#Into his heart again 😭😭 not the way two of their scenes lowkey read as a proposal…

[fuumiku]

Chilcille huh... ngl I was a little suspicious. like why would you do that, huh... hope youre not mischaracterizing anyone in your weird and wacky ship. a little weird. but then you said they both had flat asses and you know what? I salute you and your perfect characterization

The fact you seem to think you managed to not make this ask insulting is baffling. What the hell. Fuck off.

If you actually care to be open minded about the ship, I talk about marchil on my sideblog 24/7. Funnily enough I’m currently 4k words deep into an analysis of their character arc together in canon, but that’ll take some more days to get done. Some notable posts:

Of course without counting the analyses of Chilchuck on his own I’ve made, like my masterpost on his family situation. Or better yet you could also read my fics for them, see how weird and wacky they are here.

Wanna talk about mischaracterisation? They’re literally a comedic duo who interacts 24/7. Marchil is crazy bc ppl are like "did those shipper read with their eyes CLOSED?? They have no chemistry!" Meanwhile canon is like: "She’s obsessed with knowing everything she can about him and she reads him like a book." In her eyes he’s like that extra rare and hard and shiny unlockable dating sim character, that brooding mysterious character trope that’s thrilling to crack open and typically is at the center of the plot. The wife roleplay???? "Hey, did you know his type is blondes. Hey did you know he likes his women pretty and blonde. Hey did you know he likes her hair. Hey did you know that he teases her 24/7 and it’s one of the few things that consistently gets him grinning because he finds her reactions cute." Like a schoolyard bully pulling on the pigtails of the girl he likes.

It’s not like they have any thematic narratives or relevance. It’s not like she’ll live to 1000 and has existential dread about it while he’s logically gonna be her next friend to die at 50 and wether it’s romantic or platonic it’ll terrify her to lose him. It’s not like it’s fear of death x fear of rejection so they’re both obsessed with the thought of loss looming, past and ongoing. It’s not like it’s half-elf x half-foot and there’s an inherent journey that was and still is to dispel prejudices and truly come to see each other. It’s not like he’s painfully real and raw and flawed but still a good man, that he’s not the figure of prince charming that she’s always dreamed of while still being virtuous and worth fighting for. Or you know, her hair being golden and it being the epitome of beauty to him, and his hair turning silver and it being Marcille’s worst nightmare.

Just a weird wacky ship who means nothing but shallow things to people who have weirdo reasons for liking it. Like can you not. If you’re not imaginative enough to think of reasons why this ship may have an appealing dynamic that’s not my issue. But yes, yes, they’re both flat asses to me, thanks.

[scattered-winter]

AAAAA i did forget to say that i love my own tag!! i do love to be qpr anon 😭 and i enjoyed it sm to read your thoughts on the points i sent you, i can only give back a *strongly agree* for everything you said, it's like you took my brain and wrote your reply while using it 😂😂 did not expect my opinions to be received that well, i tried to go for admitting the hard stuff because that is usually more fun, so i hope it's okay if i bounce off more ideas based on your reply!! ♥

firstly...... HELL YES join the bucktalia train with me, the finale really made me love them a lot, and i hope we will see much more of them in s7! i have more thoughts on them specifically but i'll stick to the og numbering so it's easier to follow 😂 (this feels lowkey like school, i am so sorry LMAO)

1.) i totally get that the donor storyline squicked you! i was very worried about buck not being able to move on from the baby, with him buying that firefighter-like baby onesie and all... but WOW his maturity? that he helped them simply "because he could"? buck is just such a good person, i think we were shown again just how much he is willing to do to help others and how his help is unconditional as well 😭😭 it melted my whole heart. the callback to buck's wish to be loved by his parents unconditionally... how he called himself "defective" but called his own son "perfect"... just. wow. WOW. the fact alone that he helped during the birth of his own biological child, and he was so confident while doing so!! a masterpiece. i need fics with delivery nurse AU for buck ♥♥♥

2.) jjjjjjooooooooin the bucktalia train 😂😂 no jk no pressure ofc! but but but, i just really like natalia, and how they did things with the little time they had left this season! the couch stood for buck's agency and his peace with himself – he knows who he is, he knows he cannot force anyone to stay in his life if they do not fully accept him or fit his own values (abby, taylor), he knows that his partner must understand and accept his type of lifestyle and the risks related to it (ali), he knows that he won't be happy by living somebody else's version of a good life (i.e., having somebody else's couch instead of his own, which goes for abby, ali, and taylor). and just!!!! buck slowly learning that he is lovable the way he is and that he would rather be alone than settle for somebody who does not love all of him!!!!! it's so important to me. and i do not understand why everyone is saying he regressed! 😭😭 where?!? with every relationship and new experience, buck is learning a lil bit more about himself and his worth imo. it does not have to be linear, and sometimes it's babysteps instead of big jumps, but that's how development works. real humans do not just snap with their fingers and unlearn all their maladaptive behaviors and coping mechanisms either. give buck time ffs @ the fandom!!

2.1.) i am drinking the hot tea that you just served me, bestie. sip sip sip, you are so correct about everything re the buddie agenda and hivemind!! it's crazy to me because i genuinely feel like they almost gaslight themselves and everybody else with what they do?!?! even scenes that are unrelated to buddie are *used* for buddie purposes (e.g. the scene with chim and his dad, about biological fathers), and it's so damn frustrating to me because the facts get twisted and twisted and twisted 😭 like NO!! these scenes weren't even about buddie!!! or worse, they twist everything around to make canon love interests look like the devil when they are often more innocent than buck and eddie themselves (let's not act as if these two are unfailing gentlemen who always treat their women right, c'mon now). and then the fandom gets excited because they come up with some new elaborate theory again, and then they genuinely expect buddie to become canon every single episode. and are disappointed and angry when they aren't. buddie has much bigger problems than that when in 6 veeery long seasons, there was not a single hint dropped that buck or eddie are attracted to men even thought they had plenty of opportunity to do so fjsdfkdshk;; the fun time with headcanons and theories has ended like 3 seasons ago because of the buddie fandom taking over everything... just, ugh.

3.) i could not have said it better. not adding any comment, you spilled the truth.

4.) YES AAAAAA god i can't, i am full of emotions for bucktalia. and yes, she did help deliver the baby in the sense that she got utensils for buck to deliver it, and she also dabbed kameron's forehead with a wet towel etc!! 😭♥ especially the fact that natalia is a death doula has me sooo intrigued. people who work in such a field just have a completely different relation to death, and with grief, and with life (she called herself an "end-of-life doula", which i need everybody to know and think about – how she emphasized the life, not the death)!!! buck's job, his past death, his coma experience, daniel?!? he experienced death himself, he experienced those of others that he tried to save... i just think, in athena's words, maybe natalia is finally the "specific kind of crazy" that can fully accept what buck's lifestyle truly means. because natalia herself has been there to help those that are at the end of their lives – and so has buck. idk idk idk, their professions are different but also so alike! 😭😭

related to that, i LOVED that she wanted to talk to buck about his death experience! there, i said it, and i hate the fandom for twisting it into smth ugly. BUCK was the one joking about his own death, and natalia responded accordingly. it's literally her profession to deal with death, and to accompany people who will die soon on this last journey of their lives. humans have always been interested to know how death feels like, what comes after death... i find her passion 1000% understandable, and tbh? to think that maybe she was looking for an answer about all this, from somebody who was dead before but came back, so that she could be better at helping others?!?!?! i respect and love that idea. what do you think? ♥♥

5.) indeed!! "fandom illiteracy" is my new favorite word, it's so fitting, yes yes yes. and it's ALWAYS just when it's about buddie or a canon love interest that ""threatens"" buddie canonization (as if THAT is what threatens it lol. not the fact that we have yet to see either of them find men attractive?). also omg i originally called eddie an unreliable narrator in my ask but deleted that again bc i didn't wanna come off as too harsh 😂😂😂 and i must add, eddie did not even meet ana at a call! 😂 they met at christopher's school, and he had immediate chemistry with her, so much so that carla immediately side-eyed him for giving her hearteyes. what's that about *magic* and *chemistry* that eddie talked about again?? they reconnected thanks to a call, yes, but it was eddie's choice to ask for a date, and it was eddie who was burdened by past trauma that he had repressed for years, and it was eddie who was not ready for anything serious. ana said "it's your mess now" after he broke up with her in the most ineloquent way possible, after showing that ana was cleaning up his mess in the kitchen. i did not care much about eddieana overall but like... people put all the blame on ana, even for her calling eddie "edmundo", as if eddie is not an adult who can speak and advocate for himself. like, he is just A GUY. maybe the real issue was all his baggage that he hasn't dealt with yet, and not whether or not he met ana on a call. realistically, eddieana was doomed from the start no matter where they met because eddie was simply not ready for anything serious, emotionally and mentally. he would have also not been ready if it was buck, or marisol, or anyone else. that is OKAY. but i NEED the fandom to stop taking everything these characters say as gospel truth, as you fittingly called it. they are fictional, they are tools to tell a story, they are tools to create drama and evoke emotions! and for this, they often talk bullshit to learn a lesson later on. and well, we saw eddie dealing with his trauma finally, and moving forward at his own pace, and being happy to get a date with marisol!

6.) i agree with you on everything here YES. finale gave such great whump, i loved the action and the hurt and the dirty bloody looks and all!! hen wiping away buck's blood????????????? SCREAMING CRYING THROWING UP. i also agree that a bit more time for the recovery part would have been nice. then again, they also did not give us much of that when buck's leg was crushed or eddie was shot. the show often skips parts that would be very satisfactory imo lol. but i love good whump and hurt/comfort so maybe that's just me LOL.

share your fic ideas (ONLY if you feel comfortable doing so) and also i am incredibly sorry this got so long. i will now go hide under a blanket and fangirl about bucktalia dfdfgksdlk;

<33!!

for the sake of not repeating myself because we've both said stuff like this in the other post I'm just gonna say a blanket statement for all these and say HARD AGREE <33

HOWEVER i do want to individually touch on natalia because OUGH. I FORGOT SHE REFERRED TO HERSELF LIKE THAT. OUHG <33 I love that so fucking much.

also YEAH. justice for ana and taylor and ali and abby and natalia and every other character who was in proximity with buddie and suffered more than jesus for it

AND FOR FIC IDEAS i really. don't have a LOT of fully formed thoughts but idk. jee and maddie visiting chim in the hospital. buck (no broken ribs) driving eddie home and maybe staying over for a few days to help him out while he healed. athena + bobby being tender. hen + karen being tender. maybe all the hospitalized 118 get together in a single hospital room and plan a breakout. who can say <3 (this is only fic ideas to fit into the episode. however i have. uh. 50+ wips and aus for other things in this fandom. i have what you might call A Problem)

AND I'D LIKE TO ADD A LITTLE DISCLAIMER HERE. BECAUSE I'VE BEEN A HATER FOR THE PAST FEW DAYS BUT I NEED TO SET SOMETHING STRAIGHT. i LOVE buddie. i do. i love their tenderness, and their intimacy, and their friendship, and i love what they have, and i love what they could have. i love slowburns, and i love friends to lovers, and i love coparenting, and i genuinely love looking at them through a romantic lens because it sparks joy !! and i also love looking at them through a qpr lens because it sparks joy !! they spark joy in any capacity !!! my gripes with buddie are at the FANDOM LEVEL, not w the sillies onscreen. its because other characters and relationships are shoved out of the way, or twisted, or put down to prop buddie up, and its because its SO HARD to find meta, fic, or anything else in this fandom that focuses solely on any of the other incredible characters, pairings, or themes in this show because everything's always about You Know Who and You Know Who Else. I know I've been kinda spiteful toward them lately but I just wanna say that it's stemming from frustration of watching characters constantly be demonized/ignored/shoved aside so that Buddie Can Work(tm) as opposed to me actually hating the pairing. ty goodnight <3

[wildernessuntothemselves]

The final chapter 😭 that's some heavy emotions I've felt while reading your work.

I was rooting for Tyun for the longest time to have a happy ending with OC; I really like how he boosted OC's confidence and his stuble acts of love towards her, even tho their both too blind to acknowledge and appreciate that. He has his own ways.

But this chapter reminded me of Gyu's exceptional love for OC. If only he's not that sick in the head, he'll surely flatter our hearts with all his actions (well, he still does lmao).

The sword stabbing scene made me sob, like I cannot believe it, the day we see them die is finally here after all the atrocities and dumb decisions they' ve done. Whatta life they've wasted just to be go back forth to each other; troubling others just to end up the same fate. A war really broke out without the expected outcome. OC didn't even return back to Tyun, after her all attempts to save him 😭

Our king and queen must been really in love with each other, being together since they were young and immature. Maybe its their circumstances that made them turn out this way; their love seeing as something rotten and unacceptable (that is why gyu has to step up).

Gyu's ILY's and wish to not let him wait for so long in the afterlife 😭 Lowkey wan't them to meet again in different and better circumstances 😭

Thank you again for this magnificent work! Have a nice weekend and take your breaks too!

(neways Im not romanticing any bad behaviors here, their all sick in the head, we know. Just dwelling on my emotions after finishing this series TT TT)

well it would've been super hard to oc and tyun to end up together. tyun would've had to win the war and oc would've had to kill gyu in order to absolve her of all she's done while also somehow evading getting executed for killing him and somehow figuring out what to do with gyu's son. it never could've worked out and that exactly was gyu's plan. she only had two options: let taehyun be killed or kill gyu and get executed.

i'm glad that even though you rooted for oc and tyun, you still felt the love and melancholy of oc and gyu's fate.

maybe if oc knew all of this was going to happen, she wouldn't have left in the first place :')

sadly they won't be meeting in better circumstances at all as now they're cursed by the gods lmao

thank you babe and i totally understand that you're not romanticizing the toxic behaviors don't worry

[aquagustd]

Okay so maybe I cried when reading the Lisp Holiday special because 😭😭😭 it’s literally so perfect. And the ending with the snakoo pet name YANKED at my heartstrings.

Lowkey a part of me wishes that mc got back at him or made him mad because the whole stunt he pulled with Byeol was just SO assholey 🤧 but at the same time, it was integral to show that he has grown and learned to keep his temper in check. If he didn’t, I don’t think it would have ended too well for Jimin 😩 speaking of which, what ever happened to Byeol anyways in the last scene 🔍 I just know she’d throw a fit knowing that jungkook highkey just used her to get back at mc

Also the way he just snuck into mc’s room with his glowing red eyes in the dark watching her sleep like some kind of sleep paralysis demon is SO awkwardly funny to me like 🐍

🔴 👅 🔴

But my heart broke while reading the story because I was so confused at first before it slowly revealed what happened between the two from where they left off in the last chapter and then I was like “oh nO” it’s the whole miscommunication ruining everything again trope like in ATG 😭

But I truly love what you’ve done with Lisp and the direction you gave it, especially with writing it in a way that we as the readers are aware of how much both characters feel for one another and their love and personal struggles— just beautiful 🥹. Also while writing this, I realized that 2 months from now would be the 1 year anniversary of Lisp, I can’t believe how fast time flies 🎉 I’m so happy to have stumbled across your blog and to see how much you’ve grown in your journey as an author 🥰💕

1 year for snakoo 🥺🥺 omg time flies. i’m happy you enjoyed it <3 lmfaoooo snakoo is oc’s sleep paralysis demon lmfao 💀 i’m gonna post a drabble about what happened after with byeol 👁 since this part was mostly about their reconciliation etc, but yeah we got a peek into their character better & at least jk is doing something about his short temper …

oc was too heartbroken to even think about getting back at him 🥲 she wasn’t her bad bitch self like she was in the last 2 parts 😔 overall i’m happy you liked the direction of lisp, i tried my best not to make it cliche bc most hybrid fics i’ve read follow a similar story line & this was different with subtle hints to prejudice against hybrids. tysm ash ♡

[saintobio]

hello !! this was such a good chapter 😩 i have no regrets reading it first thing in the morning HAHAHAHA

i just wanted to say that it’s so funny how like,, the stuff gojo’s been complaining about the way he’s being treated this chapter,,,, is exactly the same way he’s been treating yn the entire time,,,,,, but he’s not ready for that conversation🤡📸

AND THE BORA BORA THING !!!! miss girl that whole interaction had me missing toji so bad i reread every scene in the givenchy store just to be called mrs zenin again 🤓

thank u for this long, beautiful chapter ai! and please get some rest :( i was reading through your asks the other day, and now i just wanted to let u know that i (and i’m sure others too) don’t mind waiting for you if you ever decide to take a break for the sake of your health ok :( please take care of urself!!

@tobeeeoh said

Heyyyy thanks for the new update of SN!! AMAZINGGGG CHAPTER AS ALWAYS HNGGGHH😭 istg sera always comes in at the worst time ASSDHSHAKAL

the one when y/n deleted her photo from gojo's phone left a crack on ma heart. GOJO WOULDNT BE ABLE TO SEE HER PHOTO IF SHE LEAVES AND HE DESERVES IT😤😤

okay now i read your schedule and AGAIN!! pls find time to rest and take care of yourself hun❤️

@brokennerdalert said

Where to begin with Satoru? I cant even with him! I mean he's getting better(kinda? Bitch doesn't know what he wants. He needs to make up his mind) I have to say it but I lowkey hope something happens and MC ends up with Toji. And Satoru will come groveling back and MC being the QUEEN she is, is gonna be like 'ew. no bitch, be gone' And then he dies alone. The End

@atsumusoup said

Gojo got some mad mommy issues 😮‍💨 but ig I understand 🙄 very much looking forward to that Bora Bora trip for some dramarama tho ��

@miyarins said

we really said girl boss this chapter <3

but your power to make me feel such emotions is immaculate. i love u

@lcveaesop said

HELLO??? THE NEWST CHAPTER?? HELLO??

GAAAAA i'll make this quick ik there's gonna be alot soon in your inbox but i just wanted to say i really really REALLY LOVED THIS CHAPTER FOR A LOT OF REASONS!

We got to see more of gojo's pov, y/n's conflicting feelings as to how to treat him (WE'RE CONTEMPLATING SELF-RESPECTIVE DECISIONS Y'ALL) sera can suck ass, and oh my gof sowiaja the childhood scene😭😭 (im a sucker for childhood aus and this hit the spot) lots of thoughts for your series, i truly didn't mind thw wait! good job but pls don't pressure yourself to write more!

@burguhndy said

I was out here reloading my feed waITING FOR THIS!!! the TWO SMUT SCENES????? GOJO BEING NICE??? SERA BEING THROWN TO THE SIDE LIKE THE MISTRESS SHE IS 😭 ???

the funniest part was that i started reading this fic on google chrome whenever id search random jjk fics to read but i got so intrigued that i downloaded tumblr and made an account to keep up like 😭😭 i feel 13 again

ALSO ALSO hope youre doing well! You are a great writer and i hope you are getting rest. Please dont listen to those mean ass anons, they obviously don’t understand that you’re a real person with real shit to do in life. Anyways bye <3

@dumplingzumispam said

as someone who's been in mc in a gojo sera relationship (minus the marriage and getting together before gojo sera),, it kind of hurts when people call her dumb or they say why can't she leave lmfao😭 like i wish it were that easy tbh,, especially when they're consistently hot and cold but choose to prioritize the side once they come back in the picture

they build you up and make you think you're the only one in their eyes just to bring it down with some genuine act of love towards the side.. it's like a constant battle between mind over heart where yk u should leave but u want to stay in hopes that things will get better

also,, take ur time with the updates :) prioritize ur health whether it is physical or mental🖤 u should come first before writing,, we care about u and ur wellbeing 😚 it's okay if we gotta wait a long time bc regardless of how long it takes u to post,, ur works are true masterpieces

HELLO BESTIES <333 thanks sm for reading the last chapter and i am sosoo glad that u guys liked it !! i loved reading these reactions and feedback :’) and i will def need to rest moreeee hhhhhh

[sukirichi]

HFHDHHDHHSHSH SUKIIIIIIIIIII I SAW THE ALTERNATIVE ENDING UPDATE AND I-

BCHDHDHHSSHSHHS also my friend wants to complain about his lost eardrums cause he said i might have made him deaf thank to the banshee scream i let out 😌✌️

HCHDHDHHDBDBS NOW WHERE DO O EVEN START?? BRO I- WHILE THE OTHER ENDINF HAD ME IN TEARS THIS ONCE JUST MADE ME SMILE SO HARD MY CHEEKS STARTED TO LEGITIMATELY HURT?? HDHDHHDHSHHS LIKE OMFG I DIDNT REALIZE HOW MUCH I MISSED THESE TWO DORKS BXHDHHDHDHHS I COULDNT HELP OT BUT START AIR KICKING ONCE THEY FINALLY SAW EACH OTHER AFTER 8 YEARS FHCHHDHDHSJ AAAAAAAAAA

Ayoo but mt heart kinda clenched when suna notice y/n wasn't wearing her seatbelt so he reached over to buckle it himself... It kinda made me feel like in a way he was making sure that he wouldnt lose y/n in the same way mary died and oh boy..... Even if he doesnt check it willingly, he really got scarred from it....

But omfg when they were just talking while staring at the stars like they used to AND AND SUNA WAS JUST FHDHGDHDGSGHAHS FUCKKKKKK SUKI I LOVE YOUR SUNA SO MUCH JESUS WOMAN HES JUST SO GENTLE AND DEVOTED AND LOYAL I CANT 😭😭😭😭

And thank FUCK she asked him to go with him cause if she didnt I WOULD RIOT FHDHSHHSH

:)

:))))

Suna wasnt given the chance of asking y/n for marriage after they graduated cause she left him

Suna wasnt given the chance of asking mary to marry him cause she 'left to london' 🙄🙄🙄🙄

Can you imagine how happy i was when i finally saw him asking y/n marry me...... OMFG I WANTED TO CRY I- I WANT TO HUG HIM SO BAD OMFG

And girl 👀👀👀 i saw hos you sneaked kita in fhdhhdhdhsh i laughed especially hard when suna went like: even i feel like i'd be happy id i ended up with him' Pls suna shut up 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

I

'but id love it even more if you could sit on top of my face. I want to kiss a different pair of lips tonight'

No but we already talked about this and as much as i still see the original ending the canon one i truly felt like i was in a happy dream in this one. I cant put in words how happy and nostalgic i felt while reading this, it truly made me miss the times i was waiting for an update of this series dhdhdhhshs br for sure is my fav fic and will keep on being for a long long time. Thank you so much for accepting our commissions and for always feeding us good food *huggles* you really are an amazing and talented writer and fuck as i felt like y/n was more distant and mature in the original ending here i felt like albeit more mature she still kept the childish shine in her yeah? And that made me so so happy

Thank you again for this suki 💕💕💕

HFHFHHDHDHDHJS i missed ranting like this

Also they named their daughter semi BRUH MY MIND GLITCHED CAUSE I THOUGHT ABOUT SEMI EITA FHDHHDHDHSH

YOOOO KYA IM SORRY FOR THE LATE RESPONSE

ALSO BANSHEE SCREAM OMG AHSJKAA. no omg i also missed them a lot when i was writing it, like i ALMOST forgot these two were best friends and partners in crime for EVERYTHING like no matter what happened, they tried to be there for each other but in the original ending, they had to say goodby eventually and that shit reallly hurts like it HURTS so writing the alt ending was very healing for me lol. and the seatbelt scene, yeah !! he was watching out for her because i dont think suna can handle losing one more person he cares about.

NAUUURR BCOS BROKEN RECORDS SUNA... lowkey my dream guy with the mari thing aside, i would really fall in love with br! suna. he is a super gentle person and hes always patient + EXTREMELY DEVOTED SO ??? yeah come here. (self insert a random thought but it would honestly be easier to break up with suna if he had been a bad person, but instead he was someone who loved and cared with his whole heart - MAN IS JUST A LITTLE CONFUSED SOMETIMES but cmon hes human - and yeah idk, i honestly cant even imagine what it feels like to be in rintaro's shoes.)

THE SCENE WHERE SUNA ALSO LOWKEY CRUSHED ON KITA LMFAOOOO no bcos kita is too perfect to be real.

and omg thank you so much i'm happy to know this'll be your favorite fic YOURE GONNA MAKE ME CRY LOL. and yeah you're right about that - YN in the original ending felt "distant" but that's mostly bcos she and Rintaro aren't on the same... wavelength anymore, if that makes sense. like she grew up and matured faster than him, SHE was able to move on easier than he did, and Suna was still stuck in the past with her as said from his lines that, "i dont love you anymore" even though he does and he always will. YN really has no feelings for him anymore other than platonic, but in the alt ending, i feel like they were more aligned to how they had been in the series from ch1-9. like you said, their playfulness and youth was still there !!

HELPPP NOT SEMI EITA AHSJAKA ALTHO HES HOT TOO, HE REALLY IS