and when you're done you can't discard me like the others always do. and I will nurse my wounds until another artist stains me new. and I will always reassemble to fit perfectly in you.
"before the match, when i saw her holding something like a queen's quest flag in the entrance and when i saw her matches after joining h.a.t.e., i thought she was half-hearted and i also had some resentment. but during those 27 minutes and 23 seconds that we fought, i felt all kinds of emotions, like "i'm pissed off" and "i want you to go back to being the old kamitani." when i saw kamitani screaming out loud from the depths of her stomach, unlike before, i thought "that's where you belong." i'm sure she has all kinds of conflicts and beliefs inside her, even if she doesn't put them into words. even if our paths are different, kamitani will always remain important to me. I want to fight her again."
--maika, quoted in tokyo sports, translated by meraWRESTLING
got peer pressured into accepting jesus christ as my lord and savior. oil in the shape of a cross rubbed into my forehead. i renounced my sins and if you think i can write well, you should’ve heard the way i spoke about the lord. i gave such a performance. anyways, who wants to come fuck the faith away. i need a tongue inside me more than i’ll ever need the holy spirit <3
keep thinking abt hoshina and mina GOD.. (spoilers for manga and kn8 bside)
given what hoshina said about his previous division treating him like a burden/parasite just because he can’t handle firearms and specializes in his swords… how tiring must it have been to have to work with those people each mission despite having a common goal?
and how tiring must it have been to be constantly told off by his own father for wanting to continue his family’s tradition, or to be told to give up on being part of the jakdf by his own teacher -
before mina, a high ranking commander personally reached out to him, to recruit him into her team?
the fact that she didn’t see him during joint trainings and think: why bother with that? why bother with blades when bigger kaiju will appear? when she personally deals with bigger kaiju herself.
but she instead saw him and thought: he can help me, he can cover my weaknesses (mina not being able to handle a vegetable peeler is hilarious) and he’s someone i can trust
she sees potential in him, she sees how he can excel within her division, she saw hoshina and as captain - has probably heard everyone talk shit about him but she was still certain that he’d be one of her division’s greatest asset
(and even when platoon leader ebina refused to let hoshina help out, mina stood firm on her decision and her claim that hoshina would be useful. when she asked him if he could take down the big kaiju, and he could only promise saving the child within it - she believed him, took his word for it and waited until he carried out his promise.)
and now hoshina is the vice captain, putting faith in a new recruit whom most people wouldn’t have believed in… full fucking cycle..
tldr: it makes me rly fucking emotional to think about how hoshina was given a reason to continue improving with his swords after being told to give up all this time… and how mina had never once thought his abilities were useless 👍
also makes me crazy how protective he is of his position as vice captain, as the person who stands by captain ashiro’s side…
i cant think abt it too hard bc it's crazy but me getting introduced to op by my sisters ex bf and the getting so into it that i wanted to read yaoi djs at age 11 i speedrun learning english. flashforward to me meeting lovely people online i befriended, travelled countries to visit, im still friends w them to this day AND i scored a gringa that literally came to brazil for me. life is crazy like that
Y'all... I hope you not following me for the sukuna fic 😭 trust me them is all the crumbs you getting 😭 I don't even fuck wit him, I just had a cool idea 😭
I can't see the poll results but gojo glazers rise up! 😭
I've been thinking a lot lately about how to sort of "reconcile" my lifelong inclination towards gender neutrality or fluidity with an otherwise comfortably "gender-conforming" childhood but honestly I don't really think there's anything that NEEDS to be reconciled there because I wouldn’t really consider myself gender-conforming back then irt anything other than clothes. And I think it's only really because our societal standard of "androgyny" skews towards masculinity that it seems like there is some sort of conflict there in the first place? Like, the adults in my life saw me as a little girl so they bought me things that were cute and pink and sparkly or whatever, and I was like cool, thanks, it's pretty, whatever, but that wasn't necessarily what I preferred. I just didnt really care either way, and when I had a choice, the "gender" of the object wasn't really part of the criteria. It's sort of crazy that the simple fact that I didn't categorically reject or devalue "feminine signifiers" (until, ironically, I was a lot older and under way more gender related stress from those around me) is enough to sort of cancel out any considerations of gender variation by default even in MY OWN MIND as the person who remembers being the little kid that both did not feel strongly about their gender expression and also delighted in their own perceived "dual membership" without ever feeling restricted or out of place.