#On Manifestation of Sona's Ultimate

[toxycodone]

Hi on the plane I created my post canon dungeon meshi sona

they’re a kobold that was gonna die then a magic food appeared before them (manifestation of the demon/mana)

now they are a court jester for gnomes. And the world is concerned because! Wowie! They can eat desires and shit wtf!!!

and my sona’s ultimate desire is the demon’s….to exist as human and have fun/live life to the fullest

BASICALLY THEY ARE A SILLY PUPPY THAT LIVES BY MUSICAL RULES. Y’know how in MLP and stuff they break out in song? My sona does that and it compels others to join yaaaaay

[midwinterhunt]

My Sona

Okay so this is Mid.

It/They/He (in order of frequency of preference)

Mid is a voidling, an ageless, formless creature who came into existence somewhere between the dawn of time and last tuesday. We,,,, really aren't sure.

This particular voidling is often mistaken for a cat-like creature, it is not. It chooses to make part if its form point out as a means of expression in a way that mammals can all understand.

Mid is perpetually emotional, but especially anxious.

They are doing their best.

Mid is able to interact with the world by splitting off parts of its form to use as hand. It could theoretically have as many "hands" as it wants, but usually sticks to two.

They don't normally have a mouth, but will sometimes manifest one if they really want to convey a specific expression or are about to consume something.

Speaking of consuming something, yeah.... it can pretty much devour anything. Objects, animals, entire banquets, people, your student loan debt, your car you had two more payments on, the lottery, squeaky toys(it ate ONE squeaky toy, and got the squeaker stuck and can now only communicate in squeaky noises), kitkats corner first.

He also sometimes has a problem with objects he interacts with turning into the same non-material he's made up of? As which point the object must be seamlessly absorbed into his body, or the void matter will just continue to spread. This is no joke, because this is literally a world ending phenomenon.

But despite its destructive potential, Mid is a playful creature, often confused, sometimes a little dumb, and ultimately just wants to make friends (but is perpetually nervous about doing so).

Mid very much likes to interact in ask games, art, posing for art, meeting others' sonas, and anything else!

When Mid gains experience, they eventually evolve to have more control and a more defined form.

You can learn more about Mid's species @voidlings-and-starlets

[damagedintellect]

💌BSD OC💌

💌 I figured since I’m a writer I’d be my own BSD SONA/OC/Self Insert based on my novel “Fake It Till You Make It” Her ability lets her copy the ability of the last person she has touched as long as she's seen said ability in action. (Has swatches of hair samples sewed into her gauntlet to swap abilities in battle) 💌 She was originally being sold to the Port Mafia but the ADA intercepted the transaction by "accident". Dazai found out about it when he was looking for who put the bid on Atsushi and came across her unfortunate case. Ultimately he didn't want to find out if she could copy Chuuya's annoying ability and decided to rig the transaction for the ADA's favor instead. Mostly as another fuck you to Mori 💌 When her ability first manifested at 5yrs old, her poor parents sold her for science, she's been passed from lab to lab under the threat that if she tried to rebel they would kill her family. The lab tried to form a singularity, trying to make her the first person to be able to use multiple abilities at once. It ended in failure and somehow she ended up on the black market. She can't remember her real name due to the amount of testing she's been under, she remembers her initials are D & I so she says her name is Damaged Intellect bc she feels like a broken person.

💌 Personality wise she's just tired. The lab was trying to create the ultimate ability vessel so she's been put through the ringer physically and mentally. Hella insomniac with the bags under her eyes to prove it. Only feels comfortable sleeping in small confined spaces or next to people she trusts. Likes to nap under people's desks while they're working. She doesn't want to wake up from the dream of living freely so she has a hard time sleeping on her own.

💌Mentally she has been trained to have a high intellect and analytical comprehension. She needed to be able to understand other people's abilities to use them efficiently being able to read people's intentions was an added bonus. (bc of this she found out her family was already dead so she became indifferent about life since there was nothing to return home to but she didn't want to die either)

She only goes with Dazai since she could tell there was no malicious intent behind his words and he promised life would be more beautiful.

She's carefree, grateful and mostly laid back until someone she cares about gets hurt then she goes absolutely feral. Will rip someone's jugular out with her teeth if she has too. Since she's indifferent about living, she often speaks in dark humor, sass and sarcasm bc of this, but will throw herself in front of a bus to save a dog. Copying Yosano's ability lets her be more reckless with her life than most people since she also doesn't want to die. Honestly she didn't think she would live this long and nothing could compare to the torture of the lab, she's kinda jaded to the pain. Like it still hurts she just doesn't give a shit.

💌She bleached her hair when she joined the ADA bc she couldn't stand seeing the lab rat she used to be but she didn't exactly have a favorite color since she didn't grow up like a normal person so it just stayed copper-ish. Ultimately not having a childhood/being raised in society makes the world one big game of act like you belong, she doesn't always get it right, interpreting her own emotions is hard.

As her roots grow out she has more and more mental breakdowns every time she sees herself in the mirror (only if she's alone)

[Part 2]

[withperfecttempo]

// This post details my thoughts and headcanons on Sona’s lore update and her color story. Rather than separating them all into different posts, I think it’s sufficient enough to combine them into one rather than try to create separate posts and tack on my older headcanons from the previous lore.

***Please do not reblog or steal***

Relationship with etwahl and method of “communication”:

There is a combination of ways: through touch, seemingly intuitive; it’s hard to place a finger but it feels as though there is another presence working its thoughts in tandem with hers. 

Coping and adjusting to petricite effects:

Upon her arrival to Demacia, she definitely felt the effects quite immediately. She grew fatigued and her family had thought that she might be tired from her travels and that she would recuperate after spending a certain amount of time with them without overbearing travels. Over time with consistent exposure, she has learned to adjust herself and adapt to the effects to be able to mask them sufficiently. Sona’s awareness could also extend to her being able to take notice of details to be able to adapt to her situations. Given that she’s surrounded by petricite daily, it’s a consistent enough basis for her to be able to develop a tolerance for it as well as figuring out how to allot her energies to be able to carry herself smoothly. Bigger gatherings such as galas tend to be the most exhaustive for her, especially when she has been asked to perform at the event. As she grows older and stronger, she’s been much better to be able to mask its draining effects on her.

Returning to Ionia, she must have felt the effects from petricite much like how one would experience jet lag when traveling. There is a point when her equilibrium in terms of arcane energy which causes her to feel sick or exhausted. As such, she needs time to be able to recover and get her bearings.

Sona and her abilities adapted and grew stronger.. It’s possible that the spirit in the etwahl adjusted also given its longevity and persistence to be with Sona. Her abilities most likely have grown as she expanded and honed her music expertise as well. Much like bottled inspiration, it lingers for a time before overflowing or bursting.

Political dealings in Demacia:

Sona does not have much of a role in Demacia’s politics despite now taking on the Buvelle name upon her adoption.

Given Demacia’s strong repulsion for anything arcane and that Ionia is a land that’s flowing with it, there is little surprise that there would be a number of stereotypes that manifested towards Ionians within Demacia. I’m almost sure that Sona’s dealt with multiple instances of racism. Creating stereotypes working off of racism is an easier way to create scapegoats to avoid persecution by the mage seekers. With this being said, I don’t think it would be much of a stretch to see a possibility of witch-hunts among citizens every now and then.

Learning languages:

It’s difficult for Sona, in general, to learn a language in general. It’s even harder for Sona to learn a language that doesn’t follow similar syntax and grammar as, say, a language she has grown up with in Ionia. It’s hard for her to draw connections and be able to make comparisons to grasp the rules completely. 

She can only communicate so much through the rough sign-language that the Buvelles had developed specifically for her. She still tries to learn and employ other means of getting her message across other than music for practical means such as carrying paper and graphite in the event she comes across someone who doesn’t understand any form of sign. Since her form of sign is specialized for primarily her use, it’s more of a reason for her to be flexible in the event that her close friends or family aren’t able to help her at the moment she needs. 

I’m keeping the notion that Sona can use telepathy with those akin to magic. I believe that her wanting to be able to communicate is one of the bigger catalysts to make this happen. It also wouldn’t make much sense for her to keep all her voice lines to herself. If the etwahl is possessed by some spirit, I could imagine that Sona is also able to communicate through telepathic means with spiritual beings.

Manifestation of Sona’s ultimate:

Sona’s ultimate spell, “Crescendo”, is something that consists of accumulated magic and strong emotions. Emotions can boil over when kept repressed for too long similarly to overfilling a glass or when substances are subjected to tense factors in a closed environment. The contents will spill over or break out of its confines.

 She didn’t know it was something she, herself, is capable of ever doing. 

Most of her magic is more support oriented, aiming to empower and help an ally recover. As far as her more offensive spell, “Hymn of Valor”, I see it as something that acts to leave openings such as disarming a foe.

Violence in Sona’s magic and morals:

Sona did not want to kill the mage seekers. Her ultimate is made of built up emotions and energies that ended up becoming a last resort as a result of being cornered. 

Her being violent and actually wanting to kill goes completely against what she stands for as one who instills hope and comfort. Her strong opposition to Sylas’ approach is quite telling. All in all, she’s against hurting people, which includes murder, even if she inadvertently left the mage seekers in a ghastly state.

She was in panic mode so she probably didn’t think too much beyond the fact she just wanted to protect her friends and loved ones so she just wants to make sure the mage seekers are unable to go after them. Sona has seen too many innocent people being falsely accused and ripped of their livelihood so she wants to put a stop to it in any way she could. It also seems like they have suspected Sona for a time to approach her in an organized way. 

If there is a time when she has absolutely no choice but to kill, I firmly and forever believe that the first and last person she kills is Jhin.

Despite much that she has gone through, she still manages to be a kind and comforting presence. Sona must have come to realize that despite being placed in the most unfortunate situations, she still is able to take her life into her own hands and alleviate any pain anyone else has experienced by simply being a warm presence while providing good and relatable music.

[hereliesbeetlejuice]

me, an antibeetleb*be who is a minor: hey maybe dont ship adults and kids? and also please respect my dni? // beetleb*be shipper who i blocked months ago who somehow still reblogged my post: no i will not. anyway, you ship your sona who is an adult with bj, so thats obviously the same as projecting onto lydia who is a teenager and shipping her with bj!! youre no better than we (the pedoshippers) are.

That’s really shitty I’m sorry that happened to you. I don’t advocate for sending hate to people regardless of who they are but people have the right to say their opinions on their own blogs, and when people cross boundaries and blatantly ignore DNIs like that person did (I could give you three guesses on who it was too) you know they’re just insecure and looking to start arguments to feel like they’ve justified themselves in their own eyes.

I’ve seen some nasty shit being thrown by both “sides” (that concept is still just...ridiculous to me) but I’ll never understand why some shippers say they’re always being attacked unprovoked and then go out of their way to bully a non-shipper on their own post where they expressed their own personal opinions. Not sure whatever happened to “block and move on”. It’s happened to me and way too many friends. Again, insecurity. That receipts blog I had fun with yesterday is like the ultimate manifestation of that.

But anyway, speaking as a 22 year old I can tell you that if I understand yours and that person��s viewpoints correctly then what you guys were talking about absolutely cannot be compared. A minor having a crush on an older person, fictional or not, is NOT the same as a grown adult that gets off to the idea of a minor in a sexual situation with an adult. Not even close.

Also! In regards to your blocking problem, did they interact with your sideblog? If you block them on mobile you only block them from interacting with your main blog, you have to log in on desktop to block them from a specific sideblog which blows but it’s so worth it.

Hope you feel better soon, stay safe and take care of yourself! 💚

[swaminithyanandaclicks]

23 MAY 2020 - SATURDAY - 9:30 PM IST - PARAMASHIVOHAM LEVEL 2, SEASON 5, SESSION 1 *PARAMASHIVA’S DIRECT MESSAGE FROM SHRIKAILASA: *WHATEVER PARAMASHIVA HAS SHARED, THE ABSOLUTE IMPORTANT SACRED SECRET TO HIS OWN SON, LITERALLY TO HIS EXTENSION - SUBRAHMANYA... THOSE TREASURE SECRET CODES ARE IN THIS SARVAJNANOTTARA AGAMA. THIS IS THE AGAMA PARAMASHIVA DIRECTLY TAUGHT TO SUBRAHMANYA, HIS SON. *NOW, PARAMASHIVA IS MANIFESTING THE LIFE PARAMASHIVA GAVE FOR SUBRAHMANYA AND GIVING FOR ALL OF YOU! *WHO GAVE TO WHOM IS VERY IMPORTANT, BECAUSE THE RELATIONSHIP OF GIVER AND RECEIVER IS TOO IMPORTANT. *FOR EXAMPLE: WHEN THERE WAS CORONA ALL OVER, TO TELL THAT WE ARE PROTECTING OURSELVES, WE STARTED LOOKING FOR PRECAUTIONARY MEASURES. FIRST THING, SONA KAMAT, WITHOUT EVEN THINKING, JUMPED AND SENT HER OWN MEDICINES. JUST TO KEEP OUR PRECAUTION STOCK FOR PREVENTION, SHE SENT HER OWN MEDICINE! IF I AM TALKING TO HER PERSONALLY, SITTING AND REVEALING ALL THE ULTIMATE TRUTHS, EVERYTHING PARAMASHIVA IS REVEALING, I WILL TELL THIS AS IT IS TO HER. *WITH SOMEBODY WHO GIVES MORE IMPORTANCE TO MY LIFE THAN MY OWN LIFE, WHO SENT HER OWN MEDICINES, NATURALLY I WILL BE ABSOLUTELY INTEGRATED AND SHARING THE TRUTHS AS IT IS. THESE ARE THAT KIND OF TREASURE TRUTHS THAT PARAMASHIVA IS SHARING WITH HIS SON WHO IS GOING TO BE HIS INHERITOR - SUBRAHMANYA. THESE ARE THE EXTREMELY IMPORTANT, MOST PRECIOUS, MOST IMPORTANT SACRED SECRETS, SECRET TREASURES. *I AM NOT ONLY GOING TO TEACH YOU, I AM GOING TO GIVE YOU EXACTLY WHAT PARAMASHIVA GAVE TO SUBRAHMANYA. BECAUSE PARAMASHIVA HIMSELF IS MANIFESTING THROUGH THIS BEING NOW AND GIVING YOU ALL EXACTLY WHAT WAS GIVEN TO SUBRAHMANYA. *NOTHING IS REQUIRED FROM YOUR SIDE TO ME. JUST SIT LIKE INNOCENT SUBRAHMANYA. THESE 16 DAYS, DECIDE TO BE SITTING LIKE BABY MURUGA, LIKE BABY SUBRAHMANYA, WITH TREMENDOUS RECEPTIVITY, SWEET INNOCENT LOVE! I ASSURE YOU, WHATEVER WAS GIVEN TO SUBRAHMANYA, THE WHOLE LIFE WILL BE GIVEN TO YOU. NOT JUST WORDS, TEACHINGS OR EVEN EXPERIENCE, BUT LIFE ITSELF! *I AM TALKING TO EACH ONE OF YOU, SITTING IN YOUR ROOM. YOUR SCREEN IS YOUR WORLD NOW. YOUR WORLD WILL BECOME SCREEN FOR YOU NOW! WHAT YOU ARE SEEING IN https://www.instagram.com/p/CAip03xAcYV/?igshid=1jz6n7tnzavwi

[nithyanandaparamashivam]

2020年5月23日Paramashivoham二級課程摘要

2020年5月23日-周六-印度时间上午9:30 PM IST - PARAMASHIVOHAM二级，第五季，第一个环节 23 MAY 2020 - SATURDAY - 9:30 PM IST - PARAMASHIVOHAM LEVEL 2, SEASON 5, SESSION 1 *帕冉玛希瓦直接来自圣凯拉萨的信息 *PARAMASHIVA’S DIRECT MESSAGE FROM SHRIKAILASA: *无论帕冉玛希瓦分享了什么，对祂自己的儿子来说绝对是重要的神圣秘密，从字面上看是祂的扩展——苏巴曼亚（SUBRAHMANYA 战神） ……那些宝藏密码就在这个SARVAJNANOTTARA AGAMA里。这是《阿吠玛经》帕冉玛希瓦直接教导给祂的儿子苏巴曼亚 - 战神的。 *WHATEVER PARAMASHIVA HAS SHARED, THE ABSOLUTE IMPORTANT SACRED SECRET TO HIS OWN SON, LITERALLY TO HIS EXTENSION - SUBRAHMANYA... THOSE TREASURE SECRET CODES ARE IN THIS SARVAJNANOTTARA AGAMA. THIS IS THE AGAMA PARAMASHIVA DIRECTLY TAUGHT TO SUBRAHMANYA, HIS SON. *现在，帕冉玛希瓦正在显化帕冉玛希瓦为苏巴曼亚奉献的生命，以及奉献给你们所有人! *NOW, PARAMASHIVA IS MANIFESTING THE LIFE PARAMASHIVA GAVE FOR SUBRAHMANYA AND GIVING FOR ALL OF YOU! *是谁给于谁非常重要，因为给予者和接受者的关系太重要了。 *WHO GAVE TO WHOM IS VERY IMPORTANT, BECAUSE THE RELATIONSHIP OF GIVER AND RECEIVER IS TOO IMPORTANT. *例如:当新冠状病毒出现的时候，为了表明我们在保护自己，我们开始��找预防措施。第一件事，SONA KAMAT，想都没想就“跳”了，亲自送上她自己的药来。只为了我们的预防库存，她送上她自己的药! 如果我亲自和她交谈，坐着揭示所有的终极真理，帕冉玛希瓦所揭示的一切，我会告诉她这是真实的。 *FOR EXAMPLE: WHEN THERE WAS CORONA ALL OVER, TO TELL THAT WE ARE PROTECTING OURSELVES, WE STARTED LOOKING FOR PRECAUTIONARY MEASURES. FIRST THING, SONA KAMAT, WITHOUT EVEN THINKING, JUMPED AND SENT HER OWN MEDICINES. JUST TO KEEP OUR PRECAUTION STOCK FOR PREVENTION, SHE SENT HER OWN MEDICINE! IF I AM TALKING TO HER PERSONALLY, SITTING AND REVEALING ALL THE ULTIMATE TRUTHS, EVERYTHING PARAMASHIVA IS REVEALING, I WILL TELL THIS AS IT IS TO HER. *和一个对我的生命比我自己的生命更重要的人在一起，那个送上她自己的药，自然我会完全融入，并分享事实真相。这些是帕冉玛希瓦与祂儿子分享的宝贵真理，祂的儿子将成为祂的继承人——苏巴曼亚。这些都是极其重要，最珍贵，最重要的神圣秘密，秘密宝藏。 *WITH SOMEBODY WHO GIVES MORE IMPORTANCE TO MY LIFE THAN MY OWN LIFE, WHO SENT HER OWN MEDICINES, NATURALLY I WILL BE ABSOLUTELY INTEGRATED AND SHARING THE TRUTHS AS IT IS. THESE ARE THAT KIND OF TREASURE TRUTHS THAT PARAMASHIVA IS SHARING WITH HIS SON WHO IS GOING TO BE HIS INHERITOR - SUBRAHMANYA. THESE ARE THE EXTREMELY IMPORTANT, MOST PRECIOUS, MOST IMPORTANT SACRED SECRETS, SECRET TREASURES. *我不仅要教导你，我要把帕冉玛希瓦传授给苏巴曼亚的东西都给你。因为帕冉玛希瓦自己现在正通过这个存在显化，并给予你们所有的一切，也正是原给予苏巴曼亚的一切。 *I AM NOT ONLY GOING TO TEACH YOU, I AM GOING TO GIVE YOU EXACTLY WHAT PARAMASHIVA GAVE TO SUBRAHMANYA. BECAUSE PARAMASHIVA HIMSELF IS MANIFESTING THROUGH THIS BEING NOW AND GIVING YOU ALL EXACTLY WHAT WAS GIVEN TO SUBRAHMANYA. *我对你没有任何要求。就像天真的苏巴曼亚一样坐着吧。这16天，下决定像宝宝穆如干MURUGA（指年幼的苏巴曼亚）一样坐着，像宝宝苏巴曼亚一样，以极大的接受力，甜美纯真的爱！我向你保证，无论给了苏巴曼亚什么，整个生命都会于你。不只是语言、教导，甚至是经验，而是生命本身！ *NOTHING IS REQUIRED FROM YOUR SIDE TO ME. JUST SIT LIKE INNOCENT SUBRAHMANYA. THESE 16 DAYS, DECIDE TO BE SITTING LIKE BABY MURUGA, LIKE BABY SUBRAHMANYA, WITH TREMENDOUS RECEPTIVITY, SWEET INNOCENT LOVE! I ASSURE YOU, WHATEVER WAS GIVEN TO SUBRAHMANYA, THE WHOLE LIFE WILL BE GIVEN TO YOU. NOT JUST WORDS, TEACHINGS OR EVEN EXPERIENCE, BUT LIFE ITSELF! *我正在和你们每个人谈话，坐在你们的房间里。你的屏幕现在就是你的世界。现在你的世界将成为你的屏幕! 你在屏幕上看到的我，将成为世界。你在外面世界看到的将会变成屏幕! 带着穆如干的天真坐在帕冉玛希瓦的脚下。就是这样! *I AM TALKING TO EACH ONE OF YOU, SITTING IN YOUR ROOM. YOUR SCREEN IS YOUR WORLD NOW. YOUR WORLD WILL BECOME SCREEN FOR YOU NOW! WHAT YOU ARE SEEING IN THE SCREEN - ME, WILL BECOME WORLD. WHAT YOU ARE SEEING IN THE WORLD OUTSIDE WILL BECOME SCREEN! JUST SIT WITH THE INNOCENCE OF MURUGA AT THE FEET OF PARAMASHIVA. THAT'S IT! *今天我要做一个正式的VIDYARAMBHAM的点化。只有点化，这个《阿戈玛经》才能被教导。在教学过程中也会有更多的点化活动。但首先是VIDYARAMBHAM。 *TODAY I AM GOING TO DO A FORMAL VIDYARAMBHAM INITIATION. ONLY WITH INITIATION, THIS AGAMA CAN BE TAUGHT. DURING THE TEACHING ALSO THERE WILL BE SOME MORE INITIATIONS. BUT FIRST VIDYARAMBHAM.

*取一个小盘子，放掺了姜黄粉的大米或圣灰或圣红粉或姜黄粉。我将以OMKARA咒语点化- PARABRAHMA SWAROOPA。把它写在圣灰或姜黄粉或圣红粉或AKSHATA的盘子上。我将与你们分享这个伟大的《阿吠玛经》。 *TAKE A SMALL PLATE AND PUT AKSHATA OR VIBHOOTI OR KUMKUM OR TURMERIC IN IT. I WILL BE GIVING THE INITIATION WITH ‘OMKARA’ MANTRA - PARABRAHMA SWAROOPA. WRITE IT ON THE PLATE ON VIBHOOTI OR TURMERIC OR KUMKUM OR AKSHATA. I WILL SHARE THIS GREAT AGAMA WITH YOU ALL. *我特别感谢KANCHI KAMAKOTI CHANDRASEKARENDRA MAHA SWAMIJI。我需要特别提到他的名字。当教导我阿吠玛经的认证讲师ACHARYA 带我去TONDAIMANDALA 灵修院的第230GURUMAHASANNIDANAM时，他带我去KANCHI PARAMACHARYA，他向PARAMACHARYA解释他所教导我的一切。他说，28的阿吠玛经正在接受教导。PARAMACHARYA通常不说话。但他抬起头说:“这还不够，你还应该教SARVAJNANOTTARA AGAMA !”因为他提到了，他们立刻拿到了书并开始教学。帕冉玛希瓦给予经验，认证讲师ACHARYAS给予知识。所以我向KANCHI KAMAKOTI PEETHAM CHANDRASEKARENDRA MAHASWAMIJI鞠躬，特别要提到并确保我学过这个《阿吠玛经》——SARVAJNANOTTARA AGAMA.。 *I THANK ESPECIALLY KANCHI KAMAKOTI CHANDRASEKARENDRA MAHA SWAMIJI. I NEED TO MENTION HIS NAME ESPECIALLY HERE. WHEN THE ACHARYA WHO WAS TEACHING ME AGAMAS TOOK ME TO THE 230TH GURUMAHASANNIDANAM OF TONDAIMANDALA AADHEENAM, HE TOOK ME TO KANCHI PARAMACHARYA AND HE WAS EXPLAINING TO PARAMACHARYA WHAT ALL WAS BEING TAUGHT TO ME. HE TOLD THAT THE 28 AGAMAS IS BEING TAUGHT. PARAMACHARYA DOESN'T SPEAK USUALLY. BUT HE RAISED HIS HEAD AND SAID, ‘THAT IS NOT ENOUGH, YOU SHOULD TEACH SARVAJNANOTTARA AGAMA ALSO!’ BECAUSE HE MENTIONED, THEY IMMEDIATELY GOT THE BOOK AND TAUGHT. PARAMASHIVA GAVE EXPERIENCE, ACHARYAS GAVE KNOWLEDGE. SO I BOW DOWN TO KANCHI KAMAKOTI PEETHAM CHANDRASEKARENDRA MAHASWAMIJI, SPECIALLY FOR MENTIONING AND MAKING SURE I AM TAUGHT THIS AGAMA - SARVAJNANOTTARA AGAMA. 还有，BHAGAVAN RAMANA MAHARISHI用泰米尔语翻译了《阿吠玛经》。我有机会读到这篇文章，并得到了祂的祝福。 *AND ALSO, BHAGAVAN RAMANA MAHARISHI TRANSLATED THIS AGAMA IN TAMIL. I HAD THE OPPORTUNITY OF READING THAT AND RECEIVING HIS BLESSINGS. *在这里，我将遵循梵文原文和泰米尔语原文。这两首诗的原文都是帕冉玛希瓦所写的。SABARETNAM SHIVACHARYA翻译了英文和PO。MUTHIAH PILLAI用泰米尔语翻译。因此，我感谢译者和出版商-HIMALAYAN 学院-KAUAI 灵修院 -夏威夷出版英语和PO。MUTHIAH PILLAI在1923年用泰米尔语出版了这本书。我向所有这些译者、出版商、整个导师传承体系GURU PARAMPARA和认证讲师传承体系ACHARYA PARAMPARA致敬。 *HERE I AM GOING TO FOLLOW THE ORIGINAL VERSES IN SANSKRIT AND THE ORIGINAL VERSES IN TAMIL. BOTH ORIGINAL VERSES ARE GIVEN BY PARAMASHIVA. SABARETNAM SHIVACHARYA HAS TRANSLATED IT IN ENGLISH AND PO. MUTHIAH PILLAI HAS TRANSLATED IT IN TAMIL. SO I THANK THE TRANSLATORS AND PUBLISHERS - HIMALAYAN ACADEMY - KAUAI AADHEENAM - HAWAII FOR PUBLISHING IT IN ENGLISH AND PO. MUTHIAH PILLAI WHO HAS PUBLISHED THIS BOOK IN TAMIL IN 1923. I BOW DOWN TO ALL THESE TRANSLATORS, PUBLISHERS, THE WHOLE GURU PARAMPARA AND ACHARYA PARAMPARA. *带着对他们所有人的感激，我点化你们所有人进入SARVAJNANOTTARA AGAMA的VIDYARAMBHA。 *WITH GRATITUDE TO ALL OF THEM, I INITIATE ALL OF YOU INTO THE VIDYARAMBHA OF SARVAJNANOTTARA AGAMA. *在象神GANESHA和导师传承体系的祝福下，我们现在都将成功地显化在我们生命中帕冉玛希瓦给予了SUBRAHMANYA的一切。 *WITH THE BLESSINGS OF GANESHA AND THE GURU PARAMPARA, WE WILL ALL BE SUCCESSFUL IN MANIFESTING WHAT PARAMASHIVA GAVE TO SUBRAHMANYA IN OUR LIFE NOW. *这是开始学习的传统的、典型的方式:首先记住象神GANESHA —— PRATAMA PUJYA，然后是根本神灵MOOLA DEVATA——帕冉玛希瓦。然后《阿吠玛经》被给予谁，然后整个导师传承体系，包括还让这本书“活着”的认证讲师以及每一个人。 *THIS IS THE TRADITIONAL, TYPICAL WAY OF BEGINNING THE LEARNING: FIRST REMEMBER GANESHA - PRATAMA PUJYA AND THEN MOOLA DEVATA - PARAMASHIVA. THEN TO WHOM AGAMA IS GIVEN, THEN THE WHOLE GURU PARAMPARA INCLUDING THE ACHARYA WHO KEPT THE BOOK ALIVE AND EVERYONE. *因此，现在我进入《阿吠玛经》。我将从真知部分VIDYA PADA开始。 *SO WITH THIS, NOW I AM ENTERING INTO THE AGAMA. I AM GOING TO START WITH VIDYA PADA. *स्रिमद् सर्वज्ञानोत्तर अगम - विद्या पाद: SRIMAD SARVAJNANOTTARA AGAMA : VIDYA PADAHA त्रिपदार्थ विचार प्रकरणम् TRIPADAARTHA VICHAARA PRAKARANAM पशुपाश विधानंहि श्रोतुमिच्छामि तत्त्वतः संयोगं च तथा तेषां कथयस्व महेश्वर PASHUPAASHA VIDHAANAMHI SHROTUMICCHAAMI TATTVATAH SAMYOGAM CA TATHAA TESHAAM KATHAYASVA MAHESHVARA *我将读出译文: 啊，伟大的神，我渴望从你那里听到被束缚的自我和束缚的本质和内在本质。同时，解释灵魂和纽带是如何连接在一起的。 *I WILL READ THE TRANSLATION: O, THE GREAT LORD, I AM INTENT ON HEARING FROM YOU THE ESSENTIAL AND IMMANENT NATURE OF THE BOUND SELF AND OF THE FETTERING BONDS AS THEY REALLY ARE. ALSO, EXPLAIN HOW THE SOULS AND THE BONDS GET LINKED.

*我将朗读泰米尔语原文 *I WILL READ OUT THE TAMIL ORIGINAL VERSES *我认为泰米尔人比我读的泰米尔语更懂英语! *I THINK THE TAMILIANS CAN UNDERSTAND THE ENGLISH BETTER THAN THE TAMIL I READ OUT! *我将赋予意义，并将揭示帕冉玛希瓦向苏巴曼亚所揭示的强大认知。 *I WILL GIVE THE MEANING AND I WILL REVEAL THE POWERFUL COGNITIONS PARAMASHIVA IS REVEALING TO SUBRAHMANYA. *在第一节中苏巴曼亚要求帕冉玛希瓦揭示BANDHA的神圣秘密，什么是死亡，什么是束缚，自我如何被束缚。关于这个TRIPATARTHA的全部秘密——PASHU，PAASA，他在问。 *IN THE FIRST VERSE, SUBRAHMANYA IS ASKING PARAMASHIVA TO REVEAL THE SACRED SECRETS OF BANDHA, WHAT IS DEATH, WHAT IS BONDAGE, HOW THE SELF GETS BOUND. THE WHOLE SECRETS ABOUT THIS TRIPATARTHA - PASHU, PAASA, HE IS ASKING. *你需要知道：苏巴曼亚肯定不是在为自己寻找答案。祂在要求我们所有人。当然祂从来没有被束缚过。祂是帕冉玛希瓦的显现。这就是为什么在PASHU, PAASA, PATI -在三个-祂没有问“PATI”，因为祂是在PATI的空间! 祂问的是PASHU和PASHA。祂问的是源头和束缚，而不是神! *YOU NEED TO KNOW: SUBRAHMANYA IS SURELY NOT ASKING FOR HIMSELF. HE IS ASKING FOR ALL OF US. SURELY HE WAS NEVER BOUND. HE IS PARAMASHIVA’S MANIFESTATION. THAT IS WHY IN PASHU, PAASA, PATI - IN THE THREE - HE IS NOT ASKING ABOUT ‘PATI’ BECAUSE HE IS IN THE SPACE OF PATI! HE IS ASKING ABOUT PASHU AND PASHA. HE IS ASKING ABOUT SOURCE AND BONDAGE NOT ABOUT THE GOD! PASHU的意思是被束缚的灵魂 PASHU MEANS BOUND SOUL PASHA意味着束缚 PASHA MEANS BONDAGES PATI是帕冉玛希瓦 PATI IS PARAMASHIVA

*他不是在问PATI，因为祂就是PATI! 祂只是在问自我束缚的灵魂和束缚，以及束缚是如何发生的。 *HE IS NOT ASKING ABOUT PATI BECAUSE HE IS PATI! HE IS ONLY ASKING ABOUT THE SELF-BOUND SOULS AND BONDAGE AND HOW THE BONDAGE HAPPENS. *苏巴曼亚正在向帕冉玛希瓦询问细节，以揭示被束缚的自我和束缚，以及束缚是如何发生的。祂要求我们所有人都得到解脱；这样皇室的秘密就会被揭露和记录下来。 *SUBRAHMANYA IS ASKING THE DETAILS TO PARAMASHIVA, TO REVEAL ABOUT THE BOUND SELF AND BONDAGE AND HOW THE BONDAGE HAPPENS. HE IS ASKING FOR ALL OF US TO BE LIBERATED; SO THAT THE ROYAL SECRETS ARE REVEALED AND DOCUMENTED. *按照传统，在VIDYARAMBHAM日，应该只做很少的启动教导，因为你们在被点化后需要安顿下来。 *AS PER TRADITION, ON VIDYARAMBHAM DAY, ONLY LITTLE INAUGURATION TEACHINGS SHOULD BE DONE, BECAUSE YOU ALL NEED TO SETTLE DOWN WITH THE INITIATION. *我真诚地遵循圣典法理，先圣印证法理——伟大上师们的经验，以及我自己的本尊印证法理和MARABU——传统的教导方式，如此真实地显现，我们所有人都显现了。 *I SINCERELY FOLLOW THE SHASTRA PRAMANA, THE APTA PRAMANA - THE GREAT MASTERS’ EXPERIENCE AND MY OWN ATMA PRAMANA AND THE MARABU - TRADITIONAL WAY IT IS TAUGHT, MANIFESTED, SO AUTHENTICALLY, ALL OF US MANIFEST. *按照传统，只有点化了经典、诗歌散文SLOKAS 才会被教导，学生在被点化后才有时间安定下来。所以随着这个，我给你们所有的时间安顿下来。但是从明天开始，我们将一起工作好几个小时，所以请做好准备！喝一杯咖啡，热巧克力或姜茶。姜是最好的! 有这一切。从明天开始，这将是一场盛宴！我要继续，继续，再继续几个小时。我会让你们都成为苏巴曼亚！ *SO AS PER THE TRADITION, ONLY THE INITIAL SUTRAS, SLOKAS ARE TAUGHT AND STUDENTS ARE GIVEN TIME FOR SETTLING DOWN WITH THE INITIATION. SO WITH THIS I GIVE YOU ALL TIME TO SETTLE DOWN WITH THE INITIATION. BUT I WILL EXPAND FOR HOURS TOGETHER FROM TOMORROW! SO PLEASE BE PREPARED! HAVE A CUP OF COFFEE, HOT CHOCOLATE OR GINGER TEA. GINGER IS BEST! HAVE ALL THIS. FROM TOMORROW IT IS GOING TO BE A FEAST! I AM GOING TO GO ON AND ON AND ON FOR HOURS TOGETHER. I WILL MAKE YOU ALL SUBRAHMANYA! * 帕冉玛希瓦是完美的。 *PARAMASHIVA IS PERFECTION. *有两种类型的教育:1)以升级为基础，比如互联网，电脑/计算机技能，软件技能。你的儿子总是比你更精明，你的孙子总是比你的儿子更精明，曾孙总是比你的孙子更精明，因为这是基于升级的专业知识。下一代将会更有悟性! *THERE ARE TWO TYPES OF EDUCATION: 1) UPGRADING-BASED, LIKE INTERNET, COMPUTER SKILLS, SOFTWARE SKILLS. ALWAYS YOUR SON WILL BE MORE SAVVY THAN YOU AND YOUR GRANDSON WILL BE MORE SAVVY THAN YOUR SON AND THE GREAT GRANDSON WILL BE MORE SAVVY THAN YOUR GRANDSON, BECAUSE IT IS UPGRADATION-BASED EXPERTISE. THE NEXT GENERATION WILL BE MORE SAVVY! *有一种东西叫做基于专业的专长，通过这种专长，你会成为专家：比如舞蹈、音乐。通过长期的实践和专业化，你将成为专家。 *THERE IS SOMETHING CALLED SPECIALISATION-BASED EXPERTISE WHEREBY SPECIALIZING, YOU WILL BECOME EXPERT: LIKE DANCE, MUSIC. BY LONG PRACTICE AND SPECIALIZATION, YOU WILL BECOME EXPERT. *在这里，这两个结合起来。 帕冉玛希瓦把两者都给了苏巴曼亚。苏巴曼亚接受以专家为基础的教育，祂将自己提升为专家，以细节和专业为基础。 *HERE, BOTH COMBINE. PARAMASHIVA GIVES BOTH TO SUBRAHMANYA. SUBRAHMANYA RECEIVES THE EXPERTISE-BASED EDUCATION AND HE UPGRADES HIMSELF INTO THE SPECIALISATION-BASED DETAILS, EXPERTISE. *这两个是不同的。通过练习，练习，再练习，你如何成为专家是一回事，通过升级，升级，再升级，你如何成为专家是另一回事。 *THESE TWO ARE DIFFERENT. BY PRACTICE, PRACTICE, PRACTICE, HOW YOU BECOME EXPERT IS ONE, AND BY UPGRADING, UPGRADING, UPGRADING, HOW YOU BECOME EXPERT IS ANOTHER ONE. *苏巴曼亚是基于专业的专家和基于升级的专家。苏巴曼亚是帕冉玛希瓦的完美化身。无论帕冉玛希瓦给予了苏巴曼亚什么，现在祂通过这个存在完全显现，并给予你们所有人——同样的东西。 *SUBRAHMANYA IS SPECIALISATION-BASED EXPERT AND UPGRADATION-BASED EXPERT - BOTH. SUBRAHMANYA IS PERFECTION OF PARAMASHIVA. WHATEVER PARAMASHIVA HAS GIVEN TO SUBRAHMANYA, NOW HE IS MANIFESTING THROUGH THIS BEING FULLY AND GIVING IT TO ALL OF YOU - THE SAME THING. *祝福。 *BLESSINGS. ~尼希亚南达中文翻译小组

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ACET Essay

Good news! I passed! BFA Creative Writing.

Here’s my sample essay.

Camus came at the right place and time. He had greeted me during the 7:45 am class lecture whose sole purpose was for us eleventh graders to understand culture, society, politics, and a tad bit of existential philosophy. My teacher stood behind the podium, writing down the words “Symbolic Interactionism” on the board. The French man with his cigarette had been lurking around the room for quite a while. I did not acknowledge him at first. In fact, I had been too busy wandering back to the deepest memory of where all my passions and troubles began: 

The only reality that exists when you dream is that you are asleep. I would not have thought of this proposition if ever I, once again, became the same girl asleep that one warm summer night before freshman year of high school. This reality was manifested as soon as I caught my mind dreaming of myself in very different scenarios twenty years from that day. These images were mere evidence of my unconscious self floating on a pool of anxiety and indecisiveness.

There was one dream where I shook hands with the President of America as two star-spangled flags stood proudly behind us — except one of these had a sun. The other one was where I sat up straight inside the grand palace, holding a microphone in one hand and a voice recorder in the other as I listened to a person in formal attire and on a wooden platform reading their SONA. The last was where I was walking towards a colossal stage with a big smile on my face as I was about to receive a 13.5-inch gold statue of a man whose color was gleaming golden as I was. Around me were screens containing the words “Best Adapted Screenplay”.

Then I thought no. That was a pipe dream. I discarded it, thinking: how in the world could I ever win the “Best Adapted Screenplay” category if I couldn’t even write?

I’ve set this belief on stone that night: I don’t know how to write.

I lifted my right arm to check my watch. 8:15. Fifteen minutes later, it will be Recess. After which will be another subject and then lunch. Following lunch will be two other subjects, departure, and then rehearsal. It was the same rehearsal I couldn’t go to; the same rehearsal where either my absence will cost me departing from the organization or my presence will unleash my mother’s nagging; the same rehearsal I wanted to attend ever since that conversation, thinking I could do something, but due to household issues, I could not.

The sun beamed from its highest point above — the climax of the day. Even though I had slept during the breaks in between classes, the energy I had summed up in my system was still equivalent to less than 1%. A while ago, when the morning sun arrived and grass had shed what was dew, I had left a brown envelope, inside of which was a screenplay, in my teacher’s cubbyhole. Each person in the class was required to write a script as part of our grade in the subject Filipino. In contrast to my brilliantly imaginative classmates, I had conceived this paper from caffeinated drinks, snappy Broadway tunes, and a broken heart. My eyes still drooped very much unlike a graceful pixie leaping from lily to lily. While we were lining up outside, the teacher whom I submitted the work to urged me to approach her in the classroom.

“Annette,” she asks with a voice like a tranquil river, “What inspired you to write this play?”

What inspired me to write this play? Was it the strong punch of the barako that had beat me up so hard, keeping me awake the whole night — each strike pumping adrenaline through my veins? Was it the harmony of the songs I listened to the night before, coercing me to stand because should I fall, a string of melody will puppet me upright and moving? Was it the feeling and the sound of shattering, triggering all my senses, and ultimately reminding me I have no other choice — that I can never change my fate?

“I’ve always wanted to write stories like these — stories that would inspire people to say they can.” I answered, “But I didn’t think I could.”

“Well, you can.”

And for three years, I had felt the same teenager’s heart fluttering whenever I was tasked to write.

My proctor’s voice jolted me awake. “What is the essence of being human?”

That same question was proof that one can silence a class with just seven words.

“Albert Camus, in his essay ‘The Myth of Sisyphus’, addressed this question. The last line in the text goes: ‘The struggle itself toward the heights is enough to fill a man's heart. One must imagine Sisyphus happy.’.”

At that moment, I came to understand the definition of being a person — of being my own person. It is to question what the purpose is and answer it only for it to be questioned all over again; to embrace your destiny but still doing your best to defy it; to struggle — in your very own sincere way.

Camus came at the right place and time. Because the vision of myself that I had three years ago felt like a stuck roll of film, leaving me hopeless that it will ever continue. The passage, however, acted like magic words that enabled the video to continue playing.  

I realized that I can still achieve this image of me doing all these things. It does not, however, guarantee that I will never encounter setbacks, failures, and objection from my peers. I always will. But I know that if I roll up the boulder, these problems will feel like a passing fancy for me. It does not get better, but I know it gets easier. And I have just found out the secret to make it be so: I have to roll up my boulder every day. And I’ve decided to do just that ever since that experience and, what I also consider, accomplishment.

And even now, I could still remember the philosopher’s face as he put the tobacco away from his mouth and vanish just as the bell rang for recess.