#SOBBBBBBBBBS

[christiangeistdorfer]

that episode of top gear with mika häkkinen but it is only the parts that made me fall in love with mika

[fairyhaos]

utterly and completely in love with him oh my god THAT'S MY BOYYYYYYY

[peridotite]

WHAT DO YOU MEAN CHEESY-KITTEN-LIVEBLOGS DEACTIVATED IM KILLING YMSELF?

[absentmoon]

i mbnghfbfbfhf

[stevesnailbat]

ok sorry i make a correction to a claim i made before st4. i hope lumax is endgame

[kof-xiii]

😭i already knew ema's buttons are supposed to mean H2O but i am now just noticing the mouths on the >_< buttons are supposed to be H's and the :O is an O

[nc-vb]

ok but the emotional anguish I have planned for this jy/yx fic is killing me to have to write, and the more lore that comes out about their group makes it even harder to sit down and be normal about it 😭

[brine-in-my-eyes]

i am honestly feeling kinda burnt out rn not just becuz of school but like becuz of writing and stuff

like

yall

everythings becoming a blank and i dont even remember how to write anymore

all my sily characters, all their lil dynamics, their lore and backstories,,, i dont know how to write that anymore

i bet it was the freaking brain eating worms that eat your brain and then just leave like what the heck man

[pennyh0use]

HELP IM TRYING TO MODEL A HAIR REFERENCE FOR MY MD OC AND IT LOOKS LIKE LIZZY'S HAIR

SOBBBBBBBBB

[brandogenius]

ITS 6:34AM IM STILL AWAKE SOBBBBBBBBB

[found-wings]

omg heyyyyyyy guess who found their portable charger it's your girl o/

anyway

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ahem

okay let's get into this

OH MY GOD OH MY GOD IM GONNA SCREAM EVEN HARDER IF YOU EVER SAY YOURE NOT THE BEST AT WRITING AGAIN I SAW THAT FIC POST AND FELT GOD HIMSELF TEAR MY HEART FROM MY CHEST AND SHOVE IT IN A BLENDER AND PRESS THE ON BUTTON LIVE IN REAL TIME OH MY GODDDDDDD THE FUCKING PAIN

scratching out the angry and replacing it for tired just causes me such visceral pain especially from someone like etoiles who is often seen on the server later at night and has even woken back up (canon explanations for him logging back in LMAO) just to join a fight the day of the maze and acted like it was nothing. so for something like this to tear him down and really exhaust him just omg CUCURUCHO WHEN I CATCH YOU 🖕🖕

"phil is s̶t̶i̶l̶l̶ ̶h̶e̶r̶e̶ exhausted, and passed out" what if I cried hmm ???? what if I started sobbing right here and now ??????? also poor etoiles acknowledging that the federation definitely hasn't let phil rest a second while in their care while also sitting in a room that's a pure reminder of the fact that he can't even rest properly in his own home since there's no bed made for him there, and the one upstairs has been collecting dust for months so he stays on the floor with him and allows his leg to be a cushion for at least a single night of rest because it's better then that damn chair AAAAAAAA IM IN AGONY

and fit being the main person he texts ohhhhhhhhh how I care for the fit and phil friendship they're everything to me I wanna grab their cubitos and stuff them in a set of drums and play a song with them inside I love them sm. I can imagine that out of everyone, he'd be less surprised by the federation implanting what's basically conditioning training into phils head to make him go back to them in search for someone to fix him when things go wrong. I can't imagine that he's been in that anarchy wasteland for over a decade and hasn't seen his fair share of twisted people playing sick games on others similar to this. (and the pain of watching it happen to someone so close considering back there he wasn't used to making attachments before the server ohhhhhhhhhhhh withering in pain dies on the floor)

OH HOW I LOVE DULL EYES REPRESENTING A CHARACTER NOT BEING FULLY PRESENT IN THEIR MIND ITS LIKE CRACK TO ME AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

ALSO OOOOOOOOOO YOU WILL BE DEALT WITH FOR THAT LAST LINE KNOWING DAMN WELL THAT THIS WASNT THE LAST TIME PHIL WAS TAKEN OHHHHHHHHHHH NOT ONLY IS HE BEING TRUAMATIZED BUT SO IS ETOILESSSSS WHAT DID HE EVER DO TO DESERVE THIS HE JUST WANTS TO FIGHT IN HIS FUNKY DUNGEONS AND NOW HAS TO LIVE WITH THE CRUSHING GUILT OF LETTING ONE OF HIS FRIENDS SLIP RIGHT THROUGH HIS GRASP DUE TO THIS DAMN ISLANDS RINGLEADERS EVEN THOUGH NONE OF THIS IS HIS FAULT IM GONNA SOBBBBBBBBB

this was amazing mwah 10/10 talented brilliant incredible amazing showstopping spectacular this will feed my family and water my crops and clear my skin and AAAAAAAAAA THE PAIN codebreakers r everything to me - 💿

IQJDJAK I AM SO NORMAL ABOUT THEM (LIE), WHEEZE

I absolutely adore putting in all of these little details from hinting at things, characters interacting with each other & their reactions and what these behaviours hint at and so much more and seeing that people NOTICE THEM??? AND HAVE THE SAME REACTIONS TO THEM THAT I HAD WHEN WRITING???? ME WHEN UEUEUEUEUE

The last line is so painful because you‘re so right, it��s definitely not the last time Phil gets yoinked and I couldn‘t help myself because <333 angst of making silent promises you can’t keep <3333 IIQIQKQK

I‘m so tempted to make more small writings surrounding the Codebreakers in this au because M A N all these moments of just pure pain HITS HARD, Y‘KNOW???? Or even the situation I briefly touched upon in an earlier post between Phil & Forever or entirely different ones!!!

I have so many ideas RAAAH, but it‘s also getting late so I might push writing more to another day

[crow-collective15]

I stepped on a piece of glass and it’s bleeding I swear to fuck I’m gonna to sobbbbbbbbb -leo

Just so you know we’re ok, Leo’s just Leo -tomm

[kentopedia]

how do you write so much ?? 🙏🙏🙏

Im dying over with 200 words and having no clue where to go or how to word things sobbbbbbbbb

omg trust me i am not always like this, i just get really inspired during october <3 the truth is, i’ve been writing for a very very long time & it is extremely therapeutic for me !! i’ve always found writing to be the easiest form of expressing myself, so it comes somewhat naturally. kind of silly, but i write very much from my heart. there is a piece of me in every reader i write :)

i will say: i am NOT a planner when it comes to writing. i tried to be, but that stifled all my creativity. when i run with a loose idea, i find it so much easier to just … formulate a good story. but my best friend from high school also loved to write, and she was an excessive planner. she couldn’t write a word without knowing what was going to be at the end of the story. all that to say, if you’re struggling with where to go, planning scenes in your head and imagining them before helps a lot. and then listing everything you might want to write so you can kind of connect the dots! that way you’ve got a map.

but 200 words is a great place to start! <3 i always say you should get as many words on paper as you can, and then worry about how good they are later!!

[travisdermotts]

MITCHYYYYYHAJSKEKWLßKWKWN I'M GONNA SOBBBBBBBBB

[pinkseas]

messaging my manager that i'll be an hour or two late tomorrow feel like im at death's door the edge of the cliff about to be pushed and take the plunge and she says "thank you for letting me know! see you whenever you can come in" im going to SOBBBBBBBBB ive been here for a year now you think id be used to how nice everyone is 😭😭😭😭😭

[harryfeatgaga]

paige I just saw that vid you retweeted of gaga at venice and like....what if we get one of those for harry?😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

I WILL SOBBBBBBBBB