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[a-local-problem]

I HAVE RETURNED :DD

kinda, she took 7 hours and 40 minutes

[azaracyy]

to the next stage of our adventure! digimon survive week 2024 day 7: post-game / future personal thoughts under the cut - less about the artwork and more about shuuji and lopmon themselves. a long rambling containing major spoilers and heavy topics. will cause whiplash. proceed with caution.

other than the fact this may be boring and long-winded, cw and tw: there will be mentions of self-harm and suicide. if these topics make you uncomfortable, please step back. if you're sure, then alright. i'm aware this is a weird place to ramble about shuuji and lopmon considering the notorious highlight of their story would match the themes of day 5 (villains) and day 6 (dark & loss) better. unfortunately (ironically?) i never planned to feature them for those days, so... pretty sure i'm not the only one feeling this, but when i discovered that a good part of the fandom seems to loathe shuuji with utmost passion, even after they claimed to have completed the game, i was confused. the way his death happened and (understanding) the cause made me uncomfortable for a while, but never drove me to the point of hate... once i recovered from the initial shock, what i felt towards him was more pity, then respect (on truthful route). i feel shuuji should have been one of the most appreciated characters in survive. yet it was the opposite that happened. (between you and me though, knowing there was this discourse with the fact digimon survive is a visual novel, i'm not that surprised it turned out this way...) from my point of view, lopmon evolving into wendimon then killing shuuji symbolizes suicide, the act of taking one's own life. it was the climax of shuuji's mental breakdown, leading him to basically self-destruct, causing damage to everyone around him and ultimately himself. lopmon evolved, just like he hoped. but failed to do it like other kemonogami partners (maintaining control of themselves and fending off enemies). the next and final outcome was death, through his own partner actually eating him alive too. it reminds me how when someone thought they have prepared well for something important yet it failed spectacularly, the devastation and frustration would eat them in the same way from inside. and they probably would for one second think, "i'm better off dead". the more i pondered about it, the more it hit home, so of course, the last thing i could do is hate him, when his struggles sound similar to my own - having to rely on consistent achievements to prove your value, to feel you are worth living and not a waste of resources. the part where shuuji went all abusive on lopmon felt like the equivalent of pushing yourself to the extreme to reach your goal, to the point of neglecting your own needs. it's like a student so absorbed in their study, sacrificing food and sleep, until their body eventually snaps and shuts down for good (...this in fact happened to one of the students at my previous workplace. she was in her last year of high school. life was just about to truly start for her when her classmate informed us of her sudden death). even in truthful route where shuuji and lopmon survive that point, things aren't immediately nice and easy for him. you can see that he still has self-doubts, and what i think is impostor's syndrome. he could be making a great contribution to the team and still put himself down for having done "nothing". i have found it interesting that artists and writers tend to be especially fond of shuuji. so perhaps it's not just the matter of one's upbringing - whether you were raised in a harsh, competitive environment and/or with family with (unreasonably) high standards so you can relate more easily to him - but also whether one can see just what every struggle shuuji and lopmon went through symbolizes shuuji's mental state. out of all survive characters, i think shuuji and lopmon pulled off this thing called "surviving" the hardest, no joke. which is why i almost always gravitate to drawing them happy because that's what they deserve :') after all this, what i also would like to say is, it's okay if a character makes you uncomfortable. it's okay if you hate a character. but never, ever bring down the character to people who like them or even consider them their favorite or comfort character. if you must, do it in your own space and only with like-minded people.

[luvether]

hsr’s 3.3 was lowkey devastating to me, i had to genuinely have a productive girls day out today in order to heal and think about what had transpired TT

[luvuomi]

.𖥔 ݁ ˖ 𝐃𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐄 𝐎𝐅 𝐖𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐍 𝐅𝐀𝐓𝐄.

゛people spend their entire lives searching for a love that transcends time and fate itself. whether you realize it or not, you’ve managed to procure just that. so never allow your heart to waver in his presence and in turn, neither should he dare to loosen his hold on you. though.. i doubt he would even entertain the mere thought of it. for you are his darling muse after all. dare i say, he would draw his own sword and fight the fates for you — demand that in every lifetime, he is yours as you are his. it brings me relief to see he has done just that… - 𝓜𝓪𝓰𝓮 ‘𝓜’

🎨 →⠀﹐⠀╱⠀thank you to yunhhj_ for this beautifully commissioned piece to serve as a celebratory piece for kazulie’s four year anniversary 🤍 !! uwaaa it was a struggle keeping this in the drafts for so long 🥹but im super happy about finally getting to share it on such a special occasion~ be sure to check them out if their artstyle caught your eye! as more than satisfied commissioner, you won’t be disappointed (˵ •̀ ᴗ - ˵ ) ✧

[sourcetwo]

half life 2 is turning 20 in a week!! i wonder what kind of things valve is cooking up for the celebration? (my thoughts in the tags)

[woundkiss]

1/8 pages done for this essay

[du-hjarta-skulblaka]

Yknow I may be bad for flaking out of plans the night before but at least I don't say I can do something, give a tight time frame, and then leave you hanging for nearly 3 hours

[uwudonoodle]

Since Echoes of Wisdom uses the same assets as the Link's Awakening remake, my partner bought it for me so I could learn the controls and stuff before September. (I'm not an experienced gamer, and need all the practice I can get).

I recently got Bow-Wow, and I love him! He helps me with enemies since I'm not great at combat. Here we are seashell hunting on the beach. This game is so cute!

[shapa-likes-art]

Hrgb

[abluescarfonwaston]

It's one of those days we're you just gotta

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

[doverstar]

elevenrose friends rejoice; I just got four more elevenrose prompts. prepare for a veritable fanfic buffet

[cerbreus]

today has been a day

[the-kipsabian]

if im off this week, mentally or just not here like at all, im preparing for the first of two funeral weekends

[mac-n-cheese-flavored-arson]

I'm so upset that I have to miss the community purim festival tomorrow just because some woman that me and my partner delivered DoorDash to insisted on a full contact delivery instead of contactless, and I'm especially pissed that she knew how sick she was with either the flu or COVID (told my partner she was ordering in because she was too sick to cook, and was coughing and using tissues through the entire delivery to her) and she still chose the hand it to me option anyways

Anyways I'm so worried that I'm going to end up hospitalized again especially since I'm not up to date on a covid vax

[royaltimelord]

they told me that nobody would like me when i'm 23 but no on prepared me that my life would fall apart when i'm 24