#Literally just decided one day “hey im gonna take literally all my current ocs and just mash them together in one universe”

[spear-gsun]

A character i designed in class today, got the assignment to make a character and for some reason i was thinking about bells I realized while making her that she'd actually fit into my oc world pretty well and add some really interesting stuff

Have not come up with a name for her yet unsurprisingly, so lets just call her Bell Goat(sheep? cow?) Grandma for now

Also heres the sketches from when i was trying to come up with ideas, first i drew the bells in the corner, then the person in the top right, and then the sketch i ended up refining

[thosch3i]

Hi hi! So the lost tombs and chronology all super confuse me. So tlt2 ended on a cliffhanger that was not resolved by tlt3 which is ultimate note, but now there is another tlt3 that I am guessing is made by the same studio as tlt2 (but not UN) that actually follows tlt2? And it has the same WPZ as tlt2 (but sadly different WX, ZQL though I’m sure these guys are great). You seem to know what you’re talking about so I’m hoping you can help!

UN also ended on a cliff hanger so I’m wondering if they’ll get a sequel from their studio that comes before tomb of the sea.

ahhh hello anon! yes ahaha the dmbj dramas are certainly very confusing--because they keep switching the screenwriters/entire production team between dramas. huanrui did tlt1 (2015), tlt2 (2019), and the sequel to tlt2 (2021). they're also technically the production company for un (2020), but linghe did like all the directing/casting/writing so its significantly different in tone and quality from the other dramas huanrui produced. npss (dmbj author) did sha hai (2018) and tltr (2020), with sha hai being in collab with linghe, so you can see lots of parallels with un and shared cast. (gonna add that i dont know much about the m9 because that’s not what im personally interested in, so i’m only going by stories with wu xie & the iron triangle.)

unfortunately, the dramas pretty have no continuity as a result of all the weird shit and multiple studios doing different dramas and messy stuff going on behind the scenes. the author's production company currently has all the rights back for filming future dramas, which is......imo, a good thing for book fans who love the author but a 😬 thing for book fans who like the original story more than what the author is now doing with it. I'll uh avoid saying too much opinion stuff though so no more on that 😅

that aside! yes 云顶天宫 “explore with the note” part 2......is the direct sequel to tlt2 and done by the same studio. unfortunately the writers are different and im not sure how much of the production team is the same either. idk how much you know about the novels so brief summary here--for the chinese version, the main story has 9 parts split among 8 books (though the official eng tls have each part being a different book) with some important content being as follows:

official eng title “cavern of blood zombies” (first time wx goes into a tomb, first t3j meeting)

official eng title “angry sea, hidden sands” (xisha seabed tomb, introduce a-ning)

official eng title “bronze tree of death” (bronze tree in qinling, wx & lao yang solo adventure)

official eng title “palace of doom” (heavenly palace on the clouds, introduce bronze gate)

official eng title “deadly desert winds” (golmud, introduce hei xiazi, desert, rainforest, tamutuo)

official eng title “graveyard of a queen” (the rest of that arc, wu sanxing & xie lianhuan reveal, jade meteorite, amnesiac xiaoge and escape, sanshu vanishes for good--also i think the official eng tl covers a couple chapters of the beginning of the next part too)

阴山古楼 (searching for xiaoge’s memories in banai, miluotuo cave, i think introduction of wu erbai)

邛笼石影 (auction/hotel iron triangle fight, introduce xiao hua & xiuxiu, wx & xh on the mountains alone while pz & xg go with granny huo)

finale (rescue from zhang family mansion, changbai mountain goodbye, 10 years promise)

after the main story are the main sequels:

zang hai hua (tibetan sea flower; unfinished & abandoned) covers wu xie a few years after xiaoge has entered the gate, searching to understand xiaoge’s past

sha hai (tomb of the sea; unfinished & abandoned) covers wu xie’s plan to wipe out the wang family, after zhh

chongqi (reunion: the sound of the providence) covers wu xie’s lung disease and how he recovers from that, set after they pick up xiaoge again from the bronze gate. thunder city and everything.

灯海寻尸&万山极夜 (still updating on wechat) don’t worry about this one since it’s still a WIP lol

btw between sha hai and chongqi there’s also ten years later (a short story) that covers how wu xie and pangzi pick up xiaoge from the bronze gate and take him home

the dramas Do Not Connect To Each Other At All, which the exception of tlt2 & tlt2 pt2 somewhat, but they go in this order:

盗墓笔记 / the lost tomb 1 (2015): covers part 1 but with major OCs and filler, and includes the auction scene from part 8 for some reason, so introduces xiao hua early.

怒海潜沙&秦岭神树 / the lost tomb 2 (2019) technically “explore with the note”: covers parts 2 & 3 but with major OCs and filler, introduces xiao hua & xiuxiu (and hei xiazi briefly) early. last couple episodes also cover the beginning of part 4. not a direct sequel to tlt1 despite being done by the same studio.

云顶天宫 / heavenly palace on the clouds (2021) technically also “explore with the note”: covers part 4 with major OCs and filler (and the same changes carrying over from tlt2). some episodes are identical to the last couple episodes of tlt2. works as a direct sequel only if you ignore the last couple episodes of tlt2 that take place in the snowy mountains. (those episodes of tlt2 were filmed after this drama was filmed, and im still not sure why they dragged the wu xie and xiaoge from tlt2 back to changbai mountain to film those episodes.)

终极笔记 / ultimate note (2020): covers parts 5-8 with minor OCs and minimal filler, also introduces xiao hua & xiuxiu early. the only adaptation that resembles its source material most of the time.

沙海 / tomb of the sea (2018): covers the second sequel with major OCs and filler. includes some bits from zhh and the short story “three days of silence”.

重启之极海听雷 / the lost tomb reboot (2020): covers third sequel with major OCs and filler.

in addition there is the prequel series mystic nine (2016) and side movies for the dramas that the author produced. there is also a single standalone movie--time raiders (2016) that is....well it’s. very strange. it’s fully subbed on youtube if you’re interested?

the best way to watch the dramas is to assume each one is its own self-contained AU set along different points of the dmbj timeline because even the dramas the author himself worked on don’t have continuity LOL (and with the exception of ultimate note & sha hai most of the time, also assume most characters are pretty OOC from the novels).

i uh regret to inform you though, that ultimate note will not be getting a sequel unless the author magically decides to not care about making money anymore and sells the rights to film the finale to linghe or something ^^;;;; it’s....unfortunate bc un is the most highly-rated dmbj adaptation on douban by A Lot, but it’s an adaptation that the author had literally nothing to do with whatsoever.

more information on some of the side movies/stage plays/manhua/donghua here.

summaries of the main novel stories (currently through zhh) here.

edited mtl (some of which has apparently been looked over by native cn speakers) of the novels following where official eng tls end here. (there are many scattered extras as well.)

you can get the official eng tl books/ebooks on amazon or elsewhere(?), but if you have problems purchasing them or like you just dont wanna support amazon or something, dm me off anon. (also i dont want to be mean but frankly the official tls are kinda bad too ^^;;;)

a rough timeline (spoilers galore) for the dmbj novels here. (fair warning im not 100% sure how accurate all of this is--they put three days of silence as 1991 but looking at the info in zhh, it seems like it should have been before the 1950s...but it’s more than fine as a general overview.)

anyway i hope that was helpful in some way? dmbj is a Very Confusing thing to get into ahahaha, one of my twitter mutuals has made a few carrds if you think they might be helpful: book, dramas (slightly out of date bc it says heavenly palace hasn’t aired yet), ultimate note (got its own carrd by virtue of being the only adaptation aside from sha hai sometimes that most og book fans acknowledge lol ^^;;;)

also anon if anything wasn’t clear or if you had more questions feel free to ask again sorry ahahaha im kinda tired rn @.@ 

[ladyadalicialove]

Me, says I will be on hiatus and probs won’t post anything cus exams and essays

Also me: procrastinating very hard

Don't mind me just salty about the new episode and what not...also I don’t want to finish my essay.

Anyway since Chat Blanc was basically fanservice that served no significant purpose to the plot of the show other than "what if" scenarios. I've decided to share some AUs to put some good wholesome content back into the fandom. 

Also I need to write these things down before I forget....

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Previous Holder is now your Babysistter AU

(I don’t have an actual name for it lmao suggestions?)

I’ve had this one in head for a couple of months now. The premise of this AU is the miraculous doesn't just come with the Kwami but a ghost/apparition of the previous holder. Unlike the kwami's they aren't what makes the suit or have any magical abilities. Rather they are just glorified babysitters, looking after and guiding the new holder the best they can. Some are some magical rules with them though:

Only the miraculous holder and thier Kwami can see them, when they are still in their civilian forms.

 They don’t disappear when the holder transform.

When other miraculous holders are transformed they can see other holder’s apparition, but when they undo the transformation they can no longer see them. 

The holders and kwamis can touch them as if they were real, but they phase through everything and everyone else.

I liked the idea of the holders prior to Marinette and Adrien being a pirate and a sailor who fell madly in love. They unfortunately died together and never had kids so when they came back as “mentors” for two lovesick teens they adopt them so quickly.

Adrien gets Captain Noir, the most ferocious and seductive pirate of the seven seas! And she absolutely adores Adrien and quickly assumes a motherly role in his life. The captain doesn’t like that he is alone in the mansion and gives every second of her attention to him. She calls him her "big kitten" and tries to ruin Gabriel's day every second she can. She also despises Nathalie but tolerates Gorilla.

Marinette gets Commander Bug, a stoic and ever so suave solider of his majesty's Royal Navy. He is very chill and helps Marinette to calm down when she starts acting up. Since he is a high ranking soldier, he often assists Marinette in creating strategies to defeat villains in both her hero and civilian life. Tbh he is a very reliable guy and very sweet. 

Honestly the two of them basically become parents to the two lovesick teens... and I imagine the story would literally be them ready to throw hands with Gabriel and Lila. Commander bug though ever so serious, meets Lila and immediately takes on the Captain Noir’s more... vulgar traits. 

Commander Bug: Hey Marinette *nudges her* Dead men tell no tales. 😎 *makes obscene gesture towards Lila*

Marinette: FOR THE LAST TIME IM NOT MURDERING LILA

Tikki: no wait maybe he has a point

Captain Noir: Ye really need to scupper that deadbeat father of yours off the side of this building. Hey Plagg, do ye think I can take custody of Adrien??

Adrien: I’m not throwing my father off the building!! He can be nice!!

Captain Noir: Oh no ye have Stockholm syndrome... maybe I can cure it with some rum?? That always helped the new sailors who were home sick! 😱

Adrien: oh my god I’m only fourteen 😦

Plagg: *laughing hysterically* at least you can drink your woes away!!! 😂🤣

And yes they both like the Couffaines mainly because they live on a boat. 

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The Mythical Miraculous AU:

I wrote and planned this one before it was revealed there are multiple miraculous boxes. So in this universe let’s just say that the events of feast never happened. Prior to the “episode” Fu relinquishes guardianship and loses his memories. Let’s say there is no sentimonster that caused the downfall of the monks but rather Fu causing the temple to burn down another way. How? Maybe he left a torch unsupervised and burned the place down. Why? Idk that’s just how it’s happening now.

Anyway this AU stemmed from doing so many OC drawing requests in January. And I created seven miraculous OC's whose kwamis/concept are based on the seven virtues. They are also all based on mythical creatures.

In the story I imagined that Marinette is 17 and was giving guardianship over the miracle box some time ago. One day while messing around with it, she discovers that underneath the ying and yang centre piece there was cyclinder compartment that contained a parchment. Unrolling it had printed on it six locations along with the name of the miraculous associated.

Tikki informs her of the seven miraculous that were created as backups if the the miracle box or miraculous’ were ever stolen, lost, destroyed etc. Basically the last resort. Thus they needed to be kept out of the miracle box and in the world and always ready to defend. Hence they were given to families across Europe/Asia who promised their loyalties to the miraculous cause. 

Marinette decides since it’s summer break and she isn’t busy, to find each of them and get them to help in the fight against Hawkmoth. Tikki just rolls with it.

In no particular order these are the mythical miraculous and their holders:

London, UK ~ The Unicorn and Pegasus Miraculous of Kindness and Humility: They are currently owned by 12 year old British Twins, Iris and Ivy. They come from a rich family and only recently acquired the miraculous from their father and uncle. Ivy is all about sports and is extremely athletic, Iris prefers to read and paint. Apollo is Ivy’s kwami and he is a white unicorn, and Artemis is Iris’ kwami and is a black pegasus. The miraculous are anklets. 

Sovana - Tuscany, Italy ~ The Ogre Miraculous of Charity: Currently owned by Raphael, a 21 year old Italian guy studying Archaeology. He lives out in the Italian countryside with his parents and many siblings, he has a big family who owns a huge block of farmland. He is super kind and very charitable and received his miraculous from his Nonna. Orc is Raphael’s kwami and he is a selfish little bastard but he is huggable. The miraculous is a belt buckle.

Nice, Paris ~ The Pooka Miraculous of Diligence: Currently owned by Colette, a 25 year old French girl who is busy teaching six year olds, she doesn’t have any family as she was orphaned as an infant. She has always had her miraculous as she was left at the orphanage with it. She was unfortunately never adopted out, but she is extremely motivated individual with big dreams. Cinna is Colette’s kwami, she is quite lazy and often called Cinna-bun. The miraculous is a hair clip.

Kazan, Russia ~ The Phoenix Miraculous of Chastity/Abstinence: Currently owned by Orion, a flamboyant and arrogant 30 year old. He is extremely beautiful and a very proud man, and most would think he is a bit of a f*ckboi but nope. He is just saving himself for the right person. His father gifted him the miraculous when he was 15. Newborn is Orion’s kwami, and she is little b*tch and very stuck up. The miraculous is an armband.

Nazareth, Israel ~ The Griffin Miraculous of Patience: Currently owned by Nevaeh, a 16 year old revolutionist and active feminist. She has big ideas and big dreams that she hopes with enough dedication and patience she can achieve. Unlike the others, she received the miraculous from her dying neighbour, who was an old man in his nineties who had no children. Nevaeh may not be an intended holder but she is a brilliant one! Constance is Navaeh’s kwami, she is extremely wise and a soft speaker. The miraculous is a thumb ring. 

Seoul, Korea ~ The Sea Serpent Miraculous of Temperance: Currently owned by 19 year old aspiring pop singer Levi. Levi is extremely shy and laid back, he tends to be soft-spoken and polite.Often he dreams of being an Idol but his shy personality isn’t doing him any favours. His older brother was originally the miraculous holder but instead of accepting any potential responsibility he dumped it onto him. It was originally gifted to his brother by their mother. Sai is Levi’s kwami, he is extremely skittish and is just riddled with anxiety over the belief of the world ending. He is a bit of a conspiracy theorist. The miraculous is a fin pendant necklace.

Of course Marinette in three months convinces them all to go to Paris and stay there until the defeat of Hawkmoth. 

During her travels and time with them, she unravels the mysterious of these seven miraculous and their history. What are their abilities? Why do they specifically correlate with the seven virtues? How powerful are they? 

Ivy and Iris stemming from a rich family, rent out a lovely penthouse for the seven of them in Paris. Colette decides to be the legal guardian of the minors since she actually is French. Orion decides he is gonna be a dick. The rest are there for a good time and to kick a buterrfly's butt. And thus ensue chaos, pranks, romance and a whole lotta arguing. 

I can only imagine all the kwami’s and Marinette sitting, drinking green tea while watching these seven holders become absolute hooligans.

I already drew up concept art of them but they are not good sketches so yeah maybe I will show you guys another time.

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Idk why I think this but I just figured everyone would hate AUs like this so I don’t bother posting these ideas especially if they are not fleshed out. I have so many but these are my most promising ones. 

The previous holder AU is one of my favourites because I had Captain Noir and Commander Bug’s story in my head forever. I love me some pirates. I know their whole miraculous story, like how they fell in love and why she became a pirate etc. The part where they become ghost mentors is a fairly new addition, been rolling it around for a month now and it is 100% caused by the shitty parenting via la agreste.  

The mythical miraculous one is extremely fun for me, but it was one of those AUs were I believed no one would like it so....yeah enjoy it?

If you wanna know more about each one send me an ask or send names suggestions!!

[aro-aizawa]

Tell us about your AUs!! I’m curious!!

!!!!! an interested person???? hi anon i love you know that i would die for you without hesitation. bless you for letting me gush over my aus. this might be a lil messy (and long holy shit) considering im answering from my phone but from memory here are my aus (which i aint gonna lie are mostly either angst, hurt/comfort or canon divergent, or a mix of the three) in no particular order:

edit: now that im on computer it’s all under the cut but here’s a quick table of contents:

the one where hisashi is a pro hero

the one where hisashi is a villain

underground gladiator arena kidnap fic

the one where aizawa is inko’s brother

MUTE TODOROKI

izuku is related to all for one

gamer au

the one where uraraka is the protag instead

hp au

disney aus galore

the Spite™️ fic

the one where hisashi is a pro hero

heads up in literally none of my aus is midoriya hisashi a good parent. i mean in canon we know exactly three details about him being his name, his quirk and that he works abroad. that’s it. so, i don’t really like “good parent hisashi”. this au is basically ‘hey what if izuku got a fire quirk from his dad’ combined with my own personal views on fire, and then also deciding ‘wait what if hisashi and endevor did the same shit’. so it’s basically an au where izuku is in the same situation as todoroki.

it’s….kind of complicated now that it’s written down. in my head its p straight forwards?? anyways, basically my view on fire is that it absolutely shouldn’t be demonized as much as it is. because without fire, life couldn’t exist. it’s warmth and life and beauty. i just…think that view of it is perfect for izuku, and i always wanted to try my hand at fire quirk izuku.

also one of my few aus that’s actually gonna have a ship focus?? in that it’s tododeku but honestly knowing me i might end up accidentally dropping that aspect of it like i tend to do a LOT bc of my inability to write crushes (im an aro who’s never had a crush so me writing romance is…awkward at best lol)

the one where hisashi is a villain

i have……admittedly a lot of versions of this au. it’s by far one of my favourites to think about, for several reasons actually, mostly bc of angst but also because the hurt/comfort potential there is incredible.

my most current version of this au though plays with the idea that in the mha society those with ‘villainous’ quirks get discrimated against and pushed so the only chance they do have to survive is to turn to villainy. in this au i play with hisashi and inko’s quirks a little to make them more villainous and easier to discriminate against, for example hisashi can cremate anything he touches into ashes at will, and inko can minorly manipulate the limbs of other people although she’s mainly limited to pulling them towards her or pushing them back.

in this version, izuku is quirkless and still goes through ua determined to change the way that society works and right the wrongs in how it’s set up while also proving that quirkless people aren’t useless. a lot of dadzawa in this one because it is my w e a k n e s s. there’s a few other elements thrown in there, but overall that’s the basic jist of it.

underground gladiator arena kidnap fic

one of my darker aus where a group of villains kidnap kids who took the ua exam to create an “everything goes” fight club that customers can watch and occasionally participate in.

my general idea for this was “the sports festival is pretty brutal when you think about it. it’s almost like everything but killing goes” and then i thought that in a superpowered society there is no way there isn’t any kind of underground fight club where people can go full out w their quirks.

hence this au was born! the kids who’re kidnapped w izuku have been constantly changing over the ladt year or so that i’ve had this idea but rn i decided on having shinsou, kaminari, mina, tokoyami and yaoyorozu w him. the rest would be filled w ocs bc the villains weren’t dumb enough to kidnap all of the heroics students, just a handful.

bearing in mind the kids are all taken a couple days after the entrance exam so they’re not familiar with each other and izuku is the only one familiar w a pro hero and that’s a secret. not to mention he’s only used his quirk once at this point, and he has no access to recovery girl’s quirk so he has to figure smth out IMMEDIATELY or he’s completely fucked.

the one where aizawa is inko’s brother

look if you inspect my aus carefully you’ll see a theme and that theme is i fucking love aizawa. anyways, in this one izuku has a pretty powerful nullification quirk and is trained by aizawa. aizawa and inko have like an eight or ten year age difference, so they weren’t all that close until inko reached out when izuku was eight.

i’ll admit this is one of my lesser developed aus but it’s canon divergent with a focus on izuku hoping to be an underground hero. and due to his quirk and that aspect of his personality, it kind of changes a lot of things??? potentially a short(ish) au if i ever got round to writing it out. maybs about 20k-30k words idk.

(this is mostly born bc i feel like people forget that there’s only a fifteen year age difference between aizawa and izuku for a number of reasons. also bc inko/aizawa….is kind of weird in my mind. definitely not a fan :///)

MUTE TODOROKI

look i fucking love mute aus okay, but when i was trying to apply it to the mha universe i started thinking “holy shit todoroki could definitely be mute” or smth and ever since this au is close to my heart.

basically when poor rei burned lil shouto, she mentally scarred him into mutism. ever since the kettle incident, shouto can’t speak a word. endeavor is told by the doctor that although nothing physically is wrong, shouto is mute. endeavor is a DICK and p much decides he’ll just wait it out for shouto to finally talk bc he’s just being childish (basically he’s ablist and doesn’t let todoroki learn sign. which is bullshit but doesn’t majorly effect him bc he’s homeschooled until high school anyway).

it’s sort of canon divergent but also maybe a complete au??? in that there’s no league of villains. when all might fought afo the first time he succeeded in putting a stop to the villain and killing him. izuku still gets ofa, but he’s not the protag of the story, this time it’s todoroki.

anyways, ua sees that todoroki is mute (which isn’t registered and completely unknown to the general public) and doesn’t know sign language (resorting to notes and/or charades if he needs to communicate something), and decides to investigate that shit.

endeavor eventually gets what he deserves bc the trash bag can go rot in hell, and that’s p much all i got aside from the class realising FAST they need to adopt and love todoroki so there’s a lot of wholesome bonding there.

izuku is related to all for one

admittedly this one is one of my most underdeveloped aus but i still love it all the same. basically my take on it bc the whole ‘afo is hisashi’ thing kinda weirds me out considering afo is at least 200 years old. in this au he’s izuku’s grandfather and inko is his daugther who escaped him and lives in hiding.

i haven’t decided whether i want this au to be my take on izuku having afo or if it’s another quirkless izuku au. i haven’t gotten very far into it, all i know is that afo has no emotions and he’s a heartless bastard (me hating the dad for one trope w a passion) so there’s sort of MAJOR angst potential if i decide to go down that route.

gamer au

izuku’s quirk is that his life is a game. that’s….that’s it. if you’re familiar with sword art online, it has a lot of influence from that w/o the characters or plot or pervertedness or incest because what the fuck sao was so bad with all those. still pissed bc outside that it had potential and i think abt that a lot.

anyways, so y’know how in a lot of rpgs there’s the hud w stats and an inventory system and abilities?? well apply that to izuku and he’s p much that. the world “autosaves” whenever he sleeps, but he can’t manually load a save. if he dies he starts over from his last autosave.

bc of his access to abilities and stuff, he has the potential to be powerful bc hey he can basically do magic, but at the same time he just healed his body completely by drinking this drink he made w herbs and shit last night. also he can carry a ludicrous amount of shit that couldn’t possible fit in his backpack but apparently he’s got seventeen cheese wheels in there and room for half the classroom furniture too.

izuku sees the world w a hud which would be annoying but it’s normal for izuku. in fact, he sort of hates watching tv because the hud doesn’t appear on the screen and it’s so weird and bizarre he doesn’t really like it.

i haven’t planned anything but details of the quirk bc it can get waaaay too overpowered too quickly and hhhh i sort of burnt out of different ways this would effect canon, so i didn’t think abt it. but i did figure out that izuku would have so many gaming analogies for his friends and be into like a thousand different games.

the one where uraraka is the protag instead

born when i was complaining about how shitty horikoshi is at writing his female characters i brainstormed this au in a discord server where i overhauled canon w a more badass uraraka. (and she doesn’t even get ofa!!! she’s just badass on her own!!!)

basically bc she’s a lot more confident and determined in this au she influences a lot of her classmates. the other girls are a lot more active in their actions and are more than just the background characters. uraraka’s full strength is explored and i think i planned for her to win the sports festival bc she deserved it.

also inspired by the idea i had of pro hero uraraka kicking a lamp post down on her own strength and using it to put a comet home run on a villain like she did in the battle trial. bc holy shit that’s a fantastic mental image.

basically my “mha girls fucking rule and fuck horikoshi’s shitty writing” au

hp au

ah yes, finally we get to my take on the most generic of aus. basically i just wanted todoroki in hufflepuff to piss off endeavor and basically loving it bc he befriends izuku in it. i definitely haven’t developed this au outside of worldbuilding in how i’d combine the two universes whilst fixing both jkr and horikoshi’s bad writing.

i actually wrote a snippet that’s somewhere on my blog that i can’t link to now but you could probs for search it. but this was basically born from me getting angry at people putting the kids in the wrong houses. im a firm believer that izuku fits in nearly every house but hufflepuff and slytherin suits him the most while todoroki is ABSOLUTELY a hufflepuff. i wanted some platonic tododeku bonding so i put izuku in hufflepuff. uraraka is slytherin, iida is gryffindor, and it’d be too messy to list all the kids so i won’t.

but!! what im most happy w in this au is how i incoporate mha stuff into it. like how hagakure isn’t actually invisible she just got permanently hexed by her brother to always be unnoticed so you can never know what she looks like or where she is. tokoyami has a bird head due to a failed attempt at becoming an animagi. its permanent and although he could get it fixed, theres actually a number of wizards w the same thing do there’s a lot of animal like wizards. shinhou comes from a pureblood family thats been known for their dark magic, even though the last four generations haven’t been dark wizards the wizardinv world is convinced he’ll be a dark wizard too but shinsou wants to prove them wrong. amajiki being a metamorphmagus who shifts his limbs into animals when he’s nervous. etc etc. i have too much worldbuilding and no plot lmao.

disney aus galore

one day i thought up abt three different disney aus for the mha universe but my first idea was a little mermaid au for momojirou w momo being the princess and jirou being the mermaid.

except besides the basic premise i p much scrapped the whole movie in that jirou learns sign language to talk to momo and the two play music together. jirou plays piano or w/e whilst momo sings. it’s v gay. theres a ball and they dance and then kiss. i never wrote it out bc i didn’t wanna add conflict in it but never got round to actually writing it lmao.

but i thought up a tododeku tangled au, kiribaku cinderella au, tsuocha princess and the frog au, and a couple others that i didn’t plan out fully. still close to my heart if i ever manage to get round to writing them out. each would probs either be a long shot at 7k-15k words or a short multichapter fic at 25k-30k words.

the Spite™️ fic

the fic where i get pissed at every shitty thing about horikoshi’s writing. izuku gets mad at all might for his views on quirkless people and gets into ua on his first try. izuku rightfully does not take bakugou’s shit and calls him out at every opportunity. bakugou’s actions have repercussions. all might gets punished for almost letting bakugou kill izuku in an exercise.

izuku gets pissed over a lot of shit basically. also at one point he either punts mineta into the sun or loudly and publicly makes the argument that mineta should be expelled from ua including evidence and testimonies from the girls. and he encourages nearly all of them to get better costumes.

i haven’t actually written much abt it but if there’s smth i got pissed @ horikoshi for smth in canon it’d be address in this fic bc oh boy am i never spiteful so it’s kind of theraputic to write even tho i haven’t done it in a while.

uh….i have a lot more but man i think i’ve been writing this for like an hour or two idk im gonna finish this before the app crashes or smth. thank you for letting me ramble this got long oops sorry.

[getallemeralds]

So, I have a character who is a system, and I wanted to know before I develop them further, how does DID work, from a personal account? I really really really don't want to accidentally create yet another TOXIC misinterpretation of a real condition (because I know how horrible that can feel), and I hope I'm not saying anything wrong even now. (P.S. I love your blog, but I'm too shy to come off anon.)

hey anon!! it means a LOT to me that you sent this message :D theres a lot of really messy-bad potrayals of DID in the media so seeing people actually going to the effort of asking systems abt their experiences is really heartwarming for us. (plus the fact that ppl keep asking us in specific abt system stuff omg,,)

im gonna preface this by saying that, in the end, i can only really talk about my own experiences with full confidence. systems can work pretty differently from each other, but this is how we function and also some details ive noticed from system friends + general discussion over the years

so, to start off: Dissociative Identity Disorder is, at its core, your brain trying to respond to trauma in a pretty severe way. that being said there ARE systems that didnt experience severe trauma and still developed, and im not really sure about the mechanics behind that but i find it really cool and it totally exists. im gonna focus on trauma-based systems bc that’s our ~tragic backstory~ and also tends to be what most people opt for when creating system characters anyway, but the only real difference from what i can tell is, uh, a lack of trauma.

I HOPE YOU’RE READY FOR ME TO SAY THE WORD “TRAUMA” A WHOLE LOT JFC

(system friends are welcome to reblog with corrections or added info!!)

anyway. the way your brain responds to things is really weird. if something happens where you’re just, like, completely unable to handle it, like you dissociate yourself so hard because there’s no way you can manage this, your brain has a chance of going “uh… well, fuck, uh” and generating somebody who can manage it. or it might decide to be a dick and take all of the fucky internalized garbage and turn it into a person whose sole existence is to be an asshole. (they have the potential to get better, i think… ours didnt.) honestly theres a bunch of reasons and a bunch of “roles” that could lead to an alter/headmate* forming.

* we use the terms interchangeably depending on mood and whos fronting. i think its supposed to be “alter” is DID, “headmate” is implication that theyre non-traumatic? we like using “headmate” because it brings this fun mental image of us being a bunch of roommates constantly starting shit with each other and goofing off which is pretty accurate about 75% of the time

i keep getting distracted bc my cat is here. this is gonna be fun to go back and edit.

whatever the original situation is, you’re suddenly not alone in your own brain. and it’s REALLY WEIRD. communication was VERY hard. Icarus, our system original, used to do a very “cliche” thing of sharing a journal with their early headmates, where theyd write a sentence and then theyd write a reply (although back then they didnt realize that was a system-related thing and just thought they were having a fun conversation with their ocs. which… they were, just. Actually Talking.) they didnt have any inward perception of themself or their headmates either, so that kinda built up over time (with some help) along with the appearance of our headspace so that there was… actually a location for people to interact in. once they had a better awareness of things, mental communication got a bit easier– its sort of like background chatter really, when everybody’s awake. sometimes i get weird out of context things from Mae yelling at somebody, or sometimes ill be talking to a friend and someone’ll butt in.

when talking out loud, this usually leads to us suddenly stopping and then laughing or going “no!!!”. when on discord and around people who know who we are… well.

speaking of Mae, she’s pretty much my sister. not like… biologically? because i don’t think thats possible for me, but shes kinda literally my “other half” which ill get into later. headmates can have strong attachments to other alters! friends, best friends, family, dating, whatever. they can also do that with people outside the system, and itll be different for each headmate. there’s like 4 people dating Jorb but i just see him as one of my best friends. we’re people and we have complex social interactions that can get to be kind of a nightmare when you’re around a bunch of people who don’t know that you’re Not Leo and that youre suddenly not super up to existing around people in general.

plus even if like… so Jorb’s dating 4 of us like i said, but his relationship w/ each of them is different? Ica is very clingy and likes rambling to him, Summer’s pretty much just always happy to hang out, Mae makes fun of him a lot but in a loving way, and Leo is… kinda “all of the above” because that’s his gimmick. plus even tho a few other alters have a sibling-ish relationship with Mae like i do, usually its just me and Mae that do the “chaos siblings” bit.

the basic system.. thing… is that there’s “front”, which is being in control of the body– so, like, i’m currently fronting/in front, because im the one currently active and using our computer and staring at our cat.– and then theres the headspace, where everybody hangs out when theyre not in front. the headspace itself can differ in style & functionality for each system, and i think theres some systems that dont really have a location at all? but for us its like a full on location where we have individual rooms, places to visit if we get bored while away from front, etc.

theres also like, being at/near/away from front? so currently im in front, but Leo is pretty much always lurking nearby if he’s awake (we have individual sleep schedules that dont always sync up to the “irl” one, Trust is almost always sleeping), Ica’s somewhat in the back talking to Rookie so i cant really make out what theyre saying (its probably about either a youtube thing they both like or about a comic they want to do), and everyone else is either asleep (in which case they could be nearby but i cant currently “ping” them, so id have to actually take a sec to ground myself in headspace more) or in a different room. communication is easier if im in front and somebody is nearby, or it can be like with Ica rn where im like “well, theyre talking, but i have no idea what theyre saying and am making a guess based off their usual interactions”, or i could pass off front to go talk to Ica and come back (in which case my memory would be kind of vague and weird because information doesnt always properly translate), oooor i could actually go bug them while still in front. which.. im not gonna do rn bc then id get super distracted.

switching front differs between systems a lot! and even varies from day to day. like there are days where we wake up and we have absolutely no idea who we are bc we went to bed as one person and woke up as another. or we could be talking to somebody and then realize “wait, i stopped being Leo a bit ago, who am i”. or we could pass off front to somebody, like if Summer really wanted to front sie’d run up to me and let me know and we’d swap. or if something critical happens (usually a breakdown), Leo or one of the other headmates that’re more built to handle stressful situations will literally drag somebody out of front to make sure they dont hurt themself. or sometimes we throw front at people unexpectedly, like either mid-breakdown where we go “okay i dont wanna be here anymore, tag youre it” or sometimes because we think its funny because its the metaphysical equivalent of getting clonked in the head with a dodgeball, except the dodgeball is “being in control of our shared physical form”. usually mae’s the one that does that lmao

there’s a couple major categories of how alters come about. there’s “walk-ins”, where they kinda just… appear externally? like they just show up. sometimes we get a feeling of “huh. i think somebody might be here? or somebody might be showing up soon.” and have to rummage around for a while until they approach us or we find them. our walk-ins aren’t like, inherently aware of system stuff at first, so they usually get a crash course before they first front (if they choose to front at all) and it can be kinda entertaining. Rookie’s a walk-in! also Hiro, from a couple years ago. most of our walk-ins are fictives (fictional characters, usually appearing in response to us getting extremely attached to something or somebody) but a couple of our trauma splits are also fictives so that’s not like, a Rule or anything. i think these are mostly associated with non-traumatic systems but we get em fairly often so man idk

theres also… uh, i dunno what theyre actually called? we used to call them “constructs” but that sounds kind of mean. these alters exist to fill a specific role! and we usually dont talk about them on here with the exception of one major one, they just kinda hang out. Dhe exists to keep the system stable and manages the “backend” so to speak. Imp is kind of a mix of our intrusive & impulsive thoughts that came about from us trying to separate ourself from them so that we had an imaginary entity to go “nope!” at, which… stopped being imaginary, and is now a gremlin that lives in my brain. they can show up in response to trauma but arent split off of somebody, they kinda just pop into existence to help manage things.

the more… well-known, i guess? alter origin is “trauma splits”. rather than “just showing up one day with no real connection to the system origins”, trauma splits are formed when somebody in-system, uh, splits. it could be in response to a single situation or something built up over a long time, but somebody just kinda breaks and somebody new that has a bit of the original alter’s identity (if kinda influenced by the situation) shows up.

this can vary. All is a trauma split off of Leo himself, who got saddled with all of our brain hell about our ex and their insystem appearance is influenced more by eir than by leo which is… something they struggle with. Mae has a trauma split from a similar situation that is “Mae but from 2 years ago”, so basically her old identity before she reworked herself after getting put through total hell. and then uh… then there’s me and Mae! Icarus quite literally exploded into several people, with Pat (me) and Mae being the most distinct ones. we’re STILL finding out alters used to originally be a part of them that later evolved into their own people, like Summer and Toby. my identity is shaped pretty heavily not just by who Ica was at time of splitting, but also what they wanted to be jumbled together with trying to rationalize what was happening to them (they’re a pretty big fan of megaman star force, which has a media-typical system in it, so they leaned into hard “its like pat and rey from mmsf! i like pat, i wouldnt mind being like pat, its scary but im like one of my current favourite characters” and so i ended up being like, half-weird shapeshifter, half-green-haired prettyboy. and yeah thats where my name comes from!)

(Ica got put back together w/o anybody needing to integrate, which we were all very scared about, and it’s still kind of surreal to me because… me and Mae used to be able to stick ourself back together and thats how we found out about what happened to Ica in the first place? and we havent tried that since bc we have no idea what would happen. Ica 2: Ica Harder?)

despite their origins, trauma splits can be way more than… being a split. :V;; Toby’s not just a tiny splinter of Ica, he’s a quiet guy that gets stressed out and isn’t totally sure how to interact with people. i’ve existed for like 7 years at minimum and im a totally different person than i was when i thought i was still Ica, ‘cause ive had time to grow and change (and a problem Ica keeps running into now that theyre back is… they kinda Didn’t change because they were MIA for 6 years.) like everything else though this is variable– there can be “temporary” splits that dont develop properly and might get integrated back in, which has only happened to us when we were at the lowest point in our life where we were stuck constantly splitting to try and cope with whatever the hell was going on.

so Ica was gone for 6 years, which meant our system was without an original or main– there wasn’t anybody to be head of the system, basically. for a while i was operating under the assumption that i was Ica, so i filled in that role for a few years before i made the realization. eventually i kinda… stopped being able to, though, bc of stability issues, and then we were back to not really having a proper main anymore. to make up for it, we started going by Leo collectively and kinda… trying to pretend to be a single person? and so that ended up creating a construct to fill the role of “system main and the person we pretend to be when passing as singlet/not a system”: Leo himself! he’s kinda the most prominent traits we all have in common rolled into a single guy, which means that not only is he a pretty good system representative but we can also pretend to be him pretty easily (unless it’s someone like Toby who acts totally different). i dont know how common this situation is, i think normally it’s just “if system original is gone, another alter steps up” like originally happened to us before i had a severe case of problems disorder.

uhhh this is very rambley bc there’s a Lot to cover and now im trying to figure out how much of it i HAVE covered. systems are complicated and weird! OH WAIT okay i have one last bit.

so like, for us, first realizing we were a system was total hell. we fought a lot. as more alters showed up through various means, there were times where Ica felt like they were completely out of control of their own life bc of having to manage everything. there were a lot of panic attacks of people fronting and not being sure they were even REAL, despite… being in front. but we still felt like we were deluding ourself. this was in, like, late 2011, so systems weren’t a THING. they were a very fringe community that everyone hated. we got constantly harassed, which only fed into Ica’s panic hell and our identity issues. interpersonal relationships became a nightmare, especially because we have BPD as well which varies in severity for each of us but… for me it’s pretty bad! there were times early on where every day was another fun new breakdown from us arguing with each other or our friends or not being understood or… etc.

so… how are we holding up ~7 and a half years later? pretty well, actually! we talk to each other. we do things for each other, like buy food or games we know specific headmates like. Ica is back and way happier than they were in 2011, and is thrilled to get to hang out with everybody that’s showed up since. we help each other through problems, because at the end of the day our system ended up being a support network. Ica couldnt function on their own, so we’re like… 10+ people working together to try and be a single functional person. and we feel pretty okay with that! we still fight, and we still start shit, but we’re not in constant crisis anymore. we’re still working through all of our trauma, especially the more “recent” stuff that kinda broke our system for a while until we were able to start rebuilding, but we’re doing it together. :D

so… yeah, it can start out as a stereotypical “nightmare system”, with constant infighting and toxicity and self-sabotage and etc. but we worked through it! it took a while, but we’re overall more stable than we were before. we got out of the bad environment that was fucking us up, we got mental help for our other brain hell (we havent been able to bring up the system to our therapists bc its literally a non-issue now and we focus more on other things like our depression, anxiety, PTSD, etc), we found people that support us for being us, and we were able to like… figure things out. and it was a mess! i still have issues about my own identity because of literally thinking i was someone else for two years. Ica’s still trying to figure out how to adjust to things, especially bc they missed our entire “cringe culture” phase so they came back to find that i’d dismantled a lot of their middle-school settings. and, uh, some of their friendships as well.

systems are fuckin weird

[puzzledorange]

OC’s Answer 15 Q’s Tag

okey i know this took a while and there are so many more tag games that I need to do, but once I take over the world i will outlaw school so i can have time to do these, so please don’t hesitate to tag me in more stuff!

I was tagged by @thatsadwriter​ so thanks for that!

Okay so what I’m gonna do is that P (from the Metalrifter) is answering, but both Rigby and Olsen (from stories Friends & the Universe and Life in the Rivers respectively) are also they’re butting in whenever they want. They are in Violet’s apartment house being interviewed btw.

rules: answer fifteen questions as either yourself or your ocs, then tag fifteen people

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what is your full name?

“Oh that’s easy. P.”

“Are you serious? You’re the one with some weird-ass nickname and you decided to take this question?” Rigby says.

“Well I don’t have any other names, do I?” P snaps back. “What about your name huh? If mine’s so flawed.”

“I never thought you’d ask.” chuckles Rigby. He tilts his head to the side and combs his hair back. “Rigby Diggins here.” P chortles.

“What’s so funny to you?” Rigby hisses.

“No matter how many times I hear your last name, I laugh.” P responds. “It sounds like a cartoon character’s.”

“Enough.” Rigby says, “Alright Olsen, hit us with your full name.”

“Oh me?” Olsen says. “Well my full name is Olsen Maegan Rivers.”

“At least SOMEBODY has a normal name here.” P says.

“Wait weren’t you technically adopted by Violet though?” Olsen asks. “You guys are technically brother and sister or something right?”

P sighs. “Yeah, I guess.”

“So what is your real full name?”

“P Patterson.”

“I’m calling you Peepa from now on.” Rigby says.

“Please don’t.”

what is your gender? “I’m a guy.” P says.

“Are you sure about that, Peepa?” Rigby teases.

“I’m this close to whooping your ass into next week.”

what does your full name mean?

“Uh, I don’t know. It just is my name.” says P.

“Why did you answer the question if that was the answer you would give” asked Rigby.

“Fine then, its over to you.” says P.

“That’s what I’m talking about! Well my name is Rigby because of my free spirit. What can I say, I’m special!”

“Yeah, I don’t doubt that.” says P. “What about you Olsen?”

“Well I looked it up, and a website said that my name meant ‘descendant’. I guess that makes sense, since my ancestor founded my hometown.”

any nicknames or other names?

“My code name is Captain Orbit, or just Orbit.” says P. “That’s what they call me up in space.”

what is your sexuality?

“Huh, I’ve actually never really thought about what kind of people I like.” P says.

“You gotta be kidding me, you’re the most boring person ever.” Rigby says. “And by the way, I’m bi.”

“What does it mean to be bi?” P asks.

“You’re joking.”

P shakes his head.

“Oh, come on!” Rigby exclaims. “Even Olsen knows what that means! How are you this royally uneducated? I thought you were Violet’s brother, but it really is evident that you two are adopted siblings.”

“Hey!” Olsen snaps his fingers. “Calm down. Jesus, you’re always a lit fuse aren’t you?”

“Lit in more ways than one.” Rigby says with a sly smile. He looks at P thinking that he would get the joke, but his humor is that of a wet towel.

where are you from?

“I’m not really sure.” says P.

“EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOUR ANSWERS HAVE BEEN EXCEPTIONALLY SHITTY OH MY GOD I CANNOT HANDLE THIS ANY LONGER” says Rigby.

“Shut your goddamn mouth up.” P says, sending metal up to Rigby’s mouth to inhibit his speech. In response, he starts clawing at it.

Olsen raises his hand in anticipation. “Hey, can I go?”

“Sure go ahead.” P responds.

“Okay so,” Olsen starts. “I was born in Riveria, a small town in--”

Rigby rips off the metal restraining his mouth. “God, can’t a man have freedom of speech? I think you just single-handedly cured my iron deficiency. Anyways I know you guys don’t care, but I was born and raised in glamorous LA.”

“Can you just shut it and listen to Olsen?” P says.

“I knew you wouldn’t care. Hurts, man.”

“As Olsen was saying, he lives in Riveria, and…?” P says.

“Oh yeah! And my great great great great grandfather actually founded the town.” Olsen continues.

“Oh really? Do you want a medal?” Rigby says, reclining back in his chair.

when were you born?

“I WILL take this one, okay?” Rigby says.

“Fine.” says P.

“I was born June the 22nd, 1990. The greatest day on Earth.” Rigby says.

P scoffs.

“You guys can’t even say anything, because your author was negligent enough to not give you definitive birthdays yet!”

Olsen sighs. “Yeah, that’s a problem.”

whoops sorry

how old are you?

“I’m about twenty two I’d say,” says P.

“I’m twenty nine. Hah, beatcha.” Rigby says.

“I’m seventeen.” Olsen says.

where do you live?

“Oh, uh, here.” P says, pointing down at the ground.

Rigby mocks him. “Uh, oh, um, uh, here. Where is here dumbass?”

“Queens. New York.” P says in a stiff tone.

“Better. Now watch an interesting person take this question.” Rigby says. “Right now, I’m currently residing in space, specifically in the port of the Planet Happi.”

“P-Probably not so, uh, ‘Happi’ when you’re there!” Olsen calls out.

“Hey-o! High five!” P exclaims. The two share a hand slap. “So where do you live, Olsen?”

“Well I lived Riveria until I left to LA during my middle school years. I came back to my hometown about 2 years ago.”

P suppresses a laugh. “Sorry, I just can’t let that joke go.”

“It wasn’t even that funny.” Rigby says, crossing his arms.    

what are your quirks?

“What would constitute as a quirk?” Olsen asks.

“It’s what makes you weird and shit.” Rigby says. “P should go first, since this is literally the only question that can make him sound like a cool person.”

“I’d clock you, but I have to answer this question.” P says. “So, I Metalrift. What that essentially means is that I can control and manipulate metal with my mind. It’s super useful, but it took a grueling process to acquire. I have a few other friends that can rift other things, like Scott Walker. He can rift rock, and he’s damn good at it too.”

“I for one,” Rigby says, “Am competent at what I do without the help of magic, but with the help of a little bit of alchies. I shoot aliens and shit. Ain’t that right Peepa?” He smiles as he puts his hand on P’s shoulder. He shrugs Rigby’s hand off.

“What about you, Olsen?” Rigby asks.

“Well, I’m really good with a blade, a machete specifically. Still, my friend, Lisa, taught me how to properly fight. I have a signature backswing and everything.” Olsen says. “Also P I hope you  wouldn't mind metalrifting for us. I mean I've seen it in combat, but not really up close and personal. Could you?”

“Uh, sure, I don’t see why not,” P says, looking around the apartment for any loose metal lying around. “I don’t see any metal though.”

“Wait no, I got you.” Rigby says, pulling out a ray gun and a hammer from the inside of his coat.

“Perfect! I can just extract the metal from the g--”

Rigby starts to casually smash the gun, reducing it to metal bits and bobs. “There you go, rift away.” Rigby says.

P lifts the metal with his mind, and formulates a small elephant on the table using the bits and bobs. It walks around and spurts tiny pieces of metal out of its trunk.

“Oh sweet!” Olsen exclaims.

“Okay yeah, that’s pretty sick, I gotta admit.” says Rigby. “Hey, that rhymes!”

who are your family members? “Uh, next question.” Olsen says. who are your pets?

“I have a turtle, and he is the light of my life.” says Rigby.

“And what’s his name?” Olsen asks.

“Cadet. What a little man.” Rigby says.

“Why’s his name Cadet?” P asks.

“I’m glad you asked.” says Rigby. “I named him after my favorite wine, Mouton Cadet.”

“How original.” P dryly says.

what do you look like?

“Well, I have black hair and green eyes” says P. “Also, I wear a red flannel with a black shirt underneath, and topping it all off with my signature blue pants and black shoes.”

“Alright, my turn!” says Rigby. “So I dyed my hair blond, but my original hair color is brown. I have blue eyes and an amazing goatee. I’m wearing my space uniform right now, which is a blue collar necked coat-jacket that has a white stripe near the bottom, black pants strapped with a holster, black boots, and black gloves. Oh, also I’m a hell of a lot taller than P. Five foot ten ass…”

“How tall are you then?” asks P.

“Six foot three.” Rigby triumphantly says.

“What about you Olsen?”

“Alright,” Olsen says, “Well I have brown hair, a bit combed to the side, brown eyes, and freckles. I wear a red short sleeve with a gray long sleeve undershirt, along with blue jeans and regular sneakers. Oh, and I’m five foot ten too!”

“Shorties.” says Rigby.

who’s your hero?

“Definitely my uncle,” says Olsen. “He’s a real inspiration and always has great advice for me.”

“Both my friends Violet and Basil are amazing people and I wouldn’t be alive for them, so probably those two people.” says P.

“I really like the Hamburglar.” says Rigby. The others stare at him. “What? He really got me to buy more burgers, honest!”

what’s your moral alignment?

“Yo dude!” Rigby says. “I’m uhh,” He snaps his fingers, “Chaotic good.”

P chimes in, “I’m definitely lawful good.”

“And that leaves neutral good for me!” says Olsen. “Wait that’s the last question right?”  

“Yeah, and wow I’m so glad we’re done with this.” says P.

“Why?” asks Olsen.

“So I can do this.” P says, getting up from his seat and knocking Rigby’s lights out.

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Cool, this was fun! I’ll be tagging @starlightinhumanform​, @ill-write-when-im-dead​, and @kaigods​, but don’t be obligated to do them. You’re an independent person!

[lordsicheng]

enemies to lovers: i.m

Im Changkyun (I.M) x OC

word count: 5.7k

“What an idiot.”

You would say to yourself over and over again whenever you saw him

Either he just walked pass by you at the company office

Or if you’re in any type of contact that had anything to do with him

His name? Im Changkyun.

As far as you can remember, you came into the company first as one of the management officers

Making sure schedules were fixed for every artist and actors under your company

Also for every invitation they get for an event, it has to go through your team for approval first

Just in case the event is appropriate enough for anyone under contract as well

Changkyun, usually wanting to be called by his stage name, I.M, was a trainee at first when you joined the company

You’re slightly older, but he seemed to be a little mature for his age

Whenever he’s reminded of his age compared to those older than him, he’d just say

“Geez, age is just a number”

Sure it is

It was one particular morning where you had to go to one of their recordings since they had an important schedule right after

So the moment the van door opened, you already had a feeling in your gut on who you would be in the same vehicle with

“Good morning!”

“…good morning.”

Your reply sounded groggy, but you really just tried hard to be polite

As expected, other than the seat next to Changkyun’s, every space was filled

So you just sat next to him and closed the van door immediately as the driver saw everyone was all set to get to the recording

Checking the list on your clipboard, you examined the list of their schedule for today

“Okay, so we’re on our way for the first recording for this new variety show. I was told you all would be done after two to three hours, so we can scoot in about an hour and a half for lunch before you guys head on back to the studio to prepare for your upcoming comeback.”

You then spotted one certain schedule you forgot to add on, almost crossing it out since you thought it was already done the day before

“Oh, right. Jooheon and Changkyun, you both have a short guest appearance for another variety. It’s just short, so you’ll both probably be done in an hour of recording or some sort.”

“Copy.”

“Hey, y/n, are you gonna be at the recording with us?”

Changkyun suddenly asked out of nowhere, confusing the other members at the back a bit

“Depends.”

“So, are you gonna be there?”

“I said it depends.”

It was unusual that Changkyun would ask you such and it just made the other members in the car, especially Minhyuk and Jooheon, confused

They were a little curious as to why he asked too but Jooheon soon brushed it off, leaving Minhyuk still a little bit suspicious

So, how did you and Changkyun start having a pretty rocky kind of relationship?

It all started when you accidentally bumped into him as he joined the company

You joined a week before as an intern and you were immediately put into the artist management department, aka where you are one of the higher officers now

It wasn’t easy in the beginning at all and you had to endure every lesson, every complaint, and even every hindrance just to get a proper job and hopefully get promoted as a regular

Changkyun was on his way to the practice room in a hurry and you were struggling on carrying three boxes, piled on each other that were full of Styrofoam balls for a future Christmas event

Well as some romance films depicted, he bumped into you as he ran in the halls

Causing of course, the boxes and balls to fall and for yourself on your butt

You frowned, looking at him with irritation

“Watch where you’re going!”

“I’m sorry”

“You should be.”

You stood up and looked around, seeing all the mess made

“Look I need to g-“

Once he took a step, he literally stepped on one of the styro balls

“MY GOODNESS!”

You shrieked as you saw him almost quiver and try to move another step back

“NO DON’T TAKE A STEP BACK I’VE ALREADY LOST ONE BALL I DON’T NEED TO LOSE ANOTHER ONE!!”

He looked around frantically and then to you, sighing and just kicking the balls to the side to pass through

“Wow aren’t you gonna help me?”

He didn’t answer and just walked away fast

And that, made you have a pretty bad first impression of him

I mean, you totally understood that he was in a hurry

But he should’ve at least helped you a bit

Honestly he just chickened out because of his tenseness from trying to not arrive late to practice and fear of doing something dumb again

Fast forward to a couple of months later, you were asked to help evaluate some trainees

It was very unusual for the coaches to ask interns to do so too

But the coaches wanted a different point of view rather than their own for when the trainees debut

And not be “biased” in any way either

So you were just like hey, why not

So there goes—you end up seeing him again

Are you even surprised?

Not really

They were given a choreography to memorize in just a day

As you continued to evaluate, you looked at him and noticed he made mistakes

And it wasn’t those small ones, but rather easy to identify as if he wasn’t fit into the group

The dance coach asked you and a couple other employees on your observance

Because you wanted to be honest, you pointed out Changkyun was literally not in sync with the group

“It’s as if he was forced or having a hard time on the choreography.”

The dance coach seemed to agree with you a bit and nodded

Changkyun, very well accepted this fault of his

But that didn’t stop him from looking at you with eyes that almost pierced through your whole body

You took a couple of glances at him and he seemed to have kept on looking at you without even having to worry if anyone else noticed

“Is he gonna eat me alive or something?”

A month later, you crossed paths again

This time, he literally followed you from behind

It kind of scared you but the moment you knew who it was, you stopped walking and turned to look at him in a confused manner

“Yes?”

“Do you hate me? Do you dislike me that much? Am I too off for you?”

Wot in tarnation

“No?? What makes you say so?”

“Well thanks to you I felt really down and decided to audition for this survival program the company is doing”

Yikes

As if you hurt his ego when you really didn’t

You kept your stance as you really just wanted to be truthful and not make it seem like no one made a mistake during the choreography evaluations

“Well, why don’t you audition?”

“The problem is, the show already started”

“Oh, right.”

You both just went quiet before he spoke yet again

“I’m still auditioning. I’ll show you. I’ll pass it.”

He walked away and looked as if he were stomping

You were worried but also thought he was just being too much

Lucky enough, he did finally debut with his current group

You tried to congratulate him many times after the announcement but it seemed that you both didn’t cross paths again right after

“Must be busy in preparations for debut”

As you were gonna end your time as an intern, one of the superiors was very impressed with your work

With little to almost no problems when dealing with the departments and overall work environment

And next thing you knew, you were given a chance to stay in the company and help with organizing schedules, events, and what more for the upcoming boy group that Changkyun was in

Or should you say, I.M

Either way, you accepted it in delight and went on with it in a couple of weeks

Finally after a while, you saw Changkyun walk by from practice with the other members

You congratulated the others as they may have seen you before in the building, once or even twice perhaps

Some of them also realizing you were one of the past interns turned official employee

Everyone was very flattered and happy with your congratulations

But Changkyun seemed off as you complimented him on his hard work to be part of the new group

As they walked away, Changkyun moved slowly before pausing and turning to grab you by the arm, making you stop your tracks and look at him in perplex

“So you’re sucking up to me and the others just to be able to work for us, huh?”

“Excuse me?”

“It seems that we always cross paths in such way. Do you like me?”

Wow is he serious

Like you’ve only seen each other a few times and he suddenly says it like this

“Whatever you’re thinking about, you’re definitely wrong.”

“Ya! Changkyun! Hurry up the van is waiting!”

One of the other members called and noticed Changkyun grabbing your arm, letting loose just after he was called

“Go home.”

“I am going home.”

His witty reply appalled you a bit as he walked away with a slight smirk

And you just stood there with your mouth wide open

“Geez I hate this guy.”

For the next few years, you never realized they would actually hit big

With so many international invites and whatnot, it was so overwhelming for the boys and even your team

You grew closer to the members too, especially Jooheon and Hyungwon, but Changkyun just remained civil and smiled whenever others were around

Only to go back to being kind of sulky whenever he could get the chance to stare you down as you looked away

Kinda creepy, but kinda confusing too

Now, it’s just as if you have nothing but a business relationship with him and nothing more

Were you friends? Not quite

Acquaintances? Close, but not really

Strangers? Just a step up

And little did you realize you really didn’t want to have anything to do with Changkyun

But his personality often threw you off especially if he were on lives and events

“Is he really like this?”

“He is very much alike on shows, events, and in real life.”

You would ask Jooheon and his reply would be just like that

You’d get skeptical, but since Jooheon was pretty close to him and even to you, you just had to accept that

Back to the present, you all finally arrive at the area of their first schedule

Turns out, you didn’t have to go with them on their schedules that day

“Hey, y/n. We can take it from here. It’s only a short guesting. Also the others needed you for the graphic concept for the comeback.”

So you just nodded and stayed in the car as all the other members left

Changkyun sighed as he moved out, glancing at you again before moving forward to follow the others

It was weird, you thought

But it was also a relief since you really didn’t want to see him

In fact, the more you were with the boys and especially Changkyun, you’d feel really annoyed by his presence

So the van drove you back to the company to finish off some things needed for the comeback

All day you had to endure your sleepiness and think a lot about what was a good music video concept, graphic art for the album, and even mini events other than fansign events

But seeing the love calls from overseas and even local events, you and your other coworkers couldn’t really think of anything else to add up either

After all the preparations you literally didn’t notice it was already night time too

The members were already back from an hour to two hours ago, practicing and preparing themselves

One of your coworkers told you to give something to Hyungwon, so you just did and grabbed the small box that seemed to be from one of his relatives that was sent this morning

As you walked into the practice room, everyone was done with their choreography as their leader, Shownu, called for a short break

You saw Hyungwon and waved your hand with the box, his eyes wide in excitement

“Nice! It’s here!”

“What’s that?”

“A watch I’ve always wanted.”

You gave the box to Hyungwon as he put it to the side and patted you on the head

“Thank you our little angel.”

“I’m not little, you’re all just tall.”

Just as everyone took a break, you realized there was one person missing

You noticed Changkyun wasn’t around practicing with them

“Where’s Changkyun?”

“At the recording room trying to finish up the songs to give for tomorrow. Do you mind calling him?”

You were hesitant, but you just shrugged and gave a nod as you walked over to the studio just a floor away from the practice area

You knocked a couple of times before opening the door, seeing Changkyun all alone as he listened to one of the songs

To try and not make things awkward, you smiled and tried to think of a compliment as you walked over

“Sounds like a good song. Is that the title?”

As you spoke, he turned his head and looked back at the computer screen

You sighed, walking over to his side and tapping him on the shoulder

“Hey, the others are waiting for you upstairs. You need to practice with them.”

“Give me five minutes.”

You just shrugged and stood up, but as you walked away he stopped you by speaking again

“Hey, can you listen to this song for the album coming out?”

You frowned, turning to look at him in confusion

“Uh, why me?”

“Well since you’re here, I need to get an opinion before I complete this in case there are changes.”

You nodded in agreement and grabbed the chair next to him as you sat down

“You’re good at judgment anyway.”

He suddenly mumbled, and you totally heard him and sighed yet again

“Are we gonna have to go through this again?”

“Shhh, I’m gonna play it and tell me what you think of it. Focus on mine and Jooheon’s rap.”

“Fine.”

He scrolled a few times to clip up some of the parts of the song before playing it

As per usual, you liked the whole vibe of the song

To you, this literally showed a very deep and dark side of them

You waited for the rap parts as they were in some different verses in the song, but you listened carefully to the lyrics to just make sure it was fitting through the whole song

“I got it, the last out of the seven. Think these guys are better than me? Now tell me, what are you feeling?”

That part seemed to catch you in a way where it was very fitting

After he played the song, he turned to look at you

“So?”

“Really good. Like, the whole vibe is good.”

“How were the lyrics?”

“I really liked how you made the lyrics fit for the song. ‘The last out of seven’ was really witty, since you’re the youngest.”

You chuckled as you spoke and Changkyun seemed to sigh and force a small smile as he looked at the keyboard

“It’s not about being the youngest member, though.”

He admitted, and you raised a brow as you looked at him

“Oh, really? That’s interesting.”

“I wrote my rap parts in much thought. What do you think was it about? Or maybe, who was it about?”

He suddenly turned his head to look at you in a stern expression

It was very unusual for him to speak like that to you

And you looked back at him frozen as you couldn’t really pinpoint what he really meant

You both just ended up looking at each other, the air in the room becoming tense as the time passed by

As Changkyun was to move closer, the door opened only for one of the other members to see you both

“Ya, Changkyun! Hurry up we need to polish up the choreo!”

To your surprise, it was Jooheon and he seemed to look confused on seeing you sitting next to Changkyun

“Well this is new.”

“Shut up.”

You chuckled awkwardly, standing up and walking towards the door

“I heard one of your songs, by the way. Sounds really good and fitting as the title. I’d listen to the whole album but I guess I’ll have to wait until it comes out, I need to head out early.”

You walked over to the door as Jooheon took a step to the side to let you pass

“See you guys tomorrow. See ya, Joohoneeeeey.”

You pinched his cheek and walked away, making Jooheon frown and pout

“Aish, this girl.”

He looked at you walk away and then turned to look at Changkyun

Changkyun’s expression looked like a mix of being uncomfortable and annoyed

Jooheon, being the curious kid that he was, closed the door and crossed his arms

“What’s with the expression?”

“What expression?”

Changkyun’s voice sounded defensive, turning his back again to look at the computer

Jooheon smirked and definitely knew what Changkyun was all about

“Now I know why you really wanted the song to be our title.”

Changkyun froze, widening his eyes as he just kept looking at the screen

“W-well, we needed to keep a dark concept-“

“Sure we do.”

Jooheon slowly opened the door, not stopping his gaze to Changkyun who slowly turned and looked back as if he was guilty

“You better go back upstairs so we can practice properly.”

“Okay.”

“I’m on to you.”

Jooheon kept his smirk and did a “I’m watching you” gesture, walking out without even closing the door as Changkyun just sat there

Definitely knowing what Jooheon was thinking about

As the day of the music video filming arrived, you helped out with all the concepts and designs of the area to fit with the song

The boys were having their makeup done and it was a timing you went in since everyone was getting ready and you brought a few of their stuff inside

You walked over to Jooheon and gave him a pat on the back while smiling

“Loving the hair. You better not mess up during filming.”

“When do I ever mess up?”

Jooheon snickered and turned to look at you with a wide grin

What you both didn’t notice was that Changkyun, who was sitting next to Jooheon and also having his makeup done, saw everything

And he suddenly felt a rush in him that totally made him feel confused and down all of the sudden

Spite? Envy? Jealousy?

All signs point to yes

But he just remained and acted calm as if he didn’t notice everything at all

“Good luck guys!”

“Thanks, y/n!”

Everyone, except Changkyun, replied as you gave Jooheon another pinch on the cheek before walking away and out of the makeup area

“Gosh, she seems to like pinching my cheek a lot.”

“Why does she do that anyway?”

Changkyun suddenly blurted out in question, sounding a little bit irritated

Jooheon, kind of noticing his jealousy, turned his head to look at him

“Maybe because she wants to?”

“Don’t you get annoyed?”

“No? It’s cute?”

Changkyun just went quiet, but Jooheon being Jooheon, smirked yet again as he looked at him in suspicion

“I’m still on to you.”

Changkyun looked at Jooheon in almost a bit of a shock, turning away right after as he just tried to brush it off

You and Changkyun never really crossed paths again ever since that day since everyone was very busy in preparations

After a while, their comeback was already becoming a hit

And as per usual, the schedules were becoming hectic

You’d run around giving their schedules and going with them to events to make sure everything goes smooth sailing

As much as you were surprised, Changkyun seemed off whenever the cameras weren’t rolling

It was weird for you to see this, although he tried to brush off every bit of negative vibes and just continue on being the same him, on and off camera

After a couple of weeks, you were on your way out to go home

But you passed by the studio again and saw Changkyun walk out

You stopped and immediately continued to walk by him to go on your way

He just stood there, looking down before slowly looking at you

“Hey, y/n.”

He suddenly called and you stopped from walking to just turn to him and hold your handbag properly on your shoulder

“Yeap?”

“Can I ask you something?”

He suddenly was becoming straightforward and you were almost taken aback

But you figured it was just work related so you just shrugged off anything other than that

“Of course. What is it?”

Feeling a little bit hesitant, Changkyun paused for a while to try and think of a proper way to ask you what had been on his mind for a long time

“H-how close are you to Jooheon?”

He suddenly asked, which kind of surprised you

“Well, we’re kind of close since we have similar interests and all. Why did you ask?”

He went silent again, nodding

“I see. I mean, you pinch his cheek a lot.”

You raised a brow, giving a small smile and chuckling

“Oh, so you’ve noticed.”

You both went quiet, and the atmosphere was getting awkward so you decided to just turn and try to walk away

“If that’s just what you’re curious about, honestly. I have to g-“

“Are you more than friends?”

He stopped you with his words again and you seemed to be very confused and taken aback

“Wait, what makes you-“

You turned, Changkyun look at you in a concerned expression but you just remained calm

“What makes you think so?”

“I just wanted to make sure, since, you know, I get concerned.”

“About what? Friends acting like friends?”

“That’s not what I meant.”

“Well, what do you mean then? Because honestly we’re just friends. It’s not like we just met last week, Changkyun. I’ve known and been with you guys for so long. It’s only us that have a bit of a confusing relationship.”

Changkyun looked down, shaking his head and then raising it up again to look at you

“I’m sorry if I-“

“If what?”

You suddenly retorted, making him getting also quite heated

“I really just wanted to know if you guys were really just friends.”

“Yes, we’re just friends, Changkyun. Stop acting like you’re jealous of him in any way.”

“Well what if I am actually jealous?”

He confessed all of the sudden and you just looked at him, speechless

“What if I actually liked how our first meeting was like a drama on TV? What if I really just wanted to get your attention and purposely mess up during training whenever you were around just to have your eyes on me? What if I told you I decided to join the survival show late because I wanted to show you how capable I am of working hard and how determined I am?”

All his words were hitting you hard and it felt really different too

Was that his confession? Was he truly infatuated with you? Or was he just forced because he had been suppressing it for too long and was afraid Jooheon would end up having you instead of him?

“So you’re saying…”

“I’m saying I like you, y/n. I’ve liked you for too long that I just couldn’t help myself feeling sad whenever you weren’t with us on schedules and whenever you were, your attention would always go to Jooheon and the others and it kind of made me slightly irritated.”

“Changkyun I-“

You couldn’t speak, looking down as you were not sure of speaking back to him either

Instead of continuing your words, you turned and hurriedly walked away to go out

And not look back again as Changkyun just stood there, not able to comprehend the fact that you literally just walked away from him trying to tell you how he really felt

Unfortunately, you were just as scared as him

His fear of rejection was just as leveled to your fear of hurting someone

You didn’t, or rather, never really felt the same way as he did

But honestly, what if you actually did?

What if whenever you saw him and thought negatively and annoyingly, it was rather an elated type of feeling?

Sure, first impression was bad. The more you both saw each other, the more your blood boiled from the thought of it

The thought just wouldn’t get out of your mind and within the next days and weeks, work was just beginning to slowly drift away into a less exciting environment for you

As much as possible, you really just didn’t want to see the boys and be with them whenever there were schedules during their comeback season

You tried to tell yourself they probably didn’t mind, but Jooheon seemed concerned

One night as they were to end promotions, they were on their way out of the practice room

Jooheon  asked Changkyun to bring some of the other bags, to which Changkyun was okay with doing so and left him to leave the practice room last

It was also a good timing that you were on your way down and saw the boys head out

But you weren’t quick enough to say goodbye either so you just shrugged

But then again, you saw Changkyun head out of the practice room and lock it himself

He turned his head a little and noticed you before turning to the other side to go out himself

You couldn’t handle seeing him as if he was disappointed in you

So you ran towards him and hugged him from behind, stopping him from walking

“I’m sorry for not feeling the same way. I know it’s been weeks, but I wanted to tell you that I’ve realized I may have some sort of growing feelings for you too because it felt really weird for me to not properly be myself after your confession.”

Changkyun looked down, staring at your hands clasped together that were on his waist as you held tight

“Changkyun, I like you a lot too. I’m really sorry for distancing myself.”

He sighed, slowly holding on to your hands and smiling a bit before unclasping them and walking away, carrying the bags again and not even look back at you

You were shocked and very much upset, feeling rejected as he walked out of the door

You wanted to cry, you really did

But something in the pit of your stomach just felt different and it made you contain your emotions

And from then on, it was just as if you both were only forced with your feelings

You kept trying to brush everything off, just walking away yourself as you decided to just go home and suck it up

The next day as you arrived the company building, you were told last minute to accompany the boys to a schedule by their manager

You declined, but he were really eager to let you go

Since you really couldn’t say no, you had no choice

You walked over to the parking lot with him and saw the boys already getting in the car

They noticed you and smiled after not seeing you for a long time

“So, where’s the schedule?”

“Busan.”

Busan… seriously

You got inside and tried to look for a spot to sit, but the only space available was literally right next to Changkyun

“Jooheon hyung, sit next to me!”

“No, I have to discuss with Kihyun some important things… why don’t you let y/n sit next to you?”

Changkyun’s eyes widened as he looked at you and just kept his composure to look at the front

The others literally knew what Jooheon was up to, and maybe you did too

Not really having any other choice, you just sat next to Changkyun and sighed

“I have to endure hours, seriously.”

The road trip was like the usual, the boys talking and taking naps, but Changkyun seemed to be quiet and just looked at the window on the side

And to your surprise, you literally just fell asleep

But the van stopped at a gas station midway, waking everyone up

“We’re almost out of gas.”

The driver just went out, and so did the other members and the manager in front too

“Where are you guys going?”

You asked in confusion, looking at everyone head out

“Get some snacks on the way. You need anything?”

You shook your head and declined as they left, closing the van door

Changkyun, still seated at your side, seemed to have fallen asleep as he rested his head on the window

You sighed, trying to check your phone for any messages and reminders

As a couple of minutes passed by, Changkyun suddenly shifted a bit and rested his head on your shoulder

You wanted to push him away, but you were also scared of waking him up and catching him off guard

So you just stayed still and slowly put your phone in your handbag again, looking away

Changkyun’s hand slowly made its way up to yours, entwining both of your fingers as he tried to contain himself from even smiling

You frowned, looking at him in confusion

“Do you still like me?”

He suddenly asked out of the blue, voice deeper than usual but his eyes were closed

You wanted to laugh it off, but you tried containing yourself as well

“You’re dreaming.”

You said as you looked away, biting your bottom lip to try and not laugh as you tried to get your hand out of his grasp

But he didn’t let go and it really made you feel weird

“Y/n, do you still like me?”

He asked again, this time his eyes opening and looking at you all droopy

You looked at him in surprise but ended up chuckling, shaking your head

“How am I supposed to react to that kind of question?”

He laughed a bit and leaned back, looking at you in a more stern from softer expression

“So?”

He asked, smirking a bit

Because of his funny antics, you couldn’t help but keep chuckling and quickly giving him a peck on the cheek

He was totally shocked, and so were you as you didn’t realize what you thought about doing actually happened

“Oh sh-“

“Shhh!”

You hushed Changkyun, putting your finger on his lips to stop him from talking as you put the other on yours

Suddenly the van door opened and Jooheon looked at both of you

“What’s going on here?”

He asked, knowing that he totally made up this plan himself and distracted everyone else at the convenience store by telling them you fell asleep and Changkyun couldn’t wake up

“None of your business, hyung.”

Changkyun suddenly pushed Jooheon slightly from the van before closing the door, making to look at him with a frown

“Why did you do that?”

“Do you want me to get jealous all over again?”

His reply made you chuckle, slowly also making him amused himself

He cleared his throat, trying to look away but couldn’t help but look at you again

“So, you like me, huh?”

“Well, you liked me first.”

“Guess we’re even now. “

“What’s taking the others so long anyway? Don’t you guys have a schedule to get to?”

“Did you check our schedule for today to see what we had?”

You shook your head and opened your phone, noticing that they didn’t even have a schedule that morning

“Wait a minute-“

“Oh, would you look at that. There’s no schedule. And promotions are about to be over, too. Say, why don’t we just loosen up a bit and well, you know, go on a date?”

“Changkyun don’t you think y-“

“How about Friday night? Or better yet, how about tonight?”