know that I’m going to be useless for the next few hours after eating it, and you don’t just look disappointed in me for ignoring my gluten intolerance

95. Soft Girls Club playlist. It’s just so good. It’s so good

96. Same. Christmas. Present. Idea. Trick ass bitch. Lowkey I guess that’s kinda cute though

97. You’re okay with my job. I was really afraid to tell you what I actually did for money because I guess it would make sense for you to not be okay with it, but you are okay with it, and I wasn’t expecting that, so it’s just really cool

98. You don’t get we’rd about me making jokes about how slutty I was, and occasionally you’ll make them too. Some people get really fucking weird about this, and then I feel weird about it, and then it just kills my mood, but you don’t, and that’s great

99. You took care of me when I had my stomach ulcer, and you didn’t get mad at me for literally just sleeping in your bed and puking in your bathroom all day. Bless your soul for putting up with literally all of my health problems

100. I say I love you on accident kinda a lot, and idk maybe I do kinda almost mean it, but it has only been like three months, and it’s way too early to be saying that by normal relationship standards, and you don’t get hella weird about it, which is really nice considering how often I keep doing that

101. You put up with the fact that all of my friends are actually certifiably crazy. Like Alex is getting a little weird about the whole Carlo thing right now, but you’re not getting weird about how she’s getting weird, and you’re being supportive of me being supportive, and it’s just nice

102. Oh man. I literally had a seizure during sex, and you weren’t like hmm maybe this girl is a little too much. Maybe I should save myself. You were just like nah it’s cool

103. You’ll just sit on FaceTime with me when I’m feeling meh. I know it doesn’t seem like much, but you just kinda being there is helpful

104. You still text me back even when I’m being a drunk mess and making no sense. “Son I don’t have water just sink”

105. Drunk you being like I’LL CALL YOU AN UBER RN JUST COME OVER was actually one of the most adorable things ever honestly. I just think about that sometimes and awwww

106. Every single time I hear anything from one of your friends about any conversation you had with them about me before you admitted you were into me is just so cute. Like oh my god of course I liked you back

107. The fact that your twitter is literally four random retweets and three replies to my fwitter account is kinda hilarious. Definitely good enough to count as as reason

108. You’ll talk to me on the phone when I’m driving so that I don’t drive my car off of the bridge. This doesn’t seem that big, but it is

109. You’ve been putting up with the fact that I’ve been a broke bitch for the past few weeks and paying for things like Carlo’s birthday dinner, and I really hate when people do that for me, but also thank you so much for doing that for me

110. You taught me how to find someone’s nipples. Ty for teaching me useful skills

111. No dying rule. It’s a pretty good rule. Glad it exists

112. You don’t hate your ex. Okay I know that this might seem like a weird reason, but I think it says a lot about a person when they can be like okay yeah that relationship didn’t work out, and we were both at fault, and that’s okay, and I wish them the best

113. You’re eskimo brothers with Alex, and I’m eskimo brothers with Carlo. Maybe this shouldn’t count for anything, but it does

114. You believe in me even when my parents don’t, which is really insanely helpful right now. Oh my god 

115. You are so cute in your fancy clothes oh my god. So adorable. I’m so lucky to have you 

116. You’re actually down for beer die with Justin, and he’s hella down. He’s actually trying to coordinate it rn, soooo that would be rad if it actually happened

117. Idk if I’ve said this yet, but Stephen introduced me to you, and that’s actually so great. Like I can trust his opinion on damn near anyone, so the fact that he was like hey this guy is cool says a lot 

118. I know I mentioned vines already, but you quote the vines with me, and that’s so important. Thank you for participating in vine quotes with me 

119. Hanging out with you is literally the best part of my week tbh. Like I just look forward to seeing you, and I’ve never had that feeling before, and it’s great 

120. Your sister added me on Facebook! And I think she’s great, even though I don’t know her yet. Just Slytherin things tbh 

121. I feel like you see the best in me. Like I could hate myself, but I feel like you can’t, which is wild because I’m such a mess 

122. You like Harry Potter. Oh my god that’s so important. I care so much about this fandom, and I’m glad that I don’t have to feel weird about it 

123. We have a Twitter message with Carlo now! I feel like I’ve successfully infiltrated your friend group 

124. Sometimes I make really really bad jokes, and you still laugh at them. I really appreciate that 

125. You’ve never gotten cum in my eyes. I know this sounds weird, but it’s happened enough times that it matters

126. You always help me carry things. It’s so unnecessary 99% of the time, but I still really like it when you do it

127. You let me meet Dan’s girlfriend on FaceTime! Thank you for letting me insert myself into your life in all possible ways

128. The tape. I know there’s a whole post about this already, but thank you so much for looking for my tape with me when I wanted to pretend that was the biggest problem in my life so that I could pretend that my other problems didn’t exist

129. You let me vent to you. Sometimes everything in my life feels like a mess, and honestly there isn’t a whole lot that can fix any of it a lot of the time, but you let me talk to you about it, and that’s honestly the most helpful thing

130. You want to get a candle for your room that I’ll enjoy. THAT’S SO FUCKING SWEET OF YOU OH MY GOD

131. You’re starting to get interested in Carlex. I have shipped them so hard since day one! We can be the Carlex fan club. We can make bracelets!

132. You’re so good at Cards Against Humanity. I don’t understand, but you’re actually ridiculously good at this game. It’s super not fair, but also wow life skills

133. You actually like hanging out with my friends. This is so amazing. You not hating my friends is so important and amazing. Wow. Literally Dakota never let me have friends that weren’t his, and Max hates all of my friends and talks shit about them as soon as they leave, but you’re willing to hang out with them, and that’s so amazing

134. You don’t hate the fact that there was (and there still kinda is) a slutty Michaela. And you aren’t weirded out by my fapchat or the following that it had (has?)

135. We can get hyped about the same concerts together! Like wow. We have Crush, Wobbleland, Brownies & Lemonade, Coachella, and EDC all within the next few months together, and I’m so excited for all of that! 

136. We can still function as individuals without each other. Like you could have your party at your house, and I could go to Nicole’s thing, and obviously I wish that you had been there, but neither one of us is mad at the other for doing different things that night, which is rad

137. Drunk FaceTime calls. Maybe I mentioned these already. I probably did. I just think they’re so funny. And they’re fun. And we can both be drunk and dumb together. And maybe I forget most of what happens and most of what we say on them, but we just kinda keep doing it

138. Even though I was the biggest fucking mess the first time we took acid together, you’re willing to do it with me again. Not only that, but you’re willing to do it with me at a concert. Hell yeah. Let’s go! I’ll be better this time lol

139. You aren’t hella mad that I won’t be able to do anything for Valentine’s Day since I’ll literally be in class until 9:55 that night

140. You have good taste in Girl Scout cookies. This might seem like it’s something small, but I care a lot about Girl Scout cookies

141. You want a dog, which is great because I want a dog, but I live in a small apartment with cats, so I can’t have one, but you can have one, and that’s what matters

142. You watched me put someone’s phone and then my own fist into my mouth, and for some reason you still want to date me. Not sure why, but I’ll take it

143. You’ll drink my (trashy) wine with me. You don’t complain and tell me that it isn’t real wine or that it’s wine for freshmen or something stupid like that. You just drink it with me

144. We somehow (kinda accidentally) got coked out and then drunk and watched Dallas Buyers Club and Moana while you did coding challenges. I guess it doesn’t seem like anything special, but it was just a weird combination of things, and I really enjoyed it, but I also feel like it’s one of those things that I feel like I couldn’t do with other people. Like it was one of those “only with you” things, and idk it was just cool

145. You remind me to take my Lactaid. Thank you for helping me not die

146. I lowkey make fun of you a lot for taking sooooo long to make an actual move on me, but I’m highkey so glad that we had a good friendship first because wow everything is just so great now, and you’re so great, and yeah 

147. You don’t make me feel hella bad about my weird quirks like not wanting to bite things in front of other people or hating metal utensils

148. Naps. You take naps. Naps are so important, and I love naps, but a lot of people hate them. You are not one of those people

149. When I was high af and dancing around on FaceTime last night, you didn’t make me feel like I looked hella dumb even though I know I looked hella dumb

150. Going along with that last reason, when you randomly FaceTimed me, I got so excited. Dillon was in the room with me, and I went from chillin to OH MY GOD MATT IS CALLING ME I’M SO HYPED

151. You help me sort out my life when I start feeling overwhelmed. This is super not your responsibility, but it’s so insanely helpful, so that’s amazing

152. You sat with me on FaceTime until I fell asleep after I came home drunk from the night before at 2 pm on a Sunday. And somehow you thought that was cute? Sounds fake, but okay

153. I posted not so great pictures of you on twitter, and you responded with an embarrassing video of me instead of getting annoyed with me. What more could I want in a significant other?

154. You’re going to be my Coachella buddy when Lauren and I don’t want to see the same artists, and that’s so great!

155. The other day I was talking to Max about you, and I cried because of how great you are and how helpful you’ve been and just everything about you. I cried. Literal tears

156. You sent me one of those obnoxious slutty holiday chain texts that I love, and you didn’t make fun of me for loving those, and you said you would send me more whenever you got them. Wow. Yay

157. Last night when I was walking with Kimmy, we were talking about Crush, Wobbleland, and EDC, and she was like wtf you guys are such a rave couple, and at first I was like nah, but then I was kinda like wait yah.. But like.. It’s cute

158. I can talk to you about how annoying the whole Irlanda/PiKapp situation is without having to worry about everybody finding out about it, which is nice because PiKapp is hella trying to keep it on the down low

159. You don’t hate me for venting about my problems with Irlanda. I don’t get how she’s still a problem in my life, but I also don’t get how I haven’t figured out how to deal with all of this on my own by now

160. Wine and movie nights take literally no effort, and I love them, so I’m glad that you’re willing to do those with me

161. You save my oblivious ass from mosh pits. I might actually be dead without you

162. You don’t mind me hanging out with your friends when you’re not there, which is great because I like all of your friends

163. You actually felt bad about having me kinda surprise meet your sister, which shows that you actually made a note of it when I said that surprise family meetings were the only thing that I could really see myself being upset about, and like yeah it made me really anxious, but it wasn’t terrible

164. I love your sister. She’s smart, and funny, and gorgeous, and definitely a Slytherin, and maybe this shouldn’t count because it’s about her instead of you, but I’m going to count this anyway because your family is an extension of you. I am v worried that I didn’t make the best first impression though, but I guess I’ll just have to try really hard next time

165. We took acid together again, and you didn’t have a drug induced realization that you don’t actually want to date me anymore, so that’s nice

166. You are my boyfriend, my festie bestie, and my rave bae all in one, and that’s the greatest combo ever tbh

167. You got me Asa Akira’s book omfg. I’m mad because I’m a terrible gift giver, and now it’s very clear that you’re an amazing gift giver, so I’m always going to be stressed about gifts now, but omg wow. Great book. Great present. A+

168. You’re interested in going on a concert cruise with me, and so far you are literally the only person who I’ve mentioned this to who is actually willing to try to save up for one

169. You have now dealt with my dumb ass crying uncontrollably while on acid two times. I’m sorry that I do this every time. I don’t know why it happens

170. You have good taste in candle scents. Floral candles are almost always the way to go tbh

171. You don’t hate that I spend an absurd amount of time at your house, which is nice because I love it there (except for the fact that showering there isn’t really a thing)

172. Even though I feel like it probably won’t happen, the fact that you even mentioned trying to get me a little at your house is so amazing. I care so much about littles and my Greek fam, and you know that, and that’s great

173. You will let me talk endlessly about Carlex with you. I know I talk about them a lot, but I just really care about them, and you’ll analyze their relationship with me. It’s like watching reality TV together, but it’s just reality, and it’s not on TV, and it’s our friends

174. You didn’t make fun of me for cooking far too much spinach and then not being able to eat it because I had already eaten toast. Thanks for putting up with me and all of my food issues. Also, please venmo charge me for my food

175. You’ll let me come grocery shopping with you. I know that usually this is seen as a mundane task, but it’s actually something that I really enjoy doing just in general, but especially with you

176. You let me meet your family, which is wild because I don’t feel like I’m impressive enough to be shown off to parents, but for some reason you feel like  I am

177. You didn’t get mad or annoyed with me because I spent the whole first night with your family crying because of how insecure I am about my major (but you did kinda make fun of me for being obvious even when I’m trying to hide that I’m crying, ya dick)

178. You let me meet your friends! I guess you didn’t really have much of a choice here because you kinda had to bring me along, but I’m going to count it. They seemed cool! I mean, one of them said “The BART,” but everything besides that was fine

179. You don’t get mad at me for being literally the worst navigator ever, which is amazing because I suck

180. You went to Holy Matcha with me! I am in love with this cafe, and I obviously can’t go back for a while because I spilled everywhere, but wow I got to have my two favorite things at the same time; Matt and matcha

181. You actually want to spend your spring break with me, which I feel like means a lot because this is your last spring break, and you should be doing fun things, but like.. you’re hanging out with me, and I just feel like you could be doing cooler things tbh

182. You let me get you pants! And honestly you should let me get you more pants because you need more khakis, but this is a start. Baby steps

183. Shinx loves you. She doesn’t just come hang out with anyone. She avoids most of my friends, but she comes and sits on you, which is adorable

184. You don’t get annoyed with my music choice and with my singing in the car, which is super cool because I’m even annoyed with myself

185. You don’t get annoyed with me being obnoxious and taking videos of everything you do, so that’s super nice because I’m going to keep doing it so that I can add more to the video of you, which is super cute tbh

186. You always offer to help me out in any way you can no matter what the situation is, and I know that I always tell you that I appreciate it, but I like really really appreciate it

187. Honestly I keep adding to the video I’m making of you, and it literally just makes me so happy whenever I watch it. Like just seeing it is enough to make me smile, and it’s literally a video that I’ve seen a thousand times, so that’s p special

188. You get drugs for me, which is super nice because I’m generally terrible about getting my own, so ty for that

189. You let me drag you around places in Livermore, and I talk shit about Livermore a lot because it does suck, but it’s also very near and dear to my heart, and I’m glad I got to share my downtown area and my creek with you. Also, next time I’m going to make you go into Donut Wheel with me, just saying

190. I’ve started to not hate black coffee, and that’s because of you. I’m not sure if this is a good thing or not, but I’ll count it

191. You’re supportive of whatever I do, which now includes trying to be friends with Irlanda, and I get that that’s weird, and I def think it’s weird too, but it’s rad that you don’t mind that I’m doing it

192. You’re riding in my car with me and Lauren to Coachella! Excited is a complete understatement when it comes to this. I don’t think there’s a word for how stoked I am that we’re going to all be together for this

193. You don’t get annoyed with me wanting to take pictures together. Honestly, I think I’m more annoyed with myself that you are with me

194. Whenever I get excited about something, you’re the first person I want to tell. Whenever anything cool happens, I want to share that with you because you’re the first person I want to share my happiness with, and idk maybe this shouldn’t count as a reason, but I’m counting it as a reason

195. At this point, I have a toothbrush, shampoo, conditioner, and a bunch of hair ties all living at your house. Thanks for letting me leave things there

196. The drunk texts you send me are absurd and hilarious, and I love them and you

197. You always hype me up whenever I send you a selfie, and it’s definitely annoying because wtf I don’t deserve it, but it’s also kinda nice, and it makes me feel good about myself

198. We can have normal adult conversations whenever we have problems, and oh my god wow. This is wild. A relationship where we can talk to each other about things that bother us and sort out any issues before they become actual issues? Groundbreaking

199. You let me rant about things that I’m passionate about like feminism, sex workers’ rights, and the adult industry, and you don’t complain or tell me that you’ve heard me say it a million times before, and this is all really important to me, so this is really big tbh

200. You’re such an all around amazing human being that I was able to make a 200 point list about things I like and/or appreciate about you, and that’s pretty astounding. I don’t like most people this much, so this is p special.

Also I think I’m going to start making new posts for every 200 points, maybe every 100. It just makes it easier tbh