#Yan needs to stfu

[mamayan]

Keep flagging me— it turns me on

[mamayan]

Before I forget I have a abo fic idea but like hear me out cuz I’m an alien fucker (yeah I love my kindle edition alien/monster fucking novella) anyway,

Alien that has conquering in their blood, but was raised on earth like a human. Think Superman/Brightburn style.

Reaching full maturity and just slaughtering/destroying everything—unstoppable and a cause for horrifying awe and fear—until they find you.

Why do you smell so good? Why do you look so cute? Why do they not want to tear you open like a piñata and pop your head like a confetti canon?

Curiosity replaces the boiling desire to exterminate, but only with you. Your curious alien so besotted they can’t leave you alone, but oddly enough, they listen. Not when you tell them to leave, they can’t do that, but as you hand off chores or tell them not to touch you, you realize they obey.

The psycho alien hell bent on death and destruction now following you around like a puppy, filled with the utmost joy just getting to be in your presence and neither of you understand why…

Until you let them touch you.

[lovesickvirus]

Actually how the fuck people get anons and attention. How. What am I doing wrong. Am I not worthy of attention? Am I not worthy of love? I should kill myself right??

[vithcy]

Procrastinating work so here's my OC Playlists

Dani's Playlist:

Nadia's playlist:

Nadeline (Nadia/Roseline) Playlist:

Jakeleen (Jake/Aileen) Playlist:

[mamayan]

This hits different if your name is Wednesday—

every woman should get every wednesday off forever

[cold-kitty]

Darling stuck inside tomogatchi x neet/introvert yan ?

Yes! Of course, he must always get you in the end, so this one's a little bit more fantasy centered.

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Contains: Some angst, some fluff, murder

A RITUAL

If you're uncomfortable with this, have a religion that goes against or has a bad history of these, please skip! I also don't know much about them, so if it makes no sense, it is not my fault.

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(Yes, this is Shin from yansim, stfu♡)

Yan!Introvert who gets a Tomogatchi for his birthday.

Yan!Introvert has - as sad as it is - genuinely no friends. Not even one. So why not have a virtual friend that he doesn't have to worry about upsetting?

Yan!Introvert who starts to enjoy using his Tomogatchi, like, a lot. You're this cute little chibi that he gets to love and take care of, and you make these cute little pixelated noises!

Yan!Introvert who is constantly checking on you to the point that he gets in trouble at school.

Yan!Introvert who ignores everyone more. Who needs people when he has you?

Yan!Introvert who starts to get depressed. You're not real, you're only pixels in a game. He cries every night because of that. Oh what he would give for you to be real, to take care of you and not some lousy pixels, to have you love him back. But he can't, unless...

Yan!Introvert who immediately goes online, searching desperately for something he can do to make you real. And then he finds it, a sacrificial ritual.

Yan!Introvert who immediately goes out and kills someone. It doesn't matter if it's for you.

Yan!Introvert gets everything set up, you in the middle of an array of body parts. He says the words, trembling, and there you are! You're so confused, it's so adorable!

Yan!Introvert who immediately tackles you to the ground, cradling your head so you don't hit it. He's sobbing, full on ugly sobbing. He's so happy, he can truly care for you now, and as God as my witness he's the best thing you could ever ask for.

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I love pathetic men so much.

[11queensupreme11]

AHHHH I'M SO HAPPY YOU LIKE IT!!!❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

about how old mc is, i imagine her a bit younger than percy BUT she has an older sister who was briefly in the same class as percy and only remembers her for how they once had to partner up on math and how bad percy is with fractions 😭😭😭😭

about the time in which the story will be happening, even if I wanted to, I can't answer you because I don't know either 😭

Most likely sometime after hoo, trying to be as authentic to AB as possible. Meaning if the pjo!verse is destroyed by the yans, it will still happen, it's just that mc will be transferred by the bifrost in ror!vers before it happens.

Wait now that I think about it this might further bring her closer to Percy since they are the only ones left from their original world...hmm.

Thank you so much queen for coming up with this amazing story and letting me use it to create my own😭 💓💓💓

I promise that when I finally sit down to write it I will give you all the credit you deserve. I just hope you don't get frustrated with my writing style because I've never done anything like this before and I want to do it right so I'll do my best. ❤️

"only remembers her for how they once had to partner up on math and how bad percy is with fractions" stfu NO WAY 😭😭😭 THAT'S HER FIRST IMPRESSION ASFHFV POOR PERCY LMAO 😂😂😂😂😂

that's so funny though. imagine how bewildered the mc must be because "bad at math -> terrorist -> goes missing -> IS A GODDESS NOW????" that's such an insane progression for someone to have 😭😭 omg pls tell me the topic of percy's crazy life becomes a long buzzfeed unsolved episode that mc watched cuz percy would be SOOOOOOOOOO fucking happy to hear ryan and shane did an ep on her LMAO 😂😂😂 she'd fangirl so hard

and also, please don't worry about trying to stick to the plot of arsenic blues, especially since it's not even finished yet! feel free to take creative liberties if you want!

i know how stressful it can be to try and stick to an unfinished story without knowing what's gonna happen later on. it's what happened to me with loki, anubis, and cú chulainn who have yet to develop that much in the manga, nor have their backstories been revealed. so instead of waiting months/years for the mangaka to get to them, i just took creative liberties for the sake of my fic (and my sanity tbh). what i wrote for them could possibly contradict what the mangaka plans, but it's whatever cuz i am NOT gonna wait for crumbs every month no way 😭

so yeah, if you need to take creative liberties and delve away from arsenic blues, then go right on ahead!!! 💖

[raging-bisexual76]

i’m begging you to speak more abt bachira & isagi w a loser!reader

!! Nonnie I'm so glad you asked fr it's gonna be kinda long just tell me to stfu if u need

also they're a lot meaner with reader than their yan counterparts

TW/CW; dubcon/noncon (to be safe), bullying, mention of spitting (sexual style fingerguns), gentle mention of impact play, hard mention of non-consensual picture sharing and can be implied that the pictures were taken without consent

So it's like a college au kinda but also like not? And I'm gonna do it fem reader coded I'm sorry I was trying to stay gn but then my brain was like mmm no

Now obviously the boys are still on the soccer team still and are more than likely popular because they've gotten the team to it's current standing.

Then we have our sweet lil loser reader :) who could do no wrong except standing up against the bullies. She's probably in an unpopular group/club but I'm not entirely sure what one

But reader's all red in the face and jabbing their finger into the boys chest, asking when will it be enough for them and that they're sick of seeing and hearing it. That they should be ashamed, thinking they're big shots when they do stuff like this. And while she's popping off, the boys are just like "holy shit who the fuck does she think she is??"

So as I said, they start moving their bullying efforts to the reader after that. It starts small with them stealing her stuff, tugging her hair, turning her friends against her and spreading rumors, etc.

But the first time they trip her?? And get a lil glimpse of her panties??? Fuuck. Especially as she sits up with tears in her eyes, giving them the nastiest look she can muster as she tells them to fuck off and just leave her alone.

After that though, it gets worse for our dear reader. Instead of just tugging little stands, they grab fist fulls of her hair and pull, just to hear what noises she makes. They'll dump water out a window, or push her into the fountain just to see what's underneath her shirt and flip up her skirt to see her panties. The boys will go out of their way to kick a soccer ball so it hits her, just to see her cry. Pinching her and leaving little bruises on her sides and thighs, groping at her through her clothes as they press themselves against her. They'll start pulling her off to secluded places by her hair or arm to make her give them a blowjob, or get a quick fuck in.

I can see any pictures they have of her in compromising positions probably being shared with the rest of the soccer team. She can't prove it, but the stares from the team say more than enough.

One of the teams favorites is where the reader is on their knees, looking up at the camera with tears and cum running down her face, both Yoichi and Meguru's dicks pressing against her face. Another is a video of reader laying on her back, covering her face with her forearm in embarrassment. She's barely clothed, boobs almost spilling out of her bra with each of Bachira's thrusts. Isagi has her right hand in his as he wraps them around his cock, and with his other he pulls her tits out to abuse her nipples (pinchin, spittin, biting, slappin n suckin my god he'd do everything). And after she thinks they're done, she goes to sit up to gather her things only to be flipped over and pushed back down. Yoichi has the camera now as he steps behind her, running his tip up and down her leaking entrance. Bachira just clicks his tongue with a pout, "You didn't think we were done yet, right, [name]-chan? Yoichi-kun hasn't gotten his turn yet, and I'm still a little dirty. So, clean it." He slides in front of her, lifting her head up by the hair as he presses himself against her mouth.

(m tryin to not think abt if they ((the team)) have seen reader and the boys go at it in the locker room and the showers (((they have))) )

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Idk this isn't all the ideas and I'm all over the place with this,, but it's in the making yk? I feel like yan them doesn't want any harm to come to darling, but bully them? They want to see you bruised, broken and hurting, they want to see the look hatred in your eyes and for you to be uncomfortable around them

[mamayan]

Some people deserve to have their cock rode until they’re shaking and doing their best not to lose their mind and then have their blood flow gently constricted while you choke them and they cum so hard they’re ready to commit their entire life to serving you—

[mrsgiovanna]

There's JoJos and Jobros, and I'm just out here being a Jo-hoe 🙄😒 -sigh-

[mamayan]

Guard Dogs

You have a relatively dangerous habit of letting your guard down when in the presence of two particular men. When it comes to Satoru and Suguru, you know you have nothing to fear. There isn’t a soul in this city that could lay a hand on you and get away with it. Better yet, there wasn’t a soul that could get within five feet of you if their intentions were less than pure.

You’re all walking home, one earbud dangling as the other resides in your ear. You’re just a step ahead of the two men, their animated conversation beginning to interfere with the music you were attempting to listen to. That one step ahead turned into two, then four, and then you’re barely able to hear their conversation as you bounce around the sidewalk. You usually assume the two of them don’t think much when you get ahead, knowing full and well that their eyes are always lingering on you.

Now, with no interruptions, you’re enthralled in your music, humming happily as you move. To any onlooker, they’d have no idea the two men roughly ten feet behind you are your certified guard dogs. Honestly they wouldn’t even think the three of you knew each other. Which is probably why the man did what he did, whistling loudly as you walked by. You paid him no mind, your music blaring in one ear and blocking him out. Instead, his attempted cat-call perked the ears of the two men behind you, their conversation stopping almost instantly.

You don’t notice this, still lost in your own little world because you know you can be. You know there is nothing to worry about when the two men behind you are present. And, despite the current predicament, you’re right. You don’t have a single thing to be scared of, even when the man starts to step away from where he was standing, aiming to walk behind you until Suguru’s fist connected with his cheek. Satoru closed the distance you had created, throwing his arm over your shoulder and dramatically sighing about how you shouldn’t run away from him. You roll your eyes, huffing out a laugh as you turn to look for Suguru.

Ever observant, Satoru is pulling you closer to him, keeping your attention off of the fact that Suguru is way behind you both now, beating the ever-living shit out of a man for whistling at you. “What’s got into you?” You groan, your earbud falling out of your ear because of his sudden clinginess. “What? I can’t shower my beautiful friend in love and affection?” You shook your head, reaching for the dangling wire before shoving them in your pocket. “You’re hiding something…” You turn this time, aiming to see what Suguru is doing but much to your surprise, he’s not there. “Hey…” you turn to Satoru, eyebrows creasing in confusion.

“Don’t worry about it, he’s just taking care of something.”

[ahaaaoootblooded]

ok liveblogging or whatever smash rewatch (ep 3 only) while smashed. you get it right ywwwwwwahoooooo

megan hilty i'd do anything for you by the way

seriously why do they make derek so stupid i never understand that no way he listens to karen and he's like yeah she has a better marilyn you're joking right now

derek's accent dayummmmm

the sudden cuts in the first few episodes are hilariously bad why didn't they keep it man the awkward silences were gold

this website i'm watching it one is slow as hell

gonna kms if this buffering website makes me skip over a scene that has tom in it i will never forgive it

EWWW MICHAEL EWW WEWEWEEWWWWW

omg bruno mars music mention listen to silk sonic guysss please

ughh michael no way derek watched this-- actually no you know what with his shit taste i can absolutely believe he looked at michael and was like yeah i need this guy in my musical. the hell

ugh i forgot his last name is swift of all things

TOMMM TOM TOM TOM TOM LEVITT I LOVE YOU TOM

YEHEEEEE TOM

I LOVE YOU TOMMMM TOMMM TOM TOMTOMOTMMTMTM

HIS FACE WHEN JULIA SAYS SHE SAYS SHE LIKES DEREK TOM I WOULD KILL PEOPLE FOR YOU

his eyes are so fucking blue

forgot how weird it is to me sometimes when cborles hair is flat-ish and not fluffy. not to say i hate tom's hair like sometimes i love when it dose the bouncy thing but i like the fluffy hair more

mikeyy swift has a wife and kids michaelll you stupid cunt. and you too julia YOU BACKSTABBING BITCH

omg it's the kid whos annoying from community

i don't get ellis' charcter. like i can't get mad at him it's just confusing to me

julia i literally don't like you.

misster and mrs smith merely the folks next sdoor

strawberry ran out man plum tastes like shit

hey in my fucking country 200 dollars a week is a lot karen

omg derekkkkk. you're accent is so lovely

GANDA NIYONG DALAWA DIBA like not as a ship i feel nothing pero seperately like you're both gorgeous to me

ok i take back feeling nothing toward ellis i'm pissed he took julia's note book but also naiinisan ako kay julia so i can't be entirely angry at him yan nga lang kasi

what the hell am i watching

tf why are you showing us michael and his family and friends and kids that just makes me more angry about him and julia and the whole thing. frank deserved better 2023

so funnaaaay this affair was totally avoidable you empty headed fucks

suck my dick don't ask about her family and don't entertain his quesitons you guys are both stupoid

STOP STANDING NEXT TO EACH TOHER

'YOU SMELL GOOD' GO AWAY GO AWAY GO AWAY WHAT DO YOU MEAN SHUT UP BRO

omg eileen and alcohol i haven't reached it yet but i am looking forward to that bartender dilf guy

those earrings look like shit

mahal kaya ng 50 dollars dito limang libo yan dito ah

TOMMM TOMTOMOTMMTMTOMMM I LOVE OYUUU

I TLOVE YOU TOM

YOU'RE SO CUTE TOMMM I LOVE YOU TOM YOU'RE SOO OSO OSO SO SO O CUTE

oh hes angry!!!! angry face

hehehehehe

stfu julia you know nothing about goodf decisions

OF COURSE YOU'D SAY PEOPLE JUST SLEEP TOGETHER IN THIS BUSINESS AND DON'T JUDGE YOU CHEATER. CHEATER

ok not gonna lie she looks decent with this outfit for once

i truly genuinesly don't give a shit about this rivalry going on between julia and ellis. seriously

idk ellis actor giving cunt. like by that i mean he's being a cunt and i mean that in a good way

hadc to answer a time pressure survery in the middle of watching i am so sorry to the students receiving my paper its[' probably fucked up and wrong in grammar and answers soo sorry

what the hell is this country song. listen it's not that i don't like country i like some but this is just sad

i'km not american or rednecked (whatever that means i still don't get it actually) so i have no fjcking ida what shes one about right now

love you ivy lynnnnnn i mean you're mean to kayn but i'dstill treat you right personally

stove my ass derek i'dve brought her home the second she asked girl

boyl an eig that accent tho

MEGAN HILTY YOUR SMILE LIGHTS UP THE ROOM

TOMMMM HI TOMM SMILEYS WILDE

SING SOME MORE HEHEHEHEHEEE

wish he had a lrgit duet with megan hilty

sorry to debra messing but i would've actually died if he did the right regrtets but wiht megan hilty

Tom you're so pretty i love you tom tommm tomtomtomotomtmmm

tom you're SO GYAUYYYY GAYYY YGAY GAY YOU QUEER YOU'RE SUCH A QUEER

GAY AS HELL

TOMMMMM MOTMO TMMOTOTMMTMMM

THE GASP HIS GASP GUYSYSSS\

toms eyes rolling to the back ofhis head iilwlmm gonna die

bruh i would never. fuck yo guys i'm would never cheat on frank brin d'arcy james chemistry teacher singer. never ever ever

WAIT I CAN PLUG THE WAIITIIITI

https://www.tumblr.com/ahaaaoootblooded/712838762060775424/have-you-listened-to-brian-darcy-james-singing?source=share guys listen to that thanks its the right regrest by brian darcy hames

karens generally meh to me but that's real i'd kill to be a chorus oerson on broadway even once that'd killl\

i don't understand what the ywant me to feel like karen like seriously\

so funny to me when we never ever see thiese friends of karen ever so funny man

ok i hate michaerl but not gonna lie mr and mrs smith is ok actully. not groundbreaking but it'sgood to me

LOVE YOU MEGAN HILLTYYYY LOVE YOUUUU

lol the joe dimagio outfit i don't know what joe actually looks like btw but so hilarious to me in the polay

OMMGMMGMMGMGM BRIAN DARCY FEATURE I LOVE YOU D'ARCYYYYY LOVE YOPUUU

julia you're so annoying

BRIAN I LOVE OYUUUU

FRANK FROM NBC SMASH I LOVE YOUUUUU

TOMMMM I VLOE PYJUIUYUTUOSDFUOIADUFOAJSDOIASOIJ

TOMMMM I LOVE YOU TOM I SERIOUSLY NEED YOU

omg he knows hes watching that recording knowing things

HI BRIAN DARCY JAMESSS AGAIN

love you megannnn love your voice

so 2011 ivy what are you wearing

UGH DON'T LOOK AT EAHCH OTHER YOU"RE RECORDING AND JULIA HAS A WIFE AND KIDS

ok thats okk

[natsunoomoi]

Chinese Romance Novels in English

So by chance and obviously successful marketing, I’ve had a lot of web novel apps being advertised to me and out of boredom I downloaded one and got hooked real bad.

The first app I got I think I might delete because most of it seems like trash and was clearly like American wannabe writers. I kind of just read the first few chapters of one story that they happened to put into an advertised Facebook post and I just wanted to continue the story 1 or 2 chapters just to get off the cliffhanger, but the story itself actually isn’t that good and the character motivations seem kind of stupid. The main character also seems kind of like a Mary Sue where like she is just special by some huge coincidence of fate and it’s kind of annoying. Like the beginning part was alright, and then it took a sharp turn when the first guy she was into that rejected her decided for some stupid reason to challenge her new guy who accepted her and then when he claimed to not concede a fight to the death, he went absolutely apeshit and somehow it traveled into dark magic. Idek. Plus like...almost all the stories on that app for some reason have to do with wolf people and packs? Like it’s obviously some kind of trend inspired from Jacob and Twilight and I don’t even like that series. And in addition to that, it’s like on par with the famously former Twilight fanfiction 50 Shades where it has some really uncomfortable unhealthy depictions of BDSM relationships. Like it’s just kind of thrown in there for no reason...? Like whatever floats your boat, but you can totally write it in there in a more sensible way and not just like throw it in randomly. In that sense, maybe it’s actually worse than 50 Shades. Seriously a lot of the stories on there read like horribly written fanfiction by a 12 year old. I was 12 once and my stories then were no better because I had too many ideas and wanted them all in. That’s how much of a mess those stories are. This one I just mentioned is the better one. There’s another one I started reading that’s much worse that’s like a high school drama that I barely remember the story too, but I remember the person putting in a whole ton of One Direction lyrics, which I think is going to get the person and the app sued because lyrics are copyrighted and the writer shamelessly pointed out they are a Directioner and to unlock new chapters you need certain items that you can earn or buy and basically they’re definitely making money off of it.

But then similar to how I found this app, I found another app that had Chinese romance novels translated into English in the same way I found the previously mentioned app through a Facebook ad, which is cool cuz I don’t often get to read literally anything with main characters that are Chinese let alone Asian. Most of the Asian protagonist media I consume is from Japan and I just gave up on looking up anything in Chinese cuz I honestly didn’t know I could find any in English.

But damn, the quality of writing is rather good. The translations could use some work and consistency where sometimes the translator doesn’t know common English expressions or there’s grammatical mistakes in newer chapters or sometimes I think they’re speed translating too fast and accidentally mix up characters. But the story itself is top notch and suspenseful. I’ve been reading non-stop for the last week and a half and caught up and am awaiting new chapters. Sometimes there’s bits where character decisions are a little frustrating or like some of the plot twists are like again or like how come this person can’t catch a break, but I got invested in the story so quick.

There’s two in particular I’m enjoying right now. One is Irresistible Romance and the other is Thorny First Marriage on Bravonovel. It’s actually a bit pricey to charge for diamonds and pearls to continue the story, but I felt like it was worth it because I did want to read more and didn’t regret it. I actually started a third today just because I ran out of chapters in those two. Both are similar in that the male lead that the female protagonist is with or trying to get with is like a rich Chinese business man that is so well-known for their business acumen and power via their company that they can strike fear into the hearts of other people and companies. So there’s like some intrigue and like really fascinating maneuvers and media manipulation.

In Irresistible Romance, the main character is an actress that had a really shitty relationship with the loser President of her management company who was cheating on her with another actress and he had convinced his fiancee (the main character) to basically give up her life for him and help him to push the actress that he was ultimately having an affair with. The main character, Yan Wen, gives up the final straw when like he ditches her at the Marriage Registration Office for some lame excuse where he’s with his mistress and by chance the rich guy in this story shows up at the Registration Office and gets stood up by his own prospective fiancee although for him it was a random girl he picked from a pile just to satisfy his family getting on his case about not finding a wife. So basically because the main character grows a spine and decides fuck her fiance she’s not going to just take his bullshit, she asks the rich guy, Jiang Sui-an, if he’d mind marrying her. He totally accepts though and they get married on the spot. He seems at first to be kind of a cold-hearted jerk, but he’s actually super cool. Like he marries Yan Wen just to get his family off his back, but then after he does some research into his wife and finds her super interesting and as she begins her journey of trying to take back her life from her ex-fiancee and his stuck up bitch mistress, he like finds out and helps from the shadows and like realizes she’s actually super cool too. And then like through the whole process they actually fall for each other and are super sweet and have each other’s backs. They have a really beautiful and healthy relationship where they can each have their own separate lives and do their thing, but they get supported and help when needed.

It was so refreshing cuz like the rich CEO thing was like a huge fetish for sure especially after 50 Shades, but like a lot of people noted, that relationship was hella unhealthy. This story though, Sui-an lets Wen take her time fixing her career and life in her own way and like postpones announcing their marriage so she can set things right herself. He totally supports her space and her own decisions, but if he ever sees that she needs an extra boost or gets backed into a corner by some unexpected thing, he steps up and lends a hand. But ultimately he leaves everything up to her decision. And like on her end too, she’s totally a really good supportive wife and tries to make sure she doesn’t worry him too much and that he gets plenty of sleep and eats regularly, and she even tries to help him where she can with his work. They are so cute together. Along the way a lot of other people try to defame Wen or pull some shady entertainment world tactics, but she stays poised and lets the truth come out on its own or even does some defensive research and stuff. It’s so good.

Plus, writing-wise it’s really fascinating how they intertwine the online commentary tabloid headlines into the story so you can see different angles. And then when they write the antagonists’ sides they give you their internal dialog POV so you can understand the situation the best. The actual story and plot development is so good.

Then Thorny First Marriage, holy shit the intrigue. Plus for the most part, the main character is most like my personality only I’m not a former journalist. It’s just a lot of her reactions and sassy thoughts to things are really similar to me and how I feel like I would react if I was in her position. There’s a few times where she does things that I don’t think I would necessarily do or I would do things a bit more drastically, but so good and I identify with her. Writing-wise I don’t think it’s as good as Irresistible Romance because there’s been two times where they kind of forgot about something that they mentioned in an earlier chapter, so they have some issues keeping track of their plot twists, and there’s a few times where I’m reading like, “Why don’t you just tell them what happened and then they’d STFU?”

But yeah, this story starts out with the main character, Xia Zhi, waking up in the presidential suite of a hotel and not knowing how she got there and distinctly feeling like she was raped and finding some...remnants on the bed next to her. As the plot develops you find out that her asshole husband, who had never touched her himself for some reason and has the spine of jellyfish, sold her to some rich guy for 2 million bucks (she finds out later). What the actual hell? What kind of husband pimps his wife to another man?! And like she gets a pregnancy test later and somehow someone blabs to her mother-in-law and her mother-in-law totally doesn’t believe her and she knows that her son and her were never intimate, so she throws her out of the house. Then some dude that’s like some kind of secretary or assistant just comes by all stalker-like that appears to be from some rich guy that knows her and basically coerces her into going with them and going to some mystery safe house mansion. She’ll be cared for there by two staff, but she also tries to escape and find out who tf this guy is and if he’s the Dad. She still has a job and goes to work as a journalist, but gets assigned to interview some rich VP of a famous company. All the while she’s trying to get a hold of her asshole husband to find out what the hell happened to her that night she didn’t remember where she got super frickin’ drunk at his company party. This dick has been in hiding and trying to avoid her for some reason since that night and he finally calls back in the middle of her interview and because she’s freaking out about her unexplained pregnancy she unprofessionally takes the call. The rich VP, Sang Qi, ends up calling her boss and getting her fired, which I mean, obviously. That’s a thing where I probably wouldn’t have taken the call. One of the differentiating things between her and me. But how she reacts to being fired, yeah, that’s totally me. She runs into Sang Qi later at a rich people shopping mall shop and somehow manages to steal his phone and starts a plotline where she tries to use it as leverage to like get back at him and make a living for herself that also involves him being crafty and like kind of tricking her into some situations like confronting her ex-husband. And then like at some point she remembers a custom cufflink she remembered finding in the room she woke up in that one time and starts to wonder and suspect if maybe Sang Qi was the guy cuz he does have those kinds of things. And she like looks at the cufflink she has that she took from the room as evidence, but she has to do a direct comparison. He like uses GPS to find her mansion prison and tries to take back his phone and Zhi gets like even more suspicious that he is the guy cuz for some reason he knows how the balcony door at the place works even though it has a weird af lock, and they have witty banter and somehow he ends up staying over and she tries to sneak in his room at night to check out his cufflink but he catches her. And like hot damn, so much intrigue. After like a ton of frustration with trying to interrogate everyone around her about who the baby Daddy is she’s just like f it, I’m not going to be your baby incubator and tries to go get an abortion (I would’ve gone way sooner) and before they can start the procedure Sang Qi shows up and claims to be the Dad, and then afterward also takes care of her because she’s allergic to anesthetic. Since she knows who now they like stay together and stuff and she tries to question him about that night, but he actually has no memory of it either cuz he was super frickin’ drunk too. It’s just a lot of unanswered questions. And like since he’s supposedly the Dad, he tries to get closer to her, but she won’t let him really. There’s a lot of witty banter between them and like he even helps her out with her loser husband by getting him demoted. Over time they actually become fond of each other and like used to each other, and it’s really sweet. He actually is there for her and helps her on a number of occasions even though she doesn’t really trust him cuz of course he bought her right? But then little by little you see them really start to like each other and it seems like he might be more interested whereas Zhi is like more reserved because he’s her captor as far as she knows. But then just when you think that maybe they’ll get together, Qi disappears and then the process of him showing up you find out who the actual Dad is and a whole lot of family drama, and other drama where like you actually don’t know where Qi stands, and it like isn’t until like where I am that you find out he was actually upright the whole time. It’s so stressful but it’s so good.

There was a couple of times earlier one where there’s misunderstandings with other people, where I was like, dude, just tell the people your asshole husband sold you for money. I think they’d be more understanding of your situation if they knew.

And then like...for me, I like Qi and I came around to him after awhile, but like I suspected him and didn’t like him toward the beginning especially because he didn’t do or say anything that made him seem trustworthy. He never really lies except for one thing (about being the father), but also he like isn’t that truthful either, or rather, he doesn’t stop to actually explain himself properly which would have made Zhi not like freak out or mistrust him and would have made me not mistrust him. Like I shared a lot of Zhi’s fears because she was in an unfamiliar situation and being manipulated like a puppet by someone with money, and this guy claims to be the one that bought her like an object to be a baby incubator. I and the main character can’t respect that no matter how nice he is. If he admit he didn’t do it at the beginning it would have made all the difference. It’s a trek to find out who though. And at first even that guy sounds disgusting, but like where I am in the story maybe not? Like almost sympathetic.

The only one that I like really hate and disgusts me is her original husband. Like eww. He’s such a greedy asshole. And like later on you find out that actually he lied to her about how much he sold her for and it was actually more. What the actual fuck?! It wasn’t bad enough that you sold your wife for money, but you had to lie to her too about how much it was so you can hide the money from her? And for such a long frickin’ time he tried to coax her to come back and to not divorce him. What the actual hell? What kind of delusion is he living in?! But like also her original husband reminds me of someone I knew in real life when I was in uni. He was a friend of mine initially, but at some point he started making really uncomfortable jokes and it seemed like he liked me or something. I never viewed him that way, but we just hung out. And then at my uni because there was a huge rush to like try to figure out 2nd year housing, we arranged to do a co-ed roommate situation where like me and another girl and him and his friend would stay in apartment from our second year. To me that seemed normal cuz other friends of mine did that too because there’s only so many people you know and you have to try to snatch up and apply for apartments as soon as possible. There were long wait lines and I actually hadn’t thought about it until the last minute, so I didn’t see it as having much of a choice. But he started making cracks and fantasizing about neighbors and people misunderstanding and thinking we were married, which I didn’t find funny and how and why when there were other people we were living with too? It made me super uncomfortable and during the summer he was kind of like a stalker and tracking where I went so I just started avoiding him every chance I could. After awhile thinking about him made me feel physically ill. The next year after that my roommate decided to move out with two other girls into a different apartment (after unsuccessfully trying to make him leave). But the whole thing with how Zhi’s first husband was written totally reminded me of that guy. Especially with the lame excuses when confronted and stuff and not thinking and his unhealthy tie to his parents’ way of living.

That said, finding these stories are kind of like an unexpected comfort. I wish I could find someone as supportive as Sui-an or Qi. Especially when the men I’ve met in my life were just as bad as some of the other male characters or arguably worse. I’ve been bullied by the guys I fell for, I’ve liked some guys that were way too moody, I’ve had guys that liked me that were not creepy too, but I just wasn’t interested in them or the timing was just wrong, I’ve given up someone I really cared for because a mutual friend of ours crossed a line and then posthumously went kind of crazy from the grief, and I’ve met guys that were really fucking stupid and didn’t know how to act appropriately in a professional situation and actually sexually harassed and retaliated against me. I’m so tired and almost 4 years into living in Japan, I’m starting to realize that because of that last one, I think I gave up on my life because of trauma. Just hurt too many times, so don’t even think about love anymore cuz why bother? It took awhile for me to even be able to become a functioning human being again after the PTSD of harassment. I was really bad and freaking out because the guy that did it was so frickin’ stupid that he like wasn’t actually responsible enough to know the things he shouldn’t do and it was freaking me the hell out that he just didn’t know when he crossed a line. So I ran away to another country and tried to rebuild some semblance of a life for myself. Now my home country is a goddamn mess and I’d be in a worse position to go home, but at the same time, although my heart has healed enough to the point that I can function as a human. I am not at all motivated to look for anyone or let myself care for someone ever again. When I was younger I had so many dreams and really wanted a family. But now I am sad to say I have resigned myself to believing that that will probably never happen because I am apparently plagued by horrible people. I haven’t met horrible people since I’ve been in Japan, but I also don’t go out and talk to anyone other than co-workers and students because I’m busy and in my free time I want to introvert. It’d be kind of nice if I was lucky and had a kind of random chance like Yan Wen cuz like, I just can’t and don’t want to put up with low quality people.

That said, I was talking with my boss and co-worker the other day and we were discussing how China’s population problem with the bachelor society so there’s a lot of men but less available women to be their wife, so I was kind of wondering if that was also kind of how come so many modern day Chinese romance novels seem to involve a rich CEO. I suppose in China right now the chance that you could marry one is greater than anywhere else in the world because of the population problem, so maybe they’re trying to promote moving there and marrying them. LOL I’d be kind of suspicious of whether or not they’d be able to be like actually good husbands for real, but I suppose there probably is some sense of desperation.

And then because I ran out of chapters to read for today because I have to wait for them to translate more, I started another one about a Bossy Ghost Husband? It’s kind of creepy at the beginning, but the ghost husband thing has been something I was kind of curious about because you can marry the dead in China. But like for real I also wondered if youkai really are real or not and if you could unknowingly marry a youkai or something too, so basically it’s right up my alley too. And then also because my life is garbage I was like seriously thinking and wondering if it would actually be so bad to be single to the people who know you around you, but married actually to a ghost and have a ghost husband to go home to? Like would that actually be bad? I suppose in that same vein, it’s not much different from WoL having a secret relationship with Emet-Selch, but yeah.

Anyway, all of this gave me a lot to think about.

[lovesickvirus]

Obsessive losers where are you when I need you!

[mamayan]

“Reblog if your account is a safespace for ___”

NO. My account is a safespace for NO ONE. I hope whenever you see me post you are filled with FEAR. This is a DANGER SPACE.

[katelcorn]

this guy i used to talk to plays genshin impact and he said one of the characters reminds him of me. so i asked why and he told me a little bit about genshin's lore then i was like, "WTF she is actually so me."

there was a time kasi when we got obsessed with typology kasi i made him take a personality test once and he found it cool so i made him take more haahahaha pero pinaka nagstuck sakanya yung mbti tapos ewan ko inaral niya yata yung infp kaya hanggang sa games naalala niya ko lol

anyway!!! i was scrolling through vrchat's launchpad randomly when i saw this world on genshin impact's avatars and stuff tapos naalala ko rin siya so i thought why not check it out and nakita ko si fischl!! i set her as my avatar kasi cute nmn siya even tho i only ever played genshin for 11 minutes hahahahaha nag-quit kagad ako tutorial palang lol

then my brother came home to me still playing vrc and he watched for a little while til he said, "ano ba yan ang panget naman ng buhay mo, te Min." i was like "bitch??? stfu" then i showed him this vrc world where most filipinos hangout called panaginip tapos there were no users around. HAHAHA there were like 2 pero nakapriv pa yata yung instance. sabi nya "grabe walang naglalaro" and i replied with "oo nga eh dati ang dami dyan lagi, siguro may buhay na sila ngayon. sana all" then the stupid mf just laughed to my face

LOLLLL totoo naman i really need to get a life T_T