#Made me realize it's okay to be self-indulgent. Made me realize liking niche and obscure things is NOT wierd.

[burymeinwillow]

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[powderblueblood]

Dear Powder I feel I must gently evangelize at you about a little movie called Mojave. I do not mention it to a lot of people because it seems to have a pretty niche appeal - man I do love my little secret fandom of like 5 people - but I get the feeling you might appreciate it. Not just for the 2 hours of Oscar Isaac and Garrett Hedlund murderously snarking at each other with literary references (which is some absolutely shameless self-indulgence by writer/director William Monaghan, 11/10, never stop you grumpy man), but for Mr. Walton Goggins occasionally swanning about in his tighty whities as a drunk lawyer. He's not in it much, but when he is there, you will not soon forget it. And if you can get your hands on the deleted scenes, he has a whole extra bit.

to deliver unto me news like this of a Friday where I need most ardently to watch little guys fucking around talking mad shit at each other as justified rewatch edges closer to its conclusion…. You Are Like An Angel To Me In My Inbox My Love and also i see that is STREAMING

Friday night sorted BABY!!!!!!!

also so crazy that I didn’t realize oscar Isaac and Garrett hedlund (who we need to drag back out of obscurity btw??? Is he in that biker movie with Tom hardy or is that just another assumption I’ve made based on the everything about him) did something else together besides Inside Llewyn Davis. This overjoys me

Tighty whiteys drunk lawyer okay this is speaking directly to my heart chakra which is actually stored in my cunt

[hollow-prey]

🎫 here's a gush pass ^^ feel free to gush about whichever f/o you want, however much you want, then send this ask to 3 other selfshippers!

oh gods, are you sure you want to give me this permission? You’re really trusting me to not get carried away and end up writing a 3- hour long video essay script? You’re okay with me being a predictable little clown and talking about the same character I’ve been fixating on for the past six months? Alright, if you insist, here’s a disorganized breakdown on my current feelings towards Errol:

Not only am I surprised that I fell for Errol at all, I’m surprised that I’ve grown so attached to him in such a short amount of time. In a way it’s not *that* surprising, because I’ve known the Jak and Daxter games since I was a kid and I always distinctly remembered Errol, but I know I didn’t have a crush on him when I was younger. Yet for some reason he was always a character that stuck out so vividly in my mind, and every now and then something would remind me of the games (and him) even years after my brother sold his PS2 and all of his games. I ended up “properly” falling for Errol after my brother bought the digital bundle of the games on his PS4 and replayed them during quarantine last year. I was unknowingly anticipating when I would see Errol again, waiting for the next time I knew he would appear in a cutscene, and after watching my brother beat Jak 3, I realized that my mind kept drifting towards thoughts of Errol. I knew exactly where that thought process was headed but I was in such denial about it at first.

It’s only been roughly 6-7 months since I decided to make Errol one of my f/os, but it has already been such a hell of a time for me (in a good way) just because I’m already so attached to him. Nowadays J&D is kind of a niche, obscure thing that I never hear people talk about unless I look in the right circles (and after my brain quickly latched onto the games as a new hyperfixation and I fell in love with them all over again, I have since found a good handful of J&D content to keep me occupied), so it’s kind of weird and nice to me because I don’t think I’ve seen any other J&D self shippers so far. Compared to Grimm and Anti, who are more popular, I feel like I kind of have Errol all to myself and for once I don’t have to dread my own jealousy at seeing other people self ship with one of my f/os.

I made myself a J&D S/I, Cyr, because I’ve wanted to do that since I was a kid and only now have I been able to indulge myself enough to do it. Val and I have come up with so many ideas and scenarios for Cyr and Errol and I’ve grown so close to him in such a short amount of time as a result. For the most part, in my own personal AUs, he’s exactly the same as we was pre- crash in Jak II; he never comes back as a cyborg and tries to kill everyone. But I also have a fair share of angsty ideas (and some sweet ones) that do involve him being a cyborg. To me, he’s got a lot of story potential and I think that’s part of what makes my ship with him so personally enjoyable and special. He may be prickly and rough to others in canon, but the sheer thought that he would care about me and want me to be happy, that I would make *him* happy and bring out a deep- buried soft side in him just from me giving him a chance and loving him…. I get genuinely emotional! Val proposed the idea that after everything Errol has been through, one of the ways he would show affection would be through simple, gentle little touches that also assure him that Cyr is actually still there with him because he doesn’t want to lose her and I thought about that on loop for at least two days afterwards. Instant serotonin booster.

He’s been a big comfort for me through the past couple of months and the thought that I would make him as happy as he makes me and that he would love me as much as I love him honest to goodness takes the breath out of me. I consider myself to be a touch- starved fool, so I spend a good portion of my f/o daydreams thinking about us holding onto/ hugging each other, how he would kiss Cyr (or how Cyr would kiss him), the usual affectionate, sappy stuff. I like to believe he’s got a good heart underneath that menacing, cocky attitude and if he had been given the chance (and had the right person, i.e. Cyr, by his side supporting him) I think he could have turned over a new leaf and not tried to destroy the world. TL;DR I love Errol so so much and I wish he didn’t get such a raw deal in canon.