#So I'm under the assumption they can switch between 3 forms but who actually knows

[dbphantom]

Speaking of that trans one/pie/ce oc

Did I mention he's a obvious self insert bc I definitely should have by now. Like. Literally drawn as me if I was in the world of on/e/pie/ce, spoke to Ivankov, and also 7 years older. And I love him. Just wish he had a name... That's always the hardest part ;_;

[mikeyfuckinway]

NORTHSTAR CAN EAT MY FUCKING ASS BRO I'VE BEEN TAKING THEIR CONCERTA "GENERIC" FOR 3 FUCKING MONTHS NOW AND YOU WANNA KNOW WHAT I JUST FOUND OUT??? IT DOESN'T USE THE SAME FUCKING RELEASE SYSTEM. IT'S ACTUALLY KIND OF INTERESTING AND IMPORTANT IF YOU TAKE ADHD MEDS SO I'M GONNA WRITE A LITTLE UNDER THE CUT

tl;dr: Just because something is considered a "generic" for a brand of medication does not mean it works the same way. "Authorized generics" are approved brand name drugs without the brand on the label while "generics" could be the same drug but different in other aspect, i.e. delivery. Northstar may be the same drug as Concerta (methylphenidate) but the release system doesn't work the same way. Check your manufacturers

tw for prescription drug talk, ADHD, poor mental health, stuff relating to that

So I started on brand Concerta right, took it for a few months, upped my dosage and then my mom switched both of our prescriptions to Costco since it was a little cheaper. When she put in that I was getting Concerta, the asked her if a generic would be okay and since we aren't really sticklers about that we said it's fine. So I've been on this shit for 3 months and recently I've been having a LOT of trouble with school, for around the past 3 months. I told my doctor about it and I wasn't quite sure whether it was an issue with me or the medication, but she recommended I switch to Vyvanse, which is supposed to last longer. It's a little expensive so I was doing some research on similar things and people's experience with switching from Concerta to Vyvanse and I come across the strangest thing!

I find this article mostly regarding the differences between Vyvanse and Concerta, but it does discuss the release system Concerta uses, saying this:

"Concerta is available in a less expensive generic form. However, the generic versions do not use the OROS pump delivery system and, therefore, may not have the same effects as Concerta."

Imagine my surprise as someone who's been on generic Concerta for 3 fucking months. I go on to find out that there are not only "generic" forms of medication but also "authorized generic" forms of medication. The companies that manufacture the original product are the ones who do the authorizing so you may think they would use it maliciously and make it sound like their product is the only good one, but in this case it is a VERY important distinction.

For the unaware, Concerta uses an OROS pump delivery system. In short, there are pores in the tablet that let water in which in turn slowly lets the medication out. This makes it so it releases over a long period of time because of weird water pressure shit, I barely remember anything about osmosis but it has to do with that shit.

You want to know what the kicker is? The OROS pump system is patented. So every single Concerta "generic" is not using it. I'm not sure what the hell they're using but Northstar sure as hell is not using anything good. The only Concerta "authorized generic" is manufactured by Patriot Pharmaceuticals, which is owned by Janssen, the company that makes Concerta and owns the OROS patent.

Now on to my personal shit: Like I said, I've been on Northstar's Concerta "generic" for about 3 months after being on brand Concerta for and when I found this out, I started to think about how long it's been lasting. I usually take it at the beginning of or midway through my first period and I'm able to get the most work done during my second and third periods and a little into my lunch, but once I hit fourth period I'm fucking out of there.

Once I combined this with the knowledge that the release system in the shit I've been taking is different, I had a fucking brain blast. And I'm fucking pissed.

Rant here if you wanna skip: I've been operating under the assumption that it's my fault that everything is going wrong right now. I'm super behind in my classes, I've been skipping some days and along with this comes depression and anxiety which only makes it worse. The state I'm in now, both with school and mentally, is almost exactly the same as the third trimester of my junior year, which is what prompted me to get diagnosed and medicated in the first place. The only reason it's not nearly as bad is because I've had at least some kind of medication, but regardless, it's fucking sucked and I'm just so pissed off.

Edit 7/8/22: I didn't include this because I thought I was just regular angry but I'm mostly sure that northstar's concerta generic was also giving me some serious mood regulation issues, and stacking that on top of my regular adhd/autism mood regulation issues absolutely ruined me. I also read a reddit post by someone else that also said they were having mood issues on northstar so. Fuck northstar don't take fucking northstar concerta

[astudyinfreewill]

just had a thought when i should've been studying, but if we combine ronan's worst fear = people he loves in danger + adam would do black magic for ronan/to protect him + the foreshadowing that declan may die, is it possible adam would do black magic to somehow save declan/pull a gansey and bring him back, for ronan? (also i'm loving all this cdth meta omg)

oh hey anon!! i’m so glad you’re enjoying the recent meta output, it’s great fun for me too :D and oooh, that’s such an interesting theory!! :o

i’m sorry to disappoint but i don’t… really have a take on this. it could well happen, but it’s not one of the things i necessarily see as likely.��

or, rather: i am 99% sure that something bad is gonna happen to declan (”driving to your funeral”… ffs ronan stop jinxing people, have you learnt nothing from “dead in a ditch”!!!). but adam doing black magic to save or protect declan, for ronan’s sake, just doesn’t really fit - to me - with the character dynamics as they have been presented so far…?

all of ronan’s protectiveness has always been directed towards matthew, presumably because he thinks declan can take care of himself – which is not an unreasonable assumption to make, given that declan has been dealing with niall’s crime empire since he was sixteen, casually keeps a gun in his bedroom dresser (which he’s very much prepared to use) and clearly expects people to break in and attack him at any time. in fact, ronan even comments on this in tdt, after the gray man beats declan up and declan claims it was burglars:

[Ronan] focused on the image of his older brother’s face and tried unsuccessfully to imagine the person that could beat Declan up. The only person who had ever succeeded in beating up a Lynch brother had been another Lynch brother. (the dream thieves, ch 12)

clearly, despite all the animosity between them, ronan still thinks of declan as pretty badass, not someone that needs protecting. however… just because this is not their usual dynamic, doesn’t mean we won’t get to see it in the dreamer trilogy!! it would actually be an interesting switch. but i’m still skeptical that it would happen, simply because, imo, adam figuring out a ritual bargain to bring someone back to life in front of a distraught ronan is too similar to the gansey resurrection in trk. i don’t think stiefvater would go for the same thing again.

…now, for me, personally, there’s another way i would like to see adam and declan interect in the trilogy. we know that declan is going to fuck up make some poor decisions. we know adam is also going to fuck up make some very poor decisions. either set of fuckups has a very good chance of affecting ronan. but how cool would it be for declan and adam – two people whose only interaction to date has been pretty hostile, but who would both move mountains to keep ronan safe – to have to team up to redeem their mistakes/protect ronan? 

to me, that would be such a fascinating dynamic. adam and declan have a few traits in common: they’re both quite practical, snarky, not above lying and using cunning to get where they need to get. at the same time, declan is (as far as we know) perfectly ordinary, and a serial cheater not one to form deep relationships and attachments, while adam is uncanny and fiercely loyal. both characters snark quite a lot at ronan, and often give him the same criticisms, yet whenever declan comes for ronan, adam unfailingly takes ronan’s side and takes none of declan’s bs. both of them are cool under pressure, and we know declan admires adam’s intelligence (“parrish always was a creepily clever little fuck”).

i’m not really going anywhere with this, i just think it would be such an intriguing team up to have, and the potential for badassery and hilarity is amazing.

but that said, truly, anything could happen, and that’s precisely the fun of speculation :’) good luck with your studying!