#Not tagging this as lesbian cus I’m scared

[januscorner]

“Well what if a cishet man decides that he’s a lesbian” good for him

[lesbian-octoling]

Hey guys, Xeno drama ((you know, about the banner and hate and whatnot)) below the cut if you don’t wanna see it!!! 

@mrkamabo--co Hello! I don’t know if you’re ever going to see this, but. It’s here.

First of all, yes, it’s me! lesbian-octoling, rhi-draws-things, whatever you wanna call me. I’m making this because I’ve heard through a friend of mine that I trust that you are a relatively good person, and while I don’t agree with everything you’ve done, I figured i might as well try to clear things up between us.

First off-

I’m sorry.

This is a 100% genuine, formal apology. I am sorry your medical issues are acting up, I understand completely. I had and almost identical use (albeit with chemical imbalances making me throw up, instead of breathing/heart issues, but both caused by stress), so I get it.

I’m not here to stress you further. In fact, I’m here to try and resolve the issue. I don’t want you to feel the way you do, and I don’t want to start more drama. I should know, i’ve been receiving nasty shit for a while. If you don’t want to read this- that’s okay! Don’t stress yourself, dude.

I just feel like this is important, because we never actually talked- and lack of communication often leads to violence.

But there are a few thing I wanted to address- first and foremost, the ‘xeno free zone’ banner, and the tags.

#‘you’re a coward cuz u wanna draw them with t^ddy’#i don’t do that in the first place lmao#and if you’re going to say:#'its actually scientifically accurate!’#nope it really isn’t #why?#why would squids/octopi evolve to have digigrades/muzzles/claws on their hands?#why would they look like goats with their eyes and muzzles?#they would have flat fish face!#have squid/octo hat heads!#like the third stage in their canon evolution!#exaggerate that if you want scientifically accurate squidlings/octolings/inklings!#otherwise.. yall just makin them into furries tbh#note: i have a surplus of fursonas#k peace

Ah, I hope you don’t mind me going off a bit, but I did want to say things!!!

Muzzles: Inkling beaks, IRL, are very long! they just look flat because.. well, squids are long! But if you put that into something shaped like a human head, they need a bit more room to stretch out.

Claws: they’re not actually claws, they’re hooks! Just like real deep-sea squids have hooks made of chitin that can retract back into their tentacles, which is why i made them like that. As you can see when they go back into heir squid forms, their arms and legs ARE just evolved tentacles!

Here’s a cool example of the hooks, as compared to some of my squid hands:

‘goat noses’: This is because… it’s not a nose! A real squid breathes through it’s siphon, which is one, large hole. That’s why their nose is like that- it’s not two nostrils, it’s one hole, but flattened down so it’s not just a big ol’ hole in their face. If it was, things might get into it, like dirt or bugs or.. i dunno.

Digigrades: admittedly, this is just because it’s fun, and theres no reason they shouldn’t. Any other similarities to cats is just… coincidental, really, as cats and squids have a lot of similarities (liking the sun, chasing lights, etc).

Eyes: Actually, this was a mistake. When i FIRST started getting into splatoon i was like ‘wait squids have horizontal pupils right’ and only found out later that no.. that’s octopi! But oh well, it was a bit late, eh? live and learn.

I’m not saying its fully scientifically accurate- hell, course it’s not! But its more biologically accurate than having them being made of ink. Mostly, I just think it’s fun, cus I’m a budding biologist and I think it’s cool to explore these concepts.

Ok! Thats all I gotta say. I just wanted a chance to explain myself, s’all! As for the banner itself… while it may have been joking in nature, I do think it was a bit rude. Kinda like swinging a bat at a hornet’s nest, yeah..? Like you said- “but yknow tumblr be tumblr, and i honestly expected This™”… you gotta watch out what you say sometimes. You could’ve made it more obvious that you were joking- putting ‘XENO FREE ZONE’ with bit red X’s and ‘feel free to reblog :)’ just has.. a very mean tone to it, and it rubbed a lot of people the wrong way, regardless of your intentions. It really didn’t sound like a joke, to a lot of people, including me.

Though, maybe, we’re all just a bit wary- I’ve been receiving asks telling me to- quite literally- kill myself, multiple times, over this. I also know several friends who have gotten the same messages (a few of which don't even draw xeno, but simply because they are my friends). I think me (and other xeno artists, though I cannot speak for them) have a right to be wary, when we’re so used to being bashed. A lot of people are scared, and it doesn’t make what some people said right, I’m just… telling you why that massive backlash happened.

And by ‘massive backlash’…. if I’m being honest- and I don’t mean to make it sound trivial- a lot of the responses to those posts weren’t truly mean. Some people sent a clown meme, a lot of people responded with ‘why are you hating us, were just having fun’. A few were pretty mean, yes, but I could count them on one hand. These were light hearted in nature, and nothing like some of the truly nasty things that could’ve been said. You wouldn’t believe the things I’ve received in my inbox…

I think a lot of this could’ve been avoided if your post right after had simply been an apology. Instead of playing the victim card, simply say ‘ah, that last post was a joke- i sincerely apologize, and I might’ve worded it poorly’. That’s it. And it could have been avoided if you said, in the tags ‘this is a joke post don't take it seriously’. But instead, you went on the criticize xeno aspects. Not saying you’re wrong, but pointing out why so many people took it the wrong way.

But.. the main thing I wanted to address was this post.

I.. can’t say I’m in the right, but I can’t say you are, either. I probably shouldn’t have made that post- but it was meant more as an off-hand joke. I didn’t mention you at all, as I didn’t want anyone to hate on you. It’s more of a running joke for my blog of ‘sexy tartar’, which is why it was funny enough that I brought it up.

#can’t feel safe#when i put an opinion out there#its easy.. to ignore a post yknow…? It’s also easy not to make a joke like that. Again- maybe you intended it as a joke, but it’s like one of those shitty april fools pranks where you tell somebody something bad happened. We got scared. Doesn’t make it right of us, but it doesn’t make it right of you, either.

But the ONLY thing I’m truly angry about- if you saying that ‘you, a minor, don’t feel safe because you’re being shat on by an adult’. The reason this makes me mad is because… I’m 18. Barely. And you’re 17. I’m… not even a full year older than you. I’m still in high school. The way you worded it made it sound like i’m a 32 year old getting off on sending hate to a 13 year old- and that’s not even close to the case. That is not cool, dude.

Anyway. Sorry about that, though I hope you can see why I’m.. unhappy with the wording. I’m trying to solve things here, not make them worse, ha…

And.. yes, I did block you. But not so you wouldn’t find out. You can still see my blog; i know this. I blocked you because I’ve been getting hate anons for the past few weeks, and I can’t be too careful with who I block. I’m tired of people telling me im ‘ruining the fandom’, so I tend to block at leisure, or when I have suspicion. And a big ‘ANTI XENO’ banner is reasonable suspicion, yes…?

Again, I apologize for that post, but i was not doing to to spite you, just because I found it funny. I didn’t contribute to the spreading of hate to you in any way- I am very anti-hate messaging, and very pro ‘block and ignore if you don’t like them’. Which is.. what I was trying to do, but I didn’t want to leave us on that sour note. I did not encourage anyone to ridicule you on your post, or send you any sort of messages and asks.The only people I complained to were my girlfriend and a select few close friends, who i KNOW would not participate in any sort of hate spreading.

I’m not asking you to be friends with me. I’m simply trying to clear off any misconceptions- I’m fully welcome to hearing what you have to say back. But…

All in all, I think the gist of what im trying to say is that we all made mistakes, and we should both own up to them. I’m very sorry about your heart condition- I sincerely, 100% hope you get better. And I’m hoping that by talking it out, we can clear things up and not let it stew..? I know that sometimes these things tend to eat at me until I fix them, and that is all I’m trying to do.

I’ve unblocked you for as long as it takes for us to resolve this issue, if you would like to move to DMs, or to discord. Either works. Or.. don’t respond at all, if you don’t want.

Have a nice night, and I hope you feel better!

[cloudedsunshines]

i was tagged by @blur-moon​ and thanks!

Favorite snack?

i love eating fruits and sweet peppers and cucumbers !

Favorite place to go on vacation?

i don’t go on vacation often bc im broke af but i was able to do a foreign exchange in spain and spain was amazing

Tea or coffee?

coffee yesss (but the celtic in me can’t pass a good tea)

And what kind?

for coffee a strong black cold brew is what i like but i also love iced teas and bubble tea

What is a song that makes you dance immediately?

Greased Lightning from Grease is one of my favorites, I Don’t Dance from HSM2

Do you play an instrument?

I sing soooooo count that if you want hahah

What is your favorite personality type?

I dont know if i have a favorite personality how do you even know what your favorite is

Favorite comedian?

John Mulaney is always one of my favorites

Gummy candy or chocolate?

chocolate covered fruits are noice

What did you want to be when you grew up as a kid?

i dont even remember unless being a part of the scooby doo gang counts 

What’s your favorite physical feature of yourself?

i have some pretty green eyes with some specks of blue but you often cant see them behind my glasses super well 

When was the last time you watched a show or a movie on a TV?

I don’t own a tv sooooo but there is one in my dorm’s shared living space and I watched some netflix like 4 days ago ish

Unpopular opinion

ummmmm bernie is awesome but hes old as fuck and we need to acknowledge the fact he very well could die in office and not get much done

Are you scared of bugs?

some of them hell yeah i know spiders supossedly can help a lot but theyre terrifying assholes that have no place in my life or home

Cats or dogs?

dogs are the light of my life

Are you allergic to any foods?

i’m allergic to green food coloring which is weird i know

Does the description of your star sign match your personality?

let’s see...taurus: stubborn, treat yo self year round, cool head until and explosion, friendships are quality over quantity, independent, charming, down to earth....sounds about right man

Name the first song that comes into your head?

pretend - CNCO

Cake or pie?

pieeeee cake is too sweet

When was the last time you read an entire book?

lmao maybe a decade ago i hate reading

Favorite junk food?

fries and frosty !

Do you like your height?

im real small like 159cm ish and i kinda like being small except during concerts when assholes who are real tall dont let you pass so you can see im like bitch 

Apples or oranges?

oranges for sure i love citrus 

What’s your favorite personality trait in a person?

isnt this almost the same question above ahaha i guess kindness and humor are real nice

Do you like salad?

i’m a slut for veggies and fruit so hells yeah

Which person inspires you the most?

i dont know if there is a specfic person who inspires me most but freddie mercury is up there and my great grandma and not to be like that but myself cus ive been through some shit and im still here

What is a song that has made you cry?

I’m Still Standing - Elton John ...i was having a real rough time on the fourth and i went to mcdonalds at two am for a snack and on the way home that song came on and i was scream crying it was so what i needed in the time

i tag anyone who wants to complete this and @artemis-lesbian

[snaxology]

About / FAQ

About

Yo my name’s Rhi! Some people also call me Bees, either works. My pronouns are they / them please! I’m also 20, an artist, and an aspiring biologist and zoologist!

I do a lot of weird xeno / speculative biology, body horror, and gore... so if that’s not your thing maybe this isn’t the blog for you. However, everything will be tagged appropriately! If you need something specific tagged, please let me know.

I also often stream art and/or games! You can see if I’m actively streaming things here or on my twitch. I don’t really plan anything in advance because it’s mostly informal dicking around, im not a professional or anything. I just like 2 have fun babey

My main blog is @rhi-draws-things, my art blog is @bees-draws. I post bugsnax art here but RB all my nice stuff to my art blog!

DNI if you’re an asshole. Just... don’t. If you’re homophobic, transphobic, a nazi, antisemitic, racist, pro-cop, support incest/underage, “map”, dont support nb identities, and all that bullshit I don’t feel like typing out- just don’t follow me at all. Don’t interact with me. If you’re a freak get out dude you know who you are. If you have any questions, you’re free to ask! I support pan, bi, and trans people, if you don’t, get the hell outta here!!!!

YES I have AUs. NO I don’t talk about them cus I’m scared of social judgement. We exist. If you send me asks abt anything ill love you forever

Chandlo and Spout are also my favorite characters and I want to hug them gently. thank you

FAQ

Can I use your art for edits/icons/RP things/whatever? The answer is yes, as long as you aren’t making a profit (dont sell t shirts) and give credit. This does not mean you can repost my art. Don’t do that. RP blogs making ur little icons n shit, go for it. Just... again, credit pwease.

Is it ok to reblog [post]? My rule of thumb is I don’t post shit if I don’t want it reblogged. So unless something is CLEARLY labeled with a billion “DO NOT REBLOGS” or whatever, it’s ok to rb! I generally won’t tho

Is it ok to tag stuff as kin/me/id/anything? Hell yeah bro go for it!!! I’m a kinnie myself so if that makes you uncomfortable oops. But yeah all my art? go nuts w the tags i dont care. In fact I fucking love reading tags. I crawl thru all of them. i see any tag i smooch u gently

Hey your art looks like- YES I am lesbian-octoling / black-mesa-slut-voice. YES I’m known for drawing xeno squids and benrey. I am aware. I find it hilarious that people keep going ‘wait a minute’ in my art’s tags and sending me posts saying my art looks familiar. YES. IT’S ME. I promise.

My question isn’t here :( I have an ask box bro its ok I don’t bite ily

[lesbian-ed]

-1 of 4- I'm afraid what if the only reason I don't like men is because of trauma and radical feminism? It makes me feel like a fake. But I don't want to try dating or having sex with a man just to ~know for sure~. I read through your comp het tag and questioning tag and other people's take on comp het and lesbianism and bisexuality and I still feel unsure. I really resonated with you asking which sex makes you feel safe because I have never felt safe or even at ease around males.

-2 of 4- People, even my therapist, say it’s just cus of my trauma. Idk about all that but even if it were true that’s not my fault and it’s not something I can do anything about. And people always say that nervous feeling is supposed to be a good thing anyway so idek if my male crushes were genuine but I know they felt different than my female crushes. But the only time I fantasize about men is if I’m in a self-destructive mood and the fantasies are always abusive and gen have fictional men.

-3 of 4- I know why I have these fantasies and I’m no expert but I don’t think trauma actually changes your orientation? But I also can’t remove trauma unfortunately so idk how I would feel about males without it. I have no desire to actually have sex with them so the most I could do would be platonic dating and isn’t that just friendship? But I’ve also heard of straight or bi women who choose not to have sex with their boyfriends or don’t enjoy PIV or sex at all? Idk.

-4 of 4- I think about in high school wishing boys asked me out yet when they did or even showed the smallest interest I practically ran even when I “liked” them. And everybody would ask what was wrong with me, I thought you liked him, etc and I had no answer and I still have no answer. I’m sorry this was so long and rambly I just have no one to turn to on this.

Hello honey! I’m glad you came to us.

All those things you mention sounds like perfectly normal feelings for a lesbian who’s gone through trauma relating to men, and who is suffering from compulsory heterosexuality or internalized lesbophobia. You’re not alone in this I promise.

It’s normal as a woman not to feel safe around males, hell, even if you were attracted to them (which it really sounds like you’re not) especially if you’ve suffered violence at their hands. Even for straight women, being distrustful of men as a result of reading about radical feminism is a good thing! Men as a whole are violent against women in so many different ways, and it’s healthy for women to recognise that and act consequently to keep ourselves safe. 

You don’t owe them anything, much less your company or your love. I know society makes us feel as if we must be available to men, but we really don’t have to, we don’t have to subject ourselves to danger just to inflate their egos, especially if it’s men we feel nothing for. Believe me, what you’ve told me about feeling nervous around men is not a sign of a crush, it’s a sign of being scared of them. People aren’t usually scared of their crushes. Your therapist sounds like a tool tbh, they shouldn’t encourage you to try to be with men if it’s something that scares you.

You’re allowed not to want men, you don’t have to try to be with them to know “just for sure” believe me YOU DON’T, you don’t have to engage in relationships that scare you and that you feel you’d get nothing but maybe friendship of, you’re allowed to have desires and to act on them, you’re allowed to have boundaries, if you only fantasize about men when you’re in a self-destructive mood, really what does that say? To me it says that it’s something you do to yourself out of self-hate, fantasies should be about imagining something that makes you feel good, never bad! 

Men don’t have to matter in your life, you don’t have to be “open” to them in any way, it’s your right not to be. And this is true regardless of a woman’s sexual orientation.

Mod M :D