#NE WAY

[tebaragi]

Do It Like This (2022) P1Harmony

[ashtrayfloors]

EPISODE TWO KURT’S BRAIN - INTERIOR

Kurt’s obsession with fashion went back a long way. It was part of a more general appreciation of beautiful and material things, which he’d had since he was a child.

Kurt suspected that this early aesthetic education was responsible for the direction of his own tastes. Things were beautiful to him in inverse proportion to their accessibility: a logic which struck him as childish for its fetishisation of impotence. But the 90s were about not growing up. The pages of the music and celebrity magazines that didn’t have Kurt’s face on them were filled with images of manufactured adolescence: teeny bopper twinks dressed in virginal white, A-listers doused with slime in studios resembling kindergartens, and an ageing parade of actors fresh out of high school drag.

He might seem like a kid to an industry obsessed with youth and its prophecies, but he was a grown up with a kid of his own. Even in earlier relationships he’d wanted the house with the picket fence. Tobi Vail used to say it was because of his parents’ divorce; they’d get into screaming arguments about his attachment to what she called the ‘bourgeois and patriarchal trap of success’. Kurt was hurt, but he did agree that he wanted these things as signs that he had made it. Not to the American dream that Vail despised him for, but to some indefinable sense of a future, and this was the only one he could imagine.

Such feelings were deeply unfashionable, and got in the way of the punk recklessness that had first attracted Vail, and which she held at arms’ length, an accessory to complete her image. Not that he minded them not interrogating these desires together. Kurt couldn’t put it more eloquently than this, but it felt both good and bad to dangle from her arm. To be used the way a man might use a beautiful woman. No one had read any Judith Butler yet, so Kurt could only say: Tobi’s riot grrl feminism made him feel like a woman, but it also made him know he wasn’t one. He was part of a group of people who obstructed people like Tobi, who’s desires stood in the way of her liberation. These wants stood for his involvement in patriarchy; women only wanted these things because men wanted them for them.

But Kurt didn’t care, he dreamed of being turned into an image, into an adornment for the grrls, the gyrls, the gworls of the future. He dreamt that his name would become a secret call passed between women in chokers at parties in lofts and warehouses in metropolitan areas of the United States. He dreamt of a teenage starlet gaining fame in a tv show where she wore his dirty bob for an audience too young to remember his music. He dreamt of the expansion of the internet and forums on which users would share photos of him and argue about what he wore and what he said.

He didn’t tell anyone these dreams. Unlike the house and family, these were just for him.

—Francis Whorrall-Campbell, from "[Digital Poetics 4.7] A Fragment on Kurt Cobain’s Transgender Ideas from ‘In Utero’" (The Hythe)

[roundthreeofygo]

Oh maybe February has some sketches of Team Gai smooches...

lmk if there's a pairing you want me to check out! I'm aiming for a balance of platonic and romantic because I think Valentine's Day should include platonic love too!

[celestecreateschaos]

gonna be honest here. For the entire time Ive known you I’ve ALWAYS thought your pfp was Celestia Ludenberg unless I looked for longer than a second, and I saw that now it is her and i had a breakdown abt it

love you!

Lmfao I'm just recently getting into Danganronpa and I love her alot- bcs not only do we share a name(kind of-) I also love her like chill personality I'm kinda attached so hopefully nothing bad happens(I haven't looked at spoilers please spare me) also r u ok- like why'd you have a breakdown-

Love ya too hammy!

[doodlboy]

Y'all ever suddenly get hit with "oh shit, I forgot I could draw this" like a piano being dropped on your head?

[lucyvsky]

shirt idea curtesy of soap lepidoptertagirl

[vihrago-a]

shut the fuck up about Marnie you stupid whore

i love how u sent this literally right after someone asked who they are — all i said was if you want to know who they are, i can tell you 💀 + dont think this is marnie considering i have them blocked but hiiiiiii . how are u bestie? been awhile.

[aeons-domain]

found an astarion pfp haver in my notifs and went down their profile to see the bg3 stuff they've rbed, , ,

[waywardted]

And, most importantly, to Richmond.

TED LASSO (2020 - 2023)

[unexceptional]

OUT. || Does anyone remember the Mandy Moore film How to Deal back in like the early 2000s because I just remembered that film and got emo

[cemeterything]

bruises really are kind of fun visually speaking. like ow fuck i walked into a wall :( hoooooly shit my skin is purple

[yasmeensh]

Seriously, huge applause to OG Link for fighting Lynels at the age of 10. Adding sketch version because I always like the sketch better. I mess up as soon as I start colouring lol.

[inkskinned]

so one time i got bit by a brown recluse which is one of the only types of spider in my area that's actually dangerous and at first i didn't know what had happened to me, only that it was nasty. the swelling wasn't going down and the wound started to get ugly. i don't want to like get into the details because that's gross but it got to the point 2 weeks later that i was worried enough to go to the doctor, which i hate doing.

i am not afraid of spiders but other people are so i'd been covering it with this big ole square bandage (i needed more landscape coverage than a simple bandaid) and sat in the university medical waiting room, kicking my heels and playing BOTW. the nurse who admitted me was like, oh, we have got to get Tom to cover this one. she wrote spider bite under my ticket.

i waited in the near-empty building for like an hour and then nurse tom shows up in spiderman scrubs, out of breath. "sorry," he says, "i saw - your slip - and I had," he heaves in a breath, "to run home and. get. these scrubs. i literally. ran. felt like a job. for. spiderman."

i laugh. he puts his hands on his knees, thumbs-ups at me. fishes a pamphlet out from under his clipboard that basically says spiders can be scary but you don't need to be scared, there's very few dangerous spiders in new england. "honestly," he wheezes, "we probably don't need to get you into an exam room. just..." he waves his hand at the pamphlet, "read that."

i look down at my arm. then back at him in his scrubs. and then down at my arm. i like that he made an effort to make a joke, but now it does not feel like a good joke, because they are mistaking my calm for a lack of injury. "can i. like. at least show you the bite?"

he gives me kind of a weird look, which is fair, but then says. "if. i mean, if you have to."

i peel the bandage off. his face goes green.

"oh," he says.

"yeah, man."

"a... spider bit you?" his voice is high and tight and trembling. he backs up a few steps.

"i think a brown recluse," i offer. "i know it's nasty, sorry."

"excuse me for a moment." he looks over to the administering nurse on the other side of the small room. "i need to find someone else to take care of you."

the administering nurse smiles over to us with a degree of pleasure that is almost salivating. for a moment, like a window opening, i am briefly aware of what must be a psychic message floating amongst the in-between. her jaguar teeth all say this is like a party for me and i know exactly what i'm doing.

"oh no, tom," she says, grinning. "i gave her to you specifically."

[doodlboy]

3000 rupees for a 2 room house what is this, new york??

[firepitbutterfly]

i love sometimes when i look back at my blog and i can see a common thread thru stuff i rb it’s like wow i’m picking up what my unconscious mind is putting down

[swedenis-h]

Hiiii luuukkeee!!

Some quick redraws!

Here are links to the original drawings:

(Luke and Grogu)

(I’m a morosexual)

(You want me to lift that?)

(Hugs)

(How did this happen?)