#THANK YOU DARLING MWAH MWAH MWAH

[boxwinebaddie]

Unrelated to your tfbw au I just consumed and not a question but I find myself saying “woza” because of you /pos and I just think you should know that your writing has that kind of influence (I doubt I’m the only one experiencing this kind of Ninafication).

Anyway I think your content is golden and truthfully I mostly go on here to read your posts, no lie it literally makes my day better. Ok no more buttering, just thought I’d stop lurking for a sec 8)

AAAAAAA!!!! hello, my darling!!!! <3333 omg, i love the *stan vc* wowza. it's just the finest exclaimation of suprise, enchantment, merriment and awe. also, it's cute shdksh.

choose your fighter: the kyle 'mmm' sound or *stan vc* Wowza~

but when i tell you i am cheesing so hard!!!! that makes me feel so warm and fuzzy inside. i think it's so cute when you guys tell me about your accidental ninafication or that you use my weird little ncu ninaisms in your real lives. <333 i remember when people were telling me about how they started telling their friends that they 'hope they heal' or how they accidentally started saying *nina vc* 'JAIL!!!!

re: the specific weird colloquialisms i created in my style fanfics though. it really means a lot to me that you guys enjoyed stuff like the share chair or stan calling kyle kyle pile in pep or kyle calling stan stan the man w/ the plan, me making weird side characters like pep corner store guy raj as our narrator, or even just smile pendejo or i hope you heal because??? that was all stuff that i invented within the context of my ncuniverses and don't exist in the sp universe at all?

which is not to say i created them thoughtlessly or haphazardly, quite the opposite actually! i created them very consciously around how i think my styles would address each other, cute teenage boy things, their little inside jokes, style signing when stan is depressed etc. but the fact that that resonated with you guys enough and made enough sense in my fanfictions that you don't mind that i cobbled them into the canon and actually enjoy them enough to use them!!! AAAAA!!!

i'm sorry you got ninaficated, darling, but i am so glad you did. thank you for enjoying my content. recently, i've been feeling a lot of imposter syndrome over it again and wondering if i'm just kind of yelling into the void, posting content that people don't care about. i worry about my cadence in my posts, if they seem to be written poorly, if i'm clogging your dash with my nonsense...but this is very reassuring. i am glad you guys still care about my stuff even though it's been forever, i try to keep it really fun and interesting on here and shift gears a lot through my posts to keep your brains working.

and on the note of shifting gears and keeping things interesting, thank you for reading my tfbw posts AAAAAA!!!! i know i am insane, but if you tell me you read stuff about everything is going to be o.k :) or to kill a king and enjoyed it i will personally feed you candy. ilysm.

which i hope when you consumed it, it was candy-like in flavor!!!! i hope very much that you enjoyed it!!! i put a lot of time into my lore for it so it makes me super happy when you guys enjoy my less asked about au content. especially because!!! strangely enough, rm was my project AFTER pep that quite literally no one was asking about and i made just for me...and now...here we are like 200 asks later.

...Wowza.

all in all, thank you so much, my lovely, for this message. i feel like we listen to me blather so often that i never get to hear from any of you! so it's really nice when you guys chime in and i can chat with you! also, not to freak you guys out, but i do camp on the notes sometimes and get really excited when i see someone liking a bunch of posts because either you're catching up on your light reading of my bullshit or you're new which...welcome to hell, enjoy your Slay! xx

-uncle nina, space heating the room w/ my blush

[jahiera]

Love your little meta analyses of Astarion and would LOVE to hear your thought on the optional "you don't have to do this just because you feel like you owe me something" line early in Act 1 when he first propositions Tav and his reaction to it?

Okay hi sorry, I lost a bunch of my saves and I thought I'd lost the save for this scene too but turns out NOPE I HAD IT & I'm so glad because I wanted to go back and play the different variations so I could probably scream and... scream I did! And I'm SO compelled by this, so thank you for the ask! & sorry for the late response.

So you actually only get this version of the conversation if you don't express any sort of confirmation that yeah, you're into him. If you confirm you're into him, or the biting, that'll bypass the ability to say "you don't have to do this," altogether, which makes me want to eat drywall because the whole conversation prior is still fairly shady, but the "reward for your noble sacrifice" only comes through if you don't fully confirm you were into it. which is very interesting because in the other two versions you can still express doubt, but only in the format of the "a less trusting person" line seen above as well.

The first time he propositions you, if you get this branch of dialogue, what I think happens here is Astarion quickly shifts gears. He sees that Tav isn't, at least according to what they say, charmed or aroused by the vampire routine.

One other thing: they helped him because, as a result of giving him blood, he would be able to physically help them more. He would be stronger, a better fighter, and thus useful. (Whatever is intended by each individual tav who takes his line is up to the player, but that's what can most obviously be received by Astarion).

So, he switches up instantaneously to accommodate the motivation that Tav seems to have (through his own eyes). Instead of appealing to Tav's horny brain and physical attraction to him, he's appealing to their "sacrifice." Tit for tat. Pleasure in reward for blood. You aren't lustfully interested in him as is? That's fine. He can switch it up and instead offer sex as repayment for what you've done for him, and for his body as an object that functions better due to the blood you've given him. Either way, the end goal will be the same: sex to secure his position in the group.

At this point in the game, it isn't about Tav, not really, I don't think. You could take any version of this conversation to the conclusion and it would mean the same thing to him. (That is to say: seduction and sex for security, and sleeping with Tav is a quick way to get that.)

So when Tav says, "You shouldn't do this just because you feel like you owe me something," I don't even think it really... registers for him? Because he hasn't even begun to conceive of that possibility. He is fully still in the same mindset he had prior to escaping, and is running through the same patterns of behavior as before.

He brushes off that reassurance immediately, says it's "more of an excuse," than anything, doing the same thing as before. When he gets this reaction from Tav, he switches gears again: oh it's not the only reason I want to have sex with you, I'm mostly interested in you, I promise. He's navigating the very shallow social interaction that this seduction routine entails by adjusting at a moment's notice to the next thing Tav says. If they're interested or flirty back, he'll fully play up the whole thing. If they're reluctant, he offers new reasons for why they should want to sleep with him.

And then if you reject him entirely:

"Deny your feelings all you like, it doesn't matter to me."

You don't get disapproval for rejecting him, but he still reinforces this idea to Tav that yes, you're interested in me. You just haven't realized it yet. Typically this kind of line in romance would be annoyingly obnoxiously all about "oh you want me you just haven't realized it yet" and the other party is supposed to find this hot, but with the context of the rest of his arc, it's fascinating. Because Astarion only knows how to secure safety and power through seduction and sex. He only knows how to get what he needs through emotional manipulation and cunning--and SHALLOW emotional manipulation at that. He's not playing an intricate game here. His manipulations become prettyyyyy overt by the second time he propositions you:

Like, it would take some serious emotional blindness to miss the hints he's laying out here. He's delighting in dangling the fact that he's lying and manipulating Tav right out in front of them. Because now he feels more secure in his position in the group. In Tav's attraction to him. Because they've already slept together once, he has less to fear about losing his station of safety via Tav within the group.

So then I thought. Okay what does he say when you reject him in other places where he propositions you. In the actual sex scene itself, he simply says "Why are you here then? I thought we had an understanding? (...)" but if you reject him during the "little treat," scene, he says:

In both instances, the "you don't have to" and "I don't think I really want this," Astarion gives Tav a glimpse at the, huh, trauma behind the scenes. In this later scene, when you've already slept with him once, he outright admits he's slept with tons of people and doesn't remember most of them, and in a very.... passive, "gotten on my back," phrasing that's so offhanded for all that it implies. Like can we go back. Can we unpack that. And he does not! I don't know what to make of that last line. "You, I'll remember." Maybe he's being saccharine one last time to keep up some manner of security within the group. Maybe he's confusingly genuine, growing to care about Tav in a way he has no idea how to unpack yet, if at all. Probably doesn't even realize it yet, if that's the case.

Either way, he gives you unintentional glimpses behind the scenes to the inner workings of his intentions. The inconsistencies in how he talks to Tav depending on their next reaction. The switching gears quick to accommodate different statements and personalities. The offhanded reveal of his total lack of care or feeling about the "lines" he spews to get people to be interested. IT HITS. It hits badly.

[koifsssh]

BWAH! thank you so very much to those who joined! It was so very fun! I did not intend for so many of you to join, and i know i missed a few (so sorry!!!) but i love all you regardless! (/p) here are my sketches from the magma + whiteboard!

( hehehe i love ashton sm, it was rlly nice seeing you @ashchoo !)

(cw! some more violence + blood under the cut!) (slight body horror?)

bwahhh!

i wish i could compile all the drawings and save them to a folder, but there are just so many! (maybe i will do it on my own time...)

[mybodyfails]

happy birthday @hanarchy

[angelicartemis]

Drew on a Hello Paint board with @artastic-friend and a few others!

A couple of DJs. 😳 The fully body DJ is literally one of my best DJ drawings out there I swear. Idk what possessed me to draw him that well, but damn I'm so glad I did get possessed. 😫✨‼️

I'm not too proud of the second DJ, but March seemed to like it regardless. ^^💕

March did share this drawing in their own post as well. 👀 The middle Wally is mine, and the other two sillies were drawn by them. :D

Random Dr. Habit dooble- March ended up getting tangled in his hair. 😔

Some smaller sillies- Can you guess who drew the shrimpton. 💀

[kquil]

AAAAA ITS OKAY !!! take ur time and dont stress about it (⁠ʘ⁠ᴗ⁠ʘ⁠✿⁠) im happy its gonna come today tho im js so excited 🤭 been looking forward to it since chp 1 was posted akjsak

you're a sweetheart, thank you for being so understanding and patient, my lovely <3

and you don't know how incredibly happy it makes me to know you've been looking forward to chapter 2, i really can't thank you enough for the love and support

[veenxys]

Shoto x yn lazy morning kisses????

⋆ ♡̷ .ﾟlazy morning kisses

⋆ ♡̷ .ﾟ prompt list <3

shoto wants to spend every second of his free time with you.

every moment with you is so unique, special and unforgettable for him; moments that make his heart tighten and accelerate with longing and love when he is away from you. he craves you all the time, which is why he grumbles when he feels the slightest movement in the bed; he wraps his arm around your waist and pulls you to him, trapping you against his warm body.

he puts his face in your neck while hoarsely says something like "just five more minutes" but you both know is a lie. he breathes in your scent deeply, settling closer to you as if nothing in the world matters but the two of you. cuddled in bed, sharing a warm and comfortable atmosphere.

you feel his deep breath against your neck, that's when you know he's dozed off again. you stroke his hair gently and you feel him melting even more against you. and, after a few minutes when you least expect it, you feel him leaving lazy, languid kisses on your neck and jaw.

"good morning, sleepyhead" you say, trying to hide how much he made you shiver.

"good morning, my love" his voice is hoarse and guttural.

his kisses start again from your jaw to your cheek and, before you know it, he's all over you. "you slept well?" he asks casually as he continues leaving soft kisses down your face, down your neck again.

"..yes and you?" you sigh, feeling him against you is the best feeling you can ever feel, but feeling his kisses like the first thing in the morning won first place in your heart. he murmurs a 'yes' in response as he continues to leave tender kisses all over your body as if he's adoring you, every part of you.

he smiles when he looks at you and sees how bright and passionate your eyes are when you look at him. he kisses you before lying on top of you, leaning his head on your chest, listening to your heart. he wraps his arms around you and gently caresses your skin under your shirt.

"i could stay here forever…" he says softly, more to himself than to you. and he really might; feeling you, your love, and your warmth against him is heaven for him and he doesn't want that feeling or those butterflies in his stomach to go away. he wants to stay here, with you, where he feels at home.

[that-foul-legacy-lover]

*continues to feed you*

~Volkov (not my artwork!)

*CONTINUES TO CONSUME AT A RAPID PACE* why was I not invited to the tea party!!!! i would love to have tea with Foul Legacy!!!!

[mjtheartist04]

BEAUTIFUL PERSON AWARD!❣️ Once you are given this award you're supposed to paste it in the asks of 8 people you adore! Absolutely no pressure but. It's sweet to know someone thinks you're beautiful inside and out <3

UNO REVERSE!!

NAUURRR IM JUST A LIL GUY! MY HEART CANT HANDLE THIS MUCH SWEETNESS

AAAHHHHH *COMBUSTS*💥

[userwoodz-archive]

[url + core] | pinterest edition

tagged by my mel @lee-minhoe <3 thanks so much beloved !!

i kind of cheated and used both minchanz and userwoodz and picked my fave nine images from those combined but minchanz is part of my soul okay don’t judge me pls. anyways ngl obsessed with the results pinterest said minchanz? did you mean bickering besties soulmates? and we love to see it.

tagging some lovelies (feel free to ignore ofc!): @rainbowrenjun @caratonce @twiceland @yonglixx @moonsua @strayklds @chanrizard @hyunebear

[hopeinthebox]

send me 6, 18, 79, 92 and 100 bby

kayla my love my life as you wish!!

6. White Teeth - Ryan Beatty

18. Not Strong Enough - Boygenius

79. Look At Us Now (Honeycomb) - Daisy Jones & The Six

92. Vincent - Don McLean

100's here -> 99. Midnight Train to Georgia - Gladys Knight & The Pips

send me numbers 1-100 and i’ll share the song from my top songs of 2023 💜

[brothersonahotelbed]

dramaticstigmatic is definitely my favorite url, just in general. its perfect, happy to see it again<33

are we about to kiss rn.......

[sincerelyyoursg]

oh my god.

[milkpansa-archive]

tagged by @thiansong and @connorjesup thank so so much darlings!!! <3

my gifs really are nothing special tbh ajdkshfj. all i do is darken/add more contrast and then i play around with selective color to see what fits the vibe !

tagging some darlings: @laowen @winphawin @snimeat @mrdumpling @prapais @pranink @pranpats @ashinlae @carloslouwho (as always feel free to ignore!! <3)

[godnectar]

Everything about your account is just so HAVSJHSV NICE?? IDK HOW TO EXPLAIN IT. And don’t even get me started on your writing MY GOD everything is amazing keep up the beautiful work luvie <3

[sunriseverse]

ALSO. GENERAL SUNRISEVERSE QUESTION. because of dichotomy of our invested universes' inspirations. are there specific poems, or even just specific themes and motifs from poems, that have influenced the verse <3

[gently kisses you for asking me this question] YES THERE IS!!!!!! the poem sunrise by louise glück is the main inspiration (especially this art of it), both atmospherically and aesthetically, but lots of other poetry also lives in my brain forever, especially anything by mary oliver, and sappho’s “they will remember us / i say / even in another time” haunts me specifically with relation to the tragedy of the zhang founding siblings, “the dogs i have kissed” by trista mateer for ALL romantic pairings in sunrise, “high specific heat” by topaz winters when it comes to xiaoge and love, this poem when it comes to wu xie in the sha hai parallel timeline, i will tell this story to the sun until you remember that you are the sun by erin slaughter about pangzi, baked goods by aimee nezhukumatathil about the iron triangle, and this line from “on earth we’re briefly gorgeous” by ocean vuong about heihua. i also need to get my hands on yuan dynasty and ming dynasty poetry so i can find poems that 1. i can reference in the sunrise verse canon and 2. i can anchor some basis for the canon in historical poetry.